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20 years old. In uni but no friends, mother left years ago with some random dude, only see my father one evening in the week. Suffer from BDD which can never be fully cured. Yet I am forced to stay alive for my dad. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Why am I depressed during the holidays??? I really don’t know why I would even be depressed during the holidays. I’m fortunate enough to have a home and family where I live to spend the holidays with but something about it just makes me sad. The holidays make me think about how much better it was before when I was youn... | self.depression |
Dont know what to do Im just at a point of my life that i dont know what to do tried to get into 2 seperate relationships one ended up teling me she was lesbian and more recently one girl i was trying to get just friended me for no reason. I fell out of place at home my friends what me to talk but i cant when i trie t... | self.depression |
self medicating, don't know what i'm doing. long post sorry I stopped my seroquel and remeron last week and my anxiety and possibly the start of hypomania has come full force. I can't explain this anxiety but it's just constant and I feel like I'm going to fucking die if I feel like this forever. I see no way out. To p... | self.bipolar |
You’re on my mind I can’t stop thinking of my ex wife today. It’s excruciating. After almost two years I thought I would be okay, but here I am alone sobbing uncontrollably just saying her name over and over. I cannot get you out of my head. I miss you so fucking much it’s driving me insane. I don’t know what’s happeni... | self.offmychest |
This is how I describe depression to people. I’m talking to to try to help me. I’d thought I’d share it so if you want to talk to someone you can attempt to describe the near indescribable pain. One day, you'll be thinking "wtf am I doing at this job. Why am I here? I'm a fraud, I don't know what I'm doing. I'm faking ... | self.depression |
my parents were so worried about everything they taught me to be a douche. I have no problems telling others how to live as if I wrote the instruction manual. Now as I get wiser I see that was just a way to hide from the fact I have no idea how to live my own life. Turns out nobody has the fucking manual and nobody kno... | self.offmychest |
My first public anxiety attack I was working as a server for a casino, and I had a few guys who also worked as servers. I made sure to tell everyone I was married right off the bat. And then that night happened.
A hostess got mad a her boyfriend and took it out on me. She started seating me with every customer who ca... | self.Anxiety |
idk what to do anymore this is really lazy. thjrow away account. not really who i am but...
i'm just done. i lost. i really tried. when i was 17 i was suppose to choose a college and decide what i was going to study.
AT FUCKING 17.
and just everything. i got a music degree. i don't have a real career. i don't have a... | self.offmychest |
There's nobody I really want to buy some board and card games but I don't have any friends to play them with. My family and my boyfriend won't play.
Oh anxiety, thank you for ruining a lot of things in life for me. | self.Anxiety |
Can anyone hear me? Am I visible? I'm doing everything right, but I still don't feel any better. Seeing a therapist. Seeing a psychiatrist. I'm trying out Effexor. I'm still miserable, just a little less tired.
Dropped out of film school, I couldn't handle it. I feel like I can't handle anything. Like i'll never get a... | self.depression |
What is helping me currently Ive been struggling with depression and social anxiety for the past 8 years of my life. I talk to myself alot. I tend to scream at myself. I chose to take a different approach to my thinking recently. Usually my line of defense for calling myself pathetic and weak and useless and... is to d... | self.depression |
I've followed for a while but need some help [deleted] | self.depression |
How do I help my boyfriend? He goes through so many depressive and suicidal episodes. So tonight was just one of many badly ending nights. I don't particularly want to get into the details because I don't find them to be relevant, but I will say that it has just left me feeling sad, broken-up, and wanting to cry.
I'm ... | self.depression |
Separation anxiety and tomorrow I'm forced to stay home alone. Parents are leaving and I'll be home alone for 7 hours, longest I've ever been alone home for is 15 minutes. And my parents said 'you're 14 you can stay home' why doesnt anyone understand? I cant help my anxiety... it just happens. I honestly am just gonna ... | self.Anxiety |
Experiences with flexiral? Been prescribed flexiral for tension headachs, caused by anxiety and depression. Any changes in your depression while taking it? | self.depression |
I am empty I don't want to be here. My day is a boring routine of absolutely nothing. I have fucked up all my chances of a future. I dropped out of high school. I dropped acid the night before my sat which resulted in me not taking it. I no longer have any friends/human interaction due to isolating myself for so long. ... | self.SuicideWatch |
My emotions have been getting the best of me guys. Sitting in the laundromat crying, over a boy. Relationships are hard with biploar. [deleted] | self.bipolar |
DAE feel like they are in a race against time? Lately I have been feeling anxiety towards not having enough time for things. If I feel my schedule is tight a certain day, I get anxious. Or if I want to practice on a certain hobby but also get school work done, I feel like there is never enough time and I end up being l... | self.Anxiety |
I keep thinking that nothing matters because I'm going to kill myself soon I've been thinking about suicide for a long time now and I think I'm gonna do it eventually, probably this year. I don't really talk about these feelings with my family because they have expressed extreme disgust for suicide before. I'm not afra... | self.SuicideWatch |
[NAW] I hate having a dog I’m sorry to all the loving pet owners out there.
I hate having a dog. I hate the responsibilities. I hate the feeling of being tied down.
My sister so badly wanted a dog so we got one from the SPCA. We had him for a couple of months when we eventually gave him away. I was so relieved. I rea... | self.offmychest |
I'm not okay. I just found out my (now ex) boyfriend has at least six sexual assault allegations against him, among a bunch of other sketchy things. After he has pushed things too far with me and I had decided to leave. I just started a rad new job and I've missed two days the last two weeks because of this situation. ... | self.bipolar |
I don't know if I'll be able to love again I'm sad all the time because I think I've lost the only man I'll ever love, "the one that got away" if you will, and I've only got one friend. I don't talk about this to anyone because it shouldn't matter. Granted its only been 5 months since the breakup and we only dated for ... | self.offmychest |
Anyone here already watched Loving Vincent? Some lines in the movie hit me in the heart :’( | self.bipolar |
I got diagnosed with clinical depression this morning My aunt had it since she was 20. She got married twice. Both ended horribly. She spent most of her life laying in bed and staring at the ceiling. She got diagnosed with breast cancer when she was 50. Her kids never went to see her. I'm 26 and I'm scared that this is... | self.offmychest |
In crisis at work (public school teacher) - what do I do?? I’m in my lunch break and having abdominal pain from stress and serious thoughts and plans to hurt myself. I don’t know what to do or say to get help from school. | self.depression |
Its the holidays and I still feel like shit... I shouldnt have been suprised, now that I'm off school, theres nothing to distract me. At school, I can fool myself into thinking i have friends, theres a group I sit with, but I'm more of a shadow there. At school, I'm distracted, I can just keep doing melianal tasks and ... | self.depression |
I'm just so tired Of trying to act like everything is ok. Here lately nothing will shake this feeling that everyone in my life would be better if I didn't exist anymore. I'm tired of trying and trying to meet new people and make new friends. I'm tired of trying to be ok with having my wife leave me for another guy. She... | self.SuicideWatch |
I've been lying in bed and staring at the wall for 3 hours Any attempts to wake up ended up with asking myself a question "What would you really wake up for" and I'm still there. I haven't really had a passion or a hobby for a long time now, but I always used to watch tv shows, play games, sometimes even read some book... | self.depression |
Just lost an amazing job opportunity because I was too nervous to even get out of my car. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Too needy to live Long story short. Got taken away from biological Mom at age 2 for her drug abuse. Went into the system. Got adopted by other family members. Kicked out at 13 for being "bad." Back in foster care til I aged out. Never developed any sense of family, sharing or caring. Fast forward to meeting the love of... | self.SuicideWatch |
If I could pay $5 million to become unborn, I'd work my ass off to get $5 mill asap. Yet, I'm incapable of just walking outside and shooting myself.... [deleted] | self.depression |
Mirtazapine Does anyone have any experience of taking mirtazapine? I've just started taking it along with Seroqel (quetiapine). | self.bipolar |
First time ever feeling anxiety in my life im 14 years old i cant calm down please help me i dont even care anymore, im super nervous, anxious never happened to me before
so i am 14, and i got a girl. shes super cute, and she expects me to kiss her. i know this, she had told me. idk how, idk when, but it doesnt matter... | self.Anxiety |
I don’t have an interesting title. Not an interesting story, just day to day struggle with Bipolar 1 and anxiety. Actual quote from my psychiatrist: “I have about 600 patients. You’re probably the most over-analytic, most self-doubting.” Which is frankly, not surprising, but also...out of 600 clearly not well adjusted ... | self.bipolar |
1st day on Lexapro . Hoping I can take back control of my life [deleted] | self.depression |
How can I distract myself from these thoughts? How can I improve my concentration? My therapist has repeatedly told me over the past 5 weeks that I've been experiencing psychotic symptoms. I never felt manic and she agreed that I didn't appear manic to her (and she's usually pretty good at identifying mania in me). I a... | self.bipolar |
I hate the direction my life is going. Does anybody else feel this way?
Ever since graduating college almost two years ago, I just feel lost. I worked a retail job at an Apple Store for about a year and that was alright. I did an internship too that I kind of hated... I’m now in a PhD program and it’s just so damn bor... | self.depression |
Getting sucked back in I posted this on r/depression but I saw a suggestion to post it on here and thought this is relevant.
I've had depression before, I've beat it. For a short period of about six months, I felt amazing. I didn't care about people who didn't matter, I didn't feel dark and empty inside, it didn't hur... | self.SuicideWatch |
13/7/2022 that's the date that i will kill myself. and it's so far away because i dont have the courage to kill myself when i live with my parents | self.depression |
Some positivity may help My parents mean well. I was always frowning and wouln't respond to appropriate emotions. My parents never gave up on me. They are really strong-willed. I was all negative and they are really positive. They try their best to make me positive. They give me hugs, kisses and even bought me the thin... | self.depression |
Loneliest person in the world. I feel like I am the loneliest person in the world. | self.depression |
Anyone else saw domestic violence throughout their whole childhood and teen years? How are you doing now may I ask? The cursed window I wake up Seeing reminding me of past. I now sleep facing away from it only to avoid it.
"Just get over it" I'm trying. I get that its in the past but I still see it and get reminded ... | self.depression |
I have successfully pushed everyone away. I'm a very introverted, and depressed person by nature. Most of everybody I associate with just does not seem to comprehend that. Two days ago two friends told me they want nothing to do with me anymore.
They don't understand I need time to recharge. Being around people can b... | self.depression |
Anyone who had emotional issues with implanon tried depo? I have bipolar and borderline. I can't take birth control pills BC of my migraines. And my implanon made me crazy suicidal. There are a few reasons why I'm iffy on the mirena.. thinking about buying the bullet and trying depo.
How is everyones experience on it? | self.bipolar |
How do you get past all the worry and live day to day? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I'm scared to spend any time away from home I am 17 years old. I am very close to my family, and have lived a pretty sheltered life. The thing is that I have never been away from home by myself for more than a couple of nights, and in the build up to being away I get really anxious. This year I was supposed to take a c... | self.Anxiety |
Physical symptoms of anxiety? I experience shooting pains in my chest, shortness of breath, and sometimes even heart palpitations when I am anxious. Is this normal does anyone else experience these things? Thanks. | self.Anxiety |
Is it possible to tie a belt round your neck tight enough for it to strangle you? Is it possible to die this way? I'm so desperate right now I'll try anything | self.SuicideWatch |
Nothing ever goes right I hate my life. I hate college and I hate being home. I have tried nearly everything to try and fix my depression and nothing has ever worked. I have had four counselors and it never really helped. I have been on so much different medication but it never helped. I have changed who I was and trie... | self.depression |
immediately imagining the Worst-Case Scenario Nowadays, much of my anxiety has happened when I made a mistake and then I immediately start imagining these catastrophic worst-case scenarios that would result from my mistake. Often, these absolute disastrous scenarios are unlikely and even unrealistic, but I still end u... | self.Anxiety |
[Update] After losing a great/dream job and being out of work for a year because of my BP2... [Original post here](https://www.reddit.com/r/BipolarReddit/comments/7gw3d0/after_losing_a_great_job_because_of_bp2_and_being/)
I have a new job! I start after the holidays. I'm super nervous and worried about the transition ... | self.bipolar |
Heart palpitations when lying down How can I stop them? | self.Anxiety |
Third time the charm Tried to kill myself twice in my life. Tomorrow I will succeed | self.SuicideWatch |
Anxiety and Intimacy TLDR below if you do not want to read entire summary. Thanks to those who do read all.
I have had anxiety as a kid. Competing in sports and always staying active, has always stressed me out, but because of my love for sports, I would just push through the pressure. Sounds normal.
Fast forward to... | self.Anxiety |
Anyone taking Latuda (lurasidone HCI)? I am asking because my BP1 depressive symptoms have been acting up the last 3 weeks; less and less motivation, sad thoughts, withdrawing from people, wanting to sleep/stay in bed.
I told my psychiatrist and she told me to go by her office and take some samples until I see her on... | self.bipolar |
How is everyone's holiday season going Hi, I just started winter break, 3 weeks, exams were tough but I made it, but I feel sad now.
I stopped my experiment of "don't think just do" because of exams and I can't get back on it.
I went 6 days very well and I felt I was making progress, I was working on my hobbies that ... | self.depression |
I know they’re talking about me behind my back It sucks to know you’re being talked about behind your back. My coworkers are older than me, but I’m in a higher position because I’ve been practicing longer, but since we’re close to the same age, I felt comfortable talking with them. I’m already feeling panicky today a... | self.Anxiety |
I want to dropout of college and enlist (and forfeit my Air Force scholarship) I hate college, I hate my grades and studying, I love my degree but God I hate studying, it just depresses me and makes me feel like college isn't the right thing for me. In a way, this makes me feel shitty and like I'm just giving up, but ... | self.offmychest |
Surrounded by boring people? I just had a thought, that surprised me a little. I was feeling rather depressed and thought about why I feel that way, when suddenly this thought pops up: I find the people around me to be extremely boring. But now, is it just me, not seeing anything in them - or can it be true, and I migh... | self.depression |
I threw a Hail Mary but got rejected for the final time. And my depression/loneliness is at a high. [deleted] | self.depression |
How to get of Wellbutrin anxiety? Does it pass? *title should say how to get RID of Wellbutrin anxiety. It's been 15 days since I started Wellbutrin. The last few days I've been getting anxiety. Does this go away after a certain time period? Is there anything that can be taken to damper this anxiety? | self.depression |
I'm fed up trying to take care of myself I've been trying to sleep properly but I can't handle all these racing thoughts. I keep thinking for hours and hours, I try to fight all of my anxiety and self deprecation but I just waste more time not sleeping or relaxing. I do techniques to calm my self down; counting, concen... | self.Anxiety |
Onward and upward about 2 weeks ago I was in A & E because I had taken an overdose.
I was then sent to the psych ward for 5 days. I have since been
discharged to the home care treatment team who have been wonderful; they come to my house everyday and talk to me, sort my meds out. Without the support I've recei... | self.bipolar |
Video games don't feel like fun anymore It's my only real hobby and I haven't touched it in weeks. I feel like I'm wasting time doing nothing. | self.depression |
Issues with chore routine--does anyone else have this problem? Feeling lowsy about it. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I cried... And it was for at least 30 minutes or longer. I cried hard because I knew no one would hear me (I could not do this before because I used to live at home). And the tears did not fade like what people say. I did not feel better like what people say....and I still feel like crying up till now. I could cry agai... | self.depression |
I Was a Prisoner TLDR; My ex-husband found a way to manipulate the neighbors into calling him every time I left the house. He would drag me into his van and our neighbors would watch, sympathizing with HIM, completely unwilling to call the police even when I begged them to.
((End TLDR))
In another subreddit I am veri... | self.offmychest |
Not sure if this fits in here.. Heya
First of all, no idea if this shit belongs here but not gonna lie I just need to get it out. I am 19yo, have a job as programmer (actually it's an apprenticeship I finish in June, after 4 years) and last year was shit. This year didnt really start off good either so there's that. ... | self.depression |
It keeps happening over and over again I thought of using a throwaway but I just don't care.
I've got a lot going on. Most of it is bad. The worst is that I cannot handle the constant barrage of sexual assaults and the "me too" campaign because people keep talking about it and keep acting like it's going to fix everyt... | self.SuicideWatch |
How can I feel secure in a healthy relationship? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Struggling I posted something to a private account of mine and somehow my classmates found out. They kept trying to access the account and started messaging me anonymously when I wouldn’t let them. I confronted a large group of them about it and they got very angry. I posted the message publicly to state my answer and ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Christmas just didn't make sense.. You spend money on stuff to give away, you get stuff that people don't money on to. You spend time with people you don't care much shit and they don't really care about you. It's a waste of time and money. | self.depression |
My will to live is gone because my relationship is of 9 years is over and I don't know what to do, please help me I posted to relationship advice, depression, offmychest and got nothing. I feel like nobody in the world cares and the only answers I got were callous and unfeeling.
My girlfriend of 9 years told me she do... | self.SuicideWatch |
(insert attractive post title that will encourage people to comment on my post) i want to kms, I could do it too. imagine if i just hang myself that would be rad. i have nothing to live for anyway. No relationship, no friends. is it normal to post this stuff more than once a week? idk... I need to die. | self.SuicideWatch |
Thoughts of anxiety and depression. I have General anxiety and depression the last time I thought about giving up was in December when things seemed less and less worth the while of sticking around which I'm to much of a coward to actually do life just has to much to give than give up. I also have a son I could not do ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm currently seeing my professor. So I have to immediately clarify that she is no longer my professor but I did study directly under her for most of my time spent at university.
I met this woman, who we can call ABRAHAM LINCOLN (AL for short), my first year at university and immediately formed a real tight bond with ... | self.offmychest |
Thank you guys for making me feel a bit better. These past weeks, I've never felt worse in my life. I feel so numb, so empty. I have no passion in life. There is no drive in me. I am a husk of my former self. I used to enjoy video games so much, but I don't anymore. It pains me to think that something I was so passiona... | self.depression |
Anyone else feel like they're just trying to survive rather than live life? During a conversation with a friend I came to the realization that in my existence I don't feel like I'm trying to "live life". I I feel like I'm more trying to survive, just get through each day without collapsing mentally.
Anyone else?
E... | self.depression |
I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. | self.depression |
help im genuinely scared of how badly my life has changed in the recent months. i haven't eaten properly in a month and i went from really enjoying life and recovering to spending days on end in bed and doing nothing but crying and thinking about how i want to die so so so badly. i dont want to hurt people around me an... | self.depression |
Male On Male Sexual Assual Hey everyone, sorry if this isn't the correct place to be posting this, but I couldn't think of anywhere else. I figured this was the best subreddit for bellyaching like a bitch, so here I am. :)
I feel hesitant to talk about this, because I doubt I would be taken seriously. If you give me... | self.depression |
survived to the first attempt,I'm not really happy or in ecstasy as I expected | self.SuicideWatch |
When you are in psychosis, does it feel like you're high? I'm worried because I'm feeling really weird right now... | self.bipolar |
wife addicted to cell phone my wife is addicted to her cell phone i mean seriously addicted she goes to bed falling asleep to it. Soon as she wakes up she picks it up and sits on the toilet. Getting kids ready for school she is on it, while we are all at the table eating breakfast she sit on the couch on it, this shit... | self.offmychest |
Tentacles and Anchors so idk if anyone here has read the book It's Kind of a Funny Story (if you haven't you should) but one of the things the main character does is break things up into what he refers to as tentacles, the evil tasks that invade his life and turn into nasty spirals, and anchors, the things that occupy ... | self.depression |
Trying to sleep at night is just a nightmare. [deleted] | self.depression |
Deciding between grad certificate or master's degree: need guidance I will soon be graduating with a degree in Criminal Justice and a minor in Sociology. I work part time as a police officer. I am either wanting to receive a grad certificate in Cybersecurity management or a Master's degree in Public Affairs specializin... | self.offmychest |
I will lose my job when the tax cuts begin I work in a mental health clinic and all of our clients use Medicaid/Medicare. With cuts to that in the new tax legislation, we'll no longer be able to help people.
I'm very angry. I worked hard in college to get a job in my field and that will be gone because people will lo... | self.offmychest |
Does anyone really care? I've been trying to find help for depression and suicidal thoughtsthe last few years, and am constantly told about there being someone out there that cares. That someone must literally be just 1 person and they live in china. I just wanted to ask if there is anyone out there that genuinely ca... | self.depression |
Why do adults still live at home knowing they are way too old? [removed] | self.offmychest |
My mother is a domineering piece of shit and I want to die so much I don't know where to start here.
I feel so unbelievably taken advantage off.
I live at home. I'm in my 30s. Its due to financial issues. My job pays shit money and I couldn't afford rent and had to move back home a few years ago.
I help at wi... | self.SuicideWatch |
Tomorrow I find out if I passed my performance improvement plan at work. Hey everybody you may not recognize my username but I lurk here and I post every once in a while and I've recently been posting more often to try to share my experiences with other people to see if I can maybe help with how they deal with their bi... | self.bipolar |
Everything feels like it sucks nowadays and can never compare to the past. Video games, movies , shows, life it all feels like it sucks nowadays. The only good thing I can think of is more rights for people who deserve it but everything else has become so boring or stressful. It doesn't even feel like their is a future... | self.depression |
Talentless, failure, worthless Three words I would use to describe myself. People have told me I am smart and that they wished they could be like me but they know nothing. I have to study 12h a day so I can get a "decent" grade. Sometimes I even know how to solve a problem but I'll make the DUMBEST mistake you could ev... | self.depression |
The things I hate most about having an anxiety attack The things I hate most about having an anxiety attack.
* Not being able to move because literally the act of moving feels unsafe.
* The fact that my rational mind is still there, just shoved into a closet at the back where I cant hear over the sounds of my brain S... | self.Anxiety |
How do you make yourself feel something? I'm 25, female, and I've been depressed for more than 10 years. I feel nothing all day and spend every day acting like a robot and I don't know how to feel anything. I laugh about once every couple of months, and even then it only lasts about a minute. The thing is I have a cons... | self.depression |
New to health anxiety help? I had my first panic attack July 2017.I am a 26 year old male who was an athlete in college. To be honest I had no idea how bad anxiety truly was and just didn't get it. Welp, in July I had this sudden fear that was going to pass out. I got up started pacing around and constantly moving my ... | self.Anxiety |
Excited/happy/motivated after a depressive/anxiety episode--DAE? I noticed a pattern that when I am coming out of a depression or anxiety episode, I get really excited, happy, motivated, hyper. It's like the roller-coaster is going back uphill again.....
I'm not bipolar, I am not on any meds. I don't make bad decisi... | self.Anxiety |
Going to talk to my doctor for the first time, terrified. I’ve been struggling with anxiety for years but it’s starting to become unmanageable and is affecting my relationships with people I care about. I HATE talking to strangers about how I’m feeling, and I’m terrified that once I get there, I’m not going to be able ... | self.Anxiety |
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