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I have no identity. I am the son of two middle eastern immigrants. I was born in germany and have lived here all my life, but I don't, haven't, and will NEVER feel like I belong here because I don't. And I don't belong in turkey or irak either because 1) I'm not religious 2) I'm gay. too dark to be considered german an... | self.offmychest |
I am too shy to talk about my issues to anyone. [deleted] | self.depression |
Anyone else get knocked down really easily? Does anyone else get knocked down so easily by seemingly small things or instances because it just adds to the bigger issue that lingers in the mind? I have an issue with self-esteem, self-doubt, and just having a default mood that's negative. Small issues come up that any re... | self.depression |
Make the most out of your last days - maybe it will make you change your mind So there’s nothing to give you joy in life anymore, and you have decided that you want to end it all.
We’ve all asked or been asked a similar question to «if you have ten days to live, what do you do?». This scenario has now become real. Eve... | self.SuicideWatch |
I can’t stop eating and it’s breaking me It isn’t even just that I can’t stop eating, I’m basically addicted to foods that are bad for me, like fast food, and just overall giant portions. I’ve managed to fix every other aspect of my life except for this and it is weighing me down, literally and emotionally.
How do yo... | self.depression |
Anxiety and...extreme disorganization? I have anxiety and I am also extremely disorganized and messy. I don't want to be, and it makes me MORE anxious but I can't break the cycle. Anyone else like this? | self.Anxiety |
Is my depression telling me no one cares or are my experiences confirming that? I understand that your mind can play tricks on you and make you feel as though no one cares, and that is true for a lot of people but for me I believe it isn't. I try to be rational about a lot of things. I try to distinguish my thoughts fr... | self.depression |
I’m dealing with the Anniversary effect for the first time Hi. So this is a little weird for me, but it’s playing on my mind and I want to air it out without sugar coating it.
I’ve battled depression throughout my life, but it’s been most prominent since 2012/2013. In October 2013, I entered a relationship with someo... | self.depression |
How did you beat your depression? I don't know where else to turn [deleted] | self.depression |
Job interview. First in years. I feel weird whining here about something "positive" but I got a job interview tomorrow and it's @ 3:30 in a part of the city I am not very savvy with.
It's also not a job that pays any better and it's still retail but, god, I hate my current job environment. I need a change, even if it'... | self.Anxiety |
I'm pretty sure my girlfriend killed herself because of what I said. I'm a sorry excuse for a person. I don't deserve to live, because I basically caused her death. I guess I should explain.
I've been dating a girl for about 5 months now. I'm 14 and she had turned 14 as well a few days prior. We've both had a history ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Dealing with the daily grind? Like most of us past a certain age, I have a job. I've had the same job for 22-plus years, in fact. But as I've gotten older and my depression has become more and more a factor in my life, dealing with the mundane grind has become exceptionally draining.
It's been heightened lately by s... | self.depression |
I don’t know how much longer I can do this [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Now when I get low I want to self harm I haven't cut. I don't know how. I've burned without leaving much of a mark. It helps me feel better. I got into it a couple weeks ago and it was great but I knew something was wrong because it felt rational. It feels rational again. I'm getting low. I want to do it.
I wonder if ... | self.bipolar |
My new years resultion! I will try to Work on my self so that I find a Goal that's Worth chasing, I will not kill my self in the next half year! | self.depression |
Just venting and it's probably stupid but here goes I was having suicidal thoughts and someone I was texting noticed and they told someone. Now the person that they told thinks I was just threatening to kill myself and they called me a horrible person. I didn't mean to do any harm, I just wanted someone to vent to ... | self.depression |
What are some early warning signs that you're manic/hypo? For me, I start posting an inordinate amount on social media, or I go off on rants randomly. Libido starts to kick in as well (I normally have a very low sex drive). | self.bipolar |
Bipolar and anxiety causing disconnecting with reality? Alright I'll try to make this as short as I can, so a family member was taken to a psychiatrist hospital after a psychotic break. For a week or so she was behaving oddly, swore she could see into the future and that she could control nature; that she IS Mother Nat... | self.bipolar |
I want to run away from home but don't know if it is a good idea. I am from Pakistan so my parents are very conservative. Grew up in a home where women are considered good for cleaning and cooking. I am rarely allowed to go outside and have to lie to even hang out with my boyfriend or any friend twice a week for a few ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Jealousy toward mentally healthy, functional people? I feel a lot of this. What about you? | self.Anxiety |
Tips on avoiding social media tonight? You know, because people who have it sussed it go to parties and celebrate the new year whereas I re-watch a favourite movie or tv series at 11:30 so I can avoid midnight. | self.depression |
Im drowning...[Venting] Im drowning...Im tired of worrying about where my next meal for me and my family will come from. Im tired of worrying about when my phone will be shut off. Im just tired in general
I have all these problems but people say money wont make you happy. But it will take all the stresses I have away.... | self.SuicideWatch |
good and bad days? the past week has been horrible to me but today i’m feeling quite nice. Yesterday I wanted to cut my neck and today I feel like jamming and I finally laughed again. I’m scared of falling back into a bad day, is it possible that I might havw another bad day? I’m on antipsychotics, lexapro and clonazep... | self.depression |
Im starting to understand.. To make a long story short: My friend’s Ex told her that he was “too fucked up” to be with her and so he ended the relationship. I always thought that those words were some sort of excuse people used to justify their behavior and to make a break up seem less hash. (Hope I’m making sense :/) ... | self.depression |
I [23f] think yet another episode of depression is starting and I am losing hope Hi Reddit.
Tldr: I (23f) have suffered through multiple episodes of depression separated by very short bouts of feeling happy before it starts up again. I finally recovered from a year long episode in August 2017 (that had started in Sep... | self.depression |
Abilify question I started taking 15 mg of abilify and 150 mg of XR Wellbutrin on monday. This was after taking 300 mg of tegretol three times daily, 100 mg of wellbutrin sr twice a day and 200 mg of seroquel at night. The first 2 days i felt really tired but i couldn't sleep and I felt very depressed. I called the p... | self.bipolar |
I hate myself for posting here When I post here I feel like a career victim. I know in a way it sounds like I’m denouncing others who post here, but, I can’t help but feel like trash. I see people so confident all the time. People make fun of these types of people, but, I actually feel envious of them because they actu... | self.depression |
thinking about suicide more and more suicide has always been something in the corners of my mind, but i've been revisiting it a ton the past couple weeks.
i would never act on my thoughts of suicide. the thought of pain hurts more than the pain would itself.
i feel so fucked up and broken. I'm 23 years old. I'm not... | self.offmychest |
Frightening intrusive thoughts about hanging myself, or taking lots of panadol, or slicing myself up. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
One year ago today. One year ago today I told a woman I’d never met that her son was dead. I let her pound my chest as she begged to see her boy. I could barely hold back the tears.
One year ago today I saw a young man with more stab wounds than I could count from his head to his hip. I had his blood on my shoes, and ... | self.depression |
I feel completely jaded to the possibility of finding love I am 24f and I know that a lot of people say that I am still young and stuff, but I have been majorly depressed my whole life and disappointed countless times. I never had a relationship, only went on a few dates, and at this point I've become completely numb t... | self.depression |
I'm at my end but I have to make a choice I am in so much physical and mental pain and I want it all to stop. My dilema is that I have 2 beautiful little baby rats that have been keeping me above water for the last 10 weeks but they are no longer enough. I want to do it but I can't leave them and there are no decent pl... | self.SuicideWatch |
Is Goodbye Difficult For You Guys? I always feel difficult about goodbye, especially for those goodbyes I don't know when I'll see the person next.. even I had a great night, I would end up be anxious back home because of it. Is that the same with you guys? | self.Anxiety |
Oh boy, nothing like the feeling of knowing you're about to be replaced [deleted] | self.depression |
Have any of you had a concussion that worsened your mental symptoms? I had a mild concussion towards the end of December. For the following week or so, I noticed that I was very out of it and dazed which lines up with post-concussive syndrome but then started to feel better. I also noticed that my mental health seemed ... | self.bipolar |
Making friends is hard. 23F here. I had really bad experiences with the women in my family, and now I’m intimidated by other women. Throughout childhood and middle and high school, I did manage to make a few close female friends and they were amazing. They were the most fulfilling relationships I have ever had. After g... | self.depression |
Not sure how long I can take this I’m so emotionally wiped out by this disorder. I’m just done with the medication roulette. I’m tapering off effexor and it’s making me sick and, what’s worse, it’s making me feel like I’ll never enjoy life again. | self.bipolar |
Anyone else feel like they can't trust their mind? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
My Life has been utterly ruined and I feel like it's my fault. I just feel so disconnected to everyone and everything around me. I am a 24 year old Male and still cannot find a good girlfriend, even if I did have one I feel like it would be short lived because of my horrible anxiety and panic. My whole body is hyper se... | self.Anxiety |
The ultimate fuck-up I wrote all my suicide notes, addressed to certain people, and I finished writing my reasons, I then proceeded to rip the page out, and it ripped through the whole bloody note 😂. Just thought I'd share. | self.SuicideWatch |
admitted myself, Psychologist says I have a dissociative disorder 38M with long term instability throughout my life. Cycles of depressive episodes where I emotionally disconnect from people for long periods of time, followed by cycles of feeling relatively stable and able to function. I had always assumed it to just be... | self.depression |
I screwed up and scared I just undid lots of work [deleted] | self.depression |
I wish... I wish I had someone in my life who could just hug me and hold me really close and tell me that everything will be alright. It’s been such a struggle this past year dealing with anxiety and every time I feel like I’m about to overcome it, it just comes back and hits back harder. I don’t know how much longer I... | self.Anxiety |
I'd really like a hug. Unfortunately, I cannot get one.
I feel completely alone. | self.depression |
suicidal jokes :) i constantly make jokes about how i wanna commit suicide and wanna die and add "lol" or "lmao" at the end so it doesnt look as serious as it may seem but im kinda hoping somebody will reach out and realize im being very serious and say somethin lol
edit: just realised someone made a very similar p... | self.depression |
Help! Memory loss and fear of going crazy Does anybody else float in and out of derealization and not really notice?
Does anybody else feel like they only remember the parts of the day when they are panicking or over analyzing?
Does anybody else feel like anxiety has caused memory loss?
It’s super hard for me to ... | self.Anxiety |
Just turned 26M. No job. In debt, and a failed career and education. I don't see any hope anymore. Had many dreams and goals in life. They all have failed in front of my eyes, including a startup I put so much energy and hope into (thus the debt). Maybe I was living in an illusion and now I woke up.
I don't think I'l... | self.SuicideWatch |
I figure it's a good time to finish my life, if there is such a thing A friend of a friend type person, pretty well known in the community and at his alma mater just died in an accident at age 22. This was just a few days ago. Most of the people I know are grieving him and everything. I didn't know him well at all but ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I wish I started counting calories a long time ago I know many of us worry about weight gain or experience with with various medications - I wish I had started counting calories when I *started* my meds rather than assuming that as a generally thin person I would be fine. I wish I had a better idea of how much food I n... | self.bipolar |
I hurt my best friend. About seven months ago I was stoned and in the same bed as a good female friend of mine. I don't want to go into detail but I sexually assaulted her that night. I regret this everyday of my life. I think about it everyday and I always thought I wasn't that type of person. I can't justify it to my... | self.depression |
I greatly struggle to get out of bed every morning. I wish I wouldn’t wake up ever again. [deleted] | self.depression |
I can't stop crying My depression's getting worse. I find myself randomly crying over simple things. I used to be so confident of myself but lately my self-esteem has taken a toll. Everything I do feels like a failure and disappointment. It's embarrassing because it has happened at work. I don't want people to notice s... | self.depression |
Observations on my suicidal thoughts I remember the first time I ever had suicidal thoughts, it was 4 years ago and I was living away from home for university. I remember coming home that weekend and breaking down in front of my parents straight away. That experience was horrifying especially because the thoughts were ... | self.depression |
Feeling Empty As the title says, I'm feeling empty. I have been for seven years of my life, and it comes and goes.
Anymore I feel I have no real reason to be here. Nothing feels right, if that makes sense. Maybe someone else knows what I mean.
Apart from that, my whole family is just awful. I spent years around abus... | self.depression |
Finally am comfortable with medical cannabis and oh boy did it change my life Title is self explanatory.
But I've had bad ptsd due to a brain tumor when I was 20. And brain sugery and still constant checking.And followed bad depression and anxiety and bad ADHD. Yay broken new generation.
I smoked weed this 1 tim... | self.offmychest |
Chest feel tight Does anyone else's chest constantly feel tight? Mine does and it's just been ruled out because my health is perfect, but it always makes me even more anxious cause I think somethings wrong and sometimes I really feel like I can't breathe. Anyone else deal with this, and how do you handle it? | self.Anxiety |
My family makes way too much money for way too little [Warning: political opinions ahead]
So basically everything I have is because my grandpa makes a ton of money as a commercial real estate developer. He's sort of a "self-made man", although tbh that term is kind of bullshit because it erases various privileges and ... | self.offmychest |
How does positive self talk work? So I read about a thing called cognitive dissonance where basically by doing something like forcing yourself to smile and act confidently, your brain thinks this is how you really are so suddenly you feel confident. This can be extended to waking up every day and feeding yourself a fat... | self.depression |
Is it irresponsible to love Okay that is a dramatic title... But I think it serves as a decent abstraction of my situation. Here goes:
I am 43 years old and been wrestling with the depression and bipolar since about 2002. Previous to that was essentially one long 28 year manic period. I was a super hero.
I went c... | self.bipolar |
Feeling incredibly thankful for all of you /r/bipolar is truly an awesome page. I was looking at another mental health page (won't name names), and it was really depressing. That probably sounds like a weird thing, but I feel like there is a lot of hope here, a lot of expression, sobs, laughs, and thoughts. This is suc... | self.bipolar |
The Way I Kill Myself I don’t have anyone to love, so I love going to the city to pick up drugs.
My motivation to change anything meaningful in my life doesn’t stick, so I stick a needle in my arm and inject it.
My waking reality is not adequate, so I nod off into nothingness again.
Maybe this time I won’t wake.
| self.depression |
It’s Christmas Day and I don’t want to be here. My relationship with my mum has been strained this year because I found out she regularly talks about me behind my back to my brother. Not good things, obviously.
I wish I was out of this house, hours away with my boyfriend. I’m over feeling like I have to hide in my ow... | self.offmychest |
Has anyone else gone to a symphony alone? How did it turn out? I purchased a ticket to see a tribute to Ella Fitzgerald on NYE and picked a seat that was center stage. I chose that seat because that’s where I would like to sit, but afterwards I started thinking maybe it would have been better to get a seat closer to th... | self.Anxiety |
After months of not brushing my hair, I was able to get the tangles and mats out! I only had to cut a few pieces off and it's not noticeable! [X-post /r/TheSmallVictories]
I love my hair and I genuinely thought I was going to have to cut it off. I don't remember the last time I brushed it. It's been at least 3 mon... | self.bipolar |
Not having a bed to sleep in really fucking sucks sat downstairs till 8am freezing on the sofa, I have to wait till my gran wakes up to go to her room to get a couple hours sleep. This has lasted a week, my vision is getting shitty my back is hurting I'm absolutely miserable with headaches its not fair. People keep tal... | self.depression |
Here for anyone who needs someone to talk to!! Hey guys, I know it sucks not having anyone to talk to about your thoughts or issues going on. So if you’d like to PM me I’m here for you!!! My names Alex and please feel free to message me at any time about anything. I don’t judge, everyone’s life is different so I comple... | self.depression |
I don't even know how to try anymore I am so alone, and so depressed I can't even think of how to get out. I feel so in life, like I've got absolutely nothing to live for. I'm 22, still live at home, no friends, my family wants nothing to do with me, and I've just got nothing. All I do in life is go to work, and play o... | self.depression |
In an effort to retrain my brain to think positively Here are things that are not bad, possibly good, or actually good.
While many clients at my job never accept my help and then go find a man to help them, that's kinda good because I don't want to talk to anyone anyway.
I'm getting paid while depressed, which is bet... | self.depression |
Everything's an act I am merely acting and lying my way out of life. Every situation, every conversation, it is all fake. I AM FAKE. Completely fake. A big fat liar.
I do not feel anything. I am trying to make myself feel. Forcefully. And it is not working. It's getting harder and harder to grip on to reality with ev... | self.depression |
Friend mad after coming over to make sure she was ok. She showed alot of the signs in the past few days/weeks (cutting people out, telling me she didn't know how to get over it, getting off of social media) and while I didn't think she'd hurt herself tonight I didn't want to risk it, I know she's tried to before. She t... | self.SuicideWatch |
I sometimes feel like my sad thoughts are truer than my normal thoughts [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Losing my will to live has actually helped a little bit. I feel like it helps me avoid anxiety, because nothing matters in the long run. Yet, for some reason, people don’t like apathy, even in situations where it doesn’t pertain to them. Apathy does not equal laziness.
I’m only seventeen, so I feel rather young to be ... | self.depression |
I'm finally fine. And now I'm not. I'm fine again. And again I'm not. I'm getting sick of this pattern. I thought I had it all figured out but I inevitably fall back into my suffocating hole of depression. It might have been caused by the few bad days I've had in the past two weeks. Or maybe it really was meant to over... | self.depression |
Returning to places where I have extreme anxiety Hi,
So basically I went on holiday and became extremely ill with gastroenteritis and was admitted to hospital for 4 days because I ate very little for a week and dropped from 60kg to 53kg. I was very happy to return home.
I have recently accepted a very good job opportu... | self.Anxiety |
birthday (CW self harm/ depression) hey friends
it's my birthday (nobody, not my SO, siblings, friends or parents remembered), and I am overwhelmed with work and final papers I'm supposed to be writing and my internet's out (this from my phone) and I can't fucking do this anymore.
I'm 24 and I hate this. I just wan... | self.bipolar |
I'm A Failure And I Should Die I tried. I tried to do good in college but I just didn't have it in me to do good. I failed again cause I'm an idiot. I don't want to go back home and face my family and tell them I'm a piece of shit that failed. I should just jump off a roof or into traffic so I don't have to tell them h... | self.SuicideWatch |
Ruminating and obsessive thought intrusion So basically in the wake of the Weinstein sexual abuses I was reminded of what was a disgusting prank played against me on a “guy’s holiday”. And at the time, even though peeved, I just kind of shrugged it off but now the more I think and ruminate on it - this was seven years ... | self.depression |
I don't really know what to do or how to feel, or if this even belongs on this Subreddit. I've been struggling on and off with depression for 8 years, since I was 14. As of late it's been low after low after low. I've tried to get help, but we all know that the mental health system in this country is a fucking joke. I'... | self.depression |
question about sleeping pills this isn't about suicide or anything, just wondering how many sleeping pills will knock me out fast and hard without hurting my stomach. idk if this is the right place for this but i'm a depressed motherfucker sooo | self.depression |
My brother has depression and I don't know what to do.. I've suffered with Depression myself and managed to help myself out of it on my own; however, I know it's different for everyone. My brother has been to the therapy to treat his depression but he is still struggling and I don't know what to do. He always believes ... | self.depression |
My birthday's today Last year was depressing as hell, and I still have no friends, but I'm looking forward to spending the day with my family. Hopefully they care. | self.depression |
Emotional Support Dog Hi guys. Yesterday a friend who also suffers from pretty severe anxiety suggested an emotional support dog as a way to help with my anxiety. I've found the perfect dog, but need to get a certification letter since my apartment doesn't allow pets. My therapist is an MSW, LCSW. Does she qualify to b... | self.Anxiety |
Whats your favorite fidget toy? I have a couple of fidget things, but my favorite is my tangle toy - which looks like this https://imgur.com/a/4L0CF
I wanna hear about other peoples favorite toys, so tell me all about them! | self.Anxiety |
Jobless and stuck. I moved to a new town across the country about 6 months ago, with my new husband. We've been together for several years, but we just got married. Anyway, I feel this has been one of the worst periods of my life. I am currently taking meds, but they only seem to barely lift me out of the deep, dark pi... | self.depression |
Basically this is just something that I keep in myself and never let out to anyone. Nothing serious just something that I need to let out once in a while I am just feeling exhausted as I getting more and more unsure of myself. I just stopped loving the things that I used to enjoy and everything just don't feel right an... | self.offmychest |
Forgot my sSRI for a week, is that bad? I'm at family for the holiday and I forgot my celexa at home. Will probably ~1 week without it. Will I be OK or should I try to get some? | self.Anxiety |
I wish I could actually go through with it I can think of dozens of ways to die, and for each and every one of those, I can think of at least two why that specific plan is terrible. And no matter how I go, there will always be people inconvenienced at best, or hurt at worst.
Two dozen reasons not to kill myself, is no... | self.SuicideWatch |
depression and crying all day at work How do I stop this?
It's so embarrassing. I took the day off to try and figure out my emotions and feel a little better but it looks like I'm just ending up crying all day at home.
Yesterday a coworker walked up to me to tell me how pretty I looked and tears started coming out. ... | self.bipolar |
I believe it is more positivity and less negativity in being single than having a love-relationship with someone. I believe people have a lot more problems in love-relationships than being single. I love that I can do whatever I want when I am single, so I have decided that I want to be single the rest of my life. | self.offmychest |
To the postman in the Staples parking lot You are a HERO. And I really hope you see this to know that your act of kindness made my day. I went to Staples with my toddler in tow to drop off USPS and UPS packages. Unbeknownst to me Staples stopped accepting packages from USPS about three months ago. Well being this was o... | self.offmychest |
I'm having mental breakdowns and there's nowhere I can get away to. Alright, long story, so just skip to the bottom if you don't want to deal with it.
So, I was homeless until about 6 months ago, when my stepdad, who I was estranged from, found out about my situation and took me into his home. I know beggars can't be ... | self.offmychest |
Does anyone ever experience bouts of hyper Religiosity? I have bipolar disorder and have never been religious and have never really been convinced by it. However, when I'm in a manic phase, I start to feel very "spiritual" and start reading shit about chakras and healing crystals and whatnot. Has anyone experienced som... | self.bipolar |
Weed makes my heart race Hey guys, I have a question for you all. I’ve been blazing for several years and never had a problem before now. Recently whenever I smoke, I’m getting super anxious and my heart starts racing. I haven’t smoked since last night and I still feel kind of anxious / slightly elevated heart rate. Ha... | self.Anxiety |
I hate myself. I don't know what keeps me going anymore. Help me. My whole life I've been afraid of social interactions. I am an only child. My whole life I've been lonely. I could never keep a friend. My family treats me like shit. It always feels like they're against me. I've was involved in several sports programs/k... | self.SuicideWatch |
Family member attempted suicide yesterday. How can I help him? My cousin’s son is 18 or 19, and attempted suicide yesterday. He’s still in the ICU, but it seems he will recover (hopefully!) I don’t have a ton of details, but it seems he took some sort of pills or something. He was unresponsive, and couldn’t breathe wit... | self.SuicideWatch |
In case you're feeling down too One day, I will be happy. One day, I will be successful. One day, I will have a family that I am proud of and love. One day, this will all be behind me. One day, I won’t be depressed ever again. One day, I will know that the sun will come out tomorrow and that will mean more than ju... | self.depression |
My "life" ended a long time ago I'm posting here because I'm for the most part done with living. Life has nothing to offer me. Never has.
First, I'm going to describe myself so those who will be turned off by talking with someone like me will know up front.
I'm 5'3", about 150, 55 years old, medium-brown skinned fem... | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel like I'm constantly on the edge of a panic attack I've been traveling for the past 6+ years outside of the United States for work and I'm getting tired of it, not only physically, but mentally and emotionally. When I go home on my "vacations," it doesn't feel like home. It just feels like another job site now. I... | self.Anxiety |
I might have cancer. I really, really hope I do. It's looking increasingly likely.
It would be the best thing to ever happen to me.
I'm not going to tell anyone probably, except my best friend who already knows it's possible.
Maybe I'll tell random women for some sympathy fucks if I even care enough at that point.
... | self.SuicideWatch |
My Parents Divorced & Everything Is Just Getting Worse My mom and dad recently divorced and life is just getting harder for me, im 13 and I have 4 other sisters. Because of the divorce, I have to stay at my mom's friends place which is making me super depressed. My dad was verbally abusive and my mom didn't want to... | self.depression |
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