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Just realized that I'm not really living for anything. I don't really feel anything anymore. | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm a disappointment to my parents because I don't want to go to grad school. I hope I don't come across as entitled, or like I've never had a single problem in my life. Please let me know if I'm just being whiny.
If you read all of this, thank you.
I've been out of college for two years now. I graduated the month af... | self.offmychest |
I feel like my life is going to end at the end of a rope. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I hate my life I miss when I was a child, no younger sibling and life was great no bullying and life was great. Now I hate my life, I have a younger sibling, I get bullied in school, I had a masturbation problem, I hate my size, I’m ugly, I can’t pronounce some words correctly, My two friends in school turned against m... | self.depression |
Suicidal boyfriend We've been together about a year, he has a lot of debt from his time in active addiction that he still hasn't had the money to make payments on, he feels shitty about getting in trouble at work, not having a degree at 27 years old, not being able to potentially do a coding camp my dad offered to pay ... | self.SuicideWatch |
(23f)I feel like I dont have any passions. Help?? I am a 23 year old lady. I have a good enough job for my age and a pretty good housing situation right now, Im just feeling very listless most days. I need helping figuring out what other people do to find out what their passions are?
I dont have much money, I mean I ma... | self.offmychest |
I don't want to feel alone and brokenhearted anymore. I want to slip away. I'm good person, never hated anyone, never got into a fight, I have many friends, I'm tiny bit weird, I have survived horrible divorce of my parents that happened three years ago and I Believe I have been brought up right and well taught.
Neve... | self.SuicideWatch |
Is this dp or dr? Recently after some major stress and anxiety I feel almost empty? For a while I was worried about going crazy but now I just feel like something is off.
Its almost like the my sense of self and world are completely changed. It's giving me pretty bad anxiety on top of it.
Anyone got advice for how t... | self.Anxiety |
Why is the "its going to get better" meme thrown around? For some situations no, its not going to fucking get better. You have terminally ill cancer patients who are past the point of recovery who you know have little time left. Yet you still tell them that "don't worry, everything will be fine." I hate such coping mec... | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel so left out so im gonna try to keep this short... my life is crap basically my parents are very over protective i cant have a phone or go online (on here secretly on my xbox) I cant talk to friends after school unless my parents really know them they are always getting me in trouble for the stupidest stuff and i... | self.depression |
Depression can feel like the only reality that exist Especially being on here 4+ hours a day, you forget that there are people out there who just live their life, wake up, go to work, see friends, date, go out for fun and do all these normal things.
By cutting myself of I limit what I can see as possible and enjoyabl... | self.depression |
I want to die... help I'm struggling with suicidal thoughts and severe anxiety. I don't have any friends to talk to and most of my family think I'm a loser. I just need a friend but even that seems too hard. | self.SuicideWatch |
Got pulled up on stage and asked to strip tease last night. Still feeling overwhelmed, anxious, and cringey. Any ideas of how to reduce anxiety. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Showed step bro I cut he didn't say much. I kinda hinted at it but told him I didn't want to tell him cuz it will bring down his mood. He said he didn't care so I showed him my cuts. He said oh ok I have friends who do that... | self.depression |
Not sure what I'm feeling anymore. Is it anxiety? Depression? Or just low self esteem? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
My best friend betrayed me in the worst of ways On November 6th my boyfriend of ten years and fiancé told me he had fallen out of love with me. My heart shattered into pieces.
Since then, my best friend of 15 years was my support. Consoling me, telling all about how this is a new life for me now, and how much fun I'll... | self.offmychest |
Suicidal thoughts are choking every aspect of my life. Should I admit myself? Kinda xpost from r/depression I have been dealing with depression for years now and have been doing everything I can to get better. Recently I have been having suicidal thoughts. And even though I have no intention of following through I feel... | self.SuicideWatch |
The feeling The feeling
The feeling of emptiness, soulless, and nothing.
Alone, worthless, and dark.
The I do not care anymore feeling.
The I do not want to do anything feeling.
The feeling of emptiness, soulless, and nothing. | self.SuicideWatch |
On probation and beyond anxious... I'm Bipolar II and tried to self medicate my bazillion mental issues with weed, but got in trouble for it blah blah. Anyway, now I'm on probation for 6 months(only have like 4 left woohoo)! I can't afford treatment right now, hence the self medication, and I'm really paranoid and anxi... | self.bipolar |
Work issues? Ok here comes a long post...
I am having a mixed episode—constantly crying but also paranoid thoughts. I had to leave work abruptly because of this, I told my coworker I was leaving and why, since my boss was in a meeting. Boss just texted me saying, “I need you back at the clinic in an hour. If you’re no... | self.bipolar |
DAE experience these Digestive symptoms as a result of anxiety? * Intense nausea, hypersalivation, gagging when trying to eat
* Intense hunger to the point of being dizzy, barely relieved by eating food
* Starts feeling nauseous in the middle of eating at times, and quickly starts being sweaty with the need to poop r... | self.Anxiety |
My stepfather died suddenly on Thursday night and I'm not sure if I feel anything about it... I moved out of my home town over a decade ago shortly after my mother died when I was 20. I have two sisters, one I don't speak to and one I do, although we're not particularly close.
My sister's father died on Thursday night... | self.offmychest |
undecided I've been feeling like this for a while now.
I cut my wrists (small cuts) at least once a week and every time I do it it hurts less, makes me dream about deeper cuts, I'm just afraid of doing it.
Nobody seems to understand what I'm going through. I''m tired of hearing the ''what's wrong?'' or the infamous ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I get so so easily annoyed. I cant stand when my friends talk about how anxious they are and i dont know why. I am obviously always there for them but it just annoys me and i feel selfish. Also we have his project to do for school thats due monday and my friend was texting me freaking out saying ahe spilled a something... | self.Anxiety |
Why I spend so much time with my animals [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Wish I could go into 2018 not wanting to die [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I enter depressive states whenever I hear Game of Thrones/ASoIaF mentioned. This is most likely the stupidest thread on the subreddit, but as the title says, I get severely depressed whenever I hear the name of the series and related words and phrases associated with it like character names or certain lines.
This is i... | self.depression |
Bipolar 1 with psychotic features, meds or no meds? I tried posting something yesterday when I was mixed but I don't know.
I really don't want to go on medication, but I'm losing hope. How do you live without medication? The way I see it is that I've lived my whole life anyways without medication, why start now? I me... | self.bipolar |
Seeking Suggestions: Supplements or solutions to medication brain fog? Many meds have brain fog as a side effect. Are there any supplements or solutions you have found to combat this? | self.bipolar |
I had a good day, why can't I think of anything else but suicide? [deleted] | self.depression |
Stitches for Self Harm Today Today I lost it. I have been taking 60mg of Cymbalta for 6 months, which was prescribed to me incorrectly by a GP. I have been on a constant rapid cycling roller coaster. Today at work I was arguing with my wife (we own a print business together) and I took an xacto knife and cut my forearm... | self.bipolar |
My Best Friend Sort of Proposed to My Sister Last Night and I'm Sad About It I have a best friend. Last night, I saw him sort of propose to my sister. I accidentally read the past messages of my sister earlier that day when she was showing me their recent convo. Man, I felt like crap. I felt like a million bullets shot... | self.offmychest |
i just hit my mom im sick of homework. passing and grades is all she yells at me about. im sick of putting up with it. she just had her boyfriend fucking hold me down while she took my phone for no fucking good reason. im sick. im ill. im even more sick in the head. im not hiding my ip or using a vpn anymore. i dont c... | self.SuicideWatch |
Trying to wake up and leave the house every morning is like trying to get a very unwilling cat to the vet I don't often succeed and when I do, it's like an out of body experience and I'm physically and emotionally exhausted.
Is adrenal fatigue or candida a Real Thing?
*No products are being advertised and no animals... | self.bipolar |
I feel like I'm not allowed to make mistakes. I'm sure this is a common trait of anxiety (or maybe not, who knows?), but I feel like I have to be a perfect human being all the time. It's not like I want to be an asshole or screw people over or hurt the ones I care about, but I feel like it's the end of the world if I d... | self.Anxiety |
University Troubles I can't stand being like this anymore. Every day I wake up to a nightmare. I picked the wrong degree and now I'm failing. I used to be top of my class despite the circumstances but now I don't even understand how I'm like this. I'm supposed to be graduating in a few days but I still haven't turned i... | self.depression |
Bipolar, ADHD, PTSD, and my meds are a mess - Please help I am looking for advice and to hear what has worked for others with Bipolar I, ADHD, and PTSD.
I am a 35yo female. Diagnosed with BPI in my late teens. For 15+ years I was on Effexor 225mg and seroquel 25-300mg depending on the year and symptoms. I hate seroque... | self.bipolar |
Almost done with everything. How do you guys cope?
Ive recently gotten out of a very serious relationship and now im lost, im an absolute wreck. I dont know what i want to live for or if i want to even at all.
All i do is work and sleep. I dont engage in any leisure activities, i barely eat or drink now. I dont speak... | self.depression |
People saying that I'm okay even if I'm crying right in front of them. Wtf? [deleted] | self.depression |
Apparently I have a weakness for Cyber Monday. Oh man. Oh man. I didn't go Black Friday shopping because I don't like shopping in stores but I'll spend all my money online. I'm not manic but I bought a bunch of stuff off of Amazon's cyber Monday deals.
I started off completely uninterested. I browsed the site, n... | self.bipolar |
Extreme, rapid mood swings I'm having some extreme mood swings, back and forth between laughing at everything and wanting to cry or off myself, with the swings coming just a few days apart. This has been going on for the last few weeks. I was dealing with depression before that for about a year and a half. I'm starting... | self.bipolar |
I can't believe this affected my life so much I've been able to push through and only have this diagnosis (along with depression and anxiety as I'm sure many have) affect things not important to me or not permanent at least. Still crappy but random elevated moods helped.
It started affecting my schooling, what I did... | self.bipolar |
Every day feels like a year Time moves so slowly when you want to die. | self.depression |
Does any one else feel like there is no tomorrow I just want this to stop i can picture me living the only thing that calms me is knowing i can kill myself if ir gets to bad | self.depression |
I'm tired of being angry at my dad when in already know he is gonna disappoint me. My dad had forgotten about my birthday coming up this week again.
And like always I'm upset. I don't know why or how this keeps happening I knew he would probably forget but I am still upset | self.offmychest |
Thank SW Thank you for just being there for people including me and saving peoples lives and being there when we needed you most i just wish there were ways to repay again i thank you with all heart. I wish no one goes through depression again. | self.SuicideWatch |
Me "Is this medicine gonna make me better?" Doctor "I mean, maybe? Try it for a while and we'll see" [deleted] | self.depression |
Why do I not believe people or feel sad when they say I'm pretty or compliment me? | self.depression |
Any females here with an IUD as birth control? So I don't expect to have many replies to this. I didn't post in the birth control sub because this is very specific to Bipolar Disorder.
So I got an IUD in shy of a year ago. It is supposed to be estrogen-free and absorbed into the body differently than a pill.
I rece... | self.bipolar |
So basically, we just keep ourselves alive for decades, most of our time going towards work we're forced to do, stress always lingering over us. If we're lucky, something good might happen occasionally as an interlude in between bouts of suffering. Then we die. Yippee. | self.depression |
I want her back, only thing that keeps me going I miss my ex so much. i just wanna be the person i was when she fell in love with me. She introduced me to MDMA and those were the best times in my life or some of the best.. But i got sick started to be anxious and then full blown depression, she stayed by my side for ar... | self.depression |
Is anyone else terrified to go to the doctor? I'm not sure what I'm scared of specifically,. It's everything from driving myself there (terrifying), to telling him about my past, to asking for medication without seeming like some drug addict. | self.Anxiety |
Should I feel guilty about scheduling an emergency pdoc appointment for next week? It’s hard to get an appointment at the clinic I go to (I guess because it’s a clinic), but I’ve been having extreme anxiety and depression because my SO and I are moving to a new city, so I called to schedule an emergency appointment. I ... | self.bipolar |
When you realize that you will probably never stop cutting I don't know how people do it. I mean stop SH but like FOREVER. Never getting the urge and leaving a nice life, like if they never get depressed or something. I don't know and I'm jealous. Why can they stop when I can't ?
My max was 1 year and a few month. Now ... | self.depression |
Not sure I'm depressed, but feel like I have no reason to live Hi there,
I've had run-ins with depression a few times in my life. However what I'm feeling right now is not 'absolute rock bottom despair-depression' but I am still not well.
Basically I feel like I have no reason to live. I don't think about suicide. ... | self.depression |
Why can't i have good things? My best friend was depressed, after going to doctor, and talking a few meds, i saw her smile, it was so genuine, i cried, like literally. I wonder why, then i realized, i want to have that kind of smile too, but how can i do that, even if i drink hundreds or thousands of meds, when the p... | self.SuicideWatch |
thanks dad for contacting my exes to "prove" I'm lying about being molested I shouldn't be surprised. You did after all decide it was your right and your fucking *duty* to inform all members of our extended family that my brother molested me. And to make your betrayal extra fucking cruel, you told them he only "made a ... | self.offmychest |
Is anyone on this thread living with bipolar abroad? Are any of us living abroad in countries that are not Canada/USA/Australia/England etc?
How do you guys cope living in your countries and how do you manage to acquire medication?
I recently got back from a great year teaching in Korea and upon returning to my home ... | self.bipolar |
If you didn’t care about your quality of life, what would you want to do? So this may be an unconventional post, but between myself and who I want to be there is an infinite abyss, and I’ve decided to leap into it. Active suicide seems to be the thing everyone has lots of weird grief guilt and shame around, so passive ... | self.SuicideWatch |
My girlfriend (21F) and I (24M) are moving in together soon and I have serious second thoughts We've been long distance (like, plane ticket distance) across our country for almost two years after meeting in undergrad my senior year and now that she's finally entered her senior year we've made plans for us to finally li... | self.offmychest |
Moment of Clarity – A Memory of a Once Colourful Reality Do you ever get those little moments of clarity? God forbid they last any longer than a moment. They occur when you're looking at yourself in the mirror after a long, relaxing shower and the weight of a memory begins to hit you with full-force. A memory that, per... | self.bipolar |
When everything feels pointless What do you do? It's 1:13pm and I'm staring at the ceiling. It's what I've done for a while now. All day, all night. Can't concentrate to do the things I used to enjoy like gaming and reading. Talk myself out of everything else - what's the point of shopping when I have no events to wear... | self.depression |
tired :-) I'm tired, I'm selfish. I always wish there was an easier way out, you know? Like I could just leave without any hassle or bullshit. So if I can't, I consider the idea of suicide. Either way out, these children I really care about will be upset. What do I do? Where do I go from here? I'm at a crossroads, whe... | self.SuicideWatch |
Nail biting etc. advice Not sure what else to do at this point. I bite my nails like a lot of people. Then when I have no more nail left to bite, I bite the skin off of my fingertips. And after that I resort to chewing the inside of my cheeks. Pain is getting pretty unbearable as of late. Hopefully some of you guys ha... | self.Anxiety |
I am struggling with depression and on again off again suicidal ideation because of an undiagnosed medical condition. I have been dealing with a medical condition that causes severe pain, fevers, and terrible fatigue for several months. There are other symptoms but to sum it all up my ability to function day to day is... | self.depression |
Feeling guilty for potentially going into art for career I've been into art for 6 years, politics for 2 1/2 years. A part of me wants to go into political communications. People keep suggesting that I should go into art, someone saying "it's in my heart." I know they're not trying to hurt me at all, but them saying tha... | self.Anxiety |
Yes, I know my skin is breaking out I fucking hate family reunions because everyone seems to think I need their unsolicited skincare advice
SEE A DOCTOR YOU SAY? WHY DIDN'T I EVER THINK OF THAT?
YOUR DAUGHTER'S FRIEND'S COUSIN HAS A SPECIAL SOUP THAT WORKED? It's not like I've been on 5 different antibiotics and 6 d... | self.offmychest |
I said it was too early to say 'I love you' When you made some off-handed comment about it being to early, waiting for my reaction, I agreed. I agreed because we've been together for just over a week at most. By conventional standards, that is much too early to be saying 'I love you.' Even if I liked you for months bef... | self.offmychest |
Been thinking about committing suicide for a few days now... Hey y'all, I don't know if anybody reads these but I'll give it a shot. I've been thinking about committing suicide for a few days now. I have major chronic depression and PTSD. I watched my mother die in January of 2012. And it's never been the same. I had d... | self.SuicideWatch |
How to stop thinking "I want to/I should just kill myself" when the smallest thing happens [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Winter break is letting me think too much All my thoughts are of self-hatred. There's nothing distracting me. I hate myself. I hate myself so much. Sometimes a memory or even nothing at all will flash across my mind and my face will contort, shaped by the never-ending pain. I want this to end, but I also don't. I feast... | self.depression |
Does anyone have trouble with distractions, and fear getting started on projects big and small? I find more ways to distract myself from life than could ever be healthy for one person. I get distracted by all forms of media (Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Snapchat, YouTube, Wikipedia, the news, etc.), and procrastinate ... | self.depression |
does this time ever come? "hey, you know what? i've already been diagnosed & *the meds seem to work*, since i have noticed things happen when i don't take those same meds properly (& sometimes those things are bad). i am going to finally & permanently accept that it has not been all in my head & be at p... | self.bipolar |
I want to die so fucking much No motivation to do anything, cant find anythin fun anymore, therapy and medicine isnt working, every day is so fucking miserable. The only thing holding me back from killing myself is it would be impossible to attempt without getting caught by someone. | self.SuicideWatch |
I️ really hurt this guy I️ like and fought with my friend right after I️ was just angry, PMSing (like legit on my period), didn’t know how to joke, and I️ ended up saying rude comments for no reason (probably thought I️ was being edgy). I️ wanted him to break through that, to see me joking without me having to explain ... | self.offmychest |
Parent anxiety I’m 22 and my parents are nearly 60. Every time I go to sleep I lay awake for hours crying thinking about how terrible it is I go to school far away from them and travel instead of spending more time with them. I do see them semi often - sometimes once a month, other times every 4 months at most , but I’... | self.Anxiety |
My toxic family is driving me to the edge. All I want is a moment of peace and silence.
I'm tired of being told to shut up everything I try to voice my opinion on any subject (family decisions that affect me one way or another).
I'm tired of being laughed at.
I'm tired of being humilliated.
I'm tired of being bullied ... | self.depression |
Tired of life don't want to do it anymore I have decided I'm going to kill myself by shooting myself in the head. I'm just so tired of life and being alone. I am 29 no friends and never had a girlfriend. I am really just fed up with life and being alone. I have been isolating myself for 4-5 years now spend almost a... | self.depression |
I can’t do it but I really want too I really can’t go on much longer. My life is crumbling and I can’t do anything to stop it. I failed college and moved back home I went back to the job I really liked but I barely made any money so I had to get a new job. I just keep switching jobs trying to find something that suits... | self.SuicideWatch |
Is there a more helpful sub? I've been struggling with depression for about six years now, and I've been looking for some kind of help or advice or something along those lines. This sub just seems like a lot of sick people crying out into the darkness. I definitely get why people need to let it out or vent, especially ... | self.depression |
There it is. I never know how to start so I’ll just start. I’m in a terrible marriage. For 7 years I’ve just been here being a wallet. We were rarely physically intimate. I met my best friend 3 years ago and I instantly fell in love with her. I didn’t tell her for 3 years. Last month her and I had sex and it was good. ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Struggling for a long time Hey I have been struggling with bipolar 2 since I was diagnosed at 18 or 19 I'm 27 now I was just wondering from anyone with more experience does it ever get better I have tried many medications and they never seem to work I trick myself into thinking they do for awhile but slowly realize the... | self.bipolar |
Daily suicidal thoughts..... Well its goes that everyday for like the past month I have at least 4 thoughts a day about committing suicide. I highly doubt I will do it because I don't believe that suicide is a answer to problems, but it does fuck with my head a good bit...
I have been diagnosed with Clinical depression... | self.depression |
👌 i can't take it. it feels like my chest is going to explode, like my throat is being wrapped in barbed wire. i want to die so bad, guys. i lost all my friends this summer, and i flunked most of my classes. i'm stressed and angry all the time, my fight or flight never turns off. i can't fucking take it anymore. the o... | self.offmychest |
I feel like I ruined my relationship, need dating advice hello, long time lurker finally posting because i don't know what to do.
ive (f19) been in a really loving and passionate and great relationship with my partner (m21) for three months. the following events take place over the last week and a half: we recently ha... | self.offmychest |
Feeling soulless Just had a deep conversation with my sister about our mental health problems and feeling more numb than ever.
Not sure what to say here, so I’ll start at the beginning.
I (F/19) was a very asocial child. I HATED talking to people and it was hard for me to make friends. I attributed this to how I was ... | self.depression |
Post fight anxiety/disgusted with self Really screwed up this time. Relationship was going incredibly well. Never felt this way about someone and am truly lucky to have her in my life. Got off prozac due to insurance issues/being an idiot who thoight I could deal. Immediately started developing negative irrational feel... | self.Anxiety |
i have so many great things but i can't make myself care about anything. please help me i'm miserable.
i'm 19, female.
thing is, i have a wonderful support system of people who care about me deeply, but no matter what, i can't care about myself. i'm shitty to my body. i barely eat and i barely sleep. i feel like a bu... | self.SuicideWatch |
I have to go to the hospital tomorrow for an HIDA scan and I’m terrified. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Does Gabapentin Cause Weight Gain? I was just on seroquel and switched to Gabapentin because of the weight gain from seroquel. Then today I read that gabapentin causes weight gain too! What the hell am i going to do? I cant win. Ive gained 35 pounds in 9 months. I have never gained weight this quickly. | self.bipolar |
Anxiety Has Taken Over My Life Hey everyone.
I have no idea where I am at right now (mentally). I recently began to feel anxiety symptoms stronger than ever. The thing is, I also have high blood pressure, and this throws me way off. I read on the internet that anxiety attacks can raise blood pressure, but shouldn't th... | self.Anxiety |
TIFU By texting out how much I liked this girl and accidently sending it to my guy friend This happened last night exactly but waited to see the responses when I woke up this morning. Anyways their is this girl I like who I've wanted to tell for a long time, and dumb ass me thought it was a good idea to tell her over a... | self.offmychest |
Worst day ever. Been feeling sick sneezing all day with a headache, swollen face, burning eyes/throat due to allergies from trying on old clothes last night and now I find out I just missed getting tickets for bruce campbell :'( fml why am I so unlucky.
I'm so down and depressed and house bound every damn day. Bruce c... | self.depression |
I came out to myself as bi...Yesterday I am a 33 years old female.
I have mostly thought I was attracted to males in the past. I had male crushes,I have only dated men.It has never really worked out well with any of my boyfriends and every guy I've dated the relationship felt "off" to me, even though good times has be... | self.offmychest |
l i t h i u m t a p e r Think I've sort of mentioned this here before but I'm tapering my lithium (w/o medical advice BUT I can't get anymore due to an insurance issue and that's compounded onto a *lot* of bad experiences I've had with the system, leading me to want to try life without meds and yes I know there are ris... | self.bipolar |
I wish I was normal I wonder what it's like to have healthy relationships and a good self image. It really sounds nice, but I'm stuck in this hellhole called depression (and anxiety). | self.depression |
what should I do when I’m not in the mood to do literally anything? these past few days I have not wanted to do much. I don’t want to go out and hang out with my friends, I don’t want to watch anything funny, I don’t want to study for finals (i need to) I don’t even want to make music anymore which has been my creative... | self.depression |
I don't want to do anything but cry and I can't even do that :( It sits just out of reach. I can't force it to happen. I always feel like this. | self.depression |
I'm totally screwed I'm totally fucked. I live in Southern California, and it gets super hot here during the summer. Because of this, and because we have two dogs at home, we've had to run our A/C's a lot. With that being said, our bill has been over $200 every month. My roommate, who helps with half of the electricity... | self.offmychest |
I'm struggling to control my recently acquired severe anxiety I've recently started to have severe anxiety over the last month. I never really experienced anxiety beyond momentary situations before now. It is at the point where it's crippling and vomit-inducing. Additionally, my gf is out of town and told me last nigh... | self.Anxiety |
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