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walking skeleton All my skin feels livid and thin, I look like a skeleton with skin stretched over it. I feel so weak and I havent eaten proper in days. I dont know what to do but I want to feel better. | self.depression |
The Turning Point This is an except from my personal blog. I think this sums up where I am right now but also shows where it all started. Not started, actually, because I've had mental health issues my whole life, but I think starting college exacerbated a lot of issues.
"When I was 18 and starting college, I felt so... | self.depression |
Doc perscribed benzos (Lorazepam 0.5mgs) Seems to really help. I don't want to take them all the time even though he wants me to. Really helpful to feel normal for about 10 hours though. It helped put me back on my feet this week and actually get some stuff done. Im just worried about addiction since I have an incredib... | self.Anxiety |
I got caught. So it finally happened, my friends finally found out - all I wanted was some peace and quiet - a way out. But I was too much of a coward. I was found sitting by the riverside, soaking wet, freezing cold - completely unfeeling, knocked out on non-prescription medication and spirit alcohol.
They brought m... | self.depression |
My Story >
So in mid spring 2016 I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2. My main reaction was relief, finally there's a name for what I've been feeling for over a decade - a decade and a half (I was 27 at the time). Then I kind of had a really hard time, I don't know the right word, processing?, it. I had just made a major... | self.bipolar |
I have an irrational fear I’m going to get beat up by my future college roommate I’m a 18/M going to college next year and struggled with anxiety all my life. This is something that captivates my mind constantly and I know how stupid it is but I can’t shake it.
Part of it is that it would be easy. Any guy could fold ... | self.Anxiety |
My husband and I were supposed to go to a party tonight but I can't leave the house. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Feeling like I shouldn’t be allowed to feel depressed. Like the title says. I read through these posts and other depression blogs and I feel like I have no right to be feeling depressed. I have a happy wife, a baby on the way, a nice home, and a good job. Here I am though sitting at work feeling like everything would j... | self.depression |
That awkward moment when you realize the movie “Next” is about a guy living with anxiety and having a very vivid imagination. As a person that deals with crippling anxiety, as most adults do, I feel like the movie “Next” starring Nicolas Cage and Jessica Biel, the movie about a guy who can see into the future and antic... | self.Anxiety |
I made it out of depression but now I have anxiety about what’s next [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Ever feel like the happier you are in social settings the quicker your lows come? Like the title says, does anyone else feel like the more happy and fun times you have in a social setting, the quicker you have a low come along? I personally feel like after having an extremely fun night out with friends it's usually fol... | self.bipolar |
Last ditch effort to save my apartment. Backstory: I've been uber unwell for a long while. More so the past couple years and have been unemployed/going through disability process e.g. post history.
I've posted before about how I'm losing my apartment/about to be homeless.
Also about how I just ended up with a li... | self.bipolar |
Sugar and anxiety I’ve been skimming through the posts and noticed some people mentioned cutting out sugar and helping decrease their anxiety. I was wondering what has been others’ experience with it? I find myself consuming a lot of sugar when I’m particularly anxious and hadn’t though of the effect it may have on my ... | self.Anxiety |
I hate the holidays (Family guilt edition) Every year around this time, my mom and my dad (divorced ~7 years ago) always want to get together for the holidays and they usually request that we visit them. About 5 years ago, my now-wife and I bought a home that is within 2 hours from my dad, mom, and my inlaws. One of ... | self.offmychest |
Dae feel like talking about their anxiety/depression is looking for reassurance about their suicidal thoughts? I feel that way currently.
I'm having a flare up of my severe anxiety and mood swings. I feel like I'm only taking about it so that someone will tell me it's okay to want to die...
I'm so sick of being alive... | self.Anxiety |
I (18F) feel so lost and keep lashing out at people I love, feel worthless, and like a piece of shit I feel like a piece of shit and that I’m nothing. I was salutatorian from my high school and now in college I failed my math class and I’m on 1st semester academic probation, I used to feel smart but now I feel worthles... | self.depression |
This is the worst point of my life. Last week my mother died, and the day after the funeral my fiance broke up with me.
I've battled with depression since I was 12, and this last week has broken me. I feel like I'm cracking up, and I can't function in life anymore. I'm so angry and hurt and hopeless that I can't brea... | self.depression |
I feel like the only thing I look forward to anymore is laying in bed [deleted] | self.depression |
Sometimes I just stare at my phone and hope someone texts me. [deleted] | self.depression |
I just want to be loved as much as I love back. [deleted] | self.depression |
I have this issue with nice comments that I don't understand (First of all, I'd like to say Im new to this subreddit, and I don't know if this would be the right place to post this, so if it isn't, I'm sorry).
This is a bit difficult for me to explain but essentially, whenever anyone comments on my appearance, I feel ... | self.Anxiety |
People who struggle with seasonal depression, has relocating alleviated symptoms at all? [deleted] | self.depression |
Yesterday I got rejected Yesterday,the girl I liked for one year and a half,rejected me when I asked her out this weekend,because "I think you feel something and you want to make something out of it,but I don't feel anything",she said from what I could comprehend.I felt disappointed because I thought she could understa... | self.offmychest |
Rant about life (20 years old male depressed student) I was searching Reddit how can a quiet guy/observer/thinker-rather-than-talker date a girl et I came to no conclusion. Most seem to say that you should just be able to carry a conversation. Well I can do that and ask about her day and yada yada yada but it would be ... | self.depression |
When people think you just don’t give a sh** about anything [deleted] | self.depression |
I hate that my friends get annoyed at my hatred for christianity I went to a catholic school for 9 years. I had christianity forced upon me from when I was 5 til I was 14. Literally when I was still in elementary school, I tried to force myself to read the bible and pray. I never liked it, it was never for me, but I wa... | self.offmychest |
I'm tired of this Everyday, I smile so I don't have to explain my pain. I write thing on myself and punch things to cope. I'm tired of living like this. I'm tired of living. I've already tried to take my own life several times before. I'm almost willing to try again. I have nothing to lose. I'm only causing my mother m... | self.SuicideWatch |
physical symptoms lead me here I have always been a little angry and had a hard time putting anxious thoughts away. I have these physical problems, IBS... sinus issues, lethargy etc... basically I always feel like shit, not in a normal way... after a million times taking quizzes online and doctors visits that tell me n... | self.Anxiety |
I don't know how long all this will last. I don't know how much more I can handle. Between my own mental issues (mainly dealing with anger and fighting against a possible depression), trying to deal with my narcissistic mother (who, of course, reminds me of the fact that she owns everything I have and am anytime she ca... | self.offmychest |
I get anxious for cross country practice for some reason? So this is my first year on the team, and while I think it was acceptable to be nervous the first week or so of practice and for the meets, there's no reason for me to still be anxious for practice. It's been months and the season's already over. I think I get n... | self.Anxiety |
Is it possible to turn your crippling depression into high-functioning depression? 2017 Was literally the worst year of my life with my plethora of mental health issues and I have fallen back into suicidal depression which I'm trying to get out of but in the meantime, back on old habits of sitting doing nothing or bein... | self.depression |
I just need someone to talk to, please. Anyone that is willing to listen to me and will reply. I just need, someone. | self.depression |
Did great the first 2.5 months of my new job, now I am slipping becuase of my mental health. Please help! [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Depression, schizophrenia or something else? I know this can't be used for medical advice but I'm concerned about someone in my life who refuses medical help.
For some background, this girl was very bubbly, chatty, emotionally expressive, could make friends with anyone. She has been few a few traumatic experiences tha... | self.depression |
To my mother. Why? thats all I am asking. Why did you choose drugs over me? why did you get locked up? I want you to know that I am furious at you and you have fucked me up. and then telling me its my fault? thats even more fucked up. I wish you would stop manipulating me and asking me for money. Just know that I am bl... | self.offmychest |
Turning point maybe? I don't really know if life is about to get better or if this is the calm before the final storm but I have a tiny glimmer of hope right now that maybe I can beat this. I'm usually constantly thinking of killing myself but today was good. | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel like I avoid/can't enjoy sex because of my anxiety Hi everyone
I'm a single guy who is 25 and I feel like I can't do anything sexual because I'm so scared of getting a girl pregnant. Whenever I do have sex I don't enjoy it, I regret it then I replay the scenarios in my head, talk to myself and try to reassure m... | self.Anxiety |
having a really hard time during this part of my life and I don't know when (or if) it'll get better. I'm at a point in my twenties now where, all of my friends have left or moved on from our friendships with no explanation, my ex-boyfriend (who I was in a long distance relationship for quite some time) moved back to m... | self.offmychest |
Does anyone else cycle really regularly through levels of depression? [deleted] | self.depression |
I just came to the conclusion That life isn't all meaningless. I do have a purpose in life. I just want to have friends I just want a decent paying job... I just want someone to hold me in the night and share their love with me.
First let me start off with some information about me. I am 19 years old, male and I've be... | self.depression |
I (16M) am moving to my shitty hometown Alabama in 9 days and leaving everything behind. A lot is on my mind I've moved houses a lot lately because of family issues, but most recently my dad moved to Alabama with my little brother, but I stayed here to finish out the semester so I could get my full credits. I'm a junio... | self.depression |
What do you believe in? Are you religious, atheist, agnostic? What do you think there is after this life?
I believe in reincarnation. Seeing it from a logic point of view, it doesn't matter what kind of person you're now to determine what kind of life you'll have, because no one decides what kind of person wants to be.... | self.SuicideWatch |
Traveling alone I was on a business trip all this week in Colorado, which I have never been to, but always wanted to go. I was given the option to stay the weekend after work is done before going home, which I took. I booked a hotel for myself and have some cool activities planned.
On my way to my hotel I almost got ... | self.Anxiety |
Anyone want to talk? Or play a game online or something Back feeling depressed again and could use a distraction | self.depression |
I don't know what to do. I've been doing a ton of weed lately and I've been kind of lonely so I always try to smoke when I hang out with my friends to get that good feeling again. Today was different though. I was high and in the bathroom and I just asked:
"Hey Ben what day is it?" and he replied "It's Tuesday."
I wa... | self.depression |
I almost killed myself last night I wasn't depressed. I just had the random drive to do it. I usually tell a certain person when I get the thoughts but I didn't say anything. I would have mentioned that we needed to cancel our weekend plans but nothing more. She hopefully would have asked why and it would have come out... | self.bipolar |
shame I'm so sorry this is so long but
this is the story of my sexual assault
most times when something happens that freaks me out, my panic and anxiety take over and i cant remember the details of the event.
this is different. the memory of this night is tattooed into my brain and refuses to be covered. i remember wha... | self.offmychest |
I miss Saturn Very Much This is an excerpt from Kay Redfield Jaminson's book An Unquiet Mind. I read this during my first hospitalization and it still resonates with me.
People go mad in idiosyncratic ways. Perhaps it was not surprising that, as a meteorologist’s daughter, I found myself, in that glorious illusion of ... | self.bipolar |
Had a panic attack last week, missed Friday at work... [deleted] | self.bipolar |
For some reason I want to tell all of you why I will commit suicide Im not sure why I want to tell you all why Im going to commit suicide but for some reason i believe it will be cathartic. I am 16 and I have been given everything I could want. I have never gone hungry and I have never lived without a roof over my head... | self.SuicideWatch |
I dont have the balls to go to prom with this girl I have a friend (F), she studies in a school of girls-only. There is this girl (A) from that same school, some time ago i found (A) instagram and fell in love with her looks, seriously, she is stunning. I found out (F) knew her and i always joked with her about how rid... | self.Anxiety |
Stressed becsuse schoolwork is starting to load on me but too lazy and depressed to do it. Right now our school is on break for a week, and damn I'm the happiest I've ever been. I've been grinding in Rocket League and just having fun. Something I enjoy doing.
But I realize REAL QUICK this is all gonna disappear. My mom... | self.depression |
My job is making me depressed I've been at the same job for almost 2 years now. I've recently become so depressed due to my job it's affecting my personal life (sleep, hobbies, relationships).
I work for a very small (10 people) company. My roles/responsibilities aren't outlined clearly. I end up doing things "wrong" ... | self.offmychest |
Somebody, please Paint the walls with my brains, take the pain away. | self.depression |
Just so tired of all this pain Posted a much longer post not too long ago if anyone out there cares at all just needed to say some more stuff out loud I guess. I've started cutting again for the first time in years. It doesn't even hurt like it used to. Maybe just because of how little I care about life anymore. I don'... | self.SuicideWatch |
Reaction to oral steroids? Trying to fend off pneumonia, I was prescribed oral streroids. Anyone else have problems with them? I am straight up hypomanic right now. 😆 | self.bipolar |
Round two and affecting work Hello all,
So, a few months ago I got my first job out of college as a middle school teacher. I had to move away from the school I went to college in and was no closer to my family, so I was mostly alone (my boyfriend, luckily, lived nearby). I made no friends last year, experienced a trau... | self.depression |
I just realized I don’t care about almost anything. I was talking to a friend about how I have issues motivating myself to do things. He said find something you like to do, and make it so you can’t do that until the work is done. Issue is i don’t like to do anything. I told him this much, so he ask if I cared about any... | self.depression |
I'm useless I've never helped my parents with anything, I've never contributed something to society, I've never made people feel good, I was never unique, I never did good in school, I don't have a degree/job, I definitely don't have proud parents.
And the hardest part is, that my parents still love me.
I just want t... | self.depression |
What to do? Been crying and sleeping a lot and at times I feel nothing and I can't sleep. I have so many problems, my mom is constantly pressuring me to find a job and I haven't even graduated college yet and I'm still undergoing On the Job Training. She keeps making me feel like shit. She keeps treating me like shit.... | self.SuicideWatch |
My husband passed away and I have regrets My husband passed away 2 days before Christmas, at the age of 26 and I'm really struggling to deal with it. He was the most wonderful man in the world and I owe him everything. I don't want to go into details, but my husband was an angel to me.
One thing he always wanted was t... | self.offmychest |
Thinking about ending it all, because I love myself, but not my life I don’t have low self esteem. I don’t hate the person who I am. I just don’t want to continue this life anymore. I hate my family. I hate my “friends”. I’ve always felt this way, ever since I was I child.
I always thought that once I got older... | self.SuicideWatch |
Am I a horrible person Im a piece of shit, I do drugs and a few days ago when I was coming down from speed I was crying and had a panicked attack I promised myself never to do any speed or anything like that again yesterday I did dmt for the first time and it made me really relax even today, it made me realize the thin... | self.depression |
Relating your behavior to song lyrics & artists I just made the connection that my behavior (BP1) is related to a lot of lyrics to songs of Ke$ha and Demi Lovato lately.
Holy cannoli batman. I didn't think of this until today around 7:30 am my time.
These 2 women also suffer with mental health issues and have also ... | self.bipolar |
Dealing with anxiety in a call Center I've always had trouble with anxiety around angry people. So of course, like an idiot, I got a job in a call center. For the most part people are pretty nice however, when I do come across the occasional angry person who just wants to scream and throw obscenities everywhere, it can... | self.Anxiety |
I absolutely hate growing up. When I started high school I always felt this terrible overwhelming nostalgic feeling like I knew already that I would miss everything in front of me and my youth. That growing up would mean I would lose my naïveté and that things would be less enjoyable, less lovable, less passionate and ... | self.depression |
Thanks, Mania Thank you for word vomiting all over an interview and ruining my chances for a job I really wanted. You never cease to amaze me with how quickly you can ruin something. Ugh. | self.bipolar |
Spending New Years Eve alone because I don’t want to bring anyone else down [deleted] | self.depression |
What do I do if my insurance doesn’t cover mental health care? I was diagnosed at the beginning of the month with Bipolar 2, GAD, and MDD with psychosis. I started on Lamotrigine and Gabapentin.
I started a new job this week and just found out that the only plan that covers any type of mental health care is the highe... | self.bipolar |
I feel lonely, thoughts of suicide looming getting stronger every day I moved to take care of my mother after college. She could barely pick things up and get out of bed. I was able to get work in IT from home traveling only a couple a times a year. It's been 5 years. I am 27 and depressed. I haven't learn to drive, I ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm never going to achieve my dreams so what's the fucking point I want to become an illustrator for game art, comics, etc and it's never going to happen. I've been drawing for 10 years and can't draw for shit. I can't even slightly draw. Everything I draw looks like absolute garbage and I literally punch myself becaus... | self.depression |
i basically have no friends, and it's starting to get to me... in actuality, i have about three friends, but:
friend #1: moved to california, and is always busy (i live in florida).
friend #2: is a very to himself kind of person, so he rarely talks to me.
friend #3 (my best friend): is in a relationship now, and we ... | self.depression |
Feel like I'm ready to get help, but how I've known for a long time that something isn't right. But now I feel ready to do something about it. I don't know what, and I don't know how, and I don't know why now and not before.
I don't like not knowing things. I'm a planner, and one way I can feel in control is to plan e... | self.depression |
DAE feel like their friends don't actually like them? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I just don't know where I went wrong. Everything should be fine, but it just isn't. The two REAL friends I had are drifting from me. Every college I have applied to has denied me. I went from starting on the best team at my revered soccer team to sitting on the bench for the second team, and I don't know where it all w... | self.SuicideWatch |
Weaning off antidepressants - any success stories? Hello everybody, this is my first post here on reddit after lurking on the site for quite a while.
I'm a 26 yo woman and have been struggling with anxiety and depression since I was 19, after a (fairly mild?) panic attack that felt to me like a stroke. Needless to say... | self.depression |
I have a lot of existential Anxiety, and when I'm not busy doing something every minute, I get worse. How can I break this cycle? | self.Anxiety |
Anyone taken Prozac (Fluoxetine) for anxiety? My doctor prescribed me 10mg Prozac today for anxiety. I don't have any depression, just anxiety. I'm nervous to take it due to effects I've heard about. I also don't want to lose what little sex drive I have left! Anyone have experience?. | self.Anxiety |
Phone vibration makes me extremely anxious Whenever I hear a phone ring with that silenced vibrating sound I feel filled with panic why? | self.Anxiety |
Mood I was feeling okay half an hour ago but now I'm back to being empty and sad.
Also, I was really really angry yesterday. I was sobbing and punching the wall, but 10 minutes later I was the calmest I've been in the whole week.
What the fuck? | self.depression |
Why am I like this? 2017 has been my year, amazing grades, my license, a car, a new place to live. Steady and stable job. Loving friends and family. My mental health has been off the rails this whole year. I don't really know how to deal with this. I'll stay alive, I'll get through life, finish college on full scholars... | self.depression |
I have extreme fear of other people Hello everyone, a little info about me, I'm 26 years old guy, to keep things short, depression runs in my family from both sides, and I've been abused severely by my father pretty much my whole life. I grew up to be in constant state of paranoia of other people judging me, never thou... | self.Anxiety |
I've finally been able to push myself for it [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
My Dad committed suicide 15 years ago this Christmas. Sorry for errors I’m using mobile.
This Christmas will make it 15 years since my Dad committed suicide. I was 11 at the time and I can’t recover from this. Every year in December I feel like I relive a morbid count down to Christmas Day, and I can’t stop thinking a... | self.offmychest |
Where do I start? I am at a loss. Over the course of a couple of years I have alienated my wife to the point that she just told me that we "aren't in a marriage", which is fair since she's been living somewhere else for months. A huge part of it is my negativity, my being ok with wallowing and being depressed for way... | self.depression |
Maybe I made a mistake, but I'm still happy So I left my previous dead end job of nine years back in June. I literally hated getting up every day and felt so blah. I finally left it to go to a start up in an industry that is big and getting bigger. The thing is, its commission based and the competition is fierce. It ha... | self.offmychest |
[NAW] Too Much Stress I love my mother, but she stresses me out beyond anything else and it affects other aspects of my life. I've had to quit college twice. The first time because contributing 75% of my part time paycheck wasn't enough, and I had to work more or risk being homeless. My mother and I lived with her frie... | self.offmychest |
I Let everybody lie to me just so i could fuck them all off i knew i had some form of down-syndrome / fas but i kept quiet and seen how many people would deny it if i asked them it fucking hurts man
i know im fucked up i know im stupid but why the fuck would they lie to me | self.offmychest |
What's wrong with death being a "permanent solution"? All the problems are gone forever. Bad things always overbear the good ones. Why should I deal with one problem after another, when I can just end it definitely? I don't have anything to prove to anyone, I don't give a fuck if it makes me strong or all that "I matte... | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel like an old man with 22 Ironic isn't it? I am not even shure if I count as depressed.
This should be the best time of my life, but it certainly is the worst I guess.
I don't inherently want to die, or comit suicide.
I don't have a massive pile of self hating.
I just feel empty. Burned. Used.
Ever... | self.SuicideWatch |
(15F) Am I depressed? I can't tell Some background:
I'm 15 years old and when I started my new school 4 years ago at 11 I began to become really anxious and depressed, but was never diagnosed. I'm much better than how I used to be but I'm confused as to whether I'm normal or not.
Symptoms:
1.I don't feel "connecte... | self.depression |
The things I can’t say to my family at Thanksgiving.
I hate this global culture we live in. It’s so boring. People are just homogeneous. The internet was a mistake. Anything profound is reduced to a brief post to be read and forgotten. Think of how many huge tragedies happen. Does anyone really think about Sandy Hook... | self.offmychest |
Does a suicidal person, try to reasure themself that they are not suicidal? Do they fear that It can finish fatally? I am suffering from suicidal thoughts and impulses, but can't tell if they are real and if i really want it? Is this active SI/Sucidality?
So I was sitting on my laptop editing a video, relatively fine... | self.SuicideWatch |
DNA testing and questioning my diagnosis. I did the 23andme depression/bipolar study and got my results back yesterday. I discovered that I ought to be lactose intolerant(I'm not), that I have more Neanderthal DNA than 97% of 23andme users, my alzheimer's risk is slightly elevated(no surprise), I am not a carrier for t... | self.bipolar |
Depressed, but do not want to talk to guidance counselor H | self.depression |
I need help My depression and anxiety have creeped up on me tonight and I feel like a walking pile of shit set on fire. Does anyone have any tips that will make me feel less... sad | self.Anxiety |
I’m pathetic I’ve been a misanthrope all my life but it started with hope and now as everyday goes by, I lose every ounce of myself. I have been through a lot in my life so far, I lost my Dad who was my best friend only two months ago. He had a brain tumour operation which wasn’t successful in 2015 and he was brain dea... | self.depression |
Sickness and depression So, I’ve been manic or mixed since before September. Now with this viral bronchitis crap, I’m crying a lot more and just want to sleep. Hello, depression. Even though, for me, depression is safer than mania, god I miss mania.
I want to know the stats with sickness and mood change. | self.bipolar |
On thoughts They are my greatest friends and my worst enemies. They take me to extravagant worlds, enlighten me and make me laugh. They can be like my own personal gang of cheerleaders, boosting my self esteem, pulling me out of self hatred sometimes to the point of arrogance. Thoughts can show me the beauty of the wor... | self.offmychest |
:) -> :l -> :( Im 21, I had a sister go through a horrible couple of years of depression. I always there for her and I was always trying to show confidence around her.
I live on my own now, and I live a 21 yr olds life. Regardless of me never being in a relationship, and other fk ups in my life I always put on a... | self.depression |
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