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am i BP or just a spoiled kid... foa, my English is not really good.
my parents are really concern for my behavior, i know that im so irritable, and i put them in bad situations, and sometimes doctors says that is not my fault, being diagnosed with BP disorder is something i don't know how to live with. it is really th... | self.bipolar |
Fed up of people questioning the intelligence of others based on their social/speech skills. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Missing Thanksgiving for work But I'm at least thankful I don't have to go around thanksgiving dinner having people figure out what a loser I am. | self.depression |
Is living this way okay? I’ve lived with depression for so long that it feels weird not to be depressed sometimes. I don’t like it. It’s almost as if I need my depression because it’s what I’m comfortable with. It gets me through my ruts in life by making me feel nothing. But at the same time, it’s so pathetic. It keep... | self.depression |
Help, i cant get a memory out of my head [trigger warning: animal violence] [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Hello again Round 2, Hooray... I feel like I'm going to implode, I feel like I have a hole in my chest , I feel lonely unless I have a crazy amount of physical contact with someone I care about (which are few and far between right now) I'm struggling with how to deal with my emotions, hormones and overall stupid fuckin... | self.SuicideWatch |
Frequency of thought I'm trying to understand someone that is experiencing problems. Many people have suicidal thoughts usually it's fairly sporadic that something happens like a break up or something. Or is that notion incorrect? Is there a typical level of frequency people are more prone to searching for a way to sui... | self.SuicideWatch |
Quick reminder Just a quick reminder that you and your life are entirely unimportant. You are here for the same reason any living thing is here, to further your species, however because of mankind's progressions, you now can put that on the back burner and focus on things that - when compared to anything other than you... | self.offmychest |
So Depressed I Can Feel My Head Throbbing Anybody get the same feeling when you're going through depressive stages? My brain is throbbing and my vision is blurred. That's how bad it is. | self.depression |
How do i chill out before blood Work? I hate needles with a burning passion, and the thought of someone literally sucking blood out of me scares me to death.
Do you feel anything when they start to suck it out of your arm?
Also how do i calm down before blood work?
EDIT: I apologize if this isn’t as serious as so... | self.Anxiety |
pls I feel bad when I make others feel bad for living their lives. i’m sorry i’m sad and alone, pls no pity | self.depression |
When do I give up... I can't hold this in any longer. My life sucks and it really sucks to the brim, a lot of people think my life is just easy I can't even talk about my emotions to my friends. They just take it out as a joke or don't understand me. My life has been shit since I was born, abusive dad to being kidnappe... | self.depression |
DAE get in these moods of pure hopelessness? Sometimes I just get so fed up with trying and life and I just want to sit in bed all day and mope. It tends to happen at night and makes it hard to sleep. They are occurring every 1-2 weeks and last until I fall asleep.
I tend to think about what it would be like to be norm... | self.Anxiety |
Meds I'm on two stabilizers and am SSRI. I've been told an SSRI is a bad idea for BP2.. what do you think? Are you on any?
I'm going to talk to my doctor but I've been mostly feeling a step above normal but not full.blown Hypomania | self.bipolar |
What do you do when you get lonely? I mean to the point where you feel like crying, when you feel like everyone is against you and you're just a stupid, unwanted pest.
Some advice? idk | self.depression |
I've managed to screw up just about everything in the last month. I can't believe how much I've managed to ruin everything. I've started falling behind in classes, and haven't been able to do any assignments, thanks to extreme depression and laziness. I don't have any more mental energy to do my remaining coursework, w... | self.SuicideWatch |
I can't do this anymore, one last goodbye I can't be like this anymore.
I pretend that I'm normal. I go to work. I work 8-4 like everybody else. But there's this everlasting sadness inside me. Some days it worse, but I still put up my shell towards people so they don't worry. I smile, I laugh, I crack jokes.
But th... | self.SuicideWatch |
My psychiatric meds are ruining my marriage. I deal with depression and anxiety, and possibly an undiagnosed compulsive disorder. I'm on one sedative for my depression, one for my anxiety, one to combat the insomnia created by my depression meds, and one that I take only when I feel a panic attack coming on. That's f... | self.offmychest |
I survived Christmas Me and my ex got together on Christmas 4 years ago.
This year was my first year as her, as my ex...
As someone who have tried taking his own life before, i find amazing i only cried.
Im truly getting better. | self.depression |
Looking for some advice As the title says, I'm looking for advice. I'm a woman in my mid 20s, if that helps. I don't think that I have any triggers for my anxiety or panic attacks.
I am usually anxious, but not to the point where I am unable to function. I also have panic attacks when my anxiety gets very bad. My SO... | self.Anxiety |
Avoidance I had to go to a specialist doctor due to heavy inflammation and pain chronically, he asked for blood work and I have yet to go (appointment was in October). I'm not sure if I'm avoiding this because
-it could all be in my head, and there's nothing physiologically wrong with me
-or because I'm dying and woul... | self.depression |
What do you eat when you don’t feel like eating? [deleted] | self.depression |
Damned office birthdays Nearly every week here in Dante's cubicle farm, a file folder surreptitiously circulates so that all may add a few witless words of wisdom and hollow birthday wishes. For whatever reason, today's instance has irked me to no end. I am nearly 40 years old. My birthday falls between Christmas and N... | self.offmychest |
Waste of space and time ... You guys ever had someone you thought you could be good friends with... despise you for annoying them? Ever felt like you should just disappear and never like anything anyone makes in fear of annoying them with your useless comments?... Ever hated yourself for ruining something else? | self.depression |
I just moved in with my fiancé and I regret it after less than a week He keeps fucking moving my things and then forgetting where he puts them.
It's driving me crazy.
He also DOESN'T FUCKING LISTEN TO ME
I told him the dishwasher was full of CLEAN dishes, but that I would put them away and then load the dirty ones i... | self.offmychest |
I think I’m going to the police this weekend It’s been just over 3 months since I was raped and I turned the police away when my cousins called them and due to me not speaking to them and not providing them with any evidence, the case was shut. They sent me a letter last month saying that I could always go back to them... | self.offmychest |
Am I experiencing Disassociation? I just feel disconnected...I'm not experiencing loss of time at all. I don't lose time. I feel time pass, it feels normal. It has its usual ups and downs where it feels like damn, "today felt slow" or "today went quickly" or "today was normal" but no chunks of time disappear from memor... | self.Anxiety |
why do i kill myself every night checking his page [deleted] | self.offmychest |
How have I been dealing (and still am) with deppression. You might get kind of annoyed because a source of my depression is a girl and she has been only for the past 4 weeks, and I am in a deep shit already.
But the point is that I just wrote about it.
I sat at my desk, opened word and started writing what I felt. In 3... | self.depression |
I want to kill myself but I don’t know why Hi Reddit, this is my first time actually using ready so forgive me if I fuck something up, I don’t really know how to begin talking about this so I’m just going to get into it, I’m 17 years old and I want to kill myself, that’s all fine but after reading so many other threads... | self.SuicideWatch |
All I want to do is sleep, but for some reason I'm up at 3AM thinking about people I shouldn't be thinking about [deleted] | self.depression |
My life isnt shitty but I feel like it is? I am currently playing for a professional sports team and I have basically 0 problems, except that my social life outside of the sports is shit, I basically dont know how to act socially.. | self.depression |
I need some help, i have no idea how to make friends and the lonely is killing me. Hi, I am a 19 year old man, so I am still a teenager who probably understands very little about life. Even so, lately I have felt terribly depressed for the reasons I will make known a little later. Before, I used to be a very happy pers... | self.depression |
The one thing that makes me feel something also makes me more depressed [deleted] | self.depression |
I don't want to live, I don't even want to be happy. I can't find a reason to live I'm another garbage male romantic failure. I know I'm just one of many. I can't let go the girlfriend thing. I'm way to ugly to get a girlfriend, and I've heard the whole you need to love yourself before you love someone else thing befor... | self.SuicideWatch |
The Process of Moving Forward Hey guys. This post will be a contrast to my last one, I think. It was titled 'Fuck This' and contained what it sounds like it would.
I've just spent a week celebrating the music I love, at a festival. It was an experience that really helped me to feel free - I felt as if I had successful... | self.depression |
Does anyone else have chest aches as a symptom of anxiety? | self.Anxiety |
I don't think I can continue Thinking about giving up. Unloved for far too long, desperate. Help me please. | self.SuicideWatch |
It's 5am, I've devoured 4 packets of crisps, 3 bananas, a Packet of jaffa cakes and some cereal...fuck you olanzapine Ugh | self.bipolar |
Stranger on a plane This is one of my biggest regrets this year.
I'm sitting on a plane from Toronto to New York and an absolutely gorgeous man takes the seat next to me. I am flushed and when he starts talking to me I am freaking out inside. We chat for most of the flight, talking about our jobs and he tells me about... | self.offmychest |
Loneliness, ruined date, getting drunk, family problems... I’m an ugly brown International guy.
I asked out a friend for a date. The date was alright, except at the end I screwed it up, I deadass asked her if I can kiss her. And she said we’re just out as friends... that was probably my last date with her... she proba... | self.depression |
I feel guilty for not helping in the fight for net neutrality, but I can't call [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I don't deserve your kindness. Or anyone's kindness for that matter.... I failed the people I care about, and I failed at not making myself look like a complete asshole or a whiny kid.
That mental wound that my kid-self receive has never really gone away... even if I label it as the past.
Yet.... I can't ever seem to... | self.offmychest |
After over a year away, I'm back, and somehow at a lower point than before. I had a good run, there was positivity. But unfortunately, the negatives became too much. Succumbed to alcohol, failing college and getting kicked out my dorm.
I don't know where else to go, truthfully. I feel like such a massive waste of spac... | self.depression |
Loneliness is physically hurting me. It was not to long ago until I realised how lonely I am. I hang out with same 4 friends every time who I'm not comfortable with sharing anything because they are immature and make fun out of every little thing their is. Girls don't want to hang out with me because I'm not a typical ... | self.depression |
I cant trust my therapist or the help they give me [deleted] | self.depression |
Why? Why did you have to do this to me? I was just a little kid. I couldn't protect myself from the amount of abuse you put me through. I still feel you hitting me after years of counseling, feel your fists on my body, feel you pulling my ears, slamming me against walls, choking me, dragging me by my hair. I hate you w... | self.offmychest |
Nightmares and therapy I've been seeing a therapist for three weeks. Most of what she says to me is I'm doing a good job coping with everything.
I'm not sure how to properly communicate that I'm doing well with everything except having vivid dreams involving my family and a few past abusive situations. I would like to... | self.bipolar |
i cannot eat or sleep i used to have an eating disorder due to anxiety where i couldn't eat because it made me feel so sick and i'd have to make myself throw up to ease the nausea. i haven't had those symptoms in over a year now but today they are back full force. i have been unable to sleep for 2 nights in a row and l... | self.Anxiety |
How to survive high school I know it's dumb because I'm only 14 and have severe depression and "life isn't even hard yet" but I've cut for the second time today. I'm a loser, a failure in the eyes of all, the reason my brothers are ruined in my mom's eyes. Nothing of worth. I'm average at best, and just ugly, inside an... | self.SuicideWatch |
so i forgot to take my meds for a weak and now im paying the price for it so i forgot to take my meds for around a weak and i feel like shit becuse of it, i meen i felt grate that first weak (that is how i forgot to take them/ i felt ontop "free" and toght i dident need them as much as before)
sadly i flet like shit ... | self.depression |
Came here to feel better about myself by helping others, but every positive reply just feels like bs I think that's part of my problem, I try so hard to be positive, and I do succeed, but only superficially, really it all feels fake and not me so I want to be true to myself but that means being a miserable piece of shi... | self.depression |
Why do I feel so empty I have a loving family, caring friends, a girlfriend, I get good grades in school, life is pretty good but I just feel so empty at the end of the day. I fake most of my laughs and excitement. I don't feel a connection with anyone really. My sex drive is mute. Nothing gives me much joy. | self.depression |
Someone I knew died last night and now there's a giant hole.. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Just a thought Isn’t it kinda weird when you realize that no one knows what you’re going through. No one knows the about the sadness, the pain, the anger. They don’t know about the plans we might make. The way we might fantasize about death. Think about it; one minute you could be sitting down and zoning out a little b... | self.depression |
Could my suppressed emotions be causing my anxiety in this situation? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Does any one have parents that are really religious, urging you to pray instead of taking your medications? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Just messed up a job interview... So I had a horrible morning, was really stressed out going into the interview, because I really wanted this job. I was 10 minutes late because traffic was way worse than usual, and my answers to all his questions made it obvious I was nervous. It feels like I said all the wrong things.... | self.Anxiety |
People don't care about your health, just how it affects them. They hate when I'm active and excitable and active because I do things they don't like when I'm like that, most of the time, unless they're just a party time friend. If I'm down and out I'm just a fucking drag or I slept on making a move I needed to and it ... | self.bipolar |
Tired of these depression goggles. It's like I played devils advocate so much that I fell under his spell. How can anyone be in a lasting relationship without getting tired of each other? Do people just learn to settle? Settle for the person. Settle for a career. And train themselves to accept it and be happy?
Maybe w... | self.depression |
My rant I have been depressed since i was 12 years old(16 currently) but it has varied on how intense my depression was. Right now i have low self esteem and social anxiety but i'm not hardcore depressed like i used to be. I can joke around, talk to girls and speak in front of the class, but it's random. One day i'll b... | self.depression |
The alternatives to rotting away in an apartment by yourself [deleted] | self.depression |
DEPAKINE review anyone ? Been deacribed by the doc , 600 mg a day | self.bipolar |
Thinking of maybe seeing a psychologist in 2018... Hey guys,
I'm a 22 year old guy from The Netherlands. I struggle with my own thoughts, I feel like I alone am depressing myself. And that's why I think I maybe should go talk to someone.
When there's school and work, when I'm busy and I see people, I'm doing ok / ... | self.depression |
Head Injuries & Their Effect on Bipolar Disorder? [Advice] Hey everyone, so I hit my head on Tuesday night on a curb. I was drunk [an attempt to not feel overwhelmed by depressed/lonely feelings] and in heels while it was icy out. When my head hit the curb, I lost consciousness for a lil bit and my friend [equally ... | self.bipolar |
I don't let friends visit me at home because I live in a jungle I'm 17M, and I haven't had any friends over in three years after one of them made a comment about how my house is a jungle.
My mom, my 23 year old sister, her boyfriend, and their 4 year old son are the other residents, and none of them even pick up after... | self.offmychest |
When is it going to be enough? I am a 26 year old woman who has been suffering will depression for 3 years (officially), but it’s probably more like 10 years. I am lucky in the sense that I have managed to maintain some kind of relationship with a man for 3 years, have a few close friends (none of which know the other ... | self.depression |
I'm so tired. This year is killing me.
I'm currently in hospital with a severe infection caused by my eczema, the fucking disease killing me that everyone except a select few dismiss as just an itchy rash.
That's not the problem. The problem is now I have time to think. My brother killed himself a few months ago and... | self.offmychest |
Wrote a quick little poem a few months back... [deleted] | self.depression |
I need some advice on attachment. What do you do when someone you're getting close to doesn't want anything serious, but you get attached easily/strongly? Do you keep spending time with them and hope it doesn't fuck you up emotionally, or just cut it off? | self.depression |
How do you break out of a depressive cycle and get back to life? [deleted] | self.depression |
I’m starting to get scared First, I feel like I’ve been posting a lot so I apologize. Basically since before thanksgiving, I started a hypomanic episode. I’ve only been diagnosed for about a year and have only had one hypomanic episode while under the supervision of a pdoc until now. It started fairly euphoric and I’ve... | self.bipolar |
Why won't I take help. My Dad mentioned if I wanted Medication. I can't give him an answer back...
why the fuck can't I just get help.
I can't help myself.
And for some fucking reason I can't accept help from other people.
what the fuck is wrong with me... | self.SuicideWatch |
I think it might be time I leave. This past year has been amazing in terms of working on my mental illness. The past month or so (Holidays are the worst for me since I don't talk to my family.) I've been really going up and down. I have bipolar disorder, PTSD and anxiety in addition to my depression. The other voice in... | self.depression |
Anyone else: Ride it Out? Real or Imagined? (Mild psychotic symptoms) So I've been diagnosed with psychotic features during manias, and while I don't doubt those were real, what is currently going on is shadier.
Over the past couple of weeks I have been experiencing what I think are mild auditory distortions or halluc... | self.bipolar |
Anxiety at university club I just feel like I never fit it even when I’m with all of my friends. I feel like I can never lose that feeling that people are watching me no matter how drunk I am. I feel like I can talk to anyone I want to but when it comes to just enjoying myself I find it impossible and just leave. I hat... | self.Anxiety |
I want to kill myself (disclaimer) But I never will, I’m too scared because I think I’d mess up, just like how I mess up everything else in life. I’m so pathetic, the only thing that keeps me going is that I’m too comfortable where I am, so if I were to give up I’d be someplace shittier. | self.depression |
A good thing happened to me but I still feel like dying I try to convince myself that I should be happy that good things happen to me and that I have good things people don't have (clean water, food etc) but i still feel like dying and don't see the point of living. I really don't wanna be old and like, what's the diff... | self.depression |
The only time I ever enjoyed life was when I was playing a videogame They say you have to chase the feeling of happiness you used to experience in your past. That you have to find that again.
That ain't gonna help me none. All I ever cared about was playing videogames and maybe playing recreational sports. I didn't ca... | self.depression |
I feel like I’m not good enough for love. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Lost my entire support network of "friends" wishing to better my life within the last year. I should really kill myself. When society is the standard, nobody will tolerate someone that can't live up to it. Why do I even exist if my limits caused by my depression, anxiety, and Asperger's combine to make it seem like I'm... | self.SuicideWatch |
I got no idea whats going to happen to me , my future. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I’m worried about where my life and mind is going... First post here, I have a light depression that i’m feeling is only getting worse. Nobody reaches out to me unless i talk to them first, except for my mother i wonder how long it would take for anyone to notice if i disappeared. Almost 18 with no talents, ambitions o... | self.depression |
Cant keep this to myself any longer I was in a relationship with a guy from work. He got moved to a different job site and cheated on me with a new colleague so I broke up with him. It's less than 3 months since we split and I got moved on to the same job. They are now in a relationship and I have to catch the work bus... | self.offmychest |
Classic mistake - I fell for my roommate This is gonna be a long one folks, hopefully it'll at least help me clear my head.
Backstory - I (26F) moved in with two guys (27M) two years ago, and up until last year it was perfect. We all got along great, hung out together, smoked weed together. We had and still have so man... | self.offmychest |
One of the three positive things in my life just left. PM me if u wanna know more I guess... | self.SuicideWatch |
What do you think of me? I’m fourteen years old. I’m an only child, living with my mother and father. My father is very easy-going towards me, but has anger issues when it comes to his job and his life. My mother is very supportive towards me playing soccer, (which I’ve been playing since I was five) and has paid an en... | self.depression |
Put on 5 kilos in 3 weeks after moving to a new location for a job Fuck i hate how much this shit affects me. Moved to a new location for a job and very quickly, depressive episode that I can't get myself out of, although it's very minor. Can't bring myself to exercise, and I'm craving junk food so bad... urgh... I nee... | self.bipolar |
Tired and depressed about working in customer support A bit of an explanation. I work at customer support at a software company. Today I had something which could have been a minor incident. Yet it caused me to break down at home.
The situation was that the customer did something in a game of my company. He wanted the... | self.depression |
Does anybody else feel the beginnings of a panic attack when studying/doing university work in general? Never used to be like this, usually, I only panic when I procrastinate, but now when I sit down and feel the whole brunt and burden of what I have to complete in one-month absolutely paralyzes me. Usually, within an ... | self.Anxiety |
All I want for Christmas is a woman to go to lunch with. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I say "I wanna fucking die" to myself out loud at least 10 times a day. I have an appointment with a psychiatrist on the 12th but I don't know if I can make it that long | self.SuicideWatch |
This past week-ish has felt so relatively mostly good that I'm terrified the next low I hit is going to be really really bad i've gotten an urge to cut a couple times this week but I was somehow able to resist it, and I've pretty much entirely been able to function this past week, and no suicidal thoughts/urges or anyt... | self.depression |
My best friend confessed to me My stomachs doing flips and not the happy kind. She's been my best friend for a good 4 years. However I have a girlfriend of 2 and a half years although the relationship has been tiring and well making me unhappy for a while now.
I feel sick for even making all these comparisons in my h... | self.offmychest |
I am so ready for valentines day to be over What a fucking exhausting holiday, just being reminded constantly that you're not special and youre just a regular piece of shit subhuman | self.SuicideWatch |
I’m used to coping alone, but now I’m married. How do I let my husband in to help with my depression and anxiety? He says I constantly push him away. I’ve been alone for so many years that it’s my default to deal with everything on my own. I do tend to isolate myself when I have an episode, and before I got married tha... | self.depression |
I'm not meant for this place. I know guys are supposed to be strong but I'm very weak, I can't fight these thoughts anymore. Maybe my parents are right and I'm worthless for not already graduating uni and I've failed them. I medically withdrew from the semester because otherwise it's failures across the board. I've fai... | self.SuicideWatch |
I just dont know what to do anymore I'm a 24 year old male who's short (165 cm) and underweight (40kg) and I've never been taken seriously by anyone because I look like I'm 13 even though I've always been the oldest from my family. I have problems getting along with people because they just see me as some kid and you c... | self.depression |
TIL about the Libya slave trade I can't believe something so cruel came back just like that. People don't deserve this. People don't deserve to be raped, killed, or stripped of their rights just because they won't work. This needs to stop. | self.depression |
I don’t have anything worth being around for in my life. All I do is go to school and go home. My friends barely remember me. Guys have never shown any interest me and never will. My life is just pointless. Even when I graduate, I’ll just live to pay bills and be alone and forgotten. My life is nothing. It was never an... | self.depression |
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