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Is this level of memory loss normal? -Forgetting my surroundings, getting lost in familiar places such as my neighborhood
-Inability to come up with a sentence on the spot, when I used to be able to carry a conversation clearly years ago (with this comes way too much stuttering and slurred speech)
-Never aware of the d... | self.depression |
Anyone else have lingering side effects after stopping Latuda? I’m super sensitive to medication, and had suicidal thoughts and super high anxiety, including full-on anxiety attacks, from only 11 days or so of Latuda, 20mg. I stopped almost two weeks ago, and am still crying at work, panicking all the time, and having ... | self.bipolar |
My Existence Bothers Me I am bugged and irritated by me being a real thing. I want to separate myself from myself. I do not feel in line with myself or any aspects of my life. This sounds vague cause it’s hard to explain, but at the moment I am motionless | self.SuicideWatch |
801 days left. Made a promise back when I was 17 that I wouldn't kill myself until I was 30. Only 801 days left to find a reason to live. I could go into all the crippling mental illness I had since I was 7 but there's no reason. I will die and no one will ever know even a 1% of what I have suffered cause of a chemical... | self.depression |
I'm not as antisocial as they think I am First off let me say this-I am a loner by nature. I am happily married and have an amazing family. But I've always been aloof. Always. As a teenager and young adult I had 1 good friend she went to church with me and she was 15 years older than me. More like a big sister. She bec... | self.offmychest |
I love her I think she loves me too, in her own way. But never like I love her. I want to have her as a woman, but there are so many reasons it will never be. Distance, religion, not to mention age. But I still love her. I'll never tell her so I tell her here. I love you Morgan. | self.offmychest |
So I will just post my problems and questions -I am a bitter man
-I hate my life
-I worry so much about the future
-Everytime I try to prove something to myself or prove others wrong I fail
-I don't have perspectives
-I'm lonely
-I'm broken
-I have sad attitude for my entire live
How to live with these problems, how t... | self.depression |
I just concluded I'm gay, and I can't tell anyone I've been unsure (or at least non-accepting) of being gay for about 8 years (I'm 23).
Last night, my parents were out and I decided to give Grindr a go. I met a fantastic guy on there, and I went over to his house - I'd told him I was exploring and I was only really i... | self.offmychest |
Every damn year. Screw you Black Friday shoppers. The sales are online. The sales will be on through Christmas. The retail workers that you cuss out, trample on, spit at... ARE PEOPLE THAT DON’T DESERVE TO BE TREATED LIKE THIRD CLASS CITIZENS SO YOU CAN SAVE 35¢ ON A WASHCLOTH!!!! Be respectful. Use what you learned in... | self.offmychest |
Losing weight with Depression is so fucking hard. What's worse is watching it creep up and feeling helpless. | self.depression |
Anyone else get even worse around New Year's Eve? [deleted] | self.depression |
I have knowledge and talent but they are all useless Whenever I have the motivation, I try to put whatever I have into work and create something, only to face disappointment. The world is cruel and I don't deserve to live | self.depression |
I break my own heart sometimes i feel like i break my own heart because i expect, or maybe just hope that people are like me. I care so much, and while i don't fall in love easily sometimes i hope and i wish and i pray harder than I've ever hoped and wish and prayed that someone would fall in love with me and i could ... | self.offmychest |
scared and depressed first of all sorry for my bad english
i really think there is something wrong with me, i am so scared and depressed.
i am scared of death, you basically lose everything, friends, family, and you dont even know if there is afterlife or not, i feel so useless
im just going to live my life, do nothin... | self.depression |
Is 21 too late to 'get' something? The sort of thing so basic yet profound that it has permeated your whole history with total shame and self-loathing? Can you treat another person so badly that you lose your right to exist? Is progress for the human race possible? Is shame something that you should allow to end your... | self.SuicideWatch |
How does everyone cope with the holidays? Do they cause you stress? Affect your mood? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Insight into myself, and my mood patterns I'm starting to realize that while I am certainly ultradian cycling, my episodes also tend to last longer than just a few days... The past few weeks of mood charting have shown that they do last a week, two weeks, and this most recent mood episode I've been going through has al... | self.bipolar |
i am reaching into the void please pm me lmao i'm so goshdarn lonely and depressed it would be greatly appreciated hahahahaha thx | self.depression |
Suicide = Haram. Drugs = Haram Locked in this stupid world. | self.SuicideWatch |
Sometimes, I feel like my depression is my only true friend. A toxic friend, but a friend nonetheless. [deleted] | self.depression |
Trigger warning self harm! Cut myself again today, nothing serious. Not trying to kill myself, just want to control at least one thing I feel. It's so hard dealing with day to day life, knowing that I'm too ill to work but can't afford not to. The stress and pressure is unbearable. I need to rest, I need to recover, I ... | self.bipolar |
Too depressed to do anything... I've always been depressed ever since i could remember, But this is the worse i have ever felt.
I use to be a heavy gamer, addicted to gaming, i use to love drawing, and writing and reading aswell. But i can barely touch a videogame now, i went from playing videogames all day to practic... | self.depression |
*sigh* Hello once again.
Things aren't better.
I feel like they should be. | self.depression |
...well fuck i'm 17 and i just got out of my second stint in inpatient therapy. that makes two months of my life wasted in hospital. but heres the real kicker: i feel the exact same as i did before i was admitted! so not only have i drained my parents financially and emotionally, i have also failed to recover. the one ... | self.depression |
I can't believe school is tomorrow, deadly anxiety overdrive. 💣 I can't word this. I'll try.
School tomorrow, I wish I could die. Anxiety. It hurts, it is like a punch. I spend 90 percent of my day thinking of my peers opinions. I can't live like this, should they find me dead? I like guns, self harm sucks because it... | self.SuicideWatch |
Reading posts here made me realize how cruel people are I always go to suicidewatch and depression community, i already read countless stories, all of them made me sad, pinched my heart and some made me cry. Why people have to be cruel to those people? I wish everyone just want nice things and peace. | self.SuicideWatch |
I hate my life but I'm not allowed to complain. I have a good family, I recently scored an internship for an IT position at a big company, and I am in a good spot financially. Sounds great right? Well no. Honestly I hate my life. It mainly comes from having an extremely low self image and insecurity. I'm out of shape, ... | self.depression |
Does anyone else have a weird thing you HAVE to do or else your day is ruined? E.g. For me, I HAVE to wake up early or I feel like a slob and it affects me all day. It's kind of extreme. If I wake up with the sunrise, it's probably going to be a great day. I'm going to go work out. I'm going to eat healthy and cook mos... | self.depression |
Has a long flight (12+ hours) ever triggered an episode for you? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
About to wean off all medications to get pregnant. My husband and I are about to start trying for our first kid. But in order to do so I have to be off all of all my current medications. I take Lamotragine, Ambien and Abilify. Does anyone have experience coming off of Lamotragine or Abilify?
I've begun to wean myself ... | self.bipolar |
Please help me. I have so many things wrong with me. Anorexia, dyslexia, major depression and more. Every single day I cut because I need relief. It’s not school related it’s my family. They treat me like such shit and it’s awful. My mother just cares about me staying thin and healthy and making sure I eat nothing unhe... | self.SuicideWatch |
After breaking up, I can't watch TV without getting jealous and lonely. I've been having some thoughts lately and don't know where to vent them. I'm a little drunk. I thought I might post here to at least write the thoughts out. I broke up with my GF of 2 years a few months ago, and it was less than amicable. Now I fin... | self.offmychest |
Mood episode now My meeting with my director went good. I was glad I went in person. I think all of the adrenaline caused me to now have the start of a mood episode. I was up all night.
I don’t know if I told you guys but I joined weight watchers. I having a very hard time with food today. I really don’t want to cele... | self.bipolar |
I miss her, but I'm afraid I'll push her away if I talk to her... I dearly miss my best friend. She was such a huge part of my life, then out of nowhere, we had to live as though we hadn't just known each other for 1.5 years, and were together for 9 months within that period.
For a long time, it felt like I was missin... | self.offmychest |
I hate myself I am just not coping. I have no self worth and last time I let my walls down and let a guy in, he crushed my heart. So when I met Jake in December last year I was terrified. He knew my experience and wanted to make me happy. Said he wanted to have me in his life. Then said he was uncertain. But would sti... | self.Anxiety |
Why I cry at night Why I cry at night
My heart is broken beyond repair
I don't recognize myself in the mirror
Alone I walk with no one who cares
Sitting in a crowd yet invisible
Why I cry at night
When all hope has faded
Internet dreaming of a easy way out
Trying to stay strong
Friends are gone never looking back
... | self.depression |
Phone call I answered the phone at work with the usual greeting, and used my name. The guy on the phone was breathing kinda funny and making a weird noise, I didn't realise at first what was happening. He asked if we would print pictures of him "squirting all over the phone" and that's when I hung up. I feel so stupid ... | self.offmychest |
depriving ones self of self pleasure This isn't going to be a long post just putting it out there. So, I've been having a bad go at it in life despite my current position in life being better than it was a year ago. However, due to manic depression and what I feel is a bad job performance output I've been forgoing mast... | self.depression |
Life Insurance UPDATE So I found out the reason I can't get it is because of a suicide attempt less than 5 years ago. After 5 years they stop asking if you've tried in "the last 5 years". Then they said they'd consider me. So I guess my husband is screwed until 2019. | self.bipolar |
Sweating Hi friends.
I suffer from anxiety/depression and Irritable Bowel Syndrome and I have problems with my sweating. It's something that drives me crazy. My sweating body parts are my feet and my armpits and the latter is where my problem focus.
When I wear something tight (like a shirt, a sweater) I always have ... | self.Anxiety |
Boring I think I'm destined to live a boring life forever and it's because of this stupid illness that won't let me do anything or be anything. I hate my brain. | self.depression |
26 [m] i am really distressed by my girlfriend's behavior and i know i wont leave her. I feel like my only way out is suicide [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Does anyone else get struck by existential dread? I don't know if "normal" people suffer from this. Probably not. But even in the rare moments that I am happy such as reaching 100% in a game (yes, my life really is that sad) I start thinking why am I here? Is this all there is to life? We wake up everyday and go to the... | self.depression |
Does anyone else get anxiety because your brain isn’t up to speed? I know this is weird but ever since my manic episode I now experience anxiety. I’ve never had anxiety in my life. Most of my anxiety is because my brain isn’t as quick or witty as it used to be and my memory is pretty shitty all the sudden. I sit here i... | self.bipolar |
Scared of Visa Interview Tomorrow, Anxiety. Help!! I am applying for a work visa at the border tomorrow, there is an interview, I am very stressed and anxious right now. Can anyone suggest ways I can mentally control the stress! | self.Anxiety |
I just need to know your truly answer How can you live with yourself knowing that right now some girl is molested, one boy dies of cancer, another one is very hungry, another one has one parent who is dying and so on. Isn't this very selfish of you? And if you ignore it, why? Why do you think your happiness is more imp... | self.SuicideWatch |
My mom and dad despise each other This year I'm going to graduate with my associates degree and while I'm excited I'm not looking forward to my dad and stepmom coming to celebrate. I love my stepmom (she's probably the most sane person in my family). However every time my parents are in the same room together everythin... | self.offmychest |
I'm a pathetic failure I'm 21 in May and my parents where paying for my school with my Dad's GI bill and I didn't even finish a fucking semester before I dropped out. I had a great opportunity and I didn't take advantage of it because I'm so fucking lazy and stupid. How many kids dream of going to college debt free? So... | self.depression |
when should you admit yourself into an inpatient facility? i recently attempted suicide maybe a month ago and was dismissed for having borderline personality disorder and “attention seeking” but i can’t go through a single day without seriously having to hold myself back from attempting again and i feel like i could ke... | self.SuicideWatch |
No one gets me I constantly feel lonely and like no one gets me.
It sucks. I can't talk to my friends about how I feel because I know they won't understand. I love being with my friends and I hate being alone, but at the same time I *feel* lonely even with my friends. I just always feel disconnected and different from... | self.depression |
I Feel Old and Ugly I turn 53 in a few weeks. I feel like I have nothing left to look forward to in life. My kids are getting older and don’t really need me anymore, my body aches all the time and when I look in the mirror I see an aging, tired face. I’m getting old.
I always get a kick out of those posters to this f... | self.depression |
Last night I wrote a suicide letter Last night I wrote a suicide note to my family. When I’ve gone through suicidal ideation periods before, I have never been able to write a suicide letter because guilt from the thought of what it would do to my family absolutely crushed me. But last night was different. I wrote an en... | self.SuicideWatch |
All I want For Christmas Is To Die What a selfish statement that is I know. But, there is not much more I can take. I have already ruined my career and almost killed myself drinking but for whatever reason the good lord above sought fit to keep me here on this earth. He actually had me arrested in 2013 for a DUI 3rd, I... | self.SuicideWatch |
Tired of being the good guy I'm always the one who is there for people when they need help. I would bend over backwards to help people close to me and even some that I'm not close too. But when I need help nobody is around, nobody will come to help me. Nobody really cares about me and I'm tired of going through life al... | self.SuicideWatch |
Feeling a bit better lately yeet My depression is finally getting a little better after all these years so hey that's good I guess but then again I get "better" a lot and can't tell if it's gonna last but still | self.depression |
And the clouds roll in again I had a great three weeks. No depression, fully aware and involved and motivated. I knew it would only last for so long. But I tried to push that thought aside and enjoy the mania while it lasted.
Well, the clouds rolled in on Sunday and I slept most of the day. I tried to say “fuck this, ... | self.depression |
Prolly gonna kill myself soon Basically the title. I'm a 22 y/o dude in college and I honestly just feel like giving up on my life and killing myself.
I haven't been in an actual relationship since I was 16. I ended up being a shut-in for my junior and senior years in high school, which cost me most of my friends ... | self.offmychest |
Done some fucked extremely fucked shit in the past. Done trying. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Am I stupid for wanting help?? I feel like my depression is me overreacting... even though i know its not. I feel stupid seeking treatment. I have somehow held my job, but I have no quality to life. I am doing horrible in school (im 18), but somehow I have held my job which makes me feel like my depression isnt bad eno... | self.depression |
Mom found out, then told my dad Currently in grad school and my mom came to be with me for a surgery. Pre-op nurse mentioned lamictal, which I no longer take, while mom was in the room and I just play it off. After the nurse leaves, my mom asks me why I take that, and I tell her I was diagnosed with BPD and that I'm ... | self.bipolar |
The difference a year makes This time last year, I was overweight, hated my job, hated myself, depressed and lonely
Now, I’m still overweight, but have a job I love, feel better about myself and have a boyfriend that I can’t believe is with me.
Looking back at the past year, I am so happy I’m no longer in that place ... | self.offmychest |
Selt perpetuated anxiety loop rant I moved back home last year after having been in a long term relationship of 4 and a half years, all through college. She cheated on me, we had a dysfunctional dynamic, she was manic depressive - night after night I spent trying to comfort her in attempts to help her recover her from ... | self.Anxiety |
Apparently I've done nothing right in my life I've worked hard, tried to help others, given of myself wholeheartedly, struggled with my demons, struggled against injustice, tried to reach outside my comfort zone, sought help, been medicated...all of it. Yet here I am alone and unloved, not even family by my side, and c... | self.SuicideWatch |
Just got on my old meds after being off of them for three years. Go me. Title says it all. Long story short, I was on meds, they ran out, I didn't have the money to get back on them and ended up just blowing it off and making excuses, telling myself I "didn't really need them," etc. Well, I ended up really depressed, a... | self.depression |
How to deal with medication making me constantly lethargic? I've had to start taking seroquel after a long time off of it. I forgot how tired it made me all the time. I'm on a low dose, so I can't get it cut it down any more.
It makes me so tired and lethargic. I find it hard to get out of bed and usually oversleep. ... | self.bipolar |
This #metoo stuff is making me want to apologize to somebody I was a creep towards. I didn't behave like I should have towards that person.
I didn't do those horrifically illegal things..rape or molest or do what Louis CK did...but I still am not feeling right with myself. Truthfully, the person who I was a creep tow... | self.offmychest |
i just learned that local murder victim was my friend i just cant believe that this would happen. someone found her lifeless body beat up in streets. i feel so weak and full of hate i wish i could go back in time and give my life to let her live | self.depression |
My birthday’s coming up and i feel so alone 19th birthdays are kind of a big thing in Ontario because its the legal drinking age, so pretty much everyone goes out and has fun with their friends.
I never really had actual friends in high school, and being the awkward anxious fuck that i am, I haven’t been able to make ... | self.offmychest |
I think I have an eating disorder. Every time i look at myself i can’t stand it. i see things that weren’t there before. i want to so badly starve it out. To rip that part of me that hates me out. Lately i’ve been feeling like I hate food. I hate eating. It sounds sick but being hungry is a game to me and I don’t know ... | self.offmychest |
Depressed and need to vent I just need some where to vent. I hate life so much. I can never seem to do anything right, every time i make a little progress to being happy something happens and it is back to square one. It seems every few days all i want is for everything to go away and for me to no longer exist. Current... | self.depression |
Crushing on my coworker but I'm starting to feel like it's a lost cause. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Everything in the world seems bland and i don't feel happy anymore A few years ago i was diagnosed with severe depression. I've tried to commit suicide on two separate occasions, although thats now in the past. I don't want to die anymore but, i just don't feel happy anymore. I stopped my meds and i cant go to therapy ... | self.depression |
Do you hurt yourself? Like recently I've been refusing to eat because I feel like I deserve the pain just lying in my bed hungry | self.depression |
Looking for help, I dunno what’s wrong with me! [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I don't know where else to go or how to explain my feelings [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I’ve made peace with dying (my apologies if this is scattered, its been on my mind for awhile)well, i guess for some background information im 14 and i started my first year of highschool not too long ago. needless to say, im ready to give up. ive pushed away everyone who cared. my grades are falling, and i no longer ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Everything feels like a pointless loop. Not sure how to start this, so here goes nothing. Everything feels like I'm running in a circle. I should be a happy person, I have a good job, nice car, place to live, but everything just seems so pointless. Things that I used to love to do, I now find pointless. Had a date set ... | self.depression |
This is the lowest point in my life I know that this, will probably get downvoted. My last post did. Maybe I’m not depressed enough for some people on this sub.
3 weeks ago, I was brought to the local mental hospital. Assessed, and sent home, with a note to take a week off work. Mental health is not a taken care of ve... | self.depression |
Teetering on the edge... Again. Hey. I'm a 26 year old male. I've been riding the rollercoaster of anxiety/depression since adolescence. When I was 21, I was at my lowest low. Failing out of college, isolating myself from all of my friends, tanking a relationship with a girl I thought I was going to marry. I had picke... | self.SuicideWatch |
Looking for opinions on my guide for bipolar spouses/family/partners https://psyche.media/the-questions-most-frequently-asked-by-bipolar-sos
So, this guide has been up for awhile on the r/bipolarSOs subreddit. I decided to write it up - the reason being, back when my second bipolar partner went manic, I found myself c... | self.bipolar |
I feel like it just isn't going to get better. [deleted] | self.depression |
I don't know why I am alive I feel so messed up and no one cares so why
What am doing
I don't matter to anyone
I don't even know why I'm posting on here
Comments never help so don't waste your time I guess
I just hate myself. I'm no good. I'm not what anyone wanted.
I hate everyone. So much. I'm not even a good ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Does anyone else ever feel like they are in a race they will never win? [deleted] | self.depression |
When people ask if you’re okay and you say yeah I’m fine and they believe you. Just fucking get the hint I’m not fine. | self.depression |
lack of time as a trigger somehow a lot of my anxiety is related to a fear of lack of time. i end up spending so much time focusing on how i cant achieve whatever goal i had to where its a self fulfilling prophecy.
when i say fear, its usually a panic attack or a slow burn of hours of agitation, confusion, and nausea.... | self.Anxiety |
At work, you told me I had to "stay there" until you got back. (I happened to be leaning over a counter with my butt to you)
I really wanted to laugh and ask you if you wanted me to stay exactly where I was.
If there weren't other people around maybe I would have actually had the balls to say it...I am more attract... | self.offmychest |
I stopped functioning I can't do anything anymore. I feel empty and out of drive/motivation. I can't even do the simplest things like going out to buy my own clothes or helping myself in any kind of form, for example I have been delaying going to meet up with my advisor at college for 2 weeks now just because I can't, ... | self.depression |
Trying to lose weight with Generalized Anxiety (GAD), need advice & inspiration. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I hate my pretentious, preachy cousin and hope she’d die. When we were kids she was a bully for no reason. Now she grew out of it but everytime there’s a family gathering she always makes indirect comments about how we use our phones too much and don’t engage in real conversation. Um, no, even if we didn’t have our pho... | self.offmychest |
Good morning, sunshine! Hey, just a quick note to say I hope you have a great day!😚
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For the other half of the world: Sleep tight, dream sweet, and awaken refreshed 😊 | self.bipolar |
Can I just talk to someone? I just had the worst day of my life. I really need to talk to anyone right now. I've been crying and just felt more alone than I ever have in my life. It's late and I don't have anyone and I just need some company. | self.depression |
I don't care I don't care about social media at all.
I don't care what you ate for dinner or how great your gf/bf is.
I don't care how tough your life is or how your boss is a hard ass.
It doesn't matter to me how much you cared about someone who has passed away. We get it they are dead get you point across and mov... | self.offmychest |
Lowest point I’ve been at in over a year. [deleted] | self.depression |
Some tips to save $$ on Latuda I keep seeing a ton of posts about how expensive Latuda is for people and of course many posts about how helpful it has been. I must say for myself it has been helpful with the depression but its certainly not a fix all for me. So with that I wanted to share some tips of what I have encou... | self.bipolar |
I hate my lack of motivation and my mask. There's so many things I want to do.
Behind the mask I'm just lonely and not motivated to do anything.
I want to be myself again whoever that may be.
| self.depression |
Guys, I'm having a good day! I feel temporarily free! Last week I suffered a major depressive episode. For three days I didn't leave my bed. Not to shower, not to eat, only to let my dogs out and take my fiancé to and from work. I had suicidal thoughts and the only thing that snapped me out of them were my pets. I coul... | self.bipolar |
Have been just existing for the past two and a half years. I've not got the hang of having no one give a shit. I'm a 20 year old Uni student who has no friends and I don't speak to anybody either. It's weird to reflect that I don't think I've said anything out loud, even to myself, for about a month or so. I live in an... | self.offmychest |
Frightened. First of all, I apologise for posting this in here if it's not appropriate - just let me know if that's the case - but I really couldn't think of anywhere else to post it & I suffer from depression so - here goes...
I'm going to see a panto tomorrow with my Mum, and I have reason to believe that my est... | self.depression |
I have nothing left. This post is my last attempt. I tried | self.SuicideWatch |
How to be more optimistic Hi all,
Just a quick catch up: I suffer with awful health anxiety that is slowly moving into depression. Now if I feel a new sensation in my body, I panic, calm myself down relatively quickly, and then just feel angry and depressed.
I haven't felt this kind of feeling before; I feel numb, wo... | self.Anxiety |
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