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No one knows how depressed I’ve been the past 3 years and it’s draining. [deleted] | self.depression |
Can't find a psychiatrist. I have had about 5 psychiatrist before and it always ends up not going back because of my episodes. I have not been officially diagnosed but all of the doctors suspected it but i have never went to the same doctor twice because of my lows and i just feel unmotivated to travel or talk to them.... | self.bipolar |
Scared I have ALS, also Unbelievably depressed, crying at work, at home Hi,
I'm a 28 year old programmer dude from Slovenia, with severe depression and anxiety , steaming from my past.
So 9 days ago the left side of my left foot started twitching uncontrollably, and fast forward to today my left foot is twitching al... | self.Anxiety |
I'm 21 and I've been suicidal since 13. I have no want or desire to live anymore. I used to believe that old "it'll get better" saying, but after nearly a decade of constant suicidal tendencies, I no longer believe it.
The only reason I'm still alive is so that I don't cause my mother more grief. She had an abusive mot... | self.SuicideWatch |
If I call the suicide hotline with these concerns, will I be taken seriously? *NSFW elements* Okay. First and absolutely foremost, I am not in immediate danger. This is **not** a post of me expressing a desire to end my life. I am secure and I am not going to harm myself. I promise.
With that said, my questions an... | self.depression |
Today is the day I decided to get help. I am a 20 year old college student. I have been struggling with severe depression for years: on and off meds, the works. I finally hit a rock bottom when I got kicked out of my residential community for depression and constant negativity. I had two choices: fix it or end it. I ha... | self.depression |
A letter to my mother, who died a month ago You were quite ill and even after repeated treatments the condition kept getting worse. I consider it a blessing that I got the chance to take care of you.
I will miss making breakfast for you every morning. I have moist eyes as I write this but I really miss your presence ... | self.offmychest |
I was thinking about my relationship with my mother tonight. Due to years of emotional abuse, mental health issues, substance abuse, and instability (among other things) my relationship with my mother is complicated to say the very least. These days we’re trying to repair what’s left of it. It’s awkward, and sometimes ... | self.offmychest |
What can i do ???? here is whats going on i'm 16 i cant get out of the house really cause there is no where that i can go to get away from things. So i'm kinda stuck inside, I play video games and watch YoutTube and hang out with my dogs. I don't any have friends i can hang out with, the only friends i have are online.... | self.offmychest |
This struggle to survive is getting me so fed up. Just when I thought I could spend my paycheck on something that I love, my car broke down. Fucking incredible, of course I'd like to spend a fortune to fix it and leave my wallet empty again.
It just seems to me that life doesn't treat me kindly compared to a few lucky... | self.depression |
The beginning process is frustrating. First of all I want to apologize for the wall of text following.
So I went yesterday for my psych assessment. Everyone was super nice and I got assessed by this lady. We talked for a long time and she asked me lots of questions ya know how it is. I told her all my family's histor... | self.bipolar |
No nonfications from you just feelings in my heart in my heart I want to reach out to you again but I'm so scared of what you'd say. I never knew how you truly felt for me. I want to know why you never answered back. Your empty silence was a cold blade to my heart. I wish you knew how I truly felt. I knew you were stre... | self.offmychest |
Help!! Dude my nephew is sitting next to me
HE REALLY IS
and he's asking to play Mario
and now he says its ok if I play another game
WHY DO PPL ONLINE NOT LIKE ME SO MUCH!?!?!
Usually I get out of bed at 10pm cuz I'm depressed that ppl on reddit downvote my posts or they get deleted for being off-topic or somethin... | self.Anxiety |
Ready to break the cycle, looking into CBT therapy and open to any other advice. Thanks folks Recently, I graduated from college and from an outside perspective I have a great life. Family who loves me, healthy and fit, good job, etc. But I have randomly been hit by this wave of depression and feel at times there is ... | self.depression |
I don't have to go to church if I don't want to. And every Sunday you'll ruin my day for it, husband. Why can't you respect my adult decision? | self.offmychest |
Zoloft made me act different, I hope someone's been there and can help So i've been taking zoloft for almost a year and since my hair stared to fall out too much my doc told me that zoloft might be the reason. So now im taking a lower dose (50 mg) and my hair is still falling out xD but whats important is that the effi... | self.depression |
Shitty boyfriend in high school Okay I'm just going to preface this by saying that all of this happened when I was 16-18 in high school and a lot of time has passed. I've still been feeling guilty about it lately and never actually told anyone the full story so I feel like I need to.
Grade 11, May-ish. I had been dati... | self.offmychest |
Sometimes I wish I had someone in my life that could be here for me and maybe tell me I’m not as awful as I feel I am everyday. [deleted] | self.depression |
Not looking forward to my mother's Golden Globes party. (VENT) [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I wasnt meant to live Im a failure. Survival of the fittest would have me dead already. Im not cut out for the world and therefore dont deserve to live. I want to die but i cant even take my own death because im such a fucking bitch. | self.depression |
How do you find someone to help Need help doing it I'm in the south. How can you find a partner to go with? | self.SuicideWatch |
What is the equivalent of a hug when you have nobody to hug you? What to do when you feel like a kitty begging for someone to pet you?
That would be very easy if we had someone that wouldn’t mind us to act like loving kitties, such as a lover for instance.
But if you have nobody? What do you do?
I cry.
Or eat pie o... | self.depression |
So intrusive thoughts and images are related to bipolar? (Trigger Warning) I was reading some of the older posts on here and I was really surprised. I'm newly diagnosed and thought that I was weird for decades because of the weird images and thoughts that I had. Ever since I was 11 I had them. Weird scary images that w... | self.bipolar |
Does anyone have experiences with Effexor Xr - Zoloft ... [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I have no idea what to do with my life I'm very smart. I'm pretty. I'm good with people. I have so many opportunities that other people don't have. I could do anything I want with my life, more or less. I'm 14 years old and I have this whole world set out at my feet, all these paths that lead to amazing and beautiful p... | self.offmychest |
I feel like an absolute creep I recently went away for a party weekend at a cabin with a large group of people, including my girlfriend.
On the second night I grabbed this girl's butt when we were coming up back to the house from the dock (not my gf). No one else was there to see. I don't know what came over me, and I... | self.offmychest |
I have no idea what's wrong with me I'm a 16 year male in my junior year of high school. My freshman year was as basic as could be, but in October of my sophomore year I had my first manic episode (or at least what I think was mania). I was full of energy, got work done so fast my teachers literally couldn't keep up, I... | self.bipolar |
I'm sorry I never really meant to say that I'm loving you less and less as days go by, because that's not remotely true. Why I said that is because I wanted to show you that the chance of losing me is there, and that it's time for you, and me to start changing and becoming better versions of ourselves. We have a long w... | self.offmychest |
How do I avoid "checking out" when I am not quite ready to leave yet? So long story short, I have had a lot of good times and bad times over the past several years. Recently things have been worse, with some major life changes contributing more than ever.
I'm tempted by the thought of just taking this game that is lif... | self.SuicideWatch |
I walked a good amount today which is weird because i'm laying here looking for symptoms of a heart attack but I walked alot and could feel my heart pounding anxiety is a tricky mistress | self.Anxiety |
Emptiness Hello everyone.
I just wanted share my view.
I am in my early 30's. Not child and not veteran. As i see life right now, it is colorless and without taste. My earning is ok. So, no difficulties based on money.
However, all my life is spent on career. I do like my work. It is my hobby and job. Information Tec... | self.SuicideWatch |
On the edge after my exam Just wrote an exam and can't even remember how it really went. I feel depressed and anxious and think I failed. Crying as I'm typing. Swallowed a handfull of anti depressants and hope I never wake up. This test was the tipping point. Doubt I can make it in life being bipolar | self.SuicideWatch |
Just need someone to check in in me from time to to over the next few weeks It's a long story and I'll type it out if I need to but I'm in my phone. Got beat up my roomate and former friend of 10+ years. Throwing my whole world unto the air, school, housing, social circle. And I'm at my moms now and she is having su... | self.SuicideWatch |
Can Anti Anxiety/Depression Medication (Specifically Lexapro) cause someone to become more forgetful or have their attention become diverted more easily? Hello dear readers,
I have been taking lexapro for about a year now. With in the last 6 months my dosage was increased from 10mg to 20mg. Since then I have noticed ... | self.Anxiety |
i’m stubborn and i suddenly stopped taking my antidepressants [deleted] | self.depression |
Another wave of depression I'm feeling pretty bad right now. I've been depressed for a while but it's been getting worse. It's difficult because I know I look okay. I'm able to work, I'm able to hang out with people, I'm able to fake it. I want to have a breakdown and just get rest. | self.depression |
I feel guilty and hate my father for wasting huge amount of money FOR ME [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I feel depressed, but I want opinions before I seek help [WARNING: LONG ASS POST] Quick note: I’m from the UK, so when I say college I’m not referring to my time at university.
Hey, I’m a 19 year old university students and I’m somewhat worried about being depressed. It may sound silly, but I don’t particularly want t... | self.depression |
Improvements are finally being made on my loneliness issues. I'm finally going on my first date at 23. Earlier this month I finally decided to get serious about online dating because I really want to finally put my loneliness problems to rest and made new friends, maybe meet a SO. Now, my efforts have finally born frui... | self.depression |
When you wonder whether your best friend is still your best friend [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Medications for bipolar depression Hi everyone, I'm diagnosed bipolar I, and I'm curious as to anyone's thoughts and/or success (or lack of success) with medications. Currently, I only take small doses of Seroquel (25mg-100mg) to regulate my sleep because as long as I can consistently get 8 hours that staves off the ma... | self.bipolar |
depression and self pity are destroying me (sorry for the length) No idea how long this is gonna be but we'll see.
I've been depressed verging on two years now. I can't even go once a day anymore without feeling like a complete piece of shit. i'm a disappointment to my dad and it's not getting any better. We fight ... | self.depression |
Getting through the bad days is becoming more and more difficult [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I've been told so many times that I cling to my depression, that I'm depressed because I want to be [deleted] | self.depression |
My mom getting mad at me about my anxiety [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
People who suffer From Anxiety; How do you Cope with Exam Taking Anxiety? Hey all. So I am preparing for this exam which is probably going to determine where I end up in life. And f that isn't stressful enough theres always the pressure of seeing your parents overworking themselves, seeing peers doing way better than y... | self.Anxiety |
Merry Christmas My Love! Today! What an amazing time together. This morning was incredible, as it always is. Walking in and seeing you at lunch was like sunshine on a gloomy day. Pure peace & comfort. The words your wrote to me in your card - absolutely incredible. So unbelievably beautiful. I am so profoundly... | self.offmychest |
Would like advice on getting back into dating Hi there.
I've had difficulty with getting back into dating and I'd like some advice. Here's some background-
I have had MDD for about 13 years, diagnosed PTSD for around 6 years. I've only been in one serious relationship/in love. I sabotaged it in a semi-psychotic stat... | self.depression |
My teachers way if describing homelessness almost made me tear up [deleted] | self.depression |
The only reason I'm still alive is that I'm afraid of death. [deleted] | self.depression |
Finally reading a book of poetry by Rumi... This one gave me so much solace [deleted] | self.bipolar |
My gf thinks I don't care what she has to say because I can't concentrate and lose interest quick. Bipolar 1 here. To start, I have issues with my executive functioning, meaning memory, concentration, etc, due to neurological damage from our lovely disease. Even when I'm stable, I am very poor at focusing, remembering,... | self.bipolar |
Wanting to help a friend Hey guys, never thought I'd have to post here, but here's hoping I can get some direction on how to proceed.
So this friend I worked with about 10 years ago, and stayed somewhat in touch through time, until the last few years, is going through a really rough time.
He made a stupid decision ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Why do people think introversion is a sign of hostility? Most of Christmas I was just on my own and I know that it was the wrong thing to do especially considering that we had a huge party over at my house. I just got nervous at the thought of meeting and greeting people I haven't seen in months or even years.
Add th... | self.depression |
It's coming back again After taking a year leave from my university (mainly because I constantly broke down on every given assignments), I thought I'll be stronger enough to go through my classes again this year.
But after visiting my campus constantly.. It gets tiring and I feel like I'm on a verge of tears. It is no... | self.depression |
Is it possible to be hypomanic but get tired? I’ve been hypomanic for over a week but I just started a new job and I’ve been getting pretty tired. This past weekend I had energy like insane and was never tired. I still have almost all the same symptoms (just haven’t been smoking as much) except I actually do feel tired... | self.bipolar |
Does depression affect your immune system I'm just wondering because every time my depression gets particularly bad, I start feeling physically ill. | self.depression |
13, addicted to opioids and i hate myself I can't even look in the mirror without crying about the disaster I've become, and the only time I feel somewhat good is after I eat my pills. Recently I realized how easy it would be to OD myself, but I'm also scared of that. Sorry if this is dumb or something but I really don... | self.SuicideWatch |
An obsessive-compulsive fear of uncertainty/health anxiety? I have diagnoses of severe, complex OCD and schizoaffective disorder. I am currently freaking out because over the last few weeks, a few times I have passed dark orange urine that looked like it might contain blood. I think it coincides with my change of medic... | self.Anxiety |
We won! My mum beat that motherfucker!
It took 9 months but she got an all clear from her oncologist!
We fucking won! She beat cancer! It took surgery and the shock of finding more of it than first thought but in the end it didn't matter!
I am the proud son of someone that isn't just a cancer SURVIVOR, she's a cance... | self.offmychest |
I am screaming internally - I just need someone to talk to Hi - how are you today? Had a good thanksgiving? I have been struggling internally for the longest time – it feels like every waking hour of my life is just me screaming from the inside out, I often clench my fists in rage and anger from so much internal confus... | self.offmychest |
half of pills gone, half to go already consumed 3 paracetamol and 8 ibuprofen, still have 13 paracetamol and 4 ibuprofen to go but i'm full of water, taking about 5 mins break before resuming | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm honestly want to quit drinking I'm 35. I've been drinking regularly since I was 23 or so. I hate it now. I had a bad drug problem in my teens - you name it I did it...
I was stone cold sober for a few years in before my 1st yr in college, but somehow I ended up a drunk back in my clubbing days and never quite sto... | self.offmychest |
Letter to my ex boyfriend.
I want you back. I miss how we used to be. I miss how you'd look at me with your precious brown eyes when you knew I was upset. I miss you saying my name in a sing songy voice. I miss you patting your lap when you were in your chair, motioning for me to sit on your lap. I miss our special wa... | self.offmychest |
I don't want to live, but I don't want to die. I wander alone. I've never known a good home. From a father that worked tirelessly to a mother who worked to avoid caring. From a brother that is violent beyond my comprehension to ailing grandparents who raised me to be who I am.
I want friends, yet I'm afraid of people.... | self.offmychest |
Light therapy vs behavioral therapy for winter depression? My therapist and doc suggested I try light therapy this winter. I am aware of the risk of hypo/mania with light therapy and will monitor accordingly, hypomania can be a concern for me in spring. My pdoc will be in the loop, I'm sure since he loves sleep hygiene... | self.bipolar |
Does high-intensity interval training have the same anti-anxiety effects as moderate-intensity cardio? I know that cardio can have anti-anxiety effects. I am going to start a cutting routine that involves HIIT (high intensity interval training) and was curious if it has the same anti-anxiety effects that moderate-inten... | self.Anxiety |
Which are the positive affirmations and quotes that help you in your darkest hours? | self.Anxiety |
sup Hey, i've been thinking about this for a long while now, nothing seems to change and its been going for a couple of years now, im not even that old yet like but damn i suck at life. I've been lying to myself these last couple of years thinking "life will get better if i try!!1", the truth is it clearly wont, i suck... | self.SuicideWatch |
Money always plays a role I can never afford my college text books, so I end up dropping a lot of classes. And then, because I drop, I become eligible for less and less financial aid. So, like, I get penalized for being poor, and my punishment is to be even poorer. I’ve tried explaining this to financial aid, but they ... | self.SuicideWatch |
High school and life outside of that has mentally damaged me so much that I just wanna forget about everything and start new once I start college next year. I wanna forget my dad who's an asshole but I prob can't. I just watch porn to escape reality. Ik it's sad. | self.SuicideWatch |
I love you Ryan, dolly. I feel like a faliure as a mother I can't fix myself and I'm trying so hard to be better. My two kids will have it better if I'm not around. I don't think I'll make it through the night. | self.SuicideWatch |
I don’t remember the last time I did well on a final exam And by well I mean just scrapping a meager B. Sometimes I feel lucky to get a C though.
Ever since high school I’ve never performed well on final examinations, maybe due all of them being at the same time. Or maybe I’m just a bad test taker. I will admit that I... | self.offmychest |
I’m not giving my son the best life and it kills me I currently live in a homeless shelter with my 2 year old son. Our ‘Departure Date’ is Thursday, April 26. I don’t have enough money for an apartment, we only get $61/mo in food stamps, and will be living out of my car. My son’s dad took everything and left (and is no... | self.depression |
I fucked up real bad and I do not deserve to live. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I've been suicidal for most of my life I can remember my first suicidal thought at 5-6. I learned that people can die, kill other people and be killed. I thought to myself "why live if life is not worth living?" My first attempt was in 4th grade but I failed leaving me with severe throat scarring. I'm 16 now and since ... | self.depression |
I don't know what to do anymore I know that there are plenty of people who dislike me, even those I consider friends probably find me insufferable at the best of times. I wish I knew how to change it, I wish I knew what I'm doing wrong, but I don't and it's eating away at me.
Maybe it's my mind playing tricks on me, ... | self.depression |
Posted this a hundred times, but i need to chat. I'll listen to you too :) | self.bipolar |
I'm so tired...I just want the pain and stress to disappear. I'm at my end. I am so tired of life and the constant pain and stress that death is starting to not look so scary. The internal mechanics that keep one from doing harm to oneself is breaking down. Every day for the past 3 years has been a struggle. I am s... | self.SuicideWatch |
Pre-Interview Panicking Longtime lurker, but I feel like I need to get this off of my chest. I'm freaking myself out over something that I should be excited about. It's a long one.
I was medically retired from the Army two months ago. My anxiety became horrible since I don't have a purpose other than SAHM activit... | self.Anxiety |
I want to pour my heart out to a girl, but I know I can't. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
School Programs I have 3 kids, ages 10, 11 and 11. Tonight the 10 yo and one of the 11 year olds both had concerts. That meant the parents had to go to separate concerts. My anxiety aid for these things is having someone to talk to, to hold my hand when I start getting a twitch, to distract me when all the talking voic... | self.Anxiety |
I feel like I'm always waiting Always waiting for time to pass so I can go home from work, so I can go to bed. I'm having a really hard time just living in the moment. I just feel so lonely. | self.depression |
want to end my life want to end my life putting this off for years I'm 54 years old hate my life want to end my life | self.SuicideWatch |
I can't go home I'm sitting in my cold car doing online surveys to make enough money to buy gas to go home
I've literally never felt more alone in my life than I do right now | self.offmychest |
I hate being nice to people. I get nothing out of it. It just feels like I am in a losing situation. They get something, and I get nothing. I also notice that no one really tries as hard as I do when the situation is reversed. So doing anything for them just feels like energy going into a black hole. I hate that it's e... | self.offmychest |
I've been teetering for a month now and I feel like it's time. I give myself 24 hours every day to try to not feel like this. I think this is my last 24 hours. Today was the icing on the cake and it sucks because I can't even bring the words up to explain the situation I'm in. I just hate my life, I hate myself and i w... | self.SuicideWatch |
Do you find that the longer a task lingers, the worse it gets in your head? And then you just avoid it and cause yourself stress over nothing?
How do you attack tasks?
Bc lately, even a simple task like sending an email to ask another person something... gives me anxiety.
I've noticed when tasks involve other peop... | self.Anxiety |
Hating myself is so exhausting and painful It just gets so overwhelming that I can’t handle it sometimes. Why was I born with this curse? | self.depression |
My girlfriend of 9 years broke up with me the day after Christmas and today's my birthday. Holy crap, did not see this coming at all. Haven't had a bad panic attack in years but I can feel myself getting worked up. Advice? | self.Anxiety |
I'm very, very lonely. I'm stuck at home for 3 days by myself with no one to talk to. for some people that sounds like a nice vacation but for me it's absolutely terrible. I feel so lonely. | self.depression |
can you please send me some good vibes ? :( | self.Anxiety |
Need help/opinions on medication So I was preciously on sertraline 100 (for a couple years)and felt great. So great that I wanted to get off them and see if I was good to go without it. I have great weeks/months and then anxiety comes back. Ive learned how to deal/manage anxiety better by reading DARE, which really h... | self.Anxiety |
Trying to fight through with no help. Failing miserably. I've always struggled with depression but this is the worst it's ever been. I can't really open up to my family because they aren't the best support. My boyfriend has been going through lots of stress and just spends his time in video games. (I don't blame him. I... | self.bipolar |
Why am I like this? Every time I try to step out of my comfort zone and try to be more outgoing/"normal" so people will think a little better of me perhaps, I just completely fuck everything up. I don't even feel like leaving my bed anymore.
Why I'm posting this right niw: I somehow convinced a girl that I'm not a com... | self.depression |
Watching Kevin Hart while planning my Suicide I've been trying to plan my suicide for weeks now, well actually years but I'm a failure at everything. I'm finally considering a definite solution to my problem without the possibility to survival. Except in this moment, while I'm plotting my demise, I can't help smile lis... | self.SuicideWatch |
Drunk, holed up in the bathroom listening to hurt by Johnny cash Lmao tis the season for a breakdown | self.bipolar |
Health Anxiety and Tinnitis, need some HELP!! So basically I've been dealing with a lot of heath anxiety for 6 weeks, it started when I got a constant dull ache in my right flank and abdomen , since then I have been tested and tested with the result of severe constipation although I am not sure this is true, anyway, ... | self.Anxiety |
I can't deal with this shit rn! Fucking hell I can't deal with dad. I'm in a depressive episode, the worst one so far. So bad my parents had to acknowledge it. Doctor thinks I may have bipolar.
Dad doesn't believe in that shit so he tries to find reasons on his own.
First it was take the "evil" posters down. Then it ... | self.offmychest |
I never feel "good enough" for anything Then i want to give up like always | self.depression |
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