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I finally got it After or whatever school I walked to get the supplies that I need to hang myself. During my music coach/tech was wondering. (She knows my issues kinda and she is going and went through it) I just said walking etc but now I have my stuff | self.SuicideWatch |
Meds make me feel like I can't breathe I started new meds and it feel like I can't breathe well. I know I can cause I was just at the doctors and my oxygen levels were perfect, my lungs sounded good, my heart and blood pressure were fine. But when I don't take it I get more anxiety attacks and I feel like I can't breat... | self.Anxiety |
I don’t really want to die, I just want my old life back I had years of a painful injury followed by a procedure that in my opinion deformed my body. I feel disgusted by the change to my body all the time. And I have lost the ability to do the things I loved. I used to be happy and active. Now I’m depressed, anxious, ... | self.SuicideWatch |
There's fatigue and then there is fatigue that probably only People on here can understand Holy shit its hard | self.Anxiety |
I feel like the most undesirable person in the world right and I can't do anything right. //WARING LONG POST!!! Sorry for the inconvenience \\\
I don't know what it is about me that people just absolutely hate. I try to be pleasant and smile. I used to have a mean frown and a friend told me before he knew me he though... | self.depression |
I feel like a failure. I have been going to school for what feels like a million years. I am a grown adult working toward a BA (I earned an AA) that I don’t even know what I’ll do with. I have been learning how to be a student throughout the whole process and yet I am always treading water. What began as a quest to kee... | self.offmychest |
Having fun with a person Still unsure if the person even likes me... | self.depression |
Suicide Time So, this may be long but oh well.
Tonight, I read an article that brought up memories about my cousin molesting me when I was 8. I can't deal with that.
I have Endometriosis and have been in severe pain for awhile now. I am on narcotics and anti nausea pills to help. I have a surgery in 1 week that shoul... | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel normal most of the time but then every few months i get in a mood swing and get depressed for a few days and then go back to normal [deleted] | self.depression |
The last time I felt genuinely, truly happy was when I was in a romantic relationship. [deleted] | self.depression |
Mild sense of panic every few hours? So since I’ve been home for winter break, every so often each day (mainly at night when trying to sleep), I’ll have a sudden feeling of impending doom or like I’m really alone in the world and something bad is going to happen to me. My heart races (I already have tachycardia) and I ... | self.Anxiety |
Can I use my SAD lamp all day long? I've suffered from pretty bad seasonal depression for the last five years since moving to the UK, but this year it's much worse than usual.
The typical instructions are to sit in front of it in the morning for about 30 - 60 mins. However, is there any reason why I shouldn't sit in ... | self.depression |
Today is my birthday. Today is my birthday. It started off so well, I woke up on time and I did homework I slept through the night before, I finished and I wasn’t late. My mom said happy birthday to me before I left, a bunch of other people had said so and hugged me and all these nice things throughout the day. I felt ... | self.depression |
I think my boyfriend is going to break up with me. I'm so scared. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Just need feedback Feel like a dog chasing their own tail. I acknowledged that I’ve been depressed since August. I’m in so much pain and don’t feel like I can pull out of it.
Everyday it’s work, home, sleep, then repeat.
I’m 49 years old, been married to a women that I do truly love for 15 years, and have a 12 year old... | self.bipolar |
Bored of literally everything Lately over the past couple months I have been getting bored of literally everything. I'll start something and then get bored of it in a couple minutes. I'll buy a new game and get bored of it in an hour or two. I'm a musician and love making music but lately I've just been getting bored o... | self.depression |
Show off your medication bags/pill containers! Where do you keep all your pill bottles! Looking for suggestions on how to travel with them, but be discreet | self.bipolar |
I think I pushed away one of my only friends tonight Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. I hate who I am | self.bipolar |
I’m sorry To mom and dad,
I’m sorry I messed everything up, I’m sorry I ruined my whole entire life, I’m sorry I’m not the perfect little child you want me to be, I’m sorry my grades suck, and I have to go to summer school and “ruin your summer” I’m sorry I’m the stupidest human alive, I’m sorry I’m your biggest scre... | self.depression |
Why should I bother to keep living? I'm male, 27, from Switzerland. I've quit university. I'm on my 4th job in five years. Since 1.5 years I'm on meds and in treatment. I can't remember the times I was "normal", I only know it was in my childhood until I was about 13.
Since then, it has been going slowly but steadily ... | self.depression |
as hard anyone hates me i just wanna disappear my pain is not going away yeah please i just wish i had guts to killmyself please somebody out there put me out of misery | self.depression |
About to end it I've never felt happy being alive but for the first time in a long while I feel relieved. Hope you guys do better than I will cos my time is up. Later guys :) | self.depression |
Why should I be alive if I'm unfit for life? [removed] | self.SuicideWatch |
Feeling emotionally raw Whenever a friend asks how I really am, saying how I don't have to be alone, or just talking to me about my depression I always end up crying. I just cant contain it.
Is this a fairly normal occurrence? Its rather shameful isnt it?
It seems the only thing I can feel apart from dullness is an a... | self.depression |
i'm playing with a stomach flu grenade right now, i'm all flu-ed up right now, and it feels like i have a massive fart on deck. i know, what's coming, but part of me thinks it's just an innocent fart. common sense tells me to get the fuck up, but this blanket is just so warm. | self.offmychest |
Even when I'm feeling good I constantly think about suicide [deleted] | self.depression |
who else worries when someone great starts having feelings for you? (long) It's been really bothering lately. I'm 19 and only dealt w type 1 Bipolar since I was 17 so I keep noticing more and more hold backs this illness holds. Not sure if stability exists quite yet...Besides few close friends and all the people that w... | self.bipolar |
Has anyone ever tried hypnotherapy to understand what causes them anxiety? I can’t pinpoint what’s causing my anxiety. I feel like crying 24/7, finally cried in the car a little.
My brain won’t shut off. | self.Anxiety |
Ruined best potential Relationship Hey! So I've been a sufferer of a relationship anxiety that prevents me from getting any dates ever. I totally freak out and become a different person whenever I get super anxious, especially when I think the guy I like doesn't like me back. (I'm gay). I use to have this issue daily b... | self.Anxiety |
I found out that the SuicideHotline has a queue I feel like I can't talk to anybody about this. To sum it up, I recently ruined my chances with the girl of my dreams and learned I'm just a terrible person. I hate living with this idea that i'm always going to be like this. I'm posting this is a Starbucks because I know... | self.SuicideWatch |
Lithium Carbonate side effects still remain after I went off-has anyone else had this? I was recently diagnosed with bipolar and was prescribed lithium carbonate (200mg). I tried it for a week but the side effects were too bad for me to function properly. Dizziness, nausea, dry mouth, appetite loss and really bad bloat... | self.bipolar |
Going to doctor on Tuesday to ask about possibility of me having bipolar [deleted] | self.bipolar |
I just can't anymore. I'm doing it today. I decided to give my gun to my cousin and have it out of my house I'm at my his house right now typing this as he takes me gun from me. I've decided that I want to live and beat this depression and having the gun in my house doesn't help me with my suicidal thoughts. I've had a... | self.SuicideWatch |
Just when you think you got it figured out bipolar blindsides you with a curveball I had a bad depressive episode (suicidal and can’t look passed *now*, no positives and only negatives that are 20x worse than they actually are) two days ago. Lasted three or four hours before it lightened up. That’s not new, if anythi... | self.bipolar |
Is this cheating? Should I care? This girl and I had sex a couple of times a few months ago, but then we stopped. It just happened a couple of days but then we stopped as we don't have that much sexual compatibility but we remained as friends and we still have dinner at my home with another mutual friend from time to t... | self.offmychest |
help ~ toxic friend making me constantly anxious but I don’t know how to tell her Hi everyone, I’ve been really struggling lately with my anxiety and I realized it’s partly due to my environment. The friend in question always complains about me and everything that happens to her. She constantly talks about herself and ... | self.Anxiety |
Made two attempts in the last week, long backstory [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
just got out of the hospital for suicide ideation and now the thoughts are back. Edited.
I've been inpatient four times. I underwent a shit-ton of trauma, have depression and ptsd and anxiety, lala, the works.
anyway, i was just inpatient for a week the fifth time(the first time ideation didnt' result in a quick sho... | self.SuicideWatch |
My New General Practitioner Suggested Medication within 20 Minutes CN: medications, suicidal thoughts, sex/orgasm (non-explicit)
I’d been on Lexipro from 14-18, which made me feel just meh all the time (only very strong emotions broke through), but kept the suicidal thoughts at bay. Eventually I switched to ViiBryd (u... | self.Anxiety |
New job opportunity So I’ve got an interview coming up this weekend and if all goes well I’ll be moving from the U.K. to Japan for a year. Trouble is I have panic attacks from leaving my room and even the thought of going to the interview is making me feel sick! How in the hell will I be able to cope, I keep imagining ... | self.Anxiety |
When my job fucks me over I raise their water bill I work for a company that bathes animals, the job itself is wonderful but the company doesn’t care about the employees. They lowered our pay, made it harder for us to reach commission tiers, make us work every holiday except Christmas Day, they will write you up if you... | self.offmychest |
I'm so low I don't see a way out. ( trigger warning ) [deleted] | self.bipolar |
I been thinking of suicide for an entire month now [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Wish college days lasted forever The college lifestyle is something I’ll never get back. I miss it too damn much.. life after just isn’t as fun.
Life is just boring now. | self.offmychest |
Dad I HATE YOU You are the only person that I truly hate.
I know you are scared of what I can tell you, that's why you don't want to reach me now.
You made me like this, remember?
| self.offmychest |
I'm so tired My sleep cycle is broken and I wake up wanting to cry and omit at the same time. Wish me well. | self.depression |
To the guy who got an internship at a prestigious engineering company because his daddy is an owner.. FUCK YOU.
DON'T SIT THERE AND TELL ME WHAT I SHOULD BE DOING IN ORDER TO GET AN INTERNSHIP WHEN YOU WERE BORN INTO THE RIGHT FUCKING FAMILY.
FUCK YOU.
Edit: to people inquiring about my set of skills, engineering st... | self.offmychest |
You think you’re in a good relationship until she tells you she doesn’t love you anymore, and that she doesn’t miss you when you’re gone. I thought it was a healthy relationship. I knew we might break up when we both finish uni because we will go our separate ways with different jobs, but I never expected her to also s... | self.depression |
I know suicide is the only way but I just can't seem to have the nerve to do it. [deleted] | self.depression |
From now on, I’ll eat one meal every 48 hours, as opposed to every 24 I just finished cleaning my teeth and, at this point, I find it so excruciating that I’d much rather go without it for as long as possible. 48 hours will go fine as I don’t really get all that hungry. I could probably go more than that as well. If it... | self.offmychest |
I don’t know about you guys but I got anxiety out the wazoo [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Does anyone else doesn't make a post here because you think that what you're about to post is lame/not good enough? I was about to make a post about how tomorrow is my birthday but I just want to die and I just stopped because I realized how lame my problems are in comparison with other people problems here and my post... | self.depression |
My job brings no meaning to my life and I hate where I am right now. I’m still so young. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I find it amazing how easy it is to make myself sad I can just enjoy myself at a party until a thought hits me and I suddenly lose all life in myself. I can be on Cloud 9 until some insignificant thing just makes me feel worthless. I hate it. I hate being sad all the time. I'm trying to just stay positive but things ar... | self.depression |
Everyone describes me as a chill person I don’t really have any friends but I’ve had a few fwb’s in the past year or so and they all tell me how easy I am to get along with. My last relationship described me as needy, high-maintenance, controlling, etc. basically whatever negative word you could use to describe in a re... | self.bipolar |
I wish my family would disown my brother My brother refused to come home for the holidays on the basis that my parents were "too hard on him," growing up and he didn't want to feel any pressure from them. They were devastated, crying, racking their brains for what they might have done to him, and it was a very sad Chri... | self.offmychest |
I woke up this morning with health anxiety through the roof [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Surviving Beauty School with Bipolar 1 The hardest part of anything is showing up. I had to learn to take care of my appearances with manic highs and lows. Those 1500 hours taught me more about myself than hair, electricity, chemistry, & anatomy. It wasn't even my idea to do it, but my mother's. I kicked ass at the... | self.bipolar |
what do I do when all my friends are fake? All my friends are fake. A month ago I had none and all I wanted was some friends but now I have them but nobody ever invites me anywhere or talks to me outside of lunch. It feels just like when I had no friends, and I think it's basically the same thing. What can I tell mysel... | self.depression |
My life sucks... My name is Alex, and I'm 29. I've been an illegal immigrant in Spain for about 11 years. Somehow I manage to work my life out without any papers. Working a day here another day there, and so on.
Since little I was good whit computers, and I spend my nights on the internet looking to make some money s... | self.depression |
I feel completely hopeless I'm really struggling at college, I've gotten to the point where some days i just stay in bed all day and miss class. Football practice is the only reason I leave my dorm and even that sucks. I'm insanely lonely I try to make friends by joining clubs and volunteering but that does not really ... | self.depression |
I used the "flooding" technique for panic attacks and I fainted ... three times. I have social anxiety in certain settings. I had no idea it was called flooding but it's basically what I vowed to do from 19yrs old. Put yourself out there. Force it. Over and over until you get used to it. Disregard the consequences. ... | self.Anxiety |
I wrote an essay abput living with anxiety. i hope it's okay to share it with you all. Edit: isn't it just nice that I flub up the title
Anxiety is a health issue that’s become more prominent lately, something that this new age of “snowflakes” has wrought on the world. Back in the day, it would’ve been brushed aside a... | self.Anxiety |
sick of getting beaten Being a kindhearted person no longer does anything for me. It merely opens the door for manipulation and advantage so wide that anyone can walk through. How long can you go taking the higher ground before you can’t even reach it anymore? My last climb there left me with buckled legs, I felt every... | self.offmychest |
Tapering off lamictal? Ive been taking 1x100mg Lamictal tablets once daily for the past few months. Last week I went to see a new psychiatrist. He prescribed me 25mg Lamictal tablets. He told me to take 75mg for one week. Then 50mg for the second week. The 25mg the third week. Basically taper me off the Lamictal.
Lami... | self.bipolar |
Need help/advise: How can I get my f*g ass up to clean up my mess? [deleted] | self.depression |
I'm afraid of everything I am literally afraid of everything. I am having really bad health anxiety and i have no idea how to cope.
I have a ridiculous fear of dying, having a heart attack, and throwing up.
As an 18 year old, i shouldn't be laying in bed wondering if I'm going to wake up tomorrow morning. and I KNOW ... | self.Anxiety |
I'm such a fucking idiot jesus christ. Every fucking social interaction and decision I make is just pure fucking moronic. Jesus god damn christ. | self.depression |
Fuck money I'm in debt for 100 dollars for schooling. Fuck, I got no money or anything. Im starving and shit. Fuck life. Can't find a good job or shit. Im about to buy a rope tomorrow, fuck this shit. | self.SuicideWatch |
Seeing a therapist and faced with a hard choice. Hey guys, this is my first post to this subreddit. Basically, I've been struggling with depression for a long time but it's impacting my life more and more and seems to be making things much worse for me as I go on. I decided to get therapy, and my workplace EAP covers 5... | self.depression |
Never thought i'd post here but here is it i guess [deleted] | self.depression |
She was one of tthe best things that ever happened to me A few hours ago i fucked up if I could take it all back I would,I pushed her away just like I push all over relationships,I tried so fucking hard to actually make this one work and I couldn't, I know people are always saying about the one that got away I always ... | self.offmychest |
Getting worse (despite taking meds) I’ve been feeling like shit lately, mentally. Like I’m brain dead and just withering inside. It’s kind of scary. Going to work is unbearable. It’s like this something is stopping me from breathing and numbing me completely. And I just don’t know what to do anymore. This isn’t the rea... | self.depression |
I'm thinking of ending my life at aged 28 Hello there. I'm Martell Nelson, recently turned 28 and I got something for you all.
I haven't been doing well at all in my life and felt like a cursed person who wanted to help people yet never get properly helped back in return and tired of living.
I want to die so badly.
... | self.SuicideWatch |
I want to change something in my life but feeling trapped Hi guys, first time here (I mean I've just joined reddit and this was my first subreddit). I'm having anxiety (well that's what my doctor said) for more than an year. I remember myself years earlier and I miss that me back in the time. Because of anxiety I've qu... | self.Anxiety |
I just figured out another piece. Decades of depression. Hereditary.
It's like a puzzle I've been putting together all my life long.
I just figured out another one. During this most recent episode, I just realized that I don't have an imagination. In the past, I could at least disassociate myself from the reality ... | self.depression |
First day back in outpatient therapy after taking 1 year off I have a bad habit of once I feel better, I stop going to therapy until it gets bad once again. Today is my first session since one year ago. Admittedly, I waited again until it once again hit a breaking point of panic attacks in public settings.
Here's to h... | self.Anxiety |
Can't stop thinking about this girl, but I can't act on my feelings [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Future Over (College) ? I've been in college for a year and a half now and already received an "F" Grade and I'm on my way to receiving two "D's" from this semester and the sad part is it's community college. I plan on retaking them but I doubt it will help as the first grades will still be on my transcript whenever I ... | self.offmychest |
Do you ever feel like people just simply don't like you? Or...no? A lot of the time I feel like everyone is popular and I'm just sorta existing. I don't get invited to work things, or dinner parties, or any of the normal stuff I think I'm supposed to do. Do you feel that way and what do you do? | self.bipolar |
I Am At The Precipice, But I Find Myself Unable To Cross My method is there before me, but I could not find it in myself to actually employ it. I know I need help, but I can't talk to my friends without them telling me that I need to get hospitalized for my own good.
Here are mis razones para suicidarme:
(1) There... | self.SuicideWatch |
I go for a psych eval on friday. Im scared. Nothing to out of the ordinary. Im just sad alot with sudden and extreme mood swings and no friends. My whole life has been like this. I rarely have a friend last longer than 6 months and have never been able to figure out why. Theres usually not a fight or a disagreement. Ju... | self.offmychest |
I can't anymore There's so much I want to do in life. I have great ambitions. I also have bipolar disorder and it's destroying me. This semester in college has been so hard. I'm failing my psychology class because I just couldn't find the motivation to go. I am in so much mental pain and meds aren't making it better. T... | self.SuicideWatch |
New Year, Separate Paths
Last week as my Love sat 10 time zones away, I felt a sinking and severing feeling in my chest that I could not understand. Today, I realized what it meant and needed to head its call.
I ended my 3 year relationship today despite being still so in love with my boyfriend.
I've tended to be ... | self.offmychest |
Getting help I'm conflicted on getting help. I find it hard to ask for help and open up. I've been experiencing for 2 years and I so how much damage it cost to myself. I started to think about getting help but I don't want to be a financial burden to my parent. | self.depression |
45 is long enough I've lived a long time and my body is failing me. My wife died back in 07 and a few months ago my best friend died. I got hooked on xanax and when I try to stop, withdrawl kills me. I'm going to end it next week but I want to know what are some things to do beforehand? | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm making videos on bipolar, what topics do you want me to cover? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
I don't want to kill myself and I probably won't but I'm sure that is the only solution [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
A Right To Die Last night I just caved in. I started harming myself and breaking down internally.
Please don't get me wrong, I used to love living. Despite all the suicide attempts and illnesses etc, living was still something good. But I am afflicted with conditions that are slowly eroding my capability to live.
M... | self.SuicideWatch |
This is what I think of my self at times [deleted] | self.depression |
I am basically dead inside I don't even know what to say anymore. My life is complete garbage. A dumpster fire I happily set myself. I haven't really been feeling any emotions lately and ignored just about everyone all week. I am so tired of being berated from all sides and I want to just to dive off a bridge most of t... | self.depression |
I found some pics of me when I was happy... I found them while checking old hard disks...
man it hurts seeing them. Thinking how much time has passed, how many years lost. Without a fucking reason.
10 years.
It hurts. Deeply.
The moment I saw them I felt so empty, like my body had only the skin and nothing el... | self.depression |
My message Just a reminder to myself that I did all I could to cure my depression. No matter what I do I always feel the same way and experience the same psychological pain. I had a depression since I was 14 and I am 21 now. I can't do anything to feel happy or normal. I tried physical activity, medication and therapy ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Why is everyone so afraid of suicide and death? Hello. I've had depression and suicidal ideation for years now. I was diagnosed with depression at a young age and have had suicidal thoughts daily since I was around 9 or 10.
Depression seems to just be something I will always live with; I don't remember a time it wasn... | self.SuicideWatch |
My life has been filled to the brim with sexual abuse. I want to die. [removed] | self.SuicideWatch |
I️ was physically assaulted in front of my HR director and nothing was done. So this is obviously a throwaway for various reasons as I, of course, have to hide my identity.
To give some background: 2 years ago I was an assistant for a company, this assistant worked with helping plan events for the company get-togethe... | self.offmychest |
My uncle's 52 and he's been in prison since he was 18 for possession of marijuana I just wanted to get this off my chest my uncle was the smartest kid he got two strikes one being possession of marijuana the others non violent crimes. His third strike was a combination with his second but they waited until we has 18 to... | self.offmychest |
How do you prepare for the crash? As I'm starting to notice the pattern in my highs and lows, I'd like to get some insite on how others deal with their crash.
Can you tell when you're starting to fall into a low?
How do you cope with the low?
Do you have a special person you lean on when you feel you're entering ... | self.bipolar |
Anxiety and work history r/anxiety, I need your help.
This week I applied for a postgraduate program at my university. In doing so, they ask for a letter of recommendation and a cirriculum vitae. I briefly considered not applying at all because my response to problems is avoidance, but I went through with it. I'm grow... | self.Anxiety |
When hard work doesn't pay off... I'll graduating high school this year, and for the past few months, I have been busting my ass to earn the grades to get into university. I study between 5-7 hours a night. I start all my assignments long before the due date. I use my weekends to plan for the next week. I don't procras... | self.offmychest |
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