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I often worry I am going to go to hell when I die, other times I just realize I deserve it | self.SuicideWatch |
Nocturnal panic attacks Hey there,
I had a traumatic event in my life that knocked loose a lot of dormant fears about death. Two months after this event I was in real bad shape and having lots of anxiety, panicking every two hours. I went to therapy and it’s been super helpful! I’ve read a lot and dealt with my death... | self.Anxiety |
I feel so alone in this world, even though I'm almost always surrounded by others. I feel judged everywhere I go, like I'm some social pariah, even though I know in the back of my mind that barely anyone gives me even a second glance. Is there anyone else that feels this way, or is it just me? | self.depression |
I’m feeling very hopeless and having suicidal thoughts and it’s scaring me My life is a mess. All of it except for my romantic life, but even that’s getting messy. I have no friends anymore, an awful job, school isn’t in my plan because they messed up my financial aid again, and i have nobody except for my boyfriend. M... | self.SuicideWatch |
enough is enough well my marriage feels like shit. and i am no perfect man. i was told i had to change to be better yet i see no change in her. well...fuck her. the realization that i need to better my self. physically, spiritually, and mentally. if she does not change then that is on her. at least i can say that i did... | self.offmychest |
Should you take anti anxiety medication with aDHD medication? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
High Sex Drive but No Pleasure - Lamictal (BP-2) Hey guys,
So I'm in a bit of a bad place right now. I've been on Lamictal for over a year and a half (200mg), and now that I've started going off it (at 125mg at present), my depressive episodes have increased exponentially. Surprisingly, my sex drive has skyrocketed a... | self.bipolar |
What the hell works? Why is finding a solution in such an information rich era so difficult? With all of the people on this subreddit alone, you would think there'd be a great solution to all of our problems. After having been through the throws of therapy and medications, nothing has had a lasting impact on me so far.... | self.depression |
Feeling deeply hopeless Don't know exactly how it has started, but the thing is that I feel completely angry and bored all the time, I have thought about suicide for several times, but I won't do that since I know a few people love me and still believe in me. I'm not being able to deal with job, college and relationshi... | self.SuicideWatch |
Do any of you have suggestions for getting a more normal sleeping pattern? [deleted] | self.depression |
Lover. We broke up today. I'm moving into a friend's house tomorrow, and I'm probably an idiot but I'm letting you keep the apartment and our cats to make it easier for you. How sad is it, that after finding out you only dated me to spare my feelings of breaking up with me for over a year, I'm still willing to sacrific... | self.offmychest |
I think I'm having my first "crush", and I really wish I wasn't. In 20 years I've never had a crush until now. For a while I thought I might not really having feelings for people like most people do. I've never had to deal with being nervous around the opposite sex or had to confess to someone I liked. I honestly thoug... | self.offmychest |
Give up? When is it ok to tap out? Honestly just had a pretty great weekend but now that it's over I'm starting to realize my life only has a few happy moments here and there compared to the 85% misery so my question when is it acceptable to just say screw it all? All I can really ever think about is dying and it's... | self.SuicideWatch |
Do you ever feel like every action you do in front of people, makes you feel like you're bothering them? Like for me, asking a simple question makes me feel like I'm bothering them.
In some cases, if I didn't have money to eat with friends, I would rather lie and say I'm not hungry because I feel like I'm mooching.
... | self.Anxiety |
Need help with relationship[Long] Hello Folks,
I am a guy (29, introvert'ish) who has never been in a relationship before until I met this girl on tinder. We matched with our interests and gelled well very soon.
On our first date (7 months back) itself she had told me that she has (or had) depression and I plainly ign... | self.depression |
About to run out of my medication I was institutionalized almost 60 days ago and diagnosed bipolar and prescribed lithium and imipramine and moved states once I was released. The soonest appointment I’ve gotten to see a PDoc is Dec 14th and I only have a week left of medication. Someone suggested going to the ER and tr... | self.bipolar |
Shit I just got paranoid I just realize that I in my crazy times, aka manic, have made me really lay out all off my life. And how much fckd up I have done to my life, fck! I still feel like people have nothing against me. But shit, some of the shit I have said and done, it fcks me up a bit, haha. Trying to not write so... | self.bipolar |
Didn’t plan on making it this long, but I’m here and glad Not too long ago I did a very stupid thing and tried to end it all. My life as I knew it was at an end; essentially all of my highschool friends now hated me, my at the time boyfriend had raped me, I had exams that would decide whether or not I could continue my... | self.depression |
Is there that one person that keeps you here out of love or guilt? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Depressed helping depressed Right now I find myself in a weird spot in my life. I’ve been dealing with depression for almost 8 years now and I still feel like I can’t get my head above water at times. I’m currently a mental health counselor but I’m just starting out and feel like I’m not good enough at times. I feel li... | self.depression |
I didn’t even want the dog, so why can’t I stop crying? When we first got married, my wife wanted to get a dog. I didn’t want a dog. We compromised, and got a dog. I didn’t was to have the responsibility, or the extra costs. My wife wanted something to give her cuddles.
By two months into having a dog, he of course l... | self.offmychest |
The final fucking straw. After several months of suicidal thoughts because of how much of an irresponsible asshole I am, I decided yesterday that I was going to give myself one last day to actually do something with my life or that I was going to kill myself. Because if the idea of jumping off a 16 storey building can'... | self.depression |
Guys I don’t know what to do anymore I’ve had this brain fog for 2 years now, and i can’t deal with it anymore. I need to get read of it, I’m fucking desperate. | self.depression |
Anyone sign up to have their brain donated to research? Just read an article that mentioned this offhand.
I definitely would want my brain to be given to research specific to mood disorders, instead of the general donation I am planning to sign up for.
Any tips or other things I should know about? | self.bipolar |
Maybe I should quit masturbating... I don't find it morally displeasing to masturbate. In fact, I really don't see anything wrong with it. Maybe I sometimes wonder if it's something inappropriate or awkward to do (I'm still a teenager btw) but I'm fine with it except for one thing...
...It eats away all of the time I ... | self.offmychest |
how to handle a breakdown of a suicidal friend? [deleted] | self.depression |
Racing thoughts Hi bipolarreddit,
I am 33, male, with bipolar I. I am on Lamictal, Vistaril, Invega and Mirapex (for medication-induced restless legs, which EVERY antipsychotic gives me).
I have trouble with racing, repetitive, and intrusive thoughts. No medication I've been on seems to help. My thoughts constantly s... | self.bipolar |
im a whore i've been sleeping around and degrading myself to cope with this shit life. im drunk. not drunk enough. say something idk what i want you to say just anything please. just want tp hear from someone | self.SuicideWatch |
Thought I was gonna stop self harming after getting out of a psychiatric hospital Well here I am cutting myself during Christmas. I thought I was gonna do ok since I got most of my bipolar meds fixed when I left the psychiatric hospital almost two weeks ago. Today I had fun with my family, went shopping, and had a co... | self.depression |
I’m too anxious to tell my psychiatrist about most of my problems. How do I open up to her? I wan‘t help but am too scared. I‘ve seen my psychiatrist a couple times so far, I went to her because I wanted meds for my ADD. Since the first appointment I knew that I have other mental problems too, but I never really spoken... | self.Anxiety |
at 32 i am finally wise enough to know.. 1) all of creation from the farthest star to the most silent fart emerged from chaos
2) That chaos continues as evidenced by entropy over time
3) god cant be real because no god woud allow so much suffering and injustice in the reality they created
4) elon musk said this is a... | self.bipolar |
You are Taking a Gamble I notice that the majority of you lot here is below 30s and one way or another you are disgruntled with life and want to end it all.
I am in my mid- 40s. A couple of decades ago, I was in the same shoe as you, severely depressed and wanting to end it all with many attempts under my belt. I too... | self.SuicideWatch |
I dont want to go back to the hospital but i do I don't really want to go back but I really do because it was really calm. I didn't really get help there tho because all they had has do was play games and watch movies and there were so many kids with actual retardation. I can't miss so much school either I went there i... | self.SuicideWatch |
Worry. Why can't I stop worrying what everyone else thinks of me? I worry to the point that I make myself sick to the stomach. I analyze every action people take and try and figure out if I'm somehow involved. It's so exhausting.
I recently had a friend who I thought really understand me ditch me for good. I probably... | self.Anxiety |
Idk what is right anymore I broke down yesterday. I wanted to kill myself. I told my frens and family for the first time. I let them worry. I failed to hold it in. Even when I alr held it in for so many years. Everything just came out. I called the hospital, they asked me for a clinic referral. I just went to the clini... | self.depression |
Oh my god this is not happening Long story short I just tried to hang myself, the plan was to wrap the noose around my neck and jump off my back porch from my 3rd story apartment, instead the knot somehow came undone but it flung me with enough force so I flipped upside down and it tightened around my ankle, now I've b... | self.SuicideWatch |
I can finally see a future for myself So my 20s have been crap. I've been very depressed about my life, no real friends, no partner, no career. Works jobs I didn't like when I was well enough to be working in the first place, I spent a lot of time in my room alone which i hated My one escape and real passion was travel... | self.depression |
Having major anxiety after a stressful morning working at reception and realising the biggest job of my career starts tomorrow. Have an overwhelming feeling of dread, thinking I will not be able to do this, I can’t do this. | self.depression |
Completely terrified about starting new medication I've had anxiety and depression for as long as I remember. It slowly went from just feeling anxious to feelings of derealization and depersonalization, something I've been dealing with for about 10 years, with the last year being particularly bad.
I tried Prozac about... | self.Anxiety |
Didn’t get a job I worked nearly 20 years for. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I feel like I want to kill myself, and I don't know why. Please help. I feel like I want to kill myself, and I don't know why. Please help. | self.SuicideWatch |
Irrational fear of anaphylaxis. I have suddenly developed a fear of anaphylaxis. I got an allergy test done 2 years ago (blood test) which said my allergies were all outdoor things and what I was allergic to most was dogs.
Every time I try a new food I have to sit there for 15-30 minutes and talk myself through a min... | self.Anxiety |
I've taken a flamethrower to everything good in my life due to anxiety and depression [deleted] | self.depression |
I'm practically a ghost how I live now anyway I live with my sister. We grew up fairly poor but she's quite financially comfortable now. I actually had work and money during the holiday for the first time in my life this year so i bought presents for everyone. I didn't expect much of anything. I'm unproductive, near... | self.SuicideWatch |
Hypomania induced by Dicyclomine Bp2 here. Has anyone who's used Dicyclomine (it's typically used for stomach issues) experienced hypomania after taking it. I notice it really puts me into that state. I then crash hard at the end of the day as a result. If I continue taking it too many consecutive days, this crash g... | self.bipolar |
How do I get help? I know I need help, I know I have more to live for and all that shit and I've come to conclusion that I don't really want to kill my self. So what do I do now?
And talking to my family about it is not an option.
Any advice would be much appreciated. | self.SuicideWatch |
Terrified of tinnitus, and I think my anxiety has made me think I’ve developed it [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Unable to feel joy - why act like my life is worth living? For the last 14 months I have been suffering from persisting side effects related to SSRI’s. I have completely lost my sexual desire and sexual function and I feel anhedonic (emotionally limited).
The aforementioned side effects are fairly common while on SSR... | self.SuicideWatch |
Is there anyone else with no real family history with the disorder? I'm just curious if I'm alone in this or not. While I have a family history of things like ADHD and depression, I somehow ended up with a long list of diagnoses including bipolar. I'm wondering how that works. I did genetic testing and the report I rea... | self.bipolar |
I can barely keep my head up in the mornings. [deleted] | self.depression |
To people saying I have it easy It seems whenever I talk to a someone concerned with social issues they have to throw in some kind of jab against white men. I literally had someone who I thought was a friend get mad at me for "not acknowledging my privileged place in society".
To people that say that shit: go fuck your... | self.offmychest |
I am back on my pills, and I feel better whether or not people think I need them. Hi so I was diagnosed in the past year with the lovely lovely mixture of ADHD, OCD, Anxiety, and Depression. So I have been prescribed focalin and Im currently on it to study (but as you can tell, it makes me very willing to do anything t... | self.offmychest |
What the freak I don’t have a diagnosis nor do I care about a title. I feel like I identify with bipolar. My mom is bipolar and for most of my life we have dealt with this. My problem now is I have been in a major depressive funk to the point where I’ve had to reach out to crisis people for help. Then there are times w... | self.bipolar |
I love it when the Olympics are going on. With depression/anxiety, I often have to cling to some of the smaller pleasures in life in order to not feel overwhelmed with my own emotion.
The Olympics are one of these small pleasures. Whenever they're going on, I feel like I'm somehow safer and like life is going to be o... | self.Anxiety |
What jobs am I automatically disqualified for if I’ve been in an impatient facility while under 18 years old. [deleted] | self.bipolar |
No point - thinking of ending it all Summing it up as short as possible.
I'm almost 16. There are 13 year old girls that have a lower voice than me. I have exactly 3 friends, none of them take me seriously. My parents call me hopeless almost every day. (I can't disagree. I can't even hang up a wall painting on my own)... | self.SuicideWatch |
This is my last Christmas and I am happy about it Sorry in advance I don't know nothing about editing on Reddit :(
I have Borderline Personality Disorder found out 3 years ago, been on a waiting list for the past year to see a professional permanently and attend a DBT program I rung up yesterday and there is 261 peopl... | self.SuicideWatch |
Testosterone therapy? I'm currently waiting on the last of a series of blood tests, but odds are good that I'm going to get referred to an endocrinologist for treatment of low testosterone.
My research thus far indicates that BP-I does not play nice with hormones. I of course will make sure the new doc is aware of my ... | self.bipolar |
I want attention so bad I want recognition. I want people to see me as someone that needs help, not someone that's fine dealing with what happens. I'm almost debating ODing for attention. I've never had this before. I don't know why. But my god do I want attention. Last week I had others telling me not to go inpatient ... | self.bipolar |
I'm really tired of getting responses that amount to "just ignore it" Even on here I get that. I know people have good intentions, and I'm sure it does work for some people, but just ignoring my suicidal thoughts and feelings always make me feel worse. It might work for a little while, but that shitty feeling will neve... | self.depression |
Difference between anxiety and paranoia (CRAZY LONG POST)
I've suffered from anxiety amongst other mental Heath problems for a while now. I'm 19 and have been diagnosed with depression, schizophrenia and anxiety. I'm off my antipsychotics now and have recently come off my antidepressants. My mood is pretty low (not ... | self.Anxiety |
Nobody really cares about your problems All my friends love to be around me when I'm celebrating but the second I have anything less than chipper to say they all get rid of me | self.depression |
Spiraling back down the rabbit hole! So I’ve literally had the worse year of my life for 2017. I had a real bad time battling depression at the beginning of the year. I decided to do shrooms because I heard of their healing effects with this and to my surprise it really helped. I wasn’t a brand new person but I saw thi... | self.depression |
Freaking out in the middle of the night - just started olanzapine and i don't know what side effects are normal I'm freaking out. Some things have happened in the last four days. I had a huge panic attack, insane intrusive thoughts. Almost admitted myself to the hospital, but decided to stay with my parents as I was pu... | self.bipolar |
I want my Teacher... bad I have this one teacher in my college program that I really want to get with, he keeps looking at me in class and will just keep eye contact with me for a minute or two until he looks around again, but his eyes always come back to me.... Big thing though, hes married | self.offmychest |
My anxiety is so bad that i cant even go to the doctors Title says it all, i really need professional help but at the same time i have agoraphobia, can anyone relate with this? I'm thinking of just borrowing some valium from my grandma and popping them right before the appointment but i don't know if that will work
(F... | self.Anxiety |
I sent a long text to my boyfriend which I really really regret Something to learn about me is that the social side of my brain is really shit at its job. I sometimes do really embarrassing things and can't see that I have until someone tells me.
I've written a 10 page constitution for my school and given it to a teac... | self.offmychest |
My girlfriend... Hello. I am a redditor, age 15, and my girlfriend is also 15.
Yes we are young, but it isn't teenage drama. We have that but we can deal with that. Its worse.
My girlfriend is sweet and amazing in school, but she hates herself. She always calls herself fat, she says shes stupid, and she says she has ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I just really need to rant about the aspects of bipolar disorder I’ve been struggling with the most lately: side effects, mania, moods.. It’s been almost a year since I was officially diagnosed with bipolar disorder & my first and only manic episode. I cringe so much when I think about the time I was manic. I know ... | self.bipolar |
How do you guys get through these kind of attacks? (Details in post) Basically I'll get these attacks where I'm not crying or breathing heavy, and nothing's bothering me. But I feel this pit in my stomach, I'm shaking a bit, and I feel incredibly stressed and uneasy over nothing in particular. And I just sorta freeze u... | self.Anxiety |
I'm 34... I feel pathetic. I can't dig myself out of this hole. nothing makes me smile anymore. [deleted] | self.depression |
Need a friend On mobile, can’t flare
I’m a 15 year old high school student who feels very lonely. I just.... I want a friend. Anybody want to talk? | self.SuicideWatch |
So lonely it hurts I just can't socially interact with women. My confidence has never been so low in my life.. Despite being in the best shape of my life and exercising regularly.
Tonight I went on a tinder date, and the girl invited me back. I felt a brief moment of acceptance, but after talking a bit.. I went for ... | self.depression |
I think I've had an epiphany I was driving home from work as I do every night and I think I've had an epiphany. My anxiety started back in December and it evolved into anxiety about dying soon. I honestly believe now that my anxiety started because I've lived my whole life under threat from something or other until the... | self.Anxiety |
Emotionally offline I shouldn’t be writing this, I have three final projects due in the next couple of days and I haven’t started on any of them. But I don’t have the energy to even get started...I don’t know what to do. It’s too late to ask for extensions but I don’t want to fail my classes (that mean nothing to me). ... | self.depression |
DAE think that any day now they’ll just decide to end it all. That that day is coming. | self.bipolar |
how much do your meds cost you? I'm currently on medicaid so mine are all free. But I'm just curious how much they will cost once I turn 26 and am off my dad's health insurance.
I understand that everyone's cost different amounts, but I am just curious on how much it ranges. | self.bipolar |
Just some intrusive thoughts I’ve been having about my ex When a break up occurs in a long term committed relationship that has been through its ups and down (provided not abusive) it’s not because you changed, it’s not because you don’t love them anymore, no matter how hard you try to convince your self otherwise. The... | self.depression |
The fucking holidays. This shit is unbearable. All the gifts under the tree, a constant reminder that I’m too broke to give anybody gifts this year. My family is going to be so disappointed. How the hell is everybody so happy when they’re with each other, and laughter dies when I walk in the room.
I just feel like ev... | self.SuicideWatch |
Every time I get through another January, the rest of the year seems like smooth sailing. Many years ago, my little brother died in an accident in January. Years later, my dad, then a few years later still, my mom, also died in January.
That's half my nuclear family; there were 6 of us in the beginning. I know it's si... | self.offmychest |
What are your opinions on self diagnoses? Do you think they're valid if reached through research and heavy self-reflection? Or is the only way to be able to say you're depressed is through an official diagnosis? Be honest, I'm curious. | self.depression |
i will blow my fucking head off as soon as weapons are accessible im done. im so over it. no amount of marijuana is gonna help me this time. i guess ill start off with myselff, ive been suffering with social anxiety my whole life and neither of my parents gave enough of a fuck to take me to a doctor. ive been bullied a... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm not ready for another relationship, and that makes me sad. I thought that one of my coworkers was interested in me because of an exchange we had, and my body literally almost shut down. I almost passed out at the thought of someone being interested in me again.
And I'm not gonna lie, seeing literally all of my cow... | self.depression |
I wish I could be happy for you. This is going to be messy, just a warning.
This is really small and petty, but it’s been bothering me lately. My best friend and I have been crushing on the same person. I found out last week that they like each other. I don’t know what to do. I want to be happy for them, for *him*, bu... | self.offmychest |
Just scared For whatever reason my anxiety and depression have started hitting me hard in December and its close to debilitating me. Some days I don't even go outside or stress over the most minor of interactions(grocery store, drive thru). I started getting anxiety at my old job when there was no problem before and am... | self.SuicideWatch |
tempted to give up it's come to my attention recently that honestly, no one gives a flying fuck about me. i could get wiped off the face of the earth in the next minute and no one would really give a shit.
my parents don't really believe in mental health issues, they took me to a therapist for a short while before de... | self.SuicideWatch |
Help, I need to "break up" with my therapist! How do I do it? I was in therapy for almost 2 years with another therapist and it was so very helpful. Unfortunately, I had to move to another state. Since I felt I could still benefit from therapy I found a new one in my new area and have been going for about 4 months. ... | self.depression |
How do I begin to look for new friends I have some friends but don’t ever feel that sense of comradare. Even when we know each other pretty well. I feel like I am too weird for my friends. None of them are as anxious as I am, though a lot went through some form. It makes me creepy and maybe needy. I believe that maybe ... | self.depression |
Confessing you crush is useless Okay, I dunno how to start this, but lately I got to know a very harsh reality of life. If you like someone or have a crush on them, and if they already chose someone over you or decided that no matter what happens, they won't get into a relationship with you, confessing you like them or... | self.offmychest |
The depression cycle Wake up not wanting to, spend the whole day shoe gazing, over eating and drinking to dull the pain, going to bed hoping you won't wake up the next morning, rinse and repeat everyday for years!!!! | self.depression |
I took a shower and it was glorious Since the beginning of December I've been struggling with a couple of manic episodes. As the month went on I noticed a spike in my anxiety, but it was around the holidays and I was able to get a handle on it for the most part with my Xanax prescription. After a negative experience wi... | self.bipolar |
Bringing in the new year hypomanic...who's with me? I guess it's only natural since I couldn't stop crying and having suicidal thoughts at Thanksgiving. My psychiatrist upped the lithium to level me out after that but I guess I'm still swinging cause here I am after Christmas 2 am can't sleep...tons of energy, making ... | self.bipolar |
Hate how others view us online!! I mean, we all get how people feel about bipolar irl. But I’ve seen a million and a half askreddit threads where the question is “what’s your worst fear?” And 3 of the answers are “going crazy-psychosis is sooo scary and the worst thing ever! Couldnt imagine losing my mind!” While I get... | self.bipolar |
Questions about my depression I'm not sure if I just went through a more intense depression but I just want to know. I am feeling better now but I feel fundamentally off in how I approach people. Like I just don't care. Can a deep enough depression be triggered to make you not even feel for people? I used to be rather ... | self.depression |
Has anyone had any experience with taking fish oil along with lamictal? After a short (>15 minutes) appointment with my new doctor, I went to pick up my prescription that she refilled. In addition to my usual lamictal, there was fish oil too. The only instructions on the bottle were to take it once a day. I'm not su... | self.bipolar |
I just had a panic attack in the middle of class so I skipped. I'm writing this from my car and everything is horrible. I'm drifting away from my friends when they need me the most, I'm failing all my classes, and the one person I want to call my girlfriend told me she doesn't have feelings for me. I don't understand b... | self.Anxiety |
I wanna be euthanized. How the hell do I convince my parents for it? :( I know life is beautiful. But I am done with it....
Does anyone know how can I "convince" my parents for my euthanasia or assisted suicide?
Thanks. | self.SuicideWatch |
I give up Let me start by saying that I used to be really depressed in the past and even tried to OD, but after years of pretending to be a happy goofball I actually became happy. Fake it till you make it actually worked in a weird way because by acting like I didn't care about anything I started to not care. Then a co... | self.SuicideWatch |
My boyfriend plans on killing himself in 10 days [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I haven't gotten a match on Tinder in 45 days [deleted] | self.depression |
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