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I wish I wanted friends. I've dealt with depression and social anxiety for the vast majority of my life. I've also had a shit ton of health issues to contend with. These two issues combined have made making and keeping friends incredibly difficult. At this point I work a full time job and that eats up all my energy. My... | self.offmychest |
Is this subreddit actually helpful? Curious as to this? I get in a bitter angry mood and come here. Then I see everyone else suffering the same thing and I get even more bitter and angry. Almost like kindling to an already burning fire. | self.depression |
I hate my brother!!! Hes come back for the holidays. As soon as he walked through the door he was kicking off.
Hes been back home 2 days now and is driving me mental. My depression actualy got better after he left now its all come back.
He is the rudest most selfish, disrespectful asshole that ive ever met, pure evil... | self.offmychest |
The not-so-great side of having parents who are immigrants We're all familiar with the idea of parents moving to a different country with a nothing but a couple of suitcases, not knowing the language or having any connections, having to work bottom-of-the-barrel labour jobs that left them worn and aching every day; all... | self.offmychest |
Officially joining this forum White Male age 25
Ex Alcoholic/Heroin Addict (clean 4 yrs)
Unemployed 3 years (living with parents)
No friends (high school friends dropped me one by one)
No girlfriend
Poor relationship with nuclear family (dad, brother)
No hobbies interests
Severe Anhedonia
Come off as a creep
... | self.depression |
Experience with Zoloft I've had anxiety fror years and decided to finally decided to do something about it as it's been worse recently. My doctor gave me Zoloft today and I'm nervous about the side effects. I'm wondering what everyone elses experience with it is? | self.Anxiety |
That's it, I feel totally empty on the inside because I don't have any motivation to do anything at all Honestly, I do nothing at all. I don't have the motivation to do anything. I mean, I only watch YouTube all the day long. I don't know what I want to achieve in my life, I mean I go to university (due to special circ... | self.depression |
If I attempt Suicide as a Jane doe can I receive free help? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Do bad people deserve to die? I don't know, I've been thinking about what I've done in the past and I've just about come to terms that I'm a bad person, and that I don't think I deserve to live anymore. I've molested two my best friends a couple nights when I was fucked up and it's been a constant feeling of regret I'v... | self.depression |
why am I trying? The way I'm going I won't achieve anything in life. Even when I try to change I can't , and everything has been terrible for a year now. It's like I'm just killing myself but slowly.
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GO TO YOUR COLLEGE DISABILITY OFFICE PLEASE Hi. So I am a senior in college and it took me so many years to go to the disability office due to late diagnosis. I wish I had entered my college career with these resources. I have gotten an individualized testing room and you can really see the difference between my first ... | self.bipolar |
what happened? I am obsessing over this and I am consumed by hatred.
Today I envisioned seeing you on the subway platform and attacking you.
When I explore the reasons I hate you, I realize I was rejected by you and then I have to grapple with whether or not I deserved to be rejected. I hate you because you gave up o... | self.offmychest |
What word or phrase do you use to describe your mental illness (especially if you have more than one) I’m finding the term “mental ILLNESS” to be stigmatizing so I started using “mental condition” Just looking for something a bit more idk, neutral? Less offensive. | self.bipolar |
Does anyone else "live inside their head"? Hi, this is my first ever post.
I feel like I'm living in my head 99% of the time. I catch myself forming conversations in my head between me and other people. It's pretty obvious because my lips move and I tend to smile when this happens. (A couple of my friends have pointe... | self.depression |
My mom cried because of Christmas and how broken our family is. I felt so helpless and cried too. She deserves better, I feel so guilty I feel like shit. My mom cried this morning, I asked her what's wrong and she said "its ok". But I know the reason, she has terrible children, one is in jail and the other one is a mas... | self.depression |
Has anyone ever gone to an anxiety workshop? My university offers free drop in workshops for anxiety and I'm considering going to one. I was just wondering if anyone had gone to one before and what their experience with it was like? I also regularly see a therapist, if that's relevant. | self.Anxiety |
It's my bday and I just feel I'm Darkness [deleted] | self.depression |
My journey with depersonalization, depression, and HPPD Hello folks. I wasn't sure where to post this, but I figure this subreddit was as good as any. This story branches from all vantage points both high and low. Successes and defeats. Revelations and hopelessness.
I'll start at the beginning. The fresh age of 18. A... | self.depression |
I self harmed today for the first time in a while. [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Not Sure Where to Begin From the beginning, I suppose. I'm 22, highly intelligent, and completely lost.
I've always felt like a stranger to everyone. I think better than I act. I was always a social outcast, my parents were criminals. My academic history is wrought with a lack of trying, a complete distance from it, b... | self.Anxiety |
Bad week Finals week I feel like my depression is seeping back into my life. I can't help dwelling on all the negatives even after I recognize them as ANTs. I got two wrong on my physics final, I should be happy but all I can think of what were the two I got wrong. Even then it's overshadowed by my G.I.S. and minera... | self.depression |
What does it feel like to be happy for more than 5 minutes? I'm an empty guy surrounded by an abusive dad. I don't even remember the last time I actually felt prolonged happiness. Well, I guess I must turn to Buddhism: *"All living beings must endure suffering."* | self.depression |
I relapsed into cutting again. I fucked up, I fucked up again I ruined my chance. I moved for school for a fresh start and I fucked up my friend group I made here like I always do and now only one of them will talk to me its putting a strain on him though to balance friendships I just can't. He doesn't deserve to be dr... | self.SuicideWatch |
Has adderall caused anxity for anyone My GAD has never been too bad. Like i get worried about things every now an then. But i just started taking adderall for my ADHD last semester i decided to try and stop taking adderall after taking it for 10 years and i just had a panic attack, (please note that it was very quick, ... | self.Anxiety |
I feel like killing myself is the only way I will find happiness. | self.SuicideWatch |
today was my birthday and i deactivated my facebook and not a single one of my friends knew lol :( | self.depression |
How to still be an artist when you have depression? [deleted] | self.depression |
I feel totally depressed every time I do something good/that should benefit my recovery [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I JUST WANT TO FUCKING ICE SKATE We set a date for it but you had other plans to entertain at the last few seconds so I had to compromise tho excitement is too much to handle, I tried to understand. Then we set another time for it but you got sick. I honestly was not looking forward to ice skating after that but you pr... | self.offmychest |
Feel out of control right now, what is this? Long post alert! Sorry in advance, just need to get it all out.
44 year old male, married, 3 young kids of school age, recently experiencing major anxiety problems, and a general fear and disinterest of life in general. Previously I have been a totally confident in-control... | self.Anxiety |
Yeah, there's billions of women in this world, but you only meet five candidates in a lifetime. [deleted] | self.depression |
Shall I kill myself? Because I am already dead inside... I know how almost all of you that is if anyone even replies at all, will say. Oh no life is so precious and don’t do it, everything will be OK at the end... well sadly it did not..
I am not sure how this works, because I don’t know from where to begin, my troub... | self.SuicideWatch |
My mum saw my cuts for the first time yesterday It broke her heart a little. Also broke mine even more. | self.depression |
Mania vs depression I enjoy being manic sometimes bc I’m never tired and I feel like I can get everything done, I love being full of life. Depression shuts me down completely; I’ve been depressed for so long that it now becomes apathy, which is worse. I have no energy and I sleep a huge part of the day and can literall... | self.bipolar |
Why choose to live? [spoiler] Hello. I’m recently new to this subreddit. I’ve commented here and there but mostly lurked. From what I’ve seen, people here are very friendly and genuinely want to help or give constructive criticism/thoughts etc.
I’d like to hear your all’s thoughts on why you choose to live. I used to... | self.bipolar |
I need help my brother hung himself 2 months ago due to his anxiety and depression and I have been unable to properly cope with it. Tonight my girlfriend of 4 years proceeded to berate me for being an alcoholic in front of her family and threatened to leave me.
Luckily I had family near by. I am sitting in their livin... | self.SuicideWatch |
My brother was just diagnosed. Best way to help? My brother was admitted to a inpatient facility a week ago and he gets out soon. I've been visiting him and he seems a lot better. The medicine they have him on he said has already stopped intrusive thoughts. Overall its been a positive visit.
When hes out he might com... | self.bipolar |
The little things I was on a crisis chat. The volunteer said something that made me realize the pointlessness of it all. I was gonna come here and write some frantic message about how nothing is working, but I'm calm now. I see now that killing myself is the only way out. I know it will be hard to do as I already g... | self.SuicideWatch |
Advice for me, new life Hello,
I have decided to fight my anxiety, but I do not do anything in the meantime. I think I know why I have it. From time to time things have changed a lot, I made a lot of mistakes. I was two years at home and just played games, my parents left me home alone. Then I somehow got together and ... | self.Anxiety |
Marrying my childhood sweetheart today! I feel grateful and content. Very very nervous. I am 26 and I met my fiance in high school 11 years ago. We have been through a lot together and have extreme degree of comfort with each other. We are from India and we are from different cultural backgrounds and language so it has... | self.offmychest |
Lonely new years I thought I was okay I thought it was all just episodes but fuck this too much. It's new years, I'm supposed to celebrate with friends but all fucking alone. My dad had to call just to make sure someone told me happy New Year's. I'd be able to at least stomach but I check Snapchat and see "people who m... | self.depression |
What does everyone here usually do in a day? (specifically, those not in school or working?) Failed first semester and about to fail second semester..The majority of my overwhelming anxiety stems from the thought of all that money going down the drain day by day, second by second as I hole up in my room petrified by th... | self.depression |
I Passed My Driving Test! I know these posts have been made hundreds of times but I feel so relieved and proud of myself to have finally passed and not let my anxiety fail me again. The 6 panic attacks and vomit this morning was worth it. | self.Anxiety |
What if I told you that I wasn't ok? That whenever you asked how I was doing, I would lie and say that I was fine, Just so you wouldn't worry or answer your questions on why and what not. Because I'm not really ok, if anything I'm far from it. I don't remember that last time I was. Probably doesn't help that I don't kn... | self.offmychest |
I wish I knew how to make you understand that you hurt me. How you did it and why it hurt me. I broke up with a long-term and long-distance boyfriend this summer. He no longer prioritized our relationship in the same way, and it was making me feel awful. He recognized that things had changed. He both seemed to think I ... | self.offmychest |
When I was 12 I tried to kill myself. I’m 15 now and I’m not doing any better, and I fear I’ll be forced to do something drastic soon. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I find this subreddit to be very supporting/helpful during my low times (also post about another thing if you'd like to read) So recently i've been having a lot of panic attacks, terrible anxiety (afraid to leave the house, afraid i'll get hurt, if i get on a bus it will crash) so I made another appointment with my pdo... | self.bipolar |
I have decided life isn't worth it anymore. I want to poison myself and go silently by the beach. I have posted here two times before and never went through with it. I know have found a way to go and I'm making preparations to kill myself. I have been insulted on so many levels. Peope like to deny mental illness as a r... | self.SuicideWatch |
What motivates/inspires you to become the best and try to improve everyday? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Finding a job when depressed is impossible. Finding new job I stressful by its nature for anybody. But when you depressed it gets million times harder. Fact of not haveing no job a specially if you have absolutely no savings is hard. Amounts of stress are incredible and thoughts spiralling arround head aren't marking i... | self.bipolar |
Getting Frustrated With My Therapist I've been seeing her for about 2.5 months, and I feel like things have taken a turn for the worse lately. I just feel like she's really bad at steering the session when I don't know where to take things.
Like, the last therapist I had, our sessions did have the occasional silence, ... | self.depression |
Have any of you have ever start feeling like if you suddenly fell while walking you could just.. stay there? Like just on the floor not getting up just laying there weather is on campus or the sidewalk or anywhere I just had this thought today | self.depression |
Help me understand friend that doesn't want to get out of depression My best friend (who knows I have a massive crush on her, but that's another story) has recently told me about her depression and I just keep thinking constantly about it. I've known since we met that she wasn't happy most of the time, since we are com... | self.depression |
Is it possible to deal with my girlfriend's lack of empathy Sometimes her behavior can frustrate the crap out of me. I am dealing with serious issues in my life and she can't even acknowledge them. I suffer from depression and the way she acts like that sometimes makes me even more upset...I don't see a point talking a... | self.depression |
Has anyone taken invega in pill form? My psychiatrist brought up the possibility of going on Invega. I'm hesitant bordering on total opposition (for reasons I can talk about). But it shocked me, and has shocked others I've talked to.
One of the reasons is that this drug is largely prescribed as depot injection. That's... | self.bipolar |
Any Happy Stories? Anyone out there who was suffering from depression but managed to change things around?
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Manic Leaning bipolar person seems Depressed leaning bipolar person Is this a thing! Is it just me or do I attract other bipolar folks who are just more depressed than me? | self.bipolar |
Anxiety/fear Um, hi,
I'm not really sure what to do anymore.
I just get random anxiety (or fear?) leading to chest tightness and trouble with breathing, it used to be just once in a month or so but now its pretty much everyday for past 4 weeks, sometimes more times a day, getting a bit more painful. But what troubles... | self.Anxiety |
Withdrawal symptoms without change in meds Hi all.
I'll keep this simple.
Diabetic. On metformin, insulin and Victoza.
BP. On prestiq, valproic acid and lamotagine.
Been having brain zaps and wooshy dizzy spells the last 48 hours.
No change in my meds.
The only change I can think of is a reduction in caffin... | self.bipolar |
I fucked up. Oh jeez, I fell for some dumb elaborate setup plan that leads to being blackmailed (or more like a cause and effect kind of deal). I don't know what to do. I had kept going with it, even though I had reasonable suspicions and enough evidence to disprove everything. But no, I have an issue with self control... | self.offmychest |
Im tired of this anxiety chest tightness, has lasted for 20 years. It feels like i have been picked up by a giant hand, impaled on a giant fishhook, and just left dangling, for most of my life, 44 now.
another way i describe it is ive just been impaled by a spear and hung on a spit(think cooking pigs in hawaii or some... | self.Anxiety |
Help I feel like I'm dysfunctional. I feel like I'm pathetic, a loser, a coward, and an idiot. Most of all, I feel helpless and hopeless. My mind is racing with these thoughts and I have no one to talk to. My therapist is out of town for the holidays, and I don't have friends or family I can confide in. I'm not suicida... | self.depression |
I feel bad that my boyfriend has to deal with me I feel like as time goes on my depression just keeps getting worse and it's gotten to the point where my moods are just constantly cycling. I'll be okay but something small will make me depressed or anxious and he can always tell when I get upset. He always asks me what'... | self.depression |
I am strongly considering suicide again, and I need some advice I'm very afraid of telling my therapist because I most likely will be hospitalized. I've posted here before, and someone always says, "oh just tell your therapist, it's fine," but I don't think they are considering the consequences of that.
I am a studen... | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel like a bad person.. I always seem to attract a certain type of girl. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
In a hole I can’t get out of on my own Ok sorry for the click bait title but it’s the best I could come up with. My situation is this. I’m 33 and no job no love life and next to zero hope of things improving. Good things (if you can even call them that)2 years and 7 months sober my own place and I have found a woman t... | self.SuicideWatch |
Home for the holidays...and maybe a bit longer [vent] I'm living with my parents for a little while in between job contracts in cities thousands of miles away from here so that I can spend the holidays here. I got back to town on Monday and originally my plan was to leave mid-late January to head out again, but in the ... | self.bipolar |
Fantastic profile of a musician living with severe depression. http://www.citypages.com/music/man-of-constant-sorrow-charlie-parrs-quiet-battle-to-stay-alive/442806393
This just really spoke to me, so I hope it speaks to some of you as well. It will never stop following us... all we can do is try to outrun it, I guess... | self.bipolar |
I had sex with a black woman..... If you are a black woman, Do not read this.
After alot of soul searching, I've come to realize that I'm not depressed becaused I payed a woman for sex. I'm depressed because I payed a black woman for sex, Even though I'm black myself,I would've never done it if I knew she were black f... | self.depression |
If you fake a smile they take you for granted [deleted] | self.depression |
32 soon. No power anymore. I will end my life before the end of the year. Sorry for the long text.
I think I have narrowed down the cause of my depression. I'm simply a guy who is afraid of everything, who surpresses his feelings, and most importantly, I am still HELPLESS like a child in life. If I want something, I ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Haven't found love and life just decided to kick me in the balls Growing up i have always been a hopeless romantic. All i wanted above all else was to fall in love and raise a family. I always had what my sister calls knight in shinning armor syndrome. Also huge nerd and not very outgoing so Aside from a few toxic rela... | self.offmychest |
Loop Firrst time posting here. Hope this makes sense.
Do you ever get that maddening feeling of déjà-vu? Well I feel it pretty much constant. Every day is beginning to blur because every day is the same. I wake up and try to push away thoughts so I can focus on getting ready. If I'm lucky I might eat or shower. Then t... | self.depression |
Everyday is a mundane nightmare This seems like a place to vent.
I'm been depressed for a long time, probably five years with some depressive tendencies going back to childhood. I can name maybe three or four times I've been really happy in that time and every one of them was followed by a huge crash maybe a few days ... | self.depression |
Experience with maintenance eCT I've had 29 ECT treatments: 20 (6, 6, then 8) MWF during 3 sep. IP stays and then 9 more weekly "maintenance" treatments following the last acute set. We decided to continue these maintenance treatments because ECT seemed to lose its efficacy pretty quickly after it was discontinued.
I... | self.bipolar |
I need help. Please I am bad on every level. Im overweight, im ugly, im. Not that smart and i can't even look at people without being upset. I need something, anything because i don't feel like i want to live Anymore but i am Am scared of Leaving. I need a sign that my life is gonna improve. It feels like a downward sp... | self.SuicideWatch |
Something that helps me Humans are social creatures. We have evolved and thrived because of social bonds. But this is where social anxiety/depression/loneliness derive from. It is easy to feel threatened (anxious) when we feel lonely, or feel like we made a social blunder. It helps me to remember that I can survive wit... | self.depression |
Darkness. So much darkness. TW: Suicide, Sexual Assault, and Self-Harm
I'm in so much pain. I've been in so much pain. I don't understand how. I don't understand why. Oh how I wish I could go back to myself 10 months ago and stop this from ever escalating and turning into an issue. I can't live with myself. I weep for ... | self.SuicideWatch |
If it wasn't for alcohol, cigarettes and sugar I'd be long dead Just let me leave it here. I can imagine that is the case for many of us. | self.depression |
Waiting on Death's swift wings I'm a 28 year old male, 5'8", Hispanic, grew up in an average household. I've grown up feeling inferior my whole life. I struggled building relationships. I feel like I'm just occupying space. No fulfilling purpose whatsoever. From an outsider's perspective, I've got a really good job, wh... | self.depression |
I don't know. I don't know. I never had anyone, everyone left and it was not my fault apparently. But I know it is. I'm not good. But now, someone is hurt because of me. So badly hurt. And I cut them to their core without even trying, I tried to be nice but I'm not. I'm just not a good person at my core. That's all. | self.SuicideWatch |
Has anyone ever felt like you're stuck in a perpetual loop? Starts out with a period of time with bad depression/anxiety. Then you wake up one day and tell yourself you're sick of everything, all the misery and the uncomfortable skin you're constantly wearing. So you tell yourself things have got to change. Things h... | self.Anxiety |
Going about figuring out if I'm mentally ill? I wanna take a professional test to see if I may have a mental illness but I have no idea where to start with that! Who do I go to what do I do....I don't want medication or anything I just want to know. I'm 19, this may be a dumb question like I'm sure it's just a psychiat... | self.depression |
Self-loathing due to my appearance I have been feeling very depressed lately so Ill give the details. I am male in his early twenties who has never been on a date and I am the opposite of photogenic. Met this girl online many months ago and after a while we started talking more on social media. We both sent pics of eac... | self.depression |
Anyone gotten long term vision effects from Venlafaxine? I noticed during my time on it that I'd have a harder time focusing my vision on moving objects, mostly when I was gaming.
Now after about 2-3 months off it the effect seems to remain, anyone have experience with this and hopefully the disappearance of such issu... | self.Anxiety |
I don't know what she wants and I'm so confused I've had a crush on her for two and a half years. Last June I asked her out and she said no because she wanted "a light summer with just some girls." Then yesterday, she's getting a group together to go downtown for lunch and she walks past 20 other people and specificall... | self.offmychest |
Not excited about turning 21. So my birthday is in Nov 25. I'll be 21 and honestly I don't see what's so great? People this age typically get excited because they get to "drink" and go to "clubs" but I do none of the above so to me it's just like any other day. I do, however, feel depressed. I feel like I'm getting ol... | self.depression |
I can't sleep and I am starting to think about my ex. I am so fucking annoyed, it's been months since we talked. He was abusive and I know to not talk to him. Please tell me some ways to calm down and get busy right now? | self.depression |
i’m going to attempt to overdose myself tonight. i’m gonna get really high and just slit my wrists and then i’m gonna take all of my sleep prescription. no one cares about me. all i ever feel is empty. goodbye to anyone who reads this | self.SuicideWatch |
Lamictal/Lamotrigine My doctor started me out on a dose of 200mg a day, divided into two XR tablets. I'm thinking of starting at just one tablet a day because 200 seems excessive. I just stopped taking Seroquel/Quetiapine at 150mg because it made it really hard to breathe. Any thoughts? | self.bipolar |
Can sugar cause bipolar disorder ? Sugar causes free radicals thus the Cytokines response of quinolinic acid to combat it.
I just read quinolinic acid has a similar affect on the brain as glutamate which is involved in bipolar
And suicidal patients in Sweden had their quinolinic acid levels tested and the higher the... | self.bipolar |
I had a little petty moment last night and feel better for it I am typically a mature person, the type of person who takes the high road. But I recently was seriously fucked over by a guy. He had given me chlamydia but I was forgiving and we got treated, continued dating and seeing each other. We had amazing happy time... | self.offmychest |
Covering up depression with humor And people wonder why my humor can turn so dark so fast. Why can't I stop accidentally hinting to people about how sad my life really is??
Wish I could die. | self.depression |
I'm Bipolar 1 and I Think I Have Situational Depression Please Help Hi. Five years ago I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 disorder having been manic/delusional before and having stayed in hospital many times before.
Currently I'm on a very effective injection medication and have been able to get off lithium and the other ... | self.bipolar |
How Can I Learn to Accept Never Having a Girlfriend? I'm not sure what to do anymore to cope with this. I recently turned 26 and I've never had a girlfriend let alone been intimate with someone. Furthest I've gotten is a hug. Everything else is going okay in my life so it's not like I would ever do something stupid but... | self.depression |
Ghosting Saw this post on /r/relationships about a friend ghosting a close friend and recently reappearing back in their life.
Have personally ghosted everyone last year and only recently trying to resurface. Literally deleted all my social media accounts and whatsapp. Phone became pretty much useless for a long time,... | self.depression |
My past is catching up and I do not know what to do (very long post) I have been lurking quite a while and finally found the courage to make this post.
I am 23yrs old, f, live alone, LDR, work in retail, feeling depressed for over 13yrs now but trying to ignore it as much as I possibly can.
The only thing that is goo... | self.depression |
You won't ever love me like you loved her I know I'm really good at jumping to conclusions, but I think this is clear. You won't ever love me as much as you loved her. As you've told me, she was the love of your life. Meanwhile we've been together for 6 months and you've never even said the word "love" in regards to me... | self.offmychest |
Sometimes I want to be petty. I'll admit it, sometimes I think about unblocking you from every social media platform just so that you can see how happy I am now. There is a part of me that wants you to know, to see how well I'm doing. I want you to realize how badly you messed up and feel like shit for it.
But in a w... | self.offmychest |
How can I stop with this constant paranoia so I can just go to sleep [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
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