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Happy new year I saw this tumblr post going around the internet telling people to start the new year going to bed early and waking up refreshed, and I thought hell yes that sounds really nice, I should do that. Cause I'm superstitious and I always have this feeling at the back of my mind that however I start the year i... | self.depression |
Is anyone else just waiting for that one little thing To send them over the edge. It's like I want to die but I am not miserable enough yet. | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel like my depression is getting the better of me. I'm Tom, 19 and I've been struggling with depression, anxiety and social anxiety for most off my life, but recently it's got to a point where I really can't see a way out of it for the better. I'm pretty successful for my age and have a great job, but no matter ho... | self.depression |
Last Night? I know this is unreasonable but I absolutely cannot take the guilt of what I've done. I have found a rope, I've amassed a hoard of medication, I've hurt the love of my life. I do not deserve to live, nor do I deserve his forgiveness. I fear myself above all, I fear the abuse cycle reviving itself within me.... | self.SuicideWatch |
Burnt Out I would describe myself as burnt out. I'm 18, second semester of college, but I really haven't gotten anywhere. I've done a lot of shit, improved myself even, but there's still no happiness to be seen for me. I've had a few major life problems that I've beaten (or am at least well along on), like my grades an... | self.SuicideWatch |
Is there any hope for me? (I’m 16) Most days I just feel like there is no hope of me ever being the person that I want to be. I want to be funny and outgoing, but I am not.
I missed 3 years of school due to an illness and that meant that I got socially awkward and extremely insecure.
It also meant that I have never had... | self.depression |
I hate health insurance So I've been taking lamotrigine for years and have tried multiple sidekick anti depressants at different times. A while back I started really struggling with crying and despair. I got back on lexapro because I hadn't tried it in combination with the lamotrigine. (Although I had tried it before I... | self.bipolar |
I'm done with the army. I've been a conscript for the last twenty-one months. Being completely immersed in my work momentarily invigorated me and worked as a coping mechanism for a while, because I liked what I do and was good at it, then I realized that nobody cares if I go above and beyond to be good at what I do and... | self.depression |
I was getting better from my depression and all the sudden i'm back to the starting point I just got rejected from a job again, today is a full year since i had my last job, i had a TON of interviews for new jobs but in the end i get none. I feel i'm such a worthless failure
I dont even want a job tbh, when i had one ... | self.depression |
How do I do this and take care of myself?? I lost my job. My wife, psychologist, and PhD Mentor has suggested I take some time for self-care. But..... I don't know where to start?!?!
I'm in a small upswing in mood, but it won't last long because I have the rapid-cycling bipolar disorder. What I'm about to say may seem... | self.bipolar |
Unsure of whether to call this depression or if it’s something else Backstory: I’m several days shy of a month after losing my dad unexpectedly in a traumatic death. My grieving has been off and on; I’m not entirely sure it has “hit me” yet. I lived two hours away from him and we didn’t talk on the phone much as we b... | self.depression |
God I hate Christmas, only thing I'm looking forward to is the dinner. I'm suicidal, anixious and depressed enough as it is. I'm always worse on the day. I just want to eat the dinner and go to sleep. I have to worry about my uncle and cousin coming in the morning, then my other auntie and uncle may ask us round. Then ... | self.depression |
may die because of boredom I mentally am bored to death of life omg I will kill myself because of boredom. I'm bored to death, not a lot to do in life. | self.depression |
I’m in love with a girl that will never like me back. [NAW] I’ve never felt this way about anyone before. She’s amazing. She’s not perfect, but no one is. But she’s everything I’ve ever needed. We dated a few months before she dumped me after telling me that she had been leading me on, and she didn’t actually like me i... | self.offmychest |
Lost my Medicaid...Trying to choose Health Coverage. need advice. Currently looking at the affordable healthcare website and trying to choose a plan since I make "too much" at my $9.50/hr job for medicaid now. They all look way too expensive for me. What do you guys have and what payments do you make per service?
I'... | self.bipolar |
Having an existential crisis or just severe depression I wake up in the morning and throw up first thing. I have severe social anxiety to the point where I make people stupid promises I can't keep, where my hands and lips shake in front of customers at work at my cashier job. I have severe panic attacks that make it di... | self.Anxiety |
Anyone else on like a LOT of different psych meds? By a lot I mean like seven or eight different meds. I just got put on Rexulti, which means I'll be taking three APs, two mood stabilizers, a sleep med, and two anxiety meds.
It makes me feel like I'm a total wreck that I need to be on all of these. | self.bipolar |
Wait until you're 28 "Wait until you're 28" I'll never forget the way you said that and how you looked at me when we were talking about our opinions of marriage. We would have slept together that night if we weren't at a weird place in our lives where we didn't know where in the world we'd be moving to and if we'd ever... | self.offmychest |
Have I ever even tried to live my life to the fullest? (middle of the night rant) [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I want to share my experience moving to NYC from Israel - four months ago [deleted] | self.depression |
Depakine chrono 500 a day for a week now and I feel like shit [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Light at the end of the tunnel Hey all, I just wanted to get this off my chest. I've just set a major step to overcome my depression; I destroyed my Runescape accounts.
A bit of context: 23y/o male, studying (failing hah) computer science, addicted to games since my childhood. The root of my addiction lies in Runescap... | self.depression |
Here's the note I am leaving my loved ones. I don't want to be a burden to anyone. In order to maintain that desire, I'm writing this letter to explain myself. I don't want you to be sad that I am gone. This is for the better, trust me.
All my life I have been a failure. I use failure not as an adjective, but as a no... | self.SuicideWatch |
Bipolar and Persecutory Mindstate vs Presentational Antagonization via Perceived Social Inequity First, let me say that the subject I am speaking of is comorbid Bipolar 1, medication nonresistant, is currently in bipolar remission (a prolonged medication-assisted acute euthymic state), and was diagnosed Borderline Pers... | self.bipolar |
World view Americans always lack filial piety I notice non Americans especially those from mainland Asia often speak of America as being a nation where children are rebels against their parents and disrespectful towards thems. They seem to make America out as always a nation that never had a sense of filial piety.
Wh... | self.offmychest |
I’m really only here because I don’t want to hurt my parents. | self.SuicideWatch |
Why can I not make friends I try to talk to people and be open to meeting new people but it is hard. For one, I always forget if I have met someone already. This makes for awkward situations after we get to talking and I realize we have met before. I feel like an idiot.
Also, I have been talking to people before and ... | self.Anxiety |
DAE get upset and can't put it into words? Like you don't know what's wrong, you just know stuff is wrong? Or if someone asks you legit have no idea, you just know you're upset and can't even pin an exact emotion on it? That's me right now. I couldn't even text or call a person or crisis line because I have nothing to ... | self.bipolar |
Started Medication for GAD I've had GAD probably since I was a 6 year old, but was diagnosed at about age 14. I tried Celexa in high school but didn't like it. I thought maybe I didn't really have the disorder and that's why the medication and such wasn't working. When I went to college I pretty much just pretended I d... | self.Anxiety |
So afraid I'm currently on my way to army Behavioral Health, I'm terrified I am going to be locked up again. I hate being hospitalized and locked up around other people who could be crazier than me. My career is over and that's ok, I guess?
Edit: everything was fine. I always overreact. | self.bipolar |
Getting Dark So This Will Be My Last Post Of Anything I'm letting my last post be for this reddit. Though I know only like 10 people will actually read it. Oh well.. goodbye everyone. | self.depression |
I am the stupidest, most worthless man in the world. [deleted] | self.depression |
Trying to use humour to get over being on an antidepressant... Hope you are all okay.
https://imgur.com/gallery/Za7hG | self.depression |
Spent around 8 hours creating food for a family dinner. Spent around 8 hours creating food for a family dinner only. To see my dad buy junk food for everyone. It tasted lovely but i was the only one eating so that made it feel so shit. | self.depression |
Feel like my life was over before it started The second I lose the last remaining people who would care if I died I'd be gone, I should've succeeded my other attempts and they could've gotten over it by now
I never got to enjoy anything long term, I was born into mental illness and can never make it go away, I can't b... | self.SuicideWatch |
When I dream I'm never anxious or have any form of dp/Dr. Anyone else? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
It's been 6 years and I still miss my dad so much [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Getting through the holidays? Anyone have any tips for managing depression during the holiday season? I don’t know any of my extended family and my parents haven’t loved each other in years. My depression always gets so much worse when I see everyone having these grand family get-togethers and spending time with a ton ... | self.depression |
Waking up. I apologize in advance if this makes no chronological sense/the general format, and is an unintelligible wall of text.
I feel like I've finally woken up to a reality that I am shocked and disgusted by, and I’m so ashamed that this is the life that I’ve led.
I'm a 25 year old "college graduate." I use that... | self.depression |
I have one of the worst habits I've ever seen! I am generally a friendly and welcoming person. I also try to help people and have their backs.. I try to be empathetic and to put myself in others' shoes always.. I say these things because I actually try to be this way..
However, I've noticed I have a habit that is jus... | self.offmychest |
Please read this I'm having a serious depression lately. Someone please PM me. I really need someone to talk with, none of my friends care about me. I begged for their help, but not a single one answer. | self.depression |
How to deal with the guilt of bipolar I've noticed recently a extreme burden of guilt building up as the last 3 years ive been medicine wise disobedient and unstable. Ive done horrible things and i do not know how to cope now that i properly take my meds and am pretty stable. especially to a ex girlfriend, my family an... | self.bipolar |
Does anyone get really anxious when they eat around other people? I find that I feel really pressured when I eat as people are looking at me, and as a result you don't really enjoy your food or eat a lot.
Does anyone else feel this way? | self.Anxiety |
I'm broken. Need advice! Hello! I am depressed and I have no real friends. I am broken now, and I have decided to be completely objective in how I seek help (no self victimization). I am 23, in college, only had one 3 week relationship. I cannot seem to create connections with others. I've tried many methods of self gr... | self.depression |
Is lifting a healthy form of self harm? Walking home yesterday I really wanted to hurt myself. I just need to feel something and punish myself. I told my friend and she was very against me cutting or anything like that. Is lifting a good way to hurt myself that won’t upset people? | self.depression |
I did it. I got the meds. I did the thing. I've been avoiding it for over a year now, and finally made the leap to get back on some form of medication. And the craziest thing is happening...it's getting better.
I had to share this moment of victory. Thanks for indulging me :) | self.bipolar |
Hopeless My boyfriend of 5 years broke up with me a month ago. Yesterday he came over to my parents house where im staying to pick up our daughter. He told me he's seeing someone. I hate feeling like this. I was there for him through everything. We were a family. My life sucks. I can't even get a decent paying job. My ... | self.depression |
Dude what My mother and best female friend both told me today that I suck, in different words. I'm trying so hard to talk to people and act positively. I'm doing more family things and torturing myself with anxiety 24/7, just to get constantly shat on. I get that people don't understand anxiety, but dude. What. Being t... | self.depression |
4 out of 5 psychiatrists For background - I have had 4 doctors diagnose me with bipolar and another support the diagnosis.
Problem - my current psychiatrist doesn't know if I have bipolar. I've said that I'm not sure. My part in the problem is that I don't tell him the "typical" bipolar symptoms I have because I'm wor... | self.bipolar |
I want to die. I hate my life. I am married to a man in the navy. We have 2 young boys that have autism. I also have parents that are aging and they are a 14 hr drive or a very expensive plane ticket.
I have no support with our kids. My husband ship is home right now but he works 12 hr days and some of them are... | self.SuicideWatch |
ive had it cant feel this pain much longer, self harms not even taking it away | self.SuicideWatch |
Can't feel for anyone. Never have I felt without pain. Feeling for someone, anyone, friend or more, is supposed to feel like butterflies, excitement when you're about to see them, bliss when you are with them, perhaps a small bit of sadness when you are away from each other which is relieved when you hear they miss you... | self.depression |
Have been waiting to be ready for a trauma assessment for YEARS. The front desk lady wrote down the wrong appointment time, causing me to miss it. I had to take time off of work. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I should've listened. I'm sorry. I'm ruining us. All the way at the beginning I was sure you wanted me and I knew for an absolute fact I needed you. You warned me of many things that would keep us afloat, and I shrugged of every single one. I didn't listen, I half assed my end of things. I have been great to you, I've ... | self.offmychest |
NO I DO NOT WANT TO HOLD YOUR UGLY LITTLE SHIT BAG Sorry, I'm at work and I just needed to make this post before I scream at this chick. She's brought her baby to work and is literally walking around making everyone hold it. Then she made a big fucking deal when she got to me and I wouldn't hold her kid. I just want to... | self.offmychest |
Emetophobic, just ate rare steak and I'm freaking out Hey everyone,
So I just had a very rare steak that I think was seared properly. My anxiety is going crazy and I also have some minor sharp stomach cramps that just popped up. I finished eating about 30 minutes ago and I also used the same tongs from start to finish... | self.Anxiety |
I have terrible anxiety let’s start with that ever since I took Molly (ecstasy) but that’s a completely different topic. For the last 5 - 6 months I’ve had terrible stomach pains a got an ultrasound I believe it’s called and they saw nothing but the pain is getting worse. When I drink alcohol it hel [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I am 60 yrs old - lived w/depression 40+ yrs - have run out of lies to keep going Not sure what to say here or what I'm looking for or what to expect by posting this or even why I'm writing this out.
Maybe I'm trying to convince myself to keep trying but I have seriously run out of reasons to keep going. Since life it... | self.depression |
I just don't want to live Listen I don't want to live. I don't want to. Simple as that. Nothing really makes me want to live. There's not nearly enough in life to justify me living. So why shouldn't I end it? I want to because I don't want to live.
Again. I don't want to live. | self.SuicideWatch |
this has been the best week of my life [deleted] | self.depression |
I just want everything to end, all is meaningless. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Hey. Hey guys...
First of all pls don’t make fun of my English I’m from german and did not have the best school here.
Im struggling to Weide something here cause I never thought that I am depressed or whatever but I have every damn day that one feeling- the feeling of hate. It’s the hate to myself and well I think n... | self.SuicideWatch |
I just want someone to lend me an ear Hello, a quick preface -- I have horrible anxiety but I have not seen any medical professional about it. I am therefore dealing with it day to day. At this moment I am in a vulnerable place and I just need to vent completely. Right now, I am studying abroad. I am 2 months in and st... | self.Anxiety |
I think my 75mg is working. I know 75mg is a small dose, but I think it's legitimately working. I haven't noticed much arbitrary melancholy or depression without a reason. Finally. | self.depression |
Need all medication recommendation So listen, I don't know if I'm a monodepressive, or a bipolar depressive type 2, but honestly I'm not gonna beat around the bush, I've been infected with that brainshit since maybe even before I was a teenager and I've just got enough of it.
I just want to get to know the heaviest, n... | self.depression |
Eating meals alone at college has to be one of the single worst feelings one can experience at college I feel awful right now, orientation was okay i guess, made a few acquaintances but thats it, i feel i dont really have any friends yet, i just transferred to this school, living on my own for the first time, and ive a... | self.depression |
I wrote a poem Some thoughts...
A star-shining night:
So calm,
Peaceful
And bright.
Only I, my thoughts
And insignificant hopes.
All people’s dreams,
Fly on the night’s wings.
Where do they fly?
Why do they fly?
And why do people cry,
When dreams are so high?
Maybe,
because they are too far?
They are just like ... | self.depression |
I hate my life, my past and being autistic [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
The biggest frustration: We waste so much time being depressed. Sure, we all think of dying, it being 'over'. But sometimes I also think, what if I get happy in about 5 years. Then I wasted a huge period of time being depressed. I wish that I could start over. That when I get happy I can start over with that emotion, b... | self.depression |
I hate rich girls but i am also attracted to them. No shit! I love how beautiful they are and their looks are just incredible and flawless. But it seems to me that they might be outside of my league. They seem like these far away things to achieve that only wealthy business-men or some other elite men type will get. I ... | self.offmychest |
I Hate Everyone This has been going on for over a year now, I'm 23. I had drug induced psychosis a year ago too during that time I revealed things to friends that I wish I didn't while having the worst paranoia. I've been to Psychiatrists twice and they've said it takes time to recover and struggling with a lot of anxi... | self.depression |
Was drunk last night and wrote notes to my friends and family, woke up to find this one and cried. Dear Me,
I know how hurt you are, I know how sad you are. But one day, one damn day, you’re gonna look back and think, wow, times sucked back then, but I got through them. I’m happy with my family of four and I’m happy wi... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm an introvert and I'm at a thing now where I'm surrounded by people all the time. This really drains my energy and when I'm low on energy I want to die. Any tips on how I'm supposed to go through this? The whole day I've felt sad but without reason to. | self.depression |
When I'm not depressed, I'm anxious. When I'm not anxious, I'm depressed. I was finally feeling something. After a few weeks of nothing but numbness, I felt something. I was ready to get out of bed. I was ready to start being productive. I was ready to start living. But then there it was.: the dread that pounded in my ... | self.depression |
Anxiety about therapy? I've tried several therapists. Each time I felt the overwhelming anxiety in each visit, feel like no progress is being made, and then inevitably quit going.
Is therapy not for me? For the most part I have good coping mechanisms. Centering myself, being mindful, knowing what is a normal thought a... | self.Anxiety |
Does any one else experience a lot of psychosomatic symptoms? I've lately been feeling exhausted. When I'm going through an anxious period, I get migraines, excruciating abdominal pain, heartburn, and what feels like a lump in my throat.
It drains my energy. I know that psychosomatic symptoms occur and that they are ... | self.Anxiety |
Most "depressed" people I know are actually pretty cool and more often than not bad-asses Wouldn't be cool if we could get all these people in the same patch of land and build our little secret state free of bullshit, free of degrees, free of stinking interviews, free of "bosses" who don't know anything more than you d... | self.depression |
Nostalgy rules my life Hi, could you please advise me, what can I do? I'm very sensitive, cyclothymic person and I have terrible problem with accept changes and tranzisions in life. I'm so attached to so many animals, people and places... I worry about their health all the time. My imagination is so catastrophic. I hav... | self.bipolar |
I want to live, but I also want to die. [deleted] | self.depression |
Is it just me who obsessively tidies when they are down to avoid intense feelings of guilt? I've had this since I was a kid. When I'm going through a low period, I obsessively tidy things away otherwise I just have these intense feelings of guilt, like I am ungrateful otherwise. The same with wasting food, it literally... | self.depression |
“When I look back on all these worries, I remember the story of the old man who said on his deathbed that he had had a lot of trouble in his life, most of which had never happened.” [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
When they say it gets better, are they lying so i dont harm myself? my mental state was neglected by my parents up till my breakdowns became worse and they finally believed me. started by going to my GP, then to a therapist, guidance counsellor, psychiatrist (where i was medicated for a year), and finally a psychothera... | self.depression |
Lonely -I have work friends that i hangout with once in a while
-I do have family and we meet over the weekends
-I have this feeling of loneliness since my first break up and it has been with me eversince. Sucks alot to have no one to talk to at the end of the day. Tough luck trying to find a date. I feel like i’m trap... | self.Anxiety |
Can anyone tell me the difference between regular CBT vs ACT vs DBT (regarding the treatment of anxiety) what has your experience been in terms of differences in effectiveness and application? | self.Anxiety |
I just can't stay here anymore TW: abortion, suicide , cutting, bpd [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Extreme Exhaustion Hello Everyone,
Wanted to ask if anyone here feels extreme exhaustion from their brain because of meds, how did you cope with that? | self.bipolar |
My mom found out about my affair and I snapped [removed] | self.offmychest |
How do I make life choices (like in university) when I can't figure out what I want out of life? I'm currently attending university and I'm really messing up things there. I don't enjoy part of the classes as much as I thought I would and I've come to realise that I basically picked the wrong thing.
Now I'm thinking o... | self.depression |
Hi. I think I have depression. Is this possible? I said I think, because it doesn't make me sad, it makes me angry and mad, then I break stuff, I wanna break myself, then I drop on the floor and cry because I can't control this frustration. I wouldn't say it's an anger management issue, it's more than that, many differ... | self.depression |
I accomplished a huge goal today it may seem small or like nothing to so many but I’m proud ♥️ My anxiety has held me back from so many social aspects in life but today I accomplished a huge social anxiety goal for myself and family and feel so very proud and accomplished ♥️ 1 step forward again ♥️ | self.Anxiety |
So my first therapy session is December 20th Is it wrong that I'm actually kind of excited? It's just the inital 'meet the patient and parents' sort of thing, but I'm excited. | self.depression |
Does anyone have experience with goiter caused by lithium? My doctors believe my enlarged thyroid is caused by lithium. My psychiatrist is weening me off of it.
Has anyone gone through this? | self.bipolar |
Love While Depressed I'm not entirely sure this is relevant, or the right place to post this but lately, I have been falling in love with the idea of love. I'm not a lovey-dovey person but the idea seems attractive.
I spend a lot of time in my room alone so the idea of spending time with someone I care about is rathe... | self.depression |
I can't stop eating granola! Since August I've been eating granola non stop. It's pretty much my only sustenance. I would go through a bag/box of granola in a day, easily. I feel like my teeth are about to fall out of my head. Anyone else obsessively eat the same thing over and over again?? | self.bipolar |
I don't feel like I'm getting anywhere. Graduated in the spring with a degree from a decent university in a tech field. I've been looking for my first job in the field ever since. I've tried all sorts of job search help programs and resume assistance companies and the like, but nothing seems to change the fact that I'm... | self.offmychest |
About New Year I just don't feel like new year is such a good day to be honest, feels just like any other day to me...
I mean time is just something created by man which sets a month to be 30 days, a yea to be 365 days and so on
Celebrating the 365th day every 365th day seem something that isn't special to be honest es... | self.offmychest |
Is it okay for siblings to see the same pdoc? My poor sister has been struggling with the dreaded familial mental illness for a while. And per tradition, has hidden it as well as she could. That is, until she couldn’t. I’ve mentioned to her that I have a wonderful psychiatrist who has truly helped me. I think she is so... | self.bipolar |
I don't even know where to start... I just feel like I'm falling apart. I used to hold onto things ideas like wanting children in the future to get me though hard times, but they've stopped working. I literally am to emotionally tired for those "tricks" to work. I just want to not exist. I hate every moment from the ti... | self.SuicideWatch |
I struggle to interact with people because of food... literally. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Advice To those who overthink stuff So I was given advice by a girl who was my anxiety trigger. She understood me completely and gave me some advice that may help. It somewhat works for me. So here it is, Think about it this way: In perspective ask yourself how much something you're worrying about will matter in five y... | self.Anxiety |
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