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Existential crisis causing me constant anxiety So if talk of themes around mortality and afterlife cause you stress then please consider that I talk about that before reading. Also I realise this is super long and boring so I'm sorry but I had to get it off my chest.
I remember when I just kind of lived a life less a... | self.Anxiety |
speculations , my future with bipolar After getting my first full out blown manic episode last year after taking antidepressants, and being hospitalized for 3 month, I got diagnosed with BP.
I would describe myself being always depressed, almost never feel the hypomania.
school isin't going that great , am coming int... | self.bipolar |
I left my prescription escitalopram/lexapro in the car for two weeks on accident. There was intermittent hot weather. Should I get a new prescription or will I be okay? [deleted] | self.depression |
Does not being employed really hit anyone else's confidence? [deleted] | self.depression |
What's the point really... I really really want to fight my depression. I have let myself go. I've gained weight like crazy and I always feel like I'm not good enough. I'm in a relationship with a man that I love with everything in me. We have gotten over some major bumps but they still fuck with me. I feel like I'm no... | self.depression |
I will never function how I’m supposed to function in this world [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
This is a long story but I don't have anyone else to tell these things to and I can't get over them [deleted] | self.depression |
Therapy and meds don't do shit Therapy and meds don't do shit when your life sucks and you don't want to talk about your real problems. I've been self-harming, having homicidal thoughts, and lacking libido. I don't want anyone to know about the self-harm so I just wear long sleeves. I was almost put in foster care for... | self.depression |
I need help I have been suffering from extreme depression for the past couple of months I was with my girlfriend a few months ago and she cheated on me and was using me I have a very hard time being social I don't know what to say I've lost friends family over it I ended up breaking up with her and moved back in with m... | self.SuicideWatch |
Couldn't go out to lunch because of anxiety My therapist, who I really look up to, invited me out to lunch with some of her friends and her because she knows I am a loner, after an AA meeting, and I panicked and left the meeting when it was over and didn't go with them. I have so much social anxiety, especially around ... | self.Anxiety |
i'm 17 and i've never been drunk?? also please help me out i have weird conflicting feelings about alcohol and underage (u/18) drinking [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I don't think my friends actually like me As the title says- I don't think my friends actually like me. I don't know why they keep me around, either just to make fun of me or just because no one wants to tell me to leave, but it's driving me crazy and I don't know what to do. | self.Anxiety |
Im stressed and trapped This is all in a stream of consciousness.
I don't think I'll ever be happy. Not here at least.
Which is pathetic because of how good I have it compared to 99% of people.
I'll never measure up to everyone else at this school. Im not as intelligent or as hard working as anyone else. My getting ... | self.offmychest |
I feel like every waking moment, I am a breakdown waiting to happen Even now as I type this, I am holding back tears. My life to this point has been useless, I don't amount to anything, I don't have any real relationships or support, I literally have nothing to my name, it doesn't look like my future is going to be any... | self.SuicideWatch |
My parents think I am getting straight A's in college, but I'm actually very close to academic suspension [deleted] | self.offmychest |
For those of you interested in light therapy for depression These are sites I stumbled across while reading on therapy lights, I am just a layperson and recommend using this as a jumping off point for further research.
Light therapies for depression {incl discussion of dawn simulators vs therapy lights)
http://psyc... | self.bipolar |
I'm an extremist It's always 0 or 100 for me. No steady pace. Just infinitely increasing ideation of my own death. Disfigurement. Dismemberment. The thought of my brain stem cracking like lightning and spraying a swift pink mist into the air comforts me more than holding a teddy bear or praying to God. That last part m... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm scared A couple months ago, i was a genuinely happy person with goals and ways to be happy.
I've not had it particularly easy before that, problems with my mother, my father, my siblings, friends, and school , being misdiagnosed with a media addiction (my mother made the psychiatrist diagnose it, so i would be "a... | self.depression |
Solutions for panic/ anxiety attacks ? Five months ago I lost my baby boy. He was two months old and it seems too good for this world. Since then I have experienced what I can only imagine is anxiety episodes or panic attacks. I feel like I can't breathe/swallow and I'm going to choke. I don't want to go on medication.... | self.Anxiety |
I am going to the doctors in a week I finally booked online to meet with my NP to talk about medicine for it. I was feeling so confident and calm at the time, and now with a week left until it I am terrified. I knew I needed to book it though. I want to get better. I am just so so scared. | self.Anxiety |
I was suicidal every night for a year, but I also really wanted to live. This is how I (try to) get through I wrote an article about my struggle: http://kitasama.org/i-was-suicidal-every-night-for-a-year-but-i-also-really-wanted-to-live-this-is-how-i-got-through/
I'm currently having an episode right now, and I'm scar... | self.depression |
Advice for overcoming writing anxiety? I went back to my house a whole week before school started with a plan to work on applying for internships/scholarships. I have done pretty much everything BUT do just that. After already cleaning, exercising, cooking, laundry, etc (all necessary tasks) earlier this week, i procra... | self.Anxiety |
Is this anxiety or something else? For most of my life, but much worse over the last year I have obsessive thinking about my career choices. I am obsessed with figuring out the best career option for me but to the point that I am scattered all over the place and so are my thoughts. I feel out of control and on edge. I ... | self.Anxiety |
How do you fix your messes? So I had a period of really intense mania that is now subsiding into a frustrating and difficult depressive period, but I made some mistakes and burned some real bridges (got behind in work, etc) in the last few weeks and I need to fix it or things are about to get way worse. My parents are ... | self.bipolar |
I'm about to get dismissed from college, and it feels more like a relief to be honest... [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Cant stick it. Life is really fucking shitty. My mum has collapsed several times and been in the hospital for treatment so i hardly ever see her. This is due to her being overworked as most of her employees cant be bothered to work. Due to my mum being off for ages, My dad is struggling to support us so we have hardly... | self.SuicideWatch |
I wish I could have lucid dreams Life sucks, all of us here probably feel that in some way or another. A classic escape from that is sleep, but sleep seems to me like just an instant teleportation from one shit day to the next.
I wish I could lucid dream or something. I would look forward to going to bed, probably wo... | self.depression |
I'm so done. Anyone ever feel like they can't talk to others about what's going on? I have an irrational fear that I'll be locked away and forgotten about if I tell anyone my thoughts, even though I have found people that at least sort of get it in the past. The problem is that I didn't want to deal with the issues ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I might get fired from my job and feel like garbage So about 2 weeks ago I took a job as a runner at a restaurant, my job is basically to take food from the kitchen to the table. Sometimes I get really nervous and forget what goes where and it shows. We just moved to a new location so I'm shaky on them but I guess ever... | self.offmychest |
Will I always be in this bad mental shape? Hello all,
I don’t know who else to turn to for help. I’ve been suffering from severe anxiety and panic attacks for a couple years now, and on and off depression. I’ve been on medication for over 2 years, adjusted by psychiatrists over the years. Been going to weekly counseli... | self.Anxiety |
time for bed I am so tired of waking up. Being stupid, untalented and autistic. But after seeing my sibling excel and be the polar opposite of me. my parents remind me of it to. my classmates me remind me of it. And now i finally realise that its time for bed.
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What is a depressed insomniac supposed to do? I can’t sleep, and I enjoy nothing. What am I supposed to do when I can’t sleep besides lay there and think? Because that’s hell. | self.depression |
I really dont want to do life anymore I need it to stop. Everything. | self.offmychest |
Doesn’t matter how old he was, I am still sad Just because grandpa was 94, doesn’t mean I shouldn’t still be hurt by him dying. I am happy he is not lingering in a life he was not happy to be living. I am sad about him simply being absent from my life. I loved him. He was one of the few people who could understand my s... | self.offmychest |
The worst part of working as an ER grief counselor this time of year is when the family says “what are we going to do with their Christmas presents?” [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Anxiety is destroying my Friendships... I love my friends all so much, but my anxiety is destroying all of them, I get hung up on the tiniest things and obsess and obsess, nagging my friends over and over until they get upset and begin to hate me. My friend was sad yesterday and I kept nagging him to tell me why becaus... | self.Anxiety |
I just feel like I hate everything and every one. I'm just waiting on the next person or thing trying to f**k me over I feel like theres no joy in life anymore | self.depression |
(Long)Just wondered if anyone with relationship anxiety could help me please. Or anyone with GAD [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
being depressed became some sort of competition i like learning more about depression. since it helps me understand myself better. usually i watch youtube videos about it. or read about it on forums and etc. anyway i noticed that most of the time youtube comment section contains something similar to this:
Billy
"i've ... | self.depression |
How do I not scare away everybody I love during my depressive state? I dunno. I want to tell them but the more I tell them I feel like the more I scare them. I'm really scared myself. I dunno how to be normal | self.bipolar |
I feel like I'm going insane I don't know how to start. I have a best friend (Daniel) and I feel like I might lose him. I'm a very very very jealous person. I basically hate every single one of his other friends. It's never been like this. When we started talking I talked to some of his friend and it was fine, but as t... | self.depression |
Not sure what happiness is anymore Everything gets to me. Every little mistake brings my level of anxiety even higher than it is. I feel like a fuck up in every sense of the word. This feeling is so overwhelming. I think about what if I were to end things now. What is the point anymore?
I have no real life skills. Ba... | self.depression |
I can't take this pain anymore, I have to end it now I am not exaggerating when I say that every waking second if my pathetic existence is unbearably painful. I'm seconds away from cutting my throat and I have no reason to hesitate. I thought it was bad 6 months ago but that was just the beginning. I gave myself more t... | self.SuicideWatch |
I’ve had 5 really good days in a row! I’ve been on 60 mg Cymbalta since late June, and tried combining it with 2 mg Abilify. That wasn’t working, so my doctor put me on 30 mg trazodone last week. I’ve been feeling pretty good ever since - the level of self-hating thoughts seems to have decreased, I have more motivation... | self.depression |
How is hearing original music in my head considered an "auditory hallucination" if composers who are stable have this same thing happening to them as well? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Fell like I’m going to live poverty I’m currently in university and hate what I’m studying. I want to study something like math or computer science but I’m too retarded to do so. I have a lot of learning disabilities and everyone at my school and my parents included doubt my abilities. Everyone has ever since I could r... | self.depression |
Hey, anyone wanna talk? I'm using a windows phone and haven't got a lot to do, so I'm gonna be spending a lot of time on Reddit 'cause it actually works. I'm feeling down and just want a friend to talk to :) | self.depression |
Having one of those days -Thoughts are everywhere- Just started on my Wellbutrin a few days ago, was feeling great but woke up today with very depressive feelings as I usually do. I'm feeling rather alone today. Been thinking about my childhood, teen and adult life and realizing not much has really changed. I want to f... | self.depression |
The teetotaler drama I'm a teetotaler. I hate the smell and the taste of the alcohol. For this I'm being marginalized and considered abnormal.
So far I lived a shitty life because of this and probably I will always live a shitty life. Only because of this.
I can't even go out on friday and saturday because even the wa... | self.SuicideWatch |
Lost And Alone I feel tired. I have lost my will to live. I feel broken, lost and alone. I feel like a failure.
I pull my hair out and now have a semi-large bald spot.
Life seems hopeless. I want to die. | self.SuicideWatch |
Sugar = sadness? Does anyone else feel depressed when the sugar from a treat wears off? I cried and held my daughters for a few minutes during church yesterday. I should know not to eat donuts. | self.bipolar |
I’m so happy! I quit the epitome of a soul sucking desk job this weekend. I don’t care that I had to repay the relocation package. It was worth it. Fix your damn company and hire more people. | self.offmychest |
I just spent the past 15 minutes sobbing in the bathroom at work because it finally hit me that I have no friends It’s not their fault, it’s mine. I had tons of friends in high school, we hung out almost every day. I was always over at someone’s house, saving sleepovers, playing games.
After high school I kept in tou... | self.depression |
There's a point where you become so miserable that you can't even look forward to the weekends anymore. I still feel sad, just a different type of sad...if that makes any sense. | self.depression |
I’m not invited to my best friends wedding. So, my best friend is getting married in a few months. And I’m not invited. We’ve been basically sisters for around 10 years now. I’m close with her family, she’s close with mine. Like the best friend of all best friends.
She got engaged last year and was really excited abo... | self.offmychest |
It was my birthday today and everyone forgot. I'm posting this late at night so I'll feel better about no one seeing it.
I haven't celebrated my birthday in five years because my best friend never remembered, and thought I'd try again. I made a big deal out of it, but everyone forgot, including my girlfriend and both... | self.depression |
Exhaustion I am depleted.
I am tired of resisting the unceasing pain. Just going through the daily motions is growing harder. I no longer look for things to do. Even stopped to feel regret over the past mistakes, as there is no energy left to care. Apathy dominates.
I do not welcome new days. I have nothing to do wit... | self.depression |
I hate when people make me feel like a burden when I try to tell them about my anxiety This is kind of just a rant. For the last 3 or so months I've been almost anxiety free, doing really well, super happy for the first time in my life, and finally able to reach my full potential. For some reason the transition back to... | self.Anxiety |
wellbutrin day 2 Well yesterday had me feelin like I popped a pill of speed within the first 30 mins (literally, I began cleaning 3 seperate areas of my house at the same time). I couldn't force myself to sleep last night either. I realize taking this in the afternoon was a bad idea due to the stimulation... i hate pul... | self.depression |
meditation? has this helped any of you? im probably going to try it soon | self.bipolar |
Help! Why do I care what one person thinks? Can anyone help me figure out why I care so much with what one of my friends thinks of me? Just one of my friends. We’ve been friends for 15 years or so. But for some reason I need to impressive him, tell him what movies I like, send him memes, snap chats. For no reason at al... | self.Anxiety |
I have to kill myself I don’t see it as an option anymore, I’m just too deep in it, it’s going to happen soon. I don’t care if this hurts others, I can’t take the pain no more. | self.SuicideWatch |
The leech is finally gone from my life (UPDATE) [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I have sexual thoughts about kids. I'm 26. Please don't hate me, I already hate myself more than you ever will. I wasn't always this way. But sometime around 2011, I began to notice that I felt certain urges and thoughts when near prepubescent children. They aren't urges to hurt them or, god forbid, do *that* to them... | self.SuicideWatch |
New semester anxiety So tomorrow I have a new semester with new subjects and everything, and shit...I know for a fact that my anxiety will tear me apart tomorrow, I haven't been to college for 3 weeks now after the finals, and shit...I have to get out of bed and go there, it's either this or I work labor, so I HAVE to ... | self.Anxiety |
My parents think that being gay is a mental illness and that it's justification for murder We had a friend over for dinner today who was talking about cultural differences between her hometown and a big city. She was taking about a gay friend who came out to his extended family while drunk. His dad beat him up so badly... | self.offmychest |
Dumb Ass Whining Sometimes shit is so heavy and painful I can barely move. I have to hide and cry, there's no one to share the weight, no one who thinks your shit is real shit because we all have shit and it's not even fair to expect someone to help you with your load-- but it's so so heavy... it's good to be strong b... | self.offmychest |
I don't really know what's happening anymore Hey sub, highschool junior here and I want to open up. I don't really know what's going on or if it's a phase but this seems like a good place to start.
This school year started just under 3 months ago now and since the end of the first week I've been feeling worse and wor... | self.depression |
Any experience with Form 1/Form 3 involuntary inpatient in Canada? So I got put on a Form 1, 72-h involuntary hold for psych assessment. When the 72 h was up they asked me if I would stay voluntarily and I said yes.
If I had said no, they could have forced me to stay by putting me on a Form 3. I don't know if they wou... | self.bipolar |
I want to kill myself but im too scared [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Need advice. Hey guys. I came for an advice.
I’m dating girl for a couple of months now. She is amazing, We always have amazing time together and we don’t stop talking for a second. I’d say we are really good friends now and she always says things like: *if I don’t like a guy I’d never go on date with him* so it makes... | self.bipolar |
i don't like to leave my house anymore. my depression feels like it's just hanging over me all the time, and so i stay in my dorm all day, every day, and i'll admit it's getting boring. there are things i'd like to do - take a walk to the library, for example - but that means i'd have to be away from my dorm for an ext... | self.depression |
Wtf am I supposed to do? I don't get it. I decided to give my family doctor a try today to see if I could get off SSRIs and maybe switch to a low dose benzo, but she said I wouldn't ever be prescribed any benzo because I used to use drugs (96 days sober btw) yet I was never addicted to benzos. Psychiatrist strictly pre... | self.Anxiety |
Living life Is the slowest, longest, and most painful way to die. I give up. | self.depression |
Confidence I seriously want to do Performing Arts, at college, I have an audition in January, but I have zero confidence! :(, and I don’t know what to do, as I feel I should be doing it! :( | self.Anxiety |
I finally kissed a girl. I preface this story with a few facts about me. I was homeschooled my whole life, never had a relationship, and have now just arrived back home for Thanksgiving break. I matched with a girl on tinder on Monday, and set up a date for Wednesday. My first kiss was with a platonic friend that last... | self.offmychest |
Nobody wished me happy birthday. So today I became 17. Nobody really wished me happy birthday except for my mother and my 2 sisters, my dad forgot.
My "best friend" which I've known since elementary school didn't even though I know he was notified by Facebook. I have 800 friends on Facebook and only like 5 wished me ha... | self.depression |
I had a nightmare about me committing a mass shooting [deleted] | self.depression |
A Question For Medical Professionals With Bipolar (Specifically In USA)--I Want To Pursue A Career In The Medical Field, But I'm Having Trouble Figuring Out Exactly Which Position To Go After (x-post r/bipolar) I want to pursue a career in the medical field. I already have a BA, but I graduated in 2010 with a degree in... | self.bipolar |
I don't feel like I'm going anywhere in life I'm 23 and now at the point in my life where I'm seeing people I used to go to high school with graduating from college and I envy them so much. I feel like I wasted so much time since I spent 3 years in community college, only to transfer to a state university and consisten... | self.depression |
"Always remember to wear sunscreen! Or you might get skin cancer like me!" [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Anxiety always returns when i'm not at college Whenever there is a break from classes my anxiety gets really bad. I'm fine during term time, even in the midst of finals and deadlines my anxiety is pretty non-existent. In fact last week I had a really tough week with five deadlines and a presentation and it was probably... | self.Anxiety |
I was just shown a glock handgun while looking at a thread on here of all places... not sure if I can post this? [removed] | self.depression |
I was always the “one that lost weight (50lbs)” in our family, and the one that was praised for getting so thin and looking amazing and now my brother has lost 50lbs... [deleted] | self.offmychest |
My job is making me depressed I've been at the same job for almost 2 years now. I've recently become so depressed due to my job it's affecting my personal life (sleep, hobbies, relationships).
I work for a very small (10 people) company. My roles/responsibilities aren't outlined clearly. I end up doing things "wrong" ... | self.depression |
Can you share your experiences with Citalopram? I’m not having a great time on them. | self.depression |
Signed up for a boxing gym today, planning on going there to train and take lessons every day [deleted] | self.depression |
I'm becoming less codependent on others. It'a a very slow process, but I'm learning how to be comfortable with myself and not rely so heavily on attention from my friends. I don't seek their approval, but I've noticed for a long time that if they don't reply, I tend to get anxious and I just want to be as mentally heal... | self.depression |
I feel alone even with people around, any tips? I’ve been feeling so alone. I live with my best friend, I’m talking to a guy, I call my other best friend everyday. Yet with all these people around me, I feel alone, sad, & unwanted when they aren’t around or constantly talking to me. I sound needy so I try not to bo... | self.depression |
Does anyone feel brain fog and like your head is too heavy? I haven't been diagnosed with depression by a professional, but I know I have a severe case of it. I'm 26yo no job atm, no higher education beyond a ged. No motivation for absolutely anything. I force myself to run on the treadmill and weight lift. I have no d... | self.depression |
I don't want a girlfriend, not today, not any day. I don’t need a girlfriend, I don’t know why people don’t understand this and yet continually tell me that I need to settle down and that they need to set me up with someone.
I get these people mean well and want me to be happy but I am happy, I’m happy on my own and ... | self.offmychest |
A question (not entirely sure if it belongs here) Hello /r/depression,
I'm a college freshman who's been dealing with depression and has been receiving counseling so far. Lately, I've come to think I haven't been dealing with just one problem but two, i.e not only have I been dealing with depression but a different is... | self.depression |
Finally someone listens My psychiatrist is a jerk. Yes I’m going to have a new doctor starting in November, but I’m stuck with this guy until then.
He doesn’t listen, seems to have preconceived notions about why patients are there (words of the nurse and my therapist), and he won’t even make eye contact.
His solution... | self.bipolar |
Dreams I hate dreams.
Why? Because your happy in them with the people you care for. You're there looking at them with for what feels like a real smile for once. You think "how can life get any better than this?" You look at them and see they're relaxed, not stressed at all and enjoying life. You feel happy. Then, you ... | self.depression |
The thought of eventually getting a job or "career" sounds straight up awful to me [deleted] | self.depression |
Feel more lost than I have ever felt in my entire life.
Hey /r/depression.
I've posted here a few times over the years using different usernames whenever I needed to vent. I'll try my best to put some effort into this post.
I'm a 35 year old man from the United States. A part of me is a little worried that maybe s... | self.depression |
16 yr old considering drastic measures Hello. (Sorry if my name offends anyone btw, I made it because I was playing a video game) I don't really know how to start this so I guess I'll just give you some background info. I'm a 16 year old male, I have a good body, straight A's, plenty of "friends", and a void that has b... | self.SuicideWatch |
Hyper👏🏽sexu👏🏽ality👏🏽 I want to kiss everyone! All of my friends! Every one! (and like... other stuff too) How do I stop? When does it end? When will I get to a point where I don't want to impulsively burn every bridge I have? | self.bipolar |
Is it just me, or do most therapists suck? I've tried so many and I'm tired of feeling like they don't give a damn. It's like the one hour a week I am there is the only hour I even cross their mind. Never do I feel like there is a game plan or "treatment plan" to actually move me closer to my goals. It's just random... | self.depression |
Its all gone This time last year I had everything, I had a relationship, I had amazing friends, I had security. Everything has just slipped away...I lost my friends, my love, and myself.
I don't have the power to come back from this. I feel so empty. I'm living a lie.
2018 will change nothing. Every day is a new yea... | self.depression |
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