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I feel like I've reached a point of no return For the past five months I've been trying to finish 5 college classes. I had past due projects in them and was told by my professors that they would accept the late work.
In July I was told by one professor she had change her mind since I missed a deadline. I asked her to... | self.SuicideWatch |
This is so stupid, but I can't shake the disappointment. You said we could play the game on Friday. And then you said that maybe we could play it that night on Saturday, when I finally gave up and played it on my own, and when we didn't you said definitely today. I've been really looking forwards to playing it together... | self.offmychest |
I feel like since my sister committed suicide, I'm not allowed to anymore. Ever since I was in elementary or middle school I've been suicidal. I tried to kill myself for the first time when I was about 12, then again when I was 18 (I'm 25 now). I've always been fairly vocal about my depression among my family (maybe pa... | self.depression |
First day of school after Spring Break (1 week off) and my anxiety was worst than ever. School started back after a week off for spring break and at the beginning I was feeling okay and since I got to school earlier than usual I decided to eat breakfast but as I was eating my stomach started to hurt so I just threw i... | self.Anxiety |
Sadness is like trying to climb out of a pit with a slippery slope, its very easy to fall deeper but hard to get out of [deleted] | self.depression |
Abilify and alcohol Does anyone use abilify and alcohol? I just want to drink sometimes, not often. I remember I drank alcohol once and it was fine, the second time I got really tired suddenly. Like I needed to sleep right away all. Since then I've not used alcohol anymore. But since I'm on abilify for about two months... | self.bipolar |
Help me please. I feel so guilty for my parents, I have a sister with autism, arthritis, and a plethora of other disabilities and I feel so bad that I turned out like this, I'm depressed and bipolar and I'm addicted to pills. I feel so bad they have to deal with me and I don't think I can take it anymore.
My girlfrien... | self.depression |
Listening to Linkin Park tonight/this morning,as i did on Christmas eve/day. I noticed as it turned 00.00, 1/1/2018, "Somewhere i belong" was just finishing. I really hope this is the year that i find somewhere i belong [removed] | self.depression |
Feel really down for doing bad in something I believe I'm good at. Just fail on something I've been good at. There are not many things that I can say I'm good at. That's why it hurts so much, especially when I once believed I could do it well.
Feeling really inadequate and I'm so upset and disappointed of myself that ... | self.offmychest |
Tired of everything I'm just so tired. Tired of feeling like I can't breathe because I'm so overwhelmed, tired of alternating between feeling numb and devastatingly sad, tired of having to put in what feels like a mountain of effort just to do the smallest tasks, tired of putting on a happy face, and tired of being so ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Procrastination Anxiety? A few months ago I suffered severe psychological trauma and although I’m getting better, I’ve noticed something new. I have horrible constant anxiety that gets worse when I have to do something such as study for a chem exam or check my emails. I then don’t do them and procrastinate, which in tu... | self.Anxiety |
Fuck. Is this real suicidality?!?!? Weird feeling like i don't want to get better. Scary impulses please read. **So first of all i will write what happened a few minutes ago, then i will post my story above. So i am suffering from HOPEFULLY INTRUSIVE SUICIDAL THOUGHTS and many other weird feelings for the last 4 months... | self.SuicideWatch |
How do you motivate yourself to exercise and lose some weight when you're battling crippling depression? The title says all. | self.depression |
Bipolar disorder mistaken for lyme disease Has anyone heard of this or possibly been misdiagnosed? I'm seriously convinced I could have lyme disease. I've been on a downward spiral plane crash into a school bus for the last three years and I can't except a pure bipolar diagnoses. I used to be soo active and into fitnes... | self.bipolar |
I'm slipping into depression and i want it to stop. [deleted] | self.depression |
How do i recover from what my baby mom has done to me? I have been celibate & single for 6 years, no dates or hook ups and no continued conversations with any girls. Even the ones i like i just can't trust and find some way to cut them off, my BM destroyed me mentally, we had a child she at first made me think our... | self.depression |
Im super desperate to get out there and live a life but I’m stuck in my house because I’m ugly... I'm a 6 foot tall male lanky, slim build...aged 27. Some say I look younger others say I don't. I'm a virgin and never kissed, and it used tinder and no matches (pics below) because I put it down to only chiseled 10/10 hun... | self.SuicideWatch |
Experienced automatic breathing for the first time I have remembered! Hey y'all,
I have been experimenting lately by micro-dosing psychedelics at night to work on my subconscious while i sleep. Usually, I'm able to sleep through them, which is weird, considering they are stimulants.
Tonight, I was awakened by my d... | self.depression |
Today a coworker told me I was “ungrateful” for moving... Recently, I moved across the country. My mother was abusive and I hated where I lived, so two years ago, I cut my mother off and after graduation, I moved across the country to live with my dad. I got a job recently too. A coworker of mine today, after she’d bad... | self.depression |
What do you do with people that try to shut you out, take your credit, or put you down? [deleted] | self.depression |
Everyone hates me My head hurts with all this depression. I have no friends no one to reach out to. I hate my life. | self.depression |
Any research assistants? I'm too scared to apply to a RA position in population health because of anxiety and low self esteem. [deleted] | self.depression |
Advice for a partner so my boyfriend has generalised anxiety disorder and recently had a panic attack with derealisation and i tried to do what i could to help but i panicked and felt like i couldn’t do anything. i was hoping someone could give me some advice on how to help him when these things happen? Thanks! | self.Anxiety |
Death is so appealing to me. The comforting feeling.
I am tired, drained. I feel empty, weak, nothing left inside. I have been struggling with social phobia and depression since i was 11, and 17 years later, nothing has changed.
I started therapy one and a half years ago. The worst thing that could happen, happened ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel lonelier by the day I started university this year and started out with a few friends I'd talked to online before coming here. I also made some friends on my course. One of my closest friends (a girl I'd talked to online before coming) gets on new guys every so often and when she does I get abandoned. I just got... | self.depression |
I made so many mistakes last night and I hate myself [deleted] | self.depression |
Unsatisfied DONT TAKE THIS THE WRONG WAY I ABSOLUTELY LOVEEEE MY BOYFRIEND. I do I love him for who he is. He's sweet caring loving emotional and supportive. Of course he has his faults. But one thing I want to get off my chest is he doesnt satisfy me anymore. We been together over 5 months and at the bringing things w... | self.offmychest |
Any depressed seniors going to prom? Stupid thing to ask I know, just wondering. | self.depression |
Fuck You Brain... Fuck You... I'm About Done with this Shit... # ***I've always dealt with getting mad easily and I fucking hate it!***
I don't even notice it happening, and when I do I'm tense, my fight or flight has kicked in, ***I'm a fighter***, and I don't even think clear thoughts at that point. It's so easy f... | self.offmychest |
Why are people such assholes? Can someone give me the answer? | self.depression |
Looking for Perspective An old and close friend suffers from terrible depression. She's really been struggling since September, when her meds were changed. At times she's responded to my emails checking in, other times not.
On Saturday, my mom died, and I let my friend know. There has been no response from her at all.... | self.depression |
I can never imagine why anyone would want to be your brother. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I Want to Kill Myself After My Parents Are Dead. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Questions about mania. I think I had true mania yesterday.
I couldn't stand it, at all. It was so awful.
I slept about 13 hours, but I felt so awful. I thought I'd fall asleep really early.
Well, I didn't. I stayed up for quite a while and felt like complete shit all day.
I felt incredibly tired for most of the... | self.bipolar |
I have trouble believing anyone cares. I just feel like I'm seen as a means to an end, and more importantly, that is how I see myself. I'm stuck in a shitty job that takes my free time for minimum wage, I can't help but feel that my "friends" only care as long as I entertain them and have no other way of making friend... | self.SuicideWatch |
I just need someone to talk to I dont know if this goes here but i dont know where else to go... i dont really know how to put it into words but i can try my best. Every single night my mind likes to reminds itself about every single thing that i fucked up. Some how i think about something and BOOM im thinking about s... | self.SuicideWatch |
It doesn't feel like anything but pain is real. I'm insanely disconnected and unhappy and need to hear from someone [deleted] | self.depression |
Really really bad anxiety/social anxiety Does anybody else have 'crippling' anxiety?? When I'm out in public I feel like it's the end of the world, I always wanna go back home and I feel like my whole family will die if I'm not there (irrational thoughts) I know they're irrational but my anxiety is so bad that it ruins... | self.Anxiety |
Instead of suicide, why not let your death make a difference. Join the military and die for your country if fate shall have it Over 10 years of painful depression and this is just a thought. What do you think | self.depression |
Speech on monday I have to give a 5-7 minutes speech in front of my class on Monday, and it has been on my mind 24/7. I nearly had a panic attack at my birthday dinner yesterday. It's on a topic I have a lot of interest in but feel like I don't do well explaining things, I've always felt that way. My teacher had some t... | self.Anxiety |
Bailed on second night in a row It's pretty aggravating. I'm trying to have friends. It just feels like I'm always the one putting the effort, people always move the time or bail. Idk what to do, it's not like I can get better friends with time management, I don't know where I would meet them. Not feeling so depressed... | self.depression |
I’ve taken what feels like a huge step backwards. I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression since I was around 8 y/o. It’s been up and down- the worst including being suicidal and not being able to leave my house for a few months. In the past couple of years however things have been so much better than I even thought ... | self.Anxiety |
I hate myself more than anything in the world [deleted] | self.depression |
Someone I know attempted suicide, and now I’m getting thoughts again. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Please help me out... Advice??? Hey, if you will.. go read my last post. Any advice may help me I hope | self.depression |
I can't come to terms with things I missed out on earlier in life, or that I'm too old for some women [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I learned how to tie a noose today I want to use it. I'm afraid of dying but I don't want to live anymore. | self.SuicideWatch |
TIL I can't have best friends of the opposite sex. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
ranting about my life I feel like my friends at school aren't really my friends. They never invite me any where and every time I ask why I wasn't invited to something ,when everybody else was, they always come up with bullshit reasons why.
The small group of people who I see outside of school around once a week are no... | self.depression |
I'm at such a loss... So I never thought to check if there was a subreddit for this kind of thing until today, and I don't know why I suddenly want to share this but I do. Maybe someone can help me figure out what the hell is wrong with me...
I was never a popular kid in high school due to being socially awkward becau... | self.depression |
How can I talk to my friends about suicide? I just found out that another one of my friends tried committing suicide. That makes 2 attempted, 1 accidental, and 3 successful suicides of my friends. I just don't know what to do anymore. I want my friends to be happy; I want all of this to stop. I can't go to another fune... | self.SuicideWatch |
Pdoc appointment pushed back My pdoc appointment got pushed back about a week, but I only had enough abilify to get to the appointment. Should I just ride it out and see how it goes with out, or see if my family doc will give me a 10 day script?
(She was against antipsychotics/moodstabilizers before my diagnosis, and ... | self.bipolar |
DO NOT harm yourself to spite someone else We will not feel sorry. We will not feel guilty. If we've taken steps back already, we've accepted there is nothing we can do- I concede that I am literally powerless in the face of your own self-destruction.
Yes, it does suck watching someone you love drink poison, even wors... | self.offmychest |
What can I do when my friend has a depressive episode? I like my friend a lot and I have been with him through this thing he is going through an I've been there to support him through it and what not. I was the first person he told when his psychiatrist diagnosed him. I don't really understand this condition, I have tr... | self.depression |
Making no progress in getting over a not so recent breakup. This is a bit of a long one, sorry in advance
My ex is active on reddit so this is a throwaway and I won't use her real name.
So a little background, I met Megan at a party towards the end of my A-levels (Pre University exams in the UK). We talked loads and... | self.offmychest |
What to do when your manic ideas become reality? Or is this just called following through?
Within a month I quit a job, flew up for an interview, moved half-way across the country, and am now sitting in a tiny room I'm renting with no friends/family anywhere close to me.
I have a job, which is good, but it's one that... | self.bipolar |
I feel confused I used have suicidal depression about a year ago now (or maybe it kinda never left?). Since then I have kinda had long bouts of sadness, though it dosn't really feel the same, it just kinda happens and for no reason, recently it feels like all my freinds are leaving me because of this and because how I'... | self.depression |
Falling deeper into depression F17. Everything for me has been crap lately. Whether its a home, work, the stupid school i go to, my social life, etc... having depression sucks. I wake up feeling like i go through the same cycle everyday. I always feel like crap. I barely have friends. People always leave... and i’m try... | self.offmychest |
I'm committing to living. Any support appreciated. The catch-22 of wanting to die is that while the best way to prevent it is to tell people, i would do anything not to have the police forcibly take me to a hospital and lock me up there. so i lie to my friends, my family, and my therapists just to avoid that outcome. I... | self.SuicideWatch |
Yeah Man I'm steady chasing my own tail, the fear in me another word for hell, self inflicted so these flames burn more, still going through life wandering how much more?, in a state of limbo, feeling like I don't know where to go, repeating this process with no effort, mama wandering why I can't show no real ef... | self.offmychest |
Experiencing a setback during third week of Prozac I’m on my third week of Prozac and was feeling really great. Since Christmas each day has been worse and worse. I now am now having anxiety when trying to sleep and have barely slept in two days. Anyone have any advice on this? Has anyone experienced a set back when st... | self.Anxiety |
Everytime I say anything to anyone they roll their eyes at me No matter what it is and it makes me suicidal. | self.depression |
Noticing my heart rate is satisfying when it is low. The discomfort of it racing or noticing my BPM screws my head up. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
CBS News Interviews Dr. Ashraf Hanna - Breakthrough Depression Treatment with IV Ketamine CBS news visited the Florida Spine Institute in Clearwater, Florida to interview Dr. Ashraf Hanna and find out more about his breakthrough for treatment-resistant depression with IV Ketamine Infusion Therapy. #depression #nopainha... | self.depression |
Does anyone else here not really have any hobbies? I just feel like everything, including watching tv/movies and playing video games is a waste of time. | self.depression |
Can't settle on a career. It's getting closer to a conference between my counselor and my parents regarding the career I'm planning on choosing in life. Problem is that my entire life, I couldn't and can't settle on what I want to do. When I view a profession, I see two sides to it, and the negative side makes me not w... | self.offmychest |
I want to kill myself
I have these weird mood swings.
Normally I feel dull for 2-3 weeks, after that get “super motivated” and ready to change my life (I feel like I can achieve anything) , and when I fail to do something I blame myself and the depression kicks in for another week, if worse 2-3 weeks. I begin to ov... | self.depression |
Life is a cruel joke Where do I begin?
I was raised the eldest of 3 children (younger brother and younger sister). My family didn't have much, but we always had a nice home and food on the table. I was a promising student with grade A marks.
Then high-school hit. It was a TOTALLY differnet environment then what I was... | self.SuicideWatch |
I always fall for the girls I can't have So this sucks. Basically fell in love with a girl but there's no way this could work out because not only has she made it clear that she is not interested in any of the guys that go to school with her, but she also has a boyfriend.
The worst thing is that I even know that I cou... | self.depression |
What if i dont care.... I have a question; let me give some context. I can think of, and have heard of billion logical reasons why I shouldn't commit suicide. Think of your family, your friends, your teachers! I know, I know...... but I don't care. Even according to my own beliefs, which I view as more important than a... | self.SuicideWatch |
I’m 30. I wish I had never seen porn as an early teenager (13/14) as it has warped my perception of myself that I have never been able to let go off and I’m beyond repair. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Need advice For Christmas, I had asked my mom if she could sew me a cover for my weighted blanket (which is amazing if anxiety makes it hard to sleep. Would highly recommend). I had measured the blanket and given her the dimensions, but had also suggested that she look up the dimensions of the original blanket, which s... | self.Anxiety |
I honestly can’t tell if I’m paranoid Type 2 and I have had a lot of paranoia in the past. Decently bad where I was convinced certain things were true, and the little voice was still there but not loud enough to stop me.
Stable now. Have been for a long time. A year maybe. Only a day or two ago I told my husband about... | self.bipolar |
I feel delusional for thinking we have unfinished business [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Everytime i put effort it slaps me in the face [deleted] | self.depression |
I’ve tried everything and i can’t calm down I think i’m having some sort of a manic episode
Usually whenever i feel like this i just smoke weed but i’ve run out and can’t get anymore so i’ve got no idea what to do, i just sit here and watch tv and there’s so much shit going on in my head it’s like voices telling me to... | self.Anxiety |
I feel like I’ve gotten stupider recently I’m not sure if this is the right place to post this but I feel like I’ve gotten stupider recently. I’m having trouble learning and remembering things in school. Before now, I was able to remember specific details even years after I initially learned them. This feeling of getti... | self.depression |
for the last year everyday I have been thinking about suicide Not that I am currently suicidal.
More that everything I ever wanted in life is fading away.
And everything I feared is getting closer. | self.depression |
As soon as i woke up today All my problems hit me like a brick As if this artificial start was supposed to solve all of them | self.Anxiety |
I got out of bed at 12pm and forced myself to make macaroni and cheese because I was all out of ramen. Happy Thanksgiving. I had the option to go be with extended family but I said no and now I'm getting criticized because I don't want to be with people. I'm hungover, I feel like shit, and it's my cakeday.
Edit: I als... | self.depression |
Does anyone hate when your family compares you to other people? I hate it when my mom compares me to my cousin saying “CJ never stress his mom out, but you stress me out”... when I’m trying my ass off to not stress my mom out, to the point where I want to grab a bottle of pills and chug it down my throat and it’s sucks... | self.depression |
Anxiety makes me feel like I'm dying all the time Lately I've been sick for 4 days and my mind keeps telling me have cancer, a heart attack, Stroke every symptom of anything I have I instantly think I'm dying and lately my anxiety has amplified and I'm have multiple attacks a day over nothing its so stressful please he... | self.Anxiety |
Trying to figure out how to live a life worth living when nobody seems to want to care or even acknowledge that I exist. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Anyone else long for company but hate it when it's there? I dont know, I just want to be around people and when I eventually get around people it's just so draining dealing with them, acting happy or like I'm actually interested in whatever the subject is. Seems like most people only seem to want to be around when it b... | self.depression |
I feel like I'm slipping back into depression again [deleted] | self.depression |
Today Today, I woke up and I felt the same.
It's not worth it. Even at its best moments life is painful. I can't outrun it. It won't lessen over time. I'm sure I've been in pain forever, even though people tell me it just feels like that.
I want to live. I want to be happy. I want to move my body. I want to learn. I... | self.depression |
Too (hypo)manic to get anything done? Do any of you ever get too hypomanic to be productive?
Usually when I’m hypomanic it’s when I’m at my most productive - I clean everything in sight and take care of everything on my to-do list! But today, I’ve been buzzing around my apartment doing absolutely *nothing* all day lo... | self.bipolar |
I am so lonely I have friends but I just don't feel a connection with them. Even though they are great people, I just don't relate to them. I just re-activated my facebook from like 2012 and I see so many messages from people that wanted to hang out with me that I left unanswered. I really regret that because I have be... | self.depression |
Just writing this to get it off my chest. This is just to get thoughts off my chest. There really isn't any point other than I am sad on Christmas day.
The darkness encroaches a little more every day.
As the darkness drowns out the light the days have less meaning.
The darkness is relentless and remorseless.
It do... | self.depression |
Anhedonia I've been off sertraline for a few months now. I stopped taking them because I couldn't be bothered going to the Doctor and getting more prescriptions. I also couldn't be bothered taking them regularly (probably contributed to my continuing ambivalence)
Recently I've been getting such Anhedonia. It's a term ... | self.depression |
Tonight is hard I am going through a break up and the change is hard for me. I feel like I don’t know who I am anymore. I want to be calm still and not party and go out and do crazy shit but I’m scared it’s gonna happen...I can feel the mania crawling up and slowly taking over...I don’t recognize myself | self.bipolar |
At school and am trying not to walk out and hang myself [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Starting my year off right by feeling like crap. [deleted] | self.depression |
Continuous nightmares about school A little about me: currently a graduate student at an east coast university (but the department I study in is very small and VERY conservative & there is pressure to conform to the culture there, so I constantly have to put on a facade, which adds to the stress of being *uncovered... | self.Anxiety |
Cycles are just a natural thing... The seasons, severe mood swings?? I just want the moon to guide me and be free from medication (tw: self harm mention) I just want to feel how I'm gonna feel without meds.... It's gonna be intense AF, as I've tried to do this before and only lasted weeks at most.... Going manic to the... | self.bipolar |
Opinions on medicating for anxiety & other mental health problems. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Youtube Anxiety Community I've been dealing with anxiety since i was 18. It's come disguised in so many symptoms. Fear, disparity, dizziness, depression, heart palpitations, chest pain, being irritable, numbness in limbs etc..
I'm starting a Youtube channel where we can come together as a community and continue to brin... | self.Anxiety |
I was in a car accident today, and didn’t even get an adrenaline rush. Is this normal for depression? [deleted] | self.depression |
I have a test and cant stop studying Hi guys!
I have a test today. It's almost 01:30 am, and I am electric, and I am studying. But I've already studied everything. But I can't stop studying! I have this energy! I can't sleep, I want to study, but I don't know even where to start now, because I have already studied ever... | self.bipolar |
Got diagnosed with PISD Post Infidelity Stress Disorder. It's like PTSD, but for being cheated on. I've been cheated on by every guy I've ever been with. First bf cheated in bootcamp, second cheated after 3 months together after we gave our virginities to each other. 3rd left me for his ex who he still loved. 4th was m... | self.offmychest |
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