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People always say "keep fighting", but what if I see nothing to fight for? What if I don't see life as worth living? I have this thought a lot, and it makes my attempts to get better seem pointless, because I don't know if I'm getting better because there are things that make life worth living, or if I just.. have to,... | self.depression |
Should I No longer Try to be in relationships anymore? I'm 23 years old and I have been away from relationships for 4 years. I was left because of my anxiety by the person I felt like understood me the most.
I just feel like I'm very burdensome. I fight with anxiety and try to be a better person by fixing my problem, ... | self.Anxiety |
I think I need help Hey thought I'd post here again
I'm getting out of a toxic enviroment, but I think im moving to a new one in a few days because its the lesser of two evils.
I live in housing provided by the government with around 7 people who are mentally ill.
I have very low housing options because of my lack o... | self.depression |
Why am I not eating even though I AM hungry? *Hope someone has the patience to read this... *
I have always been a picky eater. I do give most foods a try instead of dismissing them outright, but I genuinely do not like a lot of foods, and the ones I do like are not something my mother cooks or I can afford to have on... | self.Anxiety |
Any tips for non- social anxiety worrier. I love this sub! I use it daily and it has done so many wonders of helping me out during the rough times. However, I notice it's hard to weed through the form for people like me, who's anxiety is obsessive and purely mental-physical.
I'm a communication major who has rarely a... | self.Anxiety |
Did my girlfriend of 3 years leave me because of my depression/anxiety? Hi there, in need of some advice..
On the 3rd of January my girlfriend of 3 years decided to tell me she wasn’t happy anymore and wanted to break up. Now, let me go back to the start.. I’ve always suffered from depression/anxiety but it’s been up &... | self.depression |
I feel like I'm slowly losing my will to live [deleted] | self.depression |
Living with a fixed mindset I've recently started a doctorate and one of our tasks is to keep a reflective learning journal. I've just written this entry and really wanted to share it. My first instinct was to send it to my Mum, but I think she'd feel like I am blaming her, so instead, I am posting it here.
In lectur... | self.offmychest |
Am I depressed? I seem to have all the symptoms of depression, but I do not hate myself. I don't feel happy anymore except for in short bursts. I am unmotivated, and tired all of the time, but I don't feel like I am the source of the problem. am I depressed or is it something else?
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Today was the first time i actually thought about ending it. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Feeling better first post in a long time! 2017 was an absolute cunt of a year trying to fight this shit. But as of a few months ago I decided I'd had enough and came to an ultimatum of basically suicide or reaching out to a professional. I come from a family of psychologists and by chance my wife is also a psychologist... | self.depression |
If things continue at this rate, I'm going to check myself into a psych ward. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
It's my birthday and I'm sitting here crying I have hardly any friends because I'm so shy, so I'm alone on my birthday. I feel so unaccomplished in life and not even my family cares how I feel.
Definitely feeling great on my 21st. | self.offmychest |
[NSFW] An open letter to people who go to the movies to give blowjobs [removed] | self.offmychest |
I love the rain because I know more people are miserable. [deleted] | self.depression |
i think I might be going crazy I'm sorry for posting this but I really need to get this out here. I'm not asking for medical advice, I'm already seeing a psychologist for other issues and am planning on bringing it up next time I see my therapist but my last session got cancelled so I can't see her for a few more weeks... | self.offmychest |
Nothing Works I've tried getting help, but nothing lasts long enough. I thought meds were doing the work they told me it would, but still here I am paralyzed with no desire to do anything. I just want motivation or reason to not waste all this time I have. I feel bad for everyone that deals with me, because more often ... | self.depression |
Standing in the bathroom, staring blankly at the floor as a chaotic stream of thoughts bashes against the inside of my skull. I'm looking for a way out.
This isn't necessarily a suicidal thought, although it could be interpreted that way. Whether it be killing myself in a philosophical sense or something more literal,... | self.depression |
learning to get enough sleep is tough I've never been the kind of person who has slept much. As a child I didn't nap which drove my parents nuts. I'm a Teacher working on his PHD so most of the time I'm up until midnight working on school, then awake at 4 or 5 to start the day. I know this is not good.
This past week ... | self.bipolar |
What have I come to? I'm failing out of school and I know there's no chance of going back. This has been happening for the past 3 years. I fuck it up every fucking time. I thought this semester would be ok, but then I stopped going to classes for 2 months due to an unhealthy combination of depression, anxiety, and ADD ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I don't know if I'm depressed or not Basically, although I'm not suicidal, I wouldn't mind if I learned that I would go to sleep tonight, and never wake up
I have no interest or desire in harming myself, so I don't know where these thoughts come from
Obviously, I can't tell anyone I know in person, as they'd think I ... | self.offmychest |
I don't understand why I feel so bored about everything I don't have a job, I graduated from college 8 months ago.
There are a lot of things that I enjoy, but I've been feeling so unmotivated to do anything.
I really like movies, but I open Netflix and I just end up scrolling through the catalog endlessly until I clo... | self.depression |
Describing an extreme episode of derealization and a panic attack This just happened to me an hour ago, putting it here in case it helps anybody I guess.
One of my main fears is the fear of losing grip with reality, basically going completely crazy. Depersonalization and derealization are to my anxious brain sure sign... | self.Anxiety |
What was your experience with Latuda? I’m currently on Latuda but can’t figure out if it’s doing anything for me. No side effects, no change — if anything, I’m getting worse with my swings as I’m wearing off the SSRIs I took before Latuda. I communicated with my psychiatrist about it today and we decided we’d see my pr... | self.bipolar |
Being depressed and alone I can deal with. It's when it sullies happy memories or stops me from creating them that I find it intolerable. | self.depression |
I just honestly never see a point in continuing to live [deleted] | self.depression |
[Possible trigger] First win via Exposure and Response Prevention for my ocd Hi,
I just wanted to share that I have been through a super emotional ERP session and now I am doing fine. I thought it would never be over.
I found something that triggered my obsessive thoughts: a bump on my lips and I started thinking tha... | self.Anxiety |
Help; I am incredibly unhappy in relationship with depressed girlfriend I don't know if this is the appropriate place for this, but I need help. I am a person who does not have depression (diagnosed with GAD and have some PTSD though) who is struggling in a relationship with someone with depression.
I (25F) have been ... | self.depression |
Has only check themselves into the hospital? My therapist keeps saying " i need to for an evaluation", but i think im fine.
Edit has any one* there goes typing and crying. | self.depression |
To That Lady That Humiliated Me... [Rant] When I was sixteen, I worked at a Bob Evan's restaurant. It was an extremely busy night and not only was I to seat people as a host, but I also was supposed to cash people out *and* serve three tables in my section. Our restaurant was severely understaffed. One girl I worked wi... | self.offmychest |
Hypomania plus a cold I've been hypomanic for a couple of weeks and obviously I've worn out my body a bit - most days I've been spending more hours a day walking than sleeping. I have a sore throat and those feelings of an early-stage cold. And I'm frustrated as hell! I want to go out and keep doing, doing, doing but I... | self.bipolar |
Aren't I warranted to tell someone that I hope something bad happens to them after they have a psychotic episode with me? A couple nights ago, my ex bf went berserk on me after I asked him (and I even asked him nicely) not to talk to me about his lust for other women. I told him to talk about other women to his guy fri... | self.offmychest |
I'm afraid that my mom feels she has failed me I'll try to make it simple and short. I had some very rough times in my life and because of that I started smoking. It was a stupid decision, I hate that I did it, but yeah. I mainly did it because of
my depression which finally dissapeared. Unfortunately I still smoke b... | self.offmychest |
Ruining my life is the only thing my mother has helped me do. I'm 15 years old and my life is ruined.
I don't want anyone to recognize who I am so I'm not going to say how but it's not because some girl I like rejected me or I failed a test like most 15 year olds are sad about, I have genuine reason to feel sad and hu... | self.SuicideWatch |
please I need help so i have self-harmed twice and then my divider and compass was taken away i am having the temptation to cutting again but have no tools to do so and whenever i am home i always just want to cry but i really cant because there are other people at home and honestly at this point i want something very ... | self.depression |
I have really embarrassing feelings about my mom. Dont know what to do. Please help. Hey guys. I'm 13 and don't know another place to put this. I love my mom so much but I think it's going too far now. 2 years ago I started getting crushes on other girls, but its mostly been my mom. I think about her all the time and I... | self.offmychest |
Please send me of well I have the bricks and pan to go, and like hyung,
I hope god can forgive me, | self.SuicideWatch |
The moment you realize you are the asshole in the situation This always happens to me like this. I become good friends with some one. Everything is great because they support me and i support them. The more they get to know me the more of my issues come out. Stuff happens between me and them and I come out thinking I n... | self.depression |
Im confused about my suicidal thoughts So Im not sure where to start because today is a day where i dont want to have my body die. And i dont want to rant too but i also need to talk to people who understand wanting to move on from this body and life. Ive had suicidal thoughts since i was nine.
Ive never attemped. But... | self.SuicideWatch |
Music to make me actually feel my negative emotions? [removed] | self.depression |
No, I'm not ok after putting my dog down. I'd rather I was put down than her. It bothers me when people ask me if I'm ok or how I'm holding up, or how I'm feeling. I just took the life of my BEST FRIEND who was sweet, and pure, and wanted nothing but to chew on her bones and make me happy. I know that she's no longer i... | self.depression |
My partner left me Because my depression took over and it changed me and they couldn't handle me anymore. I'm finally getting help for my depression after all these years but this break up happening in the midst of it has made me feel suicidal. I've never felt this hopeless in my life. | self.depression |
What are your fears and how do they affect your anxiety? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Never thought I'd post on here I always chalked depression up as something that only "truly" mentally ill had. I'm only in my late-twenties but the older I get, I get these horrible feelings of emptiness, low self-worth, and irritability with people, including my own family. I feel like I should be happy. I have a good... | self.depression |
I cant stop thinking about drinking I haven't had anything in a week. Thoughts of alcohol consume me and everything I think about. All I want to do is drink, how do I make this stop? Its been the way I deal with being depressed for years but I want to change I jut don't know how. | self.depression |
Every day I make a decision To get fucked up or not
Today the decision seems clear get fucked up
But I barely even took off my clothes from Friday night. My shoes are still covered in my vomit. My head and heart hurt and today I don’t feel like taking the high road of self care. I would rather keep self destructing.
... | self.depression |
I just want to be equal to everyone else. I don't know what to do anymore. I just can't live up to my dreams. I have a really tiny penis and because of that I can't be in a relationship. I hate that no matter what I do or accomplish i can't overcome it.
These last couple of years I made huge changes to myself. I becam... | self.SuicideWatch |
Manic men mayhem Hey guys I was wondering if some of the men on this sub-or women who have experience with a bipolar man-could tell me the signs, symptoms etc when you’re manic and also when you’re depressed. I know my own symptoms but I also know men show symptoms differently so give me all the info you guys got! | self.bipolar |
I’m not crazy or violent! I know everyone is sharing what I’m sharing but I’m so incredibly mad right now. I am done with this country preaching about their right to own guns and having so many I live in the South, and everyone is a hunter or owns a gun that I know. NRA stickers on the back of jacked up pickups, it’s s... | self.bipolar |
Was always the nice guy. Marriage gave me serious bedroom confidence, now I want to explore with others. [removed] | self.offmychest |
Thank You If it wasn't for you breaking my heart into millions of pieces I don't know if I would be where I am today.
Through all the nights, and the nights yet to come, where my emotions get the best of me and I can't help but feel the crippling sadness. I also feel the growth in my strength.
I have people that lov... | self.offmychest |
For 2018, we gotta start the year off right!! [deleted] | self.depression |
Twenty six days left to live. The closer it gets, the more I'll tell you about me and how I ended up here. | self.SuicideWatch |
Propranolol So I got given propranolol and I'm kind of nervous about it (Ironic, I know) but what has everyone's experiences of it been? Side effects?
Tbh I've been given such a low dosage it probably won't do anything, this is more for when I go back and (hopefully) get put on a higher dose...
Im on 10mg and I think e... | self.Anxiety |
am i a fucking mute now? hi everyone, and thank you for clicking. no, seriously, thank you. i've been in this thread several times under many different names, but you know what? screw it. i'm going to post this as me, miranda, because i'm really kind of over the whole anonymity thing.
- JUST SOME BACKGROUND
- as of n... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm in a mixed state... Having a fair amount of depressive symptoms with insomnia for over a week is definitely an interesting time... | self.bipolar |
Feeling an alignment with my current depression, and that of my 8 year old-self. [deleted] | self.depression |
How long was your longest depression? Mine is 3 months and counting and it’s complete TORTURE | self.bipolar |
Told a girl i liked her got no reciprocation back. Fuck it I got it off my chest and got nothing back. Oh well time move on and forget about it. No sense wasting time on someone
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How do you sleep when you are hypo I lately slep lt 4 hours may a nifht for almost 1 week and I know it’s not healthy , what helped you to sleep ? Sleeping pills ? | self.bipolar |
will things get better? i don’t have much of a relationship with my dad. my mom works all the time trying to support me and my brothers. i’m not smart, athletic or talented. i just failed a class in college. i also got arrested right after high school. i’ve always been a burden to my mom and i genuinely think life woul... | self.depression |
I HATE MY SISTER My sis has a dog which is hers she is doing GCSE’s so I have to walk the dog and do her share off the chores because of her excuse for anything. Family walk? I’m studying, Going out? I’m studying she just uses it as a get out of jail card for anything and I get annoyed about it please tell me what to d... | self.offmychest |
Want to end it in the next couple months... thinking about a motorcycle trip across US instead. Anyone care to join? Please don't be overbearing, incredibly annoying. | self.SuicideWatch |
I am tired of trying My only question is, how can you stay positive motivated and have self esteem when none of your efforts have results? When despite of you trying so hard, you go downhill instead?
I would understand somebody having a ratio of success (positive things) / Failure (negative things) of 60/40, 70/30, b... | self.SuicideWatch |
Just want to hear from someone feeling the same way. [removed] | self.depression |
I can't do stuff anymore I used to have phases of depression. They came and went away. But now i'm experiencing a longer phase of depression and I just can't do stuff anymore. One part of me really wants to be productive. But it's like i'm tide up to my bed and I can't move.
All the things I want to do, I can't. Read,... | self.depression |
The stress is killing me right now How the hell am I supposed to find happiness in a world where every day I have a reason to be scared/worried? | self.SuicideWatch |
[X-post r/bipolar] How do I know if I've experienced a mixed episode or an episode with mixed features? Also, what's the difference between this and dysphoric hypomania? Most of the time when I read descriptions they're a bit too extreme for me to relate, but there are some I can relate to. I don't know. And I'm still ... | self.bipolar |
What are some bizarre anxiety symptoms you experience? Been a lurker for a while but finally reaching out. I have what I think are rather uncommon anxiety symptoms (compared to the classic increased heart rate, nervousness, fear of dying, etc) and I'm just wondering if others have similar experiences.
Some of my sympt... | self.Anxiety |
I did something and now I’m regretting it So, I was working and checking Facebook to take breaks. There was this thread where people were perpetuating rape culture without even knowing it I think. I tried to explain it but they were just being ignorant and it was making me really upset.
So, I took a half sick day and... | self.bipolar |
Addicted to cutting So I've become addicted to cutting myself over the last few months. Not too sure whether I do it as a cry for help or an emotional outlet or to try and end my life, but it feels good at the time. I suppose I'm hoping I'll cut deep enough one time and bleed to death. Problem is my wrists are now cove... | self.SuicideWatch |
DAE avoid eye contact because it feels like they can see how dead you feel inside? [deleted] | self.depression |
Anyone else taking medication(s) how does it work for you? [deleted] | self.depression |
How do i calm myself down when i feel like i’m dying? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I just lost my virginity, and I think I might've contracted something. If it's herpes or anything else incurable, I think I'll kill myself. I'm 20, and I just lost my virginity. I've heard the whole lesson about using protection, but in the moment of heat, the person I was with assured me that they were clean, so I dec... | self.SuicideWatch |
I don't know how to cope with reality anymore TL;DR - Everything that could go wrong, does. I am depressed, my family is unsupportive, I just got dumped, and I'm broke.
Really long version: I've struggled with depression as far back as I can remember, and within the last year I developed really bad social anxiety. I ... | self.offmychest |
Took 20mins to write and 3hrs to finally post it Existential dread, anxiety, and a dash of depression.
I don't know what to do. I have little ambition on the things society deems valuable. I'm guilted and shamed for enjoying a life of laziness(which is only half true). Therapy only works for people who want too chang... | self.Anxiety |
I feel pessimistic about the future of the world. It keeps demotivating me Hey there
So, uhm. First, to give some context. I managed to get through my depressive episode thanks to support of my amazing friends, aswell as finding something that would give me purpose - Improving this world. Making it a better place. No ... | self.offmychest |
Please help me I feel that today was a negative tipping point. so many things went wrong today, I actually thought it.
I was never born with a good hand in life (I have ADHD and I'm on the autistic spectrum), and I've tried over my life to avoid situations where I fall into the black hole of despair, and never escape.... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm depressed again and really scared to loose everything Hey guys
I've just realised I've fallen back into hardcore depression for the last too weeks.
Last time lasted for 4 years
I have a job and people to take care of so i can't afford to be like this.
I'm on medication but they don't seem to do much, i was ok... | self.bipolar |
Physical Symptoms I swear lately I’ve been having a lot of awareness in my jaw and joints that’s making them hurt. My psych said usually anxiety doesn’t manifest in the jaw like I described. It’s very similar feeling to the feeling I have where I can feel very sensitive to my own breathing that it feels terrible. My ja... | self.Anxiety |
How do you guys get over the whole "it's not fair that I'm forever ill" nonsense? I am 28-years old, but I was diagnosed as "bipolar with psychosis) back when I was 18 or 19-years old. Looking back, I do not think that my psychosis was necessarily bad. My perception of colors was just... Very off. And what I mean by th... | self.bipolar |
19M UK - Help me disappear In the near future I will be dead, that's just what is gonna happen so please don’t try to stop me. What i'm looking for is someone to talk to me as i drift off and disappear so I don't feel completely alone.
If there is a better sub to post this please let me know. | self.SuicideWatch |
There really is no reason for me to stay Think about it. I kill myself. Worst case scenario: hell, eternal punishment, all that jazz. Best case scenario, there is no longer a "me" that can contemplate the nothingness that comes after death. "I" would no longer exist. That sounds like a hell of a deal to me.
I'm only ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I killed a friend of mine. English isnt my first language, so sory in advance.
I am 20 years old, i live in a very conservative third world country, i don't mind it since i am a straight male.
i wasn't into religion at all, since i enjoyed a lot of things that's is considered taboo, like alcohol, sex, spending all da... | self.offmychest |
I have no one Can somebody please help me. I have lost all school friends. I have lost all outside friends. I just want somebody to talk to that will possibly make it better. Somebody please talk to me | self.depression |
My thoughts on if I should post this or not will change multiple times as I write it. If you see this I guess I stuck it out. [rant] Ive never posted here before but I need to just write this crap out and hopefully find a venting source so people don’t have to hear me rant at them any more. I also want to ask a million... | self.bipolar |
There’s just no hope, I’ve completely ruined my life Let me preface this by saying there’s a post of this girl and her girlfriend, both trans, we’re they’re getting an apartment together. I’m trans, but not transitioning right now or possibly ever due to my situation. It’s a huge reason for my mental failings.
I’m twe... | self.SuicideWatch |
What should I do? This happens to me on a daily basis. Everything is ok, I am calm, I am focused on the day, I am talking to people normally and connecting with them. Then out of nowhere it hits me. The despair. The helplessness. The pain. I feel worthless. I feel scared. I feel anxious. I feel wrong. I think that I am... | self.depression |
I’m 14, lost my only friend, and am being crushed from the inside Title.
Just before anyone asks, I am quite an introverted person and never really hang out with anyone. I mostly just stay locked in my room playing video games alone or with other random people. My only sibling who really has looked out for me has rece... | self.offmychest |
Hospital and Psychiatrist Appointment My doctor referred me to a psychiatrist for suspected bipolar a while ago but my appointment isn't until March. Friday night, I had a huge breakdown and had to be taken by ambulance to a hospital. I'm feeling a lot better and they managed to get me and appointment with a psychiatri... | self.bipolar |
It's my fault I've ruined my own life and its my own fault. Nobody else is to blame and yet I constantly blame others, maybe because I still can't fully accept the fact that it's all my fault. I don't do anything anymore, I've spent the last two days laying in bed for hours on end and not even sleeping, just staring at... | self.SuicideWatch |
My strong will to live is being overtaken by my rejection cause depression I've had deep depression cycles all my life, suicidal most of the time, but I've always stopped a few steps before actually going with it because I have a really strong will to live. I want to have kids, and live a long life, but lately I'm just... | self.depression |
Effexor is the worst med yet for me. I need to get off it. I tried going off it. It gave me horrible withdrawals. Now I am back on and it feels awful--I am completely anhedonic. I do not care about things. But I feel myself wanting to care. My SO even said it's the worst med yet. He said it's like I'm a thousand miles ... | self.bipolar |
People you use to love could die right now [deleted] | self.depression |
What if suicide really is your best option? I'm in a really bad place as usual right now. My life is a mess and I know I have no one else to blame but myself for the laundry list of bad decisions I've made. I honestly can't remember the last time I was truly happy and all my friends, even the ones I've known the longes... | self.SuicideWatch |
Mental illness isn’t taken seriously The mentally ill are one of the many oppressed groups in the world, I’m noticing nobody seems to seriously advocate for them. Nobody speaks out when an incident is blamed on mental illness, even when it probably isn’t the the result. It frustrates me, to see a significant position o... | self.offmychest |
Does anybody else have an inferiority complex? I used to have a really bad inferiority complex when I was in high school. I barely had any friends in high school, and I was in accelerated (medium level) classes. Also, I was in Precalc senior year, whereas as a Senior, you could either be in Calculus or Precalc. I looke... | self.depression |
Nothing changes it No matter how often I see the people I love and care about, I can never change the deep and painful loneliness in my heart. I am so sad when I wake up and when going to sleep. Another wasted day and nothing brought me joy during it. When depression is gone, you’re just left with the self hatred and n... | self.offmychest |
Interesting research about scientists growing bipolar stem cells, and then seeing how they reacted to lithium Nothing crazy exciting. I just found it interesting.
[LINK](http://ucsdnews.ucsd.edu/pressrelease/bipolar_patients_brain_cells_predict_response_to_lithium)
It’s from 2015, so nothing brand new. | self.bipolar |
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