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I'll slowly dismember myself I have to take another day of uni [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I can't cope anymore I was assaulted nearly 2 months ago and I can't get it out of my head. I have dreams about it, I have flashbacks all the time I can't get through a day without reliving it in some way. I see him all the time, I'm scared to sleep in my own bed and I can't walk past his neighbourhood without being te... | self.SuicideWatch |
Mixed Feelings Hi, all didn't really know who to talk to so I came here. I don't really know whats wrong with me. But for some reason, I feel empty on the inside. I don't want to be around people, I keep all my emotions on the inside and never tell anyone how I am really feeling, I don't see eye to eye with my parents ... | self.depression |
Creativity is more fleeting than it used to be? I am/was a very creative person I went to an Arts high school and ya da ya da. I created art in cycles, I could be very prolific in painting, poetry, music... etc. It didn’t always have to be a manic episode.
Now, that I received this official diagnosis in early universi... | self.bipolar |
I tried to kill myself last night. I have been suffering from depression and anxiety for years now but it wasn't until about 6 months ago that the thought of suicide be gain creeping into my head.
I have tried so very hard to beat my mental illness. Medication, group therapy, 12 step meetings, extremely awkwar... | self.SuicideWatch |
I don't want to date beta men, so therefore now there is no body left for me [deleted] | self.offmychest |
How do you deal with “missing out” on normal fun experiences? I see two friends together in a coffee shop chatting and laughing or a group of people being very engaging in the conversations and I just think how the hell do I do that?
Why can’t I ever have a best friend that I grab coffees with or go shopping together... | self.Anxiety |
Depressed because I'm a terrible person? Or terrible person because I'm depressed? I'm so critical of everything and negative all the time. Constantly irritated and angry. its like I do my best to make people hate me.
For awhile, my depression just took the form of isolation and boredom, but it has morphed into cynici... | self.depression |
29 M just not good enough. I'm off my antidepressant. It just makes me feel okay when things are not okay. I am running out of time. 29 years old and my time to have success or kids is dwindling. I think I don't get to be happy. It's for the rich or the beautiful. Women don't marry down in social or economic class.
I ... | self.SuicideWatch |
How to explain to my school why anxiety is causing me to fail my class? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I never ever wake up on time even at 1 PM and it's literally killing me. [deleted] | self.depression |
Intense outpatient treatment Hi, my psychiatrist recently encouraged me to look into intense outpatient treatment for severe depression/anxiety/anger/manic depression. I set up an evaluation but was wondering what other people’s experiences were like, since group therapy kind of sounds like a bunch of quackery to me.
... | self.bipolar |
I have bad luck with pets I feel really bad in this moment. Las year I had a Samoyedo dog, I loved him, he was joyful and great, but had to give him to the police because he was too big to stay in my home. Two monts later, I changed to a bigger house. Then, I had a black cat, I really loved him. The veterinary that ass... | self.depression |
How did you solve your social anxiety? Hey guys,
I have social anxiety. Looking back, during highschool I showed mild symptoms of it. When I started college, boy did it hit me... I can't socialise with new people at all. I always find myself thinking about what I should say so I won't look bad. When walking around cam... | self.Anxiety |
feeling depressed and down because of hate Lately I have seen so much hatred around me . a lot of hatred also on YouTube due a you tuber posting something that should have never been posted . constantly seeing people telling others to kill them self's while claiming their idols were just bringing "awareness" I dislike ... | self.depression |
Girlfriend has depression. Any help? I have been with my girlfriend for two years and she has depression. She has been okay throughout our time together, but the past two months she has been having an episode. I apologise if I come across as ignorant with this topic, it’s just that I have never been around people with ... | self.depression |
Help: Explaining to my family Hello! I was recently diagnosed (eh, sort of. The doctor agrees I'm bipolar but she doesn't like labels, and she's trying me on antidepressants first since my hypomania isn't terrible quite yet) and so... since I'm only 20 and on my parents' insurance, I had to tell them about what's going... | self.bipolar |
I can’t escape this nightmare Two years ago around this time, my mom started acting really weird. She would go out all the time without telling us where she was going and sometimes not return until very late at night. This was very out of character for her. She was a lot like June Cleaver - never drank, never swore, al... | self.depression |
People in middle school already had sex and did drugs - I'm already a goddamn high school senior I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF... | self.SuicideWatch |
Hi. I just need to talk. Every day I walk up a bridge next to my dorm that is incredibly long and incredibly high over pavement. It’s the only way to get to and from classes. Every day I have to force myself not to leap off it and end it all. I really don’t have much going for me, so it’s looking better and better ever... | self.SuicideWatch |
Could I be bipolar? Help please. Hi. I'm looking for the opinion of others on if my symptoms look like Bipolar 2 or not (or what this stuff is).
I am 18 years old, and depressed. I don't know how severely, but I am depressed. I have lived in a home my entire life that has minimalized the solution to pain as being noth... | self.bipolar |
Super high Highs and very low lows Okay, it seems like every few months or weeks I’ll get this high where I’m happy as fuck and hyper and I wanna be involved in shit and I’m just in a good mood and I want everyone to feel as happy as me and I call old friends and all this shit. But then whenever I’m not on this high I’... | self.bipolar |
An "interesting" title If you have read this sentence through, thanks. Is alcohol a catalyst of depression? I mean, of course it is, but noticeably? Formulated in a different way: Have any of you tried going sober and experienced a posotive change in your mentality as a result? This is not considering anyone being an a... | self.depression |
the special weekend I’ve been looking forward to is being cut short and I’m heartbroken It’s finals week and I am so tired. I have been working so hard, so so hard, to get straight As and I’ve pretty much nailed it. Unless I fuck up dramatically on my finals, I can expect a 4.0 this semester.
But it’s tiring. I’m wo... | self.offmychest |
I want to get better but I don't like the world. This is a horrible world. Human nature is selfish - we use and abuse each other as we see fit. We're nice when it benefits us and we do whatever we want behind closed doors. The rich exploit the poor who have to struggle every day, physically and emotionally, just to get... | self.depression |
How can I stop missing the past? I lost contact with one of the only people I've ever cared about in 2015. Though we only knew each other through the internet, it was the deepest friendship I've ever had. Knowing that it's now yet another year in the past is tearing me apart... The worst part is knowing that we were se... | self.depression |
Do you sometimes feel that no one gets your anxiety disorder? Hey community :)
I have been battling with anxiety since I was a little child. Now I am around 30 and last year I decided to seek for professional help. I was diagnosed with ocd and chronic depression. I am doing therapy and also taking medication. I was t... | self.Anxiety |
My will to live relies on other people I'm stressed out all the time. I either care about hardly a thing or care about everything too much. I'm sick of being me and sick of being treated like I am by other people in my family. Somehow I feel it's my fault yet their fault. Nothing ever feels clear to me anymore. Everyth... | self.SuicideWatch |
This “holiday” was a waste of fucking time. I ended up not working the holiday and I really wish I had been. I wake up around noon, my mom is freaking the fuck out about where I am and I tell her I’m on my bed sleeping. Fast forward a few hours. I texted to say that I’d be awake in an hour. In that hour, she stumbled t... | self.depression |
I don't feel like I have value to those who claim I have value... They don't even know what it is about me they value, so clearly I'm not irreplaceable. | self.SuicideWatch |
I have to take next semester off of college because of my epilepsy, and my life is spinning out control [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm scared Hey all,
Firstly, this post is going to end up half-rant, I'm pretty sure. Apologies for that.
Secondly, I'm not sure if this is the right place to post this or not. If it's not, I'm sorry.
So... I'm scared.
I'm about to graduate from college with a BA in English. I want to be a teacher, preferably f... | self.Anxiety |
The message she left me of a package of tissue I was supposed to have my therapy session yesterday, but had to reschedule it due to some conflicting plans with work that came up. I stayed over my SO's house and in the morning, she gave me a package of tissue because she thought I had my session still because of how em... | self.offmychest |
Has depression affected your job performance? Have you ever been fired because of it? I’ve mentioned it a couple times on here lately, but my depression has been ruining most parts of my life, including job performance. I’ve got a meeting in the morning with my bosses about my poor performance and I think I’ll be fired... | self.depression |
Homesick and unsure. I posted this in another sub but I need to say it again.
I was diagnosed with BPD a few months ago. I’ve been dating a wonderful person since June/July. He treats me really good, spoils me, loves me unconditionally and his parents really like me. We started living together recently after both of... | self.offmychest |
I don’t know if this is considered depression or what. [deleted] | self.depression |
What is going to become of me? I'm 22 and a girl. I have been told these are the best years of my life, it only gets worse as i get older. If that's true, i don't want to imagine how the rest of my life will be.
I'm a mess. The more i get to know myself the less i like me, the more i realise i'm nothing like i would w... | self.offmychest |
Sarah Lynn is my spirit animal when I'm manic If any of you have seen the tv show Bojack Horseman, then you know what's up. | self.bipolar |
I was just laid off I've been working for Barnes & Noble for 10+ years and this morning I was laid off. I ~~am~~ was a receiving manager and ~~have been~~ was in that position for 4.5 years. I'm in shock right now, my hands have been shaking since they told me a few hours ago. I've no idea what is going to happen t... | self.bipolar |
Ever feel like you're getting closer and closer to an emotional meltdown? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
My job doesn't coincide well with my mental health I have bipolar II and I work as a 911 dispatcher. Most people that don't work any kind of emergency service position think "oh, that's an easy job...you just answer the phone." No. I didn't think it would be as bad as it was when I first started almost two years ago. M... | self.bipolar |
Anxiety that worsened over time? Anyone else or just me? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
What's your favorite quote? I collect quotes I really like and want to see others' favorites as well. I searched for a thread but couldn't find much of one, so I made one.
 
Here's my favorite quote, it's short but very meaningful for me and guides a lot of my decision making. To me it means many things, mos... | self.bipolar |
someone talk me out of it Background: 35F kids(18,16,4) married 17 years
I've been working on this whole self love thing after battling with depression and anxiety for forever. It seems to be working but it also makes me feel like I've been taken for granted by the family, especially my husband. He travels for work al... | self.offmychest |
It's A Constant Cycle... The feel when you fear loneliness but find it hard to become emotionally available out of fear of being vulnerable and betrayed. | self.depression |
Can I just die please ? Nothing more to add. Just end my misery or give me a courage boost to end it. | self.depression |
I could use some support, my doctor wants to start me on Zoloft in addition to Lamictal and I’m nervous... I’ve only ever taken Lamictal and it was working well for a long time but recently I went through a really bad depression and she wants to add an anti depressant. I’m not against adding a new drug into the mix, bu... | self.bipolar |
“Never tell me the odds.” : Am I Stubborn or Stupid for Truly Believing Mental Illness Can’t Ruin Our Relationship? I didn’t want to be in love, in fact I didn’t even want to date. Having recently come out of a relationship that ended in the total blindsided abandonment that has been cutely deemed “ghosting” by my gene... | self.depression |
I envy people who have passion and drive and motivation I used to have them long, long ago, but I'm now just a shell of a former self. Nothing excites me. Nothing makes me feel the want to fight for. I tried. I failed. | self.depression |
I recently removed a long time friend from my life, my best friend, and now I feel empty [deleted] | self.depression |
Lonliness I've never been the type of girl who needed a partner (male or female) but lately I find myself getting lonelier and lonelier. I'm 32 now and I have zero prospects. The last person I was with was a pathological liar, emotional abuser, and a cheater.
I know that I have my own problems. I have a lot of ups and... | self.bipolar |
Keep getting bullied over my nationality. Been going on for a while. Feel like it’s weighing my down. Any help/advice please? So i’m Pakistani, born and raised in America, and in school i’ve experienced some teasing for being Pakistani. However, this one guy in particular keeps saying nasty things and making fun of me ... | self.offmychest |
People are trying to help, but there’s a barrier... [deleted] | self.depression |
Never thought I'd post here There's this girl who was interested in me and I fucked up big time with her; now she's with someone else. Somehow it fucked me up more than anything else has ever fucked me up before. I'm obsessed with it, it's been on my mind for the last 6 months or so, I keep thinking about it, and I hat... | self.SuicideWatch |
I don’t have any friends or reasons to live and my depression has gotten so bad my boyfriend keeps telling me “I can’t help you” [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Abilify and Gabapentin New med regiment after being unmedicated (and unhinged) for 2+ years. Up to 10mg on abilify and 300 twice a day of Gabapentin. Anyone have experience with these meds? I've gained a little weight and my labido has noticably dropped. At what dose do I start to actually feel positive effects? I'm no... | self.bipolar |
Contemplating attempting again I was doing okay for a little while, but every time I make any progress at all, it all comes crashing down and I reach a new low. I don't think I can do this anymore. It's too much. Being fed false hope until I inevitably fall into a hole of depression again, each time deeper than the las... | self.SuicideWatch |
I’m petrified of haircuts and feel like I’m going to break down whenever I go to get it done [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Looks like I’ve finally found a place to get some advice and help [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Anxiety over North Korea Rising Back, And In The Worst Possible Time [removed] | self.Anxiety |
I think that I've FINALLY found a med combo that works Let me start with the disclaimer that everybody is different when it comes to medication - what works for me may not work for you, and I am not a doctor.
After about a year of trying endless medications and combinations, 3 months of intractable depression, 2 inpa... | self.bipolar |
Girlfriend with depression and I have no idea what to do Hey. Thanks in advance if you read this.
Our relationship is very new. We were friends before, so I feel that it makes it stronger in ways. I started the school year off in college awesome with my gf. We did couple things, ya know, like hanging out, making out a... | self.depression |
Appreciation for patience and understanding in the bedroom. As a guy, I've only had a few sexual partners in my life. The first one took it super personally that I couldn't get hard enough. It was so unbelievably anxiety provoking... she blamed me for making her feel ugly, and we broke up soon after. Another one was ... | self.offmychest |
Dealing with Whatsapp Groups Why can’t I have just one group with my family, one group with my friends and one group with my work colleagues???
I have many variations, for example: friends’ without two girls, family group without my aunts and so on... I have like four groups of family, work and friends...
I’m const... | self.Anxiety |
First time I've even admitted this honestly Do you ever feel like you have these really large ankle weights pulling you down and with every step you take they only seem to get heavier and start pulling you down? I feel like that every single day, and I have done on and off since about 2011. Occasionally there will be b... | self.depression |
I had my first real date in two years tonight. [deleted] | self.depression |
I think I'm depressed however, every time I try to articulate my feelings I fail and come to a conclusion that I'm not depressed. | self.depression |
I am not depressed enough to be administrated. I've had a look at a place where I could stay in for 2 weeks and get more intense therapy, but I feel like I'm not depressed enough to be administrated there. It's for people who are going through a crisis and I am not in a crisis. I was advised to go there because my day ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Feel suicidal for no reason and every reason. If I call the suicide hotline, would I be wasting their time? I have no plans and no intention of doing anything now. So, I guess they need to focus on others that need it more. Which hurts me. Because I think how I don’t even deserve the services of suicide hotline and I’m... | self.bipolar |
Literally no one in this world loves me or really appreciates my existence. And this is a very sad realization for me. I mean this very literally; I have no one who I talk to, very very few people at my workplace even know my name and those who do don't like me or are indifferent to me. One of my parents died when I wa... | self.depression |
How do I approach a doctor with this? Lately a lot of people have been asking me if I'm OK. Everyone around me is noticing something is wrong. I've decided to try and get some help so that I can make it look like it's OK and get everyone off my back.
But how exactly do I get help? Which doctor should I see? Just a fa... | self.depression |
I'm tired of living in fear I've gone through the past several years with a severe fear of alcohol that gives me panic attacks. I can't explain it and it's intrusive to my life in college and I have no idea what to do about it. It's like I wasn't made to be able to make it in this world and like everything is against m... | self.SuicideWatch |
Does forcing yourself to do stuff help? Does forcing yourself to do stuff like get up, get showered and leave the house help get rid of depression? I'd be really interested to hear people's opinions. | self.bipolar |
So I have decided I'm going to live like crazy and then kill myself at 30. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Same thing everyday I wish there was somebody, but anxiety makes it so talking to people is impossible I'm 18 and still in high school sadly I've given up on that I live with my parents still and don't know where life will take me. I want to end my life every waking moment it's been the same for about 4 years and peopl... | self.SuicideWatch |
Good night everyone, it was nice talking to you all! Good night everyone, it was very nice talking to you all. | self.depression |
This is my suicide note. I'll just start and say thank you to my two most caring friends, I loved you guys. You all helped me through my suicide attempt. I could say anything to you all. I opened up to one of you about being molested as a kid, and it felt so good to tell you. I can't express how grateful I was for you ... | self.SuicideWatch |
TW - Suicide - A bipolar man who survived jumping off the golden gate bridge described instant regret [short video] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WcSUs9iZv-g
I know, I know, buzzfeed is awful. Watch it though. | self.bipolar |
I’m being pushed out of my current job (small town politics) and I just don’t think my current career is good for me long term. I need help getting out and moving on. [deleted] | self.bipolar |
My birthday For the first time in awhile I was kinda excited for my bday, ive been depressed ever since I was pretty young hard to get excited for things but I was. My whole family is together was planning to party with some friends. Well I woke up and the dog I've had since childhood and just the best dog you could as... | self.depression |
What are your favorite apps for anxiety relief, meditation, mindfulness, etc? I’ve been using the app Calm, it was recommended to me by my therapist’s office. It’s free, has guided meditations, sleep stories, and timed meditations. It’s been pretty helpful for staving off my anxiety and panic attacks. What apps have yo... | self.Anxiety |
There is no help out there. Hotlines don't connect me. Textlines are always unavailable. Therapists might as well be robots. People here have nothing helpful to say besides "hang in there". If you don't have family or friends, you have no one. Don't believe anyone who says "you are not alone". If you don't have a carin... | self.SuicideWatch |
Need help finding a reason I've honestly had enough, a lot of things happened to me good and bad but everyday it just gets worse in my head. I don't see the point in living anymore I feel i have no purpose, and nothing feels real anymore. Just asking if anyone can help me hold on. | self.SuicideWatch |
Panic Attack over A Bad Day At Work. We all have them, right? Well, today, I screwed up. Not *too* terribly, I don't think, but one of my managers, who is notorious for being a not-so-nice person, pretty much just laid down the law on me. I've tried and tried to please this guy, but everything I do is wrong or needs im... | self.Anxiety |
Got a new script but I haven't been taking it so I can enjoy this mania I'm in right now is this dangerous [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Reasons why I need to die Oh boy a list of my problems. Here we go.
- I can’t maintain friendships. I had some who cared years ago but they’ve all gone quiet now. I’m particularly crap with Male friendships, I’m a guy by the way. Even when I had friends at school, the people I considered my best friends didn’t consid... | self.depression |
Depressed partner Hi guys! Short term lurker and first time poster here.
I’ve been with my boyfriend for just under a year now. He’s been depressed for five years and when we met, it was mostly very well managed and he was doing well. He changed jobs in the last six months and he’s found the work boring and the commu... | self.depression |
I don't know if this belongs here, but I don't know where else to go [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Not sure if i should be here. So I was having a pretty low day and I Googled for something to help and reccomended I visit here. Recently I've been getting a lot better, for the last 14 years, more than half my life, I've struggled with unhealthy and harmful coping habits. But as of late I've been doing well, not good ... | self.depression |
Really behind in college , can't think , I don't have any energy and I don't know what to do I've been to counseling and I'm in mess by it doesn't help, nothing seems to help | self.depression |
Thyroxine, Adrenaline & Dopamine: A Potent Bipolar Cocktail? IDK *why* this hasn't smacked me in the face before.
1) Many people (not all) with >>> [BSDs](https://www.google.com/search?q=bipolar+spectrum+disorders&oq=bipolar&aqs=chrome.2.69i59j69i57j69i59j69i60l3.5465j0j8&sourceid=chrome&... | self.bipolar |
Tell me your mania stories Hey guys,
So I've gotten slapped in the face with reality about a week ago when I realized how much money and time I've wasted before I was aware that I have bipolar disorder.
I started college in 2015, my parents were paying for my tuition (they still are but won't be able to next year) an... | self.bipolar |
Help, cant decide to quit or stay Well, it all started off like a normal day. Went to school and stuff, and then my cosin came to me and said that he had found a job and they he said they need one more to work there. So i went to this restaurant ( where he was working) i went down there and we talked and i got the job,... | self.offmychest |
My Mania Firing synapses through my brain, trying to escape this pain
You think it's for my own gain
I'm just doing my best to remain sane
Boughts of depression
bubble up and pour out hot liquid lava
Rage, my muse, my mania, my obsession
You don't deserve it, not one bit, but I can't just sit my mind is just to... | self.bipolar |
I find it cruel that life is only somewhat bearable when I'm sleeping. I have insomnia. [deleted] | self.depression |
My mum stopped controlling my meds... she was giving me to them daily, the rest kept in the safe after an OD about 6 weeks ago. Now the lat few days she's left them out and I've pillaged the whole lot, not that she'll notice now but when we go to top up my pill dispenser they'll be a lacking of quite a few things; I'm... | self.bipolar |
Teachers cause it Whenever I’m in class and have to talk to everyone with a teacher it freaks me out. I’m cool talking to everyone without a teacher because their all my friends but for some reason I have a huge problem with teachers listening to me. If I randomly get called on in class it sparks a panic attack, but if... | self.Anxiety |
Depicting Bipolar Disorder In Art Hello! I'm a college student diagnosed Bipolar 1 with psychotic features and am just about to graduate (finally). Before my college career finally comes to an end, I have 10 weeks to complete a digital art project. Luckily, our professor has given us the freedom to choose the topic of ... | self.bipolar |
(First time Poster) Posting because I'm terrified and I'm trying to face my fears The more I stay in my comfort zone, the smaller it gets. I rarely leave the house. I can't keep a job because those "fun" debilitating panic attacks. I can't make friends because I freeze up and if I do talk, I immediately regret it and a... | self.Anxiety |
I don’t have any friends No one who actually understands what a mess my brain is everyday of my life.
I try and reach out to people and tell them I’m sad and I need support and no one takes me seriously because “how could anything be wrong? You have a perfect life!”
I take everything to heart and everything hurts my ... | self.depression |
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