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When you (poem) When you're too tired to try /
When going outside makes you want to fly /
When all you want to do is hold your chest /
Crawl into a ball /
Suck it up / says the rest
When people Don't understand and tell you how to be / when you evade all answers and feel like a monstrosity /
Shut the blinds / the out... | self.Anxiety |
I (M18) love my best friend (F18) like a sister It's kind of a weird thing, I've never felt this way about anyone but my actual sisters. I've known her (let's call her B) for a while now, but I don't really know when I started feeling this way about her.
Here's a very condensed verison of our story. I started going t... | self.offmychest |
Can't get over this pain Hi guys. I left r/depression for a few months because I thought things were getting better. Now I'm here again. Have you ever been betrayed by someone who claimed to love you? A friend of mine from high school tried to keep in contact with me for over five years since we graduated. I was never ... | self.depression |
just a casual rant about one of the biggest bullshitters (long). There's this man (24/M) who I (21/F) been dealing with for the past year.
We dated last June 2016 - December 2016, and there's one reason this relationship was a big deal for me. I was 19 then and he, let's call him "A", was 24. Owned his own apartment,... | self.offmychest |
Need a bit of advice Done something really bad in the past that I now terribly regret! I sent a picture of myself naked to a random person on snapchat(random man). Will I ever get over this or will it haunt me for the rest of my life?
I ament trying to be drastic or anything but should I just kill myself? | self.depression |
DEAR MY FUCKING LIFE You are a piece of shit
I’ll end you as soon as possible
I hate you, fucking life
Don’t you think I’m fucking tired failing suicide attempts?
You should let me die, why are you keeping me in hell?
I am numb, bored and exhausted.
I cannot feel anything but hate and anger.
Please just let me die ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I hate Myself Right now I hate myself so much. I hate that I have GAD, I am scared I am heading towards depression, I can't lose weight, I am fat, I can't live up to my parents expectations. I hate that I did not mention this to my therapist 2 days ago, and feel like shit because I was too scared to say that this has b... | self.Anxiety |
Christmas is not the same as an adult TLDR: Christmas is not the same as an adult.
I miss decorating the tree with my family as a kid. I miss the excitement of Christmas gifts and the anticipation of seeing others open the gifts I carefully picked out and wrapped for them. I miss the festivity of wrapping presents in... | self.depression |
I had sex for the first time with my (trans) girlfriend tonight and it made me feel all sorts of emotions. We got naked in the backseat of my car and had light sex. rubbing of genitals, kissing of body parts, and we blew each other a bit(I ended up sucking her off more than she did me). It was too cold for us to do muc... | self.offmychest |
hi I'm not really sure why I'm here, I'm 16 and a sophmore in high school and I hate myself.
Everyday is a struggle and I'm plagued by thoughts of suicide and I just feel so sad and lonely everyday. I'm not sure why I feel this way, I have a girlfriend and a lot of friends. I feel like I don't have a right to feel the... | self.SuicideWatch |
Changing meds I’m switching from citalopram to venlafaxine as soon as I wean off the citalopram. I’m pretty nervous about being off any drugs at all since I had a recent suicide attempt. Can anyone offer some insight on what it’s like to taper off or maybe what venlafaxine was like for you? I suffer from depression and... | self.depression |
Ugh. CW Pity party; me. During a fight over how I had stored neck bone stew vs. how I should’ve done it. My SO told me “You have the confidence of a mediocre white man.” Add that to the night before, “cleaning dishes isn’t impressive, teaching our children to do it is what you should’ve done, you’re a grown adult you s... | self.bipolar |
Medication So I've been on and off several types of medication the past few years. Currently I'm taking 50mg hydroxizine when anxious and geodon (ziprasidone) at 60mg. I really don't like the geodon mostly because it makes me really anxious. I have a hard time sleeping and I get frequent headaches. I've tried abilify b... | self.bipolar |
DEAR /R/BIPOLAR: MY BP1 ANGST HAS A BODY COUNT - PART IV These events are all real. This is the only story with fiction, and its like 3% (I literally counted the words that were fiction and you know, calculus or whatever the fuck). TL;DR I was just admitted to a hospital this past Saturday, got my meds and psychotherap... | self.bipolar |
Don't know if this is about me or my friend... [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm running out of reasons to live I know this is going to sound fucking stupid, but today, my psychiatrist said that he will no longer be able to see me because he is moving to a community mental health center and I do not qualify for the treatment the center provides. Plus, the center does not accept insurance.
I wa... | self.SuicideWatch |
Seeing a Medical doctor before a psychiatrist? I think I could be bipolar. My family has a history of it, my friends have talked to me about my behaivior, and I've taken many of the online tests and always get the same "positive" result (I'm aware these tests are not a diagnoses). I would like to see a psychiatrist, bu... | self.bipolar |
I might not be bipolar or bipolar alone I have had anxiety since I was very young. My mom is the cause. My first episode was depressive at age 15. I was given wellbutrin. By age 16 I had a manic episode which I can now attribute to that. At age 21 I had six consecutive manic episodes but they were all drug induced. I a... | self.bipolar |
My Doctor said I'm about 60% recovered. How recovered do you think you are? Do you think it's possible to be recovered?. | self.bipolar |
Well, I am going to pick up my first dose of Lamictal today... Yay me, I guess. Not sure I’ll have the nerve to take it today, but at least I can have an epic stare down with the bottle for a while. In the meantime, my emotions keep swinging between defeat, disbelief, and hope.
All of these thoughts exist simultaneou... | self.bipolar |
I just told my mother that I am depressed [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I never expected to have this much difficulty figuring out my sexuality. I always considered myself straight, up until starting university. I've had crushes on girls, so it seemed to fit.
Since then, (3 years ago) I've slept with 1 girl and made out with 2 more, and I felt nothing. I also found myself fantasising about... | self.offmychest |
No Passion Hello Reddit,
I'm a 15, turning 16 in February, year old boy, I've suffered from major depression and minor social anxiety for two years now. Ever since I've developed these disorders nothing has interested me and I have enjoyed nothing. People say get out and try something but everything they suggest soun... | self.depression |
At a crossroads Hi guys. I have read a lot of messages here and I appreciate the support that all of you offer.
Unfortunately, tonight I find myself seeking this support.
I am still in a fairly secure place in terms of work/school with a very supportive boss, and I have a fiance to whom I am committed to and love dear... | self.SuicideWatch |
I can't feel anything and I just need it to end I literally feel next to nothing. It's been three months of this and I can't take it anymore. For me, committing suicide isn't a spur of moment decision. It's the only logical thing left to do. There's nothing human about living with no emotions. | self.SuicideWatch |
i hate when im feeling suicidal when im with my SO i hate when i pretend to be okay but i really just want to kill myself but i dont want him to worry | self.SuicideWatch |
So past me had a good idea. (Trigger warning) [deleted] | self.bipolar |
I'm a guy and basically got raped while on drugs, I really really need to tell this to someone because I'm going crazy I can't tell this to anyone I know because of embarrassment. It's a crazy story that happened and I really need someone to talk with. It basically ruined my life and I just can't get over it. I believe... | self.offmychest |
I'm fucking trash. Thought I had a nice day with friends, but now I'm home and I remembered I was trash. Just ruined an Overwatch match cause I can't control myself. | self.depression |
I wish you still lived around the corner, friend [deleted] | self.offmychest |
It's not fighting, when you can't win First post here, and I actually hoped that I never felt like I needed to address these things.
It's new years eve, its 5am here in Denmark. And i'm done.
So long story short.
I was 130kg (287 pounds) at 15 years old. My parents pretty much didnt really care, and all that.
When i... | self.depression |
Palpitations everyday for 2 1/2 months ?!?! Intense fear of sudden death [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I feel asleep when i have anxiety On days where I have constant free-flowing anxiety, I get the sense that I'm 'caged in' and I also sometimes feel an urge to fall asleep. I don't have any urge to move nor any motivation to interact with others. It's like I kind of blend into my surroundings; I feel like I have no soul... | self.Anxiety |
I’ve noticed my biploar symptoms are way worse when I’m alone. Anyone else? I work from home and I’m recently divorced so I live alone. I’m basically alone 4-5 Days a week. I cry every single night and sometimes even during the day!!
I’m a freaking professional and actually give training webinars to other professional... | self.bipolar |
How to cope with an anxiety inducing misconception? Hi, I'm a 20 y/o female and I had been coping quite well with anxiety, I had started avoiding things that make me anxious and only recently been trying to come to terms with them.
One of those things is hanging out with male friends without the fear of being mistaken... | self.Anxiety |
I went running today Granted it was only a couple laps around my area but still, it helped to get my mind off of everything and honestly made me feel a bit better.
And then when I got home all my housemates ignored I existed and i over heard them saying how depressive I was bring recently.
Thanks universe I see how... | self.depression |
I'm trying my hardest I'm too young to be this depressed, I know this gets people earlier but I'm 19, trying to do my uni work but my brain is so foggy and everything just doesn't seem real most of the time. I'm on ssris and I guess I'm just waiting for them to kick in, I'm going to the gym but I just feel like a compl... | self.depression |
Why do people think potential home renters want to live in their basement? Too many people are trying to rent out their basement for thousands of dollars... it's bad enough living underneath someone in an apartment what kind of wacko would pay for their family to live in a basement? Just buy a house you can afford and ... | self.offmychest |
How come even if you fit into a woman's ideals of beauty and personality, share similar background (same religion,race, etc) and the girl is open for catch, she won't necessarily be interested in you? In particular why would they prefer poor abusive partners who are flatout terrible father material? A saying I once saw... | self.offmychest |
What happens to my student loan debt when I choose to not blast myself? From garnished wages and student loan debt payments I simply cannot afford to live. Please don't give me any shit about trying to lead a fulfilling life. Just need tips on not fucking anyone over I leave behind. What is the process behind this? | self.SuicideWatch |
Confused on the disparities in life? I have a friend who gets everything he wants, I have another friend who never gets what we wants.
The latter one works his ass off, while the other just sits and gets everything
Why is this so, who decides such things man? | self.depression |
Anxiety and body overheating? Yes, I DO suffer that much. I have had this problem for a couple years where I feel WAY too hot every single day, no matter what the temperature is like outside. Sometimes when I walk outside and it is freezing cold, I have to take off my jacket because I am too hot all the time even in co... | self.Anxiety |
So i took a lot of Valium with alcohol last night [deleted] | self.depression |
I love you, but I can't help hating you 12 years is a long time. Nearly half my life as we both turned 30 this year.
You left, without any desire or will to attempt to work on things. No let's try, no let's get help, just no.
You left, 2 years after we vowed to one another across the ocean in France, infront o... | self.offmychest |
I’m just so sick and tired from being a massive screwup. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
For some strange reason I like being sad Ya. I said it. I like being sad for some strange reason. Maybe it's because I long to feel happiness when sad and now that I am feeling happier, I no longer long anything anymore. But when I'm sad, I desire to be happy, be loved, share my love, and just want someone. I like that... | self.offmychest |
I Don't Want To Leave My Bed I have school in like an hour. I really just want to listen to music and then cry in bed. I feel like shit.
I want to have someone to hug. So bad. I would kill for a fucking hug. I want to feel important to somebody.
Fucking fuck shit God damn fuck shit fuck shit fuck fuck. FUCK. Why am I... | self.depression |
My mind is broken This is the beginning of the end. My mind is split on everything, like two or three people beside my self live in my head. I imagine them as two beings resting on my back whispering in my ear. My mind does not stop worrying about everything. I think about offing myself constantly. When I cut I feel eu... | self.depression |
Can anxiety cause confusion, starring blankly into space, trouble moving when closing eyes? I've been experiencing these symptoms for 48h, I feel so out of it, as if I've been drugged, I keep having absence spells where I stare blankly into space, loss of short term memory, and my brain has trouble obeying orders when ... | self.Anxiety |
that feeling of lightness and relief when you finally decide you're going to do it for real [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
headed to the emergency room of a skin clinic alone to find out if i have sjs as a result of lamotrigine + could use some encouragement I was referred to the best dermatology clinic in the city because of lesions/a rash on my head and am now on my way to be examined
my wife is working and I am going alone because I a... | self.bipolar |
My thinking is out of control So I'm in a tail spin.
I am trying to complete a sample of my work for a job in my field that I don't feel capable of doing. And the job is 5 hours away.
I got offered a job and to start training tonight for a bar job just to help pay bills until I find a career, but bar jobs cause me ... | self.Anxiety |
Can we videochat for a while? I just wanna get outta my head for a little bit [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Losing everything. Have noone. alone again on christmas. my ex fiance left me a few years ago for a guy she met online. I started to just concentrate on my career and bettering my life to get past that, however, a few months ago I lost my job. I'm barely surviving on unemployment, cant find a job. I've been in my apart... | self.depression |
I have a few days left until I'm discharged from hospital. Day 3 on Prozac/Fluoxetine and feel really suicidal. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I just can't anymore. I quit. I've lost my insurance "because I make too much" despite not making one cent. I'm LGBT in town where that's frowned upon at best and vilified at worst. I live in a country that all other countries hate now. I'm scared to keep going because I know it will just get worse for me and I have no... | self.SuicideWatch |
I don't want to move to the US I don't want to move to the US, because I have lived there and in Europe, and I have been happier in Europe, and I have felt more in control of my life in Europe. I feel like the government is trustworthy and will help me in my endeavors. However, my boyfriend moved to the US and wants me... | self.depression |
The days are manageable; it's the years that get me Day to day, aside from the struggle with getting out of bed, I can do OK. Put the mask on, survive the day, go home, go back to sleep (I guess I'm what they call high-functioning). The idea that I'm going to have to do this forever until I die makes me want to move th... | self.depression |
Yup, I've finally acknowledged that I'm depressed I've been deflecting and avoiding this for years and years now. I'm slowly hitting rock bottom here.
Nothing I try ever works, I fail at everything. Nothing EVER goes my way, ever. I'm sick of this shit.
- I have a student and credit card debt that I cannot fight desp... | self.depression |
It hurts more to be ignored than to be rejected...ugh [removed] | self.depression |
now it's even worse fAnTaStIc! I feel the worst I have ever felt in my life. I feel like I'm worth nothing, and that I am destined to live in this personal hell of mine forever. I am borderline suicidal, and the only things keeping me going are my crush and my trust in God that maybe it will get better eventually.
... | self.depression |
"To live without hope is to cease to live"- Fyodor Dostoevsky [deleted] | self.depression |
How am I not supposed to lose my mind when... All my friends' lives are getting better and mine is falling apart.
Don't get me wrong, I am so happy for them. But it eats at you. It drives you insane. It hurts.
My best friend (we're both guys) found someone he loves more than anyone, and her the same. They're a perfec... | self.depression |
My illness is going to wear my fiancé down eventually. I know it will. He's such a happy person. So content. He doesn't drink or do drugs, he doesn't need anything chemical to be content in his life. Me? Lifelong anxiety and depression and a serious history of substance abuse. I'm coming up on 5 years sober on alcohol ... | self.depression |
Work ironically keeping me alive The only thing keeping me going right now is work and that is almost done. People need me to do my part until next week and they would be fucked without me, so I guess I'll be here until then. Once the projects I'm working on are done, well, that is a good stopping point. My boss is a f... | self.SuicideWatch |
Going to enjoy one more quarter of college, no stress, then end it So about me, I am a 21 year old guy who has been battling depression for the last 5 years or so. I haven't had an attempt yet, but for at least the last 3 years I have just wanted to have something else kill me so that it wouldn't be my fault.
My colle... | self.SuicideWatch |
What the HELL am I screwing up? I can't seem to adjust to my new schedule at work. I'm still depressed over my ex and now having no support network to push me to finish college. I'm making friends but I'm not close to them.
Is there a point you accept defeat? Where you just lay down and realize that it might not be m... | self.bipolar |
Does anyone struggle when moving on from something youve become so used to and a group of people you dont want to leave? I've been in the same job for nearly 11 years now. For 8 years i've been on the same team, with the same people. Obvioulsy some come and go over the years, but there's about 25 of us.
I applied for ... | self.Anxiety |
I'm very angry I might end up comitting a crime. So today in particular was a very bad day, I found out that my sister's husband beated my other sister who has been suffering from severe depression and he kept on calling her degrading terms, while my other sister is watching through the car, he also broke her phone, th... | self.offmychest |
Zyprexa weight gain... Anyone have any clever tips or tricks for preventing med related weight gain or even how to maybe loose some weight while on these meds? | self.bipolar |
I am afraid. (TW: panic attacks, nausea, stomach problems) Additional trigger warnings: suicidal thoughts, anorexia, diarrhea
Hello Reddit, much love to my fellow anxiety sufferers in this stressful season. I'm wondering if anyone else here suffers from this embarrassing problem.
This past week has been what I have ... | self.Anxiety |
My mother got mad at me because I had a panic attack, making it worse, and refuses to apologize. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Alone, dead inside. :( Like my title says, i feel dead inside. I'm 28 years old, Army vet, I have a degree and currently work in mental health. I had never felt this way or dealt with any form of depression up until 2015. I was in a relationship with a girl for two years, she had depression and anxiety. i helped her th... | self.depression |
Not Sure If I Care So I'm currently sitting at the top of my stairs with a gun next to me. I keep holding it up against my head every 5 minutes or so but I cant do it. And when other people get home I'll probably just run into my room like nothings happening. It's not that I want to be alive, I just have a small amount... | self.SuicideWatch |
Tell me I've done well I'm useless, a burden, a leech. I'm disgusting - both physically and mentally.
I have never achieved anything if my own accord. At all.
So before I go, please just tell me I've done well.
Please tell me you're proud of me, even if you don't mean it. I just want to hear those words, at least ... | self.SuicideWatch |
All the good things in the world make me feel that much worse All the blessings I have feel soured by my inability to appreciate them. I've been granted so much kindness and lenience over the years, none of which I deserve. It feels as though good things come to me, wash through me, and come out broken, burnt, or usele... | self.depression |
Some days I function fine and everything seems "normal", other days everything feels foreign. [deleted] | self.depression |
I think I would show graditude and die smiling if I had a accidental death any time soon [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
the societal denial of mental illness i really, really just wanted to express how frustrated i am with a majority of people not believing that mental illness is real even after seeing people psychotic going bonkers. absolutely blows my mind. and the whole "power through it it" thing. it's like trying to "power through"... | self.bipolar |
I hate being afraid of flying I just walked out of an international airport in the middle of baggage. I was meant to be on my way to see family and friends but now I'm at home just relaxing. I got 3-5 people yelling at me for being a whimp and how I ruined their plans.
I just can't take it. I can't point to any singl... | self.offmychest |
My Bipolar Anthem & Fight Song This song has been close to my heart and brain lately. I discovered it a couple of months ago and it still sometimes brings me to tears. Sometimes it firms my resolve to keep fighting. But most of all it makes me feel like I'm not alone in my struggle.
I think everyone with Bipolar d... | self.bipolar |
Kinda angry rambling for way too many sentences. Its such a weird feeling to just "get stuck" when just seconds away from a way out of "this".
For example today, i... Gotta say the reasoning behind this thing first.
I'm too much of a pussy to get help normally or to end myself without outside pressure. So im trying to... | self.depression |
I often think of suicide but ik it's not the answer. I'm a high school senior and I fuckin hate my life and it isn't getting better. Everyone else's has gotten a little better while I'm still stuck inside a hole. It's just unfair and I hate that my life has to be so shit compared to others. This is one of the reasons I... | self.SuicideWatch |
Stalker-like Regret My college roommate, Y, and I had gotten kind of close. We were both gay and had similar interests, and I thought things were becoming an amazing friendship. I was slowly developing a crush on him, but I knew it had to stop for my other roommates’ sake and a rule of not dating roommates. Our third ... | self.offmychest |
I keep crashing hard. I'll have a few good days and then fall back into a deep dark low. I know I'm too dysfunctional to really actually do it, it'd require getting out of my daily routine and that's just Too Hard, but I still want to. I don't know how much longer I can keep holding on for the sake of not hurting someo... | self.SuicideWatch |
Waves of immense sadness Sometimes i get these waves of immense sadness. I remember having them as a kid. It doesn't occur that often now as it did then. I noticed that it happens when i'm dressing up or know i'm going out somewhere. for some reason, that seems to be the trigger most of the time, sometimes it's not.
... | self.depression |
A poem of sorts I'm 19 years old.
I've seen a lot, and about three quarters of it was really there.
I have seen the highest peaks, I have seen the darkest valleys, I have seen love and hate, I have seen overdose and sobriety and relapse and sobriety again.
It gets dark in my head.
Insanity pleads with the reasonable,... | self.bipolar |
Does anyone else just feel like there's a dark figure always following them? I don't believe in the metaphysical or anything like that, but I can't help but feeling like it's impossible to break this. That some kind of brooding monster is stuck with me. I know it's not real, but it just feels like there's something... ... | self.depression |
I just want to turn it off I feel weak because I’m not in some deep pain.
I just want to sleep and not wake up.
Like life is a computer game I can’t figure out how to turn off.
I never thought I’d live this long, I wish I hadn’t. | self.SuicideWatch |
I can't get out of bed there's nothing terrible or dramatic that made me like this so I don't feel like I have the right to feel like this but I was doing one of those anxiety tests and one of the questions was phrased something like 'how often have you had less interest or pleasure in doing things over the last two we... | self.depression |
I’m scheduled to take a gun course and from there I would like to buy a firearm. Im worried if they will inquire about my mental health. I was diagnosed two weeks ago with unspecified bipolar. I don’t even know if that’s real 😡😡😡 | self.bipolar |
Lost. No idea what to do. This past year has been the worst of my life. I'm completely lost and unsure what to do. My wife left me a year ago after her feelings seemed to change and me acting out, especially when drinking, because I felt a lack of compassion and feeling distant. I recently quit my job as a counselor as... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm useless. I'm highly disappointed with myself. I feel so frustrated... I give up. I'm useless even for such easy things like driving. At this point of my life, I realize I'll never be happy. I'm done; I just give up on everything. And I'm so scared of keep trying. I'm so tired of crying all the time. I'm having a lo... | self.SuicideWatch |
Tired of having anxiety Im tired of this feeling of just the world collapsing on me. Having issue catching my breath feeling like i am going to cry my meds not even helping anymore it feels like. I been waking up every night freaked put chest tight and crying. I just cant take it. | self.Anxiety |
How do you guys raise your doses? So I used to be on Prozac and seroquel (I'm still on the seroquel, it's doing a good job) but I recently made a switch to welbutrin after my prozac took an evil turn. It's been two weeks and I can tell the prozac is completely out of my system now. My hypomania and increased anxiety ar... | self.bipolar |
Coffee - woah I didn't have any coffee over the holidays so decided to kick caffeine and continue that into the new year. I had been feeling pretty good since then, but today I made the classic 'one won't do any harm' mistake. Woah do I feel it. Little hints of the old balance and coordination issues abound that I had... | self.Anxiety |
I hooked up with the hottest guy last night! Ok so I’m a very sexually actively 27f. Its fair to say I’m not the most attractive female. I think my face is pretty, but I’m over weight, and dont have the best body (I just lost 30 lbs tho, a lot more to go). Well I have my share of one night stands, hook ups, and some f... | self.offmychest |
tired i know the pain just gets passed to other people, but that's okay. i don't think it's selfish, or wrong to make a choice that is personal to you, and only you. It's not bad to want pain or numbness to never be felt again. No one will ever know you better than yourself. | self.SuicideWatch |
I wish I wasn't such a pussy. I want to just end it. | self.SuicideWatch |
My life is falling apart so quickly and I can't stop dissociating. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
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