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I feel like no one wants me around, even when I get invited to events [deleted] | self.depression |
Job anxiety -> severe depression I've been looking for a new job for about a year. Some interviews happened, but ultimately nothing concrete. Friday is my third year work anniversary, and I'm dreading every second of it. Most people in my role don't stay beyond two years; everyone I started with is long gone. This w... | self.depression |
Things are getting better Sure, my worries about net neutrality are still here, but i just got my first girlfriend, well we're going on dates at least. My friends also haven't abandoned. I don't want to make anyone feel bad, but know life could throw some good things your way! | self.depression |
A mystery I’ve been wanting to solve I have no idea why do I have such passion in hating myself. I’ve never despised anyone as much as I despise myself no matter how badly they’ve wronged me. I just wish my head would just stop doing this to myself.
I am so so so so tired of being a liability to the people around me. ... | self.offmychest |
Saw an ad on reddit offering help, what was the name of it? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
It's always the ones I can't have I don't know why, really, but I tend to crush or fall in love with all the untouchables. The radio announcer, the hetero best friend, the gay cute boy, the married friend of a friend... the last two: the lovely teacher who treats ME like she has a crush (or not, maybe? I never have nor... | self.offmychest |
Day one back at work After being in work 4 hours and 45 minutes i finally get my first break. My supervisor is actually making me more anxious than I actually am. She keeps asking if I'm alright and patting me on the back
I don't like being touched.
My coworkers keep asking if I'm alright, everyone else asks if I had... | self.Anxiety |
opinions? i’m feeling so empty tonight. it’s 2.17AM, all i did yesterday was sleep. i woke up at 10, went back to sleep, woke up at 2, went back to sleep, woke up at 4 and went back to sleep. now i can’t fall asleep anymore.
anyway, i have school later at 7.30AM and i really don’t see it in me to sit through lectures... | self.depression |
Does anyone else dread going to work in the morning? Not because you hate your job, but something in your mind is telling you that tomorrow is going to be terrible? I find myself in the same exact situation every time I find myself a new job. I dread going to work. Every. Single. Night.
No no. Not because the job its... | self.depression |
I crave for physical touch. And not in a sexual kind of way. More like in a "I care for you and understand you, fellow human being" kind of way. | self.depression |
How do I cry for help? I’ve already told my mom, a friend, and a school colleague that I wish I’d get hit bus or not wake up, they all said why and I said cause it wouldn’t matter. They said I mattered to them and all that shit, but neither the friend or the colleague have opened themselves up to me or tried to do anyt... | self.SuicideWatch |
Got some noise canceling headphones for Xmas Now I can hear my family fight 95% quieter!. Jokes aside, this Christmas has really taken it’s toll on me. I cannot fucking stand being around my jackass dad and brother, not to mention one of my grandmothers is a kleptomaniac and is constantly stealing our valuables every t... | self.depression |
Good anxiety about getting a dog Hey guys,
This sub has helped so much with my anxiety and I wanted to share good anxiety with you. In 3 hours I will be going to meet a dog that needs a foster home. My heart is on edge. I've been missing a piece of my heart with out a dog. I know it's temporary but my mind is racing. ... | self.Anxiety |
Can't sleep. Can't wake up. First time writing here or anywhere about my problems and as a realist I assume this will be lost in annuals of reddit. I will write this in a rant style or free flow because my mind currently is complete mess. Filled with absurdity and contradictions. I've lost common sense many years ago.
... | self.depression |
Science of bipolar It's whacky to imagine how much things will change in 10, 50, 100 and even 500 years from now. People will think of bipolar so differently, if they even think of that word at all. Not long ago we were believed to have evil spirits invading our brains. People drilled holes in our skulls and poured alc... | self.bipolar |
I'm scared of suicide, ( I don't want to commit suicide.) I have a fear of death and knives. I have intrusive thoughts, but I'm not suicidal. Your thoughts?
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My big anxiety induced mouth I’m about to have surgery and my boss says HR needs a doctors note if I’ll be gone more than 3 days. She tells me this today, the eve of my surgery. I totally become reactive and act like an asshole!! I think I’m a little extra due to stress. I’m so embarrassed.... I apologized but FML! Why... | self.Anxiety |
I don’t think I will survive because my family and friends have been jaded by me expressing my pain for so long I have told people I want to die. That I am in horrible pain. I also tell them I don’t think I am going to kill myself. Because I don’t think anywhere in the nearest future I will. But I am scared I won’t mak... | self.bipolar |
I overthink all my bad choices I’ve made throughout my life and then I evaluate my life in this moment and get worried that I’m making more bad choices in the present | self.Anxiety |
I am broken and every time I pick up a piece from the ground, another falls from my arms. My name is [insert dude name here] and I am a 25-year-old who has found himself struggling with depression. To be completely honest with you, I have no one to talk to about my problems. I’ve been using Tumblr to vent, but it hasn... | self.depression |
Feeling so much better from the last time I've posted here 4 months ago, I felt so down. I felt as if someone put gravity on the highest level and I was bringing pulled into that ground. Constant thoughts of suicide followed me everywhere. Work, school, when I was alone at night. I knew how bad it was getting and how b... | self.SuicideWatch |
My girlfriend is coming over to my house and my anxiety just kicked in. What do I do? Of course my parents are gonna be there but my girlfriend and I are also gonna have privacy. I’m nervous and I have no idea why. How do I calm down? | self.Anxiety |
Minecraft Life Videos Those fucking videos on YouTube of "Minecraft Life", why do I hate it so much?
There's all these fucking videos with like wolves getting shot in the fucking stomach and people think it's sad. Yeah, no. It's a minecraft video I don't think it's worth anything.
I see them everywhere, and once one pe... | self.offmychest |
Living takes too much effort to maintain, dying takes too much effort to do. Title. | self.SuicideWatch |
Do you ever feel so lonely your chest physically hurts? | self.SuicideWatch |
i feel a lump on the upper back of my neck i think it's a lymph node... I guess I can save money on a gun for suicide, cause I might be dying of a terminal illness. Life is a constant kick in the dick for me isn't it? | self.depression |
Even trying to work is difficult I can’t focus on my job without my mind feeling like this isn’t worth it and that it’s pointless and that I’m pointless. I hate this so much. It just makes getting through the day that much harder | self.depression |
Feel like a failure Do any of you ever wish if things were different. If people could see you in a different light. If you could be a better version of yourselves that you wish to be.
What if you find out that this is what you'll always be for the rest of your life. What if whatever you could be, can not be any more. ... | self.depression |
What have you found to be the most effective friend simulator? i.e. movies/tv shows/websites/podcasts that make you feel less alone and more connected with the human race. | self.depression |
I hate my job, I hate my classes, I hate my university plans, I hate myself. Nothing in my life is enjoyable, I'm only ever happy when I'm with my friends but they're all almost off to university, or are hard at work studying and I can't keep bothering them. I can't even be content with my job because I find it so mund... | self.depression |
I feel like talking - anyone there? I don't have anyone that I can have a good deep talk with right now; there's no-one I feel like sharing with, as I don't trust people. So I guess it is insane to talk blindly into the internet to a group of strangers. But hey, why not throw something out there? | self.depression |
I'm just pissed I have a lot of anxiety and I keep ignoring it and fighting it every single day... I keep getting bad news and mess up all the time even though I try my very best to succeed and to make people proud of me. This I have been trying to do for last 6 years and yet again I get beaten down with bad news and a... | self.Anxiety |
Selling my body to pay my debts I am 21. My birthday was monday. And I want to kill myself. I hate it here.
I have been thinking of killing myself for years. I had one attempt 4 years ago where I just kept taking pills from the medicine cabinet over and over for a week straight. I got super sick but didnt die. My fam... | self.SuicideWatch |
Mania Story and Mania Guilt Tldr: lost my job, house and fiancee to depression and then mania at 29
Found out last August that I have bipolar when my actions resulted in legal consequences and a two week hospital stay a 6 hour drive from my hometown.
I experienced my first major depression episode last winter from No... | self.bipolar |
I missed out on the high school experience I'm now finishing up my senior year of high school. I just heard some kids from my school going around telling stories of things they've done - times they drank too much, or had sex in weird places, etc. - and it made me realize I've just done absolutely nothing for the past ... | self.depression |
I hit a cars side mirror, panicked and left. Now I'm freaking out [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Come back dad Another Christmas without you, I try to pretend like it doesn’t hurt but I really fucking miss u, almost 8 years since you moved to Texas, come back, I need you and I love you.
Merry Christmas everyone | self.depression |
Im a little teapot (M 27) So I decided to make tea for the first time in a long time. I have been a pretty regular coffee drinker but I have been looking for other options recently.
Now, I have been singing "I'm a little teapot" loud and enthusiastically all day. I am a 27 year old male.
...here is my handle, here i... | self.offmychest |
What helped me out of the hole. I was suicidally depressed, and was having anxiety attacks all day. My gf broke up with me, I felt under pressure from school. I didnt like my job or coworkers. After a while I was like fuck depression, I'm not gonna sit here and let it fucking beat me down. I'm stronger than it! I'm not... | self.depression |
Bipolar I with ADHD medications I know there's been some recent threads about Bipolar with co-morbid ADHD. I hope this isn't too much of a repost.
I was treated for what I thought was solely ADHD for roughly 10 years by the same doctor before I went back to school and the lack of sleep combined with Adderall triggered... | self.bipolar |
I wish I could stop dreaming about her... Long story short...went through some tough online breakup a few months ago, the whole distant relationship lasted for around 2 years with a lot of hopes and dreams... until I just couldn't take it anymore.
It's been extremely difficult for me to cope with all this, and on top ... | self.depression |
Update: I'm 23 and dying and not sure how to cope with it [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Too scared/unable to get help I know there's a lot wrong with me but I always hesitated in getting real help because 1. It will hinder my work (which is stupid because in the long term if I get worse, I wouldn't be able to work anyway) 2. It is very costly and lastly 3. Where I live, having problems with mental health ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I lost control over my thoughts last night Last night I got really suicidal for the first time. In my mind I really wanted to die and it seemed like a valid and real option. Normally I would have a voice in my head that tells me that it's someone else that is thinking this. But this time the voice wasn't there. I got r... | self.depression |
Conversations with shallow, unoriginal people I have to go through every single day [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I am in such poor health and I've given up and just want to end it [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Cops So I gave my future ex wife my final letter. I came home to get by things in order. Cops showed up. I gave them this bullshit excuse and pretended everything was fine. I changed my mind. I just left home. I'm still killing myself tonight. I had to say whatever I.had to say to get them away from me. | self.SuicideWatch |
A journal entry I wrote a few weeks ago about my depression and anxiety. Figured I would share. Hope someone can relate. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Just want to OD I've never done drugs. I just.. I'm a ball of numbness surrounding a ball of sadness surrounding a ball of ahame, etc. It's all bad feelings all the way down. I'm hoping I can get my hands on some H, and then OD so I die. I've been craving doing drugs for a few months. Just so I can feel something. I'm ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Meds. Therapy. Fucking 7 rounds of ECT. Nothing works. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Seroquel (quetiapine)? I just started quetiapine last week (100 mg/d, 1 hour before bed). My overall energy has improved, I'm sleeping a natural amount (down from about twelve a night), and I have the motivation to pursue and finish tasks.
However. The previous three nights I've experienced what feels like hypomania f... | self.bipolar |
i have a weird wallpaper on my iphone i have a picture of kin jung un clapping as my wallpaper i dont know why i have it and every time i try to change it im like eh | self.offmychest |
Mental Health Most people worry about Thanksgiving dinner because their crazy uncle might say something politically incorrect. Everybody's family is crazy, I know. Except mine is a little different.
My brother is living with my parents and battling what we think might be paranoid schizophrenia. You see, we dont know f... | self.offmychest |
Horrible incestuous abuse from my childhood has me wanting to die. Can you help me? When I was younger I did something bad. When I was 13-14 I had a cousin who would do things like sit on my lap a lot, in a seemingly sexual way. She would sit directly in the center of my lap, not lounging but sitting there just to sit ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I've tried asking nicely I'm going through a lot of gender issues that started roughly 2 years ago (I'm 19 now). My friends know about this, but when I asked for them to stop calling me the name they do and use a more ambiguous 'Em' (or M, it depends), they told me it's "too difficult" so they'll keep calling me an ove... | self.offmychest |
is suicide justified If you are evil, ugly, insane, untalented, pompous, immature, a privileged whiner who doesn't want to change their ways and it's impossible for you to love other people? Hitler should've done it earlier, right?
I think I'm "that person". The kind you meet and know immediately to steer clear of. I ... | self.SuicideWatch |
In reality,Japan would be a rather nice place to die in,wouldn't it? [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Reading about other people's relationship problems makes me appreciate my relationship more I read a lot of relationship and advice stuff on Reddit and come across a lot of people talking about their abusive relationships or otherwise shitty relationships. I'm not enjoying their pain, in fact, I feel really awful for t... | self.offmychest |
Why is swiflie full of assholes? I swear you post any questions on there for advice and 75% of answers come from trolling assholes. Almost nobody is helpful on that app. | self.offmychest |
I don't know why I post here All my posts just get lost and downvoted. I guess I can't even rant about being depressed right. | self.depression |
I want to try therapy, but I need some advice. When I was in middle and high school, my school asked my parents to take me to therapy because I had some pretty severe social problems. I had a really hard time talking to them at all, let alone opening up about my problems (see: pretty severe social problems) so most of ... | self.depression |
I just ruined my husband's birthday. So my husband turned 28 today. It's his first birthday since we got married, his first birthday in years when all our friends can hang out, he has the day off, we have our own place, and generally everything is good. Only problem is that this morning I woke up with my mania coming t... | self.bipolar |
Breakout last night, too much stress at work My employer is currently going through something like an identity crisis. We got acquired by our competitor and both companies do stuff differently, totally like in opposite directions.
Now, the mother company is taking control. It's very hard especially that the middle man... | self.bipolar |
Suicide seems so tempting? Why do I feel like such please? First off I’m not depressed(well I don’t think I am?). Whenever life feels so tiring and painful I always imagine different ways of how I kill myself(most of the time). At school when I see different methods I could kill myself with different equipment I don’t ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I didn’t get accepted. I am 25 and was a cosmetologist before I moved to a new state to live with my fiancée. I decided I’d go back to college so I can get medical insurance and benefits for me and him where he also works as a barber.
I didn’t get accepted into any programs at my school though, and will be graduating ... | self.Anxiety |
Question to people who were on Paxil, had sexual side effects, and then discontinued the medication Do the sexual side effects go away once you stop the medication? I'm having a lot of difficulty ejaculating and my sensitivity is greatly decreased. Overall, my sex life is very unsatisfying.
I had an appointment with m... | self.bipolar |
Medicaid Work Requirement For those of you like me are in Kentucky, unable to work, and on Medicaid, I found this today, “For the sake of illustration, it is useful to look at the examples provided by Iowa Medicaid in its November 2013 final definition5 of medically frail which emphasized medical diagnoses and degrees ... | self.bipolar |
I've had everything I wanted. Girls. Money. Being in fancy hotels. Friends. Traveling. Fancy food. Beautiful hookers. Weed. Name it. I have everything I need that builds a relationship.
But I can't love. Help please......... | self.depression |
You don't want me. And why would you? I'm not like you. You like clubbing and drinking and dancing to music that I found to be very lame. And me? I like quiet nights and rainy days and walking and just talking to you. We're different people. Yet I still want to spend time with you. I want to know you and I would like m... | self.offmychest |
Nobody Will Miss Me When I’m Gone I used to think that by dying I’d get my revenge on the world, that people would be sad for having mistreated me all my life and would regret it when I’m gone. But now I know that isn’t true - I could disappear tomorrow and no one would ever know. | self.depression |
Failed and I have to leave—I’m not sure what I’ll do Hi guys.
I recently found out I failed an online calculus I class after putting off checking my grades for two weeks. I’m still living with my parents, but this messes everything up for me. My chance of getting scholarships or the universities I want are zilch sinc... | self.SuicideWatch |
Im always too scared of the future. An Indian would probably understand this more than anyone else.
I recently finished my final year of school(non-medical) and now i have to choose a college to go to.
The problem is, i severely fucked up my JEE mains(which is the most important engineering entrance exam in india), and... | self.depression |
Thank you. I have had a hard couple of years and depression has taken over. While I really feel for you all it's comforting to know I'm not the only one.
My wife died just over a year ago. There's still an argument as to weather the hospital killed her or the cancer. A number of health professionals feel it was the ho... | self.depression |
"so uh how exactly are you depressed?" "like you have a big house, a pc, friends, etc"
WOWO MAYBE DEPRESSION HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH SOCIO-ECONOMIC STATUS? Crazy thought right | self.depression |
Help. I just found this. URGENT. https://np.reddit.com/r/2mad4madlads/comments/7j8z4t/im_so_mad_im_posting_a_picture_of_nothing_someone/?st=JB3A8VNA&sh=7f3f5f88
I just found this but I’m not equipped to deal with it. | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm not even that good at the only thing I'm good at. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Feeling very anxious/restless tonight for no reason. Anyone else experience this? | self.Anxiety |
She said she wouldnt leave me I said I would always fight for her [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Fuck yeah I found a way to kill myself really easily in my own room. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
After 7 Months Of Searching And Joblessness, I Began A New Job In September. Last Night, I Suddenly Rage Quit. :/ Yeah...
This wasn't a perfect job, but considering what I was doing and the pay, it was pretty decent. However, I had issues with several assistant managers and such (two of them) who were apparently "cun... | self.Anxiety |
I made so many suicide jokes that people around me also started joking about me killing myself I make jokes about killing myself all the time. In school, around my friends, everywhere. It calms me down a bit whenever I actually want to kill myself.
But I've actually made so many jokes about suicide that my classmates ... | self.depression |
Help me find this Chinese proverb about a rich man telling a homeless to "just eat meat" if he can't buy rice. [deleted] | self.depression |
I've got about a week left im gonna preface this by saying km happy with my life, however i've decided to end it soon. I'm just tired of living if that makes any sense, and don't really have anyone to live for. | self.SuicideWatch |
Question for those who have been in a relationship with a depressed partner I don't know what it's like to be the one who had to listen to me whine. I thought I'd get some perspective.
For those who have had to deal with the negativity of their partner. To listen to them talk and complain. What's it like?
I've alway... | self.depression |
why do i always come back to feeling this way?? I reunited with an ex who I care about deeply and I learned that he had a recent suicide attempt. Seeing the person who was so strong for me be at their weakest has made me feel absolutely hopeless. He pulled me out of my darkest times and I owe him my life... It upsets m... | self.SuicideWatch |
Sleeping with Anxiety I have GAD with a couple panic attacks here and there. Probably around 9pm I always get anxious,not sure why although I read somewhere it’s a common time to become anxious. So, from 9-12 my thoughts are running wild, so I normally stay up until 12 because I’m too anxious to sleep any earlier, I ha... | self.Anxiety |
Fallen off the horse... again... I have had depression for a long time now but after a significantly bad episode 2 years ago I made a hell of a lot of changes to my life and my life has changed and improved dramatically. I moved to a different country, I have a well paid and although demanding, good career. On Thursday... | self.depression |
30 minute daily walk while listening to audio books is helping improve my mood and energy levels. [removed] | self.depression |
I like my life until i'm a 100% honest with myself [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Honestly I would prefer my parents get divorced. They don't even speak to each other. I end up being their middleman in this arrangement I never agreed to.
But fucking Asian parenting. | self.depression |
This is the first year I didnt care about Christmas [deleted] | self.depression |
i can't breathe and i need someone to talk to me any help is greatly appreciated i don't want to be alone right now | self.Anxiety |
Welcome to the new moderators! We're very happy to announce that /u/Reaper_of_Souls and /u/Darcimay have joined the moderator team!
We were very fortunate to have so many good candidates to choose from - we thought that pretty much everyone would have been a good fit. In the event that we need a new mod in the future,... | self.bipolar |
Does anyone else go into hysterical crying spells when manic? I feel the racing thoughts, the superiority complex, the insane levels of productivity, the need to be Doing Something Always, but I will go into fucking hysterical suicidal crying spells randomly. They're not even sad, it just feels like a bunch of pent up ... | self.bipolar |
I hurt someone today. I was supposed to hang out with one of the best friends I've ever had on her birthday today, but because of poor choices I made this weekend I didn't feel up to it. This sucks, I cannot fix this, the damage is done.
I don't like hurting people but ironically it seems I'm very good it. I wish I... | self.depression |
I'm losing my will to remain "ethic", and longer believe in free will. Suicide is the only optimal option for me before I hurt someone. Help didn't make it better, it only made me understand just how bad my situation is. 16 years of help, so I think we can toss the "get help" or "call the suicide hotline" options out o... | self.SuicideWatch |
I want to give up but I don't have that option. Back in August my little brother hung himself. Just a couple of weeks after my birthday. And what they say about the risk of suicide feels true because today I woke up after a heart-breaking night and all I want to do is die. But he took that option from me. I want to hur... | self.SuicideWatch |
I quit my job I got fired from my favorite job. It wasn’t anyone’s fault it was just a misunderstanding. I got hired and then I got fired again this time “no real reason. Sorry it’s just not working out”
Today I started another job and I hated it so much I left and told him I got a call back from another better place.... | self.offmychest |
I feel like there is a void behind my chest that is dampening my emotions. I wish I knew which words to use to explain what I feel, but I'm not even sure what that is.
For the first time in my life, I'm feeling so tired that I did not manage to do anything productive today. Even writing this text feels like a task I h... | self.depression |
I'm done I think tonight I will do it.
I am done with this bullshit. I am just so lonely it's seriously insane. Imagine being LONELY 100% by yourself for 7 years. I don't mean being lonely but having a GF, friends and family. I mean 100% lonely. I can't even connect with people online. Oh yes. If you are a man and you ... | self.SuicideWatch |
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