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Bipolar spiritual awakening 2 years ago I was in the middle of exams of my first semester of college. I went into extreme mania with symptoms of psychosis and didn’t sleep for nearly 2 weeks. I was hospitalized for 3 1/2 months and they tried to give me anaesthesia and medications to make me sleep but nothing would wor... | self.bipolar |
I'm sure I'm gonna kill myself Hopefully today I will but I'm a coward so I might not. But it doesn't matter. Ill kill myself one day. Tomorrow today a year from now, it doesn't matter. I've excepted that ill never change and I'm to sick to ever live a life that makes me fill fulfilled. I'm not happy with any thing in ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Anxiety makes it hard to talk to people, but depression makes me feel alone I know it's my own problem but damn sometimes the loneliness just gets to me. I have nobody right now. Internet friends can only be there so long and do so much. Sometimes I really feel like I'm over with being afraid and sad, but days like thi... | self.Anxiety |
im too fucking weak to exist i swear to god i wasnt meant for this planet
i just called the suicide hotline. no hygiene for nearly a decade because of my depression has turned my teeth into rot but i dont have dental insurance, or any insurance for that matter. the anxiety wont go away. the pain wont go away and i hav... | self.SuicideWatch |
I miss you I hate being without you. you've become so different and I hate it. I honestly need you in my life rn because I feel broken and alone. I cant do this. You always say you'll be there for me but when it actually comes down to it you aren't. I love and miss you so much. I hate how we are right now. I just want ... | self.offmychest |
Anxiety and memory loss I woke up this morning with heightened anxiety levels. Had a panic attack that affected me physically (rapid pulse, aphasia, nausea, dizziness). Before that I had difficulty remembering the last couple of weeks and this persisted for another half-hour after the panic attack.
Does anyone else e... | self.Anxiety |
What am I doing wrong? Please help me? Please help me with any tips you can give. I'm very tired of not knowing what I'm doing wrong, and I want to change but I don't know what to do. This situation contributes to depression I believe, which I have taken medication for. I just don't see a solution to this horrible feel... | self.depression |
Fuck it Fuck, it's been a while since I have been on this part of reddit. I kinda guess I knew this day would come, I was just putting it off in my mind, but now it is to time to visit once again.
Instead of studying for my orgo exam tomorrow I'm sitting here numb and just trying to get the thoughts out before they... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm going to group therapy for the second time in my life and i'm scared. I'm scared that nothing will ever help me get better. I feel so hopeless and tired and lonely. Trapped inside my own mind forever. If only you could feel what i go through each day. Man life is just too much for me... | self.depression |
Facebook...... I really need to stay off that fucking site during this time.
For the record, I'm a 21 yo left-wing dude just south of Atlanta. Like right outside the city. Basically a mixture.
Anyways, anyone else staying off the book for the time being? I can't even check my notifications because I know if I res... | self.bipolar |
I heard burning bunch of charcoal in a sealed tiny space is the most painless way of suicide, i am contemplating about that. So I came across the internet and did my own research. I found that if you burn enough charcoal in a sealed room or small space it would increase certain amount of CO in the air which can cause y... | self.depression |
My friend and her daughter saved me today and they didn't even know it I'm functional at my job and with friends and family. On my own - it's the worst. In my mind, that's when I just want to die, but will never have the guts to do it myself.
I agree with others here that the guilt of leaving loved ones behind... the ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Think real hard when you say it'll get better Living with depression for more than a decade and have had this line used on me since as a kid.
Let me tell you something.
When you say that shit. You give false hope.
When you give false hope. Its met with disappointment.
What happens after disappointment? Multiplicati... | self.depression |
DAE Half-sleep Talking/Dreaming? Does anyone else get very tired very quickly and partially fall asleep, but still say out load the words that you are instantly dreaming? Like be in a conversation, get lost in thought, and the next thing you know you are half-asleep and saying something completely irrelevant to the con... | self.bipolar |
I cant stand this boredom anymore! Its been quite a while now, this boredom is literally killing me, I just don't know what to do with myself anymore!! Nothing seem to really catch my attention anymore..
I have been a gamer and internet addict for so long but now gaming doesnt make it anymore, I have way to much free t... | self.depression |
Can we talk about the rampant sexual abuse in psych hospitals? My good.friend was raped by a tech, thankfully she sued the hospital and won. Once I woke up with my gown and blankets pulled.up to my waist with my vagene expeosed. It's like we go there for help and get molested. | self.bipolar |
Did you... Judgments are like farts, the loud are careless and empty. The silent ones are deadly. | self.offmychest |
I can't do anything right So yesterday was shitty, and I tried to make myself feel better by baking some Christmas cookies since I had some free time. I followed a basic shortbread cookie recipe, and I used the molds that my mom said were for shortbread cookies. Everything was going fine until the cookies were cooling,... | self.depression |
Nothing will ever be good enough You struggle infinitely and none of it means shit. Only to end in disappointment. I don’t crave external validation or pats on the back, I’m just fucking tired of inhuman toiling for zero returns.
My lung disease has robbed me of all joy or rest quite literally, every aspect of my lif... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm planning on ODing soon. I’m planning to OD some pills soon. but there’s something lingering in my mind. I’m not scared of dying itself. I'm scared of the afterlife. See, I was raised, Christian. I used to believe in God, however, I'm now Agnostic. It’s just that, the idea of Hell was hammered into my mind by my fam... | self.SuicideWatch |
You are a horrible human being. I can't believe what you did. After all she's done for you, after everything you've been through together, you walk out on them? At Christmas? I never liked you much anyway but shes my friend and she loved you. She didn't deserve this. I hope things don't work out with this new woman. Yo... | self.offmychest |
anxiety and diet? Hi,
I have heard that gluten, dairy, and sugar can contribute to anxiety due to the way they can spike blood sugar, resulting in highs and lows of brain chemicals. I am going to try not eating them for the next 30 days to see if it helps in my personal life but I was just curious if anybody on here ... | self.Anxiety |
Bipolar 2 -- can hypomania last for months? It seems like lots of people describe hypomania as lasting a few days or weeks. As I look back (and count my regrets) it seems my last episode extended from last October through April, or even May. Six months seems like a lot—is it possible I'm reading too deeply into this? | self.bipolar |
Why can't I let go I had a brakeup almost 2 years ago. We were stupid young. Lets just say 8th grade. She took my virginity and i took hers. I never thought of that as a big deal. Then she left me for my best friend. I considered him a brother. I was fucking torn up(I didn't know about him and her yet). It happened on... | self.SuicideWatch |
After effects of benzos So basically I was wondering if benzos can make u more socially awkward for a few days after a pill wears off or even longer? I’m finally feeling a lot less awkward these days but then I ended up taking klonopin for neck pain so could that possibly make me feel more awkward for the next couple o... | self.Anxiety |
Is anyone else relatively high-functioning with chronic depression? My neglected childhood was such a constant struggle for survival that I never really formed a personality or developed interests. I've led a relatively successful life since graduating highschool and escaping that hell six years ago. I graduated univer... | self.depression |
I keep forgetting time commitments and sleeping through my alarm I am on disability, so I am used to not having things to do most days. (Well, I focus on betterment, but there's no time commitments to keep). Lately, I have been trying to plan more things to do, including getting back to work as a substitute and taking ... | self.bipolar |
I have trouble getting over my first relationship and forgetting my ex It's now almost a year since my girlfriend left me and from time to time I still feel devastated. I could try to break it down but I'd say it's important to get all the details so let's begin from the start.
I'm in my mid twenties now and never rea... | self.offmychest |
I hate being awake It just reminds me of all the shit that's happened to me lately. Just wish I could sleep all day and never wake up. | self.SuicideWatch |
At this point, I should just do it. I want to kill myself for me. It's selfish. It's purely selfish. I don't care about anyone or anything anymore. I want to die for myself. I am so tired of living this horrid life. I want it to be over. I don't care how it will affect my family or friends. I just want myself to be hap... | self.SuicideWatch |
Feel like life's too hard for me, wanna give up [deleted] | self.depression |
I need someone to talk to now... seriously I have posted some time before about how I am feeling about my life abd stuff like that. But now it got worse someone stole all my money today from my wallet and now I have nothing left expect my dog that I cant even buy food for... Someone please talk to me... I have been th... | self.SuicideWatch |
Starting conversation with a cute girl. Is this ok? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Just another failure vent... I am a failure. A quitter. A disappointment to myself and everyone around me. And I hate myself for it.
I have an amazing, supportive family, who have given me every opportunity imaginable to improve my chances of success in life, and I've let them down time and time and again.
I was wha... | self.depression |
18 no life and i dont know what to do where do i start [deleted] | self.depression |
How can I stop depression's effects on my appearance? [deleted] | self.depression |
Feeling really depressed and confused about life In a nutshell, I've had depression and anxiety for most of my life. The depression was pretty much nonexistent for years, but it's certainly been rearing its ugly head recently. I don't want to write too much, but basically I have few friends and feel very alone. Members... | self.depression |
What do you guys think..? Is there anything I can do to help deal with my depression better? Other than therapy (not financially feasible at the moment), and drinking (trying to stop being an alcoholic)? Also I'm not interested in suicide. But are there things that I can be doing just to make life a bit more bearable ... | self.depression |
Decision time It's gonna snow here on friday. It's gonna be cold. Contemplating about taking sleeping pills and alcohol. Travel deep into the woods while I play some atmosphereic black metal. If that doesn't work than I'm sure hypothermia will get the best of me. Life is...nicht gut. | self.SuicideWatch |
Anxiety and alcohol Does anyone ever get anxiety from getting awful hangover headaches? Last night, I drank a couple glasses of wine at a (quite delayed) holiday party, and to my dismay this morning, I woke up with a terrible headache. Whenever I get hangover headaches, I get incredibly anxious that this headache is go... | self.Anxiety |
Got discharged from the mental hospital I posted earlier this week...Sunday I think. I don’t remember. I don’t remember anything from the last two weeks since my doctor cut my meds in half because he thought I was “doing better”. It led to a psychotic break. Now I have a gash down my arm and an intense fear of being le... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm only 15 and I feel this way What's the point of life anymore. I come home everyday just to deal with depression and the thought of dying. I sit in the same room everyday with my face pressed against my monitor. My family is delusional and filled with depression besides my grandfather and my brother. My sister doesn... | self.depression |
Really want to do it So imma be completely honest, im 18 years old. Im a very shy person, and I always struggled to have friends. I currently have like 3-4 friends but we don't really hang out a lot.
So almost 2 years ago I met an awesome girl who made me change the way I looked at my own life, she made me happy, she ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Overwhelmed all the time? I'm finishing up my first year of college as well as one of the most stressful school years I've ever experienced. I've had an anxiety disorder my whole life and it's constant year-round, but during the school year, it tends to amplify tenfold. This past year has especially been a bit rough. W... | self.Anxiety |
Took a personal day... My first time managing moods before it turns into an incident at work. I have an apt with my pdoc tomorrow after a bad anxiety reaction to one of my medications. I thought I was too aggressive at work due to increased stress so I took a day off to get my shit together. I thought I’d feel really g... | self.bipolar |
Man it's 00.08 in 2018 and I'm crying alone in my room [deleted] | self.depression |
5-day crash detox... Day 2 I've been hobbled by alcoholism for a decade now, which has led to a vicious cycle of depression, self-medication, and shame. Yesterday, I took a week off work, completely cleaned out all booze from my apartment, laid in 7 days of food... and holed up.
It has not been pleasant. But this is ... | self.depression |
i just had my first mini breakdown im just laying in bed, breathing uncontrollably. this has never happened to me before. but i feel like i just cant make myself accomplish anything. not even the things i love that i really want to do. its like im a waste incapable of productivity. a total waste that will never fin... | self.depression |
I'm physically surrounded with people but emotionally alone Haha! Hello, reddit; I'm a long-time reader but not user.
You see, I have an emotionally neglectful upbringing. My grandparents were my guardians as my parents were only college students. They fed, clothe, bathe and gave me things but didn't give emotional s... | self.SuicideWatch |
Hypomania fading. Hello again, depression A plunge! A dive! I gamble fate.
Abandon control! Obey gravity.
From here, Earth's claw cannot overbear. I hear nothing. Dead silence! I grasp as comfort. I pilot limbs as if they were wings :) Carve through the clouds! Plummet to the below. I pilot limbs! I gamble fate!
--... | self.bipolar |
I'm going to leave my wife so I can find a job I can't find any jobs in the industry I work in in the area I'm in. My wife already has a good job. I cannot stand my current job and I want out from whatever means necessary. So I'm going to look for jobs outside my area and if I get one I'll move. I don't know what e... | self.offmychest |
Had an anxiety attack and feel very down About 3 days ago I had an anxiety attack and before that I had been doing well. My anxiety had started to come less often, I started going on dates with a girl, and over all things were looking good. But after that, I feel like all my progress has disappeared and I’m back to squ... | self.Anxiety |
Everything’s good in my life, but I’m still sad [deleted] | self.depression |
Not sure of much anymore. Sorry for the long vent.
I'm not exactly sure what I'm doing here. I haven't been doing great, my Prozac seems to just be doing little to nothing. And I just upped the does maybe about 2 or so months ago. Late at night I just get so fucking lonely I dont have any real friends. I have 'friends'... | self.SuicideWatch |
Help regarding social anxiety and a dear friend Now. A bit of a precursor. I'm a hot mess at times. I've got severe clinical depression and chronic anxiety. I'm not on medication for it and though I'm attempting to seek professional help it can take a bit of time given that I moved a few months back to a state where I'... | self.Anxiety |
I feel like there's something wrong with me There's this feeling that there's something wrong with me. I feel like no matter how much I try to improve and better myself, nothing will happen. I'm 24 years old and never had a girlfriend. Some girls jokingly thought that I was gay but it hurt me inside. I feel like everyo... | self.depression |
I seriously want to kill myself what is wrong with me [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Listening to music, replacing the lyrics with ideations When i was back in secondary school i used to make up songs about suicide and kicking a bullys ass, which i did do a few times i may add, and never thought much about how i felt and such.
Recently ive noticed that ive been suffering from depression from way to lo... | self.depression |
sad girl :( I never want to leave my house. I cover up my feelings by eating a lot. I never feel like I'm good enough because I don't have guys hitting on me or asking me out. I just want to be loved and know that a matter. I can't find a reason for why I should stay. I just want to sleep and never wake up. I don't wan... | self.depression |
Kinda wanna delete all social media kinda come to the realisation when I have that thought that social media is my coping mechanism Doesn’t feel particularly healthy but when obtrusive and hurtful thoughts enter my brain it’s a quicker fix than anything else I’ve tried | self.depression |
How should I approach an obsessive worry? I have recently dealt with a recent, traumatic bout of anxiety over an entirely different issue, which I have since dealt with.
Following this event, and due to my reading into OCD (related to the other problem), I have become increasingly worried that I could picture/imagine ... | self.Anxiety |
Suicide is always an option They say suicide should never be an option. For me personally realizing the fact that suicide actually is ALWAYS an option kinda gives me peace to mind, for a brief moment. I never really understood what the big deal about suicide was, maybe I'm sick in the head for saying this but I think p... | self.SuicideWatch |
I tried coming out but no one reads what I write! Gee, that was an unnecessarily nerve-racking experience for me. I tried coming out of the closet on Instagram through the use of stories. I had written texts on a few different pictures, but no one looked past the first one (only a couple looked at it). I asked one of t... | self.offmychest |
My brother didn't get me anything for Christmas. I'm [22F] kind of pissed at my brother [27]. He did not get me, nor our parents anything for Christmas. I'm not the type of person who needs a whole bunch of shit.. but still..
He lives with my parents, paying $120 a month for rent. He gets his laundry done, food made f... | self.offmychest |
I feel like a failure So I went to a military school for high school, which was expensive to say the least for my parents. I’m now in college, and am failing out because I don’t go to class because I’m a fucking loser. I’ve decided to join the Army, as that’s been my goal for my whole life and I feel like I can get bac... | self.offmychest |
Given up on myself (possibly controversial) I kind of have a lot in my head right now so sorry if this post jumps around a lot. I am 20 years old and a convicted felon and registered sex offender for life. I know I have failed my parents but they are too supportive to tell me that. I was convicted in October of 2016 bu... | self.SuicideWatch |
Someone take my work email access away I’ve been working really hard. I communicated twice to my leadership that I wanted a technical team back which I had before I took FMLA.
We saw the org chart today and there I am off to the side with no fucking team. Asshole nose noise maker got a promotion and a new team. Lots ... | self.bipolar |
All of a sudden, I just stopped being functional. Can't go to school. Help. When I got back to school after Christmas break I just assumed the the jittery feeling in my stomach was standard protocol, I just needed to get back into the swing of things and then I'd be back to feeling moderately fine and only sometimes an... | self.Anxiety |
Getting manic after what I thought was the most stable period of my life post diagnosis I had a terrible, terrible mixed state episode in the Fall and early winter but Zyprexa really stabled me out. I hadn't been that stable in years. I am able to read again and I'm just so happy to be content, if not a little bored an... | self.bipolar |
I failed all my midterms this quarter. It's mainly my fault since I took Chemistry, Physics, and Math thinking I could handle them. Little did I know I barely had time to study mainly because Labs ate up so much of my time. Our professors kept emphasizing going to labs and doing all the required material for labs that ... | self.offmychest |
Does any kind of anxiety eventually turn into numbness at some point? Particularly if a certain or peak level of anxiety can sustain for an extended period of months or years, can it get to a certain point where the feelings start to "numb down" slowly? I'm starting to feel this to an extent. Sometimes, it's also like ... | self.Anxiety |
I am done with this life. I have had enough of everything. there is nothing in this world I want anymore. [deleted] | self.depression |
Dreams My dreams seem to be so much better than my own reality. I have so many amazing activities and such a blissful existence no thoughts of the fact that one day I'll pass or that my loved ones will die
No feelings of being detached from every day activities and feelings
No feelings of being bored and no feelings o... | self.depression |
"I liked you better when you weren't depressed so... can you just stop being depressed?" Dylan, My old best friend. About half a year ago Dylan brought up something that has me so mad now that I look back on it. He said and I quote "You know what...? I liked you better when you weren't depressed but then you all of a s... | self.depression |
I need a new sitcom to watch I'm almost done watching Friends all the way through due to being unable to get out of bed. What should I watch next? I've heard New Girl is good. | self.bipolar |
Just got out of therapy. Cried the whole way home thinking about how much I wanted to kill myself. Hope you're having a good day.:) | self.SuicideWatch |
Feeling suicidal? Honestly I've just given up on everything and I don't have anyone to talk to when I have these feelings. I just feel like a bullet is the best solution to the pain sometimes. | self.depression |
i think I'm severely depressed I think I'm severely depressed. The hardest thing is maintaining performance at a high stress job. Sometimes on my way to work, I would literally wish an 18 wheeler would side swipe me enough for me to be hurt enough to take a month off work. It's really selfish but I can't help but feel ... | self.offmychest |
Found out I'm on academic suspension after attending 4 classes c: My GPA suffered last semester because i wasn't in a good mental state the last few months. With work, finding out my parents are trying to sell our place and just trying my best to not let my thoughts and emotions drown me I wasn't focusing on my studies... | self.Anxiety |
The only reason I don't kill myself is that I want to finish writing my books. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
My SO deserves better I would rate him a 4/10 in the looks department. Was kind to me at work even a little annoying. Went out to dinner as friends but in his mind, it was a date. He asked me to be his GF and I friend-zoned him. I had guys who I got along with better and were 8/10 trying to date me. However, my SO was ... | self.offmychest |
Total Failure, Don't know what to do Hi everyone, 22 now. In a deep pit. Never finished highschool, had only 2 jobs and quit my last one after a month. Always hated school, was always a bad student. Never learned anything from my parents and have no siblings. No family either besides my dad who I live with and who pays... | self.depression |
I am going to kill my self I will kill myself in 1 week try and coax me out of it I dare you | self.depression |
Just started Lexapro - I feel nothing? Hey guys,
My doctor's put me on 5mg of Lexapro daily to help with my anxiety and depression.
I took my first dose yesterday and suddenly, I couldn't feel anything. I was completely apathetic and dull. I felt so strange - I spent most of the day just lying in bed and staring at ... | self.Anxiety |
I plan to end it all soon, but thank you to those kind souls. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Life keeps putting me down each year even worse, don't know what to do anymore Hi everyone.
I will make you a list of real life issues in the timeline they happened and you tell me what to do in order not to get lost into deep depression as I feel I have been depressed a lot lately.
1. When I was 10 I had 4 serious s... | self.depression |
I can’t handle reality I have to spend all day trying to distract myself because once I remember what’s happening and what my life is I want to die. I don’t know how to keep reality at bay.
I’m so lonely. I have no friends and no one wants to be my friend. I’m tired of getting rejected. I now have to watch the girl I... | self.SuicideWatch |
An awful Sunday. Today is the day in which I really need the help of a doctor or Psychiatrist, however doctors offices are closed on Sundays. I just want meds and therapy, I refuse to enter a psych ward. I can't figure out who I am or why I'm unhappy, I just think I have the fear of being alone. I have a girlfriend, ho... | self.depression |
I can't get over this mistake at work. My company had a run today. I have an injury where I can't run. (In the army btw) I was put on road guard detail. Anyway I wasn't sure of the direction where they were running. I messed up and a Sergeant Major was in the front of the run and several other people I work with. They ... | self.offmychest |
i wish i could sleep beside someone every night i hate being alone so much and i am pretty scared to fall asleep most of the time if i am not very tired. anyone else? | self.depression |
Not use to reality Not use to my reality right now or ever. Its hard dealing with my mind. Its hard having an evil spirit in me. Its hard knowing my brother killed someone. Its hard knowing my mom is in a god awful marriage. Its hard knowing that my second attempt should had worked but didn't. Its hard going to wo... | self.SuicideWatch |
Zoloft and Pom wonderful juice I have read a little bit about Pom juice interacting with prescriptions.
Is Pom juice ok to drink with Zoloft?
Thanks
| self.Anxiety |
This was a journal entry, but I feel like I should share this for others In the wake of another small spontaneous explosion of repressed emotions, I have resolved to finally begin recording my thoughts and experiences in hopes of finding some sort of paradisiacal solace. It is no easy task to describe the psychological... | self.offmychest |
I want to die I am tired to trying. It has come to a point where I have no hope for the future. I look forward to my death. I felt so angry I started smashing things in my house just because I could no longer cope. Then I took my car out to the freeway even though it's -20 and the roads are freezing and stomped on the ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Im a shell On the outside i am generally quiet but look like i am in no mood for anything. Yet at the same time i will contribute to conversations when im in public or speaking to my parents but inside i feel like its all an act that they dont see me for what i truly am, A hollowed out person who is scraping by living ... | self.depression |
No More Disassociation Has anyone successfully stoped severe dissociative issues? Can you? How?
My dream is to work in education, however serious issues with dissociation and sleep make that impossible right now. I’m devastated. I want to find a way to get over my dissociative issues. | self.bipolar |
The feeling when you'd like to hang out with friends, but don't have any friends to hang out with. I'm lonely. | self.depression |
I can't stop thinking about harming myself I'm very distraught, depressed, and I keep thinking about ways to harm myself. I don't want to kill myself, but I don't want to live. I'm in this strange spot in the middle, and I do not feel like myself. I've always had problems with keeping focus, but now my mind just wants ... | self.SuicideWatch |
If you are feeling anxious and feeling bad for yourself read this I watched this one TED talk - I've linked it below. It talks about getting what you want. And I want to be a happy individual who just happens to also have anxiety. Its been more than a week now and it seems to be working. The trick is to do what you nee... | self.Anxiety |
College students! Question: how do you sit still in class while manic? I struggle with this so much.
I bounce, rock, talk out loud, etc,
--it's a mess!
Anyone else struggle with this? How do you manage? | self.bipolar |
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