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Lacking will to do anything So I've thought about suicide a lot in the past, I was a pretty awkward guy, hated myself, never left the house, played world of warcraft for 8 years, etc.. but I got out of that, away from those thoughts and habits, that place of mind. I have a wife, a kid, probably have a second kid soon, ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Anybody else go Weepy Wonder with impending holidays? I'm super stressed right now, trying to coordinate the meal. I like cooking huge meals, but preparing to cook them destroys me. Add to that, my sister will be coming by and my husband cannot stand her. Idk why, something about she's too snobby or something. Whatever... | self.bipolar |
I think I’m at a loss I’ve struggled with bipolar/depression/anxiety my whole life. The past 2 years have been incredibly rough for me. I finally kind of got it together for once. I was going to go back to school next Tuesday, I had a job, a good boyfriend. I have to withdraw from classes now because my mom refuses to ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I want to be pretty so bad I realize it’s unhealthy, but I’m obsessive over my appearance and becoming attractive. I scrutinize myself for hours at a time trying to look for potential. I don’t think I’m repulsive, but I don’t know if I’m unattractively plain, just mediocre looking, or if I can be considered good lookin... | self.offmychest |
I dont really want to type. I just hate myself, my life and would like to die. I'm over it all.
I just really am. | self.SuicideWatch |
We're all mad here Stigma around mental health is so bad. I just answered my own question, at least in part. I was just thinking "why would anyone flat deny or second guess their diagnosis, or stop taking meds?" We're told EVERY DAY don't stop these abruptly, but I know in some cases cost can be the deciding factor, an... | self.bipolar |
I have some canniboid extract. I would like to try it for nervousness. Anyone have experience with this? | self.bipolar |
Please help. I feel like cutting myself everytime I feel worthless. And i feel worthless very often | self.depression |
I’m not happy My fiancé cheated on me and left me about three weeks ago after I put all my money and years into us. I love my family and tried to get the best gifts I could for them. It was hard as I am still struggling with this sudden breakup and I dropped all my disposable income into a Christmas vacation for her. M... | self.offmychest |
Feeling trapped I have gained a bunch of weight and developed depression from starting college, and now my vision has suddenly become really blurry (pretty sure it’s nearsightedness). I feel so trapped in my own skin and like I’m losing myself... | self.offmychest |
It runs in the family Hi, well, I [19F] was diagnosed as bipolar type II a little more than a year ago. I had had my struggles with depression, eating disorders, anxiety and self-harm since I was 13 years old and was treated for such, but never had any sort of manic episodes until last year. It's a big blur a lot of it... | self.bipolar |
Having no friends sucks so much I have no more friends, I changed school. I want friends but I don’t want to be near anyone and it’s making me insane. | self.depression |
Should I See a Doctor? For the past 3 or 4 years now I’ve had some issues with anxiety and I haven’t been sure about whether or not I should talk to a doctor. I call myself having anxiety attacks and it’s usually triggered by the idea of social interaction with my family, mostly my mom, and sometimes my SO when we argu... | self.Anxiety |
Uggh- creepy stepdad story. Need some advice, a chat some words- anything. Before I go crazy. Ok so here it goes... my mom and my stepdad have been married over 20 years... he was my main father figure. My real dad was very abusive and left when we were young. This guy has been my “dad.”
First of all he is a complete ... | self.offmychest |
Switching from effexor to lexapro - dosage question I have been on Venlaflaxine (generic Effexor) for about 9 months now. It has been an absolute lifesaver! My quality of life has improved 10 fold from where I started with my anxiety issues 30 years ago. It looks like I'll be having to go from 150 to 225 because some o... | self.Anxiety |
I don't even know what 'better' or 'normal' is anymore I've completely lost my sense of direction and purpose in life. I have no idea what I'm working towards. I have just wasted an entire year of my life, having pulled out of my first semester of uni, and then failed the two units I took in semester two.
My friends ... | self.depression |
Despite making improvements my mood/mental state seems more fragile and inconsistent? [deleted] | self.depression |
i concentrate on all my symptoms way too hard hey guys! so i (female, 18) have had severe emetophobia (fear of vomiting) from anxiety for 10+ years now. i had it under control for a really long time but my anxiety is getting a lot worse now, causing me to miss class and other things (i’m a freshman in college). lately ... | self.Anxiety |
I'm really scared. Tomorrow is the day I'm supposed to return to med school after 3 or 4 years of doing nothing, but trying to get myself together. It's been a hard time, but I need to move on, right?
The scary thing is, this is not the first time I try to return. I tried last year, and I broke in front of the hospit... | self.depression |
Still self conscious no matter how drunk i am Title says it all, no matter how drunk i get, I'm always hyper conscious of myself and how people are viewing me.
I sometimes wonder how people are so confident in clubs, when i ask them, they just say alcohol, for some reason i just cant let go like that, I physically cant... | self.Anxiety |
I Wish I Were The Person My Family Sees They would be better off if I died, just like I would be. I don't deserve them. The person I was or could have been is long gone. | self.depression |
I feel like my life will lead to nowhere. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Man, I really thought I was getting better.. For the past 6 months, I've been contemplating suicide. I've done my research, looked thtough my options and writing everything down in a little diary. It made me feel "better" for a bit, that comforting feeling that takes over you when you know you won't be suffering for lo... | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel like this is where it ends I've been severely abused as a child and have been through alot of failures (some of my own responsibility, quitting jobs etc). I have been sensitive and empathetic as a child while the people around me didn't give much shit about anything. I feel like they are strong and I am weak and... | self.depression |
I don't know whether to be an artist or to get a 'real' job. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I hate it when people say "find comfort in your loneliness" Whether it's on here or Twitter or wherever else. It's bullshit. They'll say "find comfort in your loneliness. Enjoy going to the mall alone. Enjoy eating alone. Enjoy going to the movies alone" etc etc etc. Whenever someone says that it feels like it's catere... | self.depression |
"loosing words" Does anyone just loose words? I mean I know everyone forgets words from time to time, but I feel like I have this problem a lot more than the regulars walking around. Often times it will be a word I just said or read or something really common so it's not like I'm just forgetting words I don't know v... | self.bipolar |
Manic trust I can never understand why I put myself out there so much while manic. Trusting is so easy and I don't even hold people accountable
This needs to change. | self.bipolar |
Feeling empty, hurt and excluded. Why are we like we are? I'm 33M diagnosed with anxiety, depression and possibly BPD type II and it seems like I've lived my entire life for other people. My mom always pushed me to "achieve" in school (get good grades). My entire life growing up was studying and playing video games. Av... | self.depression |
I’d love to get to know you! Everyday on the bus, you sit in the row horizontal to me. Neither of us sit next to anyone else, so I have a pretty good view of you.
You mirror everything about me!
You wear the same green jacket as me.
You wear black skinny jeans, just like me.
You wear the exact same Vans as me, with ... | self.offmychest |
severe anxiety when talking to people i don't know or when i'm around people i don't get along with. For as long as I can remember whenever I have to talk to someone new, someone i don't get along with, or someone of importance whether it's an acquaintance, an attractive girl, sitting in my bosses office having a meeti... | self.Anxiety |
Ten tips for Interviewing with Anxiety I've commented on others' posts a few times, thought it might help if I posted an actual list. Hope this helps :)
Tip 1. Break down the job description section by section. Provide an example of how you’ve employed those methods in the past. Read your answers out loud until you f... | self.Anxiety |
My dog died this morning. Everything fucking sucks.
Edit: Thank you, everyone, for your very, very kind comments. I (probably) don't know any of you, and I (probably) never will, but it does help. It really does. The truth is that Zara was an old dog. At 15, she was ancient as far as Rottweilers go - most Rottweilers... | self.offmychest |
I cried on New Years because I love my gf so much, and I feel like an idiot. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Alcohol and Bipolar I've been doing alright after a psychotic break. I've avoided caffeine and alcohol and I've been doing "OK". I'm still a little off and IDK how long it is going to take for me to get back to "normal". It has been 6-months and I'm still not "right".
Anyway, I had some alcohol today and I noticed tha... | self.bipolar |
My particular situation I've been procrastinating this post for way too long, it's finally time to get all this shit out.
As a child I was pretty sociable, I used to go out a lot and play with other children. I don't know what the hell happened along the way, but since I was 13 I started becoming more and more shy, mo... | self.depression |
I need to call the number. The problem is:
My mom said that tomorrow my behavioral therapist would be screaming at me because today in a hospital before my doctor's appointment I had my wallet and school folder on the floor. My mom threatened calling the police on me today, but no one in my household did that now. Th... | self.SuicideWatch |
I sob thinking about my painfully wasted young years I'm going to write this hopefully without stopping to think myself into madness with corrections and such. Too late I just backspaced two whole sentences! There is this big fucking hard block of concrete in my head that stops me from doing anything including things I... | self.depression |
How do I end my life without hurting family and friends? | self.SuicideWatch |
Therapy Hello all,
I recently sought counseling; because I am having trouble accepting myself. I was able to get over constantly feeling depressed just over 2 weeks ago. This past week, I've been experiencing suicidal thoughts, and contemplation. My question is if I should express this to her. She hasn't really helped... | self.depression |
I'm stupid, I'm suicidal, and alone don't know what to do. I'm 15 and I don't have anyone who cares about me. My family is abusive (more details in other posts)and I don't know where to go. I don't really have any friends. My one friend is always busy because she now has a boyfriend and her grandmother is taking her t... | self.offmychest |
I think I made a rude first impression So I have SA, and I do Tae Kwon Do. My TKD place is split up into different classes by belt rank. So since I’m a black belt, I’m in the red to black belt class. There was this new kid today who just moved up to the same class I’m in.
He was really quiet, most likely because he wa... | self.Anxiety |
Panic attacks causing me to isolate myself? Any tips on how to not isolate myself from everyone when my panic attacks are bad. My panic attacks get pretty bad this time of year, due to numerous triggers. But I find myself shutting down because of it. My health issues already cause me to isolate quite a bit, and I'm try... | self.Anxiety |
I think she made herself sick for attention I *had* a best friend, who we will call Tanis (character I made based off of her). The very last time I saw her, I had a mole check for my mole that had grown and gotten darker. Melanoma moles are really common in my family, so this was scary. My removal and then testing appo... | self.offmychest |
Struggling with friendship I don’t understand friendship sometimes. I worry that I’m annoying so won’t text. When I do text I freak out if they don’t respond. It makes me think I did something wrong. I worry that they forgot about me, don’t like me anymore, hate, etc. I know there’s no reason for these worries, but I c... | self.Anxiety |
Are there any other musicians here? Actually, I don't know if I count because I'm still learning basic stuff, but I think I finally found an interest I can stick with.
I'm learning guitar right now but I also sometimes compose my own tracks on the computer. I find it to be a helpful creative outlet. I can't draw or w... | self.bipolar |
Sick, alone, anxiety, and this life feels like bullshit. [deleted] | self.depression |
Whenever I get horny I end up cutting myself. I don't know where to post this really as it's tangent on everything but not directly related to any one thing. I just don't want to have a sex drive anymore.
I'm on meds for depression and most of the time I'm ok. They kill my sex drive to at least half of what it would ... | self.offmychest |
Calming down without freezing up I'm able to calm down. But the only way I do is by just dropping the things I was worried about. Just breathe, breathe, distract a bit, calm down. But that means I don't do the things I need and my problems get worse. I can't both stay calm and face my issues. It's really hurting me and... | self.Anxiety |
Just another hopeless case I am 25 and I lost the girl of my dreams about two years ago. Our relationship was probably one of the most dysfunctional ones out there. On the surface we seemed like the ideal couple, and to each other it seemed that way as well. We were either both blind or both in denial of course. Well t... | self.depression |
PTSD, Depression and GAD is taking over, I want to die to spare my partner any more hardship. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Meds Hey, I’m on 125mg zoloft and was on klonopin as needed which wasn’t working for me. My psych just prescribed me 25mg seroquel and I’m scared to take it due to reading mixed reviews on the Internet. Any experience w these two meds? Sometimes I wonder if zoloft is helping at all.. have gained some weight on it and f... | self.bipolar |
Am I a terrible person or a victim of my needs My girlfriend of 3 years who i really loved, left me for another guy when we got to uni (the same uni). After this i started self harming and even attempted an overdose on painkillers (ended up just throwing up a lot and my stomach hurt a lot (pretty stupid)). Anyway this ... | self.depression |
Looking for help. In a confusing and helpless spot Looking for help. I am running out of energy and cant understand what is going on.
For the last 4-5 years, I have struggled with what I would call depression,
however, for the last 3, I wouldn't say thats the proper diagnosis.
I have lost touch with reality at this po... | self.depression |
Anyone Free to Talk? I just need to talk to someone right now. | self.depression |
I made a big change today So, I have been very anxious and stressed because of work for the last 2 years. I have always been a person who strives for perfection. I also was raised in a troubled family and was forced to take responsibility of my younger siblings and later even parents at young age. This has made me very... | self.Anxiety |
What makes you think about it? What makes you desire suicide? How many attempts do you have? How are you trying to improve your situation?
I think deep down suicide isn't the solution, there are beautiful things to live in life. I'd have to accept that maybe I won't get everything I want in life, but there are realist... | self.SuicideWatch |
Does anyone else have a history of trying several SSRI & SNRI meds and just not getting results? So far, I have tried Lexapro, Paxil, Prozac, Luvox, Zoloft, Pristiq & now I am on Effexor 150 mg. Been on it for 2 months now and it is having no effect on my anxiety symptoms. Next time I go into the NP, she will r... | self.Anxiety |
End of the world for me....blood on tissue paper after bowel movement.... help! [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
i don't know what to do anymore This past year has been terrible for me. I lost everyone I cared about and nothing is exciting/pleasurable anymore. It feels like I'm just watching my life go by and I'm not actually experiencing anything. I've tried everything from therapy to self medicating, but I think all I need is s... | self.depression |
Somewhat Unique Form of OCD/Anxiety - Peripheral Staring? Can anyone relate/give advice? My symptoms of OCD/Anxiety don't necessarily compare to the more scary stories I've read on this subreddit, but I'd just like some advice. Over the past few years, I've dealt with a more discrete symptom of OCD called OCD Staring o... | self.Anxiety |
They say everybody is going through something, but it honestly feel like everyone has at least something to look forward to in life except me. | self.depression |
Religion is depressing. "Satan is walking around like a lion devouring men so watch out for every WAKING second!"
But lo, lets have peace as we believe things will turn out better. I mean how the hell do any of these people have peace? I don't believe satan and god are even real, but rather that things can reach an ul... | self.depression |
Everything just feels shit. I'm a 15 year old male who is suicidal. I told my mom and stepdad that I was very depressed and they laughed and said that I wasn't. I've also told my friends and one of them just thought I said it as a joke and my 2 other friends are too depressed to get help from.
I have been depressed sin... | self.SuicideWatch |
Did you realize you were becoming depressed? Whenever a doctor asks me when I first started noticing signs of depression, I legitamely struggle to think of a time when I wasn't depressed.
Like I know I wasn't depressed as a kid, but something must've happened along the way for me to get here. And not knowing how/why/... | self.depression |
[Mini-rant]Armchair Experts I cannot be the only one who has felt that sting of irritation and anger whilst stumbling upon someone who wants to preach to you about how to manage your own illness while having never dealt with it themselves outside of "I dated someone once", or "I read online".
I do constant research an... | self.bipolar |
I am buying a helium tank when I get paid I can't do it anymore.
How many times does someone have to be beaten down again and again until they can catch a break? I was molested and bullied as a child. Raped and discarded as an adult. I have no friends. My last girlfriend, the one woman I truly ever fell in love wit... | self.offmychest |
anxiety about love. so i really have gone through several horrible relationships and friendships, some being emotionally sexually and/or physically abusive. i can no longer find myself opening up to anyone. it’s so difficult to trust people and i used to be an extremely open person and gave everyone a chance. i can’t d... | self.Anxiety |
Feeling lonely and existential late tonight, anyone trying to talk??? M(21) Not really feeling like I belong anywhere anymore. In my senior year at university and I’m just tryin to distance myself from the culture here. Also, when I head “home” it’s just not feeling like I belong back there anymore because my mom is no... | self.depression |
My crush told me we could never be together I've had a crush on a girl for a few years and I always knew that being in a relationship with her would be trouble because we went to different schools in different parts of the country. But I still felt something towards her. When I left school and we had more opportunities... | self.depression |
I've given myself a nervous tick, and this isn't the first time this has happened. I know *how* this started, I know *when*, but I don't know why this keeps happening to me.
A few years ago, probably around 3. I remember thinking, out of the blue, about a teacher's aid/student from college possibly getting on-the-job ... | self.Anxiety |
Has anyone else traced/remembered sadness all the way back to a young age? [deleted] | self.depression |
how do I stop obsessing over my physical flaws? [deleted] | self.depression |
Any time I ask to hang out with my "friends" they always cancel [deleted] | self.depression |
Some terrible years I've had I go to school every day and I hate it, and we finally get Christmas break, and all it does is remind me how much I hate living at home. My parents are lunatics who don't let me leave the house and my brother doesn't stop arguing with them. So surprise, Christmas break was agony and in two ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Only been holding this in for a few hours but I visited Auschwitz for the first time today. I was deeply moved, disturbed, and pissed. The number of fucking people I saw taking selfies and posing on the grounds of a fucking concentration camp was astounding. People blatantly ignoring photography rules, and places of re... | self.offmychest |
I don't know how much longer I've got. I can't function. I'm only dragging everyone else down with me. I don't see any long-term future.
Why am still dragging my heels? | self.SuicideWatch |
Can I drink alcohol while also being on Lexapro/Escitalopram? If it’s relevant, I’m on 20mg daily. | self.Anxiety |
Can Depression Show Up Through Unmotivation hi kids,
So these past couple of weeks I've felt really REALLY unmotivated to work on anything, even stuff I know I need to do, and it's really troubling me because I had been so motivated and a go-getter but now the slightest bit of stuff tires me out.
And I started noticin... | self.depression |
How do i become a morning person on seroquel? I try to wake up early but no matter what I wake up as late as possible because of my seroquel. Anyone on seroquel or another sedating med have any advice? | self.bipolar |
I have lots of mental problems but i dont want to put effort in to stop them Title says the main chunk of it. I just don't like putting effort into anything ANYTHING and i am on like 3 different medicines and overall its helping but i know nothing in life will work out if i dont put in effort and maybe me not putting e... | self.depression |
I wanted to share my story of dealing with obsessions, anxiety, depression, ect [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Right to refuse major med changes? I’m starting an IOP Monday, which also includes weekly sessions with a psychiatrist. I honestly feel really good about my meds. I went because I’ve never done the therapy part of things.
Anyone have any experience with this? I’m pretty stable most of the time. It’s the distress toler... | self.bipolar |
Today I gathered the little money I left and probably bought myself my last dominos pizza I am tired. I didnt know how i survived today but I dont know how to survive tmrw. I probably will make my decision after watching the Warriors-Grizzlies game. The Warriors game gave me such joy the past 4 years when I have been f... | self.depression |
Looking for informal Chicago support groups, *not NAMI or DBSA* tried those two and they're damn depressing. | self.bipolar |
I cant stand my highly dramatic flatmate kind of disorganized since it's an offmychest thing, but I just can't stand my overly dramatic and terribly spoiled flatmate. She says she is depressed and never leaves the house, never do any housechores and gets very upset or simply cries out loud everyday... it's so tiring. S... | self.offmychest |
Maybe I'm here to fight depression all my life. Maybe I won't get to know whether I'll have a best friend or friends for life ...
Or get to meet the love of my life - let alone marry them
... Or get my dream job (hell I don't even know what it is I want to do)
... Or have a decent roof over my head
... Or travel to... | self.depression |
Think I just had a minor psychosis episode? It's almost 3am. I spent the entire night arguing to myself loudly about committing suicide. Kept repeating phases and words for no fucking reason. I have a huge headache right now. My mind is kinda blank atm and I don't know what to think. I don't remember what just happened... | self.bipolar |
I have an eating problem...and a...general lack of caring for myself? I have put on so much weight these past 5 years, basically since I moved to a dead-end town (and started on antidepressants which probably didn't help). I hate going outside because for most of the year the temperature is up in the 30s (celsius). I h... | self.bipolar |
Going nowhere Hi...
I'm a male. I'm 21. I live with my parents. I'm unemployed. I'm a virgin. I'm a stereotype.
I'm deeply unsatisfied with life. I have nowhere to go. I have nothing to push me, and nothing to reach for. I just want to go... I'm so tired.
This world demands so much. I can't do it. I feel like I need... | self.SuicideWatch |
Everyday I think about dying. I used to be more emotional, but these days all I think about is whether fighting for my life is even worth it.
There's no fear or hesitation. It feels like I have uncureable disease in my body that never goes away. Pain in my stomach sweating from stress and constant vertigo. People BS m... | self.depression |
Crushing anxiety in my third year of university is stopping me from doing anything [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I have stopped seeing my mom and she now is stalking and harassing me and people I know I am almost 30 years old and have cut off most unndeeded contact with my mom as she is very combative and manipulative. I moved and did not tell my mom because she has the habit of flying in to see me unannounced and then demanding ... | self.offmychest |
I feel empty and alone, i just want someone to talk to Ever since i was 12, ive had depression. After school one day, i told one of my friends that i was going to kill myself once i got home, which i had been planning for a couple days. she promised she wouldnt tell anyone, but when she got home she told her mum, whos ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Every notification I get on my phone is just false hope that someone actually cares about me. | self.depression |
Trying to keep Positive for 2018 The past few years have been pretty shitty. I'm currently 20. Finished high school sort of excited for college, although it wasn't really the college I wanted to go to, it was just the cheaper option. Also wasn't 100% sure on being an art major, but cheap tuition, and I had worked very ... | self.offmychest |
Lol my resting heart rate is 120 bpm My anxiety literally never stops. Sick of this shit. | self.Anxiety |
Failure when you're depressed is extra heavy I'm in college currently.
Failing an exam.. It's.. excruciating.
I can't believe my mind immediately connects suicide with one failure, amidst so many successes.
I hate that it does this.
Yet, it still does.
I always have this thought in my head, that in a few months, I... | self.depression |
How do you put yourself in a hospital? okay so I'm not in a good place, I get mixed episodes with psychosis & one may be coming on, I've lost control several times this week (made a post here about it yesterday) and I realize that something bad could happen if I lose control again and my husband isn't around to sto... | self.bipolar |
I can't go back to therapy, and I won't pump my body full of chemicals. I'm.. fighting hard.. And I feel like I'm losing. I think therapy failed last time.. several years ago .. because I wasn't totally honest. I didn't tell my therapist how much I wanted to die. But I ended it with the therapist and I've gone the last... | self.SuicideWatch |
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