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Girlfriend (F/28) and I (M/25) just broke up after 3 years. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I️ need help All of 2017 has been a rocky year.My family forced me to move, my mom and dad got divorced,and the only thing keeping me sane died. I️ need help before I️ lose it and kill myself | self.depression |
I don't know how to talk to people and end up making them mad by saying the wrong thing.. Everyone always leaves me because I don't know how to be positive. Someone offered a trip to amsterdam and i said no because of my anxiety of drugs and so on and she got offended. Then another person I said I was drained and they ... | self.depression |
Too much of a wuss to finish the job [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
it's my birthday today. yay
I am honestly just so done.
This time of year is already shitty because the holidays, but every year a week before Christmas, i get to throw my birthday on the fire too!
A yearly reminder that not only do I have very few friends, but I have demonstrably less each year. I think I might act... | self.SuicideWatch |
Clouds Fog and Fall October again
So what then
Why does it matter?
I’m too broken to shatter
Sitting amongst The Gloom
Gun in the other room
Calling me; to my doom
I can’t
Leave
Leaf, a spoon, shroom, a can;
A bottle—liquid, pills
Pain kills
The whispers are loud; so shrill
Noise is silence, a great echo
Getting lost... | self.Anxiety |
Post Happiness depression (Happiness Hangover) I desperately need advice. So today I went to this thing where I played board games with other people with social anxiety and it went much better than I thought. Basically we all see this same woman who's helping us with our anxiety and with life/work skills. We are all ar... | self.Anxiety |
Wasted my 20s major regret I'm 29 going on 30 and recently it hit me out of no where hard that i feel like I wasted my 20s and life. I spent my 20s mostly isolated, early 20s still had some friends and hung out a little wasn't very great though, but mid to late 20s the last 4-5 years I've spent mostly isolated and alo... | self.depression |
People always seem impressed to see me go to events/on trips on my own. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
New semester is starting and all I can think about is not being around anymore. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Feel anxious and alone, need someone to talk too So i'm in my third year of university. I feel really alone here. I have a girlfirend i've been with for almost 2 years but she is doing a placement year about 2/3 hours away. My family arn't very close with each other so I don't speak to them much, and the people I live ... | self.Anxiety |
Its almost as if the whole world is against me.. Somedays I feel like I was just destined to end up this mentally fucked in the head. Its almost as if the world wanted me to carry this burden of constant anguish and hopelessness. Im so used to the same cycle of sorrow that when something bad does happen, it doesnt even... | self.depression |
alcoholism Sigh, unfortunately, I've fallen into a hole. I'm definitely becoming an alcoholic, even on my medications, as my reasons for drinking are not associated with my mood disorder. However, I'd like to know how exactly it messes with your body while you're on medications? I drink daily and I'm on Geodon 40MG a d... | self.bipolar |
Psilocybin for neurogenesis and other benefits? Hi all,
Just listened to podcast describing psilocybin use in PTSD.
I don’t have PTSD. Just bipolar, which errs on the side of dysphoric mania, which has already caused a decent amount of brain damage, at least from what the pdoc and neurologist have said.
Anyone hav... | self.bipolar |
Fucking crashed again Suicidal mentions.
Was doing fine on Latuda then I crashed and now I'm suicidal. Still on the Latuda and lamictal and wellbutrin. Maybe I need a higher dose. Maybe it isn't the drug for me and it isn't potent enough. Then what will be right.
I'm stuck in the loop of hopelessness with what's the ... | self.bipolar |
Fucked Up BIG TIME. Looking for someone to talk to Hey guys.
Recently had my first manic episode about a month ago. Needless to say, that I am now the laughing stock of the whole city. Everyone from 17 to 25 knows who the fuck I am for the wrong reasons. I have no way to leave town. | self.bipolar |
I cheated and want to tell the truth. I deserve whatever happens to me. I want to accept the consequences of my actions. I just don't know where to start. Long story. I cheated on my SO of 13 years. I am not trying to justify my behavior. Just explain.
Things were very, very bad. I told him at the beginning of Decemb... | self.offmychest |
Been in this relationship for about 2 years ^_^ On one hand that kind of scares me. Because the last one fell apart about 2-3 years. Totally different person that cheated on me. that was about 4 years ago. This other one so far so good. she's much more straitforward and we have more things in common. I love her laug... | self.offmychest |
I regret going to a stripclub I went to a stripclub completely drunk. I never liked the idea and didn't even really want to go that night. I was out with friends and we just randomly walked in it was not planned. I sat down and a stripper touched me through my underwear, a very short front facing lapdance and offered a... | self.offmychest |
5 days in 2018 and I’m still the same Still drinking, still watching porn, still not trying to find a girlfriend, still thinking about the death of my loved ones, still miss my old gf, still don’t know if I believe in god, still trying to finish my degree, still trying to be there for my family but everything is so har... | self.depression |
The spiral I can't get out of My mind is all foggy. I can't concentrate on anything. The only thing I do all day is stare in front of me and just letting the thoughts consume me. Go to sleep, have nightmares, repeat. Over and over again until I can finally end it. Oh how I'm looking forward to end it. | self.depression |
I just needed to vent I hated myself from a young age. I'm not sure exactly when I realized it, but I was young. I was the kid that everyone called "crybaby". I would sit by myself at the edge of the playground and play in the wood chips and eat alone at lunch. I wondered why all of the other kids seemed to mindlessly ... | self.depression |
I don't even get motivated enough to cut myself anymore. | self.depression |
I need help getting therapy and getting it-- if possible-- for free until I can pay for it. [deleted] | self.depression |
First day at work on Wednesday. Hello, I've subscribed to this subreddit two weeks ago (was lurking in that timeframe) and I've seen several post about people who have anxiety about going to their first day of work. And I am one of those people, diagnosed with a learning disability and a social anxiety disorder.
In ... | self.Anxiety |
I looked at her tumblr. Big mistake. I looked at an old best friend's art tumblr and I just fell apart. She pretty much left me in her dust when she found better friends and now she's became a more talented artist then me, even interning for Cartoon Network.
We were practically sisters, although she lived in a differ... | self.depression |
Sigh Sigh sometimes words can't explain how you feel. I'm sure with time everything will get better | self.offmychest |
I'm a horrible person I'm a huge leech on everyone around me. I can't get a job. I can't emotionally support another person because I'm so torn up about myself. I'm a terrible significant other. I hate myself. I'm broken from my childhood and I want to die every day. I'm alone. I have no friends. I wish I weren't so se... | self.depression |
I wish life had a reset button Then I could start all over again, and not fuck everything up and become the worthless loser I am now
Edit - Thank you all for the replies. | self.depression |
Depression just hit me, I need your support. Depression just hit me like it usually does when I least suspect it. Right now I feel extremely down, I can’t even think straight. Some support would be appreciated. | self.depression |
I'm better. I really am. But I'd still rather be dead. Years of effort have me a little better.
There's less misery, but no happiness.
And there's no hope or belief that there will be. | self.depression |
It is amazing Hey guys, It has been a while. I just want to share this news with everyone and since I can't share it with all of my friends in Alabama, I will share with you guys.
I am pregnant! Finally. Most of you know that I wanted to be pregnant last year, but my husband and I weren't ready yet. Well, a little ac... | self.bipolar |
Backpedaling Hi, so I have anxiety and panic attacks, I used to have them a lot last year, but I made HUGE progress over the summer (my mom was having a wedding completely comprised of out of towners ). I was pretty good for the beginning of this year, up until about now. My anxiety is based on social situations, alcoh... | self.Anxiety |
Please respond, I dont know what to do anymore Please. I dont know what to do anymore. Im taking the rest of the day to try and deeply reflect but im scared. Ive thought about this plenty of times and i keep coming to the same conclusion. I just lost my best and last friend. He told me he wants me to get my life togeth... | self.SuicideWatch |
I've gotten less than 10 hours of sleep since last friday due to increasingly intense and frequent panic attacks... I only got about an hour and a half's worth of sleep last night, despite going to bed around 10:30 pm and lying down until 9:00 this morning.
The issue is the nocturnal panic attacks. I have them as I'm... | self.Anxiety |
I'm tired of the platitudes. I'm sick of the pain of living [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Why do I have dreams about my ex at least 4 times a week? [deleted] | self.depression |
Do you ever just... not know what the heck is going on? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
How Do I Admit Myself to a Mental Hospital/Rehab? [removed] | self.depression |
Need help with medication complience I’ve been taking medication for almost 3 years, and I’ve been on my current medications for 1.5 years (about 8 months being on the dosage I am now). It seems to be working and honestly I haven’t felt this stable in a while. But over the last month or so I’ve been having such a hard ... | self.bipolar |
Advice? I’m sorry if this doesn’t follow the rules for this sub but I’ve posted in three different ones hoping for advice. Last night I found out my friend committed suicide. I’m in denial, and I just want some advice, if anyone else has lost someone please just give me some tips on how to deal with it
Thank you | self.SuicideWatch |
What are the negative side effects of depression meds? [deleted] | self.depression |
Time to count mental disorders I think I have until I decide to get help Bipolar 2
Misophonia(yes it's fucking real, and no it's not just an annoyance. It's stomach upsetting anxiety)
ADHD - was diagnosed with a mild form of it, now can barely read a book
Shit I thought there was more.
Ima become a pill junk... | self.bipolar |
Anyone depressed because nobody truly loves them? I have loads of acquaintances but 0 real friends. | self.depression |
How to know how bad you are - TW self harm Hey guys,
So I'm one week in and halfway through titrating up on my new Trileptal. I've been having more agitated energy, really strong thoughts of self-harm (and new ones!) and more, consistent S.I.
I'm now in a place of a little sped up but feeling like I'm fine, I'm not sic... | self.bipolar |
I keep on thinking that I’m going to kill myself [deleted] | self.depression |
BP II and PMS I think I've posted something similar in the sub before, but my GODDDDD, I get my period in 1.5 weeks and my moods are crazy. I'm so depressed to the point where I feel like dying/killing myself (won't actually act on it) and I keep eating everything in sight. I've also been smoking pot these last few day... | self.bipolar |
How can I take a shower everyday? I feel like I don't take a shower everyday not because I don't want to, but because of my Type II Bipolar. I am in the mania phase right now and I can tell that because I am feeling ok.
I feel like I am in the depressive phase everyday and I notice that because Google says that a sym... | self.bipolar |
I wish there are magic "get better words" for people to hear I'd say them every second of every day to everyone I ever saw in pain. Especially during this time of year. I've been reading the threads here and see how much the holidays hurt some of the others on here...
I'm so sorry to all others suffering right now. I h... | self.depression |
My girlfriend has had a panic attack from anxiety. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Repeating words to make yourself feel I've been dealing with anxiousness for a while now, and recently I've been fortunate to have had some good luck/experiences, specifically with regards to relationships. But whenever I'm alone, feeling good after talking to that person, I always find myself repeating the positive wo... | self.Anxiety |
Why do depressed people treat people like shit? I'm sick and tired of it. Being lead on. Trusting someone I couldn't count on. All your stupid promises about it the future and then one day you just ignore me like a piece of shit. You make me wanna kill myself. | self.depression |
The only girl I've ever loved started dating some other guy today, and I feel like i want to actually kill myself I've talked with her for over a year. I developed feelings for her I haven't developed for anyone else ever. but recently she said she moved on, which I assumed was just her going through an episode that he... | self.depression |
So thinking about it, why the fuck am I still functioning? I have no drive, nothing I really particularly want to do. I want to be a really big and memorable figure but what are the chances of that happening, and I have no specific goal I want to pursue.
I honestly would have just killed myself years ago if my parents... | self.SuicideWatch |
18 YEAR OLD FAT FAILURE, NEVER HAD A GIRLFRIEND. Where do i begin, from a young age i have een bullied and made fun of,i was always called names for my obese looking body. i am currently 5'10 weighing in at 237 pounds and a receeding hairline that makes my balding head look even worse. to top things off i also just got... | self.SuicideWatch |
Im just waiting for death. My last words if things go my way. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Relationships Ever consider how as people get older they end up growing apart. So the people I knew a year ago I don't know now and it doesn't really affect my life. If it's the same for everyone are relationships just based on location and in a way pretty meaningless, this goes for family and girlfriends just by incre... | self.offmychest |
What do you do when you're on the bottom? [school and life anxiety] Hi, I'm a 19 yr student and I have a tough time going back to school after long breaks(that I spend in my room 95% of thr time). Soon after I come to my uni building I start panicking or my bowels go overdrive (which makes me panic, bc diarrhea is one ... | self.Anxiety |
Starting to embrace my anxiety Hi, I've been dealing with anxiety all of my life and have been on Ssri drugs the past 10 years.
Lately I was feeling more anxious than normal with what I think we're heart palpitations. Fed up with this feeling I needed to do something and not wanting to see a doctor I started jogging.... | self.Anxiety |
What the hell is going on? Sorry if I’m violating any posting rules, but I’m desperate. I get what I think are anxiety attacks, because I feel extreme fear, trouble breathing, sudden spike in temp, and lightheaded. The attack is very dependent on my actions and decisions.
It goes something like this: I’m staring at a... | self.Anxiety |
Therapist thinks I don't have bipolar I went to my first therapy session today after being "diagnosed" with BP1 a few weeks back. After some time talking to her she told me that she doesn't believe I was diagnosed properly. She said that cause of some childhood issues I have a mood disorder similar to bipolar but it... | self.bipolar |
18/M - Need some advice/reassurance/anything Note - Like the title says, I'm not at any risk of hurting myself or others. I just needed a supportive place to vent, and I found y'all. This is a response to something my friend wrote for me.
My self-loathing is already well-entrenched in my psyche to a terrifying degree;... | self.depression |
I want you all to know, its always darkest before the dawn! I know it sounds cliche and I know you all want to kill yourselves.
But dont.
I have had abou 8-9 years of downward spiralling depression with nothing working out, life falling apart and absolute hell with myself. My ego felt like it was getting destroyed at... | self.depression |
I’m trying to be strong for my mom but I’m slowly having a breakdown [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Have you ever felt a depression so deep that you don't even care if you live or die? You don't give a single shit about what happens to you. You just go through the motions and vaguely hope that some random accident happens and takes you out of your misery. Whenever you encounter any situation, your only response is ap... | self.depression |
I feel like it’s only a matter of time until the next shooting... They seem to happen every couple of weeks now, and it is absolutely terrifying to me. I know that the chance of me or my loved ones being involved in one is ultimately pretty slim, but it just seems so much more possible lately. Does no one in charge see... | self.Anxiety |
A recent break up, sent me into a depressive cycle. I will give the short version. I was with a guy for almost a year. We hit it off great, had a lot in common. We weren't perfect but the relationship was good. At least I thought so...I fell in love with him and he told me he loved me. He left me for a married woman t... | self.depression |
Had two anxiety attacks today (well one and a almost) First one: full on shaking and had to go to the car for a cry. Was alright after 15 minutes though. The Mothers ministry had a party today at church. my grandma has dementia, is obsessed with food, and bad dentures. So she makes a complete mess over food. I freaked ... | self.Anxiety |
Does anyone else desire something worse to happen to them to distract them from the current terrible thing? | self.depression |
Has the bar for being an "Asshole" been lowered? I just love it when people call me an asshole, even ones that don't even bother to get to know me.
Somehow, I have a reputation for being an asshole, but no one can tell me what it is that I've done to earn that appellation.
I can't think of anything I've done, I don't... | self.offmychest |
Xpost Need job advice Back in August, after my week and a half long stay in the hospital, I quit my job on the spot while crying hysterically to my boss. I LOVED that job but I had convinced myself that it solely put me in the hospital.
I have a new job now which I like but don’t love. I want to go back to the other ... | self.bipolar |
How do you folks reach to vitamin D supplements? I've been trying high dose vitamin D supplements >5000iu on some days, and have been noticing fatigue and exercise intolerance on those days that i dose this. And relatively much calmer than usual.
Just wondering if its a bipolar thing, and you guys notice the same? | self.bipolar |
Thanks for nothing, "free" healthcare I am a Canadian who's spent most of her adult life dealing with some pretty debilitating health problems. For the entirety of 2016 and part of 2017, I had a migraine. For over a year.
You know that really bad migraine you had one time, where you puked up everything in your stoma... | self.offmychest |
Without my ex I feel extra lonely You’d figure I’d just feel tra lonely, but I guess it doesn’t work like that.
She left me two years ago and I just feel so deflated. There’s always some empty “it wasn’t meant to be” consolation comment, but it just is what it is.
I’m sad without her and she’s never coming back. | self.depression |
I'm nothing That's how I have been thinking for the last few years. I'm nothing. Every night I sit here and im just sad because I know that no one will ever love me. All my life I wanted someone to hug and just be next to. So I sit here sad every night. And its like some girls fuck with me all the time too. This one I ... | self.depression |
I may have just wasted another year of my life and I feel fucking terrified. I was born and lived my whole life outside the US but moved away from home to attend a college in the states. However during my freshman year my mom became very sick, it got to the point that I decided to drop out after my freshman year and mo... | self.offmychest |
How does anyone balance family life with real life? My husband works 7:30-5:30 at a job 40 minutes away. Most days he works late because his paycheck is dependent on how much work he actually does. He’s gone before the kids are up and they go to bed within three hours of him coming home.
Is this really how people li... | self.offmychest |
Update "my suicidal gf" An update to my previous post called "my suicidal gf". Idont know how to announce updates properly sorry.
4 months together now. She turns 18 next month and is applying for euthanesia. I dno how to feel or what to do. She told me i kept her alive up til now. But she is all out now she says. Don... | self.SuicideWatch |
What are some good songs for panic attacks? I like to listen to music to calm down, and I’m currently at the beginning of one | self.Anxiety |
I am extremely envious of the wealthy. Yeah I get I'll statistically never be rich. Most people won't. It just fucking kills me that I'll never be earning huge amounts of money. I'll just always be working away to make someone else richer.
Does anyone else ever feel like this? I make decent money and can afford nice t... | self.offmychest |
Feeling of it being too late I feel like I've wasted so much potential, I'm pretty sure alot of people would want to(if they don't know me) or wouldve wanted to switch places with me somewhere down the road. Now I feel like because I fucked it all up I shouldn't get another chance. It's not like I am old or anything, I... | self.depression |
I’ve come to conclusion that I will commit suicide, just don’t know when... I am most certainly gonna be the one that takes my own life, I just have yet to decide on when it’s going to happen. I am diagnosed with chronic depression and currently take prozac and take counseling but it really doesn’t help me at all, just... | self.depression |
No bother in even trying😢 While most people my age are getting their shit together I on the other hand am not.
They are getting degrees, getting married,having kids, finding their true love, finding their dream job and exploring their world. I'm laying down watching so much porn, gaining 400 pounds a day, no job, no... | self.SuicideWatch |
Today has been one of the worst days man someone tell me they love even tho its a lie [deleted] | self.depression |
In between hypomania and the drop do you get really clingy? I was a little hypomanic and I’m waiting for the drop. A pattern my husband and I have noticed is between them I have a really clingy stage where I want to be with him all the time. I begged him to stay home today even though I work from home and have to do wo... | self.bipolar |
“Get therapy” I’m tired of this shit. No level of fucking therapy will solve my problems. | self.SuicideWatch |
Have multiple close friends, but I know I'm no ones best friend, and it hurts all the time Most of the time I'm able to ignore it, but lately I've just gotten so jealous looking at photos of my friends going out with their best friends, and it's really unlike me. I think it might be that i have 6 bridesmaids for my wed... | self.depression |
Hide behind the smile I think it's true when they say the people that seem the happiest are some of the most broken. Hiding behind a smile just so you don't break down when someone says "what's wrong? Is everything okay?" | self.depression |
I can't do this anymore What's supposed to keep you going when everything that's making your depression worse is out of your control?
I just got fired for the first time ever at 26 yesterday for a petty Facebook comment. I showed up to work everyday I was scheduled, early even, and worked my fucking ass off for shitt... | self.SuicideWatch |
I still wanna fuck you (should I say anything?) [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I feel like if anyone got to really know me they'd find out I'm weird and awkward and they'd stop wanting to be around me. I'm terrified of getting close to people, but I want friends, so I keep doing this dance back and forth of trying to hang out with people then cutting contact before becoming friends.
As far back... | self.depression |
Met my crush So thursday my ex gf and also crush asked my to hangout and for a sleepover. I was fucking excited and said yes. So next day, we met at her house and watched some movies, everything fine. We eventually started kissing and cuddling after just a few mins.
We had a great time and she gave me some love bites. ... | self.depression |
Side Effect or Symptom-Seraquel and my Lost days I have ADHD and Bipolar II diagnosed when I was 7. I take Seraquel to help my sleeping. I have been taking it since I was 8 years old with my dosage now at 2 100mg pills. I am wondering if anyone out there has noticed that when you wake up, regardless of what happens the... | self.bipolar |
I'm not here to do your work I love my job, but the person who is supposed to be training me is making my life miserable. She's probably sick at least one day every week, and has other appointments she needs to leave early for pretty much 3 out of 5 days of the week. She is constantly late to work.
She's supposed to b... | self.offmychest |
I deserve to die Idk if I want to die, but I know I deserve to. I'm such a shitty person, inside and out, and I can't change no matter how hard I try. I'm just a burden to everyone around me and the world would be better without me. Something is keeping me alive though even if I don't know what it is. Everyday is painf... | self.depression |
Is it such an unforgivable sin to be lost in life? [deleted] | self.depression |
So Scared of Driving I'm 20 years old and don't have my license or a car yet. The fear stems from the fact that no matter how good I am at driving, some idiot could always just kill me. I'm not a good driver, my driver's ed teacher actually made me cry back in high school I was that bad. I'm so afraid of hurting myself... | self.Anxiety |
I love my family but I feel like I could live without them for the rest of my life. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Threw away all my alcohol yesterday but regreting it. I want to stop. (Addictive/impulsive personality) [deleted] | self.depression |
Despite, I've had attempted in 2017. However, I'm still in doubt to do it again, there's part inside me telling not to. | self.SuicideWatch |
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