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Do you have phases? I do. I've noticed a structure and pattern of my phases as it relates to my level of brain activity from depression to hypomania. I hope sharing this will clarify these cycles for others. I have a lot of phases of interest. Sometimes they reoccur, sometimes they're one-offs. It's frustrating to be p... | self.bipolar |
I'm so sick of people saying "just talk to someone" [deleted] | self.offmychest |
This odd feeling I get Hello I am new to here and need some help. So I don’t know if it’s my anxiety or not but I was wondering if this feeling happens to people too. It’s like an emptiness that just randomly creeps up on me. It’s not a sadness but more of an indifference towards everything and I takes around an hour t... | self.Anxiety |
Sorry that I can't be around your family 24/7 I hate that I have to see your family so much. Yes, it sucks that mine is 1000+ miles away and my mom is dying of early onset Alzheimer's. I hate it and I'm sad and it sucks that I can't be there for her. Instead, I have to see your family, not just once a week but sometime... | self.offmychest |
Going to the doctor tomorrow. I'm scared. Three weeks ago I started having intermittent pain in my right ovary. I went to a walk in clinic, they said it's probably a cyst but to visit my normal doctor if it still is bothering me. It still is.
I'm going to the doctor tomorrow, or rather, his NP, and I'm really hoping ... | self.Anxiety |
I like my life now. There's hope. Today I had a one month follow up interview at work to see how I'm fitting in. Today my mom told me she appreciates how much I've been doing. It's really the same stuff I had been doing before I got a job, but I'm getting things done around the house on top of working full time. I wish... | self.bipolar |
I just feel like giving up, it’s like I am constantly going against the grain. I’m writing this walking home.
I tried to go to help me from failing statistics.
I went to the wrong building, I realized I forgot to take out money, I walked 15 minutes back to an atm.
Took out money, went back couldn’t find the building,... | self.offmychest |
Afraid to go to the dentist So I'm just afraid they're going to say I have a disease of some sort or them just going ballistic on my teeth | self.Anxiety |
friend has been my rock, gift ideas to say thank you. [deleted] | self.depression |
I am pretty sure that all it takes to cure my depression is a few good friends and for everyone to stop hating me. Too bad i am too much of a piece of shit for anyone to actually like me. | self.depression |
it hurts everytime i close my eyes. i left my abusive family a few months ago, and now i miss them so much it burns in my soul drains me and gives me bad thoughts, i miss my siblings and love them but the abuse was so much and if i go back it will only get worse. im slowly becoming,numb. | self.depression |
Life is a burden There's nothing I enjoy about being alive. Every day is worst than the last one. I used to be hopeful about the future but I've been let down so many times by the events that unfolded, that I don't care anymore. Nothing ever gets better even if I push myself to make the changes. Most of the times when ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I really feel like the universe is actively pushing me to resort to suicide. I don’t see where and how it isn’t. [deleted] | self.depression |
I think I am gonna do it I feel so broken and down and beat. I called the help hotline and it didn't make me feel any better. I am just so frustrated with my life. I'm sorry all | self.SuicideWatch |
“That’s an irrational thing to worry about!” “Oh I realize, your point is?” | self.Anxiety |
The selfies issue. The negative thing about the selfie spam is that it creates an unhealthy "what about me" dynamic.
A pretty girl/guy posts a selfie, gets massive ammount of upvotes. An insecure person notices this, and also posts a selfie, but gets considereably less upvotes, or gets downvoted, and ends up writting ... | self.bipolar |
Does getting dirty looks/stared at everywhere you go mean you’re ugly? Apologies if this isn’t the right place to post a question like this, but every time i go outside for a walk i always tend to get stared at a lot by people driving past me, when i walk through college the other students will stare at me, i really ge... | self.depression |
If something scares you, should you do it? (Fear of driving over bridges) Something came up that would have me driving from Miami to Key West next week. But i'm freaking out about it. The whole 7 mile bridge thing has freaked me the fuck out for a while now.
I've been non-stop crying over this and it's obviously beca... | self.Anxiety |
My brother felt like I gave him a “cheap” gift and yelled and stormed out while I cried. (Long)
Background: I’m 29, he’s 27. We’ve never had a fight and have always gotten along, granted we haven’t been super close. We’ll see each other when I visit Home or text occasionally.
This has been a rough year for me and my... | self.offmychest |
Not doing well, in a mixed state and cant tell if things are ok or not. [deleted] | self.bipolar |
I get embarrassed when my siblings talk in AAVE/Ebonics in public I don't have any Racist opinions either against other races or against my own. We have lived in a mostly white area for the last three years, and I have had trouble fitting in no matter where I was. Black and White people reject me just the same, as well... | self.offmychest |
There is an owl There is an owl outside of me window.. I can hear it. It has been there for awhile now.. The reason i say that is because its one of your favorite animals... I said an owl is a spirit animal, while mine was a wolf... That owl just wont go away.... Like the memories of you, but i dont want to forget you ... | self.depression |
Thank you /r/depression, you helped me through the worst time of my life. A bit over a year and a half ago I was at the worst point in my life. I posted some of stuff which might seem silly now, but I do believe it helped me.
The responses and messages I got definitely helped even though I could not see it at the time... | self.depression |
I feel like I just need to leave for a while... I feel weighed down by everything and I feel trapped. I'm 19 and I still live with my parents...planning on moving away in Fall 2018 for college. I can't tell if I like being alone or not. I like being alone in the sense that it's probably the only time I get a sense of p... | self.offmychest |
In 2018, I will fully forget about my ex [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I want to die and I have no hope, but I’m scared. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
To the Owen Electric tech that turned my electric off in 0° weather... ...thanks for sticking around so I could call in a payment.
To Owen Electric: Fuck you for turning off my electric in sub freezing temps just because I owed you $65. Ruthless fucks. | self.offmychest |
Space gangsters from Mars I've been thinking quite seriously about killing myself, and I'll explain what I mean as up front and honest as possible. I tend to disagree with myself. I do things that make me sick, and then laugh at them. For the past year or so i have been watching myself live in a state of astonishment, ... | self.SuicideWatch |
What can you do for me? I ***loathe*** this mentality.
The idea that if you aren't making another person's life better in some way, you're completely worthless.
Specifically, **my** life. What are **you** going to do for *me*? Nothing??? Ok, then ***FUCK*** ***YOU***.
See how absolutely toxic it feels to be treated... | self.depression |
DAE struggle immensely with self-care and daily living tasks (i.e. cooking, doing dishes, taking out the trash, etc.) | self.depression |
Brother Suicide Attempt I just need a place to rant and say all this. Ok so my older brother is a freshman in college. He’s struggled with depression specifically through bipolar. A few months ago, we got a call that some people had encouraged him to go to the hospital after they saw a lot of cutting on his arms. He we... | self.depression |
I'm working three days a week and can barely manage. I have been crying all evening while wrapping christmas presents. I don't think my depression will ever go away. A few months ago I told a friend that I had feelings for him (best friends for 4 years) and he as pretty much removed me from his life. I feel lost withou... | self.depression |
I'm a lesbian who wants to try sleeping with a guy [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Does other peoples success ever seem like it just highlights your failures? I went to my nephews college graduation today. I really want to feel good for him. He has worked hard and done well, but all I can seem to focus on is my own academic and other failures. I barely made it out of high school and he graduated s... | self.depression |
If you could design a tool or system to support you and your experience with anxiety, what would it be like? Of course, a magic wand would be great, but if you could design something to have with you to help you manage anxiety what would it be? I am curious if many people would want something similar thing and what eff... | self.Anxiety |
I just want to know if people also feel this way I'm 17, a girl and I'm really depressed. I used to be so scared of myself. If I even thought for a second about the option suicide, I would cry and be scared. Lately it gives me a feeling of relief. Like I can escape all of this forever. The only thing that keeps me here... | self.depression |
I'm afraid to sleep It's true. I have clinical depression that I'm taking medication for but every night is riddled with nightmares that getting a good night's rest is impossible because of said medication. I had such terrible nightmares last night that when I finally woke up in fright and stumbled to the bathroom I re... | self.depression |
reddit, please for the love of god help me [deleted] | self.depression |
Very quickly losing my will to live. It seems as if it doesn't matter how hard I try to stay away from crashing into the thought/feeling barrier of "My life is going to go nowhere, and I will never be successful or find where I belong", I always seem to smack myself face first on it.
A little introductory, I am 25, d... | self.depression |
I'm making a short comic on depression/suicide. Any ideas? I really want there to be a strong message that people can relate to and will stick with people. Any and all ideas are appreciated. | self.depression |
Help please... Long story short I just got into a huge fight with my best friend and it did not go well as in I'm pretty sure she is done with me....im below rock bottom right now...ive got a gun in my hand it's loaded and ready to go i don't really know what to do other then put it to my head and pull the trigger...wh... | self.SuicideWatch |
Here I am again Almost one year ago from today I made my first post. I’m 21 now. And I can’t believe suicide is still on my fucking mind constantly eating away at me. | self.SuicideWatch |
Whenever I got in accident a question always comes up to my mind, "Why am I still alive" [deleted] | self.depression |
What the Fuck Does This Even Mean? Can't find anything useful online. The bastards added the "atypical features" modifier to my bp 1 diagnosis, but I can't find anything that corresponds to my exacerbation in symptoms (more leaning towards hallucinations, possibly outside of a mood episode). Idk, making me feel kinda h... | self.bipolar |
Glad you were embarrassed. You only used me. Probably one of the worst relationship I will ever be in. Lol after cheating on me, consistantly lying to me and I hadn't even texted you in 3 months. You call me out of the blue. Ask for drinks. You don't get really drink(which is very uncharacteristic). Have this huge spee... | self.offmychest |
I want to kill myself My mom is angry after getting out from the hospital. She says no one loves her. She’s upset at my sister who’s uncaring and disobedient to her. She threw stuff. She says if she died we’re the type of daughters to cry for only three days. To be fair, I wouldn’t cry, I would kill myself right then a... | self.SuicideWatch |
What helps me to Control my anxiety (pt.1) Hi
You guys can call me Zera. I'm new here and English is not my first language so take it easy:).
I'm a guy who basically once lost a girl that I love to someone else in high school and got so mad that night. Started breaking things, punching things,.. etc. Since that day ... | self.Anxiety |
Went to the hospital today, got rebuffed I've been struggling badly with worsening psychotic episodes and bipolar mood swings, and I just couldn't take it anymore so I went in to the hospital to see about inpatient care, but because I'm a drug user and I didn't feel I would hurt myself or others they basically told me ... | self.bipolar |
A year ago, I tried to kill myself multiple times... [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Girlfriend of 2 years has no faith in the relationship and not willing to try. I've been dating this girl I met in college for two years and we've done just about everything together.Just recently we moved in together for college on a year lease.Now after a few months since June in 2017 she is now saying, "I don't see ... | self.offmychest |
alone [naw] ive been drifting farther and farther from people lately and i honestly didn't think you'd drift from me too. basically, after reviewing my thoughts i realize i need to leave you because you just aren't reciprocating what i'm putting into this. i don't feel respected or validated; i'm ignored. my worries ar... | self.offmychest |
Enough At what point do you feel like you just want to give up? I’ve done a lot of reading and looking around about suicide. I’m basically just sick of thinking about it every day. There is this site called exitinternational and I really like the points the doctor makes there. He has a book on how to help do everything... | self.SuicideWatch |
You know that feeling when you're leaning in a chair and you momentarily lose your balance? That rush as you catch yourself from falling? I feel like that all the time now. | self.depression |
I'm a walking mistake and want to die Update: I am feeling a lot better after posting here and hearing back from you guys. There are a lot of empathetic people here and I needed this.
Long winded post. TL;DR I am very depressed and so ridden with guilt/shame/self-hatred/embarrassment because I make so many mistakes e... | self.Anxiety |
Poem I laze around all day
Or so it seems
While I’m sitting back
In my head, I scream
I watch YouTube all day
Feeling myself waste away
I want to get up
I want to move
I want to scream
But all I can do
Is snooze
Drown out the screams
Drown out the voices
Drown out the feeling of self-hatred
Sit down
G... | self.depression |
Anyone else struggle with this? Does anyone else have a hard time washing themselves and getting dressed/ changing their clothes when they are severely depressed? I seem to be the only one who struggles with this. When I'm at my worst these simple tasks become virtually impossible and I can't even think about leaving t... | self.depression |
EffEXor ..is where my current circle has run its course. For the second time I’m coming off it after Just coming off hospitalised lamotrigine withdrawal. The zaps are shitty, getting up and out is tougher than normal, and it kinda goes without saying I’m in a depressive episode. I (and many of you guys) for a fact know... | self.bipolar |
It’ll pass. It’ll get easier. That’s what they say, you know. They say they’ll be there for you. They say “Be strong”.
And I believe them. I really do. And I’m glad. I’m glad for all the support they give me.
But for as much support as they give me, it doesn’t make it less painful.
My grandfather passed away yesterd... | self.offmychest |
Atypical anxiety to go with atypical depression. I see my anxiety as "atypical." I used to be shy. Now I fire up like an engine in large crowds. I can't wipe the joy off my face when I'm presenting to large groups. I knock people over in interviews. With enough encouragement, I'll pull stunts, or dance like a fool. As ... | self.Anxiety |
Am I meant to know why I feel like this? My new doctor referred me to a psychologist last week when I mentioned I thought I had been depressed for several years.
The appointment went fine, but at the end she told me I hadn’t given her much to work with.
It instantly gave me the impression that the psychologist is jus... | self.depression |
Long weekends, nothing to do. Ideations, etc. How do you cope? Hey all. I'm sure for a lot of us these long weekends are hard. I know for me, especially when I'm in a funk, they just give me more time to sit around and mope and wallow in my dark thoughts. Like today is nice out, but I really don't have many friends and... | self.depression |
I told my crush how I felt and she said no [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Tired I'm so tired of the pain and confusion. I feel like I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't.
Today I'm having a really hard time finding a reason to not just end it all.
My kids are really the main reason I am still holding on but as each day goes by I wonder if they just wouldn't be better without me.
I don... | self.depression |
Dear Mom, I lied, but you lied first.
I can’t get over it. I will never get over it. Now that you’ve been gone for seven years, whenever I think of you, the majority of the time, I’m thinking about it. That is your main legacy with me, (mixed in, of course, with the good stuff).
A few months before you died, you said... | self.offmychest |
Finally stopping lexapro A few days ago I stopped taking lexapro completely, after I started tapering off first. As expected I'm very dizzy right now and my sleep schedule is fucked up, I literally don't feel tired at all while being exhausted at the same time. I wake up at 3pm every day. My depression and anxiety have... | self.depression |
depressed over the holidays No calls, messages or emails over holidays. Life really sucks. I ask God to kill me every day, even he ignores me. | self.depression |
How can I lessen this nervous energy? I wouldn't say every day I'm a nervous, anxious mess--but today, for what ever reason--I was. I think it was because I drank more caffeine than I probably should have. I'm been jumpy all day, overthinking things I shouldn't, and just overall fretting over stupid problems.
Do you a... | self.Anxiety |
What do I do? What do you do when no one wants to talk to you, text you, hang out with you, hold you or just see you? I'm always the first to talk and no one is ever really interested enough to talk to me after, I'm not nosey or needy, I'm quite quiet and reserved but I do try to talk to people. It's the holidays and m... | self.depression |
Need help making friends and starting relationships Hey everyone,
Sorry for the long post, but here it goes (TL;DR at the very bottom):
I'm an undergraduate sophomore (20 year old, male) entering the spring semester. I've been feeling isolated and lonely lately, mainly because I've never had close friends or romantic... | self.Anxiety |
I’m 14 Male and I’m depressed I have struggled over the past 6 months. I have genital warts, and armpit warts but since I’m 14 it’s embarrassing so I won’t tell anybody. I also have terrible body acne and I never take my shirt off because it’s disgusting and who wants to see that. I feel like I will die young and not ... | self.depression |
I took today off...time to get it together! I’ve been in a mixed state and it’s driving me bonkers. I’m like a shaken coke can that refuses to open, and that also can’t wake up.
The house is a mess, I haven’t done laundry or dishes, there’s no food in the fridge, and I have a ton of school work to do.
I’m going to u... | self.bipolar |
stuck between depression and anxiety either feeling everything or feeling nothing. I get depressed when I do nothing with my life but if I do something I get too anxious about it which makes it feel like it isn't worth it. There's no happy medium it's just one or the other. | self.Anxiety |
experiences with CBT and the referral process? Long story short i've finally spoken with my GP this year about struggling with anxiety. After a couple of appointments and talking through things with them, they have told me to consider anti-depressants and in the meantime have referred me to CBT.
I've received the let... | self.Anxiety |
Weekly Success Thread: Share your victories large & small! As I'm sure many of you already know first-hand it can be overwhelming even to do the "little" or "normal" things in life for those with anxiety issues. It's about time every one of us bragged about our triumphs big and small in our day to day life.
This w... | self.Anxiety |
Meaningless 1.Each time thoughts of you manage to tunnel into my head
2.I’m forced to experience emotional disarray
3.I disengage from these thoughts as often as possible
4.Yet I know I can’t go on ignoring things
5.Can’t keep pretending nothing matters
6.Nothing hurts me
7.Yet
8.Nothin... | self.offmychest |
Have a good day Hey all. Jusy need to vent slightly, today isn't the greatest day for me... Things have been tough for a while now. I'm,hopefully seeing a therapist soon. I have a lot going on and no one to reach out and vent to.
But I hope you all have a good day and do something great. | self.Anxiety |
Got a copy of my medical records, need some advice So I spent 11 days in the rubber room a month ago, and contrary to its name there was not a single condom to be found any where, quite disappointing.
On my way out I bought a copy of my medical records, I was skimming thru when I found an interesting note left in my ... | self.bipolar |
Does anyone else experience this? So my anxiety started around this time last year. I would get high on weed, which is something i did way before the anxiety started. Something changed though and it started making me anxious. The weed would make me start questioning reality, as well as make me anxious for death. It's i... | self.Anxiety |
Story of my life When i was 14 in October of 2015 i had cold but it was the worst cold i've ever gotten in my life.
So my mom took me to the hospital and the doctor gave me antipoitics and told me that everything will be alright.
My mom went to a vacation and when she came back she realized that my eyes were yellow, so... | self.offmychest |
Last night took an L This all happened yesterday night. Throwaway account for personal reasons. This text might take a while to read, so either skip it or - even better - read it. But you don't have to, I just want to write it all down, to get it eventually of my chest and sort my thoughts..
Love is just indescribable... | self.offmychest |
We don't deserve dogs I don't really have much to say and tedious details are boring but I truly think if it wasn't for my dog, I don't think I would be alive right now. Thank you for always being a happy face and wagging tail, you saved me.
Edit : this was my first time posting my own thread on reddit and the respons... | self.offmychest |
I'm sorry I'm sorry for being me
I'm sorry for not being good enough
I'm sorry for not being as the rest
I'm sorry for not being able to meet the expectations
I'm sorry for feeling
I'm sorry being alienated from the world
I'm sorry for hurting everybody
I'm sorry for letting everyone down
I'm sorry for not bein... | self.depression |
I am lonely Ive sunk low. Its a loneliness on another level, the kind that fucking pierces deep into your soul. The kind that makes you just want to die. I just want someone ANYONE that I can talk to honestly and comfortably. Thats all im asking for. Fuck. My. Life. | self.depression |
Im a mess with dreams. How to manage it? Im having a plan. I already started doing in its direction to make this project. I have few people around it already, put last year of my life to it. Also more. In my dreams it seems amazing, it seems something that will really positivelly contribute to the world. But inside the... | self.depression |
Maybe... The problem with mental illness is that we stigmatize it. We all have our own definition of it. That leads to our perceptions and interpretations of our experiences with it. Are we the mental illness or is it part of us? How can people on the outside understand something they don't feel? This is about human ri... | self.bipolar |
My life was ruined the day I was born I hate my parents so much. I can't wait for my dad to die. I won't feel any remorse. I hate him so much. I have never been taken care of in my life. My health problems are weighing me down and will forever prevent me from living a normal life because my parents refused to take acti... | self.depression |
Any recommendations for SNRIs? Hello all,
I am new to this sub but I’ve been on Effexor for about 2 years now. I am feeling like I’ve just hit a road block and it has stopped working. I highly dislike the withdrawal symptoms like brain zaps I get if I miss one dose, low sex drive, and weight gain. (I know everyone is d... | self.Anxiety |
equus8720 Looking for reliable person in the states with quality etizolam. Any response will be appreciated | self.Anxiety |
Finals week of school coming up and I’m so busy stressing over a girl I have no idea how I’m gonna focus I told a girl I loved her a few weeks ago and I didn’t really get the same thing back. It’s a very complicated situation but basically I’ve felt like she’s been pushing me away. We’ve been such great friends before ... | self.Anxiety |
Road trip car anxiety Hi everyone,
I'm lucky in the regard that I don't normally suffer from anxiety.
However, my friends and I take road trips around the state every few months (I am always a passenger) that are 2 or more hours driving. Whilst on our way to do something fun (music festival, theme park, camping etc... | self.Anxiety |
confusion so, for the past few weeks I’ve been feeling a lot more suicidal. it’s not good, but it’s the truth. My therapist is condescending and doesn’t help much, and my meds don’t work but I can’t see a psychiatrist for another month. my parents are always fighting, my mother hates me, there’s nothing going my way, a... | self.depression |
Divorce help This might be the wrong sub, but I've posted here before and gotten help so I trust y'all. I know I'm not alone in this, but my dad just told me that he and my mum are getting a divorce. I was hoping for some words of advice or general care. My little sis isn't taking it well and my depression doesn't help... | self.depression |
Wellbutrin Hey all. Today is my 33rd day of taking wellbutrin and have not felt any side effects or benefits yet. Anyone else here experience this but eventually got better? | self.depression |
Writing some Most of my trouble circles around the fact that I have a difficult time getting out of bed.
First, I haven't really liked socializing with the family that I'm living with and they're here most of the time obviously so I feel kind of limited to my room. I haven't had money for gas or misc. to get out and ... | self.depression |
I died and spent my birthday at the psychiatric ward This is it.
I died.
I've been trying to battle depression for a long time.
I even tried moving away from my country to restart it all over again.
It all failed.
Spending my summer vacations at my home country I met my boyfriend, who clicked with me as soon as we m... | self.offmychest |
At the entrance of the void It's gotten to the point where I don't want to live anymore. Nothing about my current life is worth the anxiety and frustration. What is wrong with me? I don't know how I allowed myself to get to this point. I'm so disappointed in myself. I'm disgusted.
Even the simplest of tasks are excruc... | self.SuicideWatch |
Anyone else want to overdose into a coma but not really die??? I’ve been having suicidal ideation but at the root of it I kinda realize I don’t want to die I just want things to be quiet for a while? Maybe that would fix things? Anyone else have this distorted thinking of wanting to overdose but not quite enough to die | self.SuicideWatch |
My problem is so vague yet specific at the same time and I just can’t anymore Context: I live in a country in the Middle East. Also, girl.
I’m going to explode.. I can’t take it anymore, I’ve cried about this too many times. I’ve talked to my mother about this. Talking to her helps a bit but I feel like such a loser... | self.offmychest |
I'm in love with someone who is too rich for me [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I'm keeping myself from being happy. Hey everyone. I just want to start this off by saying I've lied about my age on here and I'm younger than what i've said, although not by much. I go to High School, and the last few days of break have made me realize something: Aside from depression, I'm what is keeping myself from ... | self.offmychest |
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