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Depressed and lonely TLDR: Anxiety and depression at an all time high. I can't seem to make friends easily. Where do I go from here?
Hi everyone. I'm not really sure what I am doing here. But, if you are reading this, you probably want some background: I suffer from pretty severe PTSD/TBI. I've been living with it f... | self.depression |
Feeling really, really helpless I didn't get my license until I was 20 because I had a severe fear of driving. I've come to see that this fear fluctuates. Sometimes I'm hyper aware of the fact that if I- or anyone else- makes a mistake that I could die, and I start to have panic attacks and do everything that I can to ... | self.bipolar |
does anyone feel like they don't even enjoy sleeping anymore? i used to always look forward to going to bed, but now i feel like i look at even that as a chore. such an odd feeling, it almost makes me uncomfortable getting ready for bed and even if i wake up super early and am tired i have no desire to go back to sleep... | self.depression |
I'm not depressed, I'm just pathetic. ...is the mantra I have been using to justify why I've spent 20 years refusing to ask for help.
I avoid problems not because I learned people, even family, can only go so far before frustration kicks in (and that hurts), but because I am weak and sheltered.
I don't take care of m... | self.depression |
I want it to stop. I want it to end. This depression. The Snake at the back of my mind. This anxiety. I want, no, I NEED it to stop. But I can't fix it. I don't know how. I don't know what to do. I just want to die. I just want it to all be over. Please. | self.depression |
I’m afraid of failing I want to kill myself, I’m goddamn sure no one else would miss me. My parents have another smarter, more successful child, my boyfriend is popular with women and could replace me in an instant. And friends? What’s that? However, I don’t want to fuck it up and end up in some mental hospital being t... | self.SuicideWatch |
the cyber monday ads at the top of this subreddit Can we change this? Seems like a bad idea for manic folks. | self.bipolar |
Vent Session Hey guys. I have moved around so much growing up. The group of friends I knew for the longest have started to branch out. I got no one to really talk to. The only place I felt slightly comfortable living was at my parents house. But my sister in law basically got into an argument with my parents and kicked... | self.depression |
Everything is falling apart. I've been going through a real bad break up over the course of this month. It has been bad because were constantly fighting every day and we have been living together, and still are for about two more weeks. I love this girl, but she has done things that make it so hard for me to trust her ... | self.depression |
I can't feel things as strongly as I used to. Is this the meds, or just growing up? This is my first post, and I am on mobile, so I'm sorry if I mess something up.
Currently on a low dose of abilify and Wellbutrin. It seems to be working pretty well. I've held down a job for two years, and a relationship for one year... | self.bipolar |
I think 2018 gonna be the same as 2017 Exactly this day, one year ago, i was devastated from a broken relationship, i was also got laid off from my work. It was then that i decided to talk to one of my high school friend, and we continue to do that for until we became a couple. She is now my ex, she broke up with my, i... | self.depression |
I Feel a Blind Rage Rage at myself. Rage at the hole I'm in. I don't want to pull myself out. I don't want to get better. I just want to rage. I want to go off the fucking wall. I don't even fucking know. I don't want to control my anger. I don't want to redirect it. I want it to manifest as pain.
Fuck standing for s... | self.depression |
I've been living life terribly I am a freshman in college that has had issues that I have caused my entire life. I am a 5'1 male eho doesnt need to study due to near photographic memory, this has caused me to become very lazy in life. While I might have many friends I still have been living life terribly. I spend all o... | self.offmychest |
Feeling like it might be almost time for me to go. Hey guys,
Dont usually post on reddit much (more of a lurker). But here we are. Why am I here right now? Well a few reasons:
Firstly, I was bullied during high school, and while I did go and see a therapist I still have that nagging anxiety, low self esteem and overth... | self.SuicideWatch |
does anyone else get really intense but short lasting moments of feeling super worthless and wanting to die?? [deleted] | self.depression |
I accidentally typed my notes for class in the comment section of a reddit post the other day The fuck bruh lol I’m gonna fail out of college my roommate hasn’t shown up to class in almost a month and finally went to counseling today and I’m the one pulling this shit lol this gonna be (hopefully) a better motivator tha... | self.offmychest |
Alcoholic in Recovery, diagnosed anxiety, depression, and OCD. I’m considering smoking weed to help deal with symptoms, but also realistic. Advice welcome. [deleted] | self.depression |
Anyone else? am I the only one that is scared to get help because I fear that i dont actually have depression but im just so bad of a human being that I cant handle the stuff everyone else is facing every day. I mean what if im just a lazy fuck that is to weak to handle every day life? That would make me just much more... | self.depression |
Tired and depressed and hopeless Sometimes I hate my life and myself. I've been so tired lately and unmotivated and my Daylio is all sorts of wonky. I'll be depressed for a few days then mostly ok for like two or three days then back to depressed. I'm so behind in my school work. Like three weeks or more behind in one ... | self.bipolar |
My life is perfect but I can't enjoy it. I hate myself for this.
Everything in my life is perfect, I have a great paying job doing what I used to love doing, working with people that I can tolerate. I have a place to live, and I'm never short of food. But I can never enjoy these things. All of these things that should... | self.depression |
I finally got on anxiety medication After hearing a few recommendations from both my family and my psychologist. I finally decided to see my treatment coordinator today and recommended that I get on anxiety medications. I was prescribed with Clonidine, and while I did some research on it and reviews for it seems good a... | self.Anxiety |
Why did I even try So i'm visiting another city with my friends, i knew upfront most of them would be couples and us single folks would be in minority, but what the hell, right? And at first, it went along well but now, two days in and i'm getting that feeling, like two people are making out violently next to you? Yeah... | self.depression |
i think i need help, but i can't. Struggling with depression way to long now already. To be honest, i can't think about getting help. I don't want to talk with some Random Guy or anyone in the first place about my life, what happend and whatever.
So i just sit here, do nothing and my life is literaly crap. I often tho... | self.depression |
Bipolar sex is awesome! Have been hypomanic lately and started seeing an old booty call again (she's fully aware of my condition) and have been having way better than normal sex. Just curious as to others' experiences, good or bad :) | self.bipolar |
Struggling Again I've recently had to move abroad for work, and I'm having a bit of a hard time. I struggle sleeping (by that I mean I get a maximum of 2/3 hours per night), and I feel desperately alone. During the day I'm fine, but at night in particular I slip into negative thinking and panic. My partner lives abroad... | self.depression |
Huge relapse- what next? I have recently had a complete relapse in my anxiety and agoraphobia. I’m currently on a break from work because the owner is giving me time to decompress. I’m in a constant state of panic at work, and staying home makes me feel like my safe zone get even smaller. I’m so depressed I don’t even ... | self.Anxiety |
Anorexia and me.... Coming to terms with how bad it has gotten. I wish I could say that I wasn't anorexic. I had denied it for so long. It started small and snow balled from there. I wish I could say that a specific event caused it but that would be a lie. My self esteem has never been great. I broke up with the father... | self.offmychest |
F/ 25 Dont know what to do with my life During the last two years I've dedicated myself to recovery. I swore to health and fitness so my brain would heal from the damage that was self inflicted. I had been a drug addict for 5 years and I could barely think. I had to re-learn everything. In the meantime I've found mysel... | self.Anxiety |
I'm not going to kill myself but... My blood pressure is crazy, like 190/130 and has been for the past year. I refuse to take blood pressure meds because life sucks, and life sucks even more on the meds. And people say you can never quit them once you start them? Also, I have constant palpitations/arrhythmia, like at l... | self.SuicideWatch |
My best friend died last week, and I've lost two days of work from panic attacks. I lost my last two jobs this way. Help. I lost my first job to daily panic attacks when i was undiagnosed. Through plenty of therapy and medication, i was stable enough to hold down my second, more stressful job for two years, when they s... | self.Anxiety |
I had a great morning, but a shitty afternoon. I got up early after a little too little sleep, but did what adults do, toughed it out, took my meds, took a shower, brushed my teeth, drank some coffee, and went to class. It wasn't much, but I felt fucking normal. I haven't felt normal in a long time.
I did well in cla... | self.depression |
I don't know how to achieve my goal; makes me wanna die Hi, I'm a 18 years old from Mexico, living in a relatively small town.
So to begin with, I feel completely trapped here, I feel so homesick, like I don't belong here, I'm in what would be my senior year and my grades are just plain bad, mostly because I skipped m... | self.SuicideWatch |
pathetic.. Idk why I can't stop thinking about my ex he's all I talk about anymore its pathetic. He was the only person I would talk to or hang out with for the past 4 months..my mind is full of useless info about him or things he said. I feel totally lost and alone in the world. Don't know who I am anymore. how do i f... | self.depression |
I just wanted to say thank you for the support I've received here. Knowing I'm not alone and hearing others' stories has helped me through some Dark Days. I've always been apprehensive to post anything, anywhere. The first sign of someone disagreeing with me, and I feel stupid and embarrassed and delete whatever I've w... | self.Anxiety |
Manic Depression Coming down after trippin’ for so long
Guess seeing straight but the medication’s strong
I stood too tall now I’m cowering in shame
The heart burns bright but the soul outlives the flame
I've been seeking solace in a bottle
Will I never get my fill
Life hits I try to hit back hard but god damn
W... | self.bipolar |
Had anyone tried shrooms for depression? Did it help? https://tonic.vice.com/en_us/article/59d735/active-ingredient-in-shrooms-could-reset-brains-of-depressed-people?utm_campaign=interest&utm_source=vicefbusads | self.depression |
I try, but... Currently at a Christmas party and everyone is happy and engaged. I sit here and want to jump off a cliff as being around others like this really gets to me hard this time of year. I feel as if I am 100 miles away from where I am and noone even notices. | self.depression |
It’s currently 5:15am where I live and I cannot sleep. I received bad news yesterday and feel like my world’s been turned upside down. My great-grandmother has been admitted to hospice as her health is beginning to decline. This is the woman that I would consider to be my biggest maternal figure in my whole life to me.... | self.Anxiety |
3 years post being left by my high school sweetheart- I have to learn to date at 40, and I'm terrified and repelled by the thought. Being left by my husband basically blew my life to bits. The last three years have been saturated with agonizing grief, which has left me with a real fear of relationships and being vulner... | self.offmychest |
Language barrier makes it difficult for me to explain Short background story. Me and my husband are not from the same country so we speak English together (neither of us are native English speakers). For me depression has been a problem for the last 10 years on/off, for him the whole concept of depression is rather new... | self.depression |
a rough patch There are a lot of things I’m feeling right now and have nowhere to turn. I’m not usually the type of person who vents to strangers or feel trapped within my emotions but I don’t have a source of emotional support at the moment and I’m not exaggerating when I say this is one of the most traumatic and hard... | self.depression |
I realized how my ex girlfriend felt in the months before we broke up today A bit under 3 years ago I started dating one of my best friends. We were in high school at the time, and had already decided where we were going to college. I was staying within a few hours of home while she was going to school about 9 hours aw... | self.offmychest |
I would hide behind trees when I was young My entire life I have had friends that would come and go. At one point when I was in middle school, I remember having no friends/no one hangout with during recess. When you're young you don't want to get bullied for being alone so I would go hide behind a big tree so no one wo... | self.Anxiety |
Plans all set but can't find the courage to do it. No need for description really. I've suffered from depression since i was a child. At 17-19 i went thru a bad relationship with a girl who was out of my league an she knew it. She constantly shit on me an treated me like crap.
Fast forward 12 years I'm married but sep... | self.SuicideWatch |
I Want To Go Somewhere And Do Something But Have Nowhere To Go I can't stay at home for another second. I'm going to lose my fucking mind. I can't think of any place to go to. And the social anxiety doesn't help. | self.Anxiety |
I feel like in order to be a functioning adult in this society, I'll have to play a character. I'll have to do and say what is expected of me. And this is why I'll never have real friends because then I'd always be living in fear of being exposed for the rest of my life. I'd have to live a lie. [deleted] | self.depression |
I don't exist. I've never had anything in life. I've never had any struggles or any happiness. I've never won or lost. I've never had ups or downs. My whole life is just one long flat line. I obviously don't have depression, but I can't stop thinking about death. Being alive is just dull. I've never had a real friend o... | self.offmychest |
I think I'm just unhappy And I don't see how I could ever be happy. It doesn't matter what I do, what decisions I take. Things should be fine (perhaps even great) but this thing keeps coming back and I just feel empty and uninterested and so so bad I find it hard to wake up, I find it hard to leave the bed, have conver... | self.depression |
My generic lamotrigine is very pointy. I'm just starting it, what am I in for? Pdoc decided we should taper off sertraline and on to lamotrigine. I know all about "the rash" and the typical side effects..
Whats it like when it works? | self.bipolar |
Dealing with sounds Hi All,
I was wondering if anyone else gets anxious from external sounds i.e. hearing people outside when you want it to be quiet etc?
Basically I feel like I’ve had this problem since I moved out of home 12 years ago. Our first apartment was old with thin walls so we constantly heard our neighbou... | self.Anxiety |
scared The thought alone of just telling my parents i have depression makes me want to kill myself. I know they wont take it well. i know they will say some bullshit, or mean shit and make it worse. i tried to tell my mom i had depression when i was younger, she just thought it was a phase. she thinks if there is nothi... | self.SuicideWatch |
I can't relax knowing my dad will die at any moment [deleted] | self.depression |
Wired I've been diagnosed with phobic anxiety disorder and OCD as well as depression. I have a long term health problem that has caused it all. Last night I had a bit of a weird sensation that hasn't left and, tbh, I feel horrendous. Before getting into bed I had this feeling completely out of the blue of feeling restl... | self.Anxiety |
Ten years ago today... What's good homie? It's me... I mean it's YOU. I'm basically talking to myself here. But for you, it's November 3, 2007... exactly ten years later from where you are right now. You won't actually see this, but I'm hoping you, and all your hopes and dreams for the future, can come back to me. Beca... | self.bipolar |
Public assistance isn't just ~free money. What a lot of people who have never needed to ask for this kind of help don't seem to realize is that the process isn't simply filling out an application and waiting for the monthly check to roll in. As it turns out, there are quite a few strings attached.
This isn't necessa... | self.offmychest |
Today is the first day that I didn't tell myself to commit suicide For the past several months, maybe even year, not a day has gone by where I haven't said "kill yourself already" or some variant thereof out loud. I've screamed it in private and mumbled it quietly in public. Sometimes it's been accompanied by serious s... | self.depression |
[Trigger Warning Suicide] - Why is it a bad thing? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
How do I just accept and move on that I am a braindead failure? No sugarcoating, I'm literally a braindead failure at life. Don't give me those "oh, you have so much potential" because I don't. I just want honest answer on how to accept this and hopefully move on with my life. | self.depression |
$1,100 for Latuda I was diagnosed with bipolar 20 years ago. I just started back on Latuda after a major depressive episode. It has worked for me in the past but I stopped because I was out of work and it cost too much. Fast forward to now, I'm employed and at risk of losing my job due to memory loss as I also take Lam... | self.bipolar |
Do bipolar I folks attract codependent people? I have no idea if there's even a single connection, but I'm trying to get down to the root of why I have attracted so many emotionally codependent people in my life either as friends or lovers.
I specify Bipolar I, because that's my type, but also because the "cocky" and... | self.bipolar |
Day long panic attack? Warning word vomit. I feel like all my nerves have been standing on end all day. I have felt my fight or flight instinct kicking in all day. I can’t settle down. I want to cry because I can’t relax even for a second.
I wish my body could relax for just a second.
I guess I just need some reass... | self.Anxiety |
Why does this happen For some strange reason I will randomly get angry out of nowhere, I always want to hurt (and in some cases even kill) people around me. After all the anger I will end up just being really depressed, this happens for no reason at all. Why does this happen? I think it might have something to do with ... | self.Anxiety |
Trigger-Mention of Rape-Feeling suffocated Hey guys.
Don’t really know why I’m writing on here. I’m more of the bottle it up kind of person. But I think I just need to...talk.
I think the thing about rape is that some people thing eventually the pain goes away. I hate the term survivor, always have and always will. I... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm a terrible girlfriend Never posted before so please tell me if I'm formatting wrong or something. Advice is really appreciated, especially if anyone has a similar experience?
I love my boyfriend a lot, but I'm just a terrible girlfriend. I've been thinking about one of his friends. Just putting it into words make... | self.offmychest |
Just another person facing depression, here's my story Hello, I'm not normally a long format writer but I have been wanting to contribute to this subreddit for a while now to gather outside thoughts on my condition.
I'm a 25 year old gay male who has been married for a year and a half. My spouse also suffers from men... | self.depression |
How do you guys face and conquer your fears while having anxiety? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Someone took my meds 20f bipolar 1//maybe schizoaffective but fuck whoever wrote that..
Somewhere in the process of picking up my meds last month (Seroquel, Straterra, & Visteril) they were replaced with Placebos. Couldve been the doctor prescribing, or the pharmacy trying to fuck with me, or maybe its my mother w... | self.bipolar |
I have GAD(+ health anxiety) and am unable to use medication [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Anxiety fucking sucks Ever since I was a kid, I've always had extremely irrational thoughts that caused me immense fear. When I was 10, I was convinced my heart would stop beating, even though I was always healthy.
These obsessive thoughts caused me immense anxiety. They made it difficult for me to focus and study. Th... | self.Anxiety |
I feel worthless I dont know how to explain how I feel. I live in foster care. I don't live with my family anymore and that has made me realize how much I didn't interact with them. I would just stay in my room and barely come out after school. Not that there was anything to do but sit on the couch if I did come out. W... | self.offmychest |
How do I... Deal? Hi everyone,
This may be a little rambling and longish, but thank you if you read it.
Bipolar 2 sufferer here. I've been in treatment for bipolar for two and a half years, but I've had it for more than fourteen. I recently got out of a long term relationship that was emotionally abusive and toxic. ... | self.bipolar |
Help for anxiety picking? Hi all, I have a problem with picking my hands/fingers until they're bleeding and I don't even realize it's happening until I look down and see the results, how can I deter myself from doing this? | self.Anxiety |
Loneliness I don't know about anyone else, but I constantly feel lonely, even in the company of others, I feel alone
Is there a fix for this? I am usually a quietly social person, so this is torture 😞 | self.depression |
just wanted to write I wanted to talk about what I saw when my aunt died. I usually talk to people about things I observe. Some things I keep to myself, others I share. It's the first time I'd seen someone go from alive to dead. I feel like I want to speak about it...have a conversation about it. But it's obviously not... | self.offmychest |
Depression because of rejection, not being good looking enough. I used to be someone who never cared about how I looked, how my clothes looked. In the last three years everything changed. I started using a Gay/Bi dating application and that is where I was shaken to my core, I realized if you don't have the perfect look... | self.depression |
I just realized my heart feels like Seymour from Futurama It's been waiting loyally to be someone's best buddy for years, but now it's withering away, alone. | self.depression |
I hate myself I hate myself so much. I fuck up everything I do, even when I try my hardest I just fuck it up. I can't do anything right. I feel like shit and the thought of having to be with myself for the rest of my life kills me. I understand why other people don't want to talk to me. I don't want to be around myself... | self.depression |
I have no nothing to look forward to. All I want is to feel like a real person again. I feel completely indifferent and miserable at the same time. I'm disconnected from reality, as if I'm watching a movie about a pathetic protagonist instead of living. I want to feel like I occupy my own mind and body again. I want to... | self.SuicideWatch |
A fake it 'til you make it approach to being happy is exhausting. [deleted] | self.depression |
I wish i would have killed myself a long time ago. too many people are invested in my life now even if i tried to make it an accident, they would know it was suicide. part of me wants to just run away and kill myself somewhere in alaska where no one will ever find me | self.SuicideWatch |
Had sex with one of my best friends, and now I think I'm starting to develop feelings that she doesn't reciprocate. This is my alternate account because I really don't want this information to leak anywhere it shouldn't. I've been best friends with someone, who I'll just refer to as B, for a couple months now. She's on... | self.offmychest |
24 and tired of it all I've always been suicidal since I was 10 years old, my grandmother has emotionally, mentally, and physically abused me. That produced a stoic kid who learned hate at a young age. My birthday will be my 6th attempt, so we will see what happens soon. | self.SuicideWatch |
How I turned out by being a victim of abuse to one abuser I just can’t deal with it anymore, I need to take off this bag of stones that’s on my shoulders.
I am going to explain this following a timeline of the events.
I am a 17 yo girl who was abused for the first time at 4 years of age.
2004 - When the abuse started
... | self.offmychest |
hi. first reddit post EVER. i have a pretty simple question to ask. is this subreddit for anyone of all ages who (maybe) suffering from some type of depression, or is this more directed to late-teens people and adults? sorry for the odd question, i’m a pre-teen here who has been having feelings of sadness and anxiet... | self.depression |
I’m 21 and the older I get the more I regret my past. How do I stop this cycle? [deleted] | self.depression |
Does it ever actually get better? That's always everyone's advice. It'll get better. Just keep working on it. Make friends. Take meds. Workout. Sleep. Eat well. Meditate. Self-care. I mean I feel like I'm doing it all right. And every once in a while i see a little glimpse into that. I complete a homework assignment an... | self.depression |
I'm worrying about everything and it gives me stress constantly, and I don't want to live like this anymore This will be a long post and will touch on a lot of different topics.
I'm a high school senior and I am terrified of everything. The most common piece of advice I've received from my friends for battling my anx... | self.depression |
Residual symptoms? I'm having a strange issue and wondering if anyone else has had this. A few posts back, I mentioned problems with concentration and focus. I didn't realize how prominent those symptoms are with mood issues.
Here's my problem: after 1.5 or so years of being unstable, I have finally stabilized. How... | self.bipolar |
Stayed home sick from school. So I have a really bad sinus infection and have had to stay home from school the past couple days, which makes me freak put to begin with because I hate having to be absent. Anyways, now I'm freaking out because of all my make-up work I'll have to do before the term ends in a week, so then... | self.Anxiety |
It's the small things that get you with depression [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Just blew off my family’s Thanksgiving get together to do drugs I think this is supposed to be a wake up call. I’d rather sit at home and eat Xanax and play video games than see my actual family. My life has reached it’s lowest point. What kind of person does this? Forget about eating turkey, mash potatoes, and seeing ... | self.depression |
I need to become okay in like a week How to get myself out of one of my lowest of lows in order to start getting my life back on track and help make my girlfriend’s life easier? | self.depression |
Not sure if I'm worth anything. Forgive the rambling nature of this post. I have a lot on my mind, and not a lot of organization to make this any more legible.
Recently I’ve done a lot of thinking. I’ve had a lot of opportunities to be happier in life, to be in a better place than I am right now. I’ve been to college ... | self.offmychest |
I've joined the lithium gang! Went to a new p-doc today. He suggested adding lithium, and I agreed!
Now, tell me your horror stories. | self.bipolar |
First psychiatrist appt. hoping for meds but nervous from bad reaction in the past. Advice? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Why do people seem to think saying "I care about you" excuses treating the person they supposedly care about like shit? | self.SuicideWatch |
Nowhere to run You have to sit there and play with your friends all day. You got no money, can't even get on the subway. How far do you think you would get? Haha, not very far. You can't escape, be a good boy and stay put. You can't escape depression. You can't ignore it, sit there and listen to it. Let depression be t... | self.depression |
Did healthy lifestyle (eating, exercise, etc.) have an effect on your bipolar? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
This is just too boring, but I don't have enough time or any socialising to make it different. [deleted] | self.depression |
Little panic How do you guys deal with this little panic you have when you meet a friend/friends that you have bad pasts with? Like, they've hurted you before, you still have to socialize with them because of group work or whatever. How do I cope so my feelings won't expose out to them about how much I still remember w... | self.depression |
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