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Everything just goes wrong All the bad things happen to me, things that were fine, all of a sudden decide to not work, all the unfortunate things happen to find me out of all people. It's as if life itself hates me and wants to make me miserable. Well it worked, that's how I feel, each and every fucking day. | self.depression |
That moment when ...you're waiting in line to pay at the supermarket and witness how friendly the cashier is to everyone before you.
"Hello, good evening, have a nice weekend, thank you very much".
It's your turn. And it's nothing but "24.95". You try to smile, you wish a nice weekend. Nothing.
You thought you d... | self.depression |
I had an extremely intense acid trip and dumped all my bipolar meds down the toilet what do I do [deleted] | self.bipolar |
I messed up, but it's too late to fix it. I may be making a big deal out of this but please understand my side. I've always been on top of highschool. I'm an A/B student, never missing class, putting on as much effort as I can, and being somewhat connected to my teachers on a social level. But this year not so much. I ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm broken glass. I was told i would break, but I did it anyway. Hey. I'm hurt. I hurt myself, but there was no way to stop it. Everyone told me that it wouldn't work, and that she didn't like me. And I knew that, I knew she didn't like me. But for some reason I just kind of believed in my heart that we would end up to... | self.offmychest |
how have your symptoms been improved/exacerbated by prescription medication? [deleted] | self.depression |
My whole thoughts right now... Please forgive my grammar, I'm not into writing honestly but I need to let it all out. I'm sorry if it's painful to read.
Just to fix my mistakes, every single of them. 3rd year and I'm still failling all of my finals, because I had no energy to study for them. At all. I'm allergic to s... | self.offmychest |
I don't even know where to start. I keep a word document open on my laptop; it's kind of like a working suicide note. For a few months, I had unsuccessfully tried to write formatted, concrete suicide notes to my loved ones. It never conveys how I truly feel. This is better. I can add to it when I have nice experiences ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I used to get angry when ppl cancelled plans at the last minute But Ive become that person now. Sometimes I just freak and get super nervous about going somewhere/meeting someone that Ill just stay/go to bed and wish to die. It hurts... | self.bipolar |
15 year old, Asperger's, failing grades, and unexplained attendances [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I need some advice I'm sure this sub hates when people self diagnose, but im so done with everything; in the past year and a half I've probably been on 10 different medications for depression and nothing seems to help. I go through very brief periods of elation characterized by a love of life, hope for the future, and ... | self.bipolar |
I Don't know if I Was Raped One day someone I know all to well took me out to get pastry. We went on a fairly familiar ride to a one mile down the rode supermarket. We walked in to buy a pastry. Once we picked one out we then walked over to the sugar section he was looking for a certain type of sugar they didn't have i... | self.offmychest |
How do you cope? -be me
-30 and single
-no kids
-no friends
-works 12+ hours a day
-hates life, tries to change myself with no luck
-feel hopeless and lost
-work come home eat then sleep, rince wash repeat.
It really gets hard sometime. I know I put myself here and that just creates a vicious feedback loop. It seems... | self.depression |
My room I have decided to do myself a favour and clean my room.
These past years have not been very good to me.
Towards the beginning of the month I moved into this room.
My best friend hasn't talked to me since I moved out from where she lives.
My shrink hasn't talked to me in 2~ weeks even though I've been trying ... | self.depression |
What happens when I tell my doctor that I am suicidal? Some context,
I have been seeing this doctor for almost a year and I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I am on a couple medications and for the past about 2 months I have been progressively more depressed.
At this point, I know I have crossed the bridge fr... | self.depression |
Off my meds and my libido has gone way up. [deleted] | self.depression |
Withdrawal symptoms with reduction of Prozac I’m tapering off of Prozac and I’m insanely anxious. Are these two things connected? Is it normal or possible to have withdrawal symptoms from slowly reducing Prozac intake. I’ve been taking Prozac for like three years now. | self.depression |
Maybe sumone can relate. I dont want to sing
I dont want to read
I dont want to be here
I dont even wanna breath
But my pen wanted me and i wanted you
Even when the darkness is on my mind i still think of you as my sunshine
And theres no amount of clouds that can take you away
Ill love you always!
You'r the only... | self.SuicideWatch |
does nobody understand that I'm hanging on by a thread? I am just pretending to be happy so that I can still function day by day. I am in a very low place. But every day my best friend who also has mental health issues talks to me about things that just remind me how much the world sucks and my wife is constantly verba... | self.depression |
"Lets go to church to cure your depression" And, this is why I'm atheist. because of stupid people like that who thinks that praying can fucking cure everything... "oh? You have cancer? Dont worry I'll pray for you" | self.depression |
I think I died and went to heaven 6 months ago (rant/ramble) [deleted] | self.depression |
Does reading posts on this subreddit ever give anyone more anxiety then before you started reading the posts on here lmao Just decided to stroll though this subreddit to see if i could maybe help anyone out and since my anxiety is already pretty bad lately doing so made it worse. anyone else ever experience this?
Edit... | self.Anxiety |
Depression is the only thing that makes me special. [deleted] | self.depression |
What chance does a high school dropout even have at life? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Will I ever do it for me? Hopefully soon I used to think I was the passively suicidal type, where I want to die but would never actually commit suicide. This was because after my last attempt I saw my dad cry for the first time and it was utterly heartbreaking. But then again, the next day he was back to destroying my ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Release from the cage that is my mind At 22, I have exactly 1 friend. Sort of.
I currently don't have a job because my anxiety is so out of control I can barely talk to a stranger. I've tried so many medications, so many therapists, so so many different things. I don't know what happy is.
My life has never been an ea... | self.SuicideWatch |
Scared of going back into uni I have been into university only twice since coming back on the 15th last month. I'm going to go in and do a half day but I'm absolutely terrified. Everyone says it is going to be ok, but that is almost as bad as everything going wrong. I've been scared and anxious for so long now that I'm... | self.Anxiety |
Need some advice Im 18yo male, unsuccessful in everything, ugly, have no friends, im not smart, i never had a real relationship and all i do the whole day is skip uni, sleep and hate myself and everyone else except my mom and brother. Idk how to feel about my dad as he cheated on my mom a week ago. My grandpa died rece... | self.SuicideWatch |
update: I (25) broke up with my GF (24) tonight and I don't know how to feel. also her mom tried calling me
I made a post a bit ago about conflict with my gf. After much thought I settled on ending the relationship tonight. As predicted she did not take it well. She got very aggressive in her speech and sort of starte... | self.offmychest |
So tired of my home situation and need to vent So tired of my home situation and the city I live in too. Rent prices here are through the roof so there's really no way for a young person to get their own place and be able to afford it along with bills because the ashes here don't match the cost of living.
Anyway, I l... | self.offmychest |
How do you handle anxiety in the middle of that night? | self.Anxiety |
I feel f*cking even worse with this exercise sh!t. DAE? I've been gently trying to bodybuild, I live pretty sedentary. I want the musclez. I'm a guy. So check this shit out brothers and sisters, during workout I feel okay, but like 2-3 days after each exercise sesh I feel AWFUL, like more tense, bitchy, angry, depresse... | self.depression |
Cholesterol, Bloodwork not okay I haven't asked for help on here for a while, but a while ago I was diagnosed with BP, and then talked to my psych about meds so he referred me to someone who then had me take blood work to see my cholesterol and a1c levels. Often when I was manic I would binge a ton, and because of this... | self.bipolar |
From what height do I have to jump to die? I really just want to commit suicide and be done with this shit. My only options right now are cutting my wrists and jumping. I just want to know they required height that I need to die. | self.depression |
Was attempted to throw myself down a staircase today. It wouldn't have killed me. I just want to Control my own body and don't feel like I'm being allowed to But it's my own fault because I'm
Not taking care of
Myself. But I HATE showering when there's people around. There's no lock on the bathroom I have to use. My mo... | self.depression |
I’m new to this. Is this a mixed episode? Ultra rapid cycling?? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
I'm too scared to talk My first month at college, I cut myself and was involuntarily committed for 4 weeks. That was 15 years ago. Nothing has ever changed. Every time I asked for help, I just got told to pray. 3 years ago, my husband found me cutting again, and I barely saved my marriage. Every time he asks "why is th... | self.SuicideWatch |
Medication and interval fasting Hey all!
Before I was diagnosed I was probably in the best shape of my life.. Spending time in the hospital, new meds (Im looking at you antipsychotics!), basically I got fat.
A year later and I still haven't mastered juggling my meds or fixing my diet. I used to love interval fastin... | self.bipolar |
My loneliness is really starting to get to me [deleted] | self.depression |
Everyone is Thriving... I'm Just Trying to Survive I hate my life. I don't mean that as a "wa my life is terrible", it's probably not even that bad, I just hate it.
Everyone around me are all stars, good at just about everything without trying, then there's me. Everyone around me is getting scholarships, and I'm strugg... | self.bipolar |
I have no reason to live I literally wake up every day and do the same chores every time. There's nothing to look forward to in my future. What is there to live for | self.depression |
Wemt to the doctors and got sent to a mental hospital. I got sent to a mental hospital. Got a psychiatrist and a psychologist. Met some great people in the hospital. Got meds that really helped me. It was one of the scariest things at first but turned out saving my life. If you think you are a danger to yourself I reco... | self.SuicideWatch |
I deserve Happiness Too Imagine: You wake up only to snooze your alarm long enough to have just enough time to get dressed, mildly groomed, and rush out the door. You drive 30 minutes to a job in which you have no upward mobility without additional experience that you’ll never obtain at said job. You observe everyone i... | self.depression |
My friend has been in the Baptist Health Emergency Room for 14 hours After she woke up feeling disoriented and was sure she was raped, she checked herself into the hospital to have the fucking rape kit done and her blood work taken.
That was 7 hours ago. She was then, after 7 hours of being there, labeled as being on... | self.offmychest |
I want to believe I can make it, but after a life time of suffering...maybe I can't. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Im very scared of the future. Especially if you're disabled it,s very likely to end up poor? Or am i wrong? Hwo to avoid ending up poor or even homeless if you,re disabled? Or isn't that possible? I am very scared of the future, maybe i will end up homeless or atleast poor. What should i do? The only way to prevent pov... | self.SuicideWatch |
Are my urges strange? So I think my suicidal ideation is becoming more and more detailed, to where I've formed some sort of plan...
The thing is, I know what I'm going to do is extremely unlikely to kill me. In fact, I think I'd even leave the bathroom door unlocked. I'm afraid of taking that last step. I know if I di... | self.SuicideWatch |
the downward spiral of self hate sucks to get into [deleted] | self.depression |
I dont think i can do this anymore About a year ago I ruined my life. I went to school shitfaced every single day due to extreme social anxiety and depression. Little did i know, my life would only get 100x worse when i got caught. getting driven to this hospital to get my stomach pumped, getting picked up my dad broke... | self.SuicideWatch |
When do controlling parents stop?? My mother was super controlling my whole life. Probably because I'm an only child. I've always been extremely independent but starting in 9th grade my mom would monitor my texts, snoop through my room at night, and would track my car and phone.
I wasn't a bad kid in high school, I d... | self.offmychest |
Happy fucking New Year! Starting 2018 with self hatred Why am I so unwanted by everyone? I’ve tried so hard last year but everyone just seems to hate me. It’s a new year now but I’m still haunted by the memories that happened years ago. I’m so sick of living like this. Every time I try to improve things I find out that... | self.depression |
I don't care about anything/anyone Maybe duplicate but I cannot see it posted anywhere and I don't give a fuck if it is, I just want to read some opinions before leaving.
First of all, I am between my 20s and 30s and I have been planning this for more than 4 years.
I happen to have hitchhiked from Western Europe to S... | self.SuicideWatch |
I don't know why I am so scared of getting help I've been depressed for years and its gotten progressively worse, its starting to get even more unbearable but yet I don't want to see someone to talk about it like a therapist or something, and I'm also scared to start taking meds for it if thats what it comes to, but I ... | self.depression |
I'm wasting my money and time applying to graduate programs that I know I probably won't get in, if I dont then I'm going to kill myself [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Does anyone else get the urge to be reckless as hell with their credit cards because they’re 99% sure they won’t be around to even think about paying it back? | self.SuicideWatch |
I can't do this anymore Life is just disappointment after disappointment. A game that is rigged against me at every turn. I've hurt so many people, burned so many bridges....
I need to die, but I'm too much of a wimp. Hopefully I get cancer or just fucking hit by a car soon. | self.depression |
DAE see their only value is being useful? I've always loved helping others, whether it means I'm there to talk to them and listen to their concerns, or doing something for them. It makes me feel like I'm contributing something to society, and it is especially rewarding to see when I've helped make their day better some... | self.depression |
My family's response to me reaching out Hang in there buddy 👌👌 | self.depression |
Nice, funny explanation of anxiety and mindfulness. NSFW language. I watch it every couple of weeks. It’s not a magic bullet, but it is a good reminder. https://youtu.be/X3rl5O_92Co | self.Anxiety |
Victory Saturday, Goal Setting Sunday, and other topic threads. Hello everyone!
First off announcements:
/u/ssnakeggirl, /u/Reaper_of_Souls, and I will be taking over the Small Victory Saturday and Goal Setting Sunday posts, as well as adding a "Wellness Wednesday" with the goal of engaging the community more. I'll l... | self.bipolar |
The only way I will matter to anyone in life is if I die. And even then it will only be for a day or so. I don’t have a reason to continue living. I don’t want to die, but I need to kill myself. | self.SuicideWatch |
Something I wrote in the middle of a depression. Please let me know what y’all think, thanks [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Talking hypothetically, how would one go about writing a possible suicide note to an online friendly/and pen-pal/ and a group? But that, if I choose to not do it afterwards, that it would be so that it may not damage the relationships? And that it may not be obvious?
Little bit of info about some
Friendly is friend... | self.depression |
Has anyone found that going for walks help anxiety or greatly improve symptoms? If so I'll try anything! | self.Anxiety |
I'm thinking about ending it all This was supposed to be a better year for me.
I came out to some ppl. It was supposed to be exciting in the exploration of my newfound sexuality.
Very FEW good things happened.
Basically, all year I pretty much suffered.
I suffered for 5 months over the loss of an ex who stopped talking... | self.depression |
I'm visiting someone in the hospital who used to sexually harass me in high school, possibly just to see them suffer. I hate hospitals. They give me anxiety, make me nauseous and give me intense feelings of PTSD. I only ever go if someone I truly love and care about is there or if there is an emergency situation with m... | self.offmychest |
i feel so traumatized i was born a son to my dad, a local politician, and my mom, currently working in a company's administration department. i had a really odd childhood. i remember being very quiet and calm, but also very angry. my mom used to spoil me a lot, she bought me everything i wanted and always let me win in... | self.depression |
I spent the last nine years of my life unhappy. I'm done. Since I was 14 years old, I was incredibly unhappy. I spent nine years of my life struggling with depression, and the last four or five with severe anxiety. I was suicidal for a very long time, acting only once. I've been in hospitals, spent lots of time on coun... | self.offmychest |
Goal Setting Sunday 10.29.17 What do you hope to achieve this week? Let's set some goals and work towards progress together. Also, do you have any plans for halloween? I'm thinking of dressing up as a hipster. I'm constantly wearing flannel and have grown a beard, so I figure it'll be low effort. | self.bipolar |
After years of being depressed, I finally sought help. For many years, I've kept everything bottled up inside, thinking that depression is just the way I am supposed to be.
I've always been known as the quiet and reserved kid. This has made it easy to hide the symptoms from friends, family and girlfriend. Depression c... | self.depression |
A Letter to Myself You often feel worthless, and disgusting. You feel as if you have no one there for you, which is such a pity.
You lack moral, and you don't care for yourself the way others do. People care, they ask how your doing. You with a smile on your face, say you're fine. It's anything but, the smile is less ... | self.offmychest |
So fucking tired of everyday life Everyday is just the same, I don't want to keep dealing with this shit over and over again | self.depression |
As soon as i have fun. It hits again the reminder that i'm pathetic.
I sit alone in my room playing video games i'm happy for a second.
Then it hits me again, i have bad grades no matter how hard i study, i never talk to anyone even though i try to, all my friends abandoned me, people at school hate me, i'm bullied a... | self.depression |
I'm constantly thinking of all of the "worst case scenarios" that could be happening, and it's haunting me [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Might lose my daughter The fear is hitting me hard that my fiancee is planning to move out of town. With or without me. I told her I don't want to move away from the city we live in, but my opinion doesn't seem to matter and she's still looking for a place. Plus friends are coming to me on her plans, and she doesn't se... | self.depression |
The Feeling of Wanting to Die. Today's the third day I abruptly stopped my medication. There was a change in my medication that gave me constant panic attacks and difficulty breathing for two days. I put a stop to it by not taking the medication and here I am today with all these thoughts consuming me. I keep telling m... | self.SuicideWatch |
I asked a girl for the first time So im a pretty shy guy, and have never approached a girl but there was this girl in store who was really pretty, I went up to her and complimented her, she giggled and I asked for her number but she said no lol, doesn't sound like much but I'm just not afraid of approaching and flirti... | self.offmychest |
Does anyone work third shift hours just to have more freedom and purposely deal with less people? [deleted] | self.depression |
2 weeks into the new year … and it's already starting to become the worst yet.
Next Thursday I'll have an exam deciding on my career at University (if I fail I either have to leave or at the very least repeat the year), a good friend from my studies told me he was not gonna take the exam and instead ask for permission ... | self.depression |
Can't find work and want to die Graduated with a Physics B.Sc. last year and left my masters program a few months ago as I was not enjoying the research and wasn't doing the work needed to get it done because of my disinterest. Been looking for work since. I've applied to 60 places so far, each with a tailored resume a... | self.SuicideWatch |
Overwhelming feeling of sadness I just feel so sad it physically hurts. I'm at work right now and I just want to curl up into a ball. I just wanted to at least type out what I am feeling 😔 | self.depression |
Finally starting to recover, and I'm really happy. Please note the following post contains a semi-nauseating amount of optimism! :P (also CN: SI and SH)
Over the last year, I've largely begun to recover from the worst of my depressive and hypomanic (and one manic) episodes. This is mostly thanks to my awesome pdoc, an... | self.bipolar |
myys issiter is ngoone i hcouldnt sav her from him i lned be with her i mis u sis i be here soon sis i do it for yuo ou to be with you i be ther soon i kno you be ok be yby bouyself but i mis you so umuch it al lhis fault i see you soon like we sued to watch movie we can it ado it again lik e befor when iu ou oyu sused... | self.SuicideWatch |
I don't know how to feel about cutting her off A little over a month ago, I blocked a former friend on facebook and deleted her from my friend list. I started to feel like an excuse for when she just wanted to do something and didn't want to do it alone, so it felt like a chore to go places with her, and she would only... | self.offmychest |
Knowing that everyone is having fun without me makes me want to kill myself | self.SuicideWatch |
My soul mate's mental health Hey everyone. I was on my partner's computer and I saw the following text written in an inconspicuous document from the last time we were separated. We've been together a little over a year and a half and only briefly broken up twice due to issues with our similar difficulties with sexualit... | self.SuicideWatch |
seriously thinking about suicide after work Background:
21F
I have binge eating/purging issues and I'm on the heavier side of my disorder right now being 5' 2" and 185 lbs. I've been rejected from relationships so many times because of my weight and I can't seem to stop binging and restricting.
I make very little mon... | self.depression |
Can someone please help me die If you have access to a firearm or any other quick way to kill myself with, please hmu. I don't have access to anything and I don't want to live. | self.SuicideWatch |
So 30 and a virgin. I’ve been thinking lately about hiring an escort. I’m 30 and have never been on a date, kissed a girl, or even held hands with one. My thinking is that at this rate I’ll die alone and a virgin and that an escort is my only option. I also wonder if it would stop me from being so embarrassed about sex... | self.depression |
Loving someone with depression is painfully hard. Does it ever get easier? | self.depression |
How do you get your confidence back? For the last 2 years, I've been stuck in a loop.
I want to regain my confidence back! That's it! I hate how I am always scared to do new things or get back into old habits. My boyfriend has been nothing, but supportive, but I can't see that sometimes and I feel that really hurts h... | self.Anxiety |
Just cannot get up in the morning Hi everyone. So for many years I've had the same issue that has held me back both personally and in the world of work... I just can't get up in the morning.
This all started when I was 18 (about 8 years ago) but has been compounded by various antipsychotics I've been on in the last d... | self.bipolar |
Why does my anxiety make me cry? As soon as I start to feel anxious, I can’t breathe and start hyperventilating before breaking down in tears. Every time.
My managers are aware of my depression and anxiety and are very supportive but I’m worried my constant crying whenever something stressful happens will make them t... | self.Anxiety |
Questions in regards to quitting smoking I posted this over at the Schizoaffective but thought it couldn't hurt to seek advice and what not here too.
So I have decided to make the life changing jump and try to quit smoking. I have been a smoker for the better part of the last 20 years and know this is going to be a to... | self.bipolar |
People in my life will be better off without me I think it is truly time to finally give up and end this miserable existence. I wake up every single morning to start the process that my brain goes through every day. It is painful being stuck with this brain, worry, anger, depression, mood swings, lonely, irritable, anx... | self.SuicideWatch |
I don't want to die, I just want the pain to stop I've experience ton of beautiful things in the past, I had friends, a perfect and beautiful girlfriend that was meant to be my wife. I had happy days.
She dumped me in august and didn't even try to fix things. Now the woman I shared everything with, loved more than any... | self.depression |
I think I might shoot myself on Christmas in front of my girlfriend I won't write a note or anything. I won't do anything to suggest that I was planning to kill myself.
I am not trans! | self.SuicideWatch |
I need help. Can someone teach me how to do things? I'm serious. I can't do things anymore.
Every now and then I realise how little I'm actually doing with my life and I'll make a list. Not a particularly big or challenging list, it'll usually be something like:
* Clean my room
* Meditate for 10 minutes
* Get a hai... | self.depression |
Today I believe in myself. From a very early age, I suffered from low self-esteem. I rarely ever expressed my beliefs or opinions or thoughts because I mostly didn't believe they were worth hearing.
I've restrained myself my whole life. 2017 was the year I put my confidence first and I dug deep down and tried to figur... | self.offmychest |
Maybe this is the night Two shots down, a bleeding wrist and letter half written. A wasted life, and a fucked up kid. Maybe this is the night that I finally say fuck it, and the night that I finally go through with one of the many plans that I have. | self.SuicideWatch |
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