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Contemplation When everything is running through you head and your thinking about everything, when you are in a tough position don't feel like fighting for anything at all, u think about family? Think about friends?
Nah I'm going through this this is my problem why drag them into this I caused this, then I click it's ... | self.depression |
Rather feel empty I'd rather feel empty than feel all this crushing loneliness, sadness, aching and terror. Fuck feelings.
But the grass is always greener on the other side, I guess. | self.depression |
I genuinely don’t want to be alive anymore. I have no major life problems. I just hate myself and hate life and I feel like there’s no purpose to anything and I don’t want to do it anymore. [deleted] | self.depression |
At the rate I'm going through life I'll probaly suicide before 30 [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Why do people want to stop suicide? Like, isn't it our choice to stop living this shitty life? When the only thing you do is suffer and nothing helps, nothing gets better, why would people try to tell anyone to keep suffer here? I dont get it. | self.SuicideWatch |
I tried to make myself better but I made myself worse I downloaded an app that tracks my calorie intake based on my height and current weight. It made me realize how much I was overeating, especially when my depression was at its worst. After a while I was doing better. I was feeling better, I started losing weight. Th... | self.depression |
i feel so alone no one would care if i died | self.depression |
Falling back into it I'm 16, and this weekend, I got into a big argument with my girlfriend of 7 months. We hadn't seen each other in 2 weeks, and our plans to see each other fell through. I tried to save our plans, but she seemed disinterested. I was so distraught and caught up in sadness and self-hatred that I, wanti... | self.depression |
An open letter to a (former) idol of mine, Jesse Lacey [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Concern for 38 yo brother. Depressed, not working for 4 years, living off parents, but doing poorly. [deleted] | self.depression |
How the fuck are you supposed to get a job? Can't commute out of town.
Can't talk to people.
No experience, no marketable skills, no personality, no confidence. | self.Anxiety |
with the flip of a switch You know exactly when your brain flips that switch into that terrible-great Mania, right? I'm pretty sure that I realize I've gone manic only when I know everything's TOO good. But it's shitty at the same time if that makes sense.
Story time (feel free to skip): This past week I went from wr... | self.bipolar |
I have to leave my best friend and only friend (same for her) because I'm moving. How do i tell her? I'm moving and I have a friend that is dependent on me to live. I've begged and cried for my parents not to move. If I'm not there for her, she'll kill herself. Please help. | self.Anxiety |
I would prefer to have nightmares I don't know why, but I dreamt I was walking through a city that had thin buildings and a lot of unusual debris. I don't think I was there very long when I saw a woman ahead of me who didn't look like anyone I ever met, but dreams are stupid and after a moment or two she turned into y... | self.offmychest |
Is it safe to tell my therapist I'm suicidal? After reading several horror stories where someone told their therapist they were suicidal and got put into forced hospitalization (and sometimes locked up in a 1950s-esque psychiatric ward), I don't know whether it's safe to tell my therapist I want to kill myself. I don't... | self.SuicideWatch |
You're moving away and we only just got close. My friend and I were being stupid, pointing out people we found attractive. You happened to walk past us, I remember saying that I wished I had the balls to go talk to you.
You happened to be a friend of an acquaintance, she soon became a good friend and business partner... | self.offmychest |
I had a panic attack at work tonight I broke down and sat in the bathroom for 30 minutes. I told my boss I hated working here and I was looking for another job. It's only a matter of time before they find a reason to fire me. I am clinically diagnosed with anxiety, depression, PTSD, and bipolar II. We have an EAP progr... | self.Anxiety |
I am begging for help. I am sitting here in a blind rage.
I do not have depression, but my daughter does. Its such a foreign concept to me. I understand the science behind it. I understand the chemical imbalance of it. But I just cant understand the actual depression.
I am not an angry person, but for the life of m... | self.depression |
groin/prostate cramp Hey guys, first time i'm posting on this subreddit (or any anxiety-related page for that matter). I'm a 23-year old male diagnosed with GAD. Lately my mind has been occupied with the pelvic area, since i suddenly developed an urge to urinate, accompanied by a pressure in the bladder. I did tons of ... | self.Anxiety |
Little bitter Took a hole bottle of tylone and what was left in the aspirin bottle I took all them pills and then layed on my bed waiting for death I was awake and then I would shut my eyes and wake back up on and off about 6hours go's by I start to puke it was pure white when it came out I puke till I couldn't breath ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Life sucks, although I keep trying to go along with it. [deleted] | self.depression |
Is it normal to feel this way? I’ve noticed that I have almost no emotion or desire for human contact anymore. I don’t want to make friends, talk to family or meet new people because I don’t feel the need. As for emotions, I still experience them, but they’re so intermittent and weak that I might as well not have them.... | self.depression |
Hangover anxiety. Anyone else feel EXTREMELY anxious the day after a heavy drink? Like I feel like when I’m hungover my anxious is at its peakest. Not even just being anxious, feel like I’m going f***ing crazy in my mind. The craziest mood swings.. can go from being so anxious to feeling fine for couple mins, then ba... | self.depression |
Constant waves of anxiety I feel like it just doesn't let up. It gets far worse in social situations, but even when I'm by myself it feels like I'm under constant attack. Usually what helps is I lie down and let the anxiety attack just happen, try not to think too must and feed the beast. But I feel like it never ends ... | self.Anxiety |
Overpowering urge to check into a motel and slit my throat [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Why? Why do some people appreciate the rain but I just see puddles like Nothing's changed? | self.depression |
Worrying about getting cancer? I'm 19 and have recently been worrying a lot about getting cancer. I'll go through these stages where I'll worry horribly about different things, some reasonable, some ridiculous. Recently, it's been about getting cancer. It's got to the point where I'm checking my body for lumps every ho... | self.Anxiety |
Taking (prescribed) drugs to go to sleep because depression keeps you up is the worst Like, it’s good. Otherwise I’d be up half the night thinking about how awful everything is. It just feels wrong, almost like I’m self medicating. I don’t want to have to take meds to sleep. Taking antidepressants in the hopes to m... | self.bipolar |
I am not sure for how long I can hold it. I haven't attempted to suicide for last 2 years. These past 3-4 months are intolerable and are exhausting me. My sleep schedule is continuously changing, I have nightmares every time I sleep, even if I wake up and fall back asleep I will have bad dreams. The thoughts of taking ... | self.SuicideWatch |
How to power through second thoughts? I have failed out of 3 colleges because of anxiety/depression ect. After I failed the third, I decided to take a break and start focusing on my recovery. I've made amazing progress and lately I've been thinking of trying to go back to school. I finally feel ready to do it. I found ... | self.Anxiety |
Feeling suicidal. I accidentally killed my pet budgie and it happened right in front of me it was traumatic and still haunts me, he was kicking, died in pain and it was all my fault. The scene still haunts me to this day and sometimes I dream about it. I cried for 3 days in a row because of it I also started skipping c... | self.SuicideWatch |
Everyone thinks about me I understand how irrational it is to believe or even consider that every pair of eyes you meet has a mind behind them that's focused on all the things you're insecure about... but my entire conscious existence has been plagued with that fear. They think I'm stupid. They think I'm average. They ... | self.Anxiety |
My dr took me off my meds because I'm pregnant. It's starting to get really hard. I took 100mg of Zoloft and 150mg of Wellbutrin to help control my anxiety and depression. My doctor took me off of them a week ago and I feel like I'm reverting back to how I was before I was medicated.
I snapped at my boss today (which ... | self.Anxiety |
Sleep Issues Hey Reddit. I need help. I had a bad mini breakdown about 3 months ago due to information overload from work and things I was trying to achieve in my personal life. I was addicted to video games spending 8-10 hours a day gaming. When I had my event I had 5 nights of little sleep which was triggered by taki... | self.Anxiety |
anyone else having a problem with little to nonexistent curiosity? How long has it been since you were genuinely interested in something, other than: 1. escaping anxiety, 2. fixing yourself?
I'm sitting here, playing the same decade old game on my gamecube for the 50th time, not having fun, and thinking... what th... | self.Anxiety |
Back to work after a week off And instead of enjoying the break, I want to be here less.
I had maybe one hour of reflection all week where I felt grateful for this job. Grateful to be making $30k out of college.
But then I fell asleep and was back it by morning. How working full time @ 24 won't allow me to survive ... | self.depression |
Self medicating with energy drinks. I've found that if I keep my energy up, my other depressive symptoms will go away, if they're not too severe that day. My drug of choice is Red Bull. Coffee can do the same if it's strong enough. None of this Starbucks Frappachino bullshit. Those are delicious, but do as much as wate... | self.depression |
Might be losing my grip I'll try to keep this short.
The past year has been a slow decline into a pretty horrible depressive episode. Total emptiness like I've never experienced before. And this looming feeling of dread while I force myself to do things like go to work (I love my job). Messed up thing is, I have no r... | self.depression |
turns out porn is whats killing me i find i cant watch porn anymore all it does is make me depressed knowing i never had anyone to love or show my love to. its sucks, i wish i had a girlfriend to love, to feel that im not alone and is their to have support, im in grade 10, and 17. every girl i have ever asked out turne... | self.depression |
I wish I was gone, but at the same time, I know why I can't leave. Sometimes I find myself wondering a question, that if I presented to my friends, how they would react. It would be a lyric to one of my favorite songs, and it goes simply, "When I'm falling down, would you pick me up again?". While not that deep in term... | self.SuicideWatch |
Driving myself crazy about my road test I'm 19 years old and I haven't gotten my driver's license yet, but I'm taking the road test tomorrow for the first time. I can't stop freaking out obsessing over it! I have to be able to drive by the summer and I can't shake the fear that if I fail tomorrow I'll never get it. I w... | self.Anxiety |
It's funny to see these personalized ads linking to things that used to be interesting for me [deleted] | self.depression |
Sad and I want to die, but i will not I'm extremely sad, I suffer from anxiety and depression and everyday is a struggle. I often feel suicidal, and my worries just kick me while I'm down. I think I want to die, but I really don't at the same time, my death would hurt my family slot, and I think a life of pain is bette... | self.depression |
Been diagnosed as bipolar... ON PAPER I've been diagnosed as bipolar 2 for almost 4 years.
Whenever I request a doctor's note for providing my medical condition to submit medical expense deduction or whatever, my pdoc always checks the box of F31 bipolar disorder, but he has never even told me about my diagnosis at al... | self.bipolar |
My friend overdosed yesterday and want to hang herself today. What can I do? [deleted] | self.depression |
Not passionate or interested in things and always bored unless on amphetamines [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Don't you love it when people tell you to start acting like a responsible adult? Instead of being depressed and wanting to die, for example. Bonus point if she's your girlfriend and she blocks you rigtht after saying that.
Honestly I would have blocked myself earlier, with everything I've texted her. | self.depression |
Just a reminder to take your meds, eat, drink, and bathe if anybody forgot! I love you guys! ❤️❤️ | self.Anxiety |
Wellbutrin XL & alcohol anyone know anything about wellbutrin XL/bupropion (150mg per day) and alcohol? i know i'm not supposed to drink while on it because of risk or seizures and hallucinations etc, but if there's a time that i do want to drink (i.e. a friend's birthday trip coming up) can i just not take the dos... | self.depression |
I hate Snapchat I honestly hate this whole social media era (and no, I don’t mean Reddit)...Snapchat in particular. Why do people always have to be snapping everything. Snaps of their food, snaps of their nights out. Snaps of literally the dumbest shit. Somehow I can’t just delete it, as I feel like it connects me... | self.offmychest |
Is anyone afraid of getting better? Is the thought of you living a ‘normal’ life scary to you? Why or why not?
I personally am afraid of it because I’ve suffered from it for so long. It’s like a familiar enemy. I wouldn’t know how to function without it. Idk if that makes any sense at all... | self.Anxiety |
I've already tried to kill myself a couple of times. Why can't I just die? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Currently experiencing my third ever bout with anxiety and starting to fear i'll never find a way out, any help out there? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
i want to kill myself but i also dont want to i want to because i know i have nothing to live for anymore, everyone around me hates me and my gpa in school is shit and im not good at anything and i have no friends and probably no one would care if i died
but on the other hand im always fucking guilt tripped into thinki... | self.SuicideWatch |
I’m scared my someone I️ love is going to die. TW/attempt [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Im not worth it I will never be worth a woman's time, I have lived in Minnesota my entire life and let me tell you, its the worst here, I try and try in my life to no avail, I didn't have a girlfriend until I was 22 and didn't lose my virginity until I was 20, I am completely experienced in what a woman wants, likes, n... | self.depression |
What does the beginning of mania feel like to you? | self.bipolar |
Does anyone else start to get sleep issues/irregularities when they feel they’re on a down turn? I have a much more predictable sleep pattern in phases of hypo-mania and while I can survive with little sleep, at least I know when I’ll be in bed by and that I’ll be up at a certain time. I’ve noticed though that as I sta... | self.bipolar |
Dealing with an anxious father Hi all,
I wonder if I am asking for advice in the right place. My sister and I are dealing with an anxious father. His anxiety was rather manageable in the past, however as we have grown into adults now and have left home (me 5 years ago and my sister 1 year ago) his anxiety seems to hav... | self.Anxiety |
The people who shout about how the mental health system is broken whenever a mass shooting or other types of tragedies occur are the same people who tell us that we don't need medication instead all we need is more exercise and to eat healthy. | self.bipolar |
Not really sure what to do at this point. I have a great life, I can't deny that. I'm in 11th grade, in competitive drama, and I finally started learning how to animate. I'm even in an AP class this year, I thought I'd be proud of myself for making it this far.
Hell, I was gonna go trick-or-treating with a few friends... | self.SuicideWatch |
I have trouble speaking my mind on my emotions. I fear that what I say will be cringe. I feel if I speak my mind I will get some negative emotions out but I've been bullied in the past for saying whatever was on my mind so I have trouble doing it. Is it worth it? I'm afraid of judgement. | self.Anxiety |
I️ just quit my new job and feel like crap [deleted] | self.depression |
I just want to talk to my grandma on christmas I dont care that my family is spoiling with all these fucking gifts that I dont deserve. I like them, they're nice, but the only thing I truly want is to talk to my grandma. Im beginning to cry again, I love you all so much and goodnight. | self.depression |
Intrigued I did weed maybe 2-3 times before I did brownies so I didn't smoke it often whatsoever however one night I had brownies and the trip was horrendous I thought I was dying and my body was shutting down it was awful can't explain how bad it made me feel I was hospitalised with a rapid heartbeat from the anxiety ... | self.Anxiety |
Anxious about my birthday coming up. I don't think I'm going to get anything for it. At all. A little back story, I've been at an extreme low lately to the point where my mom got so angry at me staying home that she yelled me into a panic attack, forced me out of bed and broke my laptop to make me go. And one thing I j... | self.depression |
Music, does it help you? I find the right music to be incredibally therapeutic. I have a very broad range of styles i like. My favourites being techno, house, hardbazz (that russian shit). But I also enjoy classical music or country and pop.
Does music help you, and if yes, what is your favourite genre?
Edit: i do no... | self.Anxiety |
Bipolar and high IQ I don't like to advertise my IQ, generally my peers describe me as a genius on their own. Family is generally disappointed in me as I'm 'supposed' to be a multi-millionaire by now but I choose to work physical jobs. Made $200k at 19 years old and then I just... stopped, explored other avenues, par... | self.bipolar |
Do you guys experience an elevated resting heart rate in the anxiety heavy days? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Part time super hero, in search of HQ to lay his cape That was the craigslist post that I can give credit for the circumstances that gave me my daughter.
I’m a C-level executive, I manage the Sales, Marketing, R&D, and Customer Service for a medium sized business that does about $20M in sales each year. No, it’s ... | self.offmychest |
so it's national novel writing month & my novel includes bipolar... [deleted] | self.bipolar |
It eventually ends the same. Every time. Every time I fall in love with a girl and we start to have mutual feelings, I invest too much emotionally and a sudden distance develops. I don't know why or how to solve this. I get depressed and my life crumbles.
Every time. Every single time. Why is it always the same.
I wan... | self.depression |
Is there a way to tell if your Anxiety is causing Depression? Hello! I was diagnosed with GAD a year and a half ago, but started having panic attacks and anxiety about 8 years before that. I'm a college student, and life is crazy. I feel down quite a lot, I cry sometimes about stupid things, I am constantly tired, and ... | self.Anxiety |
I'm working abroad and it has been great. Just halfed my med dosis - I have no feelings now. Hello people,
This is more a rant than it is anything else. So I took a big step 2 months ago and took a 2 month project job in Spain. First time I traveled alone (or been abroad), and my first "real" job since I graduated.
I... | self.depression |
It feels like the ship is on fire and I'm now resorting to drilling holes in the hull to put it out because they're not doing anything. That at least seems to be a good analogy at this point with how the friendship is now.
I want to fix things. I want to get back afloat and sailing forward as we used to. The thing is... | self.offmychest |
I tried to kill myself the night before last, I think. So. I know, weird title. I'll explain. I was fine the night before last, and then I got into my room...sitting there alone with my thoughts. Which, I do this literally every day, so I'm confused as to why this went the way it did. Well, I just randomly started bawl... | self.SuicideWatch |
I want to be hit by a car I want to be in so much physical pain that it distracts me from my depression | self.SuicideWatch |
Boys will be boys. I want to change my views without lying to myself. [deleted] | self.depression |
I dont want to go through the pain of dying [deleted] | self.depression |
I’m weak I’m weak. All I do is cry and fade out. I'm so fucking useless. I can see how angry it makes people and they're so fucking right to feel that way. I don't know why they put up with it, and I know they are starting to wonder the same thing.
My whole life people have left me. I understand why.
I don't think I'... | self.offmychest |
fuck you Fuck you Nicole, you’re so fucking unfaithful. You say you love me and you care about me but you constantly go behind my back and hurt me. Is that what love is to you? You treating me like fucking shit and me just sitting here taking it because my self esteem is that low? I wish I could leave you but I feel li... | self.offmychest |
Anyone else feel depression is a more (or at least as much) physical than mental thing? TLDR One can often feel fine mentally, but be unable to present this to the world, because the body manifests depression so thoroughly on a physical level. The face and body present depression, to the point where its literaly imposs... | self.depression |
The Only Thing Stopping Me Is That I’m A Coward I would be dead by the end of this morning if I wasn’t. I already would be, even.
I have a well laid out plan, that I can, and might, go through with. It would be so easy. I hate life, and yet something in me forces me to keep going, and I hate it. I would be happier if ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Do SSRIs work for any of you? I'm really depressed right now, following a mixed episode and I really just want the depression to stop. I don't care if it makes me manic, I just want to stop this. | self.bipolar |
Skin picking.. Anyone else pick their skin as a way to relieve stress when anxious/nervous? I pick the sides of my thumbs until the bleed and the bottom of my feet until they're sore. Not sure what to do to stop but need to because it's very unattractive and I get self-conscious about the way it looks 😞 Any suggestion... | self.Anxiety |
Found this article via FB, about someone's experience with BP2 https://medium.com/@freddiedeboer/digging-out-20bf30cbddf9
This rung true for me in a lot of ways and I wanted to share with you all | self.bipolar |
Stressed about SSRI stats I’m in bio psychology class at my university and we talked about psychopathological disorders today (inc anxiety) I’ve been in and out of therapy this year and recently went on Zoloft. Today though, my professor was talking about how SSRI’s have shown little to no improvement for depression an... | self.Anxiety |
Things going to shit I recently got injured in a car accident and haven’t been able to work for about 2 months.
I live with my fiancé and at first she was so caring and loving helping me with everything, but it seems like she’s just fed up with me, things as small as asking her to get me a pack of gum on her way home ... | self.offmychest |
Being in a relationship with a highly successful person; He's my ex now, but I looked up to him (granted we're so different as far as energy levels and ability to succeed at college so I can't mimic his approach to achieving success.) I have zero intention of being a laundry attendant at a hotel the rest of my life. Wh... | self.bipolar |
Exhausted & broke Idk. Food doesn't taste the same. Colors don't feel as bright. Music doesn't excite anymore. Its like I'm just living for the sake of being alive. What's the point. | self.SuicideWatch |
I always conclude suicide - how can I achieve my goals in life? (Type 1 Bipolar // Schizophrenia) [deleted] | self.depression |
how do i let go how do i let go of attachments ... ive been having chronic depression ... even since i was 10 . and even so ... how do i let go of the past ... i tried learning from it .. accepting it . but the pain .. the voices .... these feelings wont stop hurting me .... now i lost the love of my life .... she said... | self.depression |
A question about a wellness check I have a friend that I am currently pretty concerned about. Last night/early this morning he messaged myself and another mutual friend that he had taken a knife to his wrist. This friend has a history of depression, had been drinking the last couple days, and recently broke up with his... | self.SuicideWatch |
I don’t even know. I just feel sad and anxious I feel really anxious and hopeless. I just got out of inpatient two weeks ago. They added Wellbutrin for my depression. I was having suicidal thoughts. I don’t feel any better and now I feel worse. I feel like people are whispering about me, conspiring against me. I feel a... | self.bipolar |
Just some advice ( especially gamblers ) Hi, i am an addicted gambler from balkan country and i will tell you my story and some advice if you consider suicide, which im really close to do tonight ( i dont want help i accepted it ). I will start with what made my life worse than it was- In the winter of 2015 i first hea... | self.SuicideWatch |
I’m tired of being the happy one I’m tired of being the kid that is always happy. Going to school and pretending I live this perfect life and don’t struggle with anything then going home to only be reminded of how miserable I really am is killing me. I’ve told a few people what really going on in my head and they only ... | self.depression |
I don't know why I tried to kill myself Two nights ago I tried to kill myself and I'm not sure why. Everything was getting better, I had just ended an unhealthy relationship, I was exercising and eating better and I felt like I was finally building some good friendships, I felt like I was finally get better. But two ni... | self.depression |
I really want to kill myself, but... ... I'm just too damn scared. Seriously, I have a suicide note written out, I have a plan on how to notify everyone I know, I have an idea for my funeral or memorial, and I know what I want to do with my belongings. My main problem is that I'm too scared to kill myself. I want it to... | self.SuicideWatch |
My Ex Friend’s Fiancé In August I reconnected with a friend I haven’t seen in 7 years, (we’ve been friends for 10+ yrs). We hung out all night, laughed, joked, talked, and after hanging out again a few weeks later we had sex. A month later he went back to his fiancé (they were broken up for a few months) and she starte... | self.offmychest |
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The only antidepressant that ever has worked for me is Cymbalta. I took it 4 years ago for 8 months and I had never felt better during that time.
I used to be depressed, fatigued, with sleep problem, anxiety and stress for years. But Cymbalta helped me. Once i quit i... | self.depression |
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