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Too scared to die I don't want to kill myself but I feel like it needs to be done. I'm so fucking pathetic and I don't deserve to be living if I'm just going to be a waste of fucking space. Im so damn scared and alone. | self.SuicideWatch |
I’ve been having trouble falling asleep for the past two weeks or so. Convinced it’s Insomnia. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Everything hurts. And it is so lonely. I'm feeling depressed as hell.
And I don't know how to make it better.
I don't handle pain well. Tempted to kill myself.
I need someone to talk to.
I feel like I need an adult, even though I am an adult. | self.bipolar |
Freedom when in my car. I was wondering if anyone else ever felt like this when they were just driving to school, work, home, anywhere really. Like I just have my music blasting while driving and all my anxiety and depressive thoughts go away. Just for a couple of minutes I feel as if I have a fresh breath of air and t... | self.depression |
I believe that compliments are said just for satisfaction towards self When some one tells me, "You're pretty" or any other comment when it's clearly a lie, I'm pretty sure they say that for their own satisfaction. I find it understandable because, who wants to say an ugly truth that will make them feel bad for hurting... | self.depression |
Bipolar and Shift Work...thoughts please Hi i understand that its not the best idea to work shifts like a 2 day ,then 2 over night then 4 days off. But i need to do this for my job. If i stay on my lithium and use other drugs as needed like sleeping pills or antipsychotics to make sure i sleep after backshifts i think ... | self.bipolar |
Trying to kill myself really helped me with my depression... Now, I still have depression, I don't think that's ever going to stop being a thing. I still hate myself... but I used to want to kill myself, I mean I thought about it like every 5 minutes for years, I would involuntarily say I wish I was dead whenever I was... | self.depression |
I keep saying "I want to kill myself". Do you too? I might feel a little off, and even though I don't mean it, I might think to myself or lowly whisper "I want to kill myself", shit of that nature. I've had suicidal tendencies in the past, but never actually did anything (as in I never attempted suicide). I might have ... | self.depression |
making strides towards overcoming my fear of abandonment I'd say for atleast 5 years of my life, I've convinced myself that I have no friends and any form of social contact was because of pity. I convinced myself I was only invited to hang out with people because they were just being nice. For so long, I've kept to mys... | self.Anxiety |
being extroverted and a virgin hurts i'm a guy. i have never had sex. it's not for religious reasons. i've had girlfriends, and i'm pretty confident that i'm not asexual. i've never pursued sex, and on the occasions that i've come close, i held off out of discomfort.
i don't really know how to describe how i feel. i'm... | self.offmychest |
I hope you are doing okay.. I know we went our separate ways but there hasn't been a day where I haven't thought of you. I saw your tweet. It's been almost 5 months now.. Last time we stopped talking we got together. I can't help but think about it over and over in my head. Please don't think I forgot.. I want to see y... | self.offmychest |
Father going to prison and being deported In January 2017 my father was arrested for having child pornography on his computer. I had just relocated to live with my now husband, so I thankfully wasn't there to see it all go down. Unfortunately my younger brother (21) was. I'm so torn up over it. My mother was an emotion... | self.depression |
I've just felt numb today I've recently been going through a slump, I just haven't been very emotional lately and now it is the school holidays. It started a few weeks ago and I have just sort of hit a plateau. Today I have felt nothing about the things that I've done.
I've felt no pleasure in consuming media, I've ha... | self.depression |
I tried calling a suicide hotline to have someone talk me out of killing myself but the guy said "do what's best for you." And I know what's best for me. He also didn't understand my problems at all. It was a shit talk. I want to do it even more, now. | self.SuicideWatch |
I don't know what to do with my life Sorry for my poor english, my english skills are what i assimilated through reading.
I'm a 18yo male, my whole life i've been struggling in socializing, making friends and always felt like i was worse than everyone, that everything that i did was wrong, and now, i'm just tired of my... | self.depression |
How do I help my S.O. so she can overcome her social anxiety? My S.O. has been skipping every gym class for a few weeks now. She always used excuses like being too tired or claiming it was only a theory class, meaning she could do everything home.
After the third skipping, she promised me to go to every gym class from... | self.Anxiety |
I just feel really alone and I don't know what to do. [deleted] | self.depression |
have any of you with cyclothymia been prescribed latuda? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
I Just Want To Talk To People; What Am I doing Wrong? Hey everyone
I have a lot of trouble getting past the acquaintance stage with people. Despite the fact I'm in university, I never seem to get classmates' numbers, grab a coffee, hang out in dorms, or socialize with others outside of pre-booked activities (like cla... | self.Anxiety |
I had my very first serious suicidal thought yesterday after being ''ok'' for months So, it's been months since the last I felt like shit. The only thing that kept me bothering me was my lack of motivation for doing anything. You see, I study medicine and it definitely need me to study like everyday, it's just I can't ... | self.SuicideWatch |
To my childhood friend We met when I was 14 and you were 13. I always noticed you walking home from the shops, and we would occasionally say "Hey" or pass a smile to each other, either of us couldn't really gather enough courage to say more then "hey" to each other, probably cause both of us were really shy. It took me... | self.offmychest |
What do you look for in a psychologist/psychiatrist? And what expectations/attitudes/mentalities do you bring to appointments? I want to get the most out of this. | self.Anxiety |
Painted Smiles A smile. A smile, oh that token of life I masquerade, that veiled attempt at postured happiness. I cringe at my smile. How can people think its real? Not the shape, nor the look, but the sentiment. I rarely smile from pleasure, or at anything good. Can people not see my despair, or the sadness behind my ... | self.depression |
“Came out” to my Christian parents as an agnostic... went WORSE than expected. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
*Potential trigger* Suicide isn't selfish. I know this isn't true of everyone, but is for me and a few people I know.
Ignorant people always say suicide or suicidal thoughts are selfish, but a thought occurred the other day.
Probably the only reason why I'm still here is because of other people. I don't care whether... | self.depression |
I resent the fact that exercise is given as a cure for depression It feels like I am some lab rat that must 'work' my body to make my brain produce chemicals in perpetuity just to stave of my default state of suicidality.
No other illness have it like that, so if I'm not exercising then somehow I need to have that a... | self.depression |
Problems with distraction and compulsive eating? I've been trying to work all day today, but I'm finding myself very distracted. I can't get started. I keep mindlessly opening new webpages and watching videos and just not doing what I need to.
I've also noticed that I keep eating. I'm not hungry, but I keep getting f... | self.bipolar |
Could caffeine pills help/are they safe? I got up at seven PM today, had some breakfast a denny's and did a little shopping. For me this is a busy day. Already I'm so exhausted I know nothing will help. Except in the past I've had some notable success with caffeine pills. I'm on the fence about trying them again since ... | self.depression |
Does anyone else have random mental tangents when under a lot of stress? I was doing math work with my dad who was adamant about me finishing it even though neither of us understood it. Usually he doesn't care about school, and I rarely have math, or any homework, and hasn't sat down with me and my homework in probably... | self.Anxiety |
words/images/thoughts/sounds/whatever stuck in head Title. They make me anxious unceasingly. I constantly mumble incoherently to distract me from them briefly.
The main issue is that I have to interrupt my own speech very frequently for a few seconds each time, to distract myself. Sometimes the pauses last entire minu... | self.Anxiety |
Another ended love story.... Ive been going through a lot lately. But i met a new friend on facebook and we met up in public. When i saw him walking towards me my heart skipped a beat. He looked so bizarre in a unzipped brown sweater with the sleeves rolled up and fingerless gloves. His hair was spiked up like a rooste... | self.offmychest |
So suicidal Basically I had too high expectations in life, and I achieved nothing.
I wasn't raised properly to become a big achiever. All I had was fantasies inspired by movies.
now I am in my early 30's. No point in anything anymore.
Lost all hope.
And I don't enjoy any outside activities which makes it worse. So eve... | self.SuicideWatch |
About 1300 words long: Letter to online 'ex' (closeted gays) I wish I had the courage to say to you that I don’t know what I feel because I don’t. One-minute I’m so close to loving you and the other I could only run away from you because I didn’t feel like you were mine. When you’re gone, I feel so empty but when I’m w... | self.offmychest |
Broken childhood. Broken men. But change.. Many thanks to all the beautiful people that spend some time to read this text. I am really thankful to you gifting me with your precious time.
I can't take this shit anymore, I sense that I won't get anywhere near my dreams if I can't change myself in certain ways, but I just... | self.offmychest |
Looks like it's finally time I have a plan. Research is done. Maths is done.
Tomorrow I can go and get the items required.
I will finally either die and/or show my mother I was being serious about death. No more laughing it off.
It's relieving.
Link to update: https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/7c36lk... | self.SuicideWatch |
At the beginning of each year since 2012 I've made a FB post that this year things will turn around, but they never do. Foolish optimism. I've spent 8 years trying to get my undergrad and I'm probably going to fail more classes this semester. I hate school. | self.depression |
Don’t you hate when people start to notice? I’m one of the people who bounce in and out of my highs and lows, I’ll be good for a few days, maybe weeks; life is great during these times. Then slowly start to feel myself slipping back into that feeling of numbness and that nothing is worth it anymore. That’ll normally la... | self.depression |
What natural remedies work for you to reduce panic attacks? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Moving Out Of State I’ve lived in the same state in the same city my entire life. My anxiety has completely wrecked my life since I was a child, to the extent that I’d cry for about 45 minutes every morning when my parents would drop me off at school in kindergarten. I would have a full on panic attack sitting in the b... | self.Anxiety |
Apart from depression what can cause someone to commit suicide? Read more details below [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I hate my body and all of my friends have left me [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Almost Killed Myself Out Of Nowhere This happened exactly three nights ago. It didn't seem like much at the time, but as time passes, I'm getting more and more worried. I was having a bad night. Not the worst night, just a shitty one. Nothing happened, I just didn't feel good, felt lazy and kind of gross in a way. I wa... | self.depression |
Literally haven’t met someone like him before Have you ever met someone and you just knew from the moment of meeting them that they were special and rare? That is how it was when I met him and it has been like that ever since. So much of what he does amazes me. With the type of person he is and the way he looks at lif... | self.offmychest |
Is it normal to lose weight because of anxiety? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Taking Trazodone with Pristiq, Concerta, and antibiotics? I just got Trazodone because I've been waking up usually three to seven times a night especially in my dorm room. I'm supposedly cyclothymic. I've only had one or two episodes I might call classic euphoric hypomania and they weren't bad.
 
I have Tril... | self.bipolar |
I'm attracted to a 13 year old singer celebrity (that I've never met) [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I hate Ajit Pai Hes corrupt and is being payed to do things that are in favor of big companies. The government is supposed to be for the people, by the people, and a few corrupt officials shouldn't be able to dictate the law and ignore all the protesting and input from the civilians. | self.offmychest |
Does anyone feel it is less painful to be negative 24/7 than feel positive every once in a while? Only to realize how foolish they were to believe that their life could improve | self.depression |
DAE stay up for 2 days then crash for 1 and repeat? Or is that just a me thing? 🤷🏼♀️ | self.bipolar |
Going to end it all but still need some help. Hello there, I am plannig to commit suicide for a while now but never had enough courage to actually do it. I won‘t bother you guys with my story nor reason why I want to kill myself. I finally made my mind and I am brave enough to do it. I was thinking about driving my car... | self.SuicideWatch |
DAE have butterflies constantly?? I'm honestly suffering so badly atm, I almost constantly PLAGUED by this bloody anxious-for-no-reason feeling and my stomach is constantly in knots :(
My doctor has me on 20mg of propanolol (to take 'when i get anxious' apparently (but that is always)) but I don't want to use it too... | self.Anxiety |
My life is falling appart... I love you people, I dont know really what am I looking for reaching out to you, I feel completely empty, sad and see everyday as another step down into the spiral of inevitable suffering and lack of hope.
Many things are happening lately, I have become almost a hermit, I spend most of my ... | self.depression |
How to talk to a psychiatrist? First appointment on Friday. [deleted] | self.depression |
Requesting ECT for ADHD/Bipolar Think I'll be able to drive a car? Someone said thought disturbances (the "impairment") can be OCD, GAD, Insomnia, Depression, etc in a book he read. I am considering ECT for depression. I do feel depressed a lot as I just turned 34 and feel like the biggest underachiever to ever walk t... | self.bipolar |
I'm going to start Lamictal along with Ritalin, Klonopin and Prozac. My friend told me It may crash, now I'm scared. My Doc prescribed Lamictal, start in a low dose 25Mg and 7 days later up it to 50mg a day and so on until I get to 150Mg a day. Then 10Mg Ritalin in the morning and 10 in the afternoon. Prozac 20Mg in th... | self.bipolar |
To the baby in the stroller from the neighboring table in this café. Be strong. You have no idea what is ahead, neither do I, entirely, but be strong because things are going to get rough. Never give up and start using logic as soon as you develop it. Be a good person. | self.offmychest |
Were diagnosed recently Hi i were diagnosed in april where i had a manic episode a few days after taking acid. I didnt really get stabil before having a second manic episode in june , i were at a psykward both times and have been on medication since ( deprakine) .
But everybody seems to be against it,
But i am really... | self.bipolar |
I feel alone. Constant disregard. We have constant arguments over petty little things, such stupid small things.... and its rotting my marriage.
I get so frustrated and I have no release. there is a pit in my stomach. my family is so defensive that I cant confront them about an issue I have - and its just a small iss... | self.depression |
I'm Giving Myself 5 Years TLDR; I'm giving myself 5 years to improve my artistic skills enough to get a job in it. I see no other way to be happy in this life since this art is the only purpose I've found in living. So if I can't make it work, I'm probably going to consider opting out of this life because I don't see h... | self.offmychest |
I'm so tired of being with myself everyday. I want to end this I would always refuse to use reddit, especially for advice or whatever, but right now I feel it's the only thing I have. I just tried to kill myself in a mental breakdown I had having an argument with my mother. I am always so close to do it, I don't know w... | self.SuicideWatch |
Need help for a friend First off, sorry if this doesn’t belong here, not sure where else to post. Secondly, I apologize for the wall of text.
One of my best friends has a serious drinking problem, like can’t go two days without being drunk. He also suffers through horrible depression. For months I’ve told him that I’d... | self.depression |
Volunteering Hi all-
I just wanted to share something in case it helps.
When I was 18, I found out I was pre-disposed to depression. And, I've been to therapy and counseling.
2 years ago, I had trouble finding work, and I found my depression coming back. And, it was sort of downward spiraling. Per someone's adv... | self.depression |
A smile It just took one person to smile at me today, acknowledge me, and it instantly changed my day. I don't think I've realise how even the smallest thing from a stranger, like a smile, can mean so much. | self.depression |
I don’t know how to handle my depression and anxiety, my girlfriend is leaving me, and refers to me as a waste of space and I’m unable to move forward or get myself better, my heart is breaking and I’m losing everything and I don’t know what to do | self.depression |
I’m so sick of being pathetic and alone. I just give up [deleted] | self.depression |
I want to kill myself so badly, i wish i could, I'm so broken, so tired of this shit, i wish i could kill myself [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Do you feel like your depression is due to a chemical imbalance or circumstances in your life? [deleted] | self.depression |
Took several sleeping pills last night. Nowhere near lethal but I just needed the pain to stop for a moment. I ended up "drunk texting" my exwife and I don't even remember it. I've been a little sluggish today but less anxious. Still a basketcase. Will always be alone. Hate myself. The only reason I'm alive is I have a... | self.SuicideWatch |
When you are told you're being anoyying I've always worried that I was anoyying. In fact I've always kinda known I could be. Despite reassurance's from people close to me in my life, that I am in fact not. Today a friend I've made online, who has similar issues to mine as far as depression goes told me I was anoyying t... | self.depression |
one day up next day down, one day up nexy day down.... sighh.... one day up next day gone i will not let this be my story | self.Anxiety |
Today is the day, no more waiting for something to change [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Coming out of an intense manic phase need help keeping it together. I don't know, I can just feel it. The kind of really instable feeling with the piercing headache after feeling kickass for a couple days.
I need help keeping it togeter til it passes. I've been keeping it together for so long and I don't want to land... | self.bipolar |
Not normal but not crazy enough I am diagnosed as Bipolar type I though I have only experienced one true manic episode in my life where I put a cigarette out on my arm because I couldn't feel pain and felt invincible. But outside of that I have only had depressives, one of which I have been deep in recently. But I neve... | self.bipolar |
Father past away today, depression and anxiety through the roof despite me knowing it was coming [deleted] | self.depression |
I am not happy, I am depressed, I’m 15, and in the years I’ve been alive, I’ve learned to be thankful for the things people have done for me-well except, no one does anything for me, I give so much & ask for nothing, but when I call for a favour I get turned down.
4(?) years back, I was suicidal, because I had a h... | self.depression |
Ive had problems with almost all of my roommates, starting to wonder if the problem is me Ive been living abroad going to college for the past 4 years and Ive had problems with almost all of my roommates (specifically, 6 out of 9 of them). Im finally graduating but my lease still has three months left and the person I ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Just entered the world of medication. Zoloft 50mg + Hydroxyzine 25mg Is this a lot? I have health anxiety anf my doc said hed give me just zoloft. But to my surprise he gave me these TWO medication. Im a little anxious to start this, advice?
I woke up this morning expecting him to recommend a therapist or something, n... | self.Anxiety |
Dumb question I’ve had thoughts of suicide for years and years, I’m almost 27, should I bring it to my parents attention that I have serious thoughts of killing myself? Not an hour or minute goes by that I don’t think of it, but lately it’s been increasingly worse. I live life day to day with no real plans for for myse... | self.SuicideWatch |
I am getting f's in all my subjects this semester for accidentally bringing in a calculator to a no calculator exam. [deleted] | self.depression |
I feel like I'm going to die soon Maybe *not* from suicide. Perhaps from a car wreck. Or a stray bullet, a strong punch to the stomach or temple. Or an undiagnosed diseased. What ever it is it strongly feels like it will happen soon. I'm not doing anything with this. My last days on earth are being spent doing nothing.... | self.depression |
Need advice for my girlfriend With Anxiety Hey Reddit
I am writing this with my girlfriend who I have been together with for 4 years and plan to be with the rest of my life so want her to be happy, but after the new year she has had more and worse anxiety and panic attacks, because of school, work applications and lif... | self.Anxiety |
Why is it that I joke about not having friends and it's funny, but when someone points it out.. it hurts so much [deleted] | self.depression |
Getting anxiety after seeing a film that makes you emotional? I've heard that some people get anxiety or panic attacks during or after watching thrillers or horror movies, but I don't have that. I get anxiety after seeing things that cause me to really resonate with a story or character emotionally. For example, I went... | self.Anxiety |
Good meds?? I feel normal. Or what I think is normal. We added Wellbutrin to my lexapro and vyvanse 5 weeks ago. Friday we added seroquel. I’m still in the testing process so all I know right now is bipolar-unspecified. I hope this is real and I’m not heading up just to nose dive again. | self.bipolar |
I really can't go on. I need help please somone. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Health Anxiety Does anyone else experience this? I get it really fucking badly and I'm always in and out of the Drs, and often can be found speeding to the ER and unholy hours only to be left looking like a fucking loser when I remember that my mind tricks my brain of vice versa and its just another panic attack manife... | self.Anxiety |
Suicide is the solution Hi, I'm 21 I always had long hair in all my life and recently I noticed my hair was thinning (2015). On the same year i went to the dermatologist and he diagnosed me with androgenetic alopecia, he told i would lose my hair no matter what but he recommended some medicines (Hexaphane and Tricovax)... | self.SuicideWatch |
I developed anxiety along with my depression recently It sucks. The only thing that kept people around was me being charismatic. I can't do it anymore. I have panic attacks frequently. I can't speak. Everything comes out wrong. I'm scared. I thought I had everything under control. But I don't. I'm not able to pretend t... | self.depression |
Surprised to learn how little self-esteem I have, ironically Before my diagnosis of depression I used to be a highly functioning mentally ill person and, naturally, an over-achiever. I was overly prideful of my artistic and musical abilities, fashion sense, and fitness (more like orthorexia) to name a few. When I gradu... | self.depression |
Does anyone else with anxiety sweat through their sheets?? If the temp in my house is above 67 degrees Fahrenheit at night I’m sweating through my sheets and not sleeping. It can be hotter during the day but if I’m trying to sleep it HAS to be cold. | self.Anxiety |
Ex/Friend driving me crazy So me and my friend who's a girl were seeing each other only for about a month. But we have been good friends for years through school and after.
I am 24 male and she is 23 .
We stopped seeing each other and decided to be friends because we just kept clashing heads. Mainly she would go off ... | self.Anxiety |
Has anyone come off of their meds? I know it's considered generally one of the worst possible things a person could do when they have bipolar disorder, but I just didn't know if anyone has had any success with it. I've recently come off my meds (tapered down gradually of course) because of some side effects and losing ... | self.bipolar |
Motivation ?? I really don't know how to keep myself motivated. Even if a small bad thing happens, that whole day is gone. I am ambitious and want to do stuff, I even have a hazy idea of a plan I should be following. But this depression just takes you down, breaks the path, blocks the line of sight and just overall fru... | self.depression |
Staring at my belt tied from the other side of my door I cant get any help people only use me when they need something from me and no one care if i live or die so im staring at my belt hanging on my door | self.SuicideWatch |
Today my sister asked me to promise not to kill myself. So today my sister rang and asked me to promise not to kill myself. She said she'd "never forgive" if I did something "silly" like killing myself. I told her that I couldn't make that promise, then she mentioned our mother and how it would ruin her. Tbh, all I wan... | self.depression |
Normal/"positive" people would off themselves within a week if they switched in my shoes These fake people posting in those shitty motivation subs and just people giving the generic "JUST B POSITUVE" advice when in reality none of them have any experience at all in dealing with isolation, occasional mistreatment, upbri... | self.depression |
Screw my old job!! I was the maintenance supervisor at a long term care hospital, this place is a giant 5 story building. I only had 1 maintenance guy on my team we were over worked and under paid. I gave them an ultimatum i wanted a $6 dollar an hour raise to put me at median wage or i was going to go work somewhere e... | self.offmychest |
Comparing yourself to others. While in college I got hooked on drugs, made awful decisions that will follow me for the rest of my life, hurt myself physically amd mentally, was high 24/7 to cope, and slept away days and stayed up nights anywhere from 3 to 18 hours on a wildly irregular schedule. I failed all 3 semester... | self.bipolar |
Are you ever too trusting? I don't know if this is a bipolar thing or just how I am but I feel like I get too excited about friendship and my circle of friendship is everyone I meet and I keep learning the hard way that not everyone is my friend. Are any of you really trusting as well? | self.bipolar |
Took the social media plunge Finally mustered up the strength to log off and delete my Facebook, Snapchat , and instagram. It’s been a couple days and it’s nice. I’m getting used to it. I don’t know what to do with my hands anymore. If I was in public or around people talking I would usually just go on my phone so it l... | self.Anxiety |
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