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New to this community and newish to a diagnosis of bipolar It’s going on a year now since I was diagnosed as bipolar. I had a manic episode at the end of 6 days of not sleeping, I was hallucinating colours a bit. Now I’m on medication for it, and I haven’t noticed much of a difference other than I feel things different... | self.bipolar |
Going out again after a long period of solitude and anxiety? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I want to be dead I really just wish I wasn’t alive anymore. It seems like my life over the past few years (especially in the last year or so) has just gotten worse and worse. I’ve been sexually assaulted twice and have been diagnosed with PTSD. I still get flash backs. Relationships have ended because of what I’ve exp... | self.SuicideWatch |
Feeling really alone I have been searching for a full-time job in my field since May 2016, I got a contract job in April but I was let go in June. A couple of weeks ago my ex girlfriend broke up with me. I live at home and I don't talk to most of my friends. I only talk to two friends on a regular basis but one has a ... | self.offmychest |
Considering Electroconvulsive Therapy Apparently, my issues are too much for medications and therapy to handle. The doctors have no further suggestions but ECT. It's not really scary like many believe it to be, but for some other reason I'm scared as hell to have it done. I don't really know what else to do though. ... | self.depression |
I should know better. That's the worst part. Don't ever say the words right out. That's how you get yourself in trouble.
That said... it comes more and more frequently now. I've been going through a divorce with the woman who I believed was my world, my everything - and to hear her tell it, I'm responsible for everyth... | self.SuicideWatch |
I’m taking klonopin and I still can’t sleep I fall asleep super late and wake up in the middle of the night. What gives? | self.depression |
You keep me here Dear Baby Brother and Grandma,
All 6'2" and 3/4 century of you (brother being 6'2" and Grandma being 73 years old)...
You are the only ones keeping me here on THIS earth. Mom, Dad, brothers, sisters, cousins the like...they'll easily continue on in one way or another.
You two. You two will be fore... | self.SuicideWatch |
My eating disorder cost me my best friend I can understand why you were angry.
I can understand why you left.
I can understand why you thought I wasn't trying hard enough. You could only sympathise with me for so long. You could not empathise, for you had not experienced an eating disorder or depression before. You c... | self.offmychest |
I'm starting to become a shell of a person with only my ambitions. I'm 19 and I have gone to the cheapest college that I could attend, one that my father works at, and I had thought everything would be fine for me since I had a good work ethic, but some drama befell me because of the aspect that's really important. Soc... | self.depression |
Well shit fuck - major life changes thrust on me I work as an IT Manager and engineer for a large corporation. I work from home but occasionally go into the office when I meet with my director or for other big meetings. The office is 45-1.5 hours away depending on traffic.
I just had a meeting where it was announced t... | self.bipolar |
Took care of myself by breaking up. Hey friends. Recently I started to notice that my ex was implying that she was too good for me and stuff I was doing wasnt enough for her. Making me second guess my memory, saying I did stuff (or didnt do stuff) I said I did.. I wouldnt hold that first one against her, she totally ha... | self.bipolar |
Is this normal dosage increase for lamictal? I was on 25mg for two weeks, 50mg for three (I took them at the same time) and my doctor just upped me to 100mg twice a day. Is that normal? It freaks me out a bit because that seems like a huge leap. She said I could start it next week since I’m also starting seroquel an... | self.bipolar |
Writing is a drug after 1 year of writer's block I managed to overcome it by several means, the main one was roleplaying VTM (me being ST) and writing about it, even going further, allowing my players to read what I have written (I prefer to destroy my writings rather than let someone read those) well they really don't... | self.offmychest |
Dealing with disappointment Today I found out I didn't get into Oxford, I got an interview but they didn't want to give me a place. I've dreamt about going there for years and got so close, I feel worse than I have done for ages. How do you deal with disappointment? I just feel like a failure. No one in my family has e... | self.depression |
Anxiety is the sensation that nothing has ever been okay, and never will be. | self.Anxiety |
I didn't find anything. So why am I still anxious? I have borderline personality and ptsd. I find that my diagnoses trigger each other which means I'm either a happy, manic ball of energy or I'm an anxious mess. I flip on a dime and boredom is my enemy.
Due to some past issues, I look through my husband's phone. I am... | self.Anxiety |
My friend just got diagnosed with bipolar 2. Can we provide her with any words of encouragement? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
I feel like I’m a nobody with nothing special to offer I’m 25 and I’m still trying to finish college. My “boyfriend” and i just broke up and it’s in quotes because we were more of a friends with benefits sort of thing. I was actually the one who brought it up. I told him I didn’t want to continue this because our relat... | self.depression |
Can’t do this anymore This time of year is always very hard for me because I’m afraid of catching the stomach virus. I have a severe fear of vomiting and it takes up my entire life. I don’t have a job right now and I barely do anything except panic at this stage. I spend all day and night in constant fear thinking it’... | self.SuicideWatch |
anyone else have problems with really irrational paranoia? I'm 18, been diagnosed with bipolar 1 since I was 15 or 16. Currently taking Lithium, amiloride, clonidine, and adderall, if that helps at all.
I never realized how paranoid I was about pretty much everything until recently.
Some examples are with scary mo... | self.bipolar |
We are converting this week from my crap posts to HOLIDAY HELL per a very kind user (also pleast post on SELF-CARE SUNDAY UNDER THIS THREAD) Im going to leave this up for awhile, please try and revisit it. Maybe sort by NEW in the top left I believe.
Here's how this works this year. This thread will replace all weekl... | self.bipolar |
Population Reference Bureau estimates that about 107 billion people have ever lived. Population Reference Bureau estimates that about 107 billion people have ever lived. Thats a lot of people and how many of those people do you remember? We think are lives are special, so did billions of people and where are they now? ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm in a lot of debt and chose a useless major I have fucked up my college career. I am at a new school, close to finishing a bachelor's (about 2 or so yrs left) and everyone left and right says that my major is useless, but I DON'T WANT TO SWITCH NOW. I kept on switching before. I wanna graduate. I'm already getting m... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm a disgusting piece of shit and here is my rant. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Anybody go sleep at night thinking "things will be better tomorrow"? But, nothing ever changes. | self.depression |
I just want to be loved and cared for. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I️ gets stoned to get through the day but idk if it’s helping anymore. | self.depression |
Fuck me Literally crying in school rn. No ine cares, teacher just gave me a napkin and didnt say nothing, no one cares about me.
But when someone else cries, everyone just starts asking them whats wrong and talks to them... | self.depression |
Bipolar meds and joint pain? My elbow joints have begun hurting (only when I move certain ways) since starting my bp meds. I’m on Wellbutrin, Lexapro, Seroquel, and Lamictal. The newest additions are seroquel (about 5wks ago) and Lamictal (added Monday). It seems to have gotten worse this week. Anybody else notice join... | self.bipolar |
Sudden sadness attacks? I’m 22 and what I would describe as a high functioning depressive. Since I’ve been dealing with this illness for about 8 years I have developed good coping mechanisms and am able to work and study full time with relative motivation.
I’ve been on Zoloft for six months after dealing with a period... | self.depression |
Bipolar 1 & ADHD Apparently pdoc & I are considering this. I’ve been reading about it & it looks like some docs don’t even think a comorbid diagnosis is possible. I know some of you do have this diagnosis (or at least I think I’ve read that). Any insight before I go to my next appointment with pdoc? I will ke... | self.bipolar |
I need help understanding bipolar and what meds i should ask about [recently diagnosed ] My doctor is afraid to put me on anything more intense than an SSRI. Right now I am on Wellbutrin 300mg XL and Hydroxyzine [Doesn't help much.] 10 mg of Valium for when I get too nervous or I have the urge to cut or do something ... | self.bipolar |
Little to no self control. Hi everyone!
I was officially diagnosed with GAD & depression in November. I have also struggled with social anxiety for as long as I can remember. I’ve been on 50mg sertraline for a little over a month and it’s doing wonders for me. There is one huge problem that I’m facing that I need ... | self.Anxiety |
Why bother I opened my phone and googled ways to die. Really hoped I could find a button or something. Found nothing of that sort. Found this instead so I thought why not.
Someone please tell me what life is worth living because we're not fooling no one, we are basically all slaves and even those of us with any power ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I’m struggling to cope. I’m an unmediated depressive, mainly because none of the medication I’ve tried (and I’ve been on a few types) has done anything. And for the most part I do okay. As in, I can keep up the facade of being normal enough to keep a job I hate and look after a hamster whom I love very dearly.
But I ... | self.offmychest |
my near death experience made me realize I didn't want to die. I mean...I do want to die. I'm still depressed and I still have a really hard time putting my life and perspective in any sort of agreeable order. But when I was lying in bed straight sufffeerinngggg from an allergic reaction to a cold medication I knew tha... | self.depression |
Extremely lonely and single my whole life. Feel like I'm not even a human anymore and get mistreated even here [removed] | self.depression |
I wish I was successful in my first suicide attempt. I attempted suicide about a year ago by overdosing on a lot of pills, and I wish I died then instead of surviving. The effect the atempt had on my liver and mental health wasn't positive, and I have more issues than I did prior to the event. That's all I have to say.... | self.SuicideWatch |
Am I suffering from depression? Some days I just get so sad. Nothing triggers it but I start to feel worthless. I feel like my life doesn't matter and take everything personally. The little things hurt so much. Today, nothing happened and I just want to cry for no reason. I started to look around at the people around ... | self.depression |
I have to take large amounts of Tylenol and Advil every single day. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Just wish something would happen to me... Not necessarily looking for advice/kind words. I just need to vent.
I don't think I'm suicidal, but I often find myself just hoping something will happen to me so my death won't be "my fault".
A little more than a year ago I moved from Ohio to Florida to escape an abusive, ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I don't know if I've made anybody proud, ever Hi, new member here. Thought I'd write here as I'd get some responses without complaining to acquaintances.
I think I'm at a pretty shitty point in my life, for no apparent reason, cause I spent a good 30 minutes this morning disappointed that my flat doesn't have a place ... | self.depression |
Anyone else have trouble looking at people in the face/eyes? [deleted] | self.depression |
Trouble adjusting post-grad On paper my life seems pretty sweet right now. I finished up grad school this summer, got a job in my field, and moved across the country. I’m really struggling right now though.
I’m part of a really intense training program at work that prides itself on its 50% attrition rate (this was no... | self.offmychest |
the goodbye I can never actually tell my best friend I can't torture myself anymore. I can't pretend that I'm not in love with you. I can't pretend that I haven't spent countless hours of countless days fantasizing about you. I just can't.
I will never forget the first few months after we met. I will never forget taki... | self.offmychest |
Does anyone else not sleep due to immense anxiety? I have AWFUL sleeping habits due to anxiety- I always have. Melatonin doesn't work, and neither does any of the other medications I've been prescribed. Before I go to bed, I always get this awful feeling like "you haven't done enough today" or "you weren't productive e... | self.Anxiety |
Lamictal Question Hello Reddit,
I'm so glad I found this subreddit - since having been diagnosed in September of last year, this sub really helped me know that what I'm feeling is "normal."
I'm currently on 300mgs of Lamictal, which has been a godsend in helping stabilize my moods. I've been titrating up since the l... | self.bipolar |
How does it feels to be in mania or hypomania I just wanted to know how it feels to be in mania or hypomania by other people’s
It would be great help if you share your experiences
Thnx in advance | self.bipolar |
Communication I have a lot of trouble communicating and I’m unsure if it’s due to my bipolar..
I have been seeing a therapist since Summer ‘17 and diagnosed bipolar/ptsd in October ‘17. I’m a 25 y/o female. Right now my only medication is Depakote. In the past I was on an antidepressant and it made me extremely manic... | self.bipolar |
Vacation while unstable? Hi all, I have been lurking on this sub for about 2.5 weeks, after having been rediagnosed as BP2 by my new pdoc (previously diagnosed MDD Nov 2015). I’ve been hypomanic for about 6 weeks now, and just started Depakote 2 weeks ago and Latuda yesterday.
I’m supposed to fly out to New York toda... | self.bipolar |
Just a shoutout to this subreddit- Everyone in this group has made my life better in some way. It’s a great community and I hope everyone is doing well. | self.Anxiety |
Cannabis and hypomania Has anyone here had an experience of cannabis inducing a hypomanic state? I have a theory that this might happen to me. I have read just about every journal article relating cannabis and bipolar that I have access to but there is not much information out there and some conflicting perspectives. J... | self.bipolar |
I'm stuck, this has to end someday. Hey Reddit!
So,I was thinking that venting and writing down some stuff that's going on inside me can at least make me feel, something.
So a few words about me. I'm 22, I work at local hospital and I suffer from depression ever since I can remember. That's it actually, there's not ... | self.depression |
Useless I'm not even in that bad if a situation but I can't fucking pick myself back up when I'm down. I just can't. I'm broken. I don't know why I'm writing this. There's no point. No hope in the world will ever save me. I'm trash. I'm lazy. I have no respect. I think too much. I'm cynical. I'm a freeloader. I'm irres... | self.SuicideWatch |
Serious medication symptom? So I just started taking latuda a couple weeks ago for bipolar. My anxiety has gotten much worse and my mouth is extremely dry. What can I do and should I stop taking it? My doctor doesn't seem to want to discontinue it but these are becoming debilitating. | self.bipolar |
My parents care more about me having a birthday party than I do is making me feel friendless [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Sitting in my car so I don't have to talk to my husband [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Who else literally sits around all day waiting for bedtime? [removed] | self.depression |
how effective is ECT treatment? My sister suffers from severe depression. She tried to end her life last week and shes in the hospital now having inpatient treatment. She is still very depressed and says things like she doesn't have anything worth living for... I try to tell her she has all of us caring for her and I... | self.depression |
New year call I've called my best friend with best wishes on New year eve. We're living 8hs ride from each other and we see very rarely. Anyway when I called him he told me I saved his life becasue he was about to kill himself. I'm depressed for 6 years and after therapy AND on meds myself but there is one major differ... | self.depression |
Work triggers my depression times 100000 I get hired, I go to work for 2 hours then quit bc it just makes me want to kill Myself more then anything else | self.depression |
I Guess I'll Just Shut Up Then Well, that's it. I can no longer speak for myself. There is not a single person on the face of the earth who genuinely wants to listen to what I have to say. I'm 14, and I already feel like life has reached its peak. I'm a guy so I'm not socially allowed to cry, so I don't do that. I have... | self.offmychest |
This whole Thanksgiving weekend has sucked. I literally have not left my room except to go to the gym, since coming home from work on Wednesday. It is now Saturday. I miss my ex more than anything in the universe. I'm scared to log into Instagram because I have a feeling at least one of my coworkers got engaged (all of... | self.offmychest |
My ex told me to drink more water, and it’s stupid that he was right This is going to sound pretty dumb to some, because it’s so obvious, but that’s okay. My ex told me to drink more water (when we were together) and I always thought I drank enough water. I was wrong.
Backstory:
I’m 30, I’ve been into fitness for the ... | self.offmychest |
The story so far.. (text wall incoming) This is gonna be a big one so uh, get something to eat.
My name is Sean and I've been dealing with depression and social anxiety for just about as long as I can remember. I've come by it honestly, and will try to share just how, even though it's going to be a journey.
My parent... | self.depression |
I don't think anything is worth living in this world. For a while now, I've held the view that we as humans just happened to be created in this world and that ultimately, nothing matters, including who lives and who dies. I used to find this comforting, but now it hurts and I can't stand it anymore.
All the good thing... | self.SuicideWatch |
I really like you I really like you.
You're not my "type". You're not the most physically attractive. You're silly. I don't think most people consider you a romantic interest.
But I really, really like you. Just being around you makes me happy. I can talk to you for hours. I get so excited to see you I can barely c... | self.offmychest |
Some days i feel okay, and i get excited and i plan cool things to do, then the next day i dont do any of those things or tasks One of the things i wanted to do, was to draw while listening to an audio book. I couldnt even muster doing something i enjoy. | self.depression |
A rant about Texas, gun control, and mental health. This is really bothering me, so I just need to get it off of my chest.
Ever since Trump blamed mental illness for the Texas shooting, people have been mindlessly using the term left and right. They're using it to support that gun control isn't needed, and even as in... | self.offmychest |
“Numb” attacks started again. They’re really long periods of time where I feel fatigued, weak, and confused, where I have no idea what to do at all, and I don’t know what I don’t know. I can’t feel any emotions during these periods. [deleted] | self.depression |
A heartfelt moment That moment when you see someone with the semicolon tattoo and you don't ask why they have it, but you know they have struggled or know someone who has and you feel love for that person because you're going through deep shit too. | self.bipolar |
i stopped taking my meds I've been taking lexapro for a year and they helped ease my depression and anxieties a lot. I stopped taking them because I was waiting for my refill then I had a breaking point two months back and since then I've been struggling really hard not to hurt myself. The only thing stopping me is the... | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel like I’ve made a big mistake. So, after crying for almost half an hour, I’ve decided to come back on this subreddit in hopes of guidance.
My first post on here was basically me talking about how sad I was, and how I wanted to fix it. Well, an update to that:
Yesterday, during school, I went to the nurse becaus... | self.depression |
Everyone keeps ignoring. Everyone ignores me in real life.
Everyone ignores me online.
Goes to show how worthless I am.
| self.depression |
loss of appetite- symptom of anxiety?? Hey everyone,
To start I'd like to mention that I've never really lost my appetite from anxiety, quite the opposite I tend to eat more. The past few days i haven't had much of an appetite though, like I can eat a little bit but not like I'm used to. I'm just wondering if I should... | self.Anxiety |
Today I got overwhelmed Suddenly the pain exceeded my ability to cope and I almost killed myself on an impulse. Completely out of nowhere.
Anyone else go through this? I don’t feel safe in my own body. | self.SuicideWatch |
Hot Air Balloon - One Way Trip Down the rabbit hole I go!
Anyone care to join me for the Hot Air Balloon ride? It will be my last, doesn't have to be yours.
I'm not encouraging anyone to take their own life, just asking if anyone wants to join me for the ride up. I'm going to jump once we reach the highest altitude p... | self.SuicideWatch |
I wish there was less suffering in the world. There's just too much out there. In so many forms. Hopefully things will be get better... | self.offmychest |
How can one seek help? I've had a few issues/events in my life that were quite, let's say intense, and with a bit of acting I've managed to convince my entire family that I am perfectly ok, but the events scarred me, I am still afraid of a lot of things as a result, and if I just stay and daydream, sometimes i get flas... | self.depression |
Dear friends, Do you ever get that feeling that your worst enemies are right, that your worst fears are true, that you said to yourself "I'll show them one day" but know in your heart that day may never come? | self.depression |
I wish I had someone who cares me and I can talk to Not my parents
I can’t feel any love in this family
Not my friends
I have close friends,but not that kind I can tell my secrets to
Not my teachers
I’m just one of their students
I’m not one of their friends
| self.depression |
I think suicide in my only option. I don't know what else to do. I'm at a point in life where everything seems a lot more difficult than ever before, and it doesn't look like it will get any better. I don't have any friends. My family doesn't love me. I can't find a job. My self esteem is at an all time low, I've lost ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Is Prozac giving anyone mild man boobs? Prozac is doing wonders for me, but have this mild side effect of gynecomastia, I feel.
Any guys on the same boat? What did you do about it? | self.depression |
I'm bipolar "Oh, but you don't look like it"
Thanks I guess | self.bipolar |
I wanna text my ex She the only person I was in a relationship with, she was my first girlfriend. We dated for 2 months back in 2015 from September 15th my bday) to Thanksgiving
We left on the worst terms possible
But I just feel like I should text her anyways because I’m so lonely
Idk
I wish I could get drunk a... | self.SuicideWatch |
My friend choose suicide.. hello, i wish i was here for a better reason.. my friend just died last night he hang himself I'm completely heart broken.. Why did he do it? Was there anything I could have done? I still can't believe he is dead even if I have just seen his body minutes ago. All it looks to me is that he is ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Sadness and anger are taking over my life, and no one around me cares about it This is gonna be jumbled and long.
Things haven’t really been going great for me, but they also haven’t been bad. Near the end of my sophomore year in high school I had completely lost all of my friends and was left alone to my thoughts desp... | self.depression |
I'll be spending Christmas alone for the first time this year and I'm so sad about it. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Lexapro hypomania even with a mood stabiliser? So I started 10mg Lexapro today on top of 200mg Lamictal and 300mg Wellbutrin for some breakthrough anxiety and depression, probably due to working through some really tough shit in therapy. I've been taking the latter two for a few years at the same dosage, and was diagno... | self.bipolar |
I mixed hot choco and coffee together... And it was exactly how I always thought coffee should taste.
At my job there's this fancy vending machine. One does candy bars and drinks, the other serves hot drinks in these small-ass cups (I think less than 100ml (3.3 oz). The damn rascal always fills up half the cup, regard... | self.offmychest |
Will I ever get better? Every now and then I drop by to this sub and write what I feel. It's been 3-4 years and I still feel the same way as before. Still in the same situation with even worse hope for myself. Wavering self-confidence and non-existent self care. I hope one day I can come back to this sub as someone who... | self.depression |
Its Not Worth Living AnyMore... Hi, My Name is Sebastian. im 19 gay and single... my whole life i was abused harrased bullied and made fun of, at the age of 6 my dad raped me, im not here to look for pitty, im here cause this is it for me... im writting my goodbyes to people who might actually care.
So i live in washi... | self.SuicideWatch |
I’m never lowballing myself ever again For the past five years I’ve been hustling my ass off at work and not making as much money or getting as much recognition as i should. This is due to my overly nice nature. I’m not the type to enjoy conflict or confrontation and it has cost me probably many thousands of dollars ov... | self.offmychest |
Beginning to think I should walk away. Tuesday and Wednesday, you tell me your loneliness starts when you walk through our front door. Even though you complain / vent to me for between 5 to 20 minutes each night about your job, it’s nothing outside our walls that is the issue. You’re in a loveless relationship and yo... | self.offmychest |
At what point did you start getting medicated for anxiety? So I’ve been diagnosed bipolar for about a year and a half now. I would have weird flares of anxiety attacks that I used to contribute to school until I dropped out. Then I contributed it to visiting my inlaws when I ran out of medication. Now they’re back. I’m... | self.Anxiety |
No family, no hopes, no money. Hi, everyone.
I thank you in advance for reading this post.
I feel trapped, I don't know what to do. Today I realized the fact of no longer having a family. My mom has a really rare type of cancer, my dad abandoned us when I was 1 year old, so I don't know anything about him.
I haven... | self.depression |
I feel like I'm slowly hurting myself I believe I've been mildly depressed for quite a while. Maybe at times moderately depressed. I've been on disability for years now, but never during this time have I exercised so little (barely at all), and eaten so poorly. Within this year my Seroquel XR dose went from a seemingly... | self.bipolar |
need advice on how to talk to loved ones i (24M) never could really speak to loved ones about anything in my life. i keep everything very shallow and don't allow them or anyone to really get to know me.
i have never had a girlfriend either, just want to put that out there. i want on but am not able to open up to p... | self.offmychest |
Don't ignore your Anxiety: a cautionary tale The problem with anxiety is that it snowballs, avoiding your problems always makes things worse and following that mantra my entire life I’ve fallen into a rabbit hole of problems that I’m only now just figuring out how to deal with.
For as long as I can remember I’ve gott... | self.Anxiety |
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