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It is all meaningless. Tomorrow I have to go to the job I hate to work for people i can't stand for a company that cares little less than shit about it's products. I feel physically sick when I think about my job. It isn't bad pay or horrible work conditions but it is morally questionable and pointless.
I can't just q... | self.SuicideWatch |
Inertia I'm male, mid-40s, single and can remember depressive episodes starting early in college. A lot of it is tied to being single this whole time and overweight most of the time. I know what needs to happen to get better: diet, activity, exercise, socialize etc. I do just about everything alone, like traveling, ... | self.depression |
Tonight was bad I feel so lonely, especially this time of year. I feel like no one understands me. They each see a small piece of me, but no one has the full picture. Tonight was the closest I’ve come to killing myself. I’m not going to do it but, for a moment, all I wanted was to die tonight. For the first time I thou... | self.depression |
Help me help a friend. hi, I'm not really sure if this is where I should find help, but I'm running out of options. My friend had what could possibly be his worst year ever. He lost his best friends( who now seemingly doesn't care about him anymore ) after he helped them hook up. and its been giving him depression. The... | self.SuicideWatch |
Who am I? What are my interests I don’t know who I am or who I was, is there anyone out there who is the same? Ever since I was younger I remember trying to assimilate with others, even now in highschool if I choose, I can become who ever I want to...almost like a personality disorder except I’m aware of what’s goin on... | self.depression |
going crazy from being alone with nothing to do. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Help with isolating What do you do to help when you start isolating yourself from friends? I'm on holiday from school at home with my family. I'm fortunate but unfortunate that I find my home life so comfortable and friendly (I'm close with my siblings and parents) that when faced with invites from friends I can't pict... | self.depression |
I can’t stand the “doggo does a snooze” and “pupperino doing an awoo” stuff. The pictures are adorable. The captions ruin it. | self.offmychest |
Bipolar Rage I have bipolar rages a lot anything can set me off one single suggestion.
How do you deal with this? What makes you calm and is there any way I can not make this happen often? | self.bipolar |
It's 10 minutes past midnight and all I want is to die. I don't know why I'm posting this here. I guess I just need to let it out.
There's not even anything to be so sad about in my life. The big picture is good, it's just the little details that make me want to take my own life. My stepdad molested me when I was 15, ... | self.SuicideWatch |
My friend's make fun of me for needing xanax I got prescribed xanax for my panic attacks and my friends have been making fun of me for it. My girlfriend doesn't seem to give a fuck about trying to help me through my anxiety so that's nice.
I don't want to die, but sometimes I feel like it may actually be really nice t... | self.Anxiety |
I think I belong here. I've never been suicidal. I haven't had any noticeable problems sleeping. I've never self-harmed or self-medicated or anything like that. Even now, reading over some of the things that people have said and wrote and thought, I find myself not wanting to post this. What even are my problems, in th... | self.depression |
What kind of drugs do I need to kill myself and how/where to get them? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Please...I need help I Just sharpened my knife and I'm ready to slice my wrist open... please anyone... Can someone talk to me | self.SuicideWatch |
How did you know when meds and/or therapy were making a difference? [deleted] | self.depression |
My best friend of 10 years talked about herself non-stop my whole birthday dinner My aunt and uncle, brother and mom were there. My mom spent a long time preparing dinner and decorating. My best friend and I had spent the day together, and she even bought me breakfast and an expensive haircut. I invited her to come to ... | self.offmychest |
What normally happens in your mania? Hi,
I was just wondering what mania feels like to you and what you do in the episode. No other reason except interest.
Thanks | self.bipolar |
What I really want I'm married to a wonderful woman. But I crave to to be lying next to someone else in a rooftop apartment in a busy city, rain gushing down outside, smoking cigarettes and not caring about a God damn thing. | self.offmychest |
bed, bed, bed. after i do anything i need to go back to bed. i'm exhausted and i know that if i keep telling people the way i feel they'll stop talking to me because who wants to talk to the mess i am anyway???? | self.depression |
I failed and it felt kind of good? So I'm in med school and I finally failed my first test.
I'd been sort of close before but this one was spectacular. Well below my average performance for this type of knowledge. I wasn't thinking clearly at all while taking it, panicking, and couldn't remember really basic stuff wh... | self.Anxiety |
i dont know what to do anymore other than die [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Nothing matters to me anymore Now before I start this off I'd like to say: I've never been diagnosed with depression or any other mental illness. I AM seeing a psychologist because I have a very low self-esteem which makes it difficult for me to function in normal society.
So recently I got fired at my internship. I ... | self.depression |
I'm done with life. Maybe I'll just kill myself today. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
After 18 years I came out to my Dad about some shady things that happened to me when I was younger. I'm in my upper 20s and this happened when I was 11 or so,can't remember the exact age. It was me and my cousin and "step grandma" who is younger than my mom,and I just remember we were on the verge of puberty (me and my... | self.offmychest |
ugh I'm going for my 3rd ECT treatment this afternoon. I know just like everything else, ECT takes some time before youll notice any improvements, but idk, i just want it to work already.
I was in a manic episode for about a month up until like a week and a half ago. Now i'm depressed again.
I just want this to end.
Wh... | self.bipolar |
Who else is wondering what the hell happened to their brain? [deleted] | self.depression |
I’m depressed for many reasons (mental illness, trauma) but my dating life has probably affected me the most [deleted] | self.depression |
I can't stop lying and manipulating. I can't stop.
I loose controll each time i get a panic anxiety attack, wich is almost in all contact with other human beings.
I just start lying and trying to manipulate people into either feeling sorry for be or to make myself out as a better and more interesting human being. Becau... | self.depression |
Am I being sexually harassed? BP2, and in a fit of hypomania, 2 years ago I sent nudes to an internet "friend". My boyfriend found out, which prompted treatment, and I have now been stable (mostly) for a year and a half, with no more sparks of mania or hypersexuality.
Today , the guy I sent pics to is threatening to ... | self.bipolar |
Major depression and mental fog Anyone else have to think extra hard for simple things? Especially with video games, you just play them with the same attitude of "idgaf about anything. How can I change this feeling? | self.depression |
I'm really worried about my little brother. He's mean, selfish, and lacks self-control.
He's nearsighted, and doesn't ever seem to think about how a rash decision could affect his life before going through with it.
He hangs out with gangsters, smokes, and let's people take advantage of him.
He tries so hard to be... | self.offmychest |
As a foreveralone virgin, I made a breakthrough: the best option is to kill myself and be done with it. As a foreveralone virgin in 30s, I don't intend to be a wizard (as some say it here on Reddit). I realize that everyone around me not only has had an experience in the pleasures of life, but they have people around t... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm a broken useless transwoman. I don't deserve this life. Do you ever feel worthless? Used? Full of pain both emotional and physical? I sure do.
It isn't fun to wake up everyday and think, " I hate everything about my life. " I don't understand the bullshit my life continues to give me. Chronic pain from fibromyalg... | self.SuicideWatch |
Stuck I feel stuck on a loop. High then mixed then low then mixed then high, permutations may vary but within the confines of being controlled by the mood state at the time. When it gets really low, like it has now, it isn't the irrational thoughts getting me down, it is the facts that are so difficult to face. Little ... | self.bipolar |
All This Logan Paul Outrage Is Bullshit Why does so much of this Logan Paul outrage feel so performative? I've watched plenty of these youtube rants on the whole "suicide forest" incident, and it seems more like a bunch of people just trying to come off like they're *the most* outraged.
It's just the usual internet vi... | self.offmychest |
Venting my thoughts. I'm not quite sure what to post. I made an account just so that I could. I've been lurking Reddit for a while now, then came across this subreddit. It seems like the perfect place for me to say the things on my mind, but I'm just as anxious here as I am in real life. No matter how much I try to cha... | self.SuicideWatch |
Therapy: How much is on you? I find myself leaving therapy a lot of the time thinking either "I don't know what we just spent the whole session talking about" or "I wish we hadn't spent all session talking about XYZ which is inconsequential and focused on concrete skills." In therapy, how much of it is on me to tell th... | self.Anxiety |
In late 2013, a lady in downtown Olympia hugged me when I found out my wife committed suicide My wife was on the east coast and she killed herself. I was dealing with the aftermath on the phone and you overheard me talking. We were standing outside the elk building apartments when you overheard.
I planned on als... | self.offmychest |
It’s new years eve and instead of feeling happy I wish I was dead I feel so alone. I’ve wasted my teenage years. Never been kissed, never gone to a party, drank, or any other milestones that are supposed to make your teenage years something you’ll look back on fondly forever.
Here’s hoping for a new year, new me. Che... | self.depression |
Public speaking. So... it’s 4:46 am and I haven’t slept yet because I’m dreading a speech I have to give in my Effective Speaking class next week.
I have major anxiety and like most people, an intense fear of public presentations.
I have always tried getting out of it - like finding an alternative by asking the profe... | self.Anxiety |
I could use some support, not doing well I woke up at 1am this morning and couldn't get back to sleep. I've felt cracked out all day which was why I didn't drive 1.5 hours into the office. I tried to nap this afternoon and got no sleep. I have to go into the office tomorrow though. No choice, I have to do it.
My dad ... | self.bipolar |
Fear of not being good enough Episode 2: Constant need for external love
In our first post we covered one of the major reasons for our fear of not being good enough. The bottom line of the first post was that this fear mainly stems form our need for love and connection from others around us.
In this post we’ll look... | self.Anxiety |
Assistance programs through drug companies? Hi all,
I was wondering if anyone has applied for free medication through a patient assistant program by a drug company?
I was doing really well on Vraylar until I found out that I couldn't use their coupon with my insurance anymore (I get it through my dad, he's a federa... | self.bipolar |
I think I'm going schitzo after witnessing a terror attack and I don't know what to do [deleted] | self.offmychest |
He's still angry and I just don't know what to do A few years back I made a strange friend, I'll refer to him as Eric but this is not his actual name. He was awkward and unsure of himself, and the reason I met him was because I knew someone who he had been friends with way back in like middle school, I'll call this per... | self.offmychest |
I seeked help today and I wonder what will happen now (This is a new account because some people know my user name)
I think I have depression and had it for a few years now. I am constantly tired, I've gained weight, I've isolated myself from friends and family, I'm not performing at work, etc. For the past two years,... | self.depression |
Jumping off a bridge in a few hours In my late 20s. I’ve failed too many times to launch myself into adulthood, it’s a continuous cycle and I’m tired. I’m hungry, can’t pay rent today and even if I could it’d be another cycle of failing. I hope whatever is out there in the afterlife is merciful
**edit:
Thank you for ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I just want to ramble some It's been awhile since I've been here. I just want to say that I feel.... Sad and moody and indecisive.
I quit my part time job over the summer and started online community college classes (full time). I'm also a stay at home mom and sometimes babysit. I don't know what the deal is, but I h... | self.depression |
I did something that I shouldn't have done (regret it) and now it's really fucking with my head.. help? [deleted] | self.depression |
Lost Another Friend Today I learned a long time friend, who admittedly I've lost touch with recently, killed himself last night.
He's always been a bit troubled. Life was not an easy shake for him, but he kept himself together, worked hard, surrounded himself in nature as much as possible and genuinely cared for thos... | self.SuicideWatch |
Strange feeling So I have this weird feeling just now. My stomach feels kinda hungry and I also feel this strange warmth in my core. I’m tired and my limbs are shaking slightly.
All I’ve eaten today were some Doritos and some slices of cake, is this low blood sugar + anxiety or something worse? | self.Anxiety |
I Went To A Party and Then Decided To Come Home i just couldn't handle it. My ex and his new girlfriend were there. It was his house show and I was the odd man out. I feel so alone. Idk if I should've stayed or not. I don't even want to drink. I just wanna be happy. | self.bipolar |
Researched a ton of suicide Anyone else ever research anything and everything about suicide when feeling shit? It helped and it was fascinating. Read all that was available and now all I’m left with is knowing I’m too much of a pussy to actually go through with anything. | self.depression |
I just got home from working a 23-hour shift. I'm a salaried retail manager and I've got to get the hell out of here. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Insurance question So like many of you, I have man I medical bills from countless labs, psychiatrists and therapists and hospitals. All of these bills are overwhelming and I was wondering if there is some universal website that keeps a tab on medical bills so people can see if they missed a bill or anything! Thanks in ... | self.bipolar |
I love Black women, my mama is a Black woman, my grandmother is a Black woman, my fiancé is a Black woman. Being a Black woman in the U.S. is exhausting as fuck. All minorities and marginalized folks face some sort of oppression, but Black women often face some pretty intense pressure. Black women have to deal with peo... | self.offmychest |
So there's this guy... Let's call him Deadpool A little over two and a half years ago, he (21/m) and I (18/f) were 'best friends'. He made me believe that I could talk to him about anything and I did. We talked (via text) about drugs, sex, things that i was doing with my boyfriend at the time. Rarely ever was it someth... | self.offmychest |
I love you guys, and this community I posted this morning about my rough time with work or whatever but I just wanted to make a separate post thanking everyone who responded since it was a lot of comments and I didnt get to reply to everybody but I was feeling awful today and you all are wonderful people (:
Its nice ... | self.Anxiety |
Started TMS yesterday I started TMS therapy yesterday. They lied, it hurts. They made adjustments and it still hurts. I don't want to go back today. I don't even know if it will do anything. Has anyone ever had TMS? Did it do anything for you? | self.bipolar |
What to do about rational fears? So I understand what to do about irrational fears, but what about rational ones?
My other half and I do long-distance backpacking and bicycling. When we're backpacking and climbing mountains, I get terribly afraid of falling. Increased exposure on a mountain increases my anxiety and fea... | self.Anxiety |
Planned to start assignment today, stayed in bed and don't think that's changing anytime soon I just can't do it, lying here crying wishing I could just get up to take all the pills in my draw, go to sleep and not wake up. No one would miss me, no one would care just an oxygen thief waste of space who doesn't want to f... | self.depression |
I feel I am learning to accept that I cannot cut it out of my life [deleted] | self.depression |
Was beaten up by a Japanese International student for no reason and people brushed it off. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Parents don’t get what depression is Hey guys,
I’ve been having attacks again, and my parents are trying to help me. The problem is, they seem to think that I’m just angry, so their suggestions are “when you’re depressed, go for a run, or just get outside!”. I’ve explained it to them a hundred times that I don’t want t... | self.depression |
my gut was right. over and over again, i have let my ex manipulate me into staying with him despite my better judgement. he has spent the last 3 years cheating, lying, manipulating and gaslighting me... but i always chose to believe in the future we wanted together. i woke up and checked my phone in the middle of the n... | self.offmychest |
The only thing that keeps me going is when I die I won’t remember any of it It’s sort of like comfort really, I can’t kill myself i’m not strong enough, but even though there is constant pain and suffering, one day I won’t have to deal with it anymore, and I will be at peace! | self.depression |
Does anyone else just sit at home and literally do nothing? I will take literally any advice or experiences I can get right now.
It's been this way off and on for years now (28yo female diagnosed with bipolar 1) and it's really the only thing between meds and therapy that I do not have under control.
I have so many h... | self.bipolar |
First week on medication I have been stuck in a rut lately. I have lost interest in thingsI enjoy doing and everything feels so hard to do lately, even going to work. I'm going to seek counseling at a free counseling center in town (something I've been putting off for months), but I finally decided to try medication.
... | self.depression |
Dear meds, please start working again Been in a mixed state all damn day. Passed out for three hours when I shouldn’t have thanks to one of my morning meds. Argued with my wife for two hours, resulting with her going to bed alone and upset. Struggling with trying to figure out where I am in the mess of medication and m... | self.bipolar |
I'll admit it...I'm insecure It's hard to admit, but I always had this feeling that, for one reason or another, I was inferior to everyone I knew. And because of that, I only felt good when I felt like I was #1 (befriend everyone, make all good grades, etc.). I felt like that made up for all my perceived shortcomings, ... | self.offmychest |
Am I not good enough for anyone? So I’ve a string of relationships and potential relationships with really horrible women.
Some one close to me recently said that they believe the reason i'm having these problems is because I don't feel like i'm good enough for anyone better so I end up with the kinds of women I have... | self.Anxiety |
My Abuelita died last year and in a week I will be heading home for the first time since and I won't be able to visit her. [removed] | self.offmychest |
Can someone love me and help me rn? I don't post that much on darker sub reddits, because I feel that my voice just blends in. Honestly, why give a fuck about my suicidal depression when everyone else feels the same way. Everytime I post on these types of sub resists, I don't get much of a response, and I can't blame a... | self.depression |
I wanna disappear. I’m just so uncomfortable in my skin. I hate everything about myself. And everything I look at, and everything I say or do, is a reminder of all my flaws. And no one rly understands me at all. I just hate living so much. | self.Anxiety |
Dead Poets Forever bro As I ripped cigarettes through bowls in my hand, lighting marijuana with its flame and giving myself a one of a kind head rush.
We pledged our selves to the society with blood and vigor in our oath. I never thought it'd end like the movie. We were too early and beautiful to be over, but before ... | self.offmychest |
It almost feels as if the body tries to find new ways to attack your anxiety Like for example I can have some symptoms that I eventually will 100% accept as anxiety and nothing else e.g shortness of breath, tense stomach for me.
But new symptoms arise that I havent had before almost like the body knows the old symptoms... | self.Anxiety |
Feeling incredibly lonely since disconnecting from my toxic family Another night where I'm alone with my thoughts and emotions. I tried to talk to random people in those online chatrooms, did not help.
I'm not really sure what the purpose of me posting on here is; I suppose I just wanted some validation. | self.depression |
Can severe anxiety in before cause lack of energy and motivation now? | self.Anxiety |
I'm super friends with a friend's girlfriend and he's jealous of me I met this girl 3 years ago when they started dating, at first I didn't like her but then both he and she convinced me to started playing a video game. He stopped playing it as I was getting addicted to this game, and I started to hang out with her mor... | self.offmychest |
just cried for the first time in months title. i never cry, for anything. i feel like complete shit today and just bawled for 2-3 minutes. now i feel worse | self.depression |
DAE use gaming as an unhealthy escape? I've reflected upon my life so far and I've noticed a pattern of escapist obsessive gaming whenever faced with any issues in my life.
I spent my whole college years alone just sitting in my dorm playing games. I spent my high-school years doing the same things. Now I'm working f... | self.Anxiety |
I logically don't see why I shouldn't kill myself Like a lot of failure and disappoinment has led me here but when I think about the future I see nothing of value. I just see more disappointment and pain and suffering. I've not met anyone who can tell me a logical reason not to end it. | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel like there's no point in doing anything anymore? I've felt like this for a long time but I've always ignored it cause I never thought it was anything important. But for the past few years I haven't even had the slightest motivation to do anything ''useful''.
Gaming is the only thing I enjoy in life and I can't ... | self.depression |
My girlfriend has asthma and had an anxiety attack yesterday, how to help? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Last night was kinda scary As I was trying to fall asleep, I started to hear weird things coming from outside my bedroom. I heard creaking noises, noises that resembled the washing machine, and noises that vaguely reminded me of what it sounds like when my mom has her TV on. My mom wasn't home at the time for any of th... | self.depression |
I've gone blind and have got nothing to do all day This is a repost of a post that I made to /r/self a few days ago with some changes.
I'm a 35 year old male from Portugal and went blind in 2014 due to a congenital glaucoma, a condition that ruined my life.
Before going blind I was a successful programmer with experi... | self.depression |
I need to break free. I'm in my late 20s, I've got a good job, I own a home with my partner, but I'm miserable.
I feel listless in my life right now. My relationship is stale, despite a few emotional discussions and pleas to make things better. On average, we have sex four times per year.
I've settled into domesticit... | self.offmychest |
Hypnosis? I'm currently trying to get back into a regular school schedule after taking some time off, and I'm having a really hard time even walking up to the doors. I was wondering if anyone had tried hypnosis before. I've heard good and bad things. I'm scared to try it without hearing more about it. | self.Anxiety |
If you're somebody that Flags YouTube videos, you are a garbage person. Seriously, go fuck yourselves you fucking snowflakes. What the fuck are you trying to accomplish, besides making it less convenient for us to access videos? Are you trying to "prevent kids from watching adult content"? You know the kid can just go ... | self.offmychest |
On the surface I’ve had a perfectly normal life [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
My ex attacked me a few days ago, yet I'm still in love with him My ex (31 m) and I broke up 7 months ago. 2 months later I started seeing another man (43m). However, although me and the 43 year old are still good friends and still see each other outside of work, we have not been sexual for 2 months. This is because I'... | self.offmychest |
When should I get help? Feelings of anxiety have gradually grown over the past couple years. I brought up my stress-induced nausea/vomiting at a physical with my doctor, and hearing him even say the words "anxiety" and "treatment" made me almost break down. I've felt on the verge of breaking for a while now; I'll be in... | self.Anxiety |
I watched as my best friend whom I've been in love with for years went away to college, and I never said a word about how I feel. I am 18 and highschool was rough for me. I went way overboard on the drugs and parties, and struggled socially. I had a friend who I am going to refer to as Katie. Katie and I were very, ver... | self.offmychest |
Here we are again, guys. I’m panicking because I think I have MS. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Great read for those who are depressed The concept of the "dark night of the soul" is one that has helped a lot in understanding and putting things like pain and suffering into context for me. I found this page a few years ago and have read it several times and it's honestly one of the best things to read when I am dep... | self.depression |
It's my fault I use song quotes to help me. I'm fucking weird and I write them down then tape them to some hidden part of my room. My favorite one is "never for a second blame youself" but sometimes it is my fault. It is my fucking fault that all this stuff happened to me because I can't even get a worksheet done or st... | self.depression |
I dont know if im depressed or not - advice needed In general I feel like a pathetic person most days. I definitely lost my personality since I was ateenager. I used to be full of life and made friends and girlfriends easily. Now I feel like such a loser. Im shy and I'm really unconfident. I worry about how I'm going t... | self.depression |
Coping methods I’m so sorry to all of the regulars on here. I’ve been spamming all of my problems as they develop, in hope someone will reach out to talk. I was just wondering if anyone had any methods of coping with depression that they could share with me. | self.depression |
Anyone on celexa experience cold sweats or the inability to regulate their body temperature? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I stopped my meds I've been on 100mg of lamotrigine and .5 of risperidone for 6 months. It was great in the beginning but I started noticing more down days. And then I got super happy out of nowhere and decided to stop taking them altogether. I was really great for 2 weeks. But almost 2 weeks on the dot, I'm feeling ti... | self.bipolar |
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