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I have no one to turn to. Killing myself on my birthday tomorrow. Please help me Tomorrow I turn 24 and I am killing myself. Reasons behind this aren’t important because I don’t want to be talked out of it. Unfortunately much like many of you guys I am scared my attempt will not be successful so that is why I haven’t d... | self.SuicideWatch |
Anyone willing to PM me? Ready to try SUICIDE again, 2nd time this week. I HATE my life. This loneliness & being less-than-Human. Edit 2: Kindly do not offer to “help” when your actions make it clear you don’t want to help. I’m no longer replying to PMs,
b/c the last thing I want when I came here was further reje... | self.SuicideWatch |
How to relieve tension Hi all,
I've been struggling with depression and anxiety for some time now. The depression can come in the form of just a bad day or more prolonged episodes.
I fell into an episode a week ago and one of the symptoms is a constant feeling of tension; a headache and tight muscles mainly around th... | self.depression |
Not living up to my social potential I once was so funny, out going, made friends and girlfriends soo easy.
Now basic conversation with the gas station cashier can be tough.
The real me is buried under a lot of mental and emotional crap
| self.depression |
Success Is Making Me Sad (Workaholism & The Emptiness of Achievement) Hey reddit :)
I almost never post to threads but something has been bothering me immensely for the past few months.
I need to make it immensely clear upfront that this is not a humble-brag: I am in excruciating mental and emotional pain and fel... | self.offmychest |
Really feeling it tonight... Idk what it is, just one of those nights where your thoughts run wild and it brings out the worst in you. I feel so worthless. I feel like im just taking up space. The world wouldnt be any worse off without me. I don't think I wanna die but i certainly don't want to be alive on this planet ... | self.depression |
Any folks in their 30s and 40s hereabouts? I notice that a lot of people here seem quite young -- and that's fine. We all need help coping, and a diverse posting community helps with all sorts of points of view.
But I'm wondering how many of us here are a bit older than the typical Redditor. I know that as a person in... | self.depression |
Anxiety over simple things like going to a family members house for dinner or a friend coming over to hang out. Something just as simple as going over to a cousins house for a cookout gives me a panic attack.
Something even more simple like a friend coming over to watch the football game gives me awful anxiety. Like,... | self.Anxiety |
Manipulative ex I spent the last year of my life trying to get an asshole to care about me. We met December of last year and I thought he was great.
Then in February, he cheated on me for the first time. A friend of mine told me and it tore me apart. I told him leave me alone for a week and then decide if he either wa... | self.offmychest |
THG Hey, so im just post in for some advise and guidance if you could. So I dont know when to start, as a child I was used to being a "follower" and happy back then. But after the age of like 10 I found my first friend. He was amazing, but sadly moved a few months later..So ever since that I've taken this new outlook o... | self.depression |
I'm an atheist and my best friend converted to Christianity and has just changed so drastically . He doesn't want to talk to me that much anymore.. I feel like my friendship is slowly ending and it hurts so bad.. [deleted] | self.depression |
I feel like I just ruined a friendship... I recently got the contact info of a girl I like, and we actually hit it off really well. Late-night gaming sessions, phone calls into the early morning, etc. I thought she seemed pretty into me, so a few days ago I told her how I felt. She's cool with it but said she doesn't w... | self.offmychest |
Can't do this anymore. Just have to say something. I don't know when exactly but I know how. I know it will hurt maybe 2 people, but they have people to live for, and they'll get over it soon enough. Maybe it'll give them a deeper connection with life and what time they have left, because we all die sooner or later. My... | self.SuicideWatch |
i didn't do enough to stop a child sex predator I was a very awkward teenager. Very unattractive, low self-esteem, didn't get a lot of attention from anyone at school. I spent a lot of time online, hanging out in chat rooms.
A guy started talking to me. I was 13. He said he was in his 20s. We flirted, cybered, I sent... | self.offmychest |
Starting to freak out about starting a new job tomorrow. So tomorrow, I’m going to be starting a new job as a library page, and I’m really nervous about it. Even though I’ve dreamed of working in a library for years now, I can’t help but worry that I won’t do a good enough job, or that I’ll mess up somehow. I already t... | self.Anxiety |
Life huh some people are born without any luck , here is proof :
* born 28 years ago.
* mother : prostitute till she died , got pregnant while she was
doing her clients , died when i was 17 on cancer
* father : since she is a prostitute , no idea
* stephdad : abused me till 13 years old. got sex with
animal... | self.depression |
When your boyfriend is your only friend and something is making you sad and paranoid about your relationship but you have no one to talk with so your brain keeps chanting KILL YOURSELF! KILL YOURSELF! It’s not even that big of a deal. It’s miscommunication at best and he probably doesn’t care but I’m freaking out and w... | self.depression |
Im waving around a bleeding open wound (credit to fiona apple) I talked about trauma all day on reddit and to my friends and my therapist.
I can't stop crying. The things that happened to me. I dont feel bad for me at this age, I feel so sad for that 12 year old girl. I mean bad things happened at 5, then 11, then 1... | self.bipolar |
Thank YOU for making it another year! Keep Fighting. We can do this. | self.depression |
One of my hardest days in years. Need some validation from someone who understands. Very anxious day. Electricity running through me all day. That knot of tangled thread in my stomach being pulled in all directions. The thoughts that my obstacles are insurmountable. Muscular tension. Inability to focus. Circling the (... | self.Anxiety |
Redditors with bipolar, what happens to you when you smoke weed ? A normal high? Or something different ? | self.bipolar |
I wouldn’t consider myself a suicidal person, but I sometimes entertain the thought of being wiped from the timeline. My family, my friends, I care about all of them. Very deeply. But I’m a ghost. Its funny, I’m typing all this out with a smile on my face. I’m in a great mood, had a fun day, played some video games onl... | self.depression |
What do you guys think of my mom... I was taking a shower and was deep in thoughts when I realised something that I never did before, my mom was pretty strict. When I was much younger, maybe like 5-10 years, I realised that my mom didn't buy me any toys, she refused too. As such, I had a pretty boring childhood as I st... | self.offmychest |
How to stay energised after a diet change? Hi!
I've been a long-time lurker here and thought to make this a separate post to potentially help others in my situation.
I was diagnosed with general anxiety disorder five years ago, but due to an enzyme deficiency/digestive system disorder I've been advised not to take ... | self.Anxiety |
Insurance sent a letter saying no more Latuda I got a one month supply of Latuda. I've been on it for 2 weeks and it's made a difference. I've tried 13 other drugs and this one has been the best. I got a letter telling me to try 6 other atypical (really 5, I already tried abilify) before they'll pay for Latuda again. I... | self.bipolar |
Hallucinations make fantastic plots for bedtime stories Last Friday, I was at an offsite for work. It was a conference thing with lots of people doing presentations. During the third talk of the morning, I started to see things that weren't there. At first, it was small things. The hair of the people in front of me... | self.bipolar |
No one loves me for me Everyone wants me to be someone I'm not. I'm a good person who tries to be nice and fun but I guess I'm not doing a good enough job, and I guess the fact that I'm trying doesn't help.
I kinda just wish I was dead. I'm tired of disappointing people and not being good enough. I'm good enough for m... | self.depression |
Lyrics I recite to myself when I’m feeling awful... [deleted] | self.depression |
I feel as if I cannot talk to people [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Nothing has ever been right Nothing has gone right in my life.My mother is blind in one eye & needs someone to take care of her.My father is a paranoid schizophrenic who has never had a job.I've lived in poverty for the majority of my life.I lived with my parents until I was 25 because I couldn't support myself.I m... | self.depression |
I'm going to kill myself tonight So basically for over a year now I've had depression, it started of mild and cope able but now i have to self harm to cope and no one understands how hard my life is for me. I also love this girl and she doesn't love me back and that kills me inside as i would do anything for her, i kno... | self.depression |
Friendship! So once again looking for friends , people to talk to in all walks at life. Im a M/22 from california big nerd and just need to branch out a bit dont have much friends thinking of starting a discord for the reddit if people would be down to engage with fellow feelers | self.depression |
Had a stressful day, now hangover? Yesterday I had to go into the office (I work from home) and meet with my Director. I was so stressed since I hadn’t been in the office in so long and because of the meeting.
I requested the meeting and I had an agenda. We went off the agenda and it went 30 minutes over. I think it ... | self.bipolar |
My therapists advice doesn't work, what am i meant to do to get better? I've been struggling with mental health problems for, well realistically probably most my life. I'm 22 now. I've done various therapies and counselling, anything I could get my hands on since the age of 16 which actually hasn't been that much reall... | self.depression |
Has anyone else sort of given up, and you're okay with it? Not like you want to die, or like you can't get out of bed. I know those too. Nothing harmful or worrisome. But a fully burnt-out feeling, a huge silent so-what at the universe. Like: okay I have nothing better to do, so I'll go through the motions, best I can.... | self.bipolar |
DAE feel this way? Is this anxiety related? Usually at night, especially on days when I stayed in and didn’t do much, I get this feeling like I’m lost and scared, like the world doesn’t make sense to me and I just want to be back living with my parents when it did make sense. I almost feel like I’m not human. Doing som... | self.Anxiety |
Depressed and ugly as sin I thought I was real ugly for a long time while depressed, since I don't get dates or hit on or anything, but no one would give advice that was anything other than "oh, but you're so handsome!", or "you'll meet the right one one day!". I recently sent in my pics to amiugly and photofeeler, and... | self.depression |
Depressed as fuck and trying so hard to improve my life starting with the basics. Now the internet is going to get throttled and [deleted] | self.depression |
Do any of you feel really anxious/self-aware when you are forced to walk through a group of people? It’s like if you were trying to get into the grocery store but 5 or so people are huddled at the door talking and staring at you as you walk up. Now I know they are probably not really staring at me but I can’t help but ... | self.Anxiety |
Question about brain “alterations” from antipsychotics, especially others that quit because of side effects. **Edit**
Sorry, I stupidly forgot to link to anything I’m talking about.
[Link to the 2013 statement by Former NIMH Director Thomas Insel: Antipsychotics: Taking the Long View](https://www.nimh.nih.gov/about/... | self.bipolar |
How to make a suicide look like an accident? Not looking for attention, or life advice haha I'm too far gone. Just looking for some ideas on how to make my death look the most like an accident as possible. I'm thinking about an overdose, I've never done drugs before, don't know who or where to go to. Any tips on findin... | self.SuicideWatch |
How do you deal with your depression? I am feeling depressed for 13 years now, I am afraid I will never be truely happy and I don't know how I can deal with the fact that my life is not worth living without that which makes me happy -women.
I just don't know how many years I can go through being this lonely, no girlfr... | self.depression |
Meds for anxiety? Hey guys. I'm 21 and I've been dealing with anxiety for quite a while now. It has actually improved a lot since I was in high school, but it's still pretty bad sometimes. My voice is shaky sometimes, it cracks (I believe this is from anxiety, not 100% sure), and I have a strong fear of public speaking... | self.Anxiety |
Don't know the reason for my depression. I've been feeling depressed for a long,long time but never diagnosed.
The thing is, i don't know WHY I'm feeling this way. Why I'm always tired, always sad and frequently have suicidal thoughts. I have a great family who has always been supportive, an amazing girlfriend and eve... | self.depression |
What exciting, yet anxiety-inducing thing are you looking forward to this week? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Anybody else just shut down and start freaking out for the future? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
When to call the hotline? Where is the line? Don’t know where to post this - /r/Depression or /r/Anxiety and the I found this place. I don’t know why I feel like I’m drowning now. I thought my meds were working. Now I don’t think they are and it just seems like I should get off them because everything is dulled. I can’... | self.SuicideWatch |
Small Victory Saturday 9.30.17 Whether you got out of bed or your wildest dreams came true, you did something this week. What did you achieve? Let's celebrate our small (and big) victories together =) | self.bipolar |
I'll end it tomorrow Just want to stop crying everyday and escape from my life. Tomorrow should give me enough time to prepare. It would be better for me and others if I was gone. No one would miss me... | self.SuicideWatch |
BP community, also suffer from PTSD and ADHD-C need your support please I'm 29 years old, struggling to maintain employment, seeing a psych and have tried so many medications, just looking for input with those diagnosed with both ADHD-Combined Type and Bipolar 2. When I saw my last doctor that diagnosed me with Bipolar... | self.bipolar |
Bipolar and shrooms Hi just last year I was diagnosed bipolar type II. I'm not really clear on my diagnose since I've never been on a manic state, my psychiatrist says I have hypomania. But the truth is that most of the time I'm really depressed. I get triggered by an ongoing relationship with a friend that used to be ... | self.bipolar |
Dad's mad at me again I almost got out of depression after 2 suicide attempts. Dad's been actinf weird and screaming at me n blaming me whenever something goes wrong its somehow my fault. Im just looking for someone to talk too. | self.SuicideWatch |
Anyone else have small bursts of happiness? About 70% of the time I feel like usual... kind of empty. Some days are better, some worse; on the bad days I have to force myself to pretend to smile and enjoy things, but I'm not actively suffering. Still pretty shitty. There's a good 10% of the time I have an awful sadness... | self.depression |
20 y/o leaving country for first time to study abroad [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Stupid question. Am i really depressed if i wasnt diagnosed with it? Its not like doctor said im not depressed, but i just havent been to one. | self.depression |
One Person One person wished me a merry Christmas. one person wished me a happy new year. one person called to see if I was doing anything. He is literally my only friend. He knows I am depressed, but I don't think he realizes how much better he made me feel just by calling. I just wanted to say that if you know someon... | self.depression |
I just want to stop fighting my own psyche. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
When your episodes fucks up your life I am on my way out of a long lasting depressive episode (around a year), and the "better" I get the more I realize how much I have fucked up.
I started a PhD in cancer research, a year and a half ago I was on top of the world, did great in both my former job and my new PhD positio... | self.bipolar |
Looking for a purpose I don't get it. It feels like my life has no meaning. I was really unstable for most of this year and now I'm probably the most "sane" I've ever been. But the only purpose I could find the only thing that made me push through the B's was my friends and now that they're gone it feels like I'm witho... | self.SuicideWatch |
Nothing makes me happy and i don’t know how to fix it.. I feel like I’m drowning. | self.depression |
Why are people who are obsessed with video games such insufferable people compared to people with other obsessions/interests? [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I feel empty. I don't want to live but i don't want to neck myself. All i want is to live. To be happy. My life is so slow and nothing is happening, so i may as well kill myself. Its one day after another and nothing is happening. I am so fucking angry and sad that i feel nothing. I want a job, I want to move out, I wa... | self.SuicideWatch |
Would this be rapid cycling? So what happens is I’ll have a hypomania last 3 to 4 days, followed by a couple days
Of stability, then a mixed state for another couple days, then a week of depression. I am medicated but this has been happening for like 2 years. I don’t know what to do. I’m at the tail end of depression a... | self.bipolar |
I don't get why I haven't been able to find someone special [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Be careful of telephone spoofers who say you're eligible for extra benefits with your insurance [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Once I slip into the 'oneitis' mental - that's it. ...I no longer see girls for the bad decision-making organ cupboards of flesh that they are.
I put them on a pedestal so fucking high you could base-jump off it and land safely on the Taipei Tower with more clearance than Danny Devito's hairline.
Man, I've just start... | self.depression |
Staring a new job friday, stressed AF. Need advice. So I start this new job this Friday(Yay). I am very exited. But I'm stressed and anxious AS FUCK!!! This is why: I'll be operating forklifts and some kind of loader trucks, which I never did before. They say they will show me how, which is good. But every time I learn... | self.Anxiety |
I've realise I can't take any action in life because I see the world like the skeleton organ from The Goonies. For anyone who's never seen The Goonies (or if it's been a while since you've seen it):
one of the traps the kids come to is a stone chamber, with the door leading onwards sealed, and a pipe organ made from ... | self.offmychest |
Looking for advice on overcoming task anxiety When I have something to do I get very stressed and avoid doing it for as long as possible, even if it’s something I want to do. The worst is filling out forms, sending emails or taking care of basic household chores. What has worked for you to overcome these avoidant tende... | self.Anxiety |
Ennui It's really hard for me to NOT write an essay about this topic. My thoughts are everywhere, and they are nowhere. Like some electron cloud, each idea following a crazy orbit all its own, uninterrupted by others.
But, I don't really understand this whole "life" thing. I mean, I'm sure that almost nobody does--but... | self.depression |
God I don’t know what to do... I lost my job today. I didn’t even get to talk to anyone and plead my case. I lost my health insurance, which I need for my seizures, my asthma, and my depression. I have no way to pay my car payment. My parents are so stressed my mom has been yelling and worried for an hour now.
Also, ... | self.SuicideWatch |
when should I get help for anxiety? I've been really anxious for a few weeks now. I can barely get out of my bed. I am almost always late for school and started to self-harm again.
I don't know if I should get help or not.
I feel like my problems are so stupid and it's really hard for me to talk about them face to face... | self.Anxiety |
Why is having a friend too much to ask for? I’m tired of always feeling so alone. It’s so tiring to pretend everyday that I’m happy. I just want someone I can be honest with. I’ve tried everything: joining clubs, talking to people, working hard to attract people, I even help everyone out with their work. I just want so... | self.depression |
DMT for bipolar depression So... Sorry if this isn't the most coherent, I'm not very educated. Don't give me a hard time please.
I was taking 300 mg bupropion, 80 mg latuda and lithium (300 mg bid and 450 mg in the mornings) but then I had a breakdown, cut and bruised myself and lost my meds. My doctor took ... | self.bipolar |
How can I cope with selling my stuff and rude customers? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I'll be having my first almost sleepover this weekend at the age of 20. My entire life I've had social anxiety. My friends would come and go and next to all would leave. Because of this, in my 20 years of living, I've only been to a friend's house maybe 20 times max but I would never sleep over.
A sleepover is every l... | self.Anxiety |
Anxiety when getting rid of unused items Hi everyone. I had severe depression and moderate anxiety (I'm assuming it's moderate because some of the symptoms of it may be depression) and I get very upset when donating or selling even small things. I think of all the fun times or if it's something someone else bought me I... | self.Anxiety |
Is it worth it? Sorry for long post, i'm just venting
I'm going through a really tough time in my life right now that i'm now too depressed to even go to school or do work. I go to online school because every time I try to go to regular school I freak out and start hyperventilating and crying because of past extreme b... | self.depression |
I am useless. I do not want to live. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I put a shotgun in my mouth on christmas eve and it clicked but didn't fire I haven't told anyone. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm so far below the poverty line I can't SEE it any more I have no money to pay my bills. The government help I can get will only pay half of it, and my family say they can't help me. I'm applying for so many jobs right now.
I just want to die I have gone through so much shit in my life I can't take it any more. I ha... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm going to kill myself in about 4 hours [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Is there any reason to live? Its getting harder and harder to get a decent job that pays a living wage. So i think i will end up homeless. Is there a reason to live if you don't have a future? No? | self.SuicideWatch |
Overdosing on Benzos? Is combining benzos with alcohol effective for suicide? (I have access to Xanax and Lorazepam & Whiskey) A friend told me a while ago, that the combination is dangerous, but will this work? | self.depression |
I hate how as soon as you think things are getting better, depression hits again Things were starting to go well for me. Not peach perfect, but good enough to pass. My mood was up, I was starting to set goals and work towards them. I stopped coming to this sub.
Then all of a sudden the depression hit again. Now I'm a... | self.depression |
Feeling helpless Hi, I'm writing because my feelings of hopelessness and suicidal ideation are pretty high and I am having a hard time keeping myself together. For context, it's my finals week and I just missed a deadline for a large assignment. This event has been the straw that broke my back and I feel like I'm spira... | self.SuicideWatch |
Purpose. I don't want to die but what am I here for.. I don't want to kill myself but what am I here for. I don't really add anything. I just exist to buy things basically. I'm not needed yet I was born and want to exist. I'm not smart enough to make a difference yet here I am. Dull job consuming like a good slave... | self.depression |
Exercise study energy.. having a better morning. I share my desperation...so it's only fair i share my triumph Thank you | self.Anxiety |
I went on a date! I haven't out right said, "I'm bi polar," but I think he gets the picture lol
We were talking about sobriety and I said something about taking pharma drugs and "being perfectly okay with it." Also, I used a term like, "Well, I was manic that year," or something. Just a few things like that.
He's s... | self.bipolar |
Post-social anxiety I just got back from an outing with people from work and I'm having such bad anxiety. I can't stop thinking about whether or not I rambled too much or if I smelled like cigarettes the whole time. I'm also in the process of losing weight after ballooning 50+ lbs since I moved to a new city and all I ... | self.Anxiety |
I really don't know... I don't know what to do anymore.
I've been struggling with this for 8 years hoping things would get better and every time things seem to get better my life takes a 180 and im back to crying waking up and crying going to sleep.
I've waited and waited for things to get better, but they never do. ... | self.SuicideWatch |
"Everyone's got a place to be, but there's no room for me" I am suicidal. I have been for several years, ever since my depression started, five years ago (god, I can't believe it's been that long).
I am 19 years old. Beyond that I don't really know where to begin, so much has happened. I'll try to condense it into a si... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm not sure I'll make it through the winter. I'm seeing a counselor (MCOUN, LPC-i, NCC) and she's talking about ionization therapy and EMDR.
I was diagnosed with idiopathic peripheral neuropathy. I'm not entirely sure that's what is going on but Medicaid won't cover a second opinion. I don't have a job and I can't wa... | self.depression |
The one little thing I was looking forward to isn’t happening anymore. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
My illness would be much more Manageable if I would just change my negative attitude I had a rough start to today. I got to be at work at 6 30 am. I start off today by waking up and looking over at my clock that says its 6 25. I set my alarm clock to 5 20, but it never went off(it would still be buzzing when I woke up ... | self.bipolar |
I just hate myself I just hate everything about myself. I just feel disgusted with myself. Don't deserve growing up in a first world-country, don't deserve all the things that I have. Can't even be properly appreciative of these things because I'm such a piece of shit. I understand that not being able to always be appr... | self.depression |
I'm losing my best friends and it's all my fault [deleted] | self.depression |
Friend that I needed a ride from left me on my own at a bar so he could spend time with a woman he just met. [deleted] | self.depression |
I don't think I'm severely depressed but I'm considering suicide [deleted] | self.bipolar |
My friend and his "perfectionist son"... My friend is worried about his 10 year old son, because the kid is a perfectionist, gets anxious when he isn't perfect, can't stand losing, etc.
Go play a board game at the house and my friend is coaching the kid on every move, won't let him make mistakes, tells him a better ... | self.offmychest |
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