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I gotta give it to myself... I may give great examples of what not to do in life...
... But I also give great examples of what to do after one does what what they weren't supposed to!
*Big cheesey grin with thumbs up* | self.bipolar |
Didn't think I'd make it past twenty I think I've been suicidal since I was ten years old. That was my first attempt anyway. It was for something stupid, I don't exactly remember the reason, and the attempt wasn't anything serious either. Just the emotions were so strong. Ever since then I've had numerous attempts and ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Wish I didn't have an "ethnic" name I am half "white" (Ukranian) and half Arab (Lebanese). I have medium skin, brown hair and green eyes and most people assume I am "white" or maybe Greek/Italian. Anyway, two of my siblings have Russian sounding first-names and two of us have more Arabic sounding names. I HATE how ever... | self.offmychest |
I don't know how to leave a relationship that has me wanting to kill myself [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Anyone else unable to stay focused and committed to work? [deleted] | self.depression |
I don't know who I am anymore I feel so lost, I don't even know what I feel. When I am around people I am so different, I smile even make others laugh but I don't feel happy and I feel like I am so fake. I don't even know if I am depressed or just dead inside.. I have to find myslel but where?? I remember that a year ... | self.depression |
Oversleeping is the worst I can easily handle not sleeping enough but when I oversleep and miss a meal, or church, or an event it just makes me feel even worse about myself... | self.depression |
To other people, the impressive part of being bipolar is how much we can accomplish while manic. To us, it's much more impressive to achieve the bare minimum while depressed. | self.bipolar |
Why the fuck do i even try Why do i even try making friends?
I get rejected every fucking time, why the fuck am i so unlikable | self.depression |
Second day of 20mg Citalopram, god help me I feel like I'm incredibly hungover. Can barely get out of bed, can barely walk, my head's killing, I feel seasick and I'm sweating like crazy. I also suffer from shy bladder, so because my body is in full anxiety mode it's now hard for me to pee even at home which I never usu... | self.Anxiety |
Schizophrenia anxiety Sorry for the long text but here goes.
I feel as though I have been struggling with anxiety or some type of anxiety disorder for the past 8 months or so, but now I am getting thoughts that lead me to believe that it is not so.
I remember being anxious a lot when I was younger but it really picke... | self.Anxiety |
anxiety is too consistent for comfort always thought my anxiety was something triggered by the transition of adulthood, but now it’s going on 3 years of consistency and i can’t figure out ways to cope. e.g. today i woke up at 2a, was at the gym by 5a, and had to leave work at 2:30 because i thought i was going to have ... | self.Anxiety |
Just slept for 14 hours I think it’s easier for me to just sleep and live in my dreams then face reality. | self.depression |
Sitting in the ER like a moron after noticing red streaks in my throat and the subsequent panic attack that followed [venting][support] I've been getting anxiety every time I eat these days, on top of my baseline unease. I was trying to avoid my checking habits today, but after eating some pizza I ordered (was hoping ... | self.Anxiety |
What am I doing to myself. I can't fake it anymore. Everyday I've been to school I've been so happy and nice to everyone. The majority of the class sees me as their friend. But it hurts me everyday to fake me being happy. I don't want to be the one I'm not. I feel like I need to do this otherwise I'll die. But everyone... | self.depression |
I'm anorexic since i was 17, now i'm 20 I actually hate my life... i know that, one day, i will die for this.
No one could help me and this is so sad, i say to every one who love me that everything it's under control but is not. I lost my control.... i totaly lost myself | self.SuicideWatch |
I sort of like Charles Manson He was actually pretty funny, super intelligent and interesting and he actually made some pretty decent music.
He was an absolute character and the ultimate joker. You can just imagine him imparting some deep cynical wisdom about human nature or how he's no different from anyone else.
... | self.offmychest |
Please help I dont know what to do. When i think about school, i get stressed and cry. When i think about my parents dying (which is hopefully years from now and i think about this a lot) i start to cry. I just think about the most random shit and it makes me cry. I stayed home from school today cause i felt so shitty... | self.depression |
Caffeine now a new panic attack trigger? I drink a couple of cups of coffee daily up until last week.
After a night of drinking, waking up in the morning a bit hungry and dehydrated I drank a cold brew that was a bit concentrated as my first cup. About 30 minutes in, I felt all the symptoms of a panic attack happenin... | self.Anxiety |
Tomorrow I have an appointment with my GP to go to a psychologist - help me out please? Hi guys,
So I just made an appointment to go to my GP so she can get me to a therapist, can you help me with formulating my 'this is what I need help for'-question?
My (23F) mom (64) just left my house. She told me people should n... | self.Anxiety |
Reading about depressed people in relationships drives me insane [deleted] | self.depression |
My teacher caught that I plagairized my essay -fuck life my english teacher respected me so much in how i took on an idea and stuff and my grade was pretty high too, but he was very disappointed in me today, i got a 0 on the essay and am thus failing the class. i knew it was so obviously plagiarized but the thing is i ... | self.offmychest |
I have no inherent worth. My life is meaningless and empty and I hate myself My life has always been empty. Even when I was just 11, I knew that I did not have the right stuff for this world. I am alone. The more I think about who I am and my life as a whole, the more I want to kill myself. I have no energy left for an... | self.SuicideWatch |
My family gave away my dog while I was out of state, now my panic attacks are worse than ever Hey everyone, I've never posted here before, but I want to share a story about my dog Bucky.
Bucky is one of the puppies that my other dog (Phoebe) had recently, and I fell in love with him instantly. Even as young as six we... | self.Anxiety |
I know someone is depressed, and there's nothing I can say or do They make comments about being overwhelmed, and they've mentioned being seriously depressed in the past in an offhand way. They show a lot of concern for others who seem stressed or unhappy, the kind of concern that you just know comes from personal exper... | self.depression |
Chest Discomfort I'm so sick of this, chest pains/tightness/tingling have been coming on and off for weeks. This current episode has been going on 4 days. I went to the ER for the 3rd time this year and once again they said everything was fine. Gave me 9 Ativan and sent me home.
Yesterday I felt better but today it's... | self.Anxiety |
Does anyone else feel sick/anxious at work, even though they love their job? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
When you put no effort into a friendship, you lose it. End of story. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Not knowing what I want is what will kill me I think my hardest problem of dealing with this, is that I honestly have no idea what I want. A year ago broke off a 9 year relationship so they didn’t have to deal with my brain on a daily basis anymore. Since, dated around, tried to figure something out and it’s only gotte... | self.depression |
Anybody here with Manic Depression? Could use some advice, please and thank you. How do you handle relationships? Have you ever been in a successful one? How open were you with your significant other? I'm going through an incredibly low point of hypomania right now for the first time while being with this girl, and I c... | self.depression |
venting i think when people see me, they have the perception that i have a decent life. i make a good amount of money, i make ends meet. i think my parents, friends, and clientele would be disappointed. the past few months, i've been depressed. i sleep 12 hours a day... it's hard to like being awake. i'm irritable and ... | self.depression |
How to get started on meditation and working out? I have become really lazy and due to my anxiety any extended work or time doing something of moderate intensity makes me feel worried or tired out until I actually work out or do whatever activity I need to do and I feel great. I want to get started on being more produc... | self.Anxiety |
I'm seeing a girl with mental health issues and I don't know if I can handle it. Im a 25 yr old who has been seeing this 19 yr old girl for about 2 months now. It was obvious when I met her that she had ADHD, but the further things progress its becoming clear she has quite a few things wrong with her. When she gets dru... | self.offmychest |
Nobody knows you have anxiety because... It makes you overly-nice to ALL people, like when you bump into somebody you know (and hate) in a grocery store in your head you're like "I hate you so much, stop talking to me, I hate this place, I wanna go home and sleep for months" but all you say is "Thanks, what a surprise ... | self.Anxiety |
afraid of my dream So, I don’t know why I am writing this here, but maybe it will help me and someone can have a useful word of comfort or advice.
I am 22 and I have always dreamed of living abroad, specifically in Germany. I have been there twice and always felt sad for coming back, it felt like the right place for ... | self.Anxiety |
For all of my life I was deathly afraid of people getting mad at me, yelling at me, insulting me etc. I tiptoed around many people, feared conflict, and just plain avoided people. I just got over that fear and now I see how much of my life hasn’t been lived to it’s fullest. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I'm insane Last night, I heard my neighbor yelling for something. I was sure he was talking about me, how I'm a shitty neighbor and all that. I said to myself "you are crazy, you never even talked with the guy, why would he spend so much time yelling because of you...". didn't help. I think I've finally lost it. | self.Anxiety |
I'm so done with life, I'm an untalented, awkward asshole who does not deserve to live! I'm so done with life, I have no future, my life fucking sucks and I just don't want to be here anymore, if anyone wants to help me, do you're best, but I'm just so done right now!
I'm going to hang myself tonight! | self.SuicideWatch |
Girlfriend problems. Needing Space...Or. Online girlfriend who has AvPD (avoidant personality disorder), today asked for space for the first time ever. We've been online dating for 5 months almost. I was a little surprised because she's usually needy, and I'm sure she's had some bad days within the past 5 months but ha... | self.Anxiety |
how did i end up so lonely? all i want right now is someone to cuddle. i need to cry into someone's arms and have them feel my pain and tell me it's okay. i can't believe how alone i am. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Switching Psychiatrists Sucks! So my psychiatrist left her firm (which was on my insurance policy). Now I have to switch to another one because she went to a private practice. And all I got was a lousy letter. Sorry just needed to vent.
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Why do people hate me? I try to be as nice as i can. My parents get mad at me for everything, my mom just beat me multiple times this week. Im the kid who wasnt planned. Im the one without friends. I am the one who is worthless.
Im just waiting for the right moment. | self.SuicideWatch |
Lamictal and abilify are messing me up inside! My pdoc recently changed me from 450mg of seroquel to lamictal and abilify. So far, I am on 25mg of lamictal and 5mg of abilify (it gets upped to 10mg in a few days) BUT every since I started taking these pills ( 2 days ago), I feel like crap. Yesterday, I was so nauseous ... | self.bipolar |
I'm attracted to redhead females a lot that I really want to be in a relationship with one. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Toxic family makes it impossible to get better Today I had a session with my therapist and afterward my sister called. Throughout the whole conversation all she did was remind me of the mistakes I’ve made with school and condescend to me about my job prospects and what a waste college was and about paying off loans. I’... | self.SuicideWatch |
I may never have her, my sunshine I swear I'm in love with this girl, she's one of my best friends. She has a really spotless reputation though, and she and those around her, especially her older brother, are protective of it.
I on the other hand could maybe mess that up for her. I may never get a shot at this girl th... | self.offmychest |
So I tried to kill myself... To make a long story as short as I can, I've been through four relationships my entire life.
An emotionally abusive one. (10 years)
A physically abusive one. (2 years)
One that I felt actually gave a damn about me and then told me to GTFO one day. (1 year, friends much longer)
And just ... | self.SuicideWatch |
How do you deal with romantic relationships? Dear anxiety couples and you who deal with anixety in romantic relationships, please give me some advice.
I'm interested in a girl that I met some months ago. We are knowing each other, and I handled my anxiety better than I think I would do.
I was diagnosed with genral an... | self.Anxiety |
Every time i try to talk about my problems, people just distance themselves from me. | self.depression |
I was so close After refereeing my weekly Wednesday night hockey league I sat in the referees room and cried. I was there for a solid half hour after the game had finished. The same thoughts racing, but this time louder. I'm a shit friend, a shit daughter, a shit sister and a shit person. What's the point anymore? I le... | self.depression |
42 years old with wife and 3 kids. I'm going through severe depression right now and told my wife I am not safe to be around with my mental state and I will live in my truck until it runs out of gas. My depression and past brain trauma are keeping me from working. I only have a 1993 pick up truck to live in and am afra... | self.SuicideWatch |
Lately I keep myself alive by having short term things to look forward to. Several weeks or a month in the future. It does keep me alive and it is a better existence than when I had nothing to plan for... But I still don't see the point.
There's no joy or happiness here. I'm simply lingering on because it would hurt s... | self.depression |
Anxiety about bars and Different Places Hey, so I have agoraphobia, but it even worse around "adult settings" (bars, clubs, etc). It was **REALLY** bad last year, and I've made big steps, (I can now go to the bar or the club with my roommates in the town where we all live) but whenever it's somewhere else geographicall... | self.Anxiety |
I was doing so much better,really Between the months of August and October were really bad for me, my depression was terrible.but I got better and now I find myself casually suicidal. For example yesterday I was walking across the cross walk and an suv almost hit me but I just stood there,unflinching as it barreled tow... | self.depression |
Can a depressive episode last for an hour or two or is that called something else? [deleted] | self.depression |
Mindfulness and Meditation I've recently started back on meds after my anxiety became unbearable and my doctor suggested I try mindfulness. She recommended an app called "Headspace", but I've downloaded one called "Stop, Breathe and Think". The idea of meditation has always seemed a bit silly to me but I've found that... | self.Anxiety |
Felt good for a while Got on a new med and felt good for quite a while until recently. I’m not sure if I need a higher dose or what, but I’ve taken more Xanax than I should have today and drank too.
My mom is trying to help and I appreciate her and my family so much.
I just hate feeling like such shit. My mind won’... | self.SuicideWatch |
Why does she still affect me? I just need to put this down somewhere. I am amazed at the amount of effect and influence you have over me still.
You weren't there for me when I needed a friend, and I will never forget that. But calling me up out of the blue and pretending that everything is fine left me startled. I do... | self.offmychest |
I don't know what to feel I am 18 years old, and for the vast majority of my life my parents have been fighting non-stop.
I am confident that my mother has anger management issues. She once gave me a huge scar on my arm because she pushed me into a suitcase and a sharp corner somehow cut me. Either way, she is very l... | self.offmychest |
I considered killing myself but I'm too Afraid of dying Not much to add, I was about to hang myself but couldn't do it, I guess my natural instinct for self preservation is still high enough | self.depression |
I'm terrified of the future... I just read an article about all the twisted shit going on with the YouTube Kids app, and how automation and the Information Age are having a severe impact on society today. Not some point far off into the future where the robots have rebelled against humanity, I mean **today. Right now.*... | self.depression |
Poverty and bipolar Has anyone lived with bipolar while their family/them has been living in poverty? My family has since I was small and I feel like it has definitely worsened my mental state due to poor living conditions and fighting amongst family. | self.bipolar |
Marijuana induced depersonalization and Anxiety. I quit smoking over 3 years ago. I am still not the same. How can one possibly try and convince themself that they do not exist? Recently I have been lucid dreaming a lot and that has caused the questioning of dream or reality? The human brain is a powerful thing, especi... | self.Anxiety |
Cold and Alone I feel cold and lonely all the time. My job is stressful and unfulfilling. I have no idea how to get a better job or how to meet anyone. I don’t exactly wish that I was dead, but it would be nice to feel alive. Every day I just feel like crying. I feel like I’m missing out on life and I’m doing it to mys... | self.depression |
Something in therapy today that scared me I had a meeting with my therapist today and in it we were talking about how I would define myself in the context of why would someone want to date me/be my friend. Beyond a few interests I had a hard time defining myself being how I suffer from anxiety. This scared me because i... | self.Anxiety |
I might be moving across the country soon, but I don't think I can do it I know this isn't traditional confession, but i really just need help figuring my life out. By the way, I'm 19 years old and a junior in college.
I've basically lived in the Bay Area in California all my life and I go to college in the same city... | self.offmychest |
How do girls kick you out of their lives so easily ? [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Thankful to anyone who comments to help me I don’t really want to alarm anyone since i probanly wont commit suiside, ive been plotting it for over 10 years now and i don’t have the balls to do it because im scared of the way it might affect my parents. My parents are really nice and loving people, but my mom seems to h... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm a 23 year old depressed, binge eating, body obsessed POS and I just want to give up on life. [deleted] | self.depression |
I'm sad. I'm sad. I know this is because I'm overtired. Instead of taking my mother's good advice to take a shower and go to bed, I want to go out clubbing, get drunk, and hook up. Why is this the only thing that makes me feel better? | self.bipolar |
Does anyone here have experience with sSI? Hey, I'm 20 years old. I'm in school.
I've been treated for GAD and Bipolar since I was 14. Tried dozens of medications, we keep trying new things. My parents are very supportive, but I would really love to ease the financial burden on their end. Does anyone have experience w... | self.bipolar |
NEVER Trust Anyone Ever The only times I've ever gotten hurt is by trusting. And this last time I did was the last. I was told that I would be given a call on whether I got a job or not and I trusted for that to be the case. Then found out a week later they only called the person who got it and then found out I lost an... | self.depression |
I’m going to kill myself. I can’t live with myself anymore. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Why I Refuse To Go To Graduate/Medical School Right Out Of College [NAW] Right off the bat, don't take this as I don't want to go to graduate school at all. I would like to at some point. But I just realized something today that I hadn't understood about myself for multiple years. I had wanted to be a doctor since my s... | self.offmychest |
Just venting I guess Things haven’t been going well for me lately. It all may sound like no big deal. But my mind takes things and makes them bigger than they need to be. Anyways. I graduated high school in May and was actually very excited to study music in College and to begin my long journey in being a music perform... | self.SuicideWatch |
tired of people telling me to "be positive" or "cheer up" I really wish people (friends/family) would recognize that being depressed isn't a controllable thing. If I had the choice, I would choose to be a happy/positive person. I'm trying but can't help it. :( anyone else struggle with this? | self.depression |
I was raped and now my period is late. I think I'm pregnant and I want to die. [removed] | self.SuicideWatch |
Does anyone else feel scared to do anything big because you know you're just going to fail? I was diagnosed with MDD several months ago (although I've had it for years- I just never tried to get help before). After many, many med changes, I think I'm finally on the right one. I feel better overall, and I'm still seein... | self.depression |
Almost tried to kill myself for the fourth time I'm currently in a really bad mixed state. I've left an abusive relationship with a man and moved back in with my abusive and controlling parents. I thought I could stay here and go to university. I might have to give up on that dream. I just feel so... angry and depress... | self.bipolar |
I’m having a hard time making and keeping friends. When I was under 10 years old I had no problem making friends. The problem was we kept moving to different schools, churches, and neighborhoods. After awhile it became harder and harder. It didn’t help that I gained a mentally abusive stepfather at 10. People seem to l... | self.Anxiety |
I want to end this pain... I just want this pain to end. There's no amount of prescription drugs or therapy or love that could heal me. Today, the last of what I had of my soul died. The feeling of loneliness drives me insane. I'm in the darkest of all dark places. I'm a danger to myself because I keep hurting myself p... | self.SuicideWatch |
Hopeless I’ve had anxiety all morning. I’m so tired. I feel really sad. The world just seems to make it clear to me over and over again that I don’t belong in it. When I look up I see a lot of mean and seemingly snotty girls with good men that practically worship them. Meanwhile the only men that treat me well are... | self.SuicideWatch |
Merry Christmas mom, you get a dead kid as a gift The timing on this really couldn't be better it seems like, me ending my life right before Christmas, very...poetic. I really don't mean to hurt anyone but I just can't handle this anymore so I'm checking out for good this time. | self.SuicideWatch |
Health anxiety sufferers: Check out the anxiety guy on YouTube. He has lots of videos specifically on health anxiety. His videos calm me down from really bad panic attacks that's nothing else can calm me down from | self.Anxiety |
Life is getting better on every front, but I just get sadder...I dont know if I'll ever be happy [deleted] | self.depression |
Going to see a psychiatrist for the first time I have been to psychologists before and the one i am currently seeing has referred me to see a psychiatrist tomorrow. I haven't ever been to a psychiatrist before and I was wondering what it's like. | self.Anxiety |
I don't like hanging out with my friends anymore I've always been an introvert. I didn't have many friends until I was in 3rd grade and since then I've kept a tight little handful of friends that I hang out with.
A few years ago I got into an amazing relationship. Things moved super fast and we ended up moving in toge... | self.offmychest |
How do i stop feeling so anxious and angry about seeing the guy who assaulted me [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
i'm scared a couple months ago, i had been crying, getting breakdowns and panic attacks every day. it got bad enough that my uni counsellor referred me to a local mental health service, they sent 2 nurses to my house, then they forced me into a psychiatric hospital because i wasn't safe. i was in there for 20 days. it ... | self.depression |
When all is lost, there’s only more room to gain! Here’s a lil motivation for you folks.
Within the span of my last 5years, major changes & deficits lead to me having major depression (from recent to last recall):
• Aunt fighting cancer
• Grandpa having bone infection & due for major back surgery
• Learning I ... | self.depression |
suicide by freezing to death I just want to go outside and freeze to death.
| self.depression |
You are the university you went to. This is how it is *every time* with my family. They only care about where you graduated from, what your title, and how much money you are making.
I didn't go to the "right" school. My parents said it would be too expensive. However, my sister got in and they let her go.
Bad thing... | self.offmychest |
Anxiety about lower back pain Hello, I'll start off by saying I'm 21 years old and my mom's side of the family has historically had bad backs, and ever since I've been about 15 or 16 my lower back has started having problems sometimes where I get a shooting pain in my very lower spine which is usually triggered from si... | self.Anxiety |
Everyone close to me would be absolutely chuffed if I died Not an opinion but a fact | self.SuicideWatch |
How do i talk to my parents about my Anxiety? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
"Would you rather live as a monster, or die a good man?" This quote from "Shutter Island" has really stuck with me ever since the first time that I saw the movie, now, after being accused of a henious crime that i didn't commit, it's taken on an entirely new meaning. Im a good person, but ill admit im a coward. I would... | self.SuicideWatch |
Did turn out how I thought it would How long until you should be completely over something? I’m at Day 1117 and I’m still not over it.
Just over 5 years ago I was in an abusive relationship. I legitimately thought I’d be stuck in it forever. Then by some fluke I met her online. She lived in a different country. She w... | self.offmychest |
My girlfriend could be pregnant. Hey guys. This has been bugging me for the past few days. My girlfriend could be pregnant. She hasn't had her period in 47 days, and although she is irregular and last year she didn't have her period for 49 days, I can't help but feel paranoid. I felt the same way last year when she was... | self.offmychest |
I'm pretty sure my mom hates me, and objectively speaking I know I deserve it I'll start from the beginning. My dad died at a very early age and my mom was left to take care of me and my sister on her own. All things considered she was a very good parent. She did the work of two parents while bouncing around several di... | self.offmychest |
Ouch. Unexpected hit to the gut, and not really sure what to think. I need some insight on this one To start off, last Thursday's Thanksgiving was incredible.
Started my day off as any other. Woke up around 10:30 in my barracks room, and my buddy drives my suitemate and I to my mom's apartment up the road a few miles... | self.offmychest |
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