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This year is a total trainwreck Hello /r/depression.
I am in a deep depression due to what happened this year.
First thing first I originally work for a web hosting company at Houston making $40,000k. I live in a decent apartment, drive a nice SUV.
The first occurrence is when my roommate I talk to everyday died of ... | self.depression |
I feel lost and i don't know where the damn map is. Hey. It's Mac again. Im probably wasting my time, and yours, typing this shit out. I just got no idea where to go in life. I'm just lost, I feel like I won't have a future to be proud of. I'll probably end up being a drunk piece of shit in ten years from now. Still ai... | self.depression |
People say anything to get you to shut up People can hurt you so much and show no remorse. When I was younger people would hurt me and I felt like I didn’t have a voice. Now I’m older people just tell me to get over it, or that I’m attention seeking. I’m just trying to talk about the things that have happened to me.
... | self.depression |
I need to unload, I need to find a way to stop feeling like a failure...I need to be okay not being okay cw; sexual assault, child sexual abuse
A month ago my partner of just under 4 years broke up with me, then moved out from our house the same day. We had a cat together, a car together, an entire life together. He j... | self.offmychest |
I Just Thought I Saw A Worm In My Water Cup Hey everyone,
Emetophobe here, intense and life controlling fear of throwing up. Also a connoisseur of dissociation, OCD, GAD and a recovering hypochondriac :)
So anyways I'm starting to realize how completely irrational and stupid my thought processes are. So I was drinki... | self.Anxiety |
The more I think about it the more I see my family as a cage I love my family and it makes me hate myself even more than I already do to find myself thinking like this. The closest thing I have to meditation has been thinking how easy it would be to tie a noose, how much better that would be but I know it would destroy... | self.SuicideWatch |
numbness in hands and feet. I've had chronic anxiety my whole life , much worse last year or so after stopping my ADHD medication, my question is does having tingling in tips of fingers and numbness a symptom of Anxiety, I could not find anything online saying it is. | self.Anxiety |
Comics about the lowest Deep and the eruption of the soul These comics are honest transcriptions of my memories, they reflect my experience with my mind and where it went when I lost it.
http://cargocollective.com/Rosiepink/
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I’m trying my hardest to get out this after mania depression that always follows. It’s like I lose all my hobbies, can’t listen to music, just don’t want to do anything. I know this can last months even years. Anyone else want to share about their bi polar depression recovery stories ? | self.bipolar |
I lost all my friends I studied abroad for two years, and just returned to my home country. I contacted my old friends, my college roommates for a reunion, but none of them respond. I thought they must have their own new life, and will not care about me anymore. I am so lonely and isolated in my home country, and worry... | self.depression |
Not sure if psychotic delusion or obsessive thought Alright for the record I have not been formally diagnosed with bipolar, but I do have severe OCD, depression, anxiety and bpd. I'd like to know if this is a psychotic delusion or simply an unpleasant thought I obsess over due to OCD.
Basically I fear that once my par... | self.bipolar |
There is something so satisfying about listening to music at ear bleeding volume [deleted] | self.depression |
Selective mutism during anxiety attacks. My girlfriend is not extremely socially anxious, but when things become stressful, or she is put in a situation where she needs to confront topics shes not too comfortable with, she’s prone to have anxiety attacks.
Three times now she has had anxiety attacks leading to her not... | self.Anxiety |
Want to get help, but don't want family to know Been struggling since 2012. Now its been worse than ever over the last two years with regret and anxieity. Decided tonight i don't want to face it alone and start attending therapy. Feeling quite proud of myself for finally making the decision.
Only problem is i don't r... | self.depression |
I really don't know what's happening, but about half way through my shift at work I started having depressing and suicidal thoughts. None of action, but in general. It doesn't happen too often, but I don't know why. It just hurts.. | self.SuicideWatch |
i don't see the point in living but i'm not suicidal ( SOMEONE NOTICE THIS MESSAGE PLEASE) hey so first just ignore the way this is written i'm french my English is ok but not great .
So i don't want to die but i also don't wan't to live like i just don't see the point of living because in the end we're all just going... | self.depression |
I don’t even know how to title this but this is pissing me off [deleted] | self.depression |
How do I find out? I don't know if this is the right subreddit to ask but I was wondering how I find out if I'm bipolar? Can I go straight to a hospital or do I need to see a therapist or what?
I've grown up angry most of my life and I just turned 22 in December. I'm male idk if there are more chances depending on gen... | self.bipolar |
Bipolar redditors, is anyone else religious? How is the mix of belief and illness working for you? | self.bipolar |
Just found out I have nasal polyps and I’m freaking out. I just got back from the ENT after having pressure on the right side of my forehead/eye for a month. He saw that I had polyps and inflammation on that side of my nose/sinuses that were causing that. He now has me on amoxicillin and prednisone for 10 days which I’... | self.Anxiety |
Just need to vent about life I have so, so many problems. The one that is currently most visceral is the fact that I'm not ok being alone. I'm talking to women who may at some point be fuck-buddies, but I can never be romantic partners with them. That's fine, but I need more. I'm talking to them because I have a hole i... | self.depression |
Has depression sucked the life out of your interests/hobbies? [deleted] | self.depression |
What is depression? “Depression is your body saying fuck you. I dont want to be this character anymore. I dont want to hold up this avatar you’ve created in a world thats too much for me.” - Jim Carrey
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It’s been 6 years. I know no one is going to read this but this has been going on for so long. I’m so young and I’m tired of this. I’m never happy. I don’t believe in love or happiness. It’s gotten to a point where it’s hard to even fake a smile. I’m just falling deeper and deeper in this pit. I’ve tried everything. Th... | self.depression |
Does it ever stop ? I've been suicidal on and off as a child starting at age 10... now my life is good except for I am miserable and just want to die..
I've recently put myself in the hospital and finally agreed to take meds. I felt like such a guinea pig for so long trying to find the right emotion potion. Well lamict... | self.bipolar |
Recycle (poem) Falling, floating
Numb
Reaching for something to cling to
Nothings there
Falling, floating
Try to fight it
Remind me,
Remind me why am I still here?
Speak nothing
I know you care
Falling, floating
Sinking, drowning
Losing the fight
Giving you a smile
Destroying myself inside.
Unable to mo... | self.bipolar |
I'm tired of being conscious. I tried to kill myself for last 2 and half year. I was trying to kill myself by heroin overdose for 2 and half year. Every single time I woke up.
I'm so tired and sick of this shit life. | self.SuicideWatch |
Hey guys! I just wanted to say that I am currently getting straight A’s in all of my courses! One is a pretty easy course but aside from that it’s been the most successful year I’ve ever had and since being diagnosed in January and I have not skipped one class. I only have 6 weeks to go. Wish me luck on exam next Monda... | self.bipolar |
It's been 1 year It's been one year since you left me. I try to only think about you in times like this, where I try think about how far I've come, if I've made any progress at all. I fell back in love with music, my style of music, I even got to see my favorite band in concert on the 1 year mark to the day (funny coin... | self.offmychest |
Lost my job, losing my bf, I hate working and life. I just lost my job for calling in sick, it’s a at will state so meh. I already hated the job and I also have now lost the boyfriend. I’m 19 and I already fucked everything up, a no good for anything high school drop out who hates work anyway. I just can’t do this anym... | self.depression |
I don’t know how to talk As far as I can remember I’ve been bad at conversation, in fact I vividly remember spying on two girls having a conversation and being jealous because I didn’t know how to talk to people. I’m either quiet and don’t speak or I get loud and obnoxious and ramble on and on, I can barely have a conv... | self.Anxiety |
Pointless Guys, this is a cry for help. I'm a new user and I came here to tell you guys my situation. I feel really trapped because I want to kill myself, but I'm afraid to hurt those who care about me (family). If I kill myself, I know very well my parents will cry over my grave and everything. Its eating me from the ... | self.depression |
I'm gonna fail again Everything went to shit right after my first semester.
My grades were shit because I barely studied. I dissapointed my dad yet again, I might loose my dorm room if this financial shit doesn't work out, and I need a 3.0 or I'm going to end up owing a shitload of money.
Thats not even the worst par... | self.depression |
Hello Fell in love this past summer. Didn't know it was possible for me but it happened. It hurt a lot in the beginning. Tend to stay out of relationships, because of my problems. It was a great feeling. I'm hoping it happens again, | self.offmychest |
BP Guy I like in long, depressive episode High 5 to my fellow dudes :) hope you're all OK!
I just wanted to ask for a bit of insight from guys who suffer from long down episodes if you don't mind! I'm 35f, I tend to rapid swing and haven't had a long, bad down phase for a while.
I met and got to know a fellow bipola... | self.bipolar |
Current mood In a very “what’s the point attitude”. My boyfriend and I had a talk about getting engaged. Nearly broke us up. Not sure how to process what he said. I just wanted to be mean and ugly and I couldn’t, I was too hurt. He says it’s for other reasons.. I know it’s me. I don’t know why he’s with me. I’m startin... | self.depression |
I left my home and bf of 5-6 years started all over again alone( update from the hotel post) [deleted] | self.bipolar |
A Dichotomy of Heart and Mind Hello people of Reddit!
Due to my Asperger's, I used to be an aggressive person. I enjoyed being feared, and having power over others. Looking back, I honestly doubt I had friends back then.
Luckily, I got rid of that side with some counselling and stuff, and things were better. I became a... | self.offmychest |
I'm constantly depressed and I don't Know why. I'm just an 18-year-old high school student. I also just want to die. But I have no idea why I want to so bad. I just got accepted into college, I have an amazing and loving boyfriend, my grades are good, I have a good family, and things are going alright.
But I still wa... | self.SuicideWatch |
Do you guys ever feel so depressed that you feel uncomfortable in your body? This has been happening a lot lately and I never know how to deal with it and my reactions have been getting more and more self destructive. It just feels so hard to just sit there and deal with it. Does anyone understand what I'm saying and d... | self.depression |
I want opinions Well, my gf and I, we both have 16 years and we have some time thinking about a baby. Times before we have been in the situation that we get scared about a possible pregnancy but the thing is that we get scared but we say that if it happens, we would work it out. We have been talking about having a baby... | self.offmychest |
I can't fucking do this anymore Tonight I'm ending it, I can't live like this.
I'm sorry Anne
I'm sorry Saraynia
I'm sorry to my family who will mourn me for the rest of their lives
I'm sorry to everyone of my friends who tried to save me
I'm sorry to everyone of my friends who I could never tell
I'm sorry to eve... | self.SuicideWatch |
Do you get colds often? My immune system sucks, I basically get a cold monthly and sometimes bi-monthly. I feel it sneaking up on me now . I have my questions that these frequent colds are from my anxiety keeping me up and lack of sleep and stress. Does this affect anyone else? | self.depression |
Life isn’t enough for me and it will never be enough. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
How does the psychologist /know/ you're bipolar? Are there any test or do they just go off of what you say? I'm pretty sure i've had two hypomanic episodes in the past two months and now i'm in a really deep depression. My friends are urging me to go to a psychologist. I've been formally diagnosed with OCD, and thats e... | self.bipolar |
Just Looking To Vent To Someone I have a KIK, please PM me so we can share accounts to talk there.
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Things just keep getting worse and I feel so trapped. Too pained to keep living and too scared to die.
Just looking for someone I can trust to vent too, with no judgement.
I'm a 24/female, in an abusive realtionsh... | self.SuicideWatch |
im done man Im just done. This isn't a suicide note, thats not on the table, but im just feeling pretty done rn. something needs to change. i dont want to do anything. im done doing anything. my brain is exhausted. its been years now, im done. im just gunna eat some fucking mac n cheese, see what happens next. i dont c... | self.Anxiety |
What are your go-to Songs when you're Down? I have a few songs that I listen to to help with my mood in both cases. But, my go-to when I'm down is Metropolis Pt. 1 by Dream Theater.
Lyrically, it has no impact, but the fact that it's so complex and fun to listen to (plus DT is my favourite band) forces me to concentrat... | self.bipolar |
too scared to die. everyone has friends.. and people they can hang out with. I feel like no one really understands me. I feel like i’m walking through life with nobody. I always think about killing myself. just ending it all. im too scared though. I know no one would even care that I was gone or miss me. my whole famil... | self.SuicideWatch |
I don’t know what to do anymore... I have been at the point of suicide many times before. One time being saved by my sister by taking the knife out of my hand. Haven’t truly been happy for as long as I can remember. Whenever happy comes up it’s very short and is always overshadowed by the same darkness that is with me ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Yesterday I finally deleted more than two thousand junk emails from over a month of neglect. I also updated two hundred apps. Now to get over the showing every damn second I'm not expected somewhere. | self.depression |
What low cost aids for depression are out there? [deleted] | self.depression |
After using Shrooms for the first time, I truly want to kill myself. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm afraid that one day the police are going to show up at my door and tell me that he finally killed you. I know I can't talk to you about this, because we both know I have tried. You're a counselor, a therapist, you can hide these truths from yourself better than I can expose them to you.
But I heard you talking ton... | self.offmychest |
How to talk to a doctor I've been feeling like I Might be suffering from anxiety recently with a lot going on in my life recently. I never want to do anyrjing I used to love doing, Ill double triple think almost everything over before I do it, trying to give my self ant reason not to, just don't have motivation to do a... | self.Anxiety |
Crying that is actually painful? I keep having this problem, and now it has happened twice in the past six days. I get so down that I just sit down and cry. Physiologically speaking, when we get upset, that actually affects heart rate. I just wonder if anyone else has the same issue.
I feel like my heart hurts. Maybe ... | self.depression |
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Tried to kill myself the other day (took a bunch of pills) but nothing happened.
A few months ago my mom told me I’d never be able to have a job. The other day my bf told me he didn’t think I’d be able to work unless my ptsd and... | self.SuicideWatch |
Anxiety causing me to want to back out of a possible work promotion I applied for a higher up position at work about a week ago. At first, I was all for it and was super excited. The group of people in that position have said they wanted me over in the department for awhile now, so I know I have a good chance at gettin... | self.Anxiety |
anyone else not feel comforted when someone says youre not alone? obviously im not in a good spot, i just made a reddit account and this is my very first post. things are going great /s. anyways, whenever my friends, who do mean well, say im not alone that doesnt help me at all. like, why would i feel better that other... | self.SuicideWatch |
I was recently Prescribed Vicodin after a procedure and I noticed that the Hydrocodone completely eliminates any of my anxiety problems and makes everything feel amazing. Are there any non-narcotic options out there that have a similar effect in Relieving anxiety? Don't want to pick up an opiate addiction, plus I'd lik... | self.Anxiety |
Considering ending it. Ill get straight to it. I'm so fucking alone.
The few friends I had in the past were holding me back from moving my life forward so I removed them from my life. My family doesnt understand me at all and my 3 siblings all have another dad. We had very different childhoods, they basically grew up ... | self.SuicideWatch |
First Time With Real Suuicidal Thoughts - Maybe Bipolar Hi. This is a novel so I don't expect anyone to read it and I am too exhausted to proof read. I don't have a bipolar diagnosis but I think that might be my issue. I have had anxiety and depression issues for about 13 years. I have been taking Effexor for most ... | self.bipolar |
Ive only been manic after weed binges, is it just a matter of time? I'm wondering if it's possible for me that the marijuana is the only thing that will induce mania. I have only been manic twice in my life and both times i was heavily smoking. I'd notice random signs of mania leading up to my psychosis and actual man... | self.bipolar |
Depression has turned me into an introvert I've struggled with depression for a long time. It's gotten worse lately, and one thing I've noticed is that I get drained quickly in social situations. Whether this is from constantly hiding my feelings behind a smile or just from fatigue, I don't know. But more often than no... | self.depression |
Just found myself reading obituaries and feeling jealous of the ones who died young. I'd never kill myself, but sometimes I just wish I'd die suddenly and painlessly so everyone else could move on, and I'd stop feeling this way and making my loved ones put up with me, constantly having to prop me up. | self.depression |
I feel like really I just enjoy being sad [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
please stop lying to me saying it's going to get better it's not going to get better
I don't wanna be here anymore | self.SuicideWatch |
First winter depression in 2 years is bursting right through my medication, what do? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Ironic how death makes you feel less lonely? Perhaps it is one of those jokes of the universe, but since seriously considering leaving life behind due a complex mixture of broken relationships, the conviction that I am a burden to others and an ironic recognition of the fact that humanity's greatest tragedy is it's sel... | self.SuicideWatch |
I hate my friends kid He has issues. His mom has tried everything. I don't even like kids much less little fuck hole kids. I cannot stand him. I can't stand the way he begs and begs and begs and whines and whines and whines "because he has OCD." I can not stand the way he acts. I can't stand him. I can't. I just can't.... | self.offmychest |
I feel so empty Like an actual husk walking around. Going through the motions day in and day out. I'm not sure if I *actually* have depression because getting actually tested for it would make it too real for me. I wish I could just check out for a month or so and deal with myself. | self.depression |
I kinda just want to vent to someone I don't know, I want to vent to someone and I don't know who to talk to, I feel like no one will listen anyway | self.depression |
How do I help my suicidal friend living across the country, and what are you supposed to say except for those "just keep holding on" & "it will get better soon"s you've already heard a million times? I have no idea if this even fits here but I'll give it a try. I am trying to help and support my friend (who lives on th... | self.SuicideWatch |
I've been having uncontrollable bouts of rage when I get with depression but when I see a therapist I can't bring it up Whenever something goes wrong I have extremely violent thoughts but lately I've found it hard to control these thoughts, they build up inside me and it burns with seething rage, sometimes at somebody ... | self.SuicideWatch |
How do you keep from killing yourself when you have nothing and nobody? Long story short, I'm a 24yo woman with no friends, no boyfriend, and have lost interest in everything. Have struggled with depression for at least 15 years. Have tried therapy and every antidepressant on the market. Everyone I've loved has either ... | self.SuicideWatch |
How the the trump administration and North Korea are in a way..Sapping my will to live. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Do you ever feel like you can manage w/o doctor/meds? I don't have a diagnosis, but I'm pretty sure I have BD. My mom was diagnosed with it. I think my sister has it.
Just a few extreme examples:
A couple years ago my lease on my apartment was ending. I spent a couple days driving all over town looking at new places... | self.bipolar |
i want to kill myself it feels like the pain is too much sometimes. i dont WANT to die. i want to be someone else. i dont want to be me. i dont want to feel the pain anymore. i wont ever be happy. thats not meant for me. i will always be sad. and i just feel like one day i wont be able to take it and the pain will be t... | self.SuicideWatch |
Newly diagnosed Bipolar looking for support and somewhere to vent All of my social media platforms are shared with family and friends, have nowhere to openly rant about society. So here I am! Almost two months ago I finally got my diagnosis after years of instability. Learning to live a different- routined life has bee... | self.bipolar |
Feel like I fake my panic attacks It sounds so stupid but after I have a panic attack all I can tell myself is “you faked that”, “you’re so attention seeking” even though I blatantly know I didn’t. It’s such a bad mindset but I can’t get out of it, I think it’s because I know when they’re going to happen but I choose n... | self.Anxiety |
I have a length of rope hidden in a laptop case I'm 16 years old. I bought some rope yesterday and I hid it in a laptop case lying on top of my wardrobe. My next objective is obtaining a bottle of vodka to make "doing it" easier.
I'm not an emo, my parents aren't divorced, I'm not extremely poor. I have no real reason... | self.SuicideWatch |
Has anyone thought about therapy but haven't gone to the doctor yet because you don't know what to say? . | self.depression |
We only went on one date, broke up with him due to timing issues, but now I'm crying my eyes out. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I'm wrong for wanting to live my life by my own terms; why? I come from a Chinese family that came to Australia about 30 years ago. My parents have done their best to assimilate and know enough English to get by in unfamiliar areas outside of their community. I have an older sibling that grew up here and did well in sc... | self.offmychest |
What's the difference between feeling anxious and having an anxiety attack? Is an anxiety attack just a bout of worse anxiety? A lot of the time I'll just suddenly start to get anxious and I'll have physical symptoms where I'm shaking and feel really off. I also less frequently have the stereotypical, hyperventilating ... | self.Anxiety |
I’ve been taking depakote for almost 6 years and my pdoc is now switching me to lamictal and abilify. Anybody with a similar experience, I’d like to know if you liked the latter better. I know everyone is different but I’m really tired of what the depakote has done to me and my life so it would be great to hear some po... | self.bipolar |
I think I might be Bi. Not sure how to handle this. I have always had it rooted in the back of my mind that I just might be a little bit into men, but I always pushed that thought away because I didn't want to accept it and I knew others wouldn't accept me for it. But last night I might have confirmed that I might not ... | self.offmychest |
Today I did something I’ve never done before I gave a guy my number on a slip of paper. It’s pretty cheesy but it was exciting to me and I’m happy I did it.
I was at work - I work for the city monitoring public parking lots on the beach & giving tickets when needed. I was with my coworker in our work vehicle and ... | self.offmychest |
Me Depression is such a strange word is it not. A word that destroys a persons heart when they hear it aimed towards them. That's exactly how I felt when my mother first said it to me, she said "Honey I think you have depression. I'm so sorry I don't know where it all went wrong for you." Those two sentences are what d... | self.offmychest |
I don't want to fight this alone anymore I don't want to be alone anymore. But I'm afraid of reaching out. I'm afraid that I'm just not cut out for life. Like there are requirements you have to meet in order to be a part of humanity. And I don't meet these. I'm bound for being alone and ultimately suicide. I hope I'm w... | self.depression |
I don't have friends because I have anxiety, I have anxiety because I don't have friends. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Sometimes I feel as if depression is my friend So, this hasn't happened recently, but it may come back. Sometimes, when I lie in bed, I feel that my room is the only place in the universe and that everything that I know outside of it is just my mind. Then I talk to myself, but in second person. I say things about how w... | self.depression |
Love being single [NAW] So this is really just me venting because I've gone back to my hometown and have therefore gone back in time 50 years, apparently. Maybe longer. Maybe I've gone back in time 100 years to the time before women's suffrage. That's what it feels like socially. Like women are working because everyone... | self.offmychest |
My first relationship is ending I think and it's fucking awful. im in my mid 20s and so is she. im so late in the game probably because of depression my entire life and probably being around nothing but women in my family and just disliking how everyone of them acts.
i finally meet someone on tinder and it's been ove... | self.offmychest |
When you are bipolar and your post could belong to so many other subreddits, but you revert to r/bipolar cos you know “it’s like home there”. I’ve forgotten what my post was about, blame it on pervasive or co-morbid ADD. Nevertheless, tell me what’s in your mind tonight. Tsk! We do emphathize | self.bipolar |
Ever since I was diagnosed with herpes I’ve thought about killing myself everyday [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I'm sorry Throwaway because you know my Reddit username.
I said something awful to you last night. I said it because I was frustrated from work, but that's no excuse. You didn't do anything wrong, and I chose to say hurtful things. You ignored me for an hour, but then you talked to me. When I asked why you chose not ... | self.offmychest |
Need help - anxiety post-sparring I’ll keep it short.
I’ve never had major anxiety before.
Tonight I just did an mma fighting class, something I’ve never done.
It was exhausting to my max but I was fine straight after.
It’s been a couple of hours and the adrenaline has worn off and I’m having a bad anxiety attack. My... | self.Anxiety |
Violent panic attacks when in a car. I am on vacation, and even the plane ride to get here was hell for me. The take off and that stomach lurch you can get during it is pretty much the basis of my anxiety. I feel out of control and that makes me anxious. But now i can get that stomach lurch from just walking certain pl... | self.Anxiety |
Xmas day and I want to die I don't understand. I have things that a lot of people don't have: family, friends, and enough to live on. But it doesn't seem to make me like this time of year any more. I don't like having to live through the holidays. I physically don't think I'm able to make it. All I want to do is die. I... | self.depression |
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