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Im only here because if alcohol Tried to hang myself 2 month ago on my birthday. Told myself I'd get drunk, being drunk ruined my hanging myself mood, I'm still here, alot of regrets | self.SuicideWatch |
Voice from God So, many of you know me, but most don't know my religious views. I am a Christian, have been for about thirteen years.
Anyway, during the fall I was manic to the point where I believed God was telling me to have a child immediately even though financially my spouse and I aren't stable enough. So anyway... | self.bipolar |
Depression is a tool nature employs in order to seperate the weak specimen from the strong ones [deleted] | self.depression |
I don‘t know if i have depression or whatever all this bullshit is, but i need help. [deleted] | self.depression |
It's hard to keep standing up, keep fighting, and get down each time. I just want it to end I’m done. Hard work doesn’t pay off. Ever since I was 14 I felt depressed and like I’m not good enough. I felt like it was my own fault that I felt so sad and angry and that I wasn’t good enough for other people. One day I decid... | self.depression |
Anyone else feel this way about your friends sometimes? I typically like having my friends from different friend groups meet each other, to put faces with the names they hear from time to time. Also it makes it easy when we have a get together everyone knows each other and it’s genuinely more fun.
Well I have two lon... | self.offmychest |
I'd rather let my arms freeze than wear sleeves! Long sleeves are so uncomfortable!!! They're almost always tight and constricting and make my arms feel stiff. Like burning, prickly pain sticks. Even my most comfy jackets aren't okay anymore. Maybe I should start wearing ponchos. I think those are in fashion now. | self.offmychest |
Thinking about a person you love most dying. Has anyone else ever just sat there and get worried about a person dying. Like, no particular context to thinking about them dying but the fear of it just sitting in your mind. I often think about what I would do if my best friend died. I think about it all the time. I often... | self.depression |
cannot stop feeling furious I never rest or sleep through the night. My mom stole all the money I had, around 40,000, and I really REALLY needed it to escape. I have lost ten to twelve years of my fucking life to that bitch, and I needed so desperately to escape her. I am stuck and I am planning my death, ... | self.depression |
Annoyed I really just fucking want to die. I hate how I was having a good day and now I’m like this. I really hate everything. I really just want to kill everybody and myself. I’m tired of trying to be positive. I fucking hate talking so much b cause that is all I can do. | self.SuicideWatch |
Good at my job but I hate it.. Hey all,
I am in a Dilemma, I am good at my job and I like it, the company I am in is a new company around 4 years old ( retail business for electronics and it's accessories , and I have been with them for around 2 or 2.5 Years.
My work history with them :
I started as a sales man ( f... | self.offmychest |
I think medication triggered my bipolar to be significantly worse and now I can't get back [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Unmanageable seroquel side effects after two years I've been on seroquel for about two years now, and over the last couple of months I've developed side effects that I can't handle anymore and I don't know what to do. My pdoc prescribed adderall about a year and a half ago to counteract the sedation I feel even after t... | self.bipolar |
Who am I ? (Maybe mental trigger) I have suffered extreme anxiety since I was little. My parents just kind of laughed it off, but I think I needed real help. My racing thoughts had taken over majority of my life. Around 22 I just broke. Mania set in creating $20,000 in credit card debt. Staying up for days, thriving ov... | self.bipolar |
There is no hope Please do not get transference towards your therapist it sucks but you'll forget about it later and then you die so haha eat ice cream | self.depression |
I Stood up to my father.. now everyone hates me My dad spent Christmas obsessing over repeating some very racially insensitive jokes at my wife's expense. She was upset over them. I overcame my anxiety (my father has the personality of a bully) and confronted him about it. After a token apology he and my mom left earli... | self.Anxiety |
It’s Christmas, fuck you. Today is Christmas. I loved Christmas. It was the only time of year I got to spend one day with my entire family being happy. This year I’m with my Dads family as he was given 6 months to live in July. My brother, sister in law and I flew to a different country to make some happy memories with... | self.offmychest |
I wrote out a suicide note tonight Or rather taking a break from finishing it. I dont think Ill actually do it tonight or anytime too soon (kill myself I mean), but having it written out gives me comfort whether I do it or not. At this point, Its probably not, but I feel like the potential of it happening is stronger t... | self.SuicideWatch |
Panic Attacks and Music That Soothes Them I wrote a Medium article about the panic attacks that go along with my Bipolar Disorder and how music seems to help me come down from the panic attacks.
Check it out and tell me what you think:
https://medium.com/@ants000/panic-attacks-and-music-that-soothes-them-69a7dcf93839 | self.bipolar |
Great reading resources for partners of people with bipolar/depression etc? Hey all!
Relatively new to this sub, due to being relatively new to my current diagnoses of BP2 after my Dr's thinking it was MDD for the past year. Anywho, much like a lot of people here, it causes a fair bit of friction with my partner due t... | self.bipolar |
Caffeine and lamictal I am having tremors whenever i drink coffee on lamictal. Could be the abilify too, not sure. Anyone else experiencing this? | self.bipolar |
Medication has suddenly stopped working me again. After two months of feeling fine and only having small setbacks, about midway through my holiday depression just hit me in the face out of nowhere. All of a sudden i just refused to leave the hotel room and started feeling really low. At the time i just chalked this up ... | self.depression |
Meditation Retreat Center Doesn't Want Bipolar Folks??? So...this is really weird. I've been attending meditation and wellness retreats for many years. My favorite place is Esalen in Big Sur, CA, but I live on the East Coast so it's hard to get there regularly. Omega is in NY, but they are closed for much of the winter... | self.bipolar |
Life is getting less worse living everyday. I am Autistic. Halfway through my 2nd grade year, I was sent to special ed because I had gotten too many in school suspensions for beating up random people because I felt like it. I had to leave my school and go to a much worse school, that I would have no friends in. This sc... | self.depression |
Losing appetite I've lost 20 lbs in five months and appetite has gone down.
Part of my weight loss is due to the fact that I'm eating healthier. I avoid eating too much bread or rice. I don't eat sweets more than once or twice a month. I avoid fried foods.
One of the main reasons I changed my diet was to improve my ... | self.Anxiety |
Without education i will poor in the future? Do you even need an education? Or is it possible do live a decent live without a high education? Or is it necessary to have a good education? What do you think? Without education no future? No decent live? In the worst case homelessness? Or is education not that important? | self.SuicideWatch |
To the woman I can be nothing but nice to. [NAW] [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Today my psychiatrist gave up on me. I hadn't seen him in about 6 months, and today in our appointment he told me that I'm just wasting resources, he doesn't know what to do with me and nobody else does either, that they're doing everything I can but I'm still just sitting around at home all day being a burden on every... | self.depression |
This sounds like a mania induced purchase but I swear it's not... I ordered a baby turtle! The backstory is that I had a turtle I found lost and wandering away from the water when I was about 8 and took him home and made a pet of him. He loved attention and ate from your hand, popped his head up every time he saw me. I... | self.bipolar |
Trouble Focusing ( Thoughts? ) Hey, Guys. I’m a 27 year old made. I’ve had anxiety for almost a decade.
So this comes and goes. Sometimes it stays for a weeks and sometimes it goes away for weeks.
I have trouble focusing when I’m reading. That’s really the only thing I have trouble with. But it bothers me and it’s ... | self.Anxiety |
I just learned how to tie a noose It's so easy why didn't I do this when I was 13
I wish to be nothing like me | self.depression |
I feel like a robot Passive. That's the only way to describe it. My brain is clouded with a haze of constant doubt; Only functioning enough to get what needs to be done (getting up for work, food, etc). I try to put effort into things because I'm always told I have amazing potential. It just always comes down to my bra... | self.depression |
Love or Depression? Hey guys, I feel like I need some help here.
I've always thought that I wasn't depressed and that I occasionally got really sad, now I've done some research and I'm afraid I might actually have a form of depression called chronic/PDD(persistent depressive disorder)/Dysthimia, but that's actually not... | self.depression |
I miss you both I miss you both and love you both to death even though you hate me you both were my best friends and one of you were my lover even though it was wrong... None of ment to hurt anyone.. I need to stop drinking.. But i really dont want to move on without you guys.. I would do anything to get you both back,... | self.SuicideWatch |
As I fall deeper into depression the more I push friends and family away by raging at the tiniest things [deleted] | self.depression |
Depression is home to me now I’ve been depressed for about as long as I can remember. I don’t really have many happy memories compared to the bad ones. I’ve gotten used to feeling like dirt. Had anyone else experienced this? | self.depression |
when was the last time you felt truly happy with life, like not for a short moment but for a couple of days or a week [deleted] | self.depression |
Why do I not believe people when they tell me that I'm pretty and attractive? Like I just want to cry all the time because of how I look. Why would anyone think that I'm pretty or attractive? | self.depression |
Wellbutrin causing Anxiety I think I already have enough anxiety as it is but about 6 months ago I came out of my year-long psychosis, I admitted myself to an inpatient facility because I couldn't hold in the fear any longer, and when I came out I was put on Wellbutrin SR 100MG, anti-depressant, Risperidone, anti-psych... | self.Anxiety |
How a weightlifting injury ruined my life and is driving me to the brink of suicide [deleted] | self.depression |
Everyone at work hates me. I’ve messed up & so have others & they get treated no different right after but I’ll get the silent treatment or comments about me behind my back. I can’t take it anymore. I’m really quiet & to myself & they take that as me being rude & also call me weird. Help | self.depression |
Only thing stopping me is likely failure of an attempt [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Kissed a girl with cancer I met on Reddit [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Anyone here over 30? Seems like everyone is a teenager or early 20s. I'm 31. Never been suicidal in the past even though things were awful because I always hoped it'd get better. It hasn't.
I don't really have much emotion anymore. Seems like most people who are suicidal have huge mood swings and are impulsive. Just ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Y tho I hate abbreviating text, why did I title this like that? Wow. Kill me. Please just butt the fuck out. I get you're upset that I moved in with dad but you have to understand why, right?! There is a list of reasons, none of which I can really explain in person though, such as I like the atmosphere there. I mean, a... | self.depression |
Since I see I lack the guts to do it myself I wish I had a fucking accident. That would be the best way to go because no one would ever know I wanted to be dead. Life is not worth it. | self.SuicideWatch |
How do I hang myself so I die instantly and not choke? i don't really like the idea of doing it wrong and thought this would be the best place to ask, this will get taken down soon so plz reply fast. | self.SuicideWatch |
Boyfriend tried to take his own life when he was younger My bf and I have been together for about two years, and when we fight, he gets so angry and abrasive. I always knew there was something else internal going on, and it had nothing to do with me. His dad took his own life when my bf was little, and I thought it had... | self.SuicideWatch |
Psych Wards never helped me.. Hi everyone. I’m still suicidal. I have a history of depression, self harm, anxiety and ptsd. I have been to three different psych wards (one of those wards I visited 3 separate times). I see a psychiatrist and a therapist locally, and if I tell them I’m suicidal, they usually just send me... | self.SuicideWatch |
Do any of you feel like you have too many friends and you can’t keep up with all of them in the capacity you think they expect from you? I’ve been drifting from some of my friends since the summer cause of this. It makes me feel guilty for pulling away but the reality is that I am investing as much as I can in relation... | self.Anxiety |
I don’t know. There’s nothing Fuck. I’m all alone. No one will ever love me. I have no support.
I swear to god if one more fucking person tells me I’ll find someone, I’m going to implode. No one knows what it’s like being alone. Not really. Everyone who says that “I’ll find someone” has never been single for more th... | self.SuicideWatch |
Writing down my feelings. Lately, I have been going through a lot. I've battled depression and anxiety for years, but everything is only getting worse. Last night I spent 6 hours trying to transcribe my depression and write everything down. I wrote 14 pages about my life and experiences and pain, and I don't know wh... | self.depression |
Has anyone else ever ruined their ENTIRE life because of their mental illness? Because I did! I had the perfect life. Houses, cars, loads of friends. The whole package! I loved my husband of 20 years but bipolar mania made me think otherwise. I felt lonely with him so I cheated and left. I thought life would be better ... | self.bipolar |
There is no way this many good things can happen at once. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
This is what my friends and family don't hear [deleted] | self.depression |
I need someone to talk to I posted this earlier
https://www.reddit.com/r/offmychest/comments/7kkoz7/not_sure_who_else_to_talk_to/
> I've been talking to this girl for the last 2-3 months and in the last couple of weeks we have met up a few times. On saturday she came to my place and we just chilled and watched ne... | self.SuicideWatch |
I fuckin' hate life if truth be told. It's just a load of bullshit and bullshit on top of each other. I really fucking hate life, it's shit. Nobody 'has your back', nobody is 'there for you'. They always leave when you need it the most. | self.SuicideWatch |
I know I’m being ridiculous, but... On NYE, my friends and I went into town drinking. To cut a long story short, we all got way too hammered and we all can’t remember most of the night. I have random flashes of memory, like leaving one club to go to the next, and going to the chip shop (and falling over, the shame).
... | self.Anxiety |
See this as my last letter to the world. All I can tell you is, game obsession is a real thing. Dont ever let you're kids touch the most toxic game ever called FIFA. It took over my life. I had to be the best. Skipped school. Quit my job. I got nothing now. I lose almost every game I play. I begged for help with the ga... | self.SuicideWatch |
I wish everyone an anxiety free life Depression, ADHD and Anxiety does one thing common - it reduces one's self esteem into ashes. | self.Anxiety |
My anxiety stops me from dating All this Valentine's Day gumph is just reminding me of how my anxiety ruins things for me and how I'm probably never going to have what my brother and sister have with their partners because I let my anxiety prevent me from putting myself out there.
I've never really dated and the one (... | self.Anxiety |
Can't anymore I finally told my therapist the last piece of the sexual abuse that he didn't know about. I know I should feel happy and free, but I feel exposed and like the world is closing in on me. I want to die. I can't anymore. | self.SuicideWatch |
Does anyone else feel like this? I am a 24 yo woman stuck with life. I currently stay with my mother and 2 dogs. I have a loving boyfriend who would do anything for me yet I can’t seem to be happy? I am on anti depressants and have been for around 5 years trying different kinds. I feel lost in my life like I’m getting ... | self.offmychest |
I Love My Boyfriend Like a Son Typing it out just makes my heart burn, but finally I am able to describe the pain in simple terms: I love my boyfriend like a mother would love her son.
It didn't start out right away, just slowly overtime the rose-tinted glasses became clearer, more transparent, and I was able to see ... | self.offmychest |
I’m trying, I’ve been trying. It’s been so long now, the same thing day after day. I see so many stories of people finding their anchor, their will to live and instead of giving me hope I lose it more and more each time. I’ve tried being patient, I’ve tried to wait it out until it gets better like everyone says. I’ve t... | self.SuicideWatch |
New here. Recently diagnosed. Trying to better understand bipolar from others who also live life with the diagnosis. Thanks for any input you have to offer. [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Jealousy Walked into a swingers bar for work and saw a young woman OD on what i presumed was Heroin...my only reaction was jealousy. Its been a fun morning. | self.depression |
A day ago I made a post about how I planned to kill myself in a year. I’m going to do it tonight. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Ever have to tell yourself "it'll be okay" over and over again during an episode? | self.depression |
Hey I’m gonna FUCKING RANT BECAUSE J WANT TO KILL SOMETHING OR SOMEONE RIGHT NOW. Hello I don’t actually want to kill anyone but I feel like I need to tell someone my shit to let it off my chest. You probably shouldn’t waste your time reading my mega-brat sounding issues and these are terribly terrible awful pathetic f... | self.offmychest |
A Classmate A college classmate killed himself, actually this wasn't recent but a few years ago, and he did it with alcohol I heard. My life is good and I don't want to end it, but was just curious how much alcohol would it take to kill oneself? It seems like the painless way to go. | self.SuicideWatch |
Jealousy and Envy These two concepts are two of my big anxiety producers. And well I was wondering if there good techniques to get past these concepts. | self.Anxiety |
How much klonopin do you take to get you to sleep? | self.Anxiety |
Whenever I’m out and about, at work, the grocery store etc — I look around and see people smiling, laughing, talking to others with genuine interest etc. and I say to myself what the fuck? How do they do that? Whenever I smile, it’s pretty much always fake. I have a difficult time smiling for pictures. My wife will say... | self.depression |
I've been trying so hard, but death seems to be the only way eventually. [deleted] | self.depression |
I wanted to suicide but I can't
I wanted to suicide but I can’t.
“I consider myself thinking too much on others feelings rather than
mine...but I can’t help it.
I wanted to eat pills to end it but it would destroy my body parts, can’t
donate it perfectly.
Same for jumping, stabbing, smashing.
Slashing, hanging w... | self.depression |
I had enough I’m exhausted of everything. I got diagnosed with major depression and BPD back in 2009 then I had to stop school during my third year of university for treatment. 2012 thought it will be a brand new start. Switched university and study sth new. But fuck during last year, 2015 of university I got diagnosed... | self.SuicideWatch |
Starting 2018 with some exciting new intrusive thoughts! Throwaway account because this is fucking embarrassing and I don't want it on my real account. I was just chilling watching rogue one, drinking a beer when I kept seeing my self squeezing the glass so hard it shatters in my hand. It was like a clip playing on a l... | self.depression |
I’m pretty sure my brother doesn’t care if I’m in his life significantly or not. My brother and I were never really close, but I try to get together to with him and his family whenever I can. My sister in law kind of tends to make me feel like a burden when I visit and I think she doesn’t mean to, I can just kind of te... | self.offmychest |
Working with my sister So cleaning with my sister some nights has been awesome! We get along just fine and we vent about the same things at home and we know where the other one comes from.
This weekend we are filling in at our cleaning job and I just found out that its a big weekend and instead of closing at 9 and 6 ... | self.Anxiety |
People are telling me to see a doctor for meds when the problem is environmental I have been depressed and suicidal since second grade a little over 15 years ago when i realized school (and later work) related activities will always take up over a third of most days, add in sleep and necessary chores and it only leaves... | self.depression |
Should I tell people I'm suicidal? I've decided, after almost seven years of suffering in silence, to finally get professional help first, instead of outright killing myself. I'm worried because I was planning to get help "secretly", but I live with my parents and that might be hard. Should I tell them, and if so, what... | self.SuicideWatch |
I love you all. I think ive already posted tonight, but I just wanted to thank you all fro being there, when I've not wanted to talk about how I feel to others you have all been there to talk with me instead. I love you all and hope you all live good lives.
I know ive drunk a bit but if there is one thing Drunk me doe... | self.depression |
I smoke cigarettes because I know that it kills me more. I started smoking cigarettes because everyone else was, but now I smoke them for the sole purpose of killing me slowly. I love my life and everyone in it, but I just don't really want to be here. Even though my friends and family tell me that they love me, I can'... | self.depression |
I feel like garbage I want to lie down and just stare at a fucking wall all day. I don't want to talk to anybody or do anything. Just let me stare at this fucking wall until I'm ready. | self.offmychest |
Anyone else peel the skin off of their fingers when anxious? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I just tried to kill myself So i just came out of the bathroom. I tried to cut my wrist like in the movies but my razor was not sharp enough and I just have a few deep scratches. My cat was outside the bathroom calling for me so I opened the door for her and she was so sweet and innocent.. I dont want her alone
Im fe... | self.SuicideWatch |
xpost bipolar ... getting a prescription for a sun lamp. Need advice. Hey all,
Need some advice about picking out a sun lamp to help me in the mornings. Will be getting prescription from doctor, soon, which I am guessing allows me to pay with my HSA, and possibly get insurance to cover some of the cost.
I have no id... | self.bipolar |
my meds make me terribly constipated-- does this happen to anyone else? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
They say be yourself, but what if yourself is someone nobody (including yourself) likes? I can just tell that people...tolerate me. Even my own "friends." It makes me want to just walk into the woods. Does anyone else feel this way?
Update: Four months later, and I've done a total 180. All it took was hitting the bott... | self.depression |
My ex broke up with me because of my depression. This is a small part of why she broke up with me. She told me that I used my depression as an excuse to feel "bad" and that all I had to do was try and feel better. I hate this kind of stuff and now nobody will want to date me because she'll tell people that's what I'm l... | self.depression |
Hey I'm new to this group I'm new the group I could hardly sleep last night because I just wanted to cry so much I want to find someone to date and be my friend but I don't think I worth it | self.depression |
What dose of Abilify have others found successful for depression? I'm on 2mg with wellbutrin. I'm having binge eating issues and so I'm not losing weight I regained from being on Latuda. Wondering now if I should try going off wellbutrin again (last time I only did it a few weeks and I don't recall my eating habits at ... | self.bipolar |
poem I often feel down about myself
and I store my self esteem on the topmost shelf
so I cant reach it
others tell me "get yourself together"
but the walls too strong i cant breach it,
then i feel like weak shit
trying some of that bleak stuff
but the old me is somewhere inside gagged and handc... | self.depression |
It has been ages since I felt good enough to listen to music, watch a movie, or play a game. About all I do nowadays is google the news (hoping in vain for some event that will impact my life somehow, positively) - and browse Reddit. I literally can't enjoy anything. | self.depression |
No matter how hard I try , I still manage to fail. I used to try hard , but I still failed classes and got in trouble with my parents. I don't try anymore, and obviously I fucking fail. I should just save myself all of the wasted effort and just kill myself. Life is too hard , and I'm gonna be miserable anyway, so I ... | self.depression |
Life is Predictable Don’t you agree that life has gotten predictable? I mean, everyone lives such a happy ignorant life and not realizing that in reality life is practically pointless. We all grow up and go to school for 18 years of our lives and get a job and do the same thing for the rest of our lives until we withe... | self.depression |
If you want something you've never had, you have to do something you've never done And I just can't figure out what that is. Because I don't have much | self.offmychest |
Life is fucked What's the point of all this? No love, no life, even if i go get a job, i'll be miserable. I've always had one up until recently. What's the point if I just end up broke and alone?? I'm always the black sheep wherever I go. People just always point their fat fucking fingers at me for someone to blame. I'... | self.depression |
Can someone please tell me why I feel like I'm going to pass out or die in certain public situations? I'm just trying to get an idea if this a condition I have, because it's really beginning to become a problem for me.
Every now and then(I would guess half of the time) I start feeling like I'm almost having a panic ... | self.Anxiety |
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