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Dead Inside I’m at the point where I’m past sadness
I just feel empty or hollow.
I go through the motions of life everyday but I’m not present .
I’m supposed to be getting better but I’m becoming something much worse and I live in my head all the time. I can’t care about anyone anymore and I certainly don’t care about ... | self.depression |
Depressed and anxious, can I talk to someone please? I have an important uni exam in a few hours and I can't study because I'm so anxious and depressed. I'm so tired, I just want to give up, I'm stupid as hell and uni seems pointless. Plus for some reason I have this horrible feeling that something bad will happen, my ... | self.depression |
therapist said she isn't able to help me So I went to see a therapist cause I was close to killing myself and i told her about how my scars were bothering me and she basically told me she can't fix my scars so I guess i'm fucked? Life is fucking miserable living as a monster in the world simply because I have scars tha... | self.SuicideWatch |
I wish i could dredge up Something, Anything. My mother is yelling, screaming at me, and i don't yell back because none of it matters
My sister is sobbing, her heart broken. I force myself to hug her because it's what i know i *should* do.
I stretch for those feelings, I fake it. Some part of me hoping that somehow t... | self.depression |
When struggling with depression, it better to ask for help or not have to rely on others and learn how to deal with your it on your own? | self.depression |
Heelp I feel like I'm being bullied
no -- I feel like..
idk!!
https://www.reddit.com/r/aspergers/comments/7kdgp3/seems_like_i_cant_do_stuff/
the replies here.
and then looking at the stuff like this after I clicked on the links there and seeing my older threads https://www.reddit.com/r/aspergers/comments/76g1aq/no... | self.depression |
Posting this here as it correlates more with this subreddit (check my previous 2 posts for more context) Oof that's a long title. Anyway, I am going to my first group therapy session tomorrow (I have quite bad social anxiety). Then after that session, I'm going to meet someone from when I was back at school (I'm 20 now... | self.Anxiety |
My Experience Of Depression, I Want To Share And Maybe Get Advice. Im 15, but i had depression and anxiety since i was 4-5 years old, i know how to control my feelings and frankly i never do illegal stuff like my friends do(drugs and etc.) and i never hurt myself but recently my feelings are being too heavy on me. I t... | self.depression |
The Giver I feel like I'm a crutch for my friends. They all have such disabilitating mental problems and it's not like I DON'T, but mine isn't as bad. I pretend to be happy and content for them, because I don't want to add to their problems and I want to be a good friend, but I feel like I'm going under recently and I'... | self.depression |
Down on life, I really screw up a lot of things. I’m not sure where to put this. I’ve been feeling really really down lately. I have absolutely no reason too. I have a great job and I just recently got married.
I have a problem, I have lied in the past to my current wife, but we have been together for over 4 years. I... | self.SuicideWatch |
Does food make anyone else nervous? Sometimes when I'm really hungry and order or make something I get nervous when it's in front of me and can't eat anymore. I can be starving and if I see a huge plate of food, my stomach cramps up and I'll eat 2 or 3 bites. Does this happen to anyone else? | self.Anxiety |
Just one person to talk to. Hey. Im in pretty hopeless depression since mid-2016.
Is there anyone who i could talk with here? I don't even need to talk about my problems. Just talking to someone. | self.depression |
I hate you, I hate your family, get out of my store and die in a fire. PLOX. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
What do you listen to, to cope with depression? I've been listening to Lo-fi and it's helping me with loneliness(quite ironic) and I would like to know what do you guys listen to to cope or to soothe your pain?
In case you wonder the songs I've been listening to:
Růde - eternal youth
Kudasai - the girl I havent met
... | self.SuicideWatch |
Tactis to deal with anxiety that have proven successful? What successful tactics have you learned to use when you are having anxiety whether it's a huge anxiety attack or just moments where you feeling a little anxiety? | self.Anxiety |
How can I put up with toxic parents better? I'm a nutjob, and I get it from my parents. I had issues with mental illness to the point that I had to withdraw from classes. My parents said I was a failure and told me I was getting kicked out the house. Well yesterday I'm able to bring my first girlfriend to thanksgiving ... | self.depression |
How has anxiety/ depression effected your sex drive? And has it become and issue for you? I have random bouts of up and downs. I am on meds though, so that much I can understand. But for those who are not, how has it effected you? | self.Anxiety |
The newest worker at my job got promoted and she has not once cared about work. I cannot sleep over it so I figured I'd rant.
She obtained this job about 2 months ago, and it took her about a month to even start caring to do anything at all. I found out she has a relative who works higher up in the company, which is h... | self.offmychest |
I Feel So Stupid. I Think He Wanted To Have A Sext Buddy Or Someone To Fall In Love With Him To Feed His Big Fat Ego .>:O
Idk but something was definitely up. | self.offmychest |
My first post ever (Maybe someone will read this?) [deleted] | self.depression |
I don't know how to fix myself I feel like I've been going through the motions for a long time. Just the motions. I feel like I almost don't know how to be happy.
I don't think i go a week without crying and then I just feel stupid because I cried. I want to know what it feels like to be truly happy. I don't know i... | self.depression |
If I don’t feel depressed I feel empty. When I’m not feeling depressed I just feel void of emotion. | self.depression |
Dear Sorrow Dear Sorrow,
Today I am a frown. A sallow and sunken brow.
Grief returns to me, and all I may do, as I have always done, is reflect on my penitence. As usual, the only place where my reticence dies is in the comfort, if you like, of my own abjection. I am all at once a young boy again but with all the d... | self.depression |
Thought about/Help with Online Therapy I’ve been struggling with depression and anxiety (and most likely something else) for the past ~seven years and it has debilitated me and messed up a lot of my life. I have intense anxiety and whenever i go to a therapist i usually end up lying and not being honest, i’ve had one t... | self.depression |
What happens if you get caught committing suicide by the police? Also I'm 16, so will they tell my parents? Thank you | self.SuicideWatch |
My sister is depressed. I have a history of depression. I have no clue how to help her. How can that be? I feel like a failure right now.
backstory:
I was planning going to a community college for this semester. This is my sister's first semester. She's having a very hard time leaving behind this horse barn that sh... | self.depression |
Always have, Always will I love you A. Always have always will, nothing will change that. Ever. I'm about to go see you but it doesn't matter. You'll never look at me the way I look at you. | self.offmychest |
The masks we wear Is anyone here sad with the fact that we have to maintain every false role that we make? I mean, when I talk with my good classmates I often say bad bullying words that I never would like to tell to anybody. I lose the control of everything, like my body and soul, when I am doing something with other ... | self.depression |
Welp. Sleep disturbances It's darn torture trying to focus on your academics when your sleep pattern gets awfully fucked depending on what episode you're at.
When I'm manic, I usually only get around four hours of sleep when I'm lucky. Otherwise, well, I find myself getting as little as half an hour of sleep - or wors... | self.bipolar |
Been waiting for psychiatrist appointment for 2 months, suddenly feel better now that its less than a week away. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Looking for some short term coping tips. Few days ago PC broke down. New parts don't come in for two weeks. Video games were my main coping method, and because of this, I no longer have access to them. For the past few days, outside of school, my time has only been spent watching TV and finishing homework and it feels ... | self.depression |
Can’t stop worrying about this and I feel like a horrible person [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Not sad or anything, but damn annoyed by my circumstances the past month. **DISCLAIMER:** There is going to be a very long wall of text worth 9 paragraphs of me typing out of my mind with 0 proofreads. If you don't want to read that, reading the **TL;DR** and giving me feedback will mean a good amount to me. If you're ... | self.offmychest |
How should I feel about this statement? "You look a lot better and nicer than the last time I saw you. Except you look like you've been crying." | self.depression |
So I finally realized something this week... Been stuck in an episode since my birthday (just turned 25, as per my last post). Can't remember the last time I ate a proper meal. Sleep cycle is fucked. Haven't left the house in a week. Funny enough, I had planned on hanging out and doing some reading in a cafe today... o... | self.depression |
Does anyone else's day get spoiled simply by hearing the Mail received alert from your stressful job? [deleted] | self.depression |
Yay for mixed states! (/s) Y'all I couldn't sleep last night. Like literally slept zero hours of sleep. My anxiety is ramped up and I'm struggling to be in the present. I'm struggling to make sentences, but my brain seems to be going a thousand miles a minute. Tonight I am in bed by 8:30, and hoping to fall asleep soon... | self.bipolar |
I’m done I just wrote a very long post in which I think I was more honest than I’ve ever been and it got deleted. I can’t do this anymore. Everything hurts too much.
It’s fine though because I know everyone will be happy to have me gone. No one will admit it to my face because no one wants to be responsible for the de... | self.depression |
I know I could get better if I put the work in. But it's so much easier and less stressful to just let the anxiety do its thing. The fear of being uncomfortable, or out of place, or whatever, keeps me from pushing myself and getting better. Is it laziness? Anyone else "comfortable" in their anxiety? | self.Anxiety |
It's almost here- the year they're going to carve on my tombstone I always thought that it would feel morbid to type that but it actually feels great.
My last New Years Eve and my last one where I fret about being all alone once again (protip, youngsters: after about 30, maybe 35, your peers just stop doing NYE stuff... | self.SuicideWatch |
Feeling my depression coming back..... Hello everyone. I go through phases when i am extremely depressed for months. I recently got a new job and things been going good for about a month now. Well the past couple days i feel my depression coming back. Any advice is appreciated. I dont really have a have support syste... | self.depression |
"ghosts" in my house again (stream of consciousness) or wait... its just psychotic symptoms cropping up in a time of extreme stress.
awesome.
full time job. many responsibilities. and you cant really tell your boss that there's looming company with you at work today. "Take Your Psychosis to Work" day.
I'm leaving... | self.bipolar |
Is there anyone else that has a hard time just accepting being happy? When I begin to feel anxious and/or I have a full blown panic attack, one of the things I try to do is go through messages I've saved or voicemails or letters or anything sweet from people who love me to remind myself that I am not this toxic mess th... | self.Anxiety |
How quickly does your depression set in? Sometimes mine has a really slow build-up and other times it hits all at once. What's your experience? | self.bipolar |
Urge and fear of screaming at quiet places I don't know if this is directly related with bipolar or if it's psychosis or anxiety but whatever it is it's killing me. I was supposed to watch my friend's play at his school but I feel like I'm gonna scream in the middle of the play so now im hiding in a stall. Same thing h... | self.bipolar |
Lost another pdoc... why is finding one so hard? X-post to /r/bipolarreddit
Rhetorical question because healthcare is fucked.
Because I decided to go back to DBT, i got a letter saying my file has been closed at the clinic where I was receiving therapy and med management.
They have a policy that you can't ... | self.bipolar |
Work colleagues purposefully excluding me from after-work gatherings, I am sick of being isolated. [deleted] | self.depression |
Random rambling about something random. Fuck.
I miss Lithuanian so much. It has been almost 4 months. It's so quiet. Just me and these texts. It can't continue like this. Nothing i write will have an effect on my plans. There are only 3 people in this world who have even a small likelihood of asking me something like ... | self.depression |
Possible hallucination? So I was feeling really good this morning, but not exactly manic. (I have Bipolar II disorder for context), I was driving to get breakfast and when I parked I opened my snapchat. I went to take a selfie and literally saw a man in the car seat right behind me, his face and everything. It wasn’t s... | self.bipolar |
Anybody have any experience with a certified recovery specialist? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Will power and endurance I'm finding things are taking too much energy lately. Mentally mostly. I have physical energy, which adds to my frustration.
I am trying to be productive. For example I played the guitar today.... only 20 minutes and I was exhausted.
Other tasks are similar. I try to summon the will power to ... | self.bipolar |
Lamictal substitutes I think lamictal is making my hair fall out and i use it for bipolar depression (rather than mania), what are some drugs that treat depression that might be a good substitute? I know everyone is different but I figured I wanted to educate myself about the possible options and research them before m... | self.bipolar |
My trick for handling work email without FEAR All my email gets forwarded to a stupid hotmail account I have. Often I'm too scared to read the "real" email, but I read it in my hotmail (since it's a copy and not the original thing), a bit later I'm often confident enough to open & reply to the actual mail in my mai... | self.Anxiety |
Does caffeine make you guys depressed? I know that caffeine can make you manic but I've been drinking a lot of coffee and energy drinks lately over the past 2-3 weeks or so and the last couple of days I've just felt depressed as shit. Like horribly, suicidally depressed where I have no fucking energy and I just complet... | self.bipolar |
I Really Want to Kill Myself but Other Times I Can't Even Imagine Wanting to do it. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Does anyone else scroll back in their post history and get sad/angry at some of the things you posted? [deleted] | self.depression |
Ever felt useless? I may not be the person that makes the suicide notes saying "hey if you are reading this I am already dead" if you are reading this and thinking I should kill myself, please reconsider your life. Don't be impulsive. Anyways I felt useless almost everyday in my life for the past 4 years. My grades hav... | self.SuicideWatch |
What do I do? I've never hurt myself in any way but today I am so close. Yesterday all was normal and good but today was just shitty, I don't even know why. I'm scared that when my mum goes to bed, I can't hold back anymore. What do I do? I don't want to do this, I just don't know if I am able to keep myself from doing... | self.depression |
Can someone please talk to me pm me please 1 [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
How fucked is this? Wife and I get drunk. She suggests we bathe together. She decides it's better if I bath alone while we talk. She leaves part way through. I fall asleep in the bathtub several hours later shivering uncontrollably and she's asleep in bed. We fight and I end up punching a hole in the wall (very disappo... | self.depression |
Coming to terms with a bipolar diagnosis So I went to the doctor today to follow up on an appointment I had like three months ago where I talked about my depression. She prescribed me wellbutrin and it worked amazingly for like 5 days then seemingly nothing changed for like 3 months. Unfortunate.
I went today and talk... | self.bipolar |
"Sister", the Movie I watched this movie last night. The primary characters are a middle aged mom, an adult son and his adopted sister.
The mother is hospitalized for bipolar issues and undergoes ECT. She is unable to care for the pre-teen daughter and dumps her on the adult son.
The girl is on a variety of meds an... | self.bipolar |
DAE have suicidal ideation when anxious but not depressed? I am very much not depressed. I know I will probably be told (based on the title) that I am, but I really feel that I am not.
In fact, other than the fact that I've been more anxious than normal recently, I feel pretty good.
But here lies my problem. I am oc... | self.bipolar |
Does anyone else worry about what would happen if insurance companies were allowed to deny people insurance based in pre existing conditions? [removed] | self.depression |
I'm so nervous I don't know why I'm this nervous about texting a girl about a second date we already loosely agreed to but I am. I feel like a bit of a loser honestly. But I'm also excited. We had a fun first date. I felt like there was good chemistry and we stayed out longer than I thought we would. Of course I o... | self.offmychest |
I'm a piece of shit without my anti depressants I'm mean, angry, and dark, disturbing, and violent thoughts go through my head.
My refill is ready at the pharmacy and I need tomorrow to come so I can go back to not hating myself. I am lucky to have found a pill with no negative side effects. But I just hate myself so... | self.depression |
This time of year hurts so much I'm so lonely. I want to see people and love people during the holidays but nobody loves me or wants to see me | self.depression |
Frustrated. People suck at helping. It's all just so condescending and self-righteous and it all amounts to "Life is wonderful and awesome, so stop being sad, it's annoying" without giving any reasons to support this claim. I guess there is no reason, you just do it or else you're weak-minded. I am weak-minded, because... | self.depression |
I might have to give bone marrow to my cousin, and I'm scared [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Anyone interested in a chat? It's my third time cutting myself this week, and I'm beginning to think I'm not going to last long. Funny that sounds like an exaggeration when I say it.
I'm rather disillusioned with society. I'd just like to talk to someone rather than slip out of existence unnoticed.
| self.SuicideWatch |
In bed crying and scared and wish more than anything that someone were here to hold me I am so afraid and I have no one to call and no safe place to go. Shaking now and I'm desperate. It is 2:10am here. | self.depression |
My friend needs a liver transplant. And even though I am a complete match, (I have already done some blood work too) they don’t want to move forward with me. Even though this could save his fucking life. Could I have been denied because I’m Bipolar? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
If I dropped down and died right this second nobody would care. Everyone either ignores or makes fun of my cries for help. | self.depression |
Manic AND agoraphobic = literal tempest in a teapot. I have 100% lost my mind but no worries, I'm too freaked out to leave my apartment, so what kind of damage can I really do? That's not a challenge, self! | self.bipolar |
Getting out from the bottom How do other people get themselves out of bad depressive stretches... especially ones after really problematic manic episodes that led to decisions of which you are now sitting in the consequences of? Every time I sort of think I'm starting to get out of it something reminds of how much I've... | self.bipolar |
I've always tried so hard to fight off my anxiety or try and explain to people who it makes me sometimes and how bad it hurts. And the person closest to me walks out on my life because of it. I did my best to work on it and push it down for him. Fuck anxiety | self.Anxiety |
I can't find anything to make myself happy I've been depressed for a while now and I used to have things that would suppress it, like hobbies. All my usual methods are either too expensive or they don't work anymore. Can't find anything to cheer myself up with. | self.depression |
do your mood cycles have distinct patterns? if yes, please share!
i've noticed my recent pattern is and i find it really weird
hypomanic (5 days) -> manic (3 days) -> depressed (1 day) -> hypomanic (5 days)... and so on. | self.bipolar |
Reoccurring thoughts of hurting myself. Hey all, throwaway here. I'm a 24 year old male who's had some pretty bad anxiety since I was in highschool. I don't want to talk about myself too much, I grew up in a pretty aggressive and some people would call it, abusive household. Highschool was fine, I remember walking to s... | self.Anxiety |
Anxiety has escalated quite rapidly I feel like I'm constantly about to vomit (I did earlier this morning), I'm shaking like a fucking leaf, I get random aches and numbness around areas that would normally indicate a heart attack but my family apparently has a history of anxiety. I don't even know what I'm anxious abou... | self.Anxiety |
At my wits end Hello, I’m pretty much at my wits end here. I’ve had a myriad of issues ranging from loss of appetite to diarrhea to a cough that won’t get away to chest pains. All doctors tell me I’m fine, I had chest pains today that I swore was going to kill me but the EKG they did today said I was fine and I just ha... | self.Anxiety |
I’m sitting in front of 14 empty Zzzquil bottles that I’ve used I’ve the past couple of months... [deleted] | self.depression |
Have decided to commit suicide very soon Just need to tie up some loose ends, take care of unfinished business, see some old friends & family, divide up some belongings to be inherited by family & friends & then basically yeah. Dont really care anymore. Infact im looking forward to it, cant even wait. Get ... | self.SuicideWatch |
“I don’t want to pressure you” said the school nurse, I swear I’m gonna regret telling her how I feel She said she wasn’t going to pressure me and then told me to tell my parents about my self harm tonight. Ffs can someone just kill me. Telling her was meant to help, not make my anxiety a hundred times worse. Hopefully... | self.depression |
Any tips to help deal with lucid dreams due to side effects of my meds? I’ve been having lucid dreams due to the side effects of my meds and I’m finding it hard to cope with them. I talked to my doctor and he told me to try taking them in the morning instead of at night but that hasn’t really helped.
I also asked him ... | self.depression |
I’m done with life honestly. This is gonna be a bit of a rant for me so I apologize ahead. Ever since high school. I’ve always been the stand up guy. The friend that would go support others, come for dinners. I was pretty reliable meaning if you needed my help whether it was money, transport and others I could do it. ... | self.depression |
Pretty sure tonight is the night So I'm pretty sure I'm going to end it all tonight. I made an attempt a few days ago and it didn't work. I'm going to overdose and slit my wrists in the bathroom tonight once my roommate and suit mates are asleep. I've thought about reaching out to someone, but I can't talk to my fam... | self.SuicideWatch |
Cashiers throwing change at you. Does it bother you just a little when cashiers throw change at you? Why do they do it? What's the solution to this? I don't want to get someone fired by complaining. | self.offmychest |
I don't know who to turn to... I feel a great deal of despair and sorrow. Everything was doing great.... [deleted] | self.offmychest |
How long does it take for risperidone to work? This is my first time taking an antipsychotic medication. I have previously only taken medications from the SSRI and mood stabilizer classes. I have also taken several forms of benzodiazepines, but are short acting and don't require a build up.
For SSRIs and mood stabili... | self.bipolar |
There's a reason I don't watch Rick and Morty It's not that I don't think Rick and Morty is good. I've never watched it, I have no idea how good or bad it is. The reason I don't watch it is that I just can't be bothered. No amount of joking/making references I don't even get is going to motivate me to watch it, I got e... | self.offmychest |
I lay awake at night and my girlfriend doesn't get it Just because I am lucky enough to be with someone I love doesn't mean I don't feel alone even at night. I'm really struggling with ways to explain to her what it's like as she has no history of mental illness and I've got history of depression, anxiety and insomnia.... | self.depression |
idk not feeling good. dying would be so much better.
awful
awful
awful | self.depression |
Why am I such a piece of shit At my best friends graduation party every ones having fun but I’m just sitting here wishing I wasn’t here. Why am I just a sack of shit | self.depression |
There is no 'help' They always say 'there's help out there, there's plenty of things you can try' but they never specify what.
When I ask 'what's there to keep me alive?' They say 'travel, tasty food, puppies - there's trillions of things!' But none of those things make me feel anything.
'It's because of the illness'... | self.depression |
Dissociation... The past day and a half have been a haze. This is the most severe dissociate bout I have ever had. I feel completely out of it and can barely function. I have been really stressed and that could be a trigger but I never felt myself protecting myself like this or whatever I have no Idea what is going on,... | self.bipolar |
I get more anxious the more I do something. I'm often told that I need to make myself do things to stop being anxious, and while quite often once I am doing the thing I am not anxious, the getting to doing it is worse for me. Th problem is, the more I do something, the stronger the feeling of anxiety is before doing it... | self.Anxiety |
DAE get depressed thinking about having to plan things for milestones or your inability to do it? My boyfriend and I are talking marriage. We've already agreed we are just going to do the paperwork, maybe rent out a hall and have a buffet as a party. But neither of us can handle planning an actual wedding.
We are goin... | self.Anxiety |
Saturday party, Ex texted me Not sure on the purpose of this post. Maybe I am just here to vent.
I am at a party, a small gathering, drinking with friends I trust. I know i shouldn’t drink, but I did it anyways. Also I haven’t taken my meds in a long time, lexapro and depakoyte.
My ex had texted me and the conversat... | self.bipolar |
I hate advise on how to succeed It's all like:
Do things now don't wait
Don't please people
Don't be lazy
Don't waste time
Well fuck I can't do any of that so I guess that means I'll never be successful so fuck that I should just kill myself and avoid the disappointment | self.depression |
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