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I fucking hate my brother. He is a worthless piece of shit. You fooled around with the girl I was dating. I had to break up with her, because I knew at the end of the day, I could never marry her. I could never trust her.. or a piece of shit like you.
You said you would step back and you didn't.. You continued to pur... | self.offmychest |
Forgetting to take meds Once in a while I forget to take my medications (Lamictal and Lexapro), which I take in the mornings. I always notice within just a few hours that I start to get dizzy, light headed, tired, "fuzzy", it's such an uncomfortable feeling, (almost unbearable).
Does anyone else have a similar physio... | self.bipolar |
Gun range suicide? Ill be at a gun range soon, does anyone know if they have anything to stop you from turning the gun on yourself? Ive never been, but i may have my chance. | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel like de-activate my Facebook. Should I do it? I don't even use my Facebook, I only use it for messenger. Only time I go on Facebook is like once a week to check my notifications.
Question: if I remove my Facebook can I still use Messenger app? | self.Anxiety |
I applied for a job but messed it up. I just applied for my first job but I think I accidentally put in false information and I have no idea how. I feel like such a failure and I haven’t found anyway to fix it. I just had a panic attack and my mom and dad yelled at me and I think they’re fighting now. I’m such an idiot... | self.offmychest |
I don't know what to do or if I need to do anything I just want to know if I'm depressed or just some form of crazy. I find my self talking at no one after remembering random parts in time when I wished I
could've changed what I've said and I just start thinking out loud not caring if the
people outside my window or my... | self.depression |
My life will probably end in a suicide I don't know about you but I find life extremely boring and depressing. We're literally here to study, have breakdowns because of studying, all because of an empty promise of a good job. Then we work until we die. What the serious fuck is this?
I absolutely abhorr studying, I'm h... | self.SuicideWatch |
R/depressed largely based on loneliness but cant bond with most people Currently dual enrollment in college (16) and im wondering what i can do to establish friendships. Im introverted but there are times when i crave human connection and i feel as if theres a cage between me and everyone else. I havent had a close ... | self.depression |
My parents now know... both of the CAMHS workers ive been with came and had a meeting with my mum and myself today.
She now knows im actively suicidal and knows everything pretty much apart from my self harm. Talking about it made me angry and i cried, dispite me hating to say it. I did.
I dont know how i feel now, i... | self.depression |
Strange day The stress and anxiety from triggered on the plane triggered a odd up and down cycle. I had been mostly meh or down all winter break but then after having an internal panic attack during airport security checks I paced back and forth throughout the terminal went to a food stand spent 15 dollars on a pizza a... | self.bipolar |
When did you realize you had depression? I ask because I feel like I might be depressed and I guess I struggle with what exactly the “definition” of depression is. But I always seem to talk myself out of it with “But I’m not sad.” “I have nothing to be sad about.” Yet I feel like I’m not myself.
I struggle with a con... | self.depression |
Someone died, I need time off. I got myself into this situation.... I am a contractor that is surrounded by employees. I get zero time off, zero sick time, zero time for anything.
Taking a day off costs me $200+.
My aunt died last week. Last night it just hit me. I mean, it just really, really hit me.
I am in h... | self.depression |
I feel worthless every day. Why do I need to keep on living if there's nothing to live for [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I told the cashier the wrong price at checkout. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Working out making me worse Hi, 6 months ago i changed my life and started to lift weights after 30 years of no exercise and being a fat couch potato - i'm making great progress and already lifting more weight than i ever expected, my muscles are growing and im already 6'5 so i cant wait to look big, anyway ive always ... | self.Anxiety |
What the fuck is happening Just three days ago I had one of the best days in a long time because I spent the whole day with a friend. We went out to eat, walked in the park, hung out at the mall, had some nice conversations, and just enjoyed each other’s company. She might have even started to see me as more than a fr... | self.depression |
Me (13 Yr old guy) is experiencing my crush (12 Yr old and Female) cutting herself, I want to get her help but don't want to destroy our friendship.
As the title says, I'm only a 13 yr old guy so this is a lot for me. My crush is a 12 yr old girl, were both in 7th grade, and we sit next to each other in english class.... | self.offmychest |
Should I go to the hospital Hey guys,
I‘m afraid of asking anyone I know personally about this, but since I can stay anonymous, and I really really need another opinion on this, I thought I may post on here.
So basically, I‘m a teenager who‘s had depression for 3-4 years now - I was never diagnosed, but I visit a psy... | self.SuicideWatch |
My brother died about a month ago, and everything is getting worse. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Experiences with low dose of lithium? I’m hesitant to start because of the horror stories. Was wondering if anyone has had success with a low dose | self.bipolar |
Has anyone else tried to get rid of their depression but it just won’t go away? I feel like I’ve tried everything. There have been so many days when I would just lie in my bed after work for hours and do nothing but stare at the walls and cry. Lately, I’ve went on hikes, spent time with family, read books, wrote storie... | self.depression |
Too weak to even kill myself I want to kill myself but I never do. I almost did once, but my husband took the gun away from me. I have Borderline Personality Disorder and Type II Bipolar Disorder. Type II means I don't get mania, I get hypomania, the less fun one. I spend most of my time depressed, though. The BPD make... | self.SuicideWatch |
How do you contact your p-doc outside of appointments? Hey all, posting under alt throwaway for reasons.
I recently had a pdoc retire which meant dealing with the lovely process of finding a new one. It took months and was all around bad. So I finally started seeing this new doc and things are looking better...
Excep... | self.bipolar |
Crying I want to cry but now instead of crying I now just sit, there has to be a real trigger or the bucket has to overflow after standing there for a while. Anger seems to fill in the emptyness for me. | self.depression |
I Feel Lonely and It's Rare For Me To Feel Lonely Yup, I didn't think it would happen to me. NOT ME! Before now I've never felt lonely, as I'm quite introverted. I always thought that I was a tough boy, and that I'd never feel like I would need other people. I didn't have any friends and I still don't except for my lif... | self.offmychest |
Lithium Carbonate - what to expect Hey everyone! I recently got prescribed Lithium Carbonate 150mg twice a day. Can anyone who has had experience give me some advice/things on what to expect? Appreciate it! | self.bipolar |
Does anyone feel like the only reason they accomplish shit is to make hypomania feel better? It doesn't matter what I'm working on; my appearance, money, whatever. It feels like the only reason I do it is so that when I'm hypomanic I have more substance to boost my ego. Being hypomanic and feeling like a god when you'r... | self.bipolar |
hurting myself currently laying on the bathroom floor crying and wanting to cut myself for the first time in years. someone help me | self.depression |
I did a family history presentation and overshared I'm not gonna repeat what I said in my presentation cause like I said, I overshared. I'm cringing just thinking about it. Just told everyone some tragic/weird stuff from my family's past that really shouldn't have been part of the project, more like stuff you'd tell a ... | self.offmychest |
Re-pression I have been living with depression and anxiety for around 10 years with it being diagnosed a few years ago. I have been in a really good place for several months, but the past several weeks have been slowly grinding me back down. I just want to cry right now, but I can’t find the time or space to go there... | self.depression |
I can't think of a title I don't even know anymore. I have a hard time talking to people about how to rationally handle my thoughts. I jump from point A --> B. I got two options.
1.) Check myself into psyc ward..
2.) Take a week off work to concentrate on my family
Back in July, I actually had a gun and attempted... | self.SuicideWatch |
Did opening up about your suicidal thoughts help you out? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Apps you're using these days? hi all, I have tried several apps for anxiety, mindfulness, and self compassion, most of which I recommend. But there are always so many new ones coming out, and nothing is on my radar for regular use anymore (except a breathing exercise one). What's on your phone these days? | self.Anxiety |
Holiday depression Does anyone have advice on how to cope with depression triggered by the holidays? I suffer with depression year-round and around the winter holidays it gets to the worst point, suicidal (I attempted last year). I thought this year would be different, but it’s creeping back fast. This year I’m also go... | self.depression |
Nearly two weeks later I'm still here Tomorrow will mark two weeks since I set out to kill myself.
Needless to say I (fortunately) failed to do so. While I never followed through with my actual method, I had started on my backup plan by the time I called 911. The cops were the first to show, mainly because that's stan... | self.SuicideWatch |
My 18th was one of my most shitty birthdays yet. Expecting far more to come after.
On my 18th, my dad and sister don’t say happy birthday to me. My dad simply drops me off at work and my sister doesn’t even look at me. I work a long ass shift and since I’m autistic/introverted, I come home and just want to be left alo... | self.offmychest |
I am ashamed of my race So I am half Filipino. I was born and raised in the U.S. But my mother wasn't. So in the Philippines, there is a lot of problems going on there like the drug war and their crazy president in there. Also, some people have bad experiences in their like The Beatles. I feel insecure since other peo... | self.offmychest |
Can people who have had success with with antidepressants give me motivation to get me to try to get them. I've been trying for a long time to beat this shit by myself. But I've just lost at this point. I'd love some sort of an echo chamber forced placebo kind of thing to know how well anti depressants have worked for ... | self.depression |
Am I a difficult patient???? What's wrong with me? I always go in circles. So if you want some background on my experience with my psych you can click [here](https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/comments/7llva7/my_psychiatrist_made_my_depression_worse/?st=JC2B0A35&sh=e956cce2).So ever since my experience with my psy... | self.depression |
When I kill myself, it'll be a relief. I know in the back of my head that when I kill myself, the people around me will be very slightly relieved - even if they'd never admit to it. I know this because I've felt that way before myself. No matter how much you want to tell yourself it isn't true, when someone that depres... | self.SuicideWatch |
To my younger self The bus rumbled onwards. Past the T.G.I. Friday's where We used to buy weed and towards Alex's new place. That stranger last night was right. This Planet called earth is beautiful, and if You kill your self You will have missed it, because there's always something to look at, A new place to explore o... | self.offmychest |
No weight gain, but my clothes don't fit (tw: weight) I started taking meds again sometime in July. I have been through vraylar/Zoloft combo, a very short time taking lamactil, and now I was just upped to 50mg of topamax.
My doctor has been monitoring my weight. I have not because I can't. I have anorexia and any trac... | self.bipolar |
Does anyone else feel like there's two people inside of their head constantly fighting? [deleted] | self.depression |
The blatant problem with Capitalism The idea is that anybody can be a success, a business owner, a CEO. It overlooks the fact that for every business owner or CEO, there are multiple employees almost by default. So while it's *possible* for "anyone" (assuming nepotism doesn't exist, which it does) to make good, it's no... | self.offmychest |
Why do childhood traumas lead to depression in adulthood? [deleted] | self.depression |
Any healthy destructive coping mechinisms? So I know that sounds like its impossible and obviously I am not trying to promote self harm but unfortunately it is something I do. I mentally need to do something self destructive to be able to cope otherwise I find myself snap and do some extremely self destructive things. ... | self.depression |
I slept last night, and that's such a win for me! ohh and check out our discord, it's awesome!! Hey guys!!!
I have chronic insomnia thanks to anxiety and depression, and I actually slept last night. I woke up like once to pee hahaha but that's it. God that felt sooooooooo good!!!
check out the discord if you get... | self.Anxiety |
Trying to help a suicidal friend I’m not sure if this was the right place to post this, but it seemed appropriate. A person I met online a few weeks ago has been saying some very concerning things about wanting to kill himself. He’s bulimic and eats less than 1000 calories a day, and a couple of days ago he started unc... | self.SuicideWatch |
I had a mental breakdown and started to cry and scream I don’t want to live anymore [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Anyone at home with folks and no energy to wish them a happy new year? I just don't think I can do it. What's the point of it, just because we're expected to do it? Then again if I don't do it I'm going to feel guilty.
Fuck all the happy, functional families out there. | self.depression |
What /really/ holds us back? Hello. I'm not sure if this is the best place to post but since anxiety is a huge part of my life.... I will post it here. I was trying to fall asleep and as usual I couldn't until I thought of stuff. And I got thinking... Why am I afraid? Why is my self-worth so low? Why do I care so much ... | self.Anxiety |
I really dont know if I can make it through So. I really dont know how to express what i want to, but i know damn well that i need to because im scared ill do something stupid.
I have been depressed for 3 years. Its gone up and down, but it never leaves. Ive tried my best to not selfharm, but goddamn sometimes its so... | self.SuicideWatch |
I furiously hate eating Is that something some of you also feel? Eating literally anything resembles for me eating tasteless blobs with raw salt etc. I also treat it as pooping backwards and eats just barely enough to survive - for example 2 bread cuts without anything. Whos with me?
On the other hand drinking anythin... | self.depression |
The best thing a therapist ever said to me still resonates 20 years later. All he said was that he was amazed I was so together and successful after all I'd been through. He was genuine when he said it.
I didn't feel together or successful, or that I could amaze anyone. No one had ever been impressed with me before. ... | self.offmychest |
I need help. DAE here prescribed with Ketilept (Quetiapine)? Did it work well for you? It was my first night taking Ketilept and just about 30 mins. I already felt sleepy. Before I knew it I was knocked down. After 1 hour, my mom woke me up. And as I was standing up and walking, I suddenly fell on the ground. My vision... | self.depression |
Don't you hate when this happens I hate it when I ask someone if they wanna hangout, talk, or call because then they'll tell "oh sorry I'm busy, oh sorry I can't". It's always a sorry I can't to be honest I'm not surprised by this response no more I just be like "oh of course". Great friends I have! So reliable when yo... | self.depression |
Literally the only things keeping me from offing myself is my family and my gf.. [deleted] | self.depression |
Anxiety, shit sleep, and medication I’m a social worker, I’m burnt out and I’m backed up at work which makes it worse. I was on long term meds for depression and anxiety but about 9 months ago the meds were really fucking me up, I was in between psychiatrists so I weaned myself off by systematically lowering the medica... | self.Anxiety |
I cant take no more. The demons are winning. But i dont have the balls just yet [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Got a small anxiety attack a moment ago. This attack was partially self-inflicted. So my other half was cleaning the house, and when he does this I always get extreme anxiety. The thing is I have and do a couple of things that I would like to keep to myself (a secret). The problem is that I don't always dispose of th... | self.Anxiety |
I constantly type out long rants about how fucked up I am, and keep deleting them. Everything is completely meaningless, I long for attention and at the same time I want everyone to leave me alone. What is wrong with me? Why can't I just be happy? why can't i just be content? FUCKING WHY?!?!?!?!? | self.depression |
I need some goddamn space from my husband He’s here all the fucking time. Every fucking day. I see his face all the time. And most of the time, it’s great. He’s a great husband, great father, overall great guy. But that doesn’t make him any less of a person, and I need time way from people.
He calls himself an introve... | self.offmychest |
Having suicidal thoughts again for the first time in years. I'm lonely. I'm tired of being lied to. I'm so tired. I've tried every avenue I can think of. I've improved myself. But no matter what, nothing changes. And now the thought of ending the pain is very enticing to me. No one near me, none of my friends know what... | self.SuicideWatch |
Waking up anxious I wake up in the mornings with instant anxiety. Sometimes it’s because of a dream sometimes I just wake up anxious for no reason. I hate it!! | self.Anxiety |
I’ve been cutting myself and I keep dreaming about my suicide I keep dreaming that they won’t give me another chance and that they’ll never forgive me.
I hate that idea and I hate myself so much.
I’ve been taking a scissor and gliding it across my skin. It’s easier to cut on the lower part of my forearm. But I notice... | self.SuicideWatch |
Need advice with Dysthymia So, back when I was 17 (I am 27 now) I was diagnosed with Dysthymia. I don't have insurance through my employer just yet, but, I'm finding it increasingly harder every day to stay positive. I'll have maybe a good 15 minutes after a mental pep talk, but then it's all ruined. I was addicted to ... | self.depression |
Yep, I'm getting closer and closer Usually at this time of the year I'm not that depressed because I like christmas and spending time with my family. This time around it was ok, but I could feel that something was wrong. Now that everyone's gone and I'm alone again I feel so bad.
There's also this girl. I started lik... | self.SuicideWatch |
What medication helps you guys ? I have a rendez vous with my psy in 2 days and so far in three years I tried Zoloft, Paxil, seroquel, risperdal .. 5 htp, valerian roots but nothing ever worked .. my anxiety is intense | self.Anxiety |
I need a girl friend. I live with 5 guys. My best friend is a guy. I live in a male dominated world and I’m perfectly okay with it— 99.9% of the time.
That other little .01% of the time I really want-no, *need* a girlfriend to do dumb girl stuff with me.
I want a girl to go shopping with me and to talk about make u... | self.offmychest |
I'm falling for a friend He's my friend. It would be so much simpler to keep things that way. But I want more, and I can't get him off my mind. | self.offmychest |
Feels like I'm never good enough I've been struggling with depression as long as I can remember. I'm 35 and have been in and out of therapy for 30 years. Been on a ton of at best useless pharmaceuticals. Tricyclics, tetracyclics, SSRIs, SNRIs, mood stabilizers, second gen antipsychotics, and probably at least one more ... | self.depression |
I just had a panic attack at my first job. I just need to let this out. I want to cry my brains out because I feel like a failure and ashamed that I had a panic attack at work. I've been having breathing issues which haven't been diagnosed yet, and then anxiety on top of it. I've been doing so well at it for the past f... | self.Anxiety |
It’s hard, man. My anxiety honestly hasn’t been too big of an issue for awhile now. I was on Zoloft for about a year. Fixed it up but in retrospect I’ve been pretty zombieish for the last few months. I just started Wellbutrin and I’m pretty hopeful.
But man. I’m in a graduate program with about 100 people so t... | self.Anxiety |
Writing off 2017 2017 was a write off for me. I am humbled and broken.
I lost my partner. (she decided it wasn't working out after 2.5 years)
I lost my son. (he decided to live with his mother full time)
I got my lowest rating at work in 15 years.
I think there were external factors, but nonetheless I'll except fu... | self.depression |
Chronic neurological flatulence Aka brain farts. Anyone get them often enough that you feel like you forget how to talk? It's been happening nonstop for me for a while lately. I had a 2 year period where I could freely talk to people and not feel awkward, but this year has gotten worse and worse, to the point where I n... | self.Anxiety |
My friend told me he wants to kill himself [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I would kill for some consistency A week ago my doctor put up my dose of Depakote because I was hypomanic, I asked to go up because it was getting to the point where it was uncomfortable and I knew I was making decisions that I would be regretting for years down the road. Things were not going in a healthy direction an... | self.bipolar |
I've having trouble getting over fears, especially when they seem to come true. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Anyone else not trust their emotions? I've been feeling abnormally happy this week/two weeks, I haven't been all that active, but was put on Seroquil I think 2 months ago? (Sorry can't spell the name.) Any one else worry way too much about real vs artificial happiness? | self.bipolar |
I am more depressed than I have the right to be. Things are good right now. I just started dating someone, the busy season at work is basically over for me, my roommate and I just moved in with my mom (temporarily) so my financial situation is very much relieved..and it's Christmas time, which is usually my favorite. M... | self.depression |
What is your experience with Caffeine? It seems that small coffee helps me to decrease my anxiety level. But if I drink more than 3, my anxiety level increases.
I feel pretty bad after just one cup of black tea, surprisingly (I'd assume that it contains less caffein than coffee, so that's weird). | self.Anxiety |
I Dont Trust Anyone Ive had anxiety 20 out of my 29 years. Happy to dicuss my story and yours. | self.Anxiety |
I'm not sure I can handle doing this anymore. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Am i entering a state of depression? Hello reddit, I don't know if i should post these whiny stuffs here, but then i don't have anyone else for me to confess these to.
So a little about myself, I'm bala from india, turning 23 coming feb, currently i'm in a 10-6 job, pay's good, but depressing as hell. THE Routine, the ... | self.depression |
My husband's friend is coming over for dinner tonight and I can't stand him [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I'm not entirely to sure if this is where I belong. Also I apologize for the length [deleted] | self.depression |
Intensive Outpatient Program has anyone been to an IOP? I start one today and am very nervous. what was it like? literally any information/advice you can give would be helpful. | self.depression |
I have strong feeling i am going to die really soon I'm not sure if this is the right subbreddit for this but I need help. Today I've got a really bad headache so I tried to breath some fresh air and drank some water and then all of the sudden I've got a feeling that I'm going to die really really soon. I've read that ... | self.Anxiety |
How do you choose an ER/hospital to go to? I’m not doing great and think I may want to admit myself sometime soon. It’d make the decision easier if I knew beforehand where I was going. I live in a major American city, so there’s a few options. From people who’ve admitted themselves, what did you learn that you’d like t... | self.bipolar |
Anxiety with travel. My SO is going out of town for a few days for a conference for work. I have GAD I am very nervous about him traveling far away and going away on the trip in general. There will also be a time difference. Does anyone have any tips? Stay occupied, distract myself from anxiety, anything to help at ... | self.Anxiety |
Hospitalized for the first time This week I was hospitalized for the first time, I had taken benzos and either they mixed with the lamictal poorly or it was a bad source but I was black out for over 12 hours starting and terrified my wife and family. I am embarrassed and ashamed and while black out I talked about many ... | self.bipolar |
I can't do it. I can't take the pain. So things started getting better between me and my gf.... And then got worse all because of her parents. I miss her so fucking much, and just want to know what's going on. We didn't break up, we didn't have a big fight. I have no idea when/if I'll hear from the woman I love again, ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Sex Repulsion After Months of Lamictal Anyone else lose their desire to be sexually intimate after being on Lamictal for a prolonged period of time? I’m taking 300mg a day. It helps stabilize my mood for the most part, but now I have literally no desire to have sex or get near people. I do not watch pornography nor do ... | self.bipolar |
Please stop contacting me Dear ex friend
I don’t wanna be friends I’ve explained this to you repeatedly. I don’t want to discuss this ever , I only wanna forget this whole five years. Please leave me alone .
Goodbye | self.offmychest |
My friend committed suicide. I can't live with the guilt. [deleted] | self.depression |
Scared for my friend Today marks the 23rd day my friend has been gone.
My friend (online friend, we live in different countries) lived in a house with his abusive mom, and I'm not sure the situation with his dad, but he wouldn't be sent to live there. His friend knew, somewhat, of the abuse and called the police.
Th... | self.Anxiety |
I hate being brown and wish I was white I'm so sick of being what I am. I'm a mixed race person and I've hated myself since I was ten years old. My father is white and my mother is mixed but looks black and there are a lot of black people in her side of the family. They identify with the black community and the garbage... | self.offmychest |
the realization... I JUST subscribed to this because I feel bleh.
I recently went to a "Compassion Fatigue" program at work because I thought that maybe the reason I was feeling down was because I was tired of internalizing people's emotions. 2-3 people at work have been having some really difficult time with life/sc... | self.depression |
Nobody cares if I die No friends and my parents called me a faggot for being suicidal | self.SuicideWatch |
Spent a week manic excited only to get stood up Hey guys!
For background:
I recently finally moved out of my parents place and have been spending alot of time alone since. I've been friends with this person for years but we went through some shit, driven by a depressive episode on my half, and haven't seen each other s... | self.bipolar |
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