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Anyone put on Risperdone and go "batshit crazy," as I like to call what happened. Dr didnt listen. What do I do? I even crashed my car. My speech was going 24/7 people thought I was on crack. I am new to understanding my bipolar, even though I have been diagnosed for years. I ignored it until I moved to hell. Hell (Por... | self.bipolar |
I'm losing my mind lately So many things happened so suddenly it would fill a book if I went into detail. I broke up with my girlfriend months ago and as revenge she claimed I was abusive and sexually assaulted her and tried to have me arrested, my father whom I've looked up to almost all my life got drunk and tried to... | self.SuicideWatch |
Chest spasms/twitches Just had chest spasms right next to my heart scared the crap out of me thought my heart was gonna give up and nearly made me have a panic attack.
It’s funny how it started in my stomach gargling and spasms and seemed to go up to my heart area just after I’d eaten and been toilet.
Now my calf’s a... | self.Anxiety |
Feel like a failure at 26 My childhood was a mess, but let’s start at college. I studied science because my dad wanted me to. Tried to convince myself to like it but never did. Managed to eke out the degree, got a job in STEM, $30k in debt. Oh, and I had an eating disorder this entire time. Lasted 7 months in job. STEM... | self.depression |
My dog had to be put to sleep... and I just don't want to live any more.
I can't kill myself, because someone I loved dearly who has died was catholic, and I strongly believe I'll see him again. So long as I don't go to hell, which yeah, sounds funny, but I have to believe something, that it's not just a fall from on... | self.SuicideWatch |
Feeling like shit when I should be having the time of my life I'm on a holiday of a lifetime but because of a few small things that have happened I'm once again feeling like absolute shit. Right now I just wanna be home crying in my own bed instead of this horrible hotel. I hate this feeling.
It's ok if no one reads ... | self.depression |
L-Tyrosine? Have you tried it, and if yes, any differences? Does it interfere with any medications that you know of?
I recently added Fish Oil and a multivitamin. Looking into adding magnesium and Vitamin D3 .. | self.bipolar |
How has your life improved after having your anxiety reduced? I'd imagine e.g., better focus, better reading comprehension, more fulfilling relationships and such stuff. Please contribute, as hearing about the potential benefits, while maybe obvious to some, might be the kickstarter someone out there needs. | self.Anxiety |
Went out alone on a Friday night So I was laying on my bed bored out of my mind and I was like screw it , it’s Friday night and I’m going out and I went to the mall by myself. And I didn’t get kill! | self.Anxiety |
My first and probably last question I don’t really believe that explaining how I feel to others will make me feel better. It just makes those who listen/read feel sad. I don’t want anybody to feel sad, and I don’t need sympathy or any other kind of emotional support from others. But I feel now that I should write somet... | self.SuicideWatch |
Those taking Trazodone, at what dosage did you find relief? And how long did your doctor work you up to it. I know 100-150mg is the range to treat, and I had been on 50mg for 2 weeks before my doc (just) switched me to 75mg (for 3 weeks).
He's a new doc I'm seeing and I think he's also going "moderate" speed with the ... | self.depression |
Might kill myself if I have to do time in jail. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Can you guys help convince me to get a therapist? I'm on covered california, live around the east bay area, and made an effort to see someone at my school, because they "offered counseling" which was a nurse who gave me more resources to find off campus.
Before this I had a good therapist who I thought was covered b... | self.depression |
My best friend of ten years just ghosted me. We've been friends since high school and she moved to a different state in the southwest four years ago with her mom but we've maintained contact ever since and have been extremely close. She came to her home state to visit family earlier in December and we hung out every da... | self.offmychest |
Not really BP related, but taking a big step (TW: anorexia) | self.bipolar |
Should I tell my parents Should I tell my parents that I'm an atheist? They are strict christians. | self.depression |
Empathy would save everyone. I miss that empathy feeling. Nobody would listen to a closer look into yourself. Sometimes is too far for understanding, sometimes just people doesn't care.. and I actually cannot believe, people is not interested in deeper care and understanding each other. Empathy has allowed us to evolve... | self.offmychest |
Ranking of antipsychotics by side effect category [Ranking of side effects of antipsychotic drugs compared with placebo
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Figure caption: Results are shown for all-cause discontinuation (A), weight gain (B), extrapyramidal side-effects (C), prolactin increase (D), QTc prolongation (E)... | self.bipolar |
I shouldn't feel this way. I don't know if this is the right place for this rant, but I just feel really hopeless right now. Everything is so frustrating and I have no idea what I am doing with my life.
I have no good reason to feel this way. No bad circumstances or traumas, probably (maybe, who knows)no mental illne... | self.depression |
When I start drinking I feel a compulsion to drink more till I’m either sick or cut off. Does this mean I have a problem? I’m usually the first to start drinking and the last to stop. I’ve also dui’d. My friends/sibling/pdoc say I do. Just need some strangers opinions to admit what I am. | self.bipolar |
Self harmed for the first time today Honestly, it's surreal. I didn't expect to actually be able to do it. My original intention was to slice my arms open and bleed out but of course that's not very realistic... but there was blood. They're there now, on my wrist. It's crazy, I actually did it. I can't decide if I want... | self.SuicideWatch |
What a way to ruin a day I had my performance review (first one in 3 years! From someone who has only worked here for 4 months!) and got mostly unsatisfactory remarks. I work so hard, I try so hard. I've been here 11 years and this is the worst performance review I've ever had. I've struggled a lot this year with m... | self.bipolar |
All my friends do is talk about babies, babies, marriage and more babies...HELP! Ok that’s another friend just told me today she’s pregnant. She asked me to meet up in the evening (not seen her in 6 months because she’s always too unwell to meet up at the last minute), but she manages to see me when all she does for 2 ... | self.offmychest |
Mother: It’s much better if you’re dead Well I am a college student right and for almost 2 years I’ve been dealing with depression on and off I was diagnosed with extreme depression in which they giving me meds but I don’t take them as I’m scared of being dependent with it.
So here it goes, I was in a party as I was ... | self.depression |
At what point do you decide enough is enough. What is the point of trying when you’re unsuccessful in school, girls, family, and just life. Why try. [deleted] | self.depression |
Years of pain making you numb. Hello. My names Olly and I myself am not depressed, just thought I'd get that out the way. But someone I love has been depressed for years. I've just recently met this person (let's call her "Amy") so I don't know the whole situation.
Basically, she's had a rough life. Amy has told me t... | self.depression |
It’s... tempting in a different way... I’ve dealt with extreme depression and anxiety before. I’ve dealt with suicidal thoughts before. I know what it’s like and that’s not what I’m going through right now. When I think about doing it... you know, complete darkness, no more life, pop and everything is just gone... it j... | self.SuicideWatch |
I woke up having a panic attack I was a dream about my last rat dying. She died in the dream, and I spent most of the dream crying. At the end, it became so intense, that started having a panic attack and couldn't breathe, and that's how I woke up.
This isn't the first time it's happened either.
I can't even escape in ... | self.Anxiety |
Is it normal to crave being manic again? As some background, I have not been manic in almost 2 years. I also stopped taking medication for bipolar disorder about 3 months ago. This was with the approval of my therapist and psychiatrist after going though a lot of different therapy including DBT. Lately, I have been ha... | self.bipolar |
College is hell when you're depressed. I don't even necessarily mean the part that people usually talk about, seeing all the happy beautiful successful people with active social lives - although that's part of it. It's mostly the constant falling behind and then hating myself and imagining myself failing in my future c... | self.depression |
Let’s hear some success stories. I could use a few glimpses of hope out there | self.Anxiety |
I hate myself, literally. I have to go to school everyday and see the girl I love the most and the one I'd do anything for, my ex/best friend, slowly distance herself from me without even realizing it. I have to see her talk to the guy she likes now everyday from early morning to night. She barley gives me the slightes... | self.depression |
I feel like no one believes me I'm an extremely anxious person. If you can think of it, I can get anxiety about it. I'm extremely suicidal because I know there's no escape from it. Especially since working is the literal worst thing for my anxiety. I've had doctors, therapists, even mental hospitals just blow me off an... | self.Anxiety |
Idk. I want to be live that my friends are my friends but they just act as though I'm nothing. They won't hang out with me when I ask and sometimes they would say that acually don't like me. I don't know what to do. There really the last reason I'm alive.. | self.SuicideWatch |
Edjucated replys only please I take 25mg sertraline hcl (Zoloft) every night at 11 and have been for almost a year, my girlfriend wants me to go drink would it be ok to skip it that night and take it when I get up or just to drink with it in my system I'm only planning on having 4 beers max and maybe some shots, I quit... | self.Anxiety |
I’d rather be dead than live in someone else’s body. So sometime this year I took a bunch of pills. I lost my body somehow. Can someone explain to me what to do to get it back. Maybe I could do something. | self.SuicideWatch |
My dog walked in on me masturbating I'm freaked out right now. He saw everything. I'm worried he's going to tell someone. He can already read my mind and shares it all with my mom. She will sign me up to have my clitoris removed and curtains sewn shut if she finds out I touched myself down there. | self.offmychest |
Did something thag will ruin the rest of my life. Feels like km spiralling I really struggled during this academic year and I failed to hand in some of my assignments .now I wont be graduating next year. Feeling really overwhelmed right now. I know everything is my fault but I know no one will understand what is going ... | self.depression |
Today my new boss told me to charge customers for a service whether they agree to it or not. And also to tell them the service is "included" during my interactions with customers. And not mention the price. Ah No. So this is a part time job just to supplement my income and for a bit of fun.
It's a different branch o... | self.offmychest |
My depression has started to severely negatively affect my life. My lack of motivation to get up out of bed, eat and do anything is really hurting me. I’ve started viewing suicide as an alternative to doing anything. I don’t care enough to even seek help anymore. This post is more of an outcry hoping for some sort of m... | self.depression |
Just posted this based on a post in r/ depression but feel compelled to ask others...maybe worth the read🙃? My bipolar has caused me to always seek relationships, other options while in relationships, and not proud but I have cheated before (only kidding) but still horrible..,
I've lately been thinking about how bipo... | self.bipolar |
I don't even know what to do.. So a couple weeks ago my girlfriend of 2 years broke up with me, no in person or over the phone but through text. Yes we have been fighting some and she wanted to end it before she completely resented me or so she says. I have been going through extremely an stressful work environment. My... | self.depression |
Why is everyone so happy but I’m so depressed [deleted] | self.depression |
No Motivation at the worst possible time I have recently just lost all motivation to do work and study/do anything "productive". This has happened at the worst possible time as final are here and I really should study but I really can't bring myself to do it. I also have a paper to write that is already two days overdu... | self.depression |
I feel so alone I’m struggling to find any reasons to fight when I just get sicker and sicker in my head a very day. I’m tired and I don’t want to fight anymore but I’m scared to die. I’m so weak and pathetic it’s no wonder I drive people away. | self.SuicideWatch |
All I do lately is think about how shitty my life is going to be | self.SuicideWatch |
I survived the doctor's office So, I went to the doctor's office today (new doctor, new insurance), which always drives my anxiety nuts. The doctor was very understanding of my anxiety concerns, and even allowed me to speak with a very nice gentleman from the psychiatric team.
My chat with him was super helpful, and ... | self.Anxiety |
I hate antidepressant ads Whenever they come on the tv I can feel everyone trying not to see if I react. Its just such an intrusion | self.depression |
Does this happen to anyone else? You’re really anxious about something specific, then, after the situation is resolved, you still have a pervasive, low level anxiety that you just can’t shake? Does anyone have advice on how to get rid of it? | self.Anxiety |
Anniversary blues Feeling overwhelmed this morning with my emotions all out of whack... Didn't really know what to think about it, as my meds have been working and things are going well for the most part... Then I realized what it is - the anniversary of my suicide attempt. It's been... 8 years now?
Depression sucks, ... | self.depression |
I don't see much reason to keep living right now I'm not about to kill myself, but I don't see a lot of reason not to right now. Earlier today I felt a lot more hopeful I was wrong about being trans. Right now I'm wearing a big sweater with leggings and short boots and my girlfriend helped me put on make up. I shave... | self.SuicideWatch |
As a university student who can't get hired for simple jobs cause I don't have the experience, I hate seeing slow employees doing jobs I could do 10x more efficient-- your loss. It just grinds my gears. | self.offmychest |
Thinking about Death I’m not in any way suicidal, just to clarify. I just always think about myself dying in different ways. I think about myself getting in car accidents and getting shot, finding out I have some rare disease or cancer or heart problems. It varies. It typically happens before I go to bed. I never think... | self.Anxiety |
I don't know what to do anymore? I don't know what to do anymore - I always thought the key to 'happiness' was constantly having goals and accomplishing them. Sure, the momentary gratification is great, but then what?
I came to the conclusion happiness like anger, is momentary. "Everything has an expiry date" -- some... | self.depression |
UPDATE: I have a 2nd job interview tomorrow Today was a heck of a day. I applied for this radio station job last week with the expectation that I would work part-time doing the news and some office work. It's not my ideal dream scenario but it's a job in radio, which I love more than anything else.
I walked into the i... | self.bipolar |
My score on the anxiety assessment has been lowered 2/3 in the last year! This time last year I was a bundle of nerves, having panic attack’s and feeling like I’d never be happy, and now my assessment score has been cut by two thirds!
I just wanted to share this with everyone because, although my troubles were probably... | self.Anxiety |
I say I'm a trans woman, but in my head I'm a man with a sex fetish [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I’ve never felt like I needed to talk to someone till now I need help someone help me please | self.depression |
How do you guys feel when you haven't left the house for days? I'm sure every depressed person is familiar with this scenario. You're tired, you have nothing to do and just vegetate not leaving the house for days. Pretty much the worst thing you can do when you're depressed. How does that make you guys feel? | self.depression |
You ever get bad news over and over in a short period of time? [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I'm so fucking lonely and sad Girlfriend of 5 years broke up with me because of how low and depressed I was. I was stuck in cycles of absolute apathy, and when I wasn't apathetic I wasn't pleasant. It's been a few months. I made a lot of progress in my mindset, started taking proper medication. But I'm still completely... | self.offmychest |
Was just prescribed Trentellix(haven’t started taking yet).Anyone willing to share their experience with this med? [deleted] | self.depression |
Just slept for ~48 hours. Not depressed? So Wednesday night I went to bed at midnight and have practically slept until now Friday at 10:20pm, having only woken up for small increments to check Reddit or text friends before falling back asleep. Now I woke up realizing I'm already 20 minutes late for work because it was... | self.bipolar |
Trying to talk I've been trying to find someone to talk to. I have people, but some are people like parents and parent-in-laws, and others are really supportive and good to talk to but I don't want to bother them too often because people are busy and have their own lives. Thinking about saying something to an old acqua... | self.depression |
Drowning in darkness...again I’ve been battling depression and anxiety my whole life. This battle has mostly been a lonely once since my family doesn’t believe depression is real and my friends are all neurotypical..however, for the first time ever, two people now in my life who seem to be trying to help. My boyfriend ... | self.depression |
So THIS is what it's meant to feel like! It's funny but out of all the people I've dated over the last 3 years, none of them compare to someone who is actually truly right for me. We both haven't felt like this in about 3 years. We met under a week ago and it feels like we've known each other for much, much longer. I'm... | self.offmychest |
I don't like Christmas..... Alright I don't like Christmas. Happy? I don't enjoy decorating or buying people gifts. I don't like you either and right now nothing makes me happier than knowing that I can say "No I'm not going and celebrating Christmas with you!". I don't like you. I almost died twice last year and I cur... | self.offmychest |
This is really weird, but I need some advice. [deleted] | self.depression |
Can’t sleep at my aunts house and feel so stuck [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I need somebody. In this moment without someone, I decided to write some thoughts down, and see if people I don’t know can talk. https://imgur.com/a/Bespi
Here are the contents of that picture in a typed form, in case the link causes issues or turns people away.
Probably Rhymeless Songs.
I should probably kill mysel... | self.depression |
Can't take it anymore I just wish I could die! I can't take any more physical pain. Every day it feels like a train has ridden over me, I honestly can't get myself to walk to do basic things. The pain spreads to my arms, neck. I am so sick of it.
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Help? So, I had a conversation with my brother, he said to me “Would you do fashion?”, and I said “No, as I’m not pretty, or a models”, which makes it look like I’m saying you have to be ‘pretty’ to be a model, that’s not what I’m saying, or mean!, I mean modelling people are very strict when it comes to casting, and i... | self.Anxiety |
Randoms Thanks T****, Y****** and A****** for a fucking random night out. It was so fucking weird and fun. Jump the fucking garbage bins. 10/10 would do it again next week.
Poor guy told me he has to go to work at 6am. | self.offmychest |
My mum seems like my enemy. Me and my misses decided we want to get a place together. We started to look and got ourselves a viewing on Friday. It's unrealistic, but we wanna get into the swing of things and let everyone know this is what we want. It'll be my first time moving, as I still live with my mum.
We told my ... | self.offmychest |
😐 Soooo, saw Ragnarok and for over a week now my thoughts and things I read are often narrated in Taika Waititi's voice. I subvocalize when I read and type I guess.... It's funny, at least at first, but now it's getting a little old.
All the "little things" my brain used to do are coming back, like a slow tide.
I ha... | self.bipolar |
Something I wrote I will make you feel exhausted and tired all the time
I will make you feel bad for everything
I wont let you interest in anything
I will make you have no friends
I wont let you think straight
I will make you get diseases
I wont let you concetrate
I wont let you feel joy
I wont let you remember... | self.depression |
What is the point? I cant do this any more. The thing is I have felt this way since I was so young that I don't know any other way to feel. I don't want to wake up...
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How young I look is making it impossible to make friends my age [deleted] | self.depression |
I feel like I don't have the right to be upset but... [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Angry messages/emails to misleading or annoying companies I find myself getting very annoyed my manipulative or irritating claims/ommissions of key info from ads or brands I'll see while browsing reddit or instagram, then pointing out what's upset me to them through their contact method. Why does this bother me so much... | self.bipolar |
Never just NORMAL. I don't know what normal feels like anymore. I go from depressed and suicidal, to manic and making horrible choices. When I'm depressed everything is shaded in grey. When I'm manic I develop feelings for anyone who helps me and cares or flirts or gives me attention. The depression season is so lonely... | self.bipolar |
My friends didn't care after all [x-post with r/depression] I have been upset with my friends recent behaviour of ignoring me and saying Im the one at fault when I panic or felt depressed, so I decided to disappear to see if someone else beside my best friend would notice.
They didn't even bother to see if I was sick ... | self.Anxiety |
Working on bettering myself but need help Some background information:
My lowest points were 2014 and 2015. I was 15 and my family moved to another country, but it wasn't what I expected which led me to stay isolated in my apartment for three years. I was too paranoid the people I met at school would see me active on ... | self.depression |
Last resort. Please help. I dont know what to do or where to go. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Inpatient...what to expect I posted on here yesterday about being suicidal and I had some advice to go inpatient. I think I'm going to go Friday afternoon or over the weekend.
What can I expect? Everything from what to pack to what goes on to what it's like when you leave. Everything. Food, boredom, weekends vs weekda... | self.bipolar |
More Trouble Than I'm Worth Without going into much detail, here's a little context:
Happily (as much as BPD allows) married to a wonderful man, and we have a beautiful, brilliant toddler. They're so good to/for me - I often feel undeserving.
I've been in a depressive episode for almost 2 months - med compliant, have ... | self.bipolar |
I really need some body to talk to I'm very depressed and having a nervous breakdown I'm very depressed and thinking bout cutting myself I have nobody to open up to I try and talk to my boyfriend but all he dose is throw the past inu face and makes feel little bout my self .I r
Really wish I was dead .... he acts l... | self.depression |
tired of being lied to I just want someone to care about me for me for once in my life. and no I don't want to hear "oh I care about you random internet person who I've never met". | self.depression |
Living with this for too long Every time I see someone's teeth, my mood instantly swings. My teeth are disgusting, I'm ashamed and embarrassed of them. I'm 19 years old, and my teeth have looked disgusting for 5 years now. I'm missing a front tooth, another front tooth has a temporary filling from a root canal 2 months... | self.depression |
Done. Fuck man. This will hopefully be my magnum opus, the culmination of everything I’ve ever learned and every experience that has ever shaped the meaningless clusterfuck that was my life. I’m a rational person, and I’m self aware to the point where I recognise that this is stupid, selfish and if I gave myself a chan... | self.SuicideWatch |
I've been lost for a long time. I guess this downfall kinda started back in February when my ex-girlfriend and I broke up. It came super sudden after a couple of amazing months being together.
her mental health issues came back and she didn't want to hurt me by not being under control of what she did. Since then I gue... | self.offmychest |
İ want to commit suicide but... İ want to commit suicide but i fear ended in a silent hill like place... | self.SuicideWatch |
why do I feel so hot tired / like I'm going to faint [deleted] | self.bipolar |
My friends are better than me at everything Like, I’m really not better than them at anything, *anything*
I know what you’re thinking… “it’s not about that!” “be yourself!” “do what you love!”
Well when there are girls involved, I start to like these girls for who they are. I feel a connection, they see me as a frien... | self.SuicideWatch |
Guys/girls, I need your support. Heart warming stories and examples needed! [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Have you helped (or worsened) your depression by changing your job? I have a face to face customer service job and it takes a lot for me to be as friendly and caring as i should be, especially when they're rude, but even when they are lovely. Ive gotten myself, over about a decade, to a place where i can actually get u... | self.depression |
Moneymoneymoneymoneymoneymo It's all about the fucking money. Working 8 hours a day just to barely afford food and a place to sleep. Not even your own home, no, you're spending most of your income BORROWING someone else's home where you have to ask permission to put up a fucking picture on the wall. Almost the entirety... | self.depression |
Someone stole my hubcaps today... or did they? WOW, SUCH GASLIGHT. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I’m really scared. I don’t see any other options besides suicide. I need it all to stop, I can’t do the pain anymore I feel so worthless, I feel like a burden.
There is no more help, I got it all. There is no friends to contact, I lost them all because I’m so down all the time.
I tried to make things better. I’ve been... | self.depression |
Advice on working out for the first time after panic attacks? My mom, dad, sister and I are going to the gym as a family tomorrow. This was planned weeks ago and I am thrilled to be doing this. We're all out of shape, it will be non judgemental and a first time for my dad. Plus the gym is an awesome one with great peop... | self.Anxiety |
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