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wanted to be youtube supa star for 10 plus years but too saddened. I am too depressed to do anything, I have no energy at all. Man I am lazy. I wanted to make videos, just some things for a laugh, and maybes be apart of some kind of video contributing community, you know, better than being part of a cult. But I have no... | self.depression |
Hey have you read "I'm no longer suicidal and things are really looking up for me" [xpost r/happy] You might not want to go over there and read it, but if you're feeling really down please consider it.
Someone just like us sharing their recovery.
https://www.reddit.com/r/happy/comments/7aubz4/im_no_longer_suicidal_an... | self.depression |
I wish I felt nothing. I feel like the weight of the world is on my back. I’m about to flunk out of school. My girl doesn’t love me. My parents are disappointed. I wish I could just be permanently numb. | self.offmychest |
Nothing. (Poem) An empty shell basking in a pool of negativity, un-disturbed by Its surroundings.
But penetrated from within by the emotions it once contained. A growing void with no end, but a future consisting of both sorrow and pain. | self.depression |
What'd be your prefered way to die if you died tomorrow? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I can feel my anxiety getting bad like when I was younger. My repetitive behaviors, obsessively writing lists(over and over again), fidgeting/nitpicking and I can’t find relief lately. How do i stop this from turning into depression again? Is there any relief? | self.Anxiety |
[TW]? Do the urges to do harmful coping mechanisms go away? I’ve crashed and burned today. Went from feeling really good to just wanting to fall back into the bittersweet embrace of old habits (I’m wondering if I was just in a hypomanic episode or if it was the antidepressant and it just wore off, if it was the antide... | self.bipolar |
I had my first panic attack and since then I’m not the same [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
So it's my birthday It's my birthday, but I really don't like attention on me. I hate being sung at and especially in public or when I've just woken up. My family sang to me when I woke up basically, and I got a bit angry. I remember saying something like "Please, I really don't like the singing, please stop, it's too ... | self.depression |
Never gone into the New Year feeling so hopeless [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Relapsed after 13 months clean. Feeling ashamed and like I’m back at square one. Self harm was always something I never saw myself doing but after three years of being diagnosed depression I finally broke down and tried it. I didn’t get very far until my parents noticed and made me stop. I felt so guilty and ashamed of... | self.depression |
So I started sertraline today After years of trying to make myself go back to the doctor to get help, I finally went back and started the long and winding road of finding the right meds that'll make me feel better. | self.depression |
No antidepressant would work cause of bipolar I always get mania cuss of Ssri.... nothing works, | self.bipolar |
I've lost it I wear a mask. At least I used too... I wore it for years... I'm tired of wearing a mask.
Yea, I'm gone. Hard to believe, right!? No, not really. Right now you are doing one of two things, either asking what you could have done differently, or be celebrating.
Honestly, you should be celebrating. "Yay! N... | self.SuicideWatch |
[Self Harm] Spiraling out of control.. I posted recently about a cutting episode I had at work about 2 weeks ago. 15 stitches later and I now have to figure out how to hide this giant wound from family during the holidays. 2 inches lower and I would be dead right now.
My girlfriend (fiance) and I have been together f... | self.bipolar |
Does anybody else go through long periods of unemployment due to depression(and anxiety)? Want to vent about it? I can't keep a job to save my life. I've quit all three of my past jobs due to stress and depression and didn't even last at least one year in any of them. The last one was so bad, it drove me to being hospi... | self.depression |
I tend to lose all sense of time when I am depressed. I have to fill out these forms to confirm that my absence from school is because of a chronic illness. Part of that is writing down all the dates I have missed class because of my depression. And I have no idea how long I have been absent for. Like I don't know how ... | self.bipolar |
I can’t deal with the pain anymore I am in my late twenties and I have dealt with so much hurt and pain that I just can’t take anymore.
Sexually abused by a family member at 4, 11, and 13
Raped at 14
Sexually assaulted God knows how many times
Physically assaulted at 14, 21, and 28
Relationship after relationship afte... | self.SuicideWatch |
[URGENT HAPPENING RIGHT NOW] I need help with helping some one [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Can't watch movies or tv shows because i can't stop thinking about bad things [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Oh boy, nothing like spending New Year's Eve alone to bring back the depression. I hate being alone. I hate being single. It hurts so much..
Just been moping in front of my computer doing nothing for the past hour or so. God, why does life suck.. | self.depression |
Is this normal for appointments with psychiatrists? I've been seeing this psychiatrist monthly or bi-monthly since September. When I go to my appointment, I sit down and he asks me how I'm feeling and how the medication is working. I tell him ok and that the medication is doing nothing except killing my sex drive. He l... | self.depression |
I just want to disappear I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts since April when I was arrested for a crime I didn't do (charges were later dropped). This traumatic experience has sent me into a spiral of depression that I never recovered from. Actually I should say that I've always struggled with depression since... | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel like everything's falling apart; I lie to myself and everyone around me about how bad things are. I don't really know what to do anymore, I just needed to tell someone, sorry. | self.depression |
So I cut myself for the first time the other day... [deleted] | self.depression |
Any advice for Explaining my mania/bipolar episodes to my SO? The episodes have caused issues with me blacking out and not being aware of what happens and she's upset because I don't remember them | self.bipolar |
I posted the same story yesterday with a lot less detail but i am changing a few things so if it sounds familiar it is [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
First time here hopefully last I'm 26 years old. My life seems to be going nowhere. I live with my parents still and have a lackluster job to say the least. I've had no success since highschool and anything before that was relatively meaningless. I've fallen out of faith with any sort of god and don't really have any g... | self.SuicideWatch |
There's those moments That just kind of come.
I think I've wasted my life and myself away. While I've been able to repress it, there's just these times when I think, "Can I do anything, really? Is it too late?" I have dreams, but I'm so lost in how to achieve them. I'm slow, I'm always tired, I do nothing. It can be ... | self.depression |
Just received the news that my cousin committed suicide. Now I was just hanging out in my room, listening to music & texting some friends. I decided to turn my music off and then I hear in the living room what could pass as either laughing or crying. Clearly, this sound was coming from my mother.
Eventually it be... | self.depression |
I can’t think of a reason to stay alive I don’t really know what to say so I guess I’ll say everything. I’ve been depressed for a long ass time. I was starting to feel better, due to my use of MDMA, but now that’s gone. I’ve been on a downward slope for months. It seems like the only ups I even have are when I’m high, ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Job paranoia through the stratosphere..despite good track record... This will never go away I fear, no matter where I'm employed. Absolutely convinced I'm gone next week after a "corrective" conversation with a manager. Wish I could roll with it and see things objectively and realistically, instead of sinking into wors... | self.depression |
Does anyone else just get tired? Today I reached a breaking point after eating an Oreo out of a packet of Oreos my mom got from the dollar store, I was scared because I've only eaten Oreos bought from Walmart. It sounds so stupid and I'm embarrassed to admit it but like that's the reality I've been living. I have the w... | self.Anxiety |
I just want to give up. I have so much rage in me that I don't know what to do with.
Nothing in my life is "good". Nothing at all. I'm dating somebody I like, but don't love, because the person I'm in love with is married and I figure this is as close to that feeling as I'll get now. I hate all my friends. Some are r... | self.offmychest |
Does anyone else feel like they don't "deserve" to have their anxiety? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
i'm 19 and i've got bad workplace anxiety. help me. I started a job- my first one ever- and it's a full time job as a ground handler at the airport. This means I have to greet passengers when they step off the plane and liaise with the cabin crew and my superior officer regarding take-off. I messed up yesterday, in not... | self.Anxiety |
Are there any meds that can just make me happy [deleted] | self.depression |
What is your "hearthstone" for anxiety? During a panic/anxiety attack I've found whipping out my phone and playing "Hearthstone: Heroes of Warcraft" quickly calms my anxiety. I'm not fully sure why but my guess is that it has to do with the quick shift of attention on my anxiety to the game. I completely lose myself pl... | self.Anxiety |
"I don't know how to punish you" "I don't know how to punish you. I can't hit you, I can't yell at you, I can't leave you. Hurting you just hurts me too because I love you."
I break down in tears when I think about him saying this, because I *deserve* to be hit, or yelled at, or left because of all the times I've lied... | self.offmychest |
The End? 24yo Male from Australia. Throw away account because I feel like everything is going to come to an end soon. My life the last year and a bit has been horrible, I lost my apprenticeship probably 12months ago, landed up in jail(prison) for 4months while suffering from a break up and being already depressed. Now ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Looking for thoughts. Curious if anyone can relate to how I'm feeling? I'm eighteen years old. Just finished my first semester of college. I have my whole life ahead of me and I should be happy but instead all I can focus on is the negatives.
I didn't do great this semester. I finished with a 1.7 GPA which is absolute... | self.depression |
He cheated and I'm broken. My boyfriend of 6 months cheated on me with my close friend during a time that was already difficult. I've had nightmares about what happened and am still having nightmares about him and her. I have constant anxiety and now I have no self worth because I feel like if I could've been better th... | self.offmychest |
How can I overdose? Hey all, I'm still here for some fucked reason but maybe one day I'll kill my self. Soon hopefully. Anyways I was wondering if any of you could help me work on my suicide plan or give me some info on how to OD correctly.
My current suicide plan is to down all my anti depressants and anxiety meds, f... | self.SuicideWatch |
Caffeine not working while depressed? Currently very depressed, slamming caffeine like a maniac, and not feeling it at all. My usual caffeine intake is ~40mg a day, and yesterday, over a period of three hours, I downed 400mg and felt nothing. Today, I'm around 305mg, and still nothing.
I know this sounds crazy, but ca... | self.bipolar |
Anyone else get pissed off by the ads here? I see the advertisements and all I can think about is that someone is trying to make money off of all our collective pain and suffering. They may be trying to help but I'm so freaking cynical. | self.depression |
lately I've realised that I've been shying away from proper relationships with other men. I'm a guy and I feel a strong sense of competition with all other men that I can't seem to shake and that makes me really uncomfortable in their presence. lately I've felt so much more at ease and happy when I'm in the company of ... | self.offmychest |
I’m having a depressive episode right now... someone please talk to me... I was actually feeling okay the last week and a half. I got to see my boyfriend yesterday and that made me so unbelievably happy. But now I’m just so sad and feel so useless and tired, I don’t know what to do. | self.SuicideWatch |
Done 6 ECT sessions. Still not feeling any better. I'm kind of losing hope at this point. | self.depression |
I find myself falling into a relationship once again [deleted] | self.offmychest |
My mom had an affair with my old soccer coach and it’s effects of our family have driven me to the point of suicidal urges. When I was in middle school (I’m 19 now) I played on a soccer team coached by one of my moms old friends from high school (same high school I graduated from a little over a year ago). From 5th gr... | self.SuicideWatch |
Doubt Lioness aggress my doubtful mind
Inherently it wanders getting lost from time to time
Mistaking truth for shadows tangling in twisting vines
Oh lioness aggress my doubtful mind
Warrior pierce my bleeding heart
Its agony for love I fear will tear itself apart
Afraid to face the dim lit mirror eclipsing it... | self.bipolar |
What does a mixed episode feel like? Can there be different degrees, like mild to severe? Is it like a bit anxious and frantic with intrusive thoughts of self harm and suicide though the main mood is sort not too bad yet but with wired and anxiety and ocd fucking you over?
I forgot what it was like to be like this. Th... | self.bipolar |
Manic Much? For a while I have been going back and forth. And within this time of being up I have made plans and contacted a bunch of people to open a bowling alley! Now I'm instantly regretting what I have done. What if this all goes through? How am I suppose to run a business? I can't possibly do this!!! | self.bipolar |
I’m not sure if I’m suicidal or something else? For a tiny bit of background, I’m in my first year of college and it’s been very hard. Had a few self harm incidents, was in the health center for a few days, breakdowns, anxiety attacks, one week long depressive episode where I missed a shit ton of class (which made stre... | self.SuicideWatch |
What do you do when you subconsciously don't want to improve? I talk about this on this sub alot but I'm lacking any will or motivation to try to medicate my problems. Everyone around me is (rightly) frustrated with this and my lack of will to bother is one of the main things that's making me so suicidal these days. Pe... | self.depression |
I destroyed my life Recently out of my curiosity for psychedelics I partook in more than I should have of a particular substance. While under the effects I was not in my right mind and had little common sense. I did things that very well might have destroyed my life.
The only reason I'm still alive right now is becaus... | self.SuicideWatch |
Hyperactive imagination I dont know if its me or what but sometimes when im doing my work or zoning out I can see an inner me crying and screaming or yelling that its all my fault that shes broken like this. Then when I am nursing my patients she would point me to choke them and harm them. I know that she's all in my h... | self.depression |
Diagnosed as Bipolar III / Cyclothymia I'll try to keep it short and tell my story here.
I was felling really bad, my dad had passed away, my relationship was a mess and a lot of shit was going on.
A psychiatrist diagnosed me with depression.
I started taking Desvenlafaxine (pristiq).
A month and half later i tried ... | self.bipolar |
Anxiety and frustration about organization Frustrated with this academic organization I'm heading. I have someone in charge of our training our undergrads to do research.
I asked her this evening if she had anything to present on Tuesday. She said that this was late notice and I need to tell her sooner. There was att... | self.offmychest |
I just feel so numb right now and I don’t know what to do. Title says it all if anyone would PM and just let me talk it would mean the world right now. | self.SuicideWatch |
Anyone not really depressed but kinda feel like they've had their "fill" of life and just kinda want it to end. It's just kind of boring. Like, when I hear stories of people dying in tragic accidents I envy them because they got go in a way that doesn't cause their friends/family any grief.
I just don't really see a ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I hate how my Mother used to say (to my sister's face!) how fat she was, and now she's all, "Why aren't you eating?" I hate her for that. So it wasn't enough that she was such jerk to me, saying how ugly I was and stuff like, *"You're wearing that? You look like a boy!"*, and calling me *ABNORMAL* (yeah just outta habi... | self.offmychest |
Went on a massive spring clean at 2am while everyone was asleep, is this mania? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I just need to know someone's there...? Hi, everyone, or anyone. Hi.
I just need to know someone's there? I'm 22, female, and I've been contemplating suicide for about a year now. Doing research on the fastest, most successful and painless ways to die. I just feel alone. I feel like I don't really have anyone to talk ... | self.SuicideWatch |
They should sell pills that kill you nicely A form of consumer euthanasia would be nice. | self.depression |
Tough Therapy Session Today Sorry, I just needed to talk about this. I had my third therapy session today. She was talking generally about what anxiety is. She was talking about fear of fear. My response was that this lines up perfectly for me. When I am anxious I often worry about how many days/weeks/years I will have... | self.Anxiety |
I want help but don’t know where to start. I feel like my life is falling apart and has been for awhile. I’ve been feeling numb towards my boyfriend which sucks because he’s trying so hard to help and I just end up hurting him. I’ve been thinking about leaving him because I want him to be happy and I haven’t been feeli... | self.depression |
Thinking of taking Propranolol to manage anxiety long term? DON'T!!!!! This drug is absolutely terrible to get off of please for the love of god ONLY take this medication as needed like for a speech or job interview. Feel free to ask any questions guys If I can save just one person from getting on this drug then my job... | self.Anxiety |
I'm Tired of Faking It I was trying to write this in another medium and realized that 5 or 6 pages might be difficult to read through and follow unless I wrote more, so I condensed it as much as I could
I've been suffering from anxiety since I was 11 or 12 due to my mom's emotional abuse (she thought I was going to b... | self.depression |
Waited 2 years. Finally the day came and nothing. What am i doing.... why do i want to die. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Instead of going on my highschool senior trip, I'm donating the money I earned to a mental illness research organization. I need help finding the right one. [deleted] | self.depression |
I scare myself sometimes I've been scaring myself recently with things I've noticed.
I know that my moods have been changing, and that more things set me off.
I was upset today from something and wanted to punch a wall and my mind corrupted the thought towards myself and it scared me.
I'm worried about scaring some... | self.depression |
Bipolar people with bipolar family members, do you guys seem to “sync up” phases with said family members? It seems like my brother, Dad, and I do
I’m trying to test it by popping in at my parents’ house when I just started a manic period or just left one to compare / contrast to my dad
My brother lives near me (same... | self.bipolar |
I don't know where to post this, but I think I might be having some sort of emotional shock/anxiety attack? I understand anxiety should not be taken lightly. And it is very serious. I've only suffered from anxiety through highschool and it cleared uo with support and time... but recently (im a freshman in college) i fo... | self.Anxiety |
Tried killing myself last week and I have no feelings about that I should care. I don't wish I had, I'm not glad I didn't, I'm not upset, it's just something that happened. I'm oddly not ashamed. Then I went inpatient after trying, still not ashamed.
I'm lacking so much emotion. I have to be on haldol so the self harm... | self.bipolar |
Went to bed last night feeling hopeful and positive. Woke up sad and anxious. I fucking hate this. Went to a meet up last night and enjoyed myself a lot. In the end I was feeling good. I had made some new friends. But this morning I woke up and my stomach was in knots and I had this gnawing sadness. It just doesn’t see... | self.depression |
I think I’m dying. Worst attack in months. Help! I know I’m not but it feels like I’m having a heart attack. My face is feeling tingly and my back is worrying out. Thinking of all the past things people have said I trick myself into thinking I’m dying. Help me. | self.Anxiety |
Does it feel like your body is "waving" when you're hypo? I am in the middle of my worst hypomanic (probably bordering on manic) episode right now. Last night i got really drunk and high, and while i didnt experience any severe symptoms like psychosis or paranoia or anything, i noticed it felt like my body was "waving"... | self.bipolar |
Any advice? I am not suicidal or depressed myself, however, I am currently in a relationship with an amazing girl who unfortunately struggles with anxiety, depression, and has suicidal thoughts daily.
She has been going through this for roughly three years now and having only found out about it only last year I have g... | self.SuicideWatch |
Therapist confidentiality and suicidal thoughts-what are the rules? I realized recently that I'm depressed as hell stemming from a rape two years ago, and the past two months or so (maybe longer who knows) I've been having suicidal thoughts. Don't have a plan really, and when you get right down to it I don't really wa... | self.depression |
the situation is getting horrible i live with my mother in Brazil , she is a Realtor and I'm going to start working as a young apprentice, and actually her job is going through a really Bad Phase here, actually the country is in a Bad Phase, she has a company and her co-workers left with just one remaining and our bill... | self.depression |
Why is it so fucking hard to get a decent haircut? Every. Single. Fucking. Time I get a bad haircut.
I go to different places, give hair cutters a second chance and IT ALWAYS LOOKS FUCKING TERRIBLE. Why is it so fucking difficult to get a decent haircut? I've come in with pictures of many different hairstyles AND THE... | self.offmychest |
Medication question I've tried a bunch of different antidepressants and they all seem to go the same way. It's fine for a bit and then after a month or two, I feel suicidal. Right now my psych has me on lamictal and i feel numb. Should i go back to antidepressants? | self.depression |
Can't call the suicide hotline cause I have no money, can't use the chats cause they're all full. So now I'm here. I just wrote a suicide note, then cried for about an hour. I wish I had any friends to call. There's one friend that might understand but I'm pretty sure she doesn't like me anymore. So now I'm just crying... | self.SuicideWatch |
You don't see it coming. It just comes and creeps up on you. Then destroys your life slowly and painfully. | self.depression |
Has anyone had any successful treatments that have lasted? If so what has worked? I've been dealing with severe depression for most of my 32 years here. I've tried many medications and therapy. Medication has never really had much of an effect. I've been off of any kind of treatment again now for 3 years but am conside... | self.depression |
I feel like an asshole So my friends mother is having me take care of their animals for a week while they're gone, and they expected me to sleep at their house and stuff. But I always get so much anxiety when I'm in their home at night, I cannot spend much of the evening their and I can't sleep there. I feel like I'm b... | self.Anxiety |
If I had a good fucking method I’d do it in a heartbeat It’s so fucking pointless. I don’t have anything to live for anymore. I’m working my ass off to get into career with a shitty salary. It was the only thing left that kept me going and kept me alive. I don’t have anything to live for anymore. No one will ever love ... | self.SuicideWatch |
My homebred chickens are probably dead. Yesterday, I put the chickens to bed far too late at around 11:00PM because I'd gotten distracted. Today, my mother told me that she thinks something has got our chickens, as the house is empty and there are feathers everywhere. We bred those chickens ourselves by accident, and I... | self.offmychest |
Mixing clonazepam with alcohol is that bad? They recently prescribe me 1 mg of clonazepam every night, but I’m a casual drinker.. | self.Anxiety |
Just want to you wish you all a great 2018! Hey friends,
I just want to tell you all that you are great and I hope you all have a great 2018. 2016 and 2017 have been rough for me, but I am finally making progress and I want to tell you that no matter how difficult things are, they will look up! If you would like a fri... | self.depression |
Lying to myself I lied to myself for so long telling myself i wasn't insecure. Not once did i believe it. | self.depression |
Experiences with CBD oil? I’ve been reading about CBD oil to help with my generalised anxiety disorder and wanted to know how it feels and how it has helped some of you people. | self.Anxiety |
I think I'm going insane It's 4.26am I think I'm actually losing my mind, I can't sleep all I can think about is my ex with another man and how she doesn't care about me anymore, I keep blowing up her phone with texts and I can't stop I'm losing the will to carry on I just want the pain to cease | self.SuicideWatch |
16 M Just Telling What Happened Last Night I'm 16, I've been looking for a guy to experience things with for over a year. I post to Craigslist, and have never had any success, that was until yesterday. Yesterday a guy told me he could host, and had a 6" you know what. I've never done anything like this before and said ... | self.offmychest |
I uhhhh did a bad thing So I’m writing this from a hospital bed I’ve been stuck here for two weeks. Here’s my story I slit my wrist two weeks ago and got hospitalised and put in a padded cell for evaluation I got put in this bed today for tests before being discharged but I don’t feel anything no regret or anything and... | self.SuicideWatch |
How do I avoid handshakes? At school, random people will sometimes come up to me with they’re hand out and I just completely shut down. Not like a formal handshake, but like a what’s up kind. I have no clue what to do, and it’s always awkward. This ruins my day.
I guess I could say I’m sick but that won’t work every ... | self.Anxiety |
Openeyed spiraling down, getting comfortable in my depression routine, again. Seen it coming over the last month, had these strong saddening, sickening feelings coming up, knowing I cannot stop it. Daily life things became harder, getting to the shop to get food, leaving my room just for a cigarette felt impossible.
H... | self.depression |
Useless Useless grill. first time ask for one thing still she no do. only take take take no give...
Useless absolutely uselesz. | self.offmychest |
Safe antidepressants? I've had horrendous experiences with every antidepressant I've encountered, however I want to give another medication an opportunity in hopes of finding motivation and drive--with my current treatment of Latuda & Topamax I'm stable but not loving life.
I switch easily and rapidly cycle, I kn... | self.bipolar |
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