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Starting lithium after 7 years. What should I expect? Hey everyone, I’ve been on a long journey with lots of doctors trying to figure out a diagnosis for me. It’s been hard because my symptoms keep changing as soon as medication starts working. I have finally been diagnosed with BP2 after years of my symptoms progressi... | self.bipolar |
Delusions and anxiety I can’t figure out whether i’m perceiving situations the wrong way because of anxiety because i’m reading in to things way too much, or if the things that i believe in are actually happening to me. | self.Anxiety |
Please help me. My girlfriend of 2 years broke up with me a month ago. I messed up, I took her for granted and I had no idea how much she meant to me. I didn't care about her like I should have, I didn't care for her goals, ambitions or ideas. I was selfish. Now it came back to hurt me in a major way. Since the breakup... | self.SuicideWatch |
How to come to terms with childhood trauma and how to go about repairing it? I have had severe anxiety and attachment issues since I can remember. Then again, my childhood before everything fell apart is a blur now.
I can't get close to anyone. The one person I have gotten close to I'm borderline obsessively close to ... | self.Anxiety |
Afraid of getting a blood test. I have been struggling with major fatigue and my doctor requested a blood test. I have never had one in my life and the thought of it scares me and makes me faint.
I’m 23, and I’ve been avoiding it. I even avoid flu shots.
Help guys | self.Anxiety |
Spending out of control, how to talk about it with spouse? For those of you with partners, how do you help them understand why you sometimes spend way too much money? Like I just spend $500 on Christmas gift last night in under 2 hrs. Then my husband freaked out and I cancelled all the orders (thank god for Amazon). He... | self.bipolar |
It's -10F today and I turn 30 this weekend [deleted] | self.depression |
Helloooo echooo echooo Hi umm i don’t know who’s gonna read this. Anywho I’m drinking wine and I’m super lonely. I’m craving attention and not the healthy attention either 😕. Pretty bad. And I’m also stuck in my head. I’m scared of being alone and I think everyone hates me. And I’m a used up woman. I keep referring ba... | self.Anxiety |
Happy Thanksgiving, here's a dead baby. Yeah I'm fucking pissed. I'm fucking pissed that my ex left me for some other little brat. I'm pissed that I got pregnant. I'm pissed that I miscarried. I'm fucking pissed that I was in pain for days and couldn't show it. I'm fucking pissed that I can't tell anyone in my family b... | self.offmychest |
Depression I think for the most part I've been depressed for the better part of 6 years. I can still live but its just brutally painful honestly. Its like a constant feeling of loneliness, despair, and low self esteem. I dont know how to go about getting help. Has anyone been through similar? I don't want to live this ... | self.depression |
I hate my father He never really talks to me, even if he does its not a really a long conversation.
He never said something like: "Im proud of you."
Its like he doesnt even want me to be his son.
I hate when he drinks, because once, he said that he is going to kill himself, he always sings and whistles when he drin... | self.depression |
I don’t even know, it’s just my rant again. [deleted] | self.depression |
Good luck to everyone today I have a fairly judgemental family. No where near as bad as it has been for others but just wanted to wish everyone a good time. Hopefully your family is on the more welcoming helpful side than the gossiping judgemental side. | self.bipolar |
I wanna try to kill myself because at least then people will take me seriously | self.SuicideWatch |
Anxiety on Cleanliness (OCD?) Hey all! 👋🏼 Just joined this subreddit. I am glad there’s an online community of folks who also suffer from anxiety. Glad I am not alone.
I have suffered from anxiety since I was a teenager and only recently been diagnosed and treated for OCD and anxiety with a professional therapist e... | self.Anxiety |
I’m looking for thoughts and opinions on anxiety blankets. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Seriously, fuck the human race and fuck human nature FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK | self.depression |
Giving Up I've been trying for a very long time to fight this thing. I have not ever been successful. I'm not super old, but I think I'm older than most of the people on this sub, so this is after some careful reflection and experience. I have given up, and will not fight anymore.
I don't mean I'm going to end things ... | self.depression |
The shadow is never quite gone Some days I’m completely in pitch-black darkness. Some days it’s brighter, and I almost forget about the shadow that follows me around, sewn to my feet. Almost. | self.depression |
Snapping out of it I'm stuck in this weird mental state of mind for a while that I am unable to get out of. I don't know how to snap out of it. What works for you? | self.Anxiety |
Anyone else sent into a depressive spiralling black hole whenever something remotely good happens to them? It hurts more than the bad stuff. | self.depression |
Escaping the Darkness Throughout my teens and my twenties, I had crippling depression. Day after day, I would just lie in bed, crying and/or sleeping, only getting up to use the restroom. My then-husband would lovingly badger me until I complied with basic tasks. He would sit with me, hold me, help me bathe, make me ea... | self.SuicideWatch |
i can’t make friends because i’m depressed, i’m depressed because i can’t make friends [deleted] | self.depression |
I hate feeling this way I don’t want to seem like a POS for saying this but I don’t like my boyfriend’s mom. I know that’s someone I can’t rid of (I’m not trying to nor do I want to). She’s very controlling, manipulative, and will throw tantrums when she can’t get her way. She can be nice but the way she behaves is rid... | self.offmychest |
I said the wrong thing to a girl i really like, im panicking She officially became my girlfriend a couple days ago but today she dropped this question, would you still like me if I was ugly.
I answered not well
Then she left and said she had to go and that she'd text me later. (We're long distance) I'm panicking. I ... | self.Anxiety |
. Hi everyone. It's 5am, lying in bed and can't fall asleep. A million thoughts in my head but at the same time my mind is blank. Wonder if anyone has thought about me lately? | self.depression |
I️ think I’m about to kill myself I’ve hit a wall and feel like there’s nothing left. The only thing I’ve ever really wanted out of life is to love someone that loves me too, and that seems impossible. | self.depression |
I'm thinking about signing myself in to a mental hospital. All I can think about every minute of every day is either wanting to kill myself or wanting to cut myself. I only get to see my psychiatrist once every six months because the NHS is lacking psychiatrists. As a result my psychiatrist has too many patients which ... | self.depression |
Whats there thats equivalent to Lamotrigine In that it would help for depression. I find it pretty good, pretty affective. But the problem is that its affecting my skin. My groin is becoming smelly, sticky, itchy and im getting rashes on my back and creases. | self.bipolar |
Anyone else want to kill yourself slowly over time? [deleted] | self.depression |
Everything is too much Have someone of you has experienced that period of time when everything is too much? like you can't deal with it. depression, stress, anxiety takes away all your energy but besides that you have university, friends and your loved ones. at the end you understand that people takes away all your ene... | self.depression |
A long December Posting this because I needed somewhere to get it off my chest. My depression has been a part of my life for the longest time. The past year or so, I have reached deeper lows than ever before. And of course, it seems to be in full force this time of year. Generally speaking, I've managed to cope with ... | self.depression |
This Polar Vortex Just Made my anxiety so bad So, a little bit of background first. I’ve always hated the city I grew up in but my parents didn’t want me to go far for college due to my anxiety problems. I spent my first semester away from home but had a horrible experience, spent my next semester at a commuter college... | self.Anxiety |
My therapist told me to call her When I feel suicidal again. Not because she cares about me apparently...
Her exact words were: Because that's what pays my bills.
I'm glad that you get something out of people their calls. Sadly it's not the right thing for the right reasons.
This makes me want to do it even more. | self.SuicideWatch |
Why do I feel sad wen I’m at my dads house? [deleted] | self.depression |
[help] I feel like a fake. I can’t shake the feeling that I don’t deserve my accomplishments or that, if I do, they don’t matter. I dunno guys. I feel like nothing I do can ever be good enough, that I’m undeserving of praise. Anyone else get that feeling? What do you do about it? | self.Anxiety |
Some thoughts, nothing urgent I have mixed feelings about suicide. I find comfort in the thought of ending my life if it gets unbearable. It would also give me the opportunity to show my father how miserable he has made since my early childhood and avenge it by making him in turn feel bad. Yet I’m loathe to be remember... | self.SuicideWatch |
Think I’m in/extremely close to mania Been strung out on adderall for the past 3 days. Probably napped for 10 minutes. Probably only ate 1 meal and a couple yogurts, should get some watef. My mind is going a mile a minute. Currently in school. Can’t leave due to after school licensing exam practice. I feel like everybo... | self.bipolar |
I was invited for the first time in my life to a club and my parents still hindered me It could've been so fucking good! I mean for fucks sake, it was VIP list and shit, the club seemed great and the people terribly open and friendly, but my fucking mom was all like "Uh yo gon get robbed and beaten!". For fucks sake, w... | self.depression |
I think it's time for a more in depth chat with my provider I was originally diagnosed as bipolar when I went in for postpartum depression in 2005. I also have anxiety and A.D.H.D.
I remained unmedicated for bipolar since then until a year ago, when I went in for major depression and a brand new diagnosis of agorapho... | self.bipolar |
I tied a noose Yeah. So i have a noose, and now I just need the courage to actually go through with it. It's been too many years of agony and I can't keep doing it. | self.SuicideWatch |
How do you deal with social occasions when there is nothing to hide behind? I've started at a new company. It's a pretty young and dynamic group of people who are constantly going out and doing things that I'd really like to be doing as well.. Thing is, once I do get to these events, I completely close up and I feel li... | self.Anxiety |
Breaking the cycle Sometimes randomly I get into these intense cycles of anxiety. I feel like my brain is continually spinning and it makes me feel a sense of doom and that I don't deserve happiness. Sometimes my thoughts are so jumbled it's hard to even figure out what negative thoughts I have. Other times my mind fin... | self.Anxiety |
I'm not suicide my self, but I want to help my friend who might have crush on me, what should I do? Okay start with context, I [22M] surf facebook and I saw my depressive friend [22F] post something suicidal.
I have a reason to believe that she might have crush on me, I'm still single but I'm not knowing her enough to... | self.SuicideWatch |
Insurance denied my Vraylar. As far as I know there is no generic and it's over $1000 a month. My doctor loaded me up with samples and is going to try to appeal it. | self.bipolar |
I don't think I've ever been this low in my life. Earlier this year, everything was, not perfect. Perfect is impossible. Maybe not even as good as it was a few years ago, on the whole. But as that little ditty goes, I had to admit it was getting better. I had a job, I had opportunity for advancement, I had finally move... | self.offmychest |
Giving serious consideration to jumping in front of a commuter train. [deleted] | self.depression |
I finally tried short drop suspension hanging tonight... Used some paracord. I was hoping the pressure on my arteries would cause me to black out and my weight would do the rest but it never happened.It just hurt no matter how long I tried to put weight on it. I read about people dying by using doorknobs and I'm just l... | self.SuicideWatch |
Skin is crawling and weird sleeping WellburtinXL Anyone else having issues? have been on this for about a month? 150mg | self.Anxiety |
Today is the first day I am 34 years old and today I started college. It's part time and completely online and I am equally terrified and thrilled. I have 4 kids ages 1 to 17 and am a stay at home mom.
I really hope I can do this! | self.Anxiety |
i dont know how im gonna survive in the world. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Help. Is This rapid cycling????? Diagnosed MDD about a year and a half ago, after being hospitalized for a suicide attempt. Was placed on fluoxetine at the hospital, and have remained on it ever since. At first, the meds seemed to be helping. I would feel really good, great even. Then it would start to fade. So I would... | self.bipolar |
Writing helps Behind the neck they speak, slowly moving their mouthes in a whispering motion, conveying what they think is secret. A statement too bold to remain unheard, creeping into the very ears of their so called friend.
Yet it fails to breach past the cognitive wall of him. A barrier thickened by the constant pa... | self.depression |
Anybody else want to end their life but feel guilty on others? Anybody else genuinely feel like they have nothing left anymore, and want to end their life but can't because it would hurt others. I think of the pain my partner, couple of friends and family would go through. I feel as though I should be able to go throug... | self.depression |
Hypomania and entering a mind state without thoughts ? I'm interested in meditation , and I've noticed that hypomania, maybe with sunshine or the right music(often Delta brainwave music) makes it easier, sometimes, to enter a state without thoughts and be there for some time .
Did anybody notice that? Please tell mor... | self.bipolar |
Grandma died, Dad looks at my siblings and not me throughout, yells at me doesn't yell at them, fucked up college, fucking up college round 2, could really use some encouragement to do my school work [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Can't even keep anxiety out of my daydreams Sitting in bed imagining a lovely date with someone I very much hope to go out with soon and the daydream somehow devolved into me having a panic attack on the subway and needing a stranger to escort me above ground because the claustrophobia was suffocating me but I couldn't... | self.Anxiety |
going to mental hospital i seem like i have no problems but i do that's why I'm here i`m getting help today | self.SuicideWatch |
I didn't feel good to speak out In wake of the MeToo movement, almost of people have said that once they finally spoke out about their harasser, it felt.
I spoke out 6 years ago and still don't feel good about.
I was 16 years old in high school. I was part of the marching band and staying late after school for practi... | self.offmychest |
Doesn't it kind of suck to be posting again? No offense to this subreddit at all.. because that is not what I intend by this post. I just only post when I am feeling bad... so here we go again.
Earlier this fall I had a disaster with klonopin/withdrawal and irritability/hostility... and now something similar is back.... | self.bipolar |
Trying to lose weight and I've never felt so god damn hungry. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Currently having a mental breakdown along with a panic attack. I just wanna end my life. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm a failure I got into college, with a computer science major. But um...... I can barely code. And I'm too fucking stupid to learn how. Everyone else in my class has done it for years and years and I'm so behind.
I'm just a total failure compared to everyone around me. Other teens get 4.0 GPAs while raising their s... | self.depression |
The Pain of being Overwhelmed I have no idea what I'm doing. My head hurts as a result of the uncontrollable thoughts swirling around in my head. I can't tell if what I do is actually helpful or I'm just an incompetent failure.
I'm lying here with a throbbing brain, a lonely heart and a lack of self confidence.
Is th... | self.depression |
Anyone else hate meeting new people? Any time I meet someone new that I find attractive or even nice there's always a part of me that screams "don't bother!" I let my feelings run wild and I always get a temporary high from meeting someone. I'll feel truly alive for a day or two...then it always brings my lows even low... | self.depression |
Slowly Giving Up I don't have a plan, or have thought about making one. But the thoughts are back. After a few weeks of "calm" the thoughts are back and I'm seeing this as more of a possible option, or solution. I'm slowly running out of energy, motivation, hope, or whatever keeps me going. | self.SuicideWatch |
Diagnosed with GAD today :( Ugh. I hate my anxiety. Someone just make it go away. | self.Anxiety |
Oh-so lost and doing nothing about it I have so many things I'd like to do but I don't know where to start. It's as if I don't want to do anything because I'm used to procrastinating, doing things all at once.
I want to travel and read the books from my favourite library and go places to write and enjoy time with love... | self.offmychest |
A possibility that bass is soothing? I've noticed over the past week or two from driving home from work I've always been anxious. Either due to shitty drivers (thanks, Houston) or work or whatever the case may be.
I listen to music in my car very loud. There have been a few cases where certain songs come on that has ... | self.Anxiety |
Weirdest Bipolar Symptom Ever... None of my psychiatrists or PCP can help and they don't believe / understand this. Has ANYONE felt this? I don't know if this is a symptom of a mixed state or something, but I've slowly developed a complete intolerance to passionate excitement (like listening to a song that gives you ch... | self.bipolar |
extreme flight anxiety please help I'm flying to visit relatives over the holidays and I...have really severe flight anxiety.
I'm having a panic attack right now, throat feels constricted and my vision is blurring as I type this.
I've talked with my therapist about this many times and am taking medication for my anxiet... | self.Anxiety |
I potentially have no future so I'm thinking about ending my life [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Relapsing I'm hurting myself again. This always happens when I come home for holidays/time off and spend it with family but have nothing to do to or talk to take my mind off things. I relapse. When Im living on my own, I find lots of ways to distract myself and my mind from wandering. I still get lost, especially when ... | self.depression |
Newlywed and struggling I have been married for about 3 weeks and my wife is suffering from depression. I've never seen her this way before and I'm struggling with how to deal with it. She says it's not my fault but I can feel myself burning out quickly. | self.depression |
Why am I so useless? People out there exist, one's that have to worry about not eating certain things because it might cause a negative reaction in their body that causes them to die, one's that can't learn effectively because they interpret words differently not because of their own fault but because somewhere in thei... | self.SuicideWatch |
Wanting to stop meds I've been on citalopram (first 20mg, then 10mg daily) for just over 4 years. It has helped a lot with my GAD and depression. I started taking them right before my dad died of ALS, and I think if I hadn't started taking them then I wouldn't have coped the way I did.
Now, I have a very stable life a... | self.Anxiety |
Considering divorce and being homeless or suicide, please help I live in a foreign country with my partner due to his job, far away from any family, I'm not really in danger but just can't bear to live with him anymore. I'm about to graduate college at 36, have had work experience elsewhere but not here, not sure if I ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Any suggestions on how to escape my head? Because I can’t get out of it, and it won’t shut the fuck up, and I can’t stop thinking about the shit that really angers me, and then there’s the bizarre fantasies of either me being successful, beating up somebody, losing my mind completely, and even more [deleted] | self.bipolar |
What am I doing with my life? I spent all my time browsing memes and I'm too busy to sleep these days. Meanwhile, my friends are working good jobs and buying good phones and getting good grades at school and have so much time on their hands. I blame myself for my own faults.
How do I control my life? Anyone else addic... | self.depression |
Anyone else come here to feel like shit? I know it’s a shitty question but i really thought about it and it’s pretty spot on. | self.depression |
I miss him My ex of 5 years and I broke up last year. The relationship was toxic but I was still heartbroken when he immediately jumped into a new relationship while still professing his love for me. I’ve since healed and moved on but today has been full of nostalgia. I just miss him so much. He reached out to me via e... | self.offmychest |
Wonderment Of everything that I can figure out about life with my wife and kids leads to one main thought. I'm not needed or wanted around for any measurable amount of time. The only thing wanted from me is access to my bank account for the money. Beyond that I could just leave and they wouldn't even notice. | self.depression |
Developmentally behind Maybe I'm just fucking autistic or some bullshit. Fuck socializing. Fuck talking to people. Dealing with fucking problems normal people are able to set straight when they're teenagers. Everyone acts like it'd weird to not want to talk to anyone. It's not fucking weird and not wanting to speak to ... | self.depression |
What's wrong with me, exactly? I'm depressed, but I don't know why. It's like my entire life is in color, but I'm that colorblind girl who can't really see it. I'm having a lot of trouble expressing myself, I continually think I let people down, and I really want to do something about it but I can't. I'm not even motiv... | self.depression |
Just got dumped The reason is I was wrongly accused of cheating after five wonderful months and my heart is broken. I fell off the deep end after and did a drug without thinking. Then I got a random drug test the next day :( now I may lose my 100% disability and I don’t know what to do. When I find out for sure I don’t... | self.bipolar |
Rambling. I'm going insane and I want to kill myself I have nobody to talk to about this and just need to tell somebody. This text is unedited so it might suffer from spelling mistakes and incomprehension .
My life is objectively good. I was born into an upper class family and live in a good city. I had a great educat... | self.SuicideWatch |
I have been having mild panic attacks these past couple days. I have to just stop fighting it. Let the fear wash over my body as it will pass in the near future as it always does. But I can enjoy this heightened level of life that I am experiencing. Let the the thoughts race by, don't try to grab on [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Anxiety and antibiotics? Does anyone else find taking antibiotics makes your anxiety go from bad to way worse? Suggestions on how to deal? | self.Anxiety |
Love story Hi all, so I wanted to share the story of me and my SO because I think it's a wonderful story about being able to understand bipolar and be in a relationship with someone who's bipolar (me). So, my boyfriend is perfect. He's doing the PhD program at Stanford and he's athletic and he's kind and just very whol... | self.bipolar |
Does anyone else think they are dealt a shitty hand in life? Made a throwaway just to vent. I hate my life. The thing is, objectively, my life is pretty good and I should be enjoying it. I have all the things I need, I have enough money, roof over my head etc, but I'm my own worst enemy. I can't think of a single redee... | self.Anxiety |
So yet again, I need to vent Sorry for my english, I don't know how to translate some terms.
I want to fucking die right now. If I had a gun beside me I would be long dead.
Again - girl fucked me over, intense anxiety and panic attacks + depression and suicidal thoughts led me to threatening to kill people. Police to... | self.Anxiety |
Help with new medication? I was recently prescribed Wellbutrin SR to take in the mornings in addition to the Lexapro that I take at night. However, my doctor said since I’m on Wellbutrin I can’t drink/smoke weed because it causes seizures. Weed has been my saving grace for the past couple of months, and I’m having a ha... | self.depression |
My Anxiety I’m only 14 years old, yet I’ve suffered from anxiety and panic attacks almost my whole life. I do wrestling and right months before a match I get horrible thoughts in my head and start to have panic attacks. It got to a point where I couldn’t go to one of the meets because I was getting nauseous and threw u... | self.Anxiety |
I'm lost somewhere inside me. There are no words to describe this properly [deleted] | self.depression |
I can’t put my phone down at night. It’s a constant cycle of checking to see what’s new on Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, and Reddit and Googling things I want to know about over and over and over again. I’m pretty sure I’m doing it as a way to try and keep anxiety away, but it causes me more anxiety because I don’t fal... | self.Anxiety |
having no friends making me depressed, cant go out because of social anxiety. failing college because of this I realize i want friends but i CAN'T go out to meet people. I also think i will get rejected because im weird. this cycle repeats itself so i remain depressed and on top of all this im failing college. Dont wan... | self.depression |
I'm tempted to take all propranolol I have I have two boxes of 40mg. Should be enough right. | self.SuicideWatch |
Bipolar Writers? Oh, I know you’re out there!
I have been writing for many years and I’ve never completed a novel. It’s
Not that I don’t have ideas. It’s that when I’m manic/hypo I will plan entire novels. I will swear this is the one I will finish. I will make maps, read about new genres to explore, write massive cha... | self.bipolar |
Super bad anxiety while hypomanic? So I’ve been hypomanic for about 3(?) weeks now and this is all new to me. I’m very familiar with depressive episodes but not so much hypomania. I’ve been euphoric pretty much the whole time but starting yesterday I got really really bad anxiety. Like multiple anxiety attacks all day ... | self.bipolar |
I have to keep myself busy or I am going to do “it”. And my expiration age. From 18 to now 22 since March I was not in school ( which I was a total failure at besides art ). only have one friend from middle school 7th grade ( who’s relationship isn’t the same since the summer before starting high school). Couldn’t get ... | self.depression |
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