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Yes, I'm posting more crap. No, I have nothing better to do with my life. Recently I've been trying to figure out a way I can live, some purpose I can give myself I guess. It's seems the only way I don't end up killing myself and the only way I'll be able to live my life is by cutting myself off from everyone and being... | self.SuicideWatch |
Can I just stop existing now? I doubt anyone will acknowledge this post but whatever.
I've never truly lived life, I've been wasting away for as long as I've been alive. I've isolated myself from basically everyone besides my family. I barely even socialize online anymore. Every day is the fucking same. Either I'm ho... | self.depression |
Does anyone else remember having an imagination? For my entire childhood and adolescence, it was what I could always depend on to to break the depression and also serve as an outlet for excess energy. I would play with action figures, making up hundreds of stories over a number of years, some spanning years themselves.... | self.bipolar |
I just don't think anything can change Another late night up with my thoughts, just constantly thinking about how I can't ever change anything in my life and no one seems to care or notice me, sometimes I just wish I had a single friend I could talk to but I don't even know what that would do... Just another usual nigh... | self.depression |
I fucking hate Christmas music It's currently on the radio at my jobsite, and I am this close to gouging my eyes out with a rusty fucking screwdriver | self.offmychest |
I'm not worth the resources it takes to sustain me? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm isolated I need to make something clear. A year ago I was happy and had friends. I only had 2 real and genuine friends but over the course of a year they both moved away. To make it clear I've got lots of other people I hang out with but these two were there for me rain or shine.
Once they went I grew apart from ... | self.depression |
When you want to do something but your lack of motivation keeps you from doing it for several hours. Another day off going right down the drain, I guess... | self.depression |
Almost done with it all Hi, I'm 17 and male (not that it matters, it just feels more like I'm talking to someone if I give context). I have had family problems (including potential domestic violence cases) since early childhood, and have lived through countless court battles between my manipulative egocentric parents. ... | self.depression |
Read a disturbing post about people who do forensics don't view people as conscious beings This may be triggering for some who don't like to hear about death, so this is my warning.
I read somewhere that someone who does autopsies doesn't view humans as conscious beings anymore. They just view them as "pieces of meat ... | self.depression |
Lorazepam/ Ativan question I'm agoraphobic and have my first CBT appointment in years next week and would like to get there on as low a dose of lorazepam as I can.
So today I took 1mg of lorazepam for a practice run and I'm going to take 0.5mg tomorrow for the same trip at the same time
Will there be... | self.Anxiety |
Weird mood - not sure what it is I’ve been in a weird mood for a while now. I don’t know what it is. Earlier today I was freaking out about work so I took an as needed Valium. Then I got an email and now I want to rage quit.
I was really sad yesterday but my husband kept asking if I was mad. I come up with these plan... | self.bipolar |
I feel like I’ll kill myself at some point in my life but I don’t know when. I feel like I’m a ticking time bomb waiting to go off at any minute. I’m extremely fragile and it worries me | self.bipolar |
(NSFW) What was your most shamful manic hookup? Personally: I was 19 (male). He was 40 something and married with kids. He got super clingy afterward and angry when I cut him off. | self.bipolar |
trouble explaining how I feel to new dr I need help! How can I better explain how I'm feeling to new pdoc. Feel like she's not understanding me.
New dr said not bipolar but instead depression, anxiety, adhd. So she started me on trintellix, vyvanse, changed from klonopin to ativan & dropped lamictal.
At appt after... | self.bipolar |
My Anxiety Might be Bubbling Over a Little Having a really hard time coping with life right now. I monitor and manage my anxiety pretty well on a regular basis but it's been getting harder to handle lately.
I'm 19f diaganosed with GAD, not on meds. This past week has been a whirlwind of emotions. It all started when ... | self.Anxiety |
I cried for no reason in a public place That was the first time I really cried in a crowded place. | self.depression |
the scary part is when you don't want to die, but your brain and body are saying it would be better for you too. "I'm utter trash. I don't have any worth in this world.
I just ruin lives as i live, and I'm a joke of a person. " My brain all the time any time, I fail at something.
I bought gauze the other day, 4 cent... | self.SuicideWatch |
I don’t know if I can go on. So my birthdays tomorrow and it just means another year of suffering. I think about suicide every day but I don’t have the courage to go through with it. The emotional pain is so unbearable and all I want to do is self harm. I need some light on my life I’m turning 19 and I feel so alone. | self.SuicideWatch |
Why don't dolphins have suicidal thoughts? ...Because their life has Porpoise! | self.bipolar |
I didnt choose to feel suicidal. I feel so awful. Merry fucking Christmas. Hi,
I brainwashed myself with spirituality, I feel like the "Self" has to die, it feels like its time is over, I feel like a psychotic idiot, I feel like the thoughts tell the truth: for about 4 months they tell me that I should be dead for no ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm more bored than sad I used to be sad all the time. About not having friends, being a loser, my family, etc. But now I'm just bored with life. I find myself so bored sometimes I pick fights for no reason just so I have a reason to be away from people. I rarely feel happy or even sad. Mostly just anger from someone a... | self.depression |
My Last Confession, Why I’m depressed, and why I’m going to kill my self tonight [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
No change in the past couple of months but today I’ve signed up for a half marathon Along with depression and anxiety, I also suffer from MS. Despite my mental and physical health issues, MS is the condition that I refuse to let beat me. Since being diagnosed I have lost 6 stone and I’m in great shape.
So, I’ve signed... | self.depression |
Need advice on Doctor Situation Diagnosed with high anxiety and PTSD seven years ago. Daily is Paxil 40. Three years ago was in a real bad place and my doctor at the time prescribed Xanax in situations where I was having a lot of trouble. Xanax was a lifesaver. At next appointment doctor said to do klonopin for another... | self.Anxiety |
I have exhausted every resource available I'm likely going to kill myself.
I have lived with my parents and around my sister my entire life, and the past 7 years have been a living hell, it all started with my dad physically being abusive around age 10-13, alongside being outright dismissive and emotionally abusive reg... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm Wondering About Going Back to Work (Currently on SSDI) So I have been really bored at home lately. I've been on SSDI (disability for non-US redditors) for going on three years now. It took me about a year to get the SSDI approved and it's my only source of income right now. The problem is I am getting really, reall... | self.bipolar |
Consensual sex but questionable acts Before I even go into this, I know I need to talk with my girlfriend about how I feel about the situation, but I would like to get this off my chest anyways. And given the context of this situation, the following will be NSFW.
A few days ago my girlfriend of a year and I were each ... | self.offmychest |
Knowing that I can kill myself is the only thing that keeps me relaxed. So, as in the title, One of the few things that makes me not fall in complete despair is knowing that I do have this way out. Just want to know if anyone knows what I'm talking about. Like, it came to a point where thinking about suicide actually c... | self.depression |
I never recognized my anxiety because I saw it as an element of my depression. I started taking Zoloft for depression roughly 8 months ago with great results in the first couple of months. It was a total game changer. I felt like I could function, was productive and started making some positive changes in my life that ... | self.Anxiety |
I just want to pee I’m in my room, crying my fucking eyes out because I’m too afraid to go have a piss. A piss. That’s it. Not to go to the store. Not to talk to anyone. Just use the toilet. How am I supposed to live another sixty plus years with this when the thought of leaving my room for thirty seconds causes me to ... | self.Anxiety |
I can't "feel" how much anxiety I have but I can tell by my behavior...... Is that weird? Like, I don't feel more stressed but suddenly I've been skin picking for 40 minutes. I have trouble falling asleep. I don't feel hungry in the morning. I start procrastinating for hooooouuuurs.
All while feeling the same... but ... | self.Anxiety |
Follow up to I did something and I’m nervous Okay guys, you can read the story in my other thread but basically I told my boss and director I wanted my job to go back to how it was before I went psychotic and took FMLA.
I got an email from my director who copied my senior director. I hope I don’t give anything away b... | self.bipolar |
ugh. The contradiction of depression and suicidal thoughts. I know that I push people away because I just don't want to be around them. I'm irritable, I'm grumpy. I'm probably the last person anyone wants to deal with. I try not to be but I already put on a facade at work so I don't piss people off.
I hardly see anyon... | self.SuicideWatch |
I wanted Trump to win in the US elections and now I just feel terrible about it [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I hate Christmas.... But... I'm happy for all who are having a merry time on this day, though. | self.depression |
The shame makes it all worse I posted here before. I am not suicidal because I have to have a boyfriend to be happy. People who know me know I am very independent and never wanted a relationship.
But it is the shame of me losing him due to my anxiety and no self worth. I could have made this work. Instead of being in... | self.SuicideWatch |
Any tips on gaining peace with your inner monologue? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I feel pathetic when I get anxious/panic attacks Hey everyone. My last few panic attacks I've had, after I get over it I find myself feeling pathetic about it. My last one was in a restaurant with not a lot of people. It's so silly because there's no reason to panic in such a quiet place as that.
Does anyone else feel... | self.Anxiety |
I'm finally going to do it So I think I have finally decided to do it. I have been wanting to die for years now. But was barely holding on. Now it has gotten so painful that I am finally able to do it. I live everyday in pain. But I have found something out that is just too much for me. For everyone that feels this way... | self.SuicideWatch |
Does anyone here have experience with Fetzima (levomilnacipran)? My psychiatrist and I have been discussing it. I've taken Wellbutrin (bupropion) for years with no complaints whatsoever (the only noticeable side effect has been mild appetite suppression), but I'm maxed out and symptoms returned, so we've spent the bett... | self.depression |
The worst part of my anxiety is the guilt i feel about my reactions and interactions with people I love I've struggled with a mix of depression, anxiety, panic and ADHD over the course of the past 7 or 8 years. I see a nuerologist who specializes in ADHD, a psychiatrist who prescribed me mirtrazipine (antidepressant) a... | self.Anxiety |
I was happy for the first time in a while Some of you might know about a game called DDLC. It's a hard to describe. Anyway, I'm subscribed to the subreddit for this game and on Valentine's day, I woke up having a message in my inbox in reddit. I had completely forgotten it was Valentine's and the message was a link tha... | self.depression |
13 failed suicide attempts later.. And I still want to die more than anything. I don't exactly think that I would kill myself, it's just a wish that never comes true. Like maybe one day I'll finally get it right. | self.SuicideWatch |
i can’t believe there’s barely 1 month left in 2017...time flies when your life is falling apart | self.depression |
I used to be really depressed for years...Felt better recently and now I'm having panic attacks? The title sort of sums it up. I was previously depressed for years (5+), but managed it day-to-day very well. It didn't generally impact my professional life, though personal life did suffer sometimes in maintaining relatio... | self.Anxiety |
I need help with a friend So my 16 year old friend has been missing many weeks of school recently, and I just recently found out that he was depressed and having suicidal thoughts. I tried talking to him and telling him that I'm there for him if he ever wanted to talk to somebody about anything but he doesn't want to t... | self.SuicideWatch |
I need to avoid what pains me I've always had an insecurity and inferior complex when it comes to my definition of success. That depression is coming back to me again and I need to let out what is bothering me.
I'm seeing people younger than me get into better schools than me in harder subjects that I couldn't handle.... | self.depression |
depression Note: also submitted this in /r/depression
I want to be totally honest, because I need real advice. when I was 12 and 13 I self harmed and I developed a slight eating disorder. Around this time the love of my middle/high school relationship developed and he helped me stop self harming. but the eating disor... | self.SuicideWatch |
Is there help available or is it all talk? [deleted] | self.depression |
Help I’m depressed
What should I do to feel better naturally?
What are some good meditation techniques to get rid of anxiety?
I want to take control of my life
Maybe I need to change some things about it
Like get a new job
That must be why I depressed
But it’s hard to blame it on a circumstance
Because they change
... | self.depression |
Does tough love work for you? Or does it leave you feeling worse? | self.depression |
People who insult depressed people I recently posted something on Reddit, which was one of my first posts. It was about depressed and sad things. Anyways I received some comments mocking me like “attention seeker.” I feel like that is a general consensus people have about suicidal people. Perhaps, it because those rude... | self.depression |
Friend died at Christmas from cancer. He was one of us, a fellow depression warrior. Sometimes im happy for him because he got out and doesn't have to suffer now. Is that wrong? | self.SuicideWatch |
Started Celexa yesterday, and it was a rough first night. So yesterday I went and saw my GP because I've finally given up trying to handle my anxiety on my own. She prescribed me citalopram 20mg. I was told it can make me really drowsy, so I waited until around bedtime to take it.
After about an hour and having a ho... | self.Anxiety |
I can't bring myself to checking myself in to a hospital. My brother's dead, my family hates me, my ex left me, I face legal and financial issues. The only escape seems to be death. I don't know what else to say. I'm stuck in this continuous loop of self hatred, my family hates me, my ex left me, I can't even support m... | self.SuicideWatch |
So lonely, it hurts so bad, and it's pretty much always been like this. I'm a 30 year old man. Never had a serious girlfriend, only online dating and bar hookups. Few friends since high school as I studied engineering in college so not much time for friends, hobbies, athletics, or anything. Pretty much ate every meal a... | self.offmychest |
I've lived with a parent post-graduation for five years. It was supposed to be temporary.
But I realized that no, I wasn't good at holding down a job, maybe I'd be better at being a freelancer.
I had no savings. No insurance. Nothing but debt and a bad relationship with my birth family.
But I had him. And he had a m... | self.offmychest |
I feel kind of dumb because I'm considering changing my college major from Information Systems to Management [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Failure Im behind on money and owe and finally looking for a job but nothing’s close enough because I have a phobia of driving and the best answer I can think of rn is to just die and everything would be better. | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm finally admitting I'm (still) not okay This ended up a lot longer than I thought, but this is my first time really admitting this to myself. Thanks all for readinf.
I was first diagnosed with depression when I was a whopping 6 years old. I was put on Zoloft, which I stopped taking when I turned 12. I do not rememb... | self.depression |
No, I'm not going to come into work sick. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Motion imbalance? Hello everyone who may or may not be reading this post.... I’m just trying to get some clarity on my motion imbalance issues. Ok so I have anxiety but that’s a no brainer since I’m posting here 😅 anyways I read somewhere once that motion imbalance may be linked to anxiety and it may be a stress induc... | self.Anxiety |
Lost my touch Over the past, almost two years now, I’ve isolated myself. I feel like I don’t even know how to talk to people anymore, or when I do I feel like they’re making fun of me under their breath which isolates me more. I hate that I’ve become this way so so much and I have no idea how to fix it. | self.bipolar |
Am I the only one who refuses to tell my family? I'm depressed and I really want to talk to people about it since I constantly seem to bother my friends with it and only one seems to listen for a while before she gets annoyed or mad at me for my self loathing. I refuse to tell my family though I fear their reaction. I ... | self.depression |
No one can ever convince me that life is worth living On Thursday I think I'm going to tell my therapist to go fuck herself with her "positivity" shit because I'm sick of hearing it. And I won't be getting another therapist. I'm done. 2018 will definitely be my last year of life.
Life is not worth living. Clearly tha... | self.depression |
I’ve been having some messed up dreams I always have nightmares and they always get worse each night. The worst thing about my nightmares is that they always seem so real. I’ve had nightmares of people watching my every move. Nightmares where everyone goes missing. Nightmares where people break their necks or get stabb... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm boring and so much predictable that nobody actually wants me. All my life I've been hearing things like -
"Why are you like this?". "You are predictable!". "I just knew that you gonna say that or do this".
Nobody ever thinks that how does this makes me feel. I feel so low, I feel useless and feel like I'm nothing.... | self.depression |
DEAR /R/BIPOLAR: MY BP1 ANGST HAS A BODY COUNT - PART IV FIction level: -100%
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"As an English graduate student, I like to state the objective and subjective facts. Obj: he is smart. Sub.: he is young and about making tenure. I'm at a B right now and to him a B in grad school is an F. So if I pass w... | self.bipolar |
Off Topic Kinda, But Has Anyone Else Played Persona? More specifically, Persona 4. I've never played any other games in the series and I've just started playing that not too long ago. I'm addicted to it and I fucking love it. It's also been distracting me from my depression a bit.
That's all, really. Persona 4 makes m... | self.depression |
I need help, last year I got a panic attack in class and now every time I go into a class room and the teacher is teaching I start feeling trap and get really really anxious, it’s ruining my ability to learn. | self.Anxiety |
*sigh* I just keep coming back here, don't I? I'm so tired of all this. Just when things were beginning to look up for me. My friends are slowly vanishing one by one, including people I've met on here who pulled me through some difficult times. But I've ended up driving away a very close friend of mine. I said I would ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Hello I don't know why I'm writing this but my whole life is just shit. I don't understand what is wrong but I just have enough of life. I'm an intelligent girl who works during the week and studies financial and accounting during the weekend. In told I'm beautiful and have a nice body and I'm smart kind of have it al... | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel so damaged, I can't bear to live like this I felt suicidal for the better part of one year now, and actually posted here before. I was very disheartened and hopeless by the decline of my cognitive capabilities following two concusions which happened in quick succesion. I couldn't do sports as I liked, which real... | self.SuicideWatch |
Odd thoughts about ending it all. I noticed in my thoughts that if I were to commit suicide, I'd make sure to have a very low chance of succeeding... it shows up in the way I tend to think about ending it all. Pills and alcohol: most of the time, you just end up sick and groggy for a while, but I've heard of very few c... | self.depression |
Lamictal and Seroquel combo Have any of you guys been on this combination before? If so could you tell me how it worked out? I was just recently diagnosed as bipolar and in the next few weeks I'm going to be seeing a psychiatrist to get a prescription. I am going to tell them that I'm interested in trying lamictal beca... | self.bipolar |
Taking antidepressants with whey powder? Just want to know anybody here that use antidepressant and also whey protein powder. I read on forms that they don't go so well together. Not sure if it is a placebo effect. I been trying to workout with a friend, but my motivation is at a all time low. Don't exactly know what t... | self.depression |
i wish someone would tell me what a worthless piece of garbage I am just someone validate me please. i can't be the only one who sees it, i can;t stand being crazy any longer someone else has too see this too | self.depression |
We always had a good time, but there are few memories. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
England make me depressed! makes * Hello! I am new to this subreddit and Reddit in general. I have been living in England since I was 7 years old and I absolutely hate it. At first, I enjoyed it but then as the years dragged on I started to loathe it. I have always wanted to move to America, but 2017 was the year that ... | self.depression |
I don't enjoy the things I used to Things I used to enjoy, like music and playing video games and building model kits are plagued with thoughts of people from my past, and I don't find the same joy doing them as I used to. I've lost interest in a lot of these things, and it's so hard finding new stuff that can take my ... | self.depression |
part of me doesnt want to get better I've been depressed and suicidal for several years now, and I figure life is only going to get more difficult as time goes on. I recently turned 20 years old, and I spent my entire birthday either crying or sleeping, just because I was so disgusted at myself for being alive this lon... | self.SuicideWatch |
Moving isn't falling in line, redo room? So here is my situation. I am in a living environment right now that I absolutely cannot stand. I suffer from adjustment disorder, anxiety, and depression. I am in therapy and on medication just for background before people start suggesting those things. I have been trying to mo... | self.Anxiety |
I figured it out and I'm kind of relieved I've been racking my brain for months trying to figure out a solution to my problems. I've been pretty active in this sub but suicide never felt "right" until I figured it out last night. The common problem in everyone's life is me so if I take care of that everyone will be hap... | self.SuicideWatch |
What are you supposed to do when normal life just isn't fulfilling enough? First of all, I don't even know if I'm depressed, I'm just here because it's the only place I know people might feel the same
I'm doing good in school, working out, I have friends and I try to eat better but what's the point of all that when li... | self.depression |
I lost her because I'm a coward I've met this girl for 3 months. She's really cool and fun to be with (despite all the swearing though). I started to like her and after around 1 month I invited her to my house to study.
That's where shit hits the fan. She gave me signs she liked me (like hug me, grab my waist as we wa... | self.offmychest |
Lonesome Tonight cause I wasted the line between all those times. I drew a really thin line.
Bonus points if you know the song.
Sup my bipolar peoples? | self.bipolar |
Seeking the “being-liked” or “approval” feeling in social situations kills me [deleted] | self.depression |
I worked out today. I've been insecure about my body for a very long time. These insecurities have contributed to me loosing hope in many other areas of life.
Today I finally decided to just go to the gym (for the first time). I won't notice results today or tomorrow but I just had to start somewhere.
I can report ... | self.depression |
Relationships are hard I’ve always been someone who’s focused on my work: whether it’s getting an A on an exam or assignment, or securing a job or internship. It’s always been ignoring the other parts of my life to ensure that my professional life is set up: so now, as I approach the end of college (still have a semest... | self.offmychest |
I'm thinking about od'ing tonight. I feel done. I'm tired of hurting and no one understands. | self.SuicideWatch |
This is new I've never been so depressed to the point of wanting to vomit, till now. | self.depression |
Completely lost my identity I don't know if anyone else feels this way.
It just seems I have completely lost all sense of individuality. I see through everything. Nothing makes me happy. And I can't really find purpose in anything.
Jaded with jobs, relationships, everything. It all just feels so pointless. I see all m... | self.depression |
I feel so, incredibly lonely I have an exam in less than 12 hours and I’m still on my bed; just scrolling through r/depression ... urgh..
I’ve almost given up completely in life; the few friends that I have are drifting away from me because I’m starting to get too clingy and almost reliant on them but I just feel so l... | self.depression |
I hate people who think they're much higher/better than you, or they make it seem like they're better than you, when you know what exactly they're doing. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Anyone here believe in an afterlife? I have existential anxiety and need to vent because today was a stressful day By stressful, I simply mean that I've been worrying about my "impending doom" as if I'm going to blink and suddenly be an old man in a wheelchair today. More than "normal" anyway.
Do you guys believe in a... | self.Anxiety |
i get a very particular, anxious, gnawing ache in my stomach when thinking about/working on college papers. it's like my brain is paralyzing me to stop any progress. I have so much to do, I want so badly to move forward with my life, to become a better human, but i just don't. i don't know what to do, i'm so tired of t... | self.depression |
I’m never going to be able to win an argument. I’m not quick witted enough. I couldn’t win even if I was right. Not even a simple argument about shoveling snow. I can’t argue back because I can’t think and listen at the same time when I’m feeling pressured. I could know that I’m right, but I can’t articulate it, and th... | self.offmychest |
ex ghosted me, feeling severely depressed over a month ago, my ex slept with me knowing I loved him and promised that he wouldn't disappear and that he wasn't just around to fuck me. (I have trust issues because he has done a lot of things to hurt me emotionally in the past- like talking about extremely personal things... | self.SuicideWatch |
I forgot my friends birthday tonight i just realized i forgot my friends birthday that was over a month ago. she’s my closest friend and i don’t know how i could forget. I looked back at my journal the week of her birthday... it was filled with a lot of overwhelming anxiety for me so i guess that’s why i forgot her bir... | self.Anxiety |
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