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Helping your S/O through depression, and suicidal thoughts? Let me begin by saying I don't know if this is the correct place to post this. If anyone, or mods have an alternative PLEASE let me know.
My fiance was raised in an abusive household. With her mother being emotionally abusive, and father being physically abu... | self.depression |
A new update from my shitty life... I posted this: https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/64lvvz/how_do_you_guys_managed_to_hold_on_when_life/
And later this: https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/6h27k1/and_update_from_me_things_are_not_better_but_i/
So, I did get a great job... and was recently fir... | self.SuicideWatch |
Help me please! I have been having suicidal thoughts for the past 4 years...but now i just cant have this anymore.Here are my problems:
1) I am a complete loser. I not getting a job , i forget very easily what i studied, i have to work double than the rest to study what others do it in their first attempt.
2) I am shy ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Had a bad day So, yesterday was a very tough day for me.
This is the Midterm week, and (unfortunately) I have Presentation and Midterm for Management on the same day, Friday. This whole week I already have 4 tests and it's been very stressful for me. Anyway, I didn't do the Management test well. Only half of it. We the... | self.depression |
I’ve done really well with my anxiety lately but after a sleepless night I’m worried I won’t ever sleep again. What can I do? Basically the title | self.Anxiety |
I drove through the drive-thru to get my food instead of walking in and sitting down... I wish I didn't have to leave the house and reveal my hideous face to the public and child height (I'm a 5'4" dude).
I'm just so done with my life.
Before you tell me its going to get better, no it fucking is not.
No it fucking i... | self.depression |
I know this isn’t really supposed to be about reddit but I promise this is relevant to me Sometimes I just feel like nothing I do goes right, and sometimes I feel like, even if I posted the exact same comment in a reddit post as one of the top comments at the same time they did, somehow I would wind up getting down vot... | self.depression |
Honestly don't know where else to go Honestly, I am lost... I don't know where to go to and this is my only outlet at the moment. I'm just at my breaking point, I'm at the point where my depression had completely taken over to the point where i'm thinking about suicide 24/7, hurting myself, and I'm starting to believe ... | self.depression |
How to deal with relationship anxiety? This is a long story and explaination but basically me and my long distance boyfriend met off a game that was a MMORPG. We have been dating for about 8.5 months officially but have not met yet. He says he is planning to see me at the end of April as he is caught up with work, and ... | self.Anxiety |
The world is as we see it. Then we build it. We have many different definitions as to what is built. We take things for granted. I've seen chairs made with heart and incredible skill to make a chair but we each have our own established view we relate to a chair. Every leaf, every finger print. Everything is unique so u... | self.offmychest |
trying to stop mania my girlfriend and i just broke up which has caused me a lot of distress. we are long distance and i had a non-refundable ticket to see her so now i’m kinda stuck going in a cycle of repeating the past. the past 2 days ive been drinking and letting myself go on a manic binge. does anyone have any ti... | self.bipolar |
How do you handle yourself when you know people are talking shit about you? [removed] | self.depression |
I am a straight married woman ., but But I love women. They are literally beautiful. Not sure if would be romantically attracted to them, and I’ve never acted on any impulses. Idk how to explain it. I’ve been to full nude bars with my husband. And it was all great. | self.offmychest |
Does anyone have a tattoo that covers their self harm scars? If so, how well did it cover up the scar? I have a visible scar on my left wrist that never healed correctly. I took the stitches out myself a week after I got them so I created this huge laceration scar I normally hide with a watch.
I’ve been teetering back... | self.bipolar |
I wish there was a pause button in real life I need everything to stop right now | self.depression |
I Found What I Was Looking For I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in April 2012. I've struggled with the illness since I was twelve-years-old, and initially I was diagnosed with unipolar depression. I've been hospitalized more than ten times. I've been suicidal countless times. Without my medication I experience so ... | self.bipolar |
Think my boyfriend (23M) may be depressed (22F), advice on how to help? [deleted] | self.depression |
OPEN LETTER TO MY BOYFRIENDS EX WIFE Dear Miss Ma’am,
I’m sure you didn’t ever expect to have me In your life just as I never expected you in mine, but let’s start at the beginning. When I first met Man he was resignedly in love with you. And yes. I used the word resignedly because frankly that is what it was. He was... | self.offmychest |
What do you guys do when you just feel like garbage and want to curl into a ball and cry or just be sedated/unconscious? I had a good rally this last couple months but an unrelated medical issue has derailed the momentum I was building to get out of my rut. Now I feel like a puddle and just don't want to hear my though... | self.bipolar |
I have to sell something to a person tomorrow and i literally just broke down in tears from anxiety, cause i forgot i had to face another human being and make a complete fool out of myself in order to gain some cash i would rather die, honestly. | self.depression |
I have no one to talk to.. Won't someone talk to me? I don't know if I can go much longer with no one to talk to... | self.depression |
it’s my birthday and i’ll cry if i want to. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
This past weekend showed me who my friends really are. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
(TW abuse) Friend just made extremely concerning post, should I call the police/what should I do? I don't even know if this is the "correct" thread to put this in, but fuck it, I am SCARED and I NEED answers, and AH. I'm sorry. Ok. So basically, a childhood friend who I've reconnected with has been posting VERY concern... | self.bipolar |
Worried about first day back to school So I’m on holiday right now, but I’m scared of when I go back to school bcz Im taking extra days of. I’m gonna miss a lot of stuff and what if the timetable changes I won’t know where to go. I’m so shy I can’t talk or ask anyone and i don’t have any friends either. Plsss help me. ... | self.Anxiety |
I hate life Like, I actually despise life. I've resigned myself to the fact that that's never going to change.
Objectively my life is good.. But yet I'm full of misery and despair all the time.
And its everything.. The actual mechanics of living.. Body maintenance, eating well, exercise, hair, work.. I'm sick and ti... | self.SuicideWatch |
Is memory affected by anxiety and depression? I had severe anxiety earlier this year and recovered dramatically. Was almost completely free of anxiety for the past 3 months. But I fear it's resurfacing again. I have trouble sleeping and often wake up in the morning with anxious thoughts. Also I am getting nightmares qu... | self.Anxiety |
Depressed and alone Recently every single one of my close friends have gotten into relationships, leaving me a lot of alone time. I tend to become somewhat depressed almost anytime I'm alone, and now that I'm alone while everyone else is in a happy relationship, it's thrown me into a pretty deep depression. On top of t... | self.depression |
Fading away Just need to vent a bit.
I wish I could just effortlessly fade from existence, but I know that's impossible. I'm not going anywhere unless I take action to make that happen. I've been tapering off my meds in the hope that will make me bold enough to actually commit suicide, but the time I have to spend awa... | self.SuicideWatch |
Today I had my last ever day at my job After four years at the same dead end place I’m finally moving on onto bigger and better things. I’ll be earning more money, have more responsibility and - on top of it all - I’ll be living in BERLIN! It’s going to be awesome.
Don’t get me wrong, this position had its perks and ... | self.offmychest |
Every day I feel like I wanna die Since the last year, I have felt like I want to end it all. Let me give you a backstory. I am 16 years old and have survived from multiple infectious diseases, mainly Lyme Disease. I am currently a straight A student at a vocational school, and my brain is unmatched. However, because I... | self.SuicideWatch |
My depression caused by other people. I feel as if a lot of people walk around like their better than me and I don't know why. I can sense them just looking down on me and judging me on my character and they don't even know me. I don't know if it's in my head or if some people are really like this. Is it the way I dr... | self.depression |
Does anyone else experience flattened mood and affect unless manic or depressed? One of the big signs that I'm coming up is when I suddenly can express my thoughts and feelings. Whenever I'm feeling stable or depressed, it's like I'm incapable of expressing any emotion or going beyond small talk with even people who ar... | self.bipolar |
What would be the easiest way to kill your self [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
bit off my nails to distract myself and now i feel worse, (female) [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I fucking can't. I see no other way out. please help, everyone else is ignoring me. I fucking hate my parents. I hate how I look. I hate my body, I hate my face. I hate my life. I hate the people around me. I hate being a lesbian. I hate being a single virgin. I hate being 17.
I'm fucking pissed about my fucking best... | self.SuicideWatch |
Sometimes depression is caused by life genuinely being pretty fucking depressing [deleted] | self.depression |
Afraid to see my best friend after suicide attempt. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm stuck and lonely its hard to think, I keep hearing my parents talk downstairs.
and any time my mom calls me I RUN as fast as I can but I'm still too slow, and I changed my clothes the other day and my dad said I was taking too long and my bro said "yeah, it should only take me, like, a second" but I was doing it a... | self.Anxiety |
had a dream with my bp as a person, oy She would keep coming onto me, but then later put me in some wild situation that nobody else seemed to perceive where I would be reactive and nobody would. Then we'd have down time where she'd just inundate me with all the horrible situations in the world, then comfort me. In the ... | self.bipolar |
update: got taken to a crisis center best friend saw my reddit posts. called my sister. she called the police. im now being “willingly” admitted into a mental health crisis hospital.
thank you everyone for your messages. i really was about to fuck up everything. my best friend cared enough to get me some real help im... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm in a really bad depressive state and all I can think about is killing myself. HOW DO I GET THROUGH THIS? First and foremost, no therapist on this planet can sit with me when I'm in this state of mind. I'm lost within the pain. So. So. Lost.
My mental health has effected every area of my life, my family, my friends... | self.bipolar |
Bipolar Support Group So I'm giving this one more shot and going to a support group this Wednesday. Does anyone here have any experience going to a support group? What was it like? What did you do? Do you guys all sit in a circle like AA meetings?
I'm actually kind of excited to go because it'd be nice to be around pe... | self.bipolar |
If you've tried one SSRI, is trying another pointless? [deleted] | self.depression |
I can't see a future It should be golden, right? For a more or less straight-A student, life should be easy, if you know what you're doing. I don't know what I'm doing. University, employment, current studies, social life, everything's piling up on me at the moment and I don't know how to deal with any of it. I don't k... | self.SuicideWatch |
Help convince me I don't need to be perfect to find success. Sorry in advance for the long post. If you don't feel like reading it all skip to the tl;dr at the bottom.
I am currently a senior at George Washington University majoring in International Affairs. It's an undergrad program in the top 10 in the world, and I ... | self.offmychest |
Don't know why I keep going Yesterday I reached a breaking point. I don't know if I'll be around much longer. I wanna die so bad but I'll probably just pussy out and just make these feelings go back into my head, for them to come out and make me feel like this yet another time after some time | self.SuicideWatch |
I’ve know for a long time that I’d lost the Genetic Brain Chemistry Lottery I usually lurk for awhile, but this feels safe enough. Truth is, I’ve know for decades that I lost the Genetic Brain Chemistry Lottery. In other words, I’ve been self-medicating nightly for 3 or 4 decades, a moderate to heavy drinker. Odd si... | self.depression |
Some advice for my friend please? I dated this girl for about a year, before she moved away temporarily for a service opportunity. She’s been gone a few months now, about a year left on the trip, and we’ve been communicating via email. She just confided in me that she’s been having some fairly serious anxiety problems.... | self.Anxiety |
So I’m still here. Back in March, I made a post about not thinking I’ll make it to the end of the year.
I know it’s not technically the end yet but I made it further than I was expecting but thing definitely aren’t better. Life is much worse actually. Honestly, the only reason why I haven’t blown my brains out or hun... | self.depression |
Girlfriend is depressed and I don't know how to help at all [deleted] | self.depression |
i have all the materials for suicide. i could die right fucking now if i wanted to. what's the point? my grades are shit, my life feels like shit. i've relapsed, i starve and cut myself. i do drugs regularly. i cant concentrate in class from malnutrition. i cant do anything. im highly dependent on my antidepressants, w... | self.SuicideWatch |
I bought a new phone I’m waiting for it to ship but I hope I never see it arrive because I want to be dead before then. My SO is the only thing that’s kept me here this long. I don’t want her to have to deal with my death but I guess she’ll be fine. I always knew I’d leave this way and honestly I’m surprised I got to s... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm so damn socially awkward right now Still on the first month of treatment during a hypomanic episode and I met an old friend I haven't seen in a decade today by surprise. Of course in the first 10 minutes of catching up I blurt out that I'd had a mental breakdown a few years back and somehow managed to mention being... | self.bipolar |
My dog was stolen, almost a year ago now. I hate to put it words I never have. Barely in my own head... I think she's gone for...good.. I just have this impossible feeling. I don't know how to deal with it. Its just an insane amount of anger I hate the thief. How heartless can you be to steal someone's family member? H... | self.depression |
I've been fighting not to kill myself for over two hours now. I don't want to fight it anymore. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Trouble with Eye movements and Reading - can anyone relate? Hello everyone,
This is a throwaway-ish account because quite honestly, I'm a little embarrassed by the problem I'm facing.
So about a month ago, I became hyper-aware of my eye movements (sounds ridiculous, I know). It started so abruptly and for no apparent... | self.Anxiety |
Going through ECT (electroshock, electroconvulsive therapy) ama Wall of text. Feel free to skip. I should say my psychiatrist did his fellowship at John Hopkins, the best medical school, and the ect head went to Stanford and is certified in ect and connected to the university here.
I have been diagnosed variously sch... | self.bipolar |
Revelation I think me being told I shouldn't cry as a kid with addition to me feeling rejected in school contributed to and built up the depression, and some degree of anxiety that I have now. | self.depression |
I am worthless I am worthless.
There, I have said it. I'm a 43 years old male, no job (not able to get one either), no significant other, no children, no hobbies to speak of, no friends, no communities, of no meaning to others and no achievements in my life.
Why am I still here? What am I still doing?
I wish to be o... | self.SuicideWatch |
Ran out of room on my right leg so now on my left. Wonder what’s next. | self.SuicideWatch |
I snooped in my boyfriend's laptop and found some upsetting messages. Need advice please [deleted] | self.offmychest |
My family doesn't believe anxiety is a real disorder and I'm not quite sure I have had it. Whenever I drive or take a test, I feel like I'm constantly falling but won't hit the ground. It's that moment during which you know you're fucked, but that moment lasts half of the day. I had been able to cope with it until yest... | self.Anxiety |
Being Bi Polar cost me an important job today, fuck. Had to declare an incident that happened during my 2nd manic episode pre diagnosis. Apparently it made my integrity look bad even though it was all out of character for me and they said I was in their top 3 candidates after the assessment day. Fuck this shit. | self.bipolar |
Trouble maintaining a job. Hi all. I like most of you suffer from anxiety pretty badly, and i was curious does anyone start a job and have it go well for say a week and then all of a sudden its a nosedive into panic attacks and even being scared to leave yer home???
This has happened to me on like 4 different jobs and ... | self.Anxiety |
Trying to fix myself wasn't worth it Lately I've been feeling much different. I'm not functional anymore. I can barely get out of bed in the morning. In the past, I was always stressed out and hated myself, but I was still productive and on the outside most people weren't able to tell anything was wrong. At the time, I... | self.depression |
5 Minutes Ago (Poem)  
"Why don't I want to write this?"
 
 
I did.
5 minutes ago.
 
My veins were pulsing
I was ready to flow.
Now...
Now I don't want to.
 
Now, I want to bury myself deeper into the web.
Disappear.
Pull away from my thoughts.
... | self.bipolar |
Friend found a gf And I'm really happy for him, he deserves it. Anyhow a part of me is envious, good things never happen to me. | self.offmychest |
Is it just inevitably going to end with me killing myself? | self.SuicideWatch |
Happy New Years I hope I die on my way to work today | self.depression |
dreaming about crush constantly, feeling like shit when I wake up I dream about a crush I used to have (well, at least I think I got over her) occasionally, and when I wake up, I feel really fucking bad. Being so close to her in a dream and then waking up to find out that it was just a dream is the worst feeling I've f... | self.depression |
Anyone got any thought provoking stuff to keep my mind off killing myself? lol Lately I just been thinking about just fading away n shit and how nothin would b different if I wasn't born or some shit. I love deep thinking n all but I think I'm going a lil crazy just thinking about death and how little I'm worth. Does a... | self.SuicideWatch |
Hotlines and therapists are making things worse? I've been dealing with some pretty bad thoughts for a while. I've tried seeking help without much success. Every time I try talking to somebody, they talking about 'self-care', 'distraction', 'self-soothing', etc.
I've been dealing with the feelings for a very long tim... | self.SuicideWatch |
People who have quit cutting, what did you do? [deleted] | self.depression |
Can Cymbalta cause hair loss 22M I started taking cymbalta a little over a month ago and right around that time I started noticing thinning in my hair. It is very apparent in the corners of my widows peak in the front and by my colick in the back.
I brought this up to my psychiatrist and she told me that it is that ti... | self.depression |
Just wanted to post my goodbyes. In about 1 to 2 hours( after my parents go to work) im gonna take a shower, dress in my favorite adidas clothing, write my note, load my stepfathers gun, text all the people I love goodbye, call the police to let them know where my body is, and then end it. The only reason im posting th... | self.SuicideWatch |
You're engaged now. It's not to me. He's a nice guy, by all accounts. That's good for you; I'm something of a goofy, abrasive prick most of the time and I think you're too kind-hearted for it. But the holidays are here and I found the old scrapbook you once made me as a gesture of our love (why is this thing still in m... | self.offmychest |
help my mom just found out about my cuts and depression... what to do please help me | self.depression |
why Im talking to this girl and we went with someone to eat afterwards she told me they need to do something for her boss (they are sort of working together) so i said cool and went home after like 5 minutes she texts me that shes sorry for lying to me but she wanted to talk to him privatley but didnt want to offend me... | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel the pure need to die, 24/7 Not out of emotion, or pain, or edginess, but I legitimately want to die. Im a horrible, idiotic person. On the rare occurrence that someone has the misfortune of caring about me, they will grow to hate me. I have no possible future, I'm less then mediocre at everything and i don't hav... | self.offmychest |
Scared because suicidal thoughts are appearing I am on Accutane right now and I know it can increase anxiety and suicidal tendency. Recently I have been doubting my boyfriend, thinking that he's been lying to me all this while etc. Of course, when I confronted him there's always a good explanation. But now I'm lying in... | self.SuicideWatch |
Two years to go until I turn 30 and I end my life I've had that day planned since high school. For some reason, everyone else seemed to outgrow depression as they grew up, but I never did.
It's a little different now. I don't feel outright sad. I don't wander at night anymore or drive recklessly or cry. Instead, I'm... | self.depression |
I have a crippling fear of work and all things work related, how do I proceed in life? I am no stranger to mental illness. I have recovered from bipolar disorder, my borderline personality disorder is mostly gone, and I have mostly recovered from addiction, all of which took tremendous effort, professional help and med... | self.Anxiety |
It's like life is just testing me to see if I'll actually do it tldr down at the end (not sure if this is better for r/depression, but for the sake of not being trigger-y there...)
One of my ultimate issues is feeling like a burden, whether to myself, society, or those in my life. Probably one of the few reasons I hav... | self.SuicideWatch |
A Hypochondriac's Tale Hey everybody. I'm 25 and I've been diagnosed with obsessive compulsive anxiety disorder for many years. I've been on varying dosages of Lexapro for years as well and have generally had a good experience with it. My story is all about the physical symptoms of anxiety itself and how they can ex... | self.Anxiety |
I think both of my friends are depressed and I don't know what to do. [deleted] | self.depression |
Everything falling apart all over again (Sorry I'm advance for the long AF post, I got on a roll and couldn't stop). As the title says, it seems like everything is falling apart all over again. I was misdiagnosed several years ago, and everything continued in a downward spiral for a few years to the point where I had t... | self.bipolar |
Thinking out loud This isn't a cry for help, just wanted to get a few things off my chest. Don't feel obligated to respond. If you're offended by vulgar language, don't read.
I'm failing most of my classes. Normally I wouldn't give a shit but I'm in college now. I actually care about this. I need it. But because of th... | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel so unlucky to be alive. If only a different sperm had "won", then I wouldn't have to deal with all of this. I have absolutely no interest in being a wage slave and I don't enjoy much of anything anymore. Life is an endless series of maintenance chores that I need to perform so that I can continue to live a life ... | self.depression |
Someone telling you they worry about you is worse than no one caring. It basically translates to "I don't really care about you but I'd feel bad if you killed yourself". I mean, ignore me the rest of the time and then once I'm actually feeling good, just make me feel like an inferior piece of shit. Thanks a lot. I'm... | self.depression |
I did everything right. Didn't matter. I'm frustrated, just need to vent for a bit...
I'm traveling, out of town, at an event. Avoided ALL alcohol. Took my meds on time. Drank lots of water. Got to bed at a reasonable hour. Realized when I was getting too energetic, too energized, stepped in and went to bed.
Doesn't ... | self.bipolar |
Why did the cashiers give me a strange look when i went to the self checkout instead Of their lines? I went grocery shopping at 6:30 this morning to get a couple things and there were only like two other customers there. There were two checkouts open that had no customers but I used the self checkout instead and one of... | self.Anxiety |
Is this normal? I feel like I have a burning sensation in my chest and my head. I feel like I drank 3 cups of coffee, but also drank some wine.
I am energetic, but sad. I am restless and I want to cry. I want to yell, hurt and tear into everyone and my impulses seem to be more in control than my logic. I can't focus, ... | self.bipolar |
Time is doing its thing. I am beginning to let go. The last few days have been good. I don’t miss G anymore. I think of her but when I do I am not hit with that pang of pain. I feel good about it. I am moving on. My anger for her is also replaced by nonchalance. I understand she decided to pick her own happiness over m... | self.offmychest |
If you’re thinking of killing yourself, please read this... I was having a huge struggle with suicide and found some inspiration. I felt I needed to post it here.
If anyone needs a reason not to commit suicide... read stories from people who knew someone who killed themselves. Seriously.
I know it’s hard as hell to c... | self.SuicideWatch |
I can't stop leading people on and I don't know how to fix it [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I'm a fuckin idiot but still I took a math test today and the entire time I just wanted to scream. Scream into the fucking void and just keep screaming. I wanted to just tear my skin off and scream into oblivion. I just wanted to cry and I want to be free of this pain that I feel. I fucking on my edge in the class befo... | self.depression |
What to do after having a nervous breakdown? [Xpost from /r/advice] [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Dog ownership and reasons to live Written while I try to calm myself down enough to escape the office bathroom without people noticing I was crying.
I have a dog. I got him from a rescue. Last night he got skunked while at my boyfriends place and dragged it all over the house before we noticed. His landlord said I'm b... | self.offmychest |
Will I ever hate myself for not letting us take our time? It was so special when me and you finally started talking. We both felt so good and happy when we were together... I just didn't know what to do. I rushed everything because I just thought we would naturally last a long time. I even rushed taking your virginity.... | self.offmychest |
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