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The results of my medical exams came in. Last year, in the final week of October, I moved back to my home country to study. Because I didn’t know yet what university I was gonna enroll in, I ended up missing most registration periods, so I have to wait until March for the second quarter to apply and hopefully enter Uni... | self.offmychest |
I feel like I can't keep going Hey everyone. So I didn't know where else to post this, I've talked to some crisis chat lines, and I'm just struggling a lot.
I've been on-and-off suicidal for about 6 years now. It started as a young teen, I was living with really abusive people and I even attempted suicide (I hadn't e... | self.SuicideWatch |
My parents make me very depressed I have had a history of depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts all throughout middle school and early high school. I've taken medications and gone to therapy and only recently have I started to ween off of my medications and I stopped going to therapy about 3 months ago due to me fe... | self.depression |
It feels like no matter how far I move forward it’s always waiting for me in the end. [deleted] | self.depression |
I’m 23, survived cancer and wish i hadn’t. It’s bizarre that i’m even suicidal. I’m 23, i have a good job, family/friends etc and i’m so depressed and suicidal. I hate the thought that for the next 40-50 years i’m going to be a slave and have to work and barely have the time to enjoy life.
I had a rough year with bei... | self.SuicideWatch |
i am so fucking tired of you I tried so hard to stop being angry. I didn't want to get mad as you were my "best friend". But what kind of best friend calls me a greedy pig? What kind of person says I hope you die of starvation? I'm sorry I didn't want to talk to you the other day, alright? If you just saw yourself, may... | self.offmychest |
Everything is falling apart Last year was great. I had a lot of good friends, and even my first boyfriend. Until my depression came and ruined it all. I lost my boyfriend and two of my closest friends because my depression was too much them. I was too much for them to handle. They couldn’t support me anymore. So now I’... | self.SuicideWatch |
Depression and Heartbreak Hi all,
I havé pretty bad depression. Every day i have thoughts of dying (by my own hand or wishing someone else would just do it to me). I recently got out of a relationship with my first love. She doesn’t want me back because she thinks the future wouldn’t be very good for us because we wan... | self.depression |
I hate myself, I can't go on I hate everything about myself. From the physical aspects to my personality. I think I walk weird, my voice sounds annoying to me, I'm too short, I'm not terribly ugly but I would be weirded out if I found out someone was attracted to me. I think I am disgusting.
I'm very introspec... | self.SuicideWatch |
I have everything that I wanted, why am I depressed? I don't know how to start. I have everything that someone would want. I have a girlfriend, I have a good job and I am good at it, I have friends, I have a brother that loves me. Than why the fuck am I depressed. I have everything that someone would want from life but... | self.depression |
Medication interaction??!! So I'm on 100mg sertraline(zoloft) a day and have been for about a year. Today I had some candy and some were grapefruit flavour and I didn't realise..... Grapefruit reacts with sertraline(zoloft) and I'm freaking out.... Will I be okay??? | self.depression |
Finding it hard to shake away my anxiety and tell someone how I feel about them. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
My Battle With Anxiety. Hi guys/girls.
My name is Luke.
I am 25 years old and I have suffered with anxiety for most of my life.
Social anxiety mostly. I could never look people in the eye when I was talking to them. I could never speak to girls. I was convinced I was the ugliest kid in school and people were always say... | self.Anxiety |
Feeling Lost I'm 14 and I've already been diagnosed with severe depression, anxiety and Schizoid Personality Disorder. It feels like life is going nowhere, unreal almost. I don't have a life plan, I'm just taking the days as they come. I don't feel like I relate to anyone. I feel like no-one in my life understands what... | self.depression |
Suicidal despite being sad/happy/depressed?! Am I the only one that plans/fantasies about commiting suicide no matter what? I doesn't matter if I'm at the depth of a long dark depression or of I'm actually feeling happy w life, I still don't want to be here.. anyone else feel like this? It is so weird, I wish I could u... | self.SuicideWatch |
My Sister Wants to Kill Herself Hey, I need help. My sister has been pulled out of college by my parents because she was drinking a lot and my parents are Christian. They love her, but she doesn't see it. She continues to sneak around and drink and do drugs at home and when she goes out with friends. She was caught a f... | self.SuicideWatch |
Can you restart your life at 30 and be successful? YES / NO and why? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Alone on a Friday night (as usual), nobody is home, drunk w/ snacks and a book that talks about Harry Potter and philosophy. Sound good to me | self.Anxiety |
My entire existence is a series of unfortunate events I identify with that book series because the kids in it have an endless stream of bad luck that never seems to end.This is my very first Reddit post ever & it may be a long post & I cant remember everything but I needed somewhere that wouldn't reject me.Life... | self.depression |
Can't decide whether to go to a doctor or not Just to give some background, I've felt pretty depressed for most of my adult/adolescent life (I'm 21 now) but have never felt able to talk to anyone about it (not even family or close friends). I have days where I'm in a slightly more positive mood, but generally I just f... | self.depression |
Everyone i've ever cared for or been loved by has fallen to mental illness. [deleted] | self.depression |
I want to kill myself I'll keep this brief but I'll respond if anyone asks anything.
I've hated myself for the past 10 years. I have no friends or anyone to talk to. I've been to numerous doctors who cannot help me. I just want to die and I'm getting closer to taking action myself because death isn't coming fast enoug... | self.SuicideWatch |
The only thing motivating me is my desire to commit suicide. For the bulk of my life I haven't been able to talk to those around me about my problems. In many ways, people like me are weak and malicious for wanting to put that on someone else but thankfully I've been put in my place more often than not. Instead of taki... | self.depression |
What do i do if i feel that im stupid? I'm forgetful and have a hard time multi-tasking. Am I stupid? Will my life consist of nothing but doing repetitive menial tasks for others? | self.Anxiety |
Feeling the hypomania creeping in Is this really the only way I can get things done around here?
I get one whiff of progress and now I want every inch of my life improved by a quantum leap. Cortisol, dopamine, idk. But I know no matter how much I do I won't get no satisfaction. | self.bipolar |
I feel like nobody else gets it, and I don't either. I am 12 and since I was 10 I've been feeling extremely depressed with sudden bouts of extreme sadness that I can't even explain. Everything that I once had attachments to, like friends, social life, games, etc. feels tedious and boring now. Don't worry, I am very mat... | self.SuicideWatch |
I don’t know where I’m headed and it scares me [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Paranoid or legitimate? I've removed a whole group of friends on social media because this new girl came in and stole them all. I'm trying to be rational because I've been kind of manic but she makes me so mad... they don't talk to me without prompting anymore and the new girl has me blocked. All they talk about is how... | self.bipolar |
I messed up at school i dont know what to do.
i messed up at school because i was too curious and i let my stupidity take over me.
out of curiosity, i wanted to know if the school showers worked considering my school is very old and stuff.
so, i pressed the on button and it turned on.
the sound of it turning on sta... | self.Anxiety |
Finding my way out. After two weeks of solid work (with only a couple periods of sleep lasting more than two hours) I'm trying to get some rest for a bit. This was definitely not healthy and I know now that as much as I enjoyed working with my cousin, I could not keep doing this.
But I can't seem to shake this idea th... | self.bipolar |
Embarrassed when depression wanes? 23F here. I have depression that comes in waves, and then recedes after maybe 6-9 months, with no warning and for no apparent reason. This has been going on since I was 18.
During these lows, I get suicidally depressed. I see the world through an incredibly negative filter until noth... | self.depression |
I was having a good day Then I opened Instagram and saw my crush with her boyfriend.
Why is it so painful? | self.depression |
Really rapid cycling I'm cycling sometimes a couple times a day now. It's rough. I don't know how I'm going to wake up the next day. All in a manageable range but I'm hitting every point from crying and sad to paranoid and anxious to a hypomania that led to two shopping trips. Manageable mostly but mentally tough. I ca... | self.bipolar |
Trying is hard Wife is in love with another man kids can't comprehend wife still wants me around I know I'm being used but hell a trigger is a trigger right | self.depression |
Anyone have experience switching from st. John's wort to an sSRI? I'm trying to decide whether its worth switching from St. John's Wort to an SSRI and I'm wondering whether anyone here has experience with both.
I've had moderate-to-severe GAD for a long time, along with perhaps some mild depression. I've largely been... | self.Anxiety |
First time posting, need help Hey guys, I’ve lurked for a while and I’m posting for the first time.
I’m not healthy mentally right now. My long term gf broke up with me about 2 months ago citing the fact that she didn’t love me anymore, didn’t want to spend the rest of her life with me, and all kinds of other horrible... | self.depression |
I'm bipolar 2 recently diagnosed. What do I need to know? | self.bipolar |
Why I've decided to keep on fighting, even if it seems so futile. https://imgur.com/a/VxDwF
So, I was rummaging through my folders to organise them since they're a mess. I found some things - On the left, is a note my mum mailed to me at the start of my first year of Uni as she knows how homesick I was, even though it... | self.depression |
My life is ruined Have a bf but i can't go out because of agoraphobia due to feeling ugly as fuck and scared of judgment. I was hot when I met him but idk life's a bitch. I have no. Friend group or people I Hang with... I'm rotting away in my apartment. The worlds moving on and I'm not. I'm scared cause everyday is. Lo... | self.SuicideWatch |
I am a waste of life, an oxygen thief I am such a terrible,awful and disgusting waste of a human life. I want to die more than I ever have. I am like a dark cloud that consumes and destroys everything and everyone it comes close to. I am evil and horrible. Tonight I made my boyfriend upset like I have most days for the... | self.SuicideWatch |
fuck this i go to school and absolutley hate it, all i do is think about different ways of killing myself. the only time im somewhat content is when im having a drink. i dont see a point in prolonging suffering when i could just end it all know. the only thing stopping me for the past couple of years is hurting my fami... | self.SuicideWatch |
My son woke up screaming......There was nothing I could do to help him. My son has childhood speech apraxia, he can say about 14 words. He woke up this morning at 4 a.m screaming. I attempt to comfort him and he ran away crying. I let him cry from about 10 minutes before trying to comfort him again. I struggle with thi... | self.offmychest |
Husband is officiating my SIL's wedding in two days and hasn't prepared anything. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
low energy, tired in the evening? im 20 is it normal for depression to make you sleepy? how do you cope with it? i dont want to sleep yet but my body does.. typing this on my laptop in bed | self.depression |
Ughhhh I’m super pissed, stressed. angry, sad. I just don’t want to go on anymore. :/ | self.depression |
I'd love to go back in time and fix my life Knowing what to do and not to do is the ultimate power. I guess it could get boring knowing exactly what's coming but I could fix everything and not be where I'm at today.
Punch bullies in their faces, prevent broken family relationships, be better equipped for the real worl... | self.depression |
It's getting tougher by the day, but always keep smiling! I am 20, can't drive, work at a very nice company, am forced to give most of my money from work to my father or debt collectors from my hospital visit, am in college full time, cant find love anywhere, and have none of my family that truly cares for me. I got di... | self.depression |
Does anyone else get anxiety about seeing their psychiatrist? I've been seeing the same psychiatrist for almost three years. I started seeing him when I went for anxiety issues related to my dad trying to commit suicide.
I have a hard time expressing my emotions and sometimes I feel like I'm going to see him just f... | self.depression |
I will never let a woman see my penis I hate it, honestly. It's either average or slightly below average length, but it's thin. So, so thin. I have a really difficult time maintaining an erection, and when it's flaccid, it's so small it's practically nonexistent. My balls are tiny, too. Hearing platitudes about how "si... | self.offmychest |
I made a new career move and I can’t stop freaking out... [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I'm killing myself if I fail the entrance exam for the school I'm applying to [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Is there an end to this tunnel? I am going to see about making an appointment to see my GP.
Even if I do not feel depressed in 6 months will it swing back around and carry on? I have read that it will always be with you?
I was thinking about creating so sort of dating sub reddit for people with depression just so t... | self.depression |
Sharing what I feel Hi everyone!
I hope my post is ok. I know there's so many people needing way more help than I do. But I just feel like sharing today.
I can say I've worked my ass off all my life. I'm a carpenter/roofer since 16 years old. I have been working mostly 40 to 60 hours a week since then .
People see ... | self.depression |
Why not kill myself ? Well I'm a high school senior gonna take my finals after 50 days i really need a very high result to get a scholarship to collage since no one will pay for my education ( no one is now I got a scholarship to high school ) I do think I'm smart and anything I'm really capable of getting that really ... | self.depression |
I can never push past the beginner phase of ANYTHING I pursue. Any hobby I put an interest in, it doesn't matter which, I can never get good at it. I've tried guitar, piano, harmonica, and I can learn the basics but when I get to advanced subjects I get stuck on them and can't muster the motivation to continue. I gave ... | self.depression |
Exhausted Four weeks from graduation, two weeks since I've fallen behind. Two weeks since I've turned in any assignments, have gone to class, have left this room. The thoughts live and breathe here, taking away from the little energy I have left.
His smile helps, but only if he's around. Weed helps, but only to get th... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm avoiding my friends I went to school but it was too hard to keep smiling so I came back home. I tried my best to not cry and I did it but I cut instead. My friends called me but I didn't answer. They knocked at my door but I didn't answer. They sent me a message and I decided to answer. "Are you okay?"
Of course, ... | self.depression |
Everyday recently feels like a ‘Will I? Won’t I?’ Feels so frivilous and like a burst of courage could do it. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Twitching due to anxiety Is it just me or do I twitch more when I’m anxious? I twitch a little but when I’m not anxious (not sure why) but man oh MAN, when I’m anxious. It’s insane. Anyone else experience this shit? | self.Anxiety |
My life is spiraling out of control. All in one morning. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I don’t know why but I think when I was young I had a voice inside telling me to do bad things to myself. The earliest I can remember of this was when I was 5. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
College / need advice How do you guys deal with your anxiety when it comes to school?
I just started a new college and feel like my anxiety has gotten 100x worse to the point it has made me physically ill. I get so scared and anxious just even thinking about going.
Last semester I eventually stopped going to school ... | self.Anxiety |
We took a break but it's ok My current boyfriend (23) and I (21) decided to take a break. We have been at eachothers throats for a while now and i have been yelling at him for a while. TRUTHFULLY, this has been a good decision even if I'm so broken right now. Since our break started we told eachother we wouldn't talk b... | self.offmychest |
No, I don't have a girlfriend. Please stop asking. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
(Tw: existential and philosophi panic) i posted this on mmfb last night and i haven't gotten any answers yet. I'm really disturbed and i need Somebody to convince me not to worry [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I don't want to be alive anymore. I can't stop thinking about my baby. He would've been one years old come the 15th. I hate myself so much for how I've handled this past year.
I completely screwed up everything in my life and ruined all of the relationships I had. I have nothing going for me anymore.
I've had plans... | self.SuicideWatch |
“Be Normal for once.” (18, M)
Recently, I’ve been stressed. I have a lot on at college and a lot of personal problems which have all piled up and in turn made me feel quite stressed, which is normal for my age.
Every time I try and speak to my mum about things, I receive the same answers. “Go and get a job to take yo... | self.offmychest |
"Bad" coping mechanisms worked better than whatever I'm doing now. I don't drink daily, get waisted, cut, overeat, or do drugs anymore and yet I seem more like a broken person now than I ever did. I should probably focus on school and getting into college or something, but I really don't care about that. I'm just a laz... | self.depression |
I'm done, I'm just done. I'm tired of trying to be happy, trying to better myself, "putting myself out there". No one cares about me in this world - honestly the only people who actually have had a positive impact on me are you guys (thank you). UGHGHGHGH | self.depression |
I know it doesn't sound right but I can't take depressed young people seriously I am mid late twenties and whenever I see a teenager or an early twenties ranting about their lives or about their depression my blood boils because I feel that they have a future, they are still young, they have the world ahead of them. I ... | self.depression |
Recent graduate too anxious to face real life I’m 23, a recent graduate and got accepted at job that will help me start my career. Everyone is excited except me. I realized that this is not what I want to do for the rest of my life. I just feel pressured to have my life together. I feel so lost. I’m used to the student... | self.Anxiety |
Tomorrow is my birthday and I don't feel excited. I'm hurting on the inside and want it all to go away. | self.depression |
My parents might be alcoholic I live in a country where drinking is, let's say, quite popular? Not like everyone is walking drunk around here, but you know, vodka is a must on the christmas table for most of the families. You have guests over for a dinner? You need vodka.
But I think that my parents have a problem. My... | self.offmychest |
Whats the average age of suicide for guys ? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Stupid argument I can’t get over I am severely obese with 80 pounds to lose. We are out of town at an air bnb and there is no food in the house that I eat. I’m a vegetarian. This morning I asked if anyone wanted to walk a mile to IHOP for breakfast and no one did. Fine.
Now it is lunch time and people are asking if I... | self.bipolar |
I so want to just give up and move on from this So my doctor has decided to discharge me after seeing me for about 6 months, making the admission that he hasn’t been able to help me as much as would have been right. We tried lithium, Lamotrigine, Seroquel, and Latuda. I’m still going to continue on Lithium and Latuda. ... | self.bipolar |
My awful ex bf and his awful ex gf, from whom I contracted a host of STDs, are good friends again and tell me to 'get over' the ongoing medical conditions I am now left to deal with. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Feeling lonely Hello, I have been struggling with depression for quite some time now but have not gotten the help I need due to parents not thinking that depression is a real thing. I am very unhappy and do not have many friends... the ones I do have do not understand me and I feel very alone. How can I make more frien... | self.depression |
I might spend new years eve alone.. Last year i spent it alone.. I dont know it sucks. And i dont know what to do either, if i wait for someone to invite me, no one will invite me | self.offmychest |
Sorry to bother I'm suicidal, I have a gun and I want to die. All my family is dead. Everyone hates me. I want to die. Why should I live? | self.SuicideWatch |
Thank you for breaking up with me I was infatuated.
I thought we were in love.
I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with you.
I thought the extreme jealousy and controlling tendencies were normal.
They weren’t.
You broke up with me, and it killed me.
I thought I should just give up on life.
Well, ... | self.offmychest |
Transition So I don't want to go to any of my friends because I feel like most of them are feeling similarly to some of my issues and I don't want to stress them out, and I also know that they simply won't relate to some of my other issues so I don't want to go to them.
Pretty much I've just graduated high school (NSW... | self.offmychest |
GUYS I have a friend who is considering suicide on discord, I do not know them in real life, and I am doing my best at the moment to help them. Any suggestions? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Graduate next week... No jobs lined up, no idea what I'm gonna do... Starve I guess... | self.depression |
What is wrong with me? Lately I’ve felt very low on self confidence. Not like I usually have a ton, but every time something doesn’t go my way or changes I react terribly. Sometimes I have to fight back tears over silly things. I also have begun to think of worst case scenarios in my life and relationships. I’m beginni... | self.depression |
I fucking hate this Posting this on r/bpd as well. Been talking to a girl for about a week now. Had a phenomenal easy comfortable first date, I felt like there was a real connection. So of course I disclosed and she has since disappeared. She also said *jokingly* that she's happy I told her now before I destroyed her l... | self.depression |
Just starting on Buspar I’ve wrestled with anxiety for years. Lately I’ve been having panic attacks for the first time in years with shortness of breath and dry coughing. And the fear of having an attack is not helping my general mental state.
I’ve been off and on Xanax for years. Just starting Buspar today. Is there ... | self.Anxiety |
Holiday season I have pretty bad depression as it is but when the holidays come around it’s worse. I have a lot of trauma from the holidays as kid involving some shit with my family. I tried to tell my girlfriend but she gets mad at me for “being negative” and that it’s “immature”. How can I try and seem cheerful aroun... | self.depression |
i dont feel like myself i dont know if i have a mental issuie or not, my mind is not mine. i dont feel depressed or suicidal but i dont feel like myself, i feel the need to make htese fake personalities that are real to me, they are real to me and i need them to feel happy and fufilled.
my post history is littered wit... | self.SuicideWatch |
start the year off right? why bother starting the year off right. why start the year off at all. i don’t want to do this anymore. and i don’t think i want to do it all over again for yet another year. i made it to 19 but i don’t think i want to do this any longer. i can’t. im exhausted and i’ve hit rock bottom and i’m ... | self.depression |
I totally froze and now I can’t stop thinking about it. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I am 25, I'm worthless and I feel like my life is over [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Please help am I contradicting myself? I just need people understanding. I dunno what happened to myself? Sometimes I see myself talking with Ellen Degeneres. And sometimes more often then ever when inferiority strikes in I will keep on hating myself. Last night I have dreamt about quarreling with my anxiety mother, wh... | self.depression |
fuck my family right now i'm pissed now i discovered that my family has been reading my posts in reddit and probably tumblr and say that i shouldn’t do that because "people here are psychotics who tell you to kill your own family or yourself"
lol i’m changing all my passwords and i changed my tumblr url i am so pisse... | self.depression |
I’m ending it in about an hour I’m going to be taking a mixture of psychotic medications and antidepressants. My life went down the drain when I️ was six,and has only gotten worse.
I️ don’t deserve to exist,I’m not even supposed to exist,I️ was born of a crime.I️ am nothing.never have been,never will be. I’ve gone to t... | self.SuicideWatch |
parents give me anxiety I️ feel bad even saying this, but both of my parents make me anxious (in different ways). I️ currently live with my mom (I’m 27f) and she’s a lovely person who I️ like being around. But she’s constantly muttering under her breath, sighing, grunting, talking out loud to herself or the dog. These ... | self.Anxiety |
I'm lonely I'm lonely IRL and I wish my online boyfriend was with me in person. I'm a College student, looking for a job right now and even when I try making friends at school everybody just short talks me or the previous girl I tried making friends with only asks about homework and doesn't text me anymore so I quit te... | self.offmychest |
Welp, got my official diagnosis! BP-NOS.
Truthfully, I'm over the moon. I've been tracking my moods for 60 days and while I have never had a two-week long major depressive episode, I've also never crested the worst of BP1 mania, though it has become debilitating at times and I've been more hyperaroused than I could ha... | self.bipolar |
Seroquel and Anxiety I was diagnosed with bipolar last week (type inspecified) and put on 100mg Seroquel XR. Since then, it's made me unbelievably anxious. It makes me tired but I have trouble sleeping because I'm anxious all night and it's been a challenge for me to leave my house. I saw my doctor yesterday and he wan... | self.bipolar |
"When everyday is Halloween for you, because your life is a living nightmare" is a quote I connect way too much with. | self.bipolar |
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