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Thinking about suicide I’m 19 years female live in shit
In arabian shit world i cant move i cant go out i cant do anything when i’m alone i imagine another life pink amazing life without my parents without anyone i can be free without anyone tell me what to do without anyone hurt my feeling
I try once to suicide when... | self.depression |
I want to just drive until I'm far enough away [deleted] | self.offmychest |
A girl that I talk to only on the internet (for a long time) asked me out and I'm scared to go [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
The army doesn’t believe I’m suicidal... About 4 or 5 weeks ago, I finally broke down and found the courage to go to behavior health after everything started falling apart around me.
They had me take a test that basically said I don’t have a disorder like bipolar, ptsd and so on... cool, I could have told them that. B... | self.SuicideWatch |
I just stated on meditation today and I'm a little uneasy [deleted] | self.bipolar |
How the fuck do I keep me from killing myself? I'm so fucking depressed. I have no real friends. No hobbies besides gaming. I don't go outside and I'm too anxious to ever leave my room. I'm failing school. I'm a loser. All I really do is sleep or play video games for 10+ hours a day.
The fucking suicidal thoughts are ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I hate how we are reduced to our diagnosis Anyone here has this same situation? Every time i'm mad at something people will never take it serious and act like is my bipolar acting up.
"Have you been taking your meds?"
Is the one thing I hate the most hearing. Yes I have, you know what I haven't been taking? My food, ... | self.bipolar |
To the guy that I cuddled with last night You asked me if your breath smelled bad and I said no, it smells like Fritos.
Sorry that I lied. It smelled like Fritos, vodka, and Mountain Dew and it was pretty disgusting. | self.offmychest |
I can't handle the thought of being without her forever [deleted] | self.depression |
The Way I Understand the World Preemptive TL;DR: Despite my best efforts to view the world as a positive place filled with good people, the world seems to suck right now, and I can’t justify it. All I can do is redirect my anger onto money and the value people place on it.
I am so mad. I am also exhausted. I didn’t s... | self.offmychest |
Drama and commotion I've just half ass-ly tried to hang myself again. Rang my friend telling her I was going to probably overdose on 28 20mg fluoxetine capsules unless I walked myself to the hospital there and then. She rang her mum for advice and my friend rang the local hospital they said to ring 999. My friend said ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Anxiety is stopping me from getting the girl I'm a 17 year old male currently in college in the UK and I've never had a girlfriend plain and simple. I've had anxiety since I was like 13 and it has negatively effected how I do things. When I went to college I was quick to form a group of friends however Imy still not fu... | self.Anxiety |
Goodbye This is only a... i don't know last goodbye I guess. I won't respond to anyone. I've offically abandoned life. Tomorrow morning i'm gonna hang myself from a construction building. That way when i hang if the rope breaks i'll fall to my death.
People lied to me... never told me the truth but being average? You ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Tomorrow i will go to the doctor and make a change in my life It's gone on for too long, I'm done with this nonsense holding me back
I'm going to the doctor and we're going to try and fix it.
I'm sick of sitting in silence and then speaking finally only to offend people, then coming home and considering suicide because... | self.Anxiety |
I feel anxious every time I’m starting to fall for someone [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Watching this subreddit become a popularity contest Noping the fuck out of this one before it becomes /r/pics. Really liked the advice it used to have but it’s just become show and tell, or a selfie generator. | self.bipolar |
Anyone else feel his/her pulse in the suprasternal notch? (the "hole" in your upper chest/lower neck)? I can palpate it and it worries me because wikipedia says a healthy human should not feel a pulse here. It could indicate thoracic aortic aneurysm.
But then again, I find some healthy people on the internet that can ... | self.Anxiety |
What do you wish you knew or someone had told you, about depression ? [deleted] | self.depression |
As someone with a food allergy, I need help coping with such an easily accessible 'out'. I'm terribly allergic to all nuts, have been for nearly 2 decades.
Other people that are suicidal have their means, but most require a certain degree of effort to obtain.
Meanwhile mine could be a mistake in preparation or the en... | self.SuicideWatch |
Restoring Clarity First off, just wanna warn you this post is long af so bear with me. Any straight up advice would be appreciated.
Just for a little background, I am 19(m) and have recently dropped out of university after only 2 months because I realised I made a rushed decision in picking it. Since then I have almos... | self.depression |
How to deal with hypersexuality So I pretty much discovered I was bipolar through my shifting sex drive. In a "right frame of mind" I'm 100% a relationship person. I want one partner and my sexual attraction tends to develop over time with stronger feelings.
I started to notice I was having trouble keeping my mindset... | self.bipolar |
Everything seems pointless I feel like the universe has already made up its mind with me. I really tried getting out of my shell in 2017 and being a normal person but people just hurt me instead. | self.SuicideWatch |
Getting very frustrated and need help Maybe I just need to vent. It feels like bipolar is becoming a fucking fashion statement more and more lately. Watching people come out on social media and say they are tired of "hiding behind a facade" or "I need to come clean about something" and everyone swoops in behind to say ... | self.bipolar |
Medical Problems, yay... I just got diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis after trying to figure out for months what the heck is wrong with my body. I am only 21, and it is so scary. As you could guess, this has sent my anxiety through the roof, and having been diagnosed a few years ago with GAD, it is not a fun time for... | self.Anxiety |
Frustration with psychiatrist suddenly being vague about diagnosis (BPII) [seeking support] [vent] Hi all. Just a note: I'm not looking for a diagnosis - just advice and support from people who have gone through similar struggles. I'd also love to hear from people who have both bipolar and BPD to share experiences and... | self.bipolar |
My girlfriend invited me on a walk on Tuesday and I am fairly certain it's to break up with me. I don't know what to do or what to think. I am falling apart. | self.Anxiety |
4 years ago I dreamt of so many things I wanted to have done before turning 24. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm a worthless piece of shit! I don't have any sense of identity and I'm unsuccessful in life and I'm only 22! Ever since I left school at 15, I've just felt like a useless and worthless piece of shit and I do not deserve anything good in my life!
I just hate the world and I hate the people around especially the one... | self.depression |
People in my country can't even use a website properly. There's a website in my country to list items for sale, somewhat like Craigslist and you can post publicly viewable comments and questions. To help speed up transactions, posting pictures of the items are compulsory.
So the idiot users (I saw someone try to nego... | self.offmychest |
Happy Thanksgiving my fellow fighters! Hey guys, Happy Thanksgiving!
I am writing this to see if there are any of you out there in the Redditverse who would be interested in a PenPal type situation. I'm newly diagnosed and going through some serious trials and changes and would love to be able to either get some advi... | self.bipolar |
how much does anxiety affect heart rate? So I just got a fitbit and I'm seeing a correlation between what I feel is my anxiety and my heart rate.
Let's look at yesterday: I was mostly in the 80's for most of the day, with occasional spikes as I get occasional anxiety ... Until night hit. I don't know what it was abou... | self.Anxiety |
Down when I shouldn’t be (and it’s hard to explain) After years of hospitalizations and therapy, I finally am living a life that makes me happy and not suicidal. I am extremely extremely grateful for everything that has happened to me and the people in my life. Yet sometimes I still feel really down and it’s hard to ex... | self.bipolar |
My childhood dog just died 14 years. We had her for 14 years and I just got the phone call. I was 7 when we got her. I didn't get to say goodbye, but I know she forgives me. When my brother moved away he took her with and I rarely got to see her... I just wish i got to say goodbye.
She was the sweetest, most loving P... | self.offmychest |
Hitting the stage of blank. Have you ever just hit blank. Like you know the feelings abd emotions and anxiety are all there bubbling ubder the surface but you cant or dont want to get them out anymore? Like there is no point. Just. I will get on with everything myself. Screw you all i dont need help kind of blank?.. | self.Anxiety |
Im told to open up... That im not a burden. But no one really wants that. They just want to be able yo to say "i tried to get him to open up about it" so they dont feel guilty. Seems like there is a lot of words out there but very little care or action. The people who know me know I'm suicidal. But everyone of them tel... | self.SuicideWatch |
It seems like a lot of people are getting into hetero relationships, and realizing they’re gay later down the road. I’m afraid that might happen to me one day. I wouldn’t want to be the one to tell my SO I’m gay.
I definitely wouldn’t want to be the one whose SO at the time tells them they’re actually gay.
Also, b... | self.offmychest |
I survived from hanging out a bit (heh, awful pun) I don't what to say but I just tried to hang myself an around thirty minutes ago. In short, my life is absolute shit and pointless in fact it is better for everyone around me if I just died so I don't waste any more resources (probably a generic reasoning on this subr... | self.SuicideWatch |
Tell me it is still possible for homosexuals to exist before I kill myself I keep hearing it everywhere....homosexuals must die.....you need to stay straight to avoid HIV.....gays cannot exist anymore.....i'm a gay....i'm one that kind of person who people don't want to be around with.....I have a loving family....frie... | self.SuicideWatch |
SSRIs and appetite I started taking prozac about a month ago, after switching from celexa that left me in a zombie-like state. It has helped with my anxiety, but I barely have an appetite and don't think about food at all. I know I need to eat when I get dizzy or my stomach starts growling, but otherwise I could skip e... | self.Anxiety |
Quiet This dark quiet room is going to kill me soon. | self.SuicideWatch |
What's your day to day life with generalized anxiety/panic? I'm currently dealing with a rough patch, and would like to vent and share war stories.
My anxiety has been bad for months now, and I'm taking strides to finally seek professional help. But lately my day to day has been dreadful.
Fatigue, depression, sadnes... | self.Anxiety |
This is all bonus time. I survived a gruesome attempt on April 2, 2015. I don't even know exactly how it happened. I slashed my guts out sepppuku style in front of a mirror in the middle of the night. I watched my entrails pour out of me, looked into the mirror, and thought "it's finally over."
I don't know exactly w... | self.SuicideWatch |
Did taking Magnesium the night before make you feel more depressed the next day? Please share you experience and advise. Thank you [removed] | self.depression |
[Part DAE - Part Rant] General Instability and Volatility So, this is partly me asking if anyone else is like this, and part me just crying about my woes. Also sorry if this becomes a sprawling mess, I'm potentially maybe hypomanic at the moment(?)
So, like I have day to day Instability. Maybe not Instability how a lot... | self.bipolar |
Lithium is the only thing holding me together. I am extremely unhappy and uncomfortable with where I am in life right now. If I didn't have this medication, the thoughts of jumping in front of traffic or shooting myself would consume me. It has only been about three months, but I don't know where I would be without thi... | self.bipolar |
I need a ear and maybe some advice. So I've got a really annoying situation. Also sorry if some of my thoughts aren't cohesive. I'm in a bit of a attack at the moment. Anyway I've got health anxiety ( along with GA , Social) that has only gotten worse with time. I'm 29 and I don't drive ,I also live 30mins from any he... | self.Anxiety |
GF decided she wanted to be poly 2 years into a committed relationship. Struggling to move on after ending it. [deleted] | self.depression |
I am ending my life It seems petty that I have to post on a forum to announce my own suicide, and not to mention that if I really wanted to die, I wouldn't be attention-whoring myself, but I would at least want to say goodbye to this world that I've lived in as a respectable leave-off, almost like a resignation letter ... | self.depression |
Decently looking bloke, hate rejecting others I'm no Hollister model. I don't lack self-awareness, as far as I am aware. I'm not stuck in my head. I'm not very superficial. I like to think I have a good sense of judgement. I accept I can be wrong and very often I am. I might be a little self-centered. But so is everyon... | self.offmychest |
Has anyone tried CBD oil for treating anxiety? I'm going through a stressfull period right now by having exams at my university. I'm really anxious whenever exams start and last semester had to take Xanax to survive (because of extreme stress I didn't eat very much for 2 weeks, sometimes a banana a day). As I'm approac... | self.Anxiety |
Christmas present Today my mother read my present for Xmas... I gave her book of poets that I wrote about my feelings. Her reaction got me real hard... She told me that I should go to doctor with this and that she doesn't want me to write anything like that anymore... I don't know what response I expected.. My family i... | self.depression |
Why is EVERYONE SO incompetent? I'm a 28 year old guy. I rent out the extra bedrooms in my house to other people my age. I try to screen my roommates/tenants carefully, but every. single. one of them (I've had six over the past couple years) is half brain-dead when it comes to... just, life.
I just had to text my roo... | self.offmychest |
My life feels like a grey line That’s the only way I can think of to describe it. For the past few months now I’ve been...feeling...nothing. I’ll laugh and talk to people and do random tasks that make me feel like I’m going somewhere when really I’m getting nowhere at all. Every once in a while I’ll get a spurt of moti... | self.depression |
Does anyone else not commit suicide only because they don't have a way to do it that isn't painful/messy? [deleted] | self.depression |
Things are getting worse I've been contemplating suicide a lot more recently. I didn't even realise that I stopped thinking about how my death would affect people close to me until my friend brought it up. I've just been so ready to give up that I've stopped thinking about others which is a first for me. I'm so tired o... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm donating all my money to charity and killing myself. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I finally made an appointment with my therapist! So I have been procrastinating setting up an appointment with my new therapist for a while now, and about two days ago I got a call from her wanting to meet up. Immediatley I started to feel dreadful and scared. I put it off for a couple of days but today I said "screw i... | self.Anxiety |
Fixating thoughts on unimportant subjects. Yeah, I should die. Before you start, I will love you with all my heart and the thickest and thinnest of the white strands that make my soul if you read the whole post.
Yeah, I'm having a hard time accepting a few things, I'm not in denial mind you. My feeling is more "How c... | self.Anxiety |
I want to blow my brains out I dropped out of college to come home for ECT for depression. After getting 2/3 of my way through the treatment I stopped because it was wearing to hard on me. I have a few friends but none to call close. Nobody will miss me for very long, I am sure they will get over it. Most people I k... | self.SuicideWatch |
How to make up for lost time I’m 27 been in and out of depression since 18. How do I catch up. I’ve been lazy and unmotivated most of my life. I mean I can I learn things | self.depression |
When medication is at therapeutic levels I get bad side effects Is there’s anyone else out there that finds when meds start to help with bipolar disorder bad sideeffects start? I literally can’t find a medication which I can function on AND manages my disorder. I’ve tried at least twelve drugs (iffy on the names of a f... | self.bipolar |
Songs I think about a lot when I'm depressed Sorry I have a horrible taste in music but here you go
Still breathing- Green Day
Good riddance- also Green Day
Wake me up when September ends- MORE GREEN DAY
Missing You- All time low
What a catch, Donnie- Fall out boy
Always- Panic! At the disco | self.depression |
A story of savior to depressed wreck... This is not something as serious as what some of you are dealing with, and really I feel for you... I just had to post this here because I feel I need to share it.
A few years ago, a good friend of mine who we shall label as Anon was in a couple homosexual relationships. The fir... | self.depression |
Don't want to kill myself but I just don't want to be alive anymore [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Got a really busy week ahead of me. Could really use some support right now. My dad just told me that he's finally "ready" to sell the house. The problem is that the HOUSE isn't ready, and he has told me (and I totally get this) that because I don't have a job, he expects me to do most of the work to get it ready. Clea... | self.bipolar |
I spent NYE alone And it was one of the best New Years I could remember in a while. For years I’ve gone to the club and dropped a ton of money on drugs and alcohol.
This year I chose to ignore all those invites. In turn there wasn’t any drama or syncing with others schedules. I got a bottle bubbly, turned on my Xbox,... | self.offmychest |
I'm feeling really bad... I've been contemplating suicide lately and I just want someone to talk to. | self.SuicideWatch |
F23. Depressed since childhood. How to live a 'normal' life when sadness and frustration is the only thing I know? [deleted] | self.depression |
I hate my life and have ruined it myself [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Daydreaming about dying Do you ever daydream about random death accidents? Being hit by a car or ending up getting stabbed or shot. Your friends or a lot of strangers are there to witness it but no one can help you? I get these dont even realize i am thinking about it sometimes. | self.SuicideWatch |
[Trigger Warning] Thank you. This is an amazing community. [deleted] | self.bipolar |
If I got drunk and jumped of a bridge into a deep river, would it hurt? I just want something quick, I can't do this anymore [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Wasted more than a year First time posting here. So, this is something that's been building up since 2 years ago. I'm in med school and, up until that time, I had been doing pretty well at my classes, right on track for graduation. Long story short, now I'm a year and a half behind, maybe two, depending on how this sem... | self.depression |
Was basically told a lot of people are depressed and I should get over it. [deleted] | self.depression |
pain My life has been full of pain and loneliness and I'm always suffering. Why have such terrible things happened to me? All people do is hurt me and leave me out. I'm always the odd one out. I know that I don't deserve it,but yet I keep suffering. I have some friends and family, and I'm only here because I know that... | self.depression |
I Emailed the prof whose class I was avoiding Hey r/Anxiety, first time poster long time lurker... my anxiety has been pretty bad this last month or two since my gf went home (long distance relationship she spent the summer here) and last month I failed a midterm for a stupid reason and my anxiety got so bad I spent th... | self.Anxiety |
I’m graduating college in December and I need a job ASAP. I’m sure a lot of you understand the fear of failure and the anxiety behind it. Well, I’m graduating and I have yet to be successful at applying for jobs. Every time I even think about it I start to panic. It’s like a cycle, the sooner graduation comes the more ... | self.Anxiety |
I’ve never been the type of guy who has a group of friends Well I have some friends, but I guess I just deal with them more one on one. I can’t seem to keep any close friends. Like the ones you do everything with. I imagine hanging out watching TV, poker, exploring the city, drinking. Just enjoying each others company... | self.Anxiety |
What is the point of even being friendly with people when all I get in return is being excluded and used for laughs? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I'm not supposed to be alive But I am anyways for no good reason at all. It feels like this is an evil parallel dimension where I lived when I should never have and am being forced to experience constant misery. What's the point? | self.depression |
Ay-yo to all of thee...I’m a new member and nervous. I’m starting Lithium tonight that I have pushed off for so long. And I’m scared.
Experiences? Just pure honesty.
How did it help you?
I’m 24 , a mother to a kick ass 2 year old, and the Lead of my team members at work.
Had to speak with my managers after point... | self.bipolar |
Do i have the right to be upset or not? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
It's almost 18:00 and I am still in bed Woke up at 14:00, missed work (contract ends in 2 weeks anyway) and been just lying on bed browsing reddit and pitying over my miserable life. I don't feel like getting up. I don't feel like doing anything productive. I am just so hopeless that rest of my will be like this; An un... | self.depression |
Depression and poor parenting has made me have 0 work ethic [deleted] | self.depression |
Coming off Effexor I have been tapering off Effexor for a bit now and this is day two without it. I cannot concentrate, I'm super tired, I'm a little dizzy and nauseous, I've had bouts of crying and feelings of rage (short lived thankfully). I know it's because of the pills, but does anyone have experience with coming ... | self.Anxiety |
difference betweeen bipolar i and iI? I've always been II and it made the most sense. I've been doing ADHD testing and the psychologist said she thinks they made a mistake and actually have bipolar I. The line between mania and hypomania is kind of blurred for me I can't really remember what it was like since I'm now m... | self.bipolar |
hey yall Im 17 from india I used to deal drugs in my college and got expelled two months before and have been locked in my room ever since . I haven't talked to anyone in 2 months and I miss my gf and all my friends ..I wont have my past life back and Ive had enough of this endless cycle of getting up and doing not... | self.depression |
Can't get rid of that general anxiety feeling you have all the time? This might work for you as well! [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
EXTREME Anxiety before calling in sick. Anyone else get a super load of anxiety right before you call in sick? Or during the phone call? Any nice calming techniques you guys use?
Also if any of you have called in because of your anxiety, what do you normally say? | self.Anxiety |
just want to vent, can't do it anywhere else i live for everyone else's sake, not my own. i'm extremely close to suicide right now and i've been having these thoughts for months. i'm part of a group chat with 3 of my friends where we just vent about whatever is on our minds without being told any bullshit. i always tal... | self.SuicideWatch |
I need someone to talk to please If anyone can please talk to me right now please message me , i cant tke it anymore | self.SuicideWatch |
Getting a Gun I'm 18 so I am able to get a gun. I'm just worried it will hurt and people will find me and be disturbed. I don't want to do anything ever but I have to. I am too lazy. I am too lazy to do homework. I am too lazy to get out of bed for classes. I am too lazy to clean my room. I am sometimes too lazy to eat... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm going to slit my wrist in the morning I'm just finished with my life I'm only 20 and I have next to no money and am working myself to the bone between two jobs trying to get myself into college but I can't go on like this not anymore. I have no one else who would honestly care so I'm writing this here.... goodbye t... | self.offmychest |
Pretty suicidal (*not dangerous right now, just tough*) and lack of support due to situation.. Got severe tendinitis on both hands. Practically can't type, voice msgs are the only way to reach me. I’m MtF & currently in the care of religiously fanatical&transphobic narcissistic parents. A lot of despair. Remote... | self.SuicideWatch |
Everytime I see a shot in a movie or show is green screened I want to kill myself I'm watching Ozark episode 2 and the family is talking by a pool at the very beginning and it is so obviously a fake background that's it's gross. All these new things that people like and I cannot get past this thing I see where the main... | self.offmychest |
Is it just me, or is eating in front of people stressful? I always feel like I'm being judged for what I'm eating, how I'm eating it, when, etc... I don't know why, but it makes eating with anyone who's not a relative difficult. It's definitely better than It used to be, just curious if other people feel the same way.... | self.Anxiety |
As stupid as it sounds I'm still afraid of monsters. Monsters aren't real right? As stupid as it sounds I'm still afraid of monsters. Monsters aren't real right? Its been hard to find proof against it due to a book someone wrote of the title of my question. Does anyone know any websites that are like snopes that dispro... | self.Anxiety |
Shared sins of my past are haunting me and I feel like I'm dying slowly because of it When I was young and foolish I did some sexual stuff with my gf, now my ex. Ofc I know that's normal to most, but not to my religious upbringing.
For about 3 years I thought I'd be able to live and get passed what we did...But recent... | self.offmychest |
The men that have sex with me [NSFW] They can't look me in the eyes. They can watch themselves penetrate me, they can look at themselves in the mirror as they fuck me, but they can't look me in the face. And I know what that means and it breaks my heart. It doesn't always hurt me, because with some men I'm not too inte... | self.offmychest |
Pretty sure I'd rather die than go to work tomorrow [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
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