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Don't take my niceness as a weakness. I can be extremely patient. I can forgive you hundreds of times for all your mistakes, be it big or small. I can close an eye to your fucked up attitude.
But like everyone else, I do have a limit. So don't test it. | self.offmychest |
Fighting this awful sense of dread I don’t know how to describe it, any more than it’s not sadness, but it’s not exactly numbness either. It’s something—and it’s not pleasant and makes me not want to exist lol. | self.depression |
please if everyone would just go away... and LEAVE ME ALONE!!!! I just wanted everyone to know, I hate you all. I hate everything and everyone. Everyone's problem is so insignificant in the grand scheme of things, nothing matters. Oh wait, how can that be true when we have causality... one thing always leads to another... | self.offmychest |
Deleted my Facebook account I'm tired of feeling sad, and spending all my time attached to my phone. I also stopped using Instagram, my next step is to stop using Reddit. I know that there's people struggling with worst problems than I do, I feel bad for crying everyday about my situation. I don't know what to do, I wa... | self.Anxiety |
A part of my journal entry today, thought you guys might find it relatable/entertaining I've recently started journaling every day to better understand my problems and have a peace of mind. I made an interesting metaphor for my social anxiety that some of you might relate to and wanted to share:
> There's a PC game... | self.Anxiety |
Goddammit. I need to get this out. So i have been making my way through the AmA for Battlefront 2 and i have concluded that ALL THE ANSWERS ARE THE FUCKING SAME THING! "We are looking..." We are working on..." "Early play trial (or whatever the fuck)..."
All the goddamn same work around answers. Nothing concrete and n... | self.offmychest |
Nothing is ever enough, I want to be better. At everything. I want to be better looking. A better artist. A better person. Etc. and its never enough. The more I improve the more I find flaws and when I find flaws I think of myself as bad. It feels like the better I get at something, the worse... ...It makes me feel. I ... | self.depression |
2016-2017 I'm glad to have known you. Or so I thought..
Perhaps I've never found you and that's ok too. | self.offmychest |
What are your Thoughts I'm planning on killing myself on the 16'th. We're having a school party on the 15'th and I was thinking I'm going to do it on midnight after the party, so the 16'th it is. I'm also writing down everything so I can leave behind a memory and I was wondering where to post it
Edit: for example as a... | self.depression |
So many thoughts racing in my head... Hello everyone...
Warning: This will not be coherent typing for the most part, I’m just typing as I’m thinking. My apologies.
I’m a 19 year old college student currently in his sophomore year. This semester has been the hardest. It started off OK, but then I had a mental breakdo... | self.SuicideWatch |
apathy! i used to have severe anxiety and depression but lately its been cooled down but in its place apathy has developed i feel nothing majority of the time and im not interested in anyone or anything i try but i feel nothing, i try talking to people but i usually loose interest and concentration with in the first 5 ... | self.Anxiety |
I just did my laundry and I just finished hanging them.
...still have like 3 more loads to place in but I'll wait until this one dries first.
Haven't done any laundry (or anything applaudable) for months. am a bit proud for doing this minuscule day to day thing. yay. | self.depression |
had a bad sudden anxiety attack earlier, from something stupid :( - is there anything you can do when you feel a bad spiral of anxiety coming on? So I was doing pretty well today until I went to a store at 6 o clock, and unbeknownst to me it closed right at 6 o clock, I didn't know. When I got there the sign said open ... | self.Anxiety |
I'm so empathic that it's literally killing me Empathy has caused me to form fake friendships where people depend on me. I can't end them and now I'm stuck. I don't have time for myself anymore.
Empathy makes me want to throw up every time my grandparents show signs of declining health, and the shame that they feel fo... | self.SuicideWatch |
How can I help a friend whose life seems to be spiraling? [deleted] | self.depression |
I feel as though no one loves me, even though I know that my family really does. I can't even hold a conversation with people who truly and deeply love me. I can't even stand to look them in the eyes and tell them anything. I just listen and nod, while they wait for me to say something, but nothing ever comes out. I us... | self.depression |
I'm alone and I don't know what to do. I'm a bit drunk, sitting in a corner of a NYC bar writing this post.
To start it all, I'll try and describe my current feelings. I feel like my heart is shrinking inaide my chest, like I need to rip it out with my own hands. Im alone.
I grew up in a religious family, going to a... | self.offmychest |
I don't know what to do anymore My life has become an meaningless and emotionless vessel that wanders through life aimlessly in search of something. I used to know what I was searching for but now, I can't think of anything. I have friends but everytime I see them, it's not the same. It's not really that fun anymore. I... | self.depression |
Why do i feel misunderstood in Hello r/depression, i'm a 15 year-old 9th-grader living in Copenhagen, Denmark.
I've grown up with possibly the best family relations i could ever want. I have a little sister and brother whom i care and take responsibility for, my parents love each other very much, and support whatever ... | self.depression |
I didn't know where to post this, but I figured this would be the most accepting sub. I am already committed to committing, so don't waste your time talking me out.
I need advice. I have fairly obvious self harm scars on my thighs, but my family does not know. I am killing myself on the 26th, but I need to know how I ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Living the best life ive ever lived, yet more depressed than ever [deleted] | self.depression |
Help! My problem might sound a bit silly to you, but it's really bothering me! [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Hallucinogenics to treat depression? Has anyone ever tried this method and had any success with it? | self.depression |
No will to live. I don't do anything anymore, don't enjoy anything, nobody speaks to me, I'm not really important to anyone, I get close to killing myself but not enough to really do it. | self.SuicideWatch |
SO many people are high functioning and rational, but are completely delusional in their love life.. Why is it so hard to find someone normal, and why do movies glorify romantic insanity?? I've dated the weirdest people who look good on paper. Well educated, supportive network of friends and family who can all vouch fo... | self.offmychest |
I don’t understand Why we are forced to stay alive. If we are always hurting, always sad, always lost or alone wouldn’t it be kinder to let us go? | self.SuicideWatch |
Waiting for the weekend There’s nothing left that will ever make me happy. I’ve been struggling for years and the last six months I have done nothing of value. I want to end it this weekend. | self.SuicideWatch |
question on antidepressant based mania Hey BPReddit. long time no see.
things have been okay, until they haven't. I had issues with severe depression where nothing was really helping. my doc decided it would be best to switch me back to zoloft (which causes some daytime hypomania)
yep, still happens and I love that ... | self.bipolar |
Forgetting to talk to people Hi, I used to be a lurker on this sub for about five months on an old account. I wanted to post this to ask if anyone else has been feeling anxious about talking to people and actively avoiding texting friends. I've been an anxious person for most of my life, but it's not really gotten to t... | self.Anxiety |
I have plans to kill myself My life is ruined beyond repair. If things are bad for you don’t wait to get help. I never got help. If you have friends don’t ignore them or avoid them. You’ll lose them without work and they’re very precious. I haven’t had a friend to talk to for 7 years now because I didn’t put in any wo... | self.SuicideWatch |
Life is like a whirlpool. I know what its like out of it just cannot fight getting sucked in fast enough. First time ever discussing this and quite frankly inspired after reading so many other posts here. The following is non drafted so its going to be a vomit of words likely making no sense or having no purpose.
Im ... | self.depression |
Deleted messenger and deactivated Facebook account. Not that it matters, nobody would text me or look for me anyway. So might as well free up some space to download a couple of games.
Sick of everything and all the pointless/stupid chit-chatting or seeing how other people have fun, go places, be together with their sig... | self.depression |
Issues with waking up every morning I [F22] am a grad student living abroad and I have been having some serious issues with getting up everyday. I have depression and some mornings I am able to get moving and go to classes but other times it feels like I can't even turn my head to turn off the alarm.
Has anyone found... | self.depression |
Painful legs and dizziness for a week- i want my life back! [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
i gave up on basically everything months ago, i’m just not dead yet hey, for the time that i’m still on this earth i would like to talk to someone, i’m suicidal all the time and i’m going to die soon and i’m worried what will happen after my death. i will be grateful for at least one person to respond x | self.SuicideWatch |
Anyone able to talk? It’s 2:22 am and just seems as if my eyes and mind won’t shut off. I’m only slowly falling tired but my head still is full with thoughts. | self.Anxiety |
Happy New Year Probably no one will care about this post but, I hope everyone gets better this year, or improved, if anything. Remember, as long as you're still alive, you can always get better, but once your gone, your gone. Don't even tell me nothing will improve, because even a loser like me, who's gone through as m... | self.SuicideWatch |
It all just keeps getting worse I am useless. I can't finish the last paper I have for school and the semesters almost at an end. Met yet another guy who's happy to act like we're dating but won't actually date me. I feel so worthless and unloveable. I lash out at everyone. I say incredibly idiotic shit all the time.
I... | self.SuicideWatch |
I’m confused One minute I remember my cat being dead and the next I don’t know where she is as though I’m denying the fact that she’s dead. I woke up this morning and I told my mom that I didn’t know where she was. Of course, she didn’t believe me. Even though I was crying hysterically, she chose not to believe it. Has... | self.depression |
Abilify maintena not covered by insurance? Advice please. Hello. I am trying to help a friend who has issues with regularly taking pills and therefore never manages to take them long enough for them to start working. Remembers a few days here and there only.
I found out about ability maintena but it’s very expensive ... | self.bipolar |
Life is boring Life as I live slowly gets more and more sad and depressing im 14 and I stopped going to school because I've been so depressed, I know, "you're just a stupid teen, grow up", "you'll overcome this eventually you're going through puberty". I've been depressed for a while, I have no diagnosis but i can feel... | self.SuicideWatch |
I can’t stop fucking up. I just can’t, I can’t do anything but hurt the people I care for and fuck up. I hate that I’m like this. | self.depression |
I need help I'm fully ready and asking for help, I'm screaming for it. I'm incapable of doing anything, everything is so fucking hard. I can't feed myself or wash myself or go to sleep or wake up or do work or go outside everything is so hard. Why is it so hard to get help? I'm rotting away here while everyone else goe... | self.depression |
Oh boy I can't act straight rn i feel... jarred Today was my second first day of gym(first time 2 months ago gym session was stopped due to an unintended 4month break).
[16M]Background:
**1:** im underweight AF, and when I checked my weight today, i am even lighter than what I used to be 6 months ago :/ I might have ... | self.offmychest |
Does your Anxiety Ever Just Leave You Exhausted? Today was a busy day for me and my anxiety followed me like a shadow. I am home safe and sound but I just feel like I went 3 rounds with Mike Tyson. | self.Anxiety |
An elegant way to keep track of risks in every day life wealth, health, relationships, career decisions/choices often make me stop and wonder...*what if?* This uncertainty causes anxiety, paralyses decision making, triggers endless rumination, insomnia, and often gets me stuck. Different people have different needs of ... | self.Anxiety |
Does lithium get better with time? Cause I don’t feel like doing anything! I’m on 1200mg of lithium and it makes me feel like I’m not good at all. No passion. No desire. I just suck. What is painful is I do not have bipolar symptoms to worry about that this is currently treating, they want me on this as maintenance... | self.bipolar |
I am so stressed I can't sleep I accepted a job offer last Thursday and signed a lease on the same day. I filled out my hiring paperwork (not an offer letter) on Friday and sent it in. I was told to email the lady who hired me when I did so, and I did, and have yet to hear back from her.
I called at 3:30 today to ask... | self.Anxiety |
DDLC and the straw that broke the camel's back [deleted] | self.depression |
Im gonna do it today
I don’t know why I’m writing this here. I guess it feels good to have someone listen. I’m going to kill myself. I’m almost certain of that. And I’m sorry. I’m broken.
I don’t think I’m looking to be talked out of it, i don’t know what I’m looking for. Maybe just to explain it and to have someone u... | self.SuicideWatch |
Lamictal and elusive feelings? The brief precursor info is that I was started on Lamictal a few months ago for suspected bipolar 2. I am now on 200mg/day and thought it a fairy godmother for making my anxiety and insomnia all but disappear. I still have depressive episodes but they are much easier to get myself out of.... | self.bipolar |
Anyone else have imposter syndrome when it comes to their depression? I usually see stories on Reddit about people with severe cases of depression; they talk about how hard it is to do anything or how they can't get out of bed for hours, or how they are in constant agony. And I always feel like shit when reading these ... | self.depression |
First ever post not too sure how this works [deleted] | self.depression |
Everything fucking sucks Everything fucking sucks. I got a new boss who's an asshole. My relationship with my girlfriend has been going downhill for a while. I love her but I can't remember the last time I felt like I was in love with her if that makes sense. She's been feeling the same way, and I'm not sure we'll make... | self.offmychest |
Stopping escitalopram Im stopping taking my escitalopram I've spoken to my gp who said take it on alt days for a week then stop, which I've done.
It's been a few days with no tablets and I'm starting to get some withdrawal side effects, electric shock type sensations, wobbly legs. I'm feeling a bit more irritable and e... | self.depression |
How do I get my mind off of my anxiety? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I'm jumping to my death To whom who may read this, I want to say goodbye. I hope you can find some joy in your life. I hope that you get want to want, I hope you achieve your goals.
I'm just tired of everything now, same shit everyday. I'm sort of scared because I don't know what to expect. I've only been on this plan... | self.SuicideWatch |
Mental Illness I’ve known there was something wrong with my mental health for a long time, my family moved could see it, friends could see it, but I was in denial and always assured them that I was fine, everything was fine. I didn’t want to be a “depressed millennial” like so many others.
Where do I begin?
I guess... | self.offmychest |
Work Just standing here and I can't help but feel empty. | self.depression |
Umm hi I'm sort of at the end of my chain. I don't need supportive posts about how life is worth it. I'm not going through a phase. I've been barely avoiding ending everything for 7 years, and it gets harder by the day. This is just a last shot at maybe....I don't even know what. But I don't need cheering up. I d... | self.SuicideWatch |
Anyone else loose a palpable sense of reality and everything feels like a dream? Everything around me is just fading and it feels like soon I'm going to be the only thing that exists floating around in an endless nothing. | self.depression |
Seeking advice on how to support partner with education/Career-related anxiety issues and depression without burning myself out? *First, let me apologize for the crazy wall of text this happened to become. This is pretty much all I think about from when I wake up in the morning to when I go to bed at night so I guess I... | self.Anxiety |
Claustrophobia Lately I’ve been feeling very claustrophobic. Yesterday I was in the car with my boyfriend and started feeling it, I began screaming and scratching at my own face leaving marks until he stopped the car and let me out. Once I was out I felt like a weight had been pulled off of me. Also when I came home af... | self.Anxiety |
It hurts to exist. Don't get me wrong, I'm not suicidal. I'm far too cowardly to actually kill myself. I'm just tired of existing. I just wish there was some way I could just stop existing, without actually having to kill myself. I'm sad all the time, and I'm sick of it. I'm sick of pretending to be okay, because if I ... | self.depression |
I've decided. I've decided to save up for a gun just to have so whenever I completely break and know that there's nothing there in this life. I'll have my escape.. I don't know when it'll happen. Maybe I can hold on for a few more years or I'll break when I get it. I'm just so tired of this feeling.. I'm so tired of no... | self.SuicideWatch |
Does anyone enjoy mundane things while manic? I haven’t been formally diagnosed, but I strongly suspect I am bipolar and I’ll be talking to someone about it soon. That being said, I wanted to know if anyone who has been diagnosed can relate to what I’m experiencing. During the times that I think I’m manic, I enjoy thin... | self.bipolar |
How to calm hypersexuality and over eating during hypomania? I think I had too much caffeine recently and tipped into hypomania. I want to eat and fuck everything all the time. How do I wind down these two symptoms? | self.bipolar |
Ive gone from waking up next to the love of my life for 4 years, to being left alone and forgetting the sound of my own voice by monday morning - all in the space of about a week and i hate it. Everything beautiful in this world seems so drained. [deleted] | self.depression |
You ruined my life I remember waking up the first time you were inside of me. I trusted you. I told you. all about my family, my problems, my insecurities. I let you be a part of my life. That was my fault. I let you get to me. We had sex before, but it was only because you pushed me to say yes. It was consensual. This... | self.offmychest |
I (21F) hooked up with friend (21F) and accidentally helped her cheat TL;DR I accidentally helped my close friend cheat on her boyfriend and now I don't want to stop
I feel so incredibly guilty. I am lesbian, and my friend is straight, but has been telling me lately she really wants to try hooking up with a woman for ... | self.offmychest |
Learning ancient history is making me angry I've recently taken up learning about ancient history as it's a topic I've always been interested in. I'm especially interested in the history of ancient Mesopotamia and the more I read about it, the more upset I get about the whole situation in the Middle-east. Here we have ... | self.offmychest |
I'm starting Therapy tomorrow and I'm terrified I hate talking about everything with other people, but idk if I'll be able to even speak to a random stranger. I know it helps people and that's the only reason I'm going, but I have no idea what I'm going to end up doing. This has already been a really really rough week ... | self.depression |
Had my first therapy appointment in two years today.. Came in for \(what I figured was\) anxiety, and by the end of the appointment she said,
"I don't think you're anxious. You're really sad."
Wake up call for sure. Has anyone had something similar happen? | self.depression |
Forgiveness Have you forgiven someone who’s done the unforgivable? Has it worked for you?
I’ve excommunicated everyone who’s committed a serious offense against me by default, but they always stalk me this time of year like clockwork. Every Christmas it’s the same old narcissistic sob story, “I’ve changed”. Indeed, yo... | self.depression |
I should get an award each time I get out of bed The mental and physical bullshit I have to go through to do this and not get kicked out of school is just fucking outstanding | self.depression |
What Happened I think what happened to me is that my very emotions themselves died, my empathy itself. I had so much emotional pain from the warzone that was my marriage, I just didn't know how to handle it, how to cope. So I did the only thing I could, I went into hiding.
In hiding, I still couldn't handle the emotio... | self.offmychest |
Started New Job Today I've been out of work for almost 4 months now. I've been keeping busy by playing video games and doing drugs, being alone all most everyday. Since last week, I have gotten sober and quit smoking. I feel so much better now that I'm not out of my mind all day. I'm still very lonely but after my fir... | self.depression |
Needing some advice For the past 2 years and so I'm well convinced that I was falling into depression mainly due to family issues.
Because of this it effected my studies and I had to drop out of university.
Since then i feel like there was a spike in which it started to effect me physically and moreso mentallu( ive... | self.depression |
You made it another year If nothing else, here's to that. | self.depression |
Does anyone else sleep with a stuffed animal? I started sleeping with a stuffed animal a little over a year ago because I started having trouble going to sleep do to my anxiety. I am 21, and still feel weird about sleeping with my dragon or Wonder Women bear every night. I now can't sleep without a stuffed animal, but ... | self.Anxiety |
My dad called me a disgusting pig when I was 12, he thought I didn't hear him. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
How do i stop feeling like i want to die I am just a burden to everyone i meet, half of my friendships are hinged on the fact that i want to die and my friends are just nice people who dont want to feel like my blood is on their hands, I do not know how to be normal and how to be happy, I fail at most things i do and t... | self.SuicideWatch |
False Hope I know its false hope. Its like a window to happiness. I feel good thinking about it. But the problem is, i know it won't ever come true. And i know that when this hope is truly lost, i will really go back and go even deeper below where i was before. PLEASE HELP ME! My mind keeps pursuing me to love this fal... | self.depression |
Ironic. Isn't it ironic that the guy who helped pull at least 6 people out of suicide has no one to listen to his cry for help? Isn't it ironic that the person who spends so much time voluntarily counseling people online has no one to go to? Isn't it ironic that no one cares and no one will notice him being gone?
I c... | self.SuicideWatch |
Does anyone else wish they could trade out their family for a new one? I'm 17M.
I always go into a deep depression around this time of year thinking about what could have been. I loved my grandparents, but both have passed away, and my living family members are selfish and abusive individuals. My step mom has always h... | self.depression |
Trying to let go Tried shooting myself back in college - couldn't find the key for the trigger lock.
Stabbed myself in the stomach with an 8" knife around graduation time, got surgery and a nice scar.
Poisoned myself in grad school, but I took too much and threw up all night.
I'm so freaking tired. Success isn't ha... | self.SuicideWatch |
Struggling My girlfriend died from suicide 4 weeks ago today. Each day has become more difficult not to want to kill myself. I am going to therapy, breavment groups, talking to friends, but nothing is helping. I received a letter today from a coworker who's worried about me. It was beautifully written, containing p... | self.SuicideWatch |
Those thinking of taking SAM-e be careful. I took a total of 6 pills(200mg) in as many days and quit cold turkey because they were making me nauseated and you cant cut the pills to taper off.
I am going through increased anxiety, more than I had to begin with, increased depression, intrusive thoughts, restlessness and... | self.Anxiety |
How old are you and how long are you depressed? I am 14, about 2 years now. | self.depression |
Do you get approached a lot by strangers? what do you do? I have increasing social anxiety and GAD after tapering off benzos and other prescribed anxiety meds. I am so often approached by strangers, almost once per outing (example: I went to Whole Foods today. A worker was stocking the shelves right next to me & I ... | self.Anxiety |
How to tell the difference between anxiety and panic attack? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Now is the time of year to be Scrooge I want everything to do with you. I need you in my life like a dog needs at least a fake plastic bone to feel alive and welcome with. I want to sing crappy songs with you, and pretend that you're the only one who would ever fit me the right away. I want your skin to melt onto mine ... | self.offmychest |
kindness is a curse i've been too kind and sensetive all my life. and in the end i always get hurt.
its something people take advantage of in me, people know i will never say no to them. "do you have this?" "can i borrow money?" i just say okay and never get a thank you or paid back. then the sensitivity comes in and... | self.offmychest |
I'm done I read over some posts to see if anyone felt the same way I do, I really don't empathize with the other posters here. If you've, for some reason read through other posts here and don't find the answers you're looking for, I'm sorry you suffer the way you do and I sympathize deeply with you. I want you to kno... | self.SuicideWatch |
No one can love a sad girl My ex told me all I did was bitch when i laid there with my heart on my sleeve, with a knife in my hand, with the end on my mind.
My current told me I’m always depressed. He can’t give me the attention I deserve.
They are right maybe there is no love out there for a sad girl, but at least I... | self.depression |
I'm like, "Let's see how this year wants to fuck me". How did you start into this unnecessary construct of time. | self.depression |
What is the difference between a depressed person and a whiny bitch? Do depressed people tend to appear to others as a "whiny, lazy, underachiever who just needs to try harder" or is there no difference at all.
I have known depressed people who don't seem to want help or to do anything about it.
Usually when things ... | self.depression |
I think it's about time I made another attempt. It's been 3 years since my last serious attempt at suicide. Since then I've only been tolerating life, and putting it off until I found a reasonable way to finish it. Now perilously close to not caring anymore. I need this, I'm exhausted day in and day out. And my unend... | self.SuicideWatch |
Considering prostitution and also a garbage sibling. This isn't an advertisement but it is a fucking frustrating situation. One that requires a throwaway account because my sister and I know each other's main accounts.
Anyway, I've helped my sister out with bills in the past few months and I just looked at my finance... | self.offmychest |
Does anyone else just feel "neutral"? I know people commonly say they feel *numb*, but I think my experience of life most of the time is different than this (or maybe it's not). I go through my day doing normal things - making food, tidying up, going on the internet; I laugh at something funny, smile at something cute,... | self.depression |
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