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I resent my parents for pressuring me into getting plastic surgery at age 17. (Keep in mind that I'm 17 now so I got the surgery only about 5 months ago)
So basically it started in ele-fucking-mentary school when my mom said "If you want, when you get older you can get a nose job" (keep in mind that I was a child who... | self.offmychest |
Why do I feel the need to go to college? [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Anxiety while driving is the only thing holding me back now. I have had anxiety/depression since I was 15. I’m 23 now. I’ve learned how to deal with most of the things that give me panic attacks. The one thing I still can’t do is control myself while I drive, specifically on the highway. And the horrible truth is, and ... | self.Anxiety |
I was the only person not picked in lab today We had to pick new lab partners, last choices that a girl had was either me or the jock kid who’s failing the class and creepily touches peoples’ hair when he sits behind them. She chose him.
To make it less awkward, I said “Forever alone” out loud as a little joke. The cl... | self.depression |
Nobody will understand I have had 2 seizures about 3 years ago then a year later another one, I was about 14-17 when they all happened, because of this I’m unable to get my drivers license for a long time, by the time when I did all my friends were driving regularly but I still could not, even now when I have my driver... | self.SuicideWatch |
Am I really bipolar? I've been diagnosed with type II bipolar disorder six years ago, and now I have started to question the diagnosis. I am quite sure that I have some personality disorder, maybe unstable personality. Meds don't seem to help very much. Has anybody been UNdiagnosed? | self.bipolar |
I have anxiety, asked my doctor for meds, got them and too scared to take them in case they mess with my sex drive :/ | self.Anxiety |
i dont know... Its the unknowing if ill ever be happy again.
Its not knowing if i should be depressed or not because my parents told me they people have it worse.
Its having to live with the permanent factors that will always sway my life towards the negative
Its the constant reminder from everybody that I’m disappoint... | self.SuicideWatch |
Saw a human die for the first time ever. I have an interview tomorrow to work in canada but can't focus, eat, or sleep. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Do I actually love her? I have no idea what I'm doing, why am I even posting here, I just need to vent
Been dating my girl for more than a year, I always thought I loved her, I like being with her, the sex is great, I actually care about her and don't want to make her feel bad in any way possible.
I'm not straight, s... | self.offmychest |
Nightmares on lamotrigine? Anyone else getting disturbed sleep/nightmares on lamotrigine? I used to take 400mg, then 200mg. I made the conscious decision to stop altogether because the nightmares and bad sleep made my life so much worse.
Anyone else? Any medications that worked better i could bring up with my therapis... | self.bipolar |
Frustrated I've been struggling with chronic diarrhea for over month that's been caused by my anxiety, and it's caused me to miss school. I've just stopped taking Pepto/Immodium at this point because it heightens the other symptoms, like a high heart rate, abdominal pain, headaches, paranoid thoughts, etc.
I've been t... | self.Anxiety |
Overdosed and got dizzy for a day I overdosed my antipsychotic and antidepressant drugs. I was really pexhausted and felt really dizzy for a day and a half. I didn't have any appetite and felt like I needed to puke or something. My parents didn't know. It's my fault though. I just felt really terrible and wanted to end... | self.depression |
Anyone wants to talk. I'm on a heavy problem rn. I wanna effin end myself. [deleted] | self.depression |
I need advice First off, a big thanks in advance to anyone devoting the attention to reading, as well as responding to this.
Long story short, I messed up. I moved from a developed Western country with decent living standards and better opportunities to..elsewhere - as a teenager, without first completing my educatio... | self.SuicideWatch |
Suicidal fantasies/thoughts becoming louder more frequent, and the urge to just do it is becoming stronger. I've felt worthless for the longest time, and life seems more and more absurd every day. I saw a razor blade on the counter in the bathroom a few minutes ago and felt such a strong urge to use it; to just end the... | self.SuicideWatch |
What are the most painless ways to end your life? [deleted] | self.depression |
My story Hey y'all! A fellow Redditor suggested this subreddit to me, saying it's a blessing for people with anxiety (like me)! I thought I would give it a shot, share my experiences, and maybe feel a bit less alone in this fight. Feel free to ask me any questions and offer any advice or support, and I will be sure to ... | self.Anxiety |
Unwilling to admit honest truths Background: I am now broken up with my boyfriend but we're still seeing each other.
I have this friend, who has proved to be better than my boyfriend. He was there for me when I'm down, he celebrates small victories with me, and he always goes out of the way for me. I think I've fallen... | self.offmychest |
I don't know what to do anymore guys, I've been at this 5 years old Here's a little history, MY 31F, dad's side of the family all suffered from mental illness, I never got to meet him or them.He killed himself a month after I was born because of a delusion he had that he would hurt me and my mom because we were mary an... | self.SuicideWatch |
I don't what do, this dumb depression has taken everything from me Even music has become bleak and doesn't bring me consolation
Nothing
Literally nothing
I forgot what it's like to be at least remotely content
I'm so disgusted when I look in the mirror
I'm a horrible person
Pills don't help
I'm sitting outside my ... | self.depression |
Can anxiety cause "brain fog" all day (or maybe minor derealization) for some people? If so, how does it affect you? I'm looking to see how anxiety affects some people physically. Specifically, I get symptoms related to my vision (photophobia), my mind (a dullness, brain fog, pressure behind my eyes), and very minor n... | self.Anxiety |
This is going to be the first year you're not here. Hey Scott,
I've been trying to write this for the last few days and every few words I breakdown and cry. We miss you so much.
This Christmas was hard, even on our daughter. She kept asking where you were and I couldn't help but cry. I'm trying to stay strong but ... | self.offmychest |
It's getting worse... It's becoming so painful to live guys. It's getting really bad. I've just been crying for the past 30 minutes talking abut how miserable I am and how I'm a terrible person.
It's both school and home now, it just used to be school and it's getting worse. It's becoming more and more painful.
I ne... | self.SuicideWatch |
No time for depression I woke up at 3 am to finish a project I put off until the last minute because of my depression and the presentation for it this morning went terrible.
After an awful shift at work, I dropped my phone in a wet snowbank on the way to the bus and it started glitched out. I normally rewind after a ... | self.depression |
My Traumatic Friendship.... (TW: Suicide, Cutting, Toxic relationship, emotional abuse)
I have no one so but need to get this off my chest. Earlier this year I had a friend online whom I spoke to everyday, I have no friends or family who care about me so I spoke to her every single day for hours and hours. She acted s... | self.depression |
Serious Question: How did you overcome depression? I'm improving but still struggling. So far these things have helped me:
- Exercise, and lots of it. I realised that this a one of the very few things that lifts my mood
- Medication, life saver!
- A few weeks of therapy
- My amazing GP, who recommended all of the abov... | self.depression |
Inside my pain, fear and utter will to just stop To find the exact words that’s ideal with this writing, it was a more passive but ingenious way to open the mind to self worth. Loyalty to myself was the goal, if you are not open minded to the average teen in my place then open your mind but it’s something comforting t... | self.depression |
I feel like life has already passed me by And I can't go back to when I was happy and before I fucked everything up. It's too late. The only goal I've had in the last years is not to devastate my family and never again be locked up in the hospital. I wanted to succeed, I wanted a family or a SO. But I feel like it's to... | self.bipolar |
How do i kill myself without my family finding the body i’ve been contemplating suicide for years and i think i’m going to finally go through with it. how can i keep my family from seeing the body, but also let them know i’m dead. i have 3 little siblings and i don’t want to traumatize them | self.SuicideWatch |
Was just prescribed cipralex, but these pills “Don’t Exist”? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Fuck Just as i have a brief moment of clarity i get reminded of how miserable i feel. People see my suffering tell me you have to learn how to be comfortable with yourself to love myself otherwise il never learn to love another. Even though its true i hate hearing it iknow i need to get out the house i know i need to ... | self.depression |
Going in to group therapy, not sure what to expect. Anyone care to share their experience? On the recommendation of my head shrinker i'm joining a men's therapy group. Eight guys and a therapist... talking about their problems? I don't really know what to expect. The therapist leading the group asked me to read "I don'... | self.bipolar |
What does it feel like to be on proper antidepressants? Sometimes I get this feeling that there’s nothing wrong with me, cancel all the appointments and go on in life like normal. Obviously that’s not the case, and I have a similar feeling. I don’t feel *depressed*, but I’m not happy either. I’ll probably hit a low ... | self.bipolar |
My pregnant guinea pig had a baby and it died. My guinea pig wasn't even supposed to be pregnant, she had a baby a couple months ago with her male cagemate and we had him neutered after. We didn't realise he was male until we learned about her pregnancy. There was maybe a 2 hour period where he could have gotten her pr... | self.offmychest |
i cant do anything i can't study, i can't write, i can't smile or feel good about anything in my life, i ended my relashionship beacuse i was afraid it might take him too. i have tests and exams throughout november and i dont wanna do them. i can't stand school anymor. i can't face myself in the mirror without crying. ... | self.SuicideWatch |
You have anxiety when you can't post on Facebook like normal people because you overthink EVERYTHING. | self.Anxiety |
Unemployed graduate Still looking for work after graduating 4 months ago and getting a lower 2nd grade. I'm feeling like a failure as I see my class mates progressing into the fields they want to be in. I just tried looking at more job ads online and my breathing became strange and felt irregular. My arms tensed up and... | self.Anxiety |
horrendous anxiety when partner is away or travelling I've been suffering from very intense periods of anxiety whenever I'm out of touch with my wife. This has been happening for several years now, and usually presents itself if e.g. she's at work and I haven't heard from her for a few hours, or if she's out with frien... | self.Anxiety |
Does anyone else have trouble maintaining friendships? I have social anxiety, growing up it was terribly hard for me to make more than one good friend at a time. Just recently, at 19 I finally got to a place where I had a solid group of friends, and then suddenly my social anxiety sparked back up and I abandoned them. ... | self.Anxiety |
Worst time of the year I fucked up 7 years ago and lost the only person I have loved because I fell back into my anti-social self. I lost interest in alot of thing but I knew I still loved her, I just couldn't get out of this rut.
I was stuck in it for months and just as I finally started seeing the end, I had starte... | self.depression |
To go with the flow is a lot harder than I thought I'm new to Reddit and only decided to join after hearing a close friend of mine praising how good it is. Please don't mind the grammar mistakes, I only want to get some of this junk off of my mind for once. I'd also like to mention that I am not exactly sure of that ... | self.depression |
Frustrated with myself. My anxiety has gotten so bad that I'm having to quit my job and move back to my dad's house several states away.
Tonight is my last night off of work and I suggested to a few coworkers that we go out as a going away thing. But now that the time is creeping closer I keep thinking that no one is... | self.Anxiety |
I've taken 500g x32 Paracetamol. I needed to tell someone. I feel worthless. I can't cope with life and I think it be for the best if I was gone. I don't contribute to society and I might never have a job. I have a 2nd year college project and I cannot figure it out. I hate myself and I don't see that changing. I don't... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm Lost Hi everyone. First time poster. Trying not to internalize my emotions so much, and honestly, I need someone to listen.
I've been diagnosed with depression since I was 13, and now that I'm 22 it's just gotten so much harder to handle. Normally I can handle myself and still stay productive, but over the last tw... | self.depression |
Hey everyone, just wondering if anyone here had success with Effexor? (X post from r/bipolar) I was just put on it on Tuesday. I'm on 37.5 mg to start because I'm so sensitive to meds, but will titrate when/if necessary. | self.bipolar |
Matter of time I have to talk myself out of suicide every night. I cry myself to sleep all the time. I've been clinically depressed for years and it's only getting worse. I'm posting here as basically a last resort. I know I'm going to do it one day soon but this small part of me wants things to get better even though ... | self.SuicideWatch |
My life I️ saw reddit was the place to be anonymous but I’ve been in a relationship with a woman who got me arrested I’m still with her because she is black mailing me and if I️ try to leave she threatens to show everything to the police no one knows we are dating but if I️ try to leave everything goes nuclear I️ thoug... | self.depression |
Please I just need someone to talk to I’m going to do it soon, I have the means and I won’t let myself fail, this is the one thing I won’t let myself fail at. Everything I’ve ever believed is going down in flames and I can’t do anytning.
| self.SuicideWatch |
Seems like me falling apart really takes up speed. I've fallen oppressively silent.
Not that there would be anyone to talk to, I am actually utterly alone. But I did find some joy in talking to other people, here in this board or others, giving some advice or just lending an ear.
But even that's faded.
There has bee... | self.SuicideWatch |
Need help finding a new medication I’m a 17 year old f with severe social anxiety, triggers include going to new places, meeting new people, and general anticipation of things i don’t feel comfortable with (which is honestly nearly everything at this point) I’ve been on three medications. I’ve been on Paroxetine, which... | self.Anxiety |
You went out of your way You went out of your way to build our friendship.
You went out of your way to make me feel at ease.
You went out of your way to break through all of my barriers.
You went out of your way to make me feel valuable and appreciated.
You went out of your way to be the only friend I had. ... | self.offmychest |
Picturesque Eternity I dream that I'm sitting on a beach gazing upon the sunset lit horizon with birds flying above. The calm waves calm my heart and give clarity to my thoughts...thoughts of a living in a world where compassion and understanding is given priority above all else...an eternal mushroom trip with no downw... | self.depression |
It’s one thing being Bipolar- it’s another being overweight and unhealthy... Anyone else experience this? Started at the gym today after two years living in misery due to gaining so much weight on meds. Here goes being skinny again! | self.bipolar |
I don't want to die, but I don't know how to live. For as long as I can remember, I have the tendency to think of the worst situation ever since my grandfather passed away when I was 9. As I'm an introvert, and my parents are divorced, I always felt lonely and yet, I didn't know how to seek attention. As I grew older, ... | self.depression |
Death is the only thing I look forward to and I hate it. Is it ok that the only thing I look forward to in life is dying? I've felt like this for a while now but the only thing I've looked forward to is the 'sweet release of death'. I've felt worthless and super insecure about myself, I don't know where the heck my fut... | self.depression |
Too damaged for anyone to love. He called me an "obsessive creep" for calling up this girl he was talking to on the side.
I guess he's right. I freak out at the thought of being abandoned or being lied to. I've been treated like shit my whole life, I've been begging for someone to love me ever since I was a kid. My fa... | self.SuicideWatch |
I was totally unprepared for you There are flashes from that night that keep popping into my head at random times. Two strands of my hair stuck in your glasses. Your face as you leaned in to kiss me next to the green lights. You snoring softly as we were lying on the couch. Loud music in your car. Your voice.
Dating ... | self.offmychest |
anxiety about contacts Hello, two days ago I went to the eye doctor to get contacts. I put them on and took them off a couple times there before they sent me home with a pair to practice with. My doctor was confident I would use them and so they went ahead and charged my insurance for 4 boxes of contacts.
I wore them ... | self.Anxiety |
Why must we live? Can't everything just end at this very moment? [deleted] | self.depression |
Feeling terribly guilty for not being able to work I was hired 2 & a half years ago to work at a company that seemed decent enough on the outside. In those 2 years, that company has done so many awful things to my mental health that sometimes I question how I've survived. Like they genuinely break you.
Yet I still... | self.bipolar |
(Advice wanted) I think I only somewhat like this guy because of the attention he's giving me. And I don't know what to do, also I don't know what his intentions are with me. Help lol So there is this guy in one my classes that has been flirting with me for a few weeks. To tell you the truth, when he first started flir... | self.offmychest |
My girlfriend is depressed. I don't know how to approach the situation, I need some advice please. Within the last month, she has lost her best friend and her grandmother, who she was very close with (both passed away). This time last year, she was involved in an incident where she was assaulted (we were not dating at ... | self.depression |
tonight i really want to die i've been struggling for a long time. i don't have anyone except the person i'm seeing, but i can't put this on them. i want nothing more than to disappear. last night i had a detailed dream about ending it, exactly how i would do it, and exactly how i would let everyone that i care about k... | self.SuicideWatch |
Conversion Disorder I have conversion disorder(diganosed by a doctor and psych doctor) and without medicine get stroke like symptoms if I get too stressed out. Anyone else have CD and how do you manage your symptoms? | self.Anxiety |
I really regret my past, I yearn forget it and become wholly innocent again. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
My self righteous suicide, because even angels deserve to die. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Bipolar abroad. How far can I run away from my problems? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Can’t stop feeling awful No matter what happens I always feel awful...even if I feel “happy” it’s like a “fake” sort of happiness, like that awful feeling is being masked behind the happiness and is waiting to come out in full swing | self.depression |
Small Victory Saturday 10.21.17 What little or big victories did you achieve this week? Let's share and celebrate our successes together. | self.bipolar |
School makes me feel horrible and makes my depression worse [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Can anxiety destroy your life? Essentially, I've had severe anxiety my whole life from school, to friendships, relationships, grades, being dumb, things I tweet or put on snap, how I look, etc. It can pretty much be anything, but it mostly focuses on the social aspect. Most of the time, these things are ALL I can think... | self.Anxiety |
I need to die I really need to die. My life is over. There is nothing left to live for, just endless pain and suffering. Someone make me die | self.SuicideWatch |
Today was one of my ex-es birthdays and I didn't text him "happy birthday." I did remember it, and I felt really mean not wishing him a happy birthday. However, I know that he's not over me, even though it's been nearly a year and a half since I dumped him (I know he's not over me because he recently texted me to "hang... | self.offmychest |
This is a mess I'm recovering from being suicidal and am going through a lot right now. I've been bouncing back between my family's house and my apartment at college for a few months, because my dad is very ill and nearing the last stages of his life. I also have a little sister, who's also suicidal, who I worry about.... | self.Anxiety |
patience patience is everything
perhaps the one thing I never had
or I swore I did
like where'd it go?
I don't feel special
even while you say you love me
I'm almost scared to lose you
but that's being a fool
nothing ever lasted
why let your heart get blasted?
the point is to let go
I swore the point was bal... | self.depression |
Will I ever overcome my fears? Even when I face my fears, they still exist. Sometimes it's way less. Sometimes it's the same. I feel like all my efforts don't make sense. I still can't write without feeling anxious about it, talk to a girl or even saying "hello" to a stranger. Why bother if nothing changes? | self.Anxiety |
has anyone taken cymbalta (or any other antidepressant) during pregnancy? Cymbalta is still a pretty new drug and I would like to see if anyone has taken this drug during pregnancy and any outcomes? It is "pregnancy category C" but there isn't a lot of studies compared to other SSRIs I noticed like Zoloft / Wellbutrin. | self.Anxiety |
Does anyone else find their depression getting worse around evening hours? Mornings start off slow, then I enter a sort of "manic" high energy phase during late morning and early-mid afternoon and then as the sun starts going down at around 4 PM, my mood seems to steadily decline until I feel emotionally flat and very ... | self.depression |
A little guidance? I am in a strange spot in my life and hopeful of some opinions.
Diagnosed with BP2. Only taking lithium (although I have to admit to missing doses).
I used to have a horrible gambling problem but I managed to overcome that.
I still spend crazily though. Hopeless with money.
I don’t think I’m in ... | self.bipolar |
I talked to someone today I talked about how shitty I've been feeling and how I can't do anything due to lack of energy. It felt good, but I don't think it solved anything. My happines was fleeting at best today, which I guess is more than usual, but still not what I want it to be. I just can't seem to shake this feeli... | self.depression |
Having unusual symptoms--anxiety or something more? Some of the symptoms I'm wondering about are:
Numbness in mouth
Pressure in head
Feeling of zaps, flashes or "pop rocks" I'm brain
Involuntary laughter
Hallucinations while falling asleep
Involuntary movements or talking while falling asleep | self.Anxiety |
Unable to do anything It's been an awful year. Huge dramatic falling out with some friends, a lay off, many belongings stolen, suicide attempt, then another layoff.
I'm usually a very workaholic type person. But after the last layoff I just laid down in bed and haven't moved in 2 full months. I get up to get groceries... | self.SuicideWatch |
Fighting Depression & Struggling So, I use to be very popular, use to get laid regularly with ease. Then I got into some legal trouble and wound up on house arrest. I lost all my friends and my freedom.
I am now on probation 4 years later this is my last few months but I feel like I won't make it. I feel like I a... | self.depression |
What are your experiences with antidepressants? I'm planning to see a therapist soon if I qualify for financial aid, and I'm fairly sure I'll be prescribed some kind of antidepressant (or some anti-anxiety medication, seeing as how depression and anxiety are both taking turns curb stomping me).
I've heard some pretty... | self.depression |
My uncle's cat walked on me and I had a panic attack I usually don't have panic attacks, but around 10 or so minutes ago my uncle's cat was interested in me and hopped on my bed while I was relaxing. I was shocked and I ran to the bathroom and had a panic attack. Literally felt like I was gonna die or pass out any seco... | self.Anxiety |
Loss of sex drive is killing our relationship I’m a 28 y/o male, suffering from severe depression for the past 9 months. I am unmedicated, but I see a therapist weekly (who I really like). I feel like I am making a lot of progress with my stress and anxiety, but there is one hurdle I just can’t get past: I have no sex ... | self.depression |
Do you ever just feel content to be empty? I don’t want to do anything, but I’m not bored, I just feel fine, there’s no sadness, no hatred, only the feeling of emptiness without the urge to get rid of that feeling that usually accompanies it. I don’t feel good, or happy, but I wouldn’t mind just feeling like this forev... | self.depression |
So my only friend is dating someone and it's crazy how much this has destroyed me Maybe it's because I'm so alone
Maybe it's because she's going to leave me now she has someone that needs her more than me
I feel so selfish....
I just want a friend
Maybe I want someone to love me
I'm gonna probably kill myself ton... | self.depression |
I need to start having more honest discussions about my depression/suicidal thoughts and the various ways I’ve let myself down. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
That moment when the community mental health clinic says the waitlist is 90 days [deleted] | self.depression |
DAE feel anxious about things they can't fully remember? I've always been an anxious person. Lately, for the past few weeks, most of my anxiety has revolved around past events that I don't completely remember. I just think to myself, "Remember that one time you might or might not have done that really shitty thing over... | self.Anxiety |
Clanging language/humor Of all the symptoms of bipolar that I've studied and identified in myself, the hardest one to...pick up on is so-called ["clanging"](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Clanging). Apparently it's a thought disorder manifesting as rhyming or alliteration between unrelated subjects or topics.
One thing... | self.bipolar |
To my love: Let's get married. God damn, I love you. And you love me. I feel so lucky to have you and when you told me you feel the same way last night--and even though I know that--it was so wonderful to hear. I cried myself to sleep, and it was happy tears.
Sometimes you make me smile when I just think of your face... | self.offmychest |
How does social media affect your mental health ? Does it make it worse,better or no difference ? I only use reddit, and browse Facebook and Twitter. I don't go out the house at all but I have read from a lot of people that when they go to a festival,holiday or going out etc that a lot of people don't live in the momen... | self.depression |
How common are short bursts of hypomania/Near hypomania? I'm talking like 30 minutes to a few hours or one day of hypomanic symptoms. Like shaking my leg in class wanting to run and jump and chew gum and talk to everyone and find ways to keep this feeling going and my mind just jumps around more than usual and I just l... | self.bipolar |
Latuda Dose Increase? I've been taking 20mg of latuda since october 2016 with 1500mg of lithium.. the latuda definitely gave me the mood/functioning boost i didn't even realize i needed and i feel like i'm back headed towards the rut where my medication could be more on point, but nonetheless its working.
my pdoc su... | self.bipolar |
I don't think I'm ever going to be ok again [deleted] | self.depression |
People criticising other people's appearances triggers my anxiety because I fear they'll talk the same way about me when i'm gone [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I really hate life Why isn't there more meaning and expansiveness and amazingness? | self.offmychest |
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