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I'm tired of being dependent on my dad I'm 27F, and I live with my dad and work the job at his merchandising company that he got for me. I hate my job because it offers no challenge or reward, but I can't be accepted by other people, which is why I got into this situation in the first place. I have a worthless degree t... | self.SuicideWatch |
The only way I’ll ever find peace, is death. Its my only choice. Its the only option I have to find peace. Fuck happiness. Happiness is a myth. It doesn’t exist. There is no point in chasing it because its a fallacy.
I just want peace. I want all my misery and pain to end. I’ve tried everything else, all in vain. The... | self.SuicideWatch |
So depressed I can't take a shower without crying Recently I haven't been able to take a shower. Something about the warm comfortable water and being alone the entire time triggers bad thinking and overthinking and stuff like that. It's gotten so bad I've avoided taking showers altogether because it just triggers me so... | self.depression |
Just a random realization Its been years with so much stuff, cutting and pain etc.
But i still dont know why i originally wanted to die, i didn't have anything wrong in my life back then. Everything was actually getting better.
Now i have reasons, problems and so on.
Why did i want to die?
__________________________... | self.depression |
Choked up despite still feeling apathetic I dont really understand, when talking to my counsellor i started tearing and choking up at some point but i wasnt feeling sad or anything i still felt apathetic?? Is this some kind of defense mechanism or smth | self.depression |
Expectations Other engineers in my field: You are talented, you are worth more despite occasionally having to take time off for episodes than a mediocre engineer.
My parents (not engineers): the moment they (specifically a large well know tech company, generally any employer ever) catch wind that you need STD/accomod... | self.bipolar |
Unease has taken over I feel depressed but in a weird way. More of an impending doom kind of way like the worlds about to end. And I obviously know thats not true but I still feel like something is very very wrong.
This started when I talked to a friend of mine and nothing really happened during the call. We just tal... | self.depression |
Help with Zoloft dizziness Hey guys,
I got given Zoloft this week by my Dr to help with my anxiety and I’m on day 3 but I’m really dizzy. Any ideas for helping get through these first few weeks of side effects until it’s well into my system? Seems dizziness is the worst
Thanks! | self.Anxiety |
Fantastic Positive News! Hello my /r/bipolar family. I say family because I genuinely feel so close to all of you. This community is so positive and lovely and I am so grateful for everyone here.
A week ago, I posted a piece about an episode where I cheated on the love of my life. You can read all about it [here](htt... | self.bipolar |
I broke up with my gf who cheated on me and yet I feel miserable 3 days ago I broke up with my gf. She had cheated on me somewhere around the beginning of August, by the time I was already distrusted that something was up because she was being a bit more distant... when I found out I was left completely heart broken...... | self.offmychest |
Could I get Some Insight? So, I've recently been discharged from being an in-patient, and I haven't got any diagnosis for anything yet and I'm really worried about what's going to happen.
I've been having routine manic episodes nearly happening each night whilst giving me boosts of self confidence then hurling down t... | self.bipolar |
I have the opposite of Social anxiety People make me feel less anxious, not more.
I have GAD and being around others, particularly people I see as powerful (but not exclusively), makes me feel safe and comforted. This doesn't actually seem strange to me, but I rarely (never) hear anyone else talk about this.
It's a p... | self.Anxiety |
First time with anxiety My mom passed away a couple days ago. The anxiety just started with this feeling in my stomach, a gnawing feeling like if someone just touched me I'd fall apart. Then yesterday my chest got a little tight nothing crazy.
But I just had a full on attack. I was just sitting quietly watching t.v. I... | self.Anxiety |
using eMDR for GAD and dissociation Hi there everyone,
I'd really like everyone's opinion with an issue that I’m struggling at the moment. I'm not sure if EMDR is working for me for the environment I'm in or if I'm on track like any other patient.
A little background about me, I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiet... | self.Anxiety |
oh boi i need some help Alright, so this is gonna be pretty long so hang on, my guys. So basically, when my mother was a child, she experienced heavy abuse from her father, my grandfather, and this has given her a lot of problems, however, she has been able to overcome these and become a pilot. My mom and dad (who wasn... | self.depression |
It has never gotten better. I'm in my 40s, severely physically and sexually abused as a child, been in therapy and on every med there is for 30 years. Nothing has worked for more than a few months.
I have a crazy stressful job. I have never had a significant relationship. I am estranged from the small family I have. ... | self.SuicideWatch |
When net neutrality is gone, I might lose my only social connection: online gaming. [removed] | self.depression |
Like Half Light-hearted and Half I Wanna KMS. I was SUPER anxious today. The whole time, I was just anxious. I'm not even sure how to describe my mood right now, mostly it's down. For some reason a few hours ago it got super high randomly, but before and after that it was low. I was really grumpy after school, literall... | self.bipolar |
Someone make it stop I need to die. It’s enough already I’m so tormented
It’s like what the fuck god why I am still fucking here please just let me die what the fuck do u want from me. Crying and can’t fucking stop what the fuck | self.depression |
Do the negative thoughts come from my personality or my depression? I can’t stop thinking about everything in a negative way
I hate myself
I can’t even control my mind and thoughts
Stupid me
Fuck | self.depression |
I think I’m almost ready. So I’ve had severe depression and anxiety since the age of 13. I’m now 21. I’ve been trying and trying to get help to follow therapy and practice. But I just can’t do it anymore. I’m distancing myself from everyone around me. I’m not attending my hospital appointments. I’ve skipped my last two... | self.SuicideWatch |
Anxiety is winning A little about me...I have muscular dystrophy so i have a weak respiratory system. My anxiety can be triggered for many reasons but the hardest part is my breathing,once it hits i find myself focusing on my breathing and thats when it all goes downhill. I take stupid Xanax and I drink just to feel no... | self.Anxiety |
another unreadable post i guess i've noticed that my pills do help me but it's that clouding sort of way, you know your problem is there but while you have the pills you can just kinda pretend it's not. when i'm alone at night it's so much worse, but i'm not even alone i guess. i have a roommate and it probably sucks t... | self.SuicideWatch |
Tired of this freakin' feeling I just started cutting myself again and I can't stop doing it every night. Lately nothing gives me any fucking satisfaction, all i've thought about is killing myself these past few days. Nothing super bad has even happened I just feel so empty and numb and I hate this. I've been doing the... | self.depression |
Just had a bit of a (kind of gross) depression victory... To preface this, this is kind of gross, like it says in the title. Lmao.
So when I’m depressed, I totally stop taking care of myself. That’s just how it is for me. I’ll stop eating, stop showering, etc. Yuck, I know. And it just makes me feel even worse. But I... | self.depression |
Sick of my mental health issues being disregarded because I’m a girl. Every time I try to talk to friends or people about my issues they always seem to pin it to something regarding my gender. Like how women are more emotional, or how I’m probably just on my period (as if I wouldn’t know). And it hurts when I hear peop... | self.SuicideWatch |
Anyone had Experience with getting tattoos and then feeling obsessed/anxious? So to start off, I love tattoos. I've always wanted them, and really like the self expression they offer, and despite this current anxious bout I still want to get more. The problem is, I just got my first noticeable piece on my forearm and I... | self.Anxiety |
I have a thing for my TA, can't do anything about it and it's ruining my focus I know I'm not the first person to have this problem but FUCK does it suck. It doesn't help that I don't know if he's just being nice to me or praising my work/talking with me because he has to or sees me as a kid and thinks "aww, cute". He ... | self.offmychest |
Sunflowers. A couple of months ago, I got dumped. I got dumped for various reasons but the most prominent one was, "I don't love you anymore" Which is odd because it went from, "I love you" and then the next, I wasn't worthy of it anymore. Yet, I'm claimed to be a liar when I said that I regretted getting in a relation... | self.offmychest |
Had A Big Adrenalin Rush Yesterday And Now I Am Feeling Really Depressed All Of A Sudden. Any Help? [deleted] | self.depression |
I can't talk about my issues because I'm too critical of them [deleted] | self.depression |
Online chat version of a crisis hotline? I need some help, and I would really prefer to do so silently. Is there something like a suicide hotline, except in more of a text/chat form?
Thank you. Best of luck to you all. | self.depression |
For the first time in a 28 years I feel like my depression is gone Thank god for medication and therapy they have really boosted my self esteem from I want to give up on life and just stay inside all day to I can do anything my little brain has the power to do | self.depression |
Work anxiety (advices needed) Hi everyone,
This is the very first time that i (ever) post something on reddit. But maybe, you guys can help me. English is not my native language so i apologize in advance for any grammatical errors.
I started to work in the book field five years ago, i started at the bottom and doing g... | self.Anxiety |
depression, breakup, i'm lost [20, M]
Hey, since I barely have any friends I'd like to share my story here, see what you guys have to say. I really need someone to talk to right now, as I'm pretty much losing it.
I haven't been feeling well since high school. I was bullied a lot because I was very shy, and later many... | self.depression |
Looking for some people to game with on lonely nights [deleted] | self.depression |
Do you think people notice when you're too uncomfortable to look them in the eyes? I have a big issue with my social anxiety where I can't look someone in the eyes for more than a few seconds with out feeling uncomfortable and self conscious. I usually end up darting around trying to find something to look at and once ... | self.Anxiety |
Afraid of getting erectile dysfunction from taking a xanax or beta-blocker Is it possible to get ED just from taking one or two Xanax XR or Beta-Blockers? | self.Anxiety |
Finally getting Help TL;DR: Discovered this sub, had a terrible reaction to a breakup and FINALLY decided to get professional help.
Two weeks ago, after feeling so anxious at work that I felt nauseous, I typed anxiety into reddit's search bar and found this subreddit. I identified so much with what I was reading and r... | self.Anxiety |
I can't do this anymore 2017 was the worst year of my life. I lost my girlfriend of 5 years, all of my friends, failed my senior year of high school, failed a suicide attempt, and was medically declined being able to march in the professional marching band I tried out for. I'm 17 and I recently broke my back but have b... | self.SuicideWatch |
Someone let my ferret out of the house during Thanksgiving and I’ll probably never see him again [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I miss being happt I know we all do in this subforum but after months its exhausting. Months of blaming myself and trying to change. Months of exile. Staring at the aftermath of my mental breakdown, the relationships it destroyed.. What i wouldnt give to go back because i know nothing will be the same. No one will look... | self.depression |
Intense anxiety over people not liking me? My need for people to like me is becoming obsessional, which I’m prone to anyway because I have OCD. If people do one slightly rude thing I will spend the rest of the day worrying about it.
I had a panic attack today (I haven’t had one in forever) because some people in a gro... | self.Anxiety |
Can you get so much anxiety you start to have brain fog? | self.Anxiety |
Cleanse Does anyone ever feel like they need to cleanse themselves of human interaction. I have felt like shit for over a week now. Granted I had a couple of less shit moments, but overall I've just hated my entire existence more than normal for the past week. I just want to cleanse myself of people. Stop talking, and ... | self.depression |
I can’t do this university application stuff Yeah I know this is just another low self-worth post but I’ve been carrying this for a while
I’m a high school student and I really want to go to Yale. I have the marks and the scores but my extracurriculars are mediocre at best. I’ve been trying to do lots of things that w... | self.offmychest |
I don’t think my friend has anxiety like she says and it’s really starting to upset me... Let me just start off with, Ive known her 10 years and she’s a chronic liar. She lies about everything.
When me and my boyfriend broke up (We even talk still. We don’t hate eachother. It’s good.) she lied to work to get out of i... | self.Anxiety |
Channeling it into art? Third day in a row posting on here but... I'm having a hard time and you all are the only ones I can talk to. Even if its just a sounding board.
A lot of "us" are supposed to be brimming with creative energy or something so I'm going to try to tap into that. I've never been much of an artist...... | self.bipolar |
I hate college but I’m too scared to get a job I just went back to college and started a uni level course that we are paying for and I hate it. Most of it is group work and we are a small group of 8 and have to work on projects together. One project we have to put an art piece up in the local market and another we are ... | self.Anxiety |
I'm am writing my goodbye letters I am 29 M and tonight I am writing a letter to each of my loved ones. Then a general note for my friends as well. I really thought it would help to not want to do it, but now that I have it written out I'm at peace and actually want to follow thru. I didn't expect this but am happy to ... | self.offmychest |
First we make the beast beautiful Has anyone else read this book? I’m half way through and loving it. | self.Anxiety |
I went to church today, for the lack of anything better to do. Really made me realise there really is nothing to look forward to, save for getting to sleep every night and being allowed to die one day. | self.depression |
Just got diagnosed and no idea what to do. So long story short. I was recently diagnosed with bipolar by my psychologist after a few evaluations.
I explained to him everything, just feeling weird all the time and what not. He told me I could have rapid cycling but not 100% sure. From the test results he gave me he wr... | self.bipolar |
Doing what I love, hate who I am I've had depression 6 years now (23M). Until last year I always thought it was because I didn't like my course of action in life, death of loving ones, breakups... But right now that I finally took over my life and decided to study dramatic art, that I have a wonderful familiy, a wonder... | self.depression |
I've set a date to end it, just waiting now 39/M My health is poor, my body is so messed up I need at least 3 corrective surgeries just to start fixing the issues, major dental problems as well. Ive had severe depression and anxiety my whole life, in the process of divorce (her choice, not mine but who can blame her). ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I want to look normal again after this episode I just went through a horrifc depressive episode. I almost killed myself. I have fresh burns on my wrist, dark circles under my eyes, greasy hair, acne, I need to shave, and my lips are badly chapped. I look like shit and I have work in an hour. What can I do to look norma... | self.bipolar |
Worries for the future I’m worried that due to my anxiety/depression combo, I’m never going to have any fond memories to look back on. I always hear about people partying and having fun in their teens and twenties, but I’m way too anxious to talk to anyone and to depressed to do anything, I’m worried that my entire lif... | self.depression |
Anxiety is affecting the way I eat, and I'm losing weight. (A fear of vomiting? A fear of food poisoning?) Seeing ANY kind of advice. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I'm Bipolar 1 and I Think I Have Situational Depression Please Help [deleted] | self.depression |
A nice guy who's crushing on me gave me CD of his music, and I'm afraid to listen to it in case I don't like it. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
My girlfriend left me, I'm stuck in a low paid job and I have no friends I love her more than anything in this world, she was the only good thing in this world and I didnt value it. Now I have nothing, I'm 29, stuck at a shitty job and I lost the love of my life.
I just wish she could come back to me, but it is not po... | self.SuicideWatch |
I only have one option Hi all,
I’m trying to plan this neatly. I don’t want my loved ones to find me before the police or strangers do. I’ve tried overdosing and slitting my wrists before but I failed.
The only tried and true methods I have are shooting myself and hanging myself. In my state, they will do a backgrou... | self.SuicideWatch |
Just need to get it out there. I have and a loved one is ill in another country.
I am trying to keep my mind busy but I can't finish grading these papers. I have "How I Met Your Mother" playing in the background, which usually helps, but it's not doing anything.
I have to plan out with my two jobs tomorrow with tak... | self.offmychest |
Any professionals Here That can help Me Hi. To give some background about myself....
**History:
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24(F) here, working in healthcare. Diagnosed with clinical depression about two years ago and have been taking escitalopram since.
**Situation
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I have been experiencing occasional sensations of pins and needles/musc... | self.Anxiety |
I have THE WORST testing anxiety ever and tomorrow I test for my Florida State Fire Standards. I test nearly last out of everyone in my class because we go in alphabetical order and my last name starts with T.. which is awful because I work my self up so much. Please help. | self.Anxiety |
Im really afraid of my birthday day things are probably going to go as I think and if they do I wont be able to emotionally hold the pain only my parents will remember it at all and remind me how unexistant and lonely I feel and just jump out of the 4th floor... | self.SuicideWatch |
Picking a fight at Starbucks The last couple of months I have noticed I’m getting more and more irritable and impatient. I was at Starbucks today and was the second person in line. A woman walked up in line next to me and when the barista started to serve me she started to complain that I wasn’t lined up correctly. ... | self.offmychest |
I don't have any friends and I won't for months. I'm a senior and high school and have no one I feel like I can call a true friend.
I'm in two "friends groups" but I don't feel like I'm truly part of the group. In one, are my school "friends". We hang out during school, but when I talk to them, occasionally one compl... | self.offmychest |
Feel trapped in reality, trapped in words, and powerless. What are feelings. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Parents are gone for the whole week, leaving me alone with my anxiety. Any advice for coping is welcome [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I’m 33 never have a boyfriend, not much friend, just lost my job, felt there’s no life purpose & I’m a failure. When most people my age are married & live happily with kids. (Saw in Facebook) I’m obese & have no self image. I tried to find job but feel my previous job experience’s no good. Felt lost I’m not... | self.depression |
17yr old High School drop out I'm too stupid to get a GED and both my parents have told me i'm a failure. I don't see the point in staying at my parents home after 18 because i'm not capable of going to school and I am starting to dislike certain family members. However my mom said if i move out at 18 she'll see me as ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Too tired for fantasies Recently, I realised that I've become too tired to even have a fantasy life. Whenever I try putting myself into a situation, fantasy me just drops to the floor and cries. | self.depression |
I Want to Scream Until It Stops and the World Makes Sense Again I've been unemployed for around 7 months. I put a lot of work into getting a Master's degree and certifications in the field I was contracting in and taught myself programs and processes in my spare time. I could have worked harder, I should have. I've let... | self.depression |
Depression is a weird thing. I don't exactly know if I'm depressed.
Very often I feel as though I'm all alone in the world, that I'm not good enough for anybody, except like.. 3 people (my parents and my single friend).
It doesn't help that I recently binge-watched 13 Reasons Why, but I've always had this feeling.
I ... | self.depression |
I miss the old me. I miss being happy. I miss having lots of friends. I miss being famous. My anxiety came to my life ever since my parents transferred me to a new school. And i know it's my fault because i told them to do so. I wish i never did. I thought i would have many friends and also be famous in this new schoo... | self.Anxiety |
Life is a curse Im so sick of being me. Im so tired of being so incredibly alone. No one gives a shit about me. I just want it all to end. There is no reason not to kill myself. I don’t know why I haven’t yet because I know that I should.
Everyone tells me that life just gets worse from here on out. That all the pain... | self.SuicideWatch |
"Praying" by Kesha - a song that really spoke to me I know this isn't about bipolar disorder but I know a lot of us have had past trauma, and I think I remember reading that trauma can be a factor in onset. Kesha was sexually assaulted by her producer Dr Luke and is currently in a legal battle to get out of her contrac... | self.bipolar |
Thinking the worst (duh) Somehow whenever I care about someone, I think the worst is going to happen in any situation and they are going to end up physically hurt... I play out little scenarios in my head of accidents and then I scare myself..I have GAD so I mean it’s not a new revelation but just wondering if this isn... | self.Anxiety |
I dont know what to do I cant explain this pain. Everyday eats up at me and it gets wrose. Therapy isnt helping at all | self.depression |
Pushed back to the edge. I’m medicated with sertraline. I’ve been struggling with my depression for a year now. Things had gotten better moved into a house with my best friends have a great girlfriend. But lately everything seems to be falling apart. My friends don’t like my girlfriend and my girlfriend doesn’t like my... | self.depression |
Does anyone else play music to cope? I play the harmonica and I’m starting to learn to play piano a bit. I just know when I feel a bad night coming on that I can reach for a harmonica and it usually mellows me out. Anyone else do something similar? Thanks | self.bipolar |
Being Gay in a Conservative, Eastern European Country First off, sorry if this doesn't make much sense - it's 2:30 am. Also for reference I'm 15.
I read this thread for about 1 hour before posting this, and a lot of people are sharing some scary shit. Compared to them my problems are not as big, but I wanted to get t... | self.depression |
Alone and stuck in a loop I’ve been feeling kinda depressed lately and maybe it’s because the sky is getting darker earlier and SAD is kicking in but I just feel so alone. The people I used to hang out with seem to have forgotten me and do everything together and I’m just sort of existing? It’s a cruddy feeling to feel... | self.depression |
Mood I want to keep track of my mood everyday, is there an app that's easy to use or should I just write down with pen and paper? | self.bipolar |
Why would I continue?? (before posting i am going to add a disturbing warning here)
I dont know if im posting this because I want attention, or, relief, or somewhere to pour the overflow of emotion I have right now... but I cannot think of a reason to stay alive.
I am so far in debt, my business is failing, I hate mys... | self.SuicideWatch |
Anxiety and EDM When I’m relaxed/stress-free and listen to EDM makes me anxious
But when I’m stressed out and anxious, EDM actually calms me | self.Anxiety |
Just got off the phone from scheduling my first therapy session for this Thursday and I think I’ll call back and cancel. [deleted] | self.depression |
How to cope with health anxiety? 25/M On my wedding day earlier this year, I ended up having to be rushed to the hospital. I was having tremors and had a mild fever and just could not stop shaking. Doctor gave me an IV and did blood work and said I'm fine and sent me on my way. About 6 days later I'm still out of it wi... | self.Anxiety |
I was an idiot thinking i could tackle anxiety by myself [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
This helped me stay on for a bit longer [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
My son's Christmas will likely not exist this year, and I feel horrible for it. Times have been tough this year for my little family, I'll spare everyone the sob stories. My family is out of the question, they have their own issues they are working through. My wife's family has also fallen on hard times, so no help the... | self.offmychest |
Dream Job complicated I interviewed to be a vet tech assistant on Saturday. This job would give me the hours needed to go to vet school. The issue is, benefits don’t kick in for 90 days. This means hat if I start ASAP, I’d have to go 1.5 months without medication. I’m trying to tell myself that I can do it but I’m te... | self.bipolar |
Can't fathom making it to 2018 I'm sorry this won't be very coherent. I hate my life. I've made so many bad choices. I've done so many things I regret. I want to help others so I can justify my existence but I am so socially awkward I try to hide as much as humanly possible. Im 32. I could easily live another 32 years.... | self.SuicideWatch |
Don't know where else to turn. I'm typing this right now because I don't know what to do anymore. I've never even considered the possibility of being depressed, but after some self reflecting, some things have become clear to me. I'm rarely happy anymore. When i'm curled up in bed, alone, at 1am watching a movie or som... | self.depression |
Quicksand The days are fine, it's the nights that fuck me up. The silence at night is a constant reminder of my own loneliness. It feels like it gets worse with each day. Until a couple of years ago I was able to keep myself distracted with studying and stuff, but I'm almost 26 now and shit is starting to get real.
I... | self.offmychest |
Everything inside is hanging on by a thread, and I don’t know if when it breaks, if I will snap or if I will break. | self.depression |
I don't think I'm even going to have to kill myself I think that if I wait long enough, and it surely feels like it can't be so very much longer, my body will just give up and die for me. I can feel it waiting, it's impatient, too. But just as humans are weak, we are also strong. Built that way to maximize pointless su... | self.SuicideWatch |
I told a lie in work.. So I posted here frequently almost 2 years ago and this thread has helped me out a lot in dealing with my anxiety and panic struggles in the past.
I’ve been working in two restaurants under the same company for about a year now, and I haven’t struggled with panic attacks since I started in the s... | self.Anxiety |
I feel like I'm surrounded by convenient friends that will dump me when I'm no longer convenient Not sure if this is a sign of early depression, but recently I've been hot with the feeling that the current friends I surround myself with won't notice me when I'm gone. I've not been myself lately, but none of them have m... | self.depression |
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