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[Rant] I will not spend the rest of my life locked up or every year Months bouncing in and out of one. "Are you currently suicidal or have thoughts of harming yourself."
Yes I've been constantly suicidal ever since I was a teen. Not a day goes by where I don't want to kill myself. None of the 15 medications I've gone ... | self.bipolar |
I just want everyone to know something. As a suicidal person myself, somehow writing and reading subs like this are supposed to help me.
Honestly, it doesn't imo. I feel more depressed knowing that there are too many emotionally injured people that are in desperate need of healing. That's all we actually really want. ... | self.SuicideWatch |
So tired I have been struggling with depression since I was a kid, but only realized this a couple years ago. It really angers me that my family was so shitty that they didn't recognize something was wrong with me. I am pretty sure my depression is genetic (as most women in my family suffer from various mental illnesse... | self.depression |
My life is a simulation The good ole simulation theory. The one topic that never seems to escape my mind, and drives me into an existitential crisis every time.
When you think about it, our lives are predetermined, even me writing this post is something that had to happen. We are bound by the atoms inside of us. We ... | self.SuicideWatch |
It's less that I want to die, and more that I don't want to be alive anymore I don't really know why I'm posting this but anyways, here it is. I'm a freshman in college right now, and for the first time in 5 years I have something resembling friends. But I know that when this year ends, that will end too. That I'm just... | self.SuicideWatch |
Im out with some new people And I feel awful. Like the only people I know in the group of maybe 20 is my girlfriend and her best friend. I hate feeling so awkward fjekfkd. Is this just me being socially awkward?? I am just smiling to seem normal idk please help me I feel like dying. | self.depression |
I hate group projects and my college I fukng hate college. I started not so long ago and it's already killing me. I always read on reddit how awful groups project were, and people complaining when they had one. Oh boy, you haven't seen my school. On top of my head i have around 12 different classes, and about 9 of thos... | self.offmychest |
A chat with a stranger would be nice Anyone else wanna just vent about how fucked up things are sometimes with a total stranger without worrying about judgement? I've been on the downside of bipolar for the past few months, and would love to be able to talk to somebody about the shit I've gotten into because of it. | self.depression |
Tomorrow Got someone on my family won't leave my alone. What I'm wondering is if there is a way to have them see it in Instagram without them following to confirm I die so they leave my family alone? | self.SuicideWatch |
I (24M) discovered that I'm "the abuser" and told my (21F) girlfriend. She confirms some of what happened. I had no idea - and I need help. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I’m starting to believe my ocd thoughts please help [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Anxiety strikes again I'm having a tough day, and am anxious of the progress I have been making. I'm nervous I'm going to start regressing, and am having some depressive thoughts and my OCD is particularly bad these past couple days. Any thoughts or suggestions? I feel like I can't function today and am constantly worr... | self.Anxiety |
Random shit with extra load of fuck you I don't really know how to start this text.
A small part of me wants out of this, but i cant really do that now can i. I've made a choice to die, i've lost the people who i once held so dear, the people who i "used" to get to therapy. If id go back id loose the years ive faced th... | self.depression |
What exactly is a suicidal thought? Thinking about doing it is, I know.
What if I keep fantasizing about how it would impact people arround me, how long it would take to people to move on, thinking about it instead of planning, does it still count?
I don't think about doing it nearly as much as I think about what wo... | self.bipolar |
To all those who suffer intimidation I experienced intimidation at school, and my story will undoubtedly be different from what you have read in the past.
Because I am psychopathic by definition - diagnosed by few psychiatrists - what I have learned from that encounter will help you see intimidation from a different p... | self.depression |
A small victory Today, I woke up on time and I attended classes. I haven't done this for a week and a half. But today I did it. I had told myself that I was going to do it but I nearly didn't. I looked at the time on my phone and saw that it was 10 minutes before class would begin. I resigned myself to the idea of miss... | self.depression |
Weird stuff you have believed - might be a tw for delusions or psychosis So I was diagnosed about 3 months ago and it's so weird to look back on things over the years and realize they were not real or normal. It's so crazy because now that I am medicated I can see so clearly and at the time these all felt like distinct... | self.bipolar |
Aaand the upswing finally kicks in... Watch "Korn - ADIDAS Uncensored" on YouTube
https://youtu.be/9lCKFk7ya3U | self.bipolar |
Didn't sleep a wink all night and now trying to convince myself I'm not going to have a seizure/heart attack My night time anxiety has gotten really, really bad, to the point that I'm just not sleeping until I'm beyond exhausted. And now this morning I just feel so bad and panicky. Like I'm not breathing right and havi... | self.Anxiety |
Feeling like I can't do anything right Ever since June of this year I feel like I've been going down hill. My girlfriend (long distance relationship) who I had been dating for 7 months broke up with me, and started dating one of my friends, then she lied told my group of friends online that I was keeping her nudes afte... | self.offmychest |
At this point, the only thing I’m good at is fucking up my life. [deleted] | self.depression |
Just cried my eyes out again. I miss my mom so much. [deleted] | self.depression |
Today I disappear I'm going to disappear today. I'm going to drive into the mountains, leave my car on the side of the road like it broke down, and start walking. If anyone ever finds me I'll be unrecognizable. I'm going to text the few friends I have that I miss them, and I'm thinking about them. They're better off wi... | self.SuicideWatch |
I will never get over my ex Every single day, my first thought is about her and the fact that she no longer loves me, that she's moved on and wants nothing to do with me.
The only thought that brings me comfort any more is buying a gun, going over to her house, knocking on her door so I can see her perfect face one m... | self.SuicideWatch |
Im sorry for all the people I didn’t save and for all the people I could save I just want to say im sorry | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel like a malfunctioning robot unable to assimilate myself with humanity. Nothing I do seems to be the correct way of doing things anymore. [deleted] | self.depression |
I’m tired of being categorized as a “nice guy” [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Does anyone have tips for making sales w/o anxiety I dropped out of college due to anxiety and depression and have been working as a bank teller for a few months now so that I have something low-stress to spend my time on while I think about what I want to do with my life. And it’s been great! Everyone I work with is s... | self.Anxiety |
I don't know I would kill myself if I didn't have kids.
I think about it everyday.
I started meds recently, no help yet. | self.bipolar |
Been getting better but today is tough I’ve been struggling with depression for a while. I don’t even know how long myself but things have been a lot better for me. I’ve been happier and stuff is finally going my way. Today however is still tough. I got a new job that I start on Monday, my best friend works there, as w... | self.depression |
Have you ever been 302’ed? What was your experience? - TW [deleted] | self.depression |
So there's this concert I wanna go see but I don't have any friends that that want to buy a ticket. I think I'll just go by myself and try to meet new people. | self.Anxiety |
To tell my 14yr old daughter about my MDD or not to tell her? What would you do? Tell her? Preserve her innocence?
Have you gone through this?
She doesn't seem to be showing any signs of it, also doesn't seem to think I am suffering... Just assumes I have more migraines than I do. | self.depression |
DAE suffer from chronic fidgeting/picking/nail biting? Hi everyone. I’ve been a chronically fidgety person since I was young. I’m 23 now. Always was a nail biter, but I’ve mostly kicked that habit. When I’m really stressed out though I tend to slip into these habits. I scratch my head so I’ve developed dandruff, I’ll b... | self.Anxiety |
Feel like a hollow pin pricked egg... I feel like my mood stability is this fragile shell I am carrying around. If I trip or stumble I have to struggle to catch it and not let it hit the ground. Sometimes I don’t catch it. I hate having to be so careful. Anything I do has to include the consideration of its effect on m... | self.bipolar |
I can't keep a friend to save my life Quick apology for posting here so often, I don't have much of an outlet otherwise.
I'm always the first one to message and I'm always the last one to reply. People get tired of me about as quickly as a child gets tired of a new toy. My desperate attempts to keep their attention ar... | self.depression |
Cold Turkey off of Escitalopram? (10mg) Guess this forum doesn't get much new content - a little ironic IMO:) Anyways, I had kind of a funny thing happen, I wonder if anyone has insight or a similar experience and thoughts: I've been on generic Lexapro for about 3 years now, originally prescribed for GAD, and mild co-m... | self.Anxiety |
I'm never going to see you again.... I wasn't planning on going out. And I **definitely** wasn't planning on meeting anyone. But my buddy had been spit on over a black friday deal while he was working so I went.
While waiting to order a drink, you ran to me and said "blahblahblah1945! Are you gonna sing again?" I... | self.offmychest |
I'm overly concerned that reddit comments/posts misinform millions of people [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I just wanna sleep I am tired of thinking, moving, coming, going, crying, laughing, everything I want to just STOP!!! I am always the one everyone always come to for learning and guidance. When it is my turn they always say the same ole same ole"It'll get better", "We all are going through things". Living with this mon... | self.depression |
Getting this off my chest. I'm writing this as midnight creeps on me on a night where I should be sleeping early, but I keep thinking and thinking and I'm hitting a low right now.
In my close family, no one takes my depression seriously. My mother, who herself was depressive, has for only advice to me "to get over it a... | self.depression |
Sometimes I want to kill myself as a revenge against everyone. My mom has lately been telling me how sick and tired she is of me. Telling me that I’ll never make it in life if I have to depend on people and threatens to hit me and loves to belittle me.
(Note: I have been diagnosed with learning disorders, cognitive i... | self.SuicideWatch |
Grief is weird I looked up local private mental health services on my iPhone for a friend the day before he took his own life, back in June. I never closed the window, it was always there somewhere behind all the other windows I opened.
I just changed my SIM over to a new phone yesterday, and today while googling some... | self.offmychest |
So deeply, incredibly lonely as everyone around us loves and laughs. [deleted] | self.depression |
Hewlp suicidal thought. As per title . I been emotionally depress since 2 year and a half ago.
I am currently in my 2nd year as of a university student. My enrollment was not toward my interest , my parent talk me into this courses "degree in science of statistic" . In my pre-university(A-level) I am an overachiever wh... | self.SuicideWatch |
Advice? Due to my poor planning, I’m low on lithium. I’m not able to see my psychiatrist until the 22nd and will go four days without my normal dosage.
Would you guys recommend taking half of my normal dose each night so that I don’t run out? I also plan on taking it easy and getting lots of rest so that I hopefully ... | self.bipolar |
I want to die because I find how most people absolutely Batshit crazy. I really find most people irrational.
The biggest part of why I find people irrational is how they identify problems. People will be very confident of what they think the problem Is, but usually are just wrong.
People will label things that are si... | self.SuicideWatch |
Who else here diagnosed with BP is a victim of CSA (child sex abuse)? I am and i'm wondering if this is something that a lot of people here also went through or if it's just an unassociated trauma | self.bipolar |
Overthinking or over empathizing to the point where I don't know what to do [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
What helps when your stomach ties up in knots? This is the most frequent way my anxiety manifests itself and it lasts for hours. It's exhausting, any advice, fellow Redditors? :( | self.Anxiety |
I don't know what to do- please advise Tldr; in a state away from my pdoc and therapist, with shit tier psychiatric hospitals, experiencing worsening psychotic symptoms, and parents who don't want to take me to the ER. Have option of being surrounded by people, one of which knows everything and is a good support system... | self.bipolar |
I just don't know how much longer I can do this. So, this is my third time posting in this forum, and hopefully my last.
I just don't know what to do. I haven't done for so long, and nothing feels real anymore. Even as I stare into my screen writing this post, I don't feel real, and the keyboard I'm typing this with d... | self.SuicideWatch |
In such a dark place right now I’m not really sure why I’m writing this or what I hope will come of it. I guess I just need some reassurance that someone ~somewhere~ out there is listening, and may be able to relate to what I’m going through.
I’ve struggled with mild depression for a few years now, but lately my thoug... | self.depression |
Crazy Hypermanic states So I am nearing a point where I am going to peak into a hyper manic state and I was wondering what everyone does to lessen the damage or even to try and diminish the levels that you reach during it. While I enjoy being hyper manic my body gets totally destroyed due to only an avg of 2 hours of s... | self.bipolar |
About to flunk uni again At age 25 I'm at my 3rd year - and I've never taken a year off. Had to take an extra highschool year and flunked three years away from my life already. Now it's happening again - social anxiety at school makes it hard to attend and I fall behind. I really don't know what to do, suicide becomes ... | self.depression |
I should have been a fucking adult for you. I was 21, you were a senior in high school. Your parents kinda knew me as a piot smoker and your dad kinda had a thing against me. I already wanted to stop smoking, I should have gone all the way and stopped. I should have wanted to wait to date you until I could look your pa... | self.offmychest |
This feels like a wave I can't swim out of I honestly don't know what happened to me. It hit me like a truck. It ruined a 3-year relationship. I feel like every day is an uphill battle to just scrape by, and I feel like I'm losing. I feel like a shell of the person I once was and honestly can't even recognize myself in... | self.depression |
Does anyone else have occasional “bounce-backs” ? All during finals and the last 3 week before finals I completely went hermit mode. I only interacted with people when I had to and while my focus was completely absent I tried as much as I could to grind out studying for my finals and did what work I had to do for class... | self.depression |
Having trouble with disturbing thoughts about suicide. Not to alarm anyone as this is not an impulsive thing, nor is it emotional. At least at the moment...
I have been thinking greatly over time... with all the suffering in this world... the hardship it takes just to SURVIVE let alone have a nice life, how everythin... | self.SuicideWatch |
I just don't know what to do anymore I have always loved my little brother. Family has always been important to me. But lately it has been really hard to get along with him. He's very selfish, he only thinks about himself. I help him so much that it has landed me in trouble. So a week ago I asked for his help. Nothing ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Just need somewhere/someone to vent to Hi guys. I don’t really know how to go about this so I’m just going to write/speak my mind. I’ve been having some struggles recently. I’ve been diagnosed with depression and anxiety for about 6 or 7 years now. I’m 21 now. It’s been very on and off and coming in waves. At points i... | self.depression |
Feel like I'm getting tired of keeping myself alive Today, I barely ate anything at all. I had an appetite, I was hungry, but I just wasn't interested in eating. So I made the most low-effort thing I could get away with - a sandwich - ate that, and went back to bed, even though I was clearly still hungry. I just didn't... | self.depression |
Is this anxiety? 1) Muscle tension/ Tension headaches
2) Uneasiness/ feeling like losing control of yourself
3) Social Withdrawal
4) Feeling every sensation in the body/ burning sensation
5) Laying in bed all day
6) Belching | self.Anxiety |
I need guidance on what I can do for my wife. [deleted] | self.depression |
Does anyone write suicide notes as an outlet? Sometimes, when I'm feeling really bad, I'll go on my phone and start writing a suicide note. I'll explain how I really feel about myself and my life. I'll talk about how sorry I am that I couldn't be stronger, and why I felt it was necessary to take my own life. And usu... | self.depression |
What is a long term manic episode like? As someone that goes through much shorter cycles, I don't know what week or month like episodes are like. What is your day to day life like? What is your range of emotions like? How does it compare to shorter episodes in general?
Thanks! | self.bipolar |
How do you learn to be loved? I like to think I'm a loving person. I care a lot about people around me and I love them lots but it feels like I just can't believe that they love me, maybe they just don't? haha. I am never the first option or the first one to call between my friends, I always feel like I'm just a parasi... | self.offmychest |
Can't stop crying I'm crying so hard rn and idk why....I'm laying in bed, it's 11:30 at night, I'm listening to Angela by The Lumineers on repeat, and I can't stop crying. I just want everything to end. I want to get away, by I can't do that. I feel more and more like my only option is killing myself. | self.SuicideWatch |
My grandson is allergic to peanuts So basically, my grandson has had this peanut allergy his whole life. He is currently 12 years old, and he goes to school. At this school, there is the other kid, who we shall call asshole. Asshole has always treated grandson like shit. We have told the principal numerous times, but w... | self.offmychest |
Not sure how to properly describe this but I think r/anxiety is the right place [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Medication and hospitalization Has anyone ever managed to avoid hospitalization by changing their medication at your doctor's suggestion?
Last hospitalization my doctor told me to increase my seroquel, but I didn't listen to him and ended up in the hospital. wow.
I'm just asking for personal experience not advice. Lo... | self.bipolar |
I'm so tired of struggling financially College graduate, living with a family that isn't mine due to a falling out with mine years ago, currently have 3 part-time jobs (4 if you count my summer job) and somehow still very poor (complicated situation), barely any social life because I moved away from all of my friends d... | self.offmychest |
Will moving back home be bad for my [25m] depression? [deleted] | self.depression |
I love my GF, but the circumstances are weighing me down. So I'm in a relationship with a paraplegic woman whom I love very much and I see us living the rest of our lives together. That said, her paraplegism requires a very specific lifestyle that is difficult to adjust to at times. I'm diagnosed with Aspergers, so adj... | self.offmychest |
I wish I could disappear and cease to exist. Just disappear
Without killing myself
Why am I here.
I wish I could disappear and be nothing | self.offmychest |
I can't stop crying. My mom is one of the only people in my life that cares about me. We just fought over stupid shit and I feel so alone. I just broke down, and she doesn't know how to help. She locked herself in her room. I'm so alone. I want to die to bad. All I do is work and sleep all day like a zombie. I can't ta... | self.depression |
Get in contact with others! I'm reading /r/depression alot these days and I noticed almost everyone here is feeling lonely, including myself. Sometimes you just want to talk (about it) without getting judged. I'm planning on starting a WhatsApp groupchat with 5/6 people in it. We can talk about daily struggles but also... | self.depression |
I just want to be in a relationship with someone as depressed as I am. Anyone else feel the same way? Is this considered a bad idea? | self.depression |
Made it to age 18. I feel like garbage every day of my life. I've been taken care of in the way of food and clothing, but no one has ever talked to me. I never had a mother and my father is only now trying to connect with me, but it seems like everyone is oblivious to my misery. Every day I wake up, and am immediately ... | self.depression |
I Wonder If Things Won't Ever Change It scares me to think that things will never change. To wake up to the same life every day. But I know, deep down, we're all floating along. And maybe, just maybe, things will get better.
:) | self.depression |
Something Just moving my hands around on my skin hurts deeper than i could ever imagine. There are no open cuts on my hands, just the memories of desperate attempts to stay in control by making myself bleed.
Those memories just burn like a blowtorch on the side of my head.
Knowing i haven't stopped making them even a... | self.depression |
Is it weird if I texted someone to just say like hey how are ya doing but haven't spoken to him in like 2 years? Also for like other ppl if I haven't spoken to them in like a year is it weird saying hey how ya doing? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Anxiety regarding not having any same-sex friends I'm 22 in my senior year of college and in a program that is predominantly female, so pretty much all of the friends I have are female. I have some male buddies from back in high school but none of them live near me. All this makes me feel really uncomfortable going out... | self.Anxiety |
I don't know how to stop comparing myself I don't think I can type normally right now because I'm frantic I was at the gym yesterday with my boyfriend and I had to stop 3/4 of the way with my workout because I couldn't stop comparing myself to the others and I couldn't stop thinking of myself as a failure (I'm currentl... | self.Anxiety |
I am lonely and it hurts I am super lonely.
I wish I could have a partner who isn't going to hurt me emotionally, physically, mentally or sexually. I wish I could trust men again. I wish I could believe that one day I would be able to find a man I can actually trust, who isn't going to emotionally neglect me or make m... | self.bipolar |
All I ever feel is fear, so what's the point? I wake up scared, and I go to sleep scared. I can only get through the day by being in this weird dissociative state where I basically just feel like I'm riding helplessly in the passenger seat of my consciousness. I can't remember the last time I felt like I made a choice ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Just don't know I am here because I am absolutely miserable, I've been diagnosed bipolar since I was 13 im 34 now, have a lot of addiction's was clean for a year but recently relapsed and I live with someone so needing someone to talk to when someone is already here but has no interest in you is a lot lonelier than act... | self.depression |
I wrote this list to share with my doctor. I wanted to see if anyone has felt anything similar. 1. I don’t feel completely in touch with my self
2. I have moments where I feel loss of consiusness, I daze out and feel like i can just stop breathing, close my eyes and just shut down. I feel pressure in my head when thi... | self.Anxiety |
I want to go home Right now I'm in Australia on Work and holiday visa. Last year I have been diagnosed as having social phobia. Today (9dec)it is my first day in Australia and Idon't know what to do. Prior to arriving, I thought coming here will be a great experience. But now I just want the comfort of my home even mi... | self.Anxiety |
Anxious over nothing? Hi, so I’m a 19 year old woman and I’ve been treated for anxiety, depression, and ADHD since i was 13.
In recent months however I’ve found that my anxiety has gotten extremely worse, so much so i cannot carry on normal conversations or get out of bed.
I’ve been dating a guy for a few months now... | self.Anxiety |
I really need help So I've browsed reddit usually this sub so I know a little but I've tried all of my options today and nothing has helped so I made an account maybe someone can relate and talk to me help me through the night. My wife who I love and wanted to genuinely wanted to spend the rest of my life with is appar... | self.SuicideWatch |
I just can't sleep I'm going to spend this Christmas with my boyfriend and his family, and I've never been this happy!!! I'm SO excited I can't sleep! He's just the most sweet and wonderful person I could imagine, and just thinking about how miserable I was last year and how much things have changed, and how much he he... | self.offmychest |
My rage against swedish game developers Hello everyone,
Let me introduce myself, yes?
My name is Tomás Augusto Pérez Ortiz, I'm 17 years old and I've been suffering with rage issues for quite some time.
I have been dealing with depression since I was 13 and tried to kill myself at 15. Since then I can firmly say tha... | self.offmychest |
Advice? Solidarity? I'm not suicidal, but I feel like i shouldn't be alive... [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I just want to feel less alone I'm not really sure where to post this, using a throw-away for obvious reasons. This isn't something I've done before so sorry if I'm not explaining things correctly, mainly just venting.
My entire life I was raised just for my father to take his insecurities and issues out on. Since day... | self.SuicideWatch |
How do I feel something? I feel nothing, i'm 17, goin to college and I have got nothing going on, literally nothing, its like there's a hole in me. I have no passion, no desire, no nothing, reddit's like the only where i ever get a little chuckle or little grin, hell i don't even masturbate anymore...nothing works,noth... | self.depression |
I feel like the only way I can get help is to hurt myself now. I don't think my medication has been working. I stopped going to my job two months ago because it was making me want to die. Now I'm going to be evicted, my car got repossessed, I'm working an even shittier minimum wage retail job, and just don't have the e... | self.SuicideWatch |
4 months On Cymbalta. I've been taking Cymbalta for 4 months now and it hasn't been helping. I have severe anxiety when it comes to school. I am 13 and need to continue on with my education but it's really hard when I stay home or am extremely late every single day because of my Anxiety. My Principal thinks I am comple... | self.Anxiety |
Im unable to feel the good emotions. This is coming from the time I'm not feeling down.It's not just that I'm not seeing that I've had joy,I've tried to feel excited by doing stuff that is universally exciting I realized it was bad looking back on my experiences with rollercoasters.But that's besides the point,for some... | self.SuicideWatch |
Anyone familiar with sertraline? I have had some problems with feeling anxious on a regular basis, particularly nihilism, death-anxiety, constantly feeling depressed and having a hard time enjoying life. I contacted a therapist but the conversations has not been particularly productive, since I will be turning 18 in 2 ... | self.depression |
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