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When memes get too relatable So there is this copypasta:
I'm an ugly 3/10 beta male with no real discernable positive traits, I'm scared of anything and everything. I'm too timid and anxious to live life like a normal person. I haven't had a friend since was a child and I don't really understand how to even make frien... | self.depression |
How could I not have known? (Note: this contains distressing descriptions of body horror and self harm)
So I was diagnosed with bipolar cyclothymia in the spring of 2016. I had always known something was wrong with me, but for whatever reason (well, mainly being a really insecure teenager), I never sought help until I... | self.bipolar |
Eccedentesiast An "Eccedentesiast" is the one who fakes a smile or represses his pain by stifling a smile. Or you could say a person who hides his feeling behind a smile. | self.SuicideWatch |
Experiencing so much existential dread lately I'm not as excited as I want to be for Christmas Not too much to this story, just wanted to say it. My family is gonna keep asking me why I'm upset or why I'm not smiling tomorrow, but I'm not sad. Just a little numb to the expectations to act a certain way.
Hope 2018 is ... | self.Anxiety |
I want to drink my life away. I'd so love to just give up and drink myself to death. I love alcohol and I want to drink more often. I want to drink all the time.
I have to keep living for my family. I have to keep living for my girlfriend. | self.depression |
Anyone else compulsively twirl their hair? Hello friends, this may be a long shot, but does anyone else have a compulsive urge to play with, twirl, or pull their hair whenever they are idle?
I am a 21yo male and I've had the bad habit ever since I was a kid to play with my own hair. Just one of those things I never g... | self.Anxiety |
I just don't know what I want to do. I'm so confused in life. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Memory loss I don't know if it's because of whatever mild depression I have, but for the past few months, I haven't been able to retain the same mental capacity I used to have. I can't remember as many details about people, and I feel like I'm not fully processing what I learn in school. I become easily overwhelmed wit... | self.depression |
I feel like I have plenty of reasons to be happy, but... I'm just not. Like, seriously, all things considered, my life doesn't seem that bad. I like my family, I'm relatively wealthy for my age (early 20s), I guess I can be somewhat attractive on a good day too.
I very recently got my degree in computer science too. I ... | self.depression |
Night time once more my friends Nightly post to wish everyone a great night sleep and fortitude for tomorrow. Lets enjoy this quiet night and embrace it, no one will bother us now, lets treasure this time and enjoy ourselves before the coming storm that is our daily life.
Good night my friends, stay safe! | self.depression |
apologizing to my ex for sexual assault My boyfriend (24m) and I (23m) broke up two months ago after being together for four years. During our relationship, I would touch him/fondle his genitals while he was just waking up/still asleep. I was also pushy with the topic of sex because I wasn’t feeling validated. He had a... | self.offmychest |
Tips needed - You know how some people can’t shower when their depression is really bad? [deleted] | self.depression |
What’s a drug that I can overdose on that is easily accessible? Preferably over the counter, I’m desperate. And how much of it would I need to take? I’m not seeking help nor am I seeking attention, I’m just tired of life. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Is it reasonable to look into disability services at my university for BP? BP has no doubt affected my progress/grades for the worse, causing me to fail one class and withdraw from another this last semester. Both of these classes stemmed from the fact that I was legitimately *afraid* to go to class for fear of the int... | self.bipolar |
Just sick of people thinking they know everything and their selfishness I'm tired of people being so selfish all the time. Especially the know it alls who tell everyone how to be when their own lives are a disaster. Also, just because I'm a man who raises my child alone doesn't mean that those without kids you can te... | self.offmychest |
I thought I was getting better, broke down over something stupid [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Anyone taking both a mood stabilizer and antidepressant? So I've been struggling with my Mania lately. I think it's been almost 6 months that I've been on Lamictal. I honestly can't tell if its working because while I noticed I'm being more social and outgoing... I still have A LOT of bad bouts of mania.
Now, for the... | self.bipolar |
I am done with this life. I have had enough of everything. there is nothing in this world I want anymore. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
My girlfriend of 3 years cheated, then we somewhat got back together. Now she's ignoring me. I want to die. I’m hoping nobody reads this, because it is pathetic, badly written, and long.
But if you do, I apologize in advance.
My (ex) girlfriend and I have been dating for 3 years. We were best friends, although I had ... | self.offmychest |
Fooled again Started seeing a therapist for once a week right before christmas and followed up for the first time. Actually felt good. I am cured now yeah Im a new person this is great. So stupid. Guess I never learn. Today Im sad as fuck for no reason again and yesterday a nerve wreck ibs flairing fuck it all. | self.bipolar |
Would anyone like to be friends? It feels bad when you're this lonely that you have to post on this specific subreddit to actually just seek some interaction. Another pointless post, sorry for taking up some space. | self.depression |
17, girlfriend is pregnant, I love her, and I want to join the military There's just a lot on my plate. I love her and don't want to leave her but It's been my dream as a kid and it can help us so much. It wouldn't even happen for a few years until I can get things in order with my child, money and love wise. I just go... | self.offmychest |
If someone compliments you, for Gods sake don't reject it! You know what my number one pet peeve is, more than almost anything? When I say something like "You're good looking" or "You're an interesting person" and they react by going "No I'm not!" or anything along those lines. Yeah, I know you're probably trying to be... | self.offmychest |
The older I've grown, the less happy I am. I wasn't a popular kid back in highschool. I had a few friends at school, and close friends outside. Back then, I wasn't really happy too.
I got into troubled relationships that ended bad, made the people I cared about sad. But I miss the "Whimsical" of highschool, I wouldn't... | self.depression |
Lost my job 2 months ago resulting in nightmares and panic attacks So I lost my job due to cutbacks. First month, total depression and suicidal thoughts. After that, every night I wake up from the same nightmare, being lost in an unfamiliar land and I have no idea how to get back. I wake up and realize that is almost t... | self.Anxiety |
Watched at least 2 people die yesterday My friend and I grabbed our boards and skated to the pizza place a few blocks down from my house. We left with our food after 10 minutes of waiting. On the way home, a car speeds past us at a dangerous speed. He makes a right, then turns a corner and immediately my friend heard a... | self.offmychest |
I miss my dog He passed away suddenly several months ago. He wasn't just a dog, he was my service dog. He had my back, calmed my anxieties, and made it possible for me to relax.
Since his death I've been unable to sleep more than a few hours at a time regardless of the extra help I use to try (alcohol, pills, etc). Do... | self.depression |
My sister has made our lives a living hell. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
has anyone called the suicide hotline? what are your experiences with them? | self.SuicideWatch |
I can't seem to figure this one out, are most people non confrontational or passive aggressive at their worst? Every time I've confronted someone over their bad behavior towards me or others they act surprised? [deleted] | self.offmychest |
What is a the point in living? I feel like there is no benefit to continuing. Everything in my life is just a step to survival but why survive? I don't feel like I have family or true friends or a future. I'm scared of a long painful death. I truly do wish I could go jump off a tall height with an assurance of death. | self.SuicideWatch |
Being the issue Often times, the world around us is the cause of depression, but oftentimes I find that a lot of the things im depressed over or regret to the core, are things that I did myself, of my own free will. How does one cope with the fact that everything they ever do or attempt in life is a futile attempt to r... | self.depression |
Is anyone else convinced they’re about to be fired and have their life fall apart? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Think I decided on how I would go if I ever finally decided to take the leap and pull the trigger. See what I did right there?... Eh.. Gallow's humor.
Which brings me to the topic of this post. I think I've come to the decision that if I ever did decide to finally just end it, I think I am gonna go with hanging. A lot... | self.SuicideWatch |
Stopped taking antidepressants I felt they lied me. I started to feel good with myself but i shouldn't. Im lazy ugly fat piece of sh*t. I should be dead. | self.SuicideWatch |
hard to see the point of living i'm at a pretty low point, i've just been finding it really hard to find a reason to live, life just seems too hard at this point and i can't imagine myself ever becoming independent and feeling alive and happy enough to support myself financially. i am 18 and i know it's sooo early to s... | self.depression |
How accessible is your psychiatrist? I’ve been using the same guy on (and mostly off) for over 20 years. He’s in a pain in the ass location and only uses the phone for communication. I find that frustrating as not only does my depression and anxiety make it difficult to even start to reach out to him, I end up having... | self.depression |
Buspar and zoloft? I figured this would be the best subreddit to ask this question on so here I go. Any who I've always had anxiety for the longest time and there was a good like 4-5 year period where I was content with my life and it just wasnt there, but now for the past 2 years it has come back. At first I tried to ... | self.Anxiety |
How do you let go of a toxic state of mind? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I have no right to want to die. Im 16, and honestly, my life is not horrible. I have loving parents who do not fight, a calm brother, 4 pets, clean clothes, food on my table. I have my own car, phone, computer and all the game systems I want. I'm spoiled. Mind you, I do work for things, my parents are not fond of simpl... | self.SuicideWatch |
articulate that, grace (yeah I fell for my best friend) [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Warning: We're being targeted by a PM-spammer promoting a blog at mentorself.com ###Update (Friday March 9, 11:45PST): This person has now made several new accounts and is using chat more and PMs less. The admins have requested that we ask everyone to report chats from the spammer trying to get you to visit mentorsel... | self.depression |
Fuck you new years resoluteers at the gym Thanks to new years I'm about to be inundated by people at my gym. It's the same fucks who come for a month every year and never stay. It's super annoying when you work extremely hard to get into the gym 5 days a week the entire year and then a bunch of lazy jackasses overcrowd... | self.offmychest |
I am scared I always feel like I'm left out. I always feel like if I told my friends how I feel they will start to avoid me. I want to be a fun person to hang out with, if I am not fun I scare people away with my sadness and dark thoughts. Evenings like this I have no one to talk to since I am too scared of scaring the... | self.depression |
Do psychiatrists/psychologists really not talk to each other because of privacy laws? I had an old psychologist that I went AWOL with when he said he thought I had bipolar and I disagreed. It's been a year and I gave in and saw a psychiatrist to see what's wrong with me. He asked if I had seen anyone previously and I... | self.bipolar |
How do I come down from extreme irritability due to anxiety? | self.Anxiety |
Taking a moment to be a spoiled brat, or just being emotional and dramatic So growing up my dad wasn’t really around. Him and my mom couldn’t stand each other so he worked so many jobs he was never home. Then when they finally got divorced he kinda lived far away plus I was old enough to drive so I had my own life goin... | self.offmychest |
Met a girl who possibly sexually harassed my friend, but my friend continued to stay in contact so I stopped talking to them. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
What are your 3 best coping strategies for anxiety? I would love to know!
Mine are
1. Intense exercise/anaerobic exercise such a HIIT
2. Deep breathing/alternate nostril breathing
3. Mindfulness (I don't meditate often because it makes me dissociate more, so I find mindfulness much better!)
| self.Anxiety |
I vow to never have a relationship again My girlfriend of nearly 3 years broke up with me a month ago. I couldn't understand any of it but then when I read through all our texts, I hate me, I hate everything I said. I deserved to be dumped, the way I talked was toxic.
I have been depressed a long time, I thought I wa... | self.depression |
The song "How soon is now?" is a perfect description of what living with anxiety is like. I've listened to the song dozens of times and I've only just now realized what the song was about. The lyrics are super relatable. | self.Anxiety |
My anxiety is so bad right now I can't deal with people yelling. Whether it's directed at me or I just hear it. People screaming fucks with my anxiety. My stomach turns to shit, my nausea worsens and I start shaking. I don't know how to live with people like this. I felt sick all day, and I can't move anywhere else. Bu... | self.Anxiety |
I don't know what to do anymore I've suffered from depression for over 10 years now. At the start, it was managable, I had my SO to turn to, friends to lean on. As time has gone on I have become single and feel more and more of a burden towards my friends, because of this I haven't been asking for help like I used to. ... | self.SuicideWatch |
How did you find a GOOD therapist? The therapist I went to laughed about my depression and told me its just ADD, and Im extremely hopeless after that. Is there therapists that will actually help and how do I find a good one / how did you find yours ? Thx. | self.depression |
Really uninspired Music is all dull to me, i want to do so much but idk so little. | self.depression |
I sexually harassed a female friend years ago and later blew her off. #MeToo helped me realize I was wrong. Some backstory: I've always considered myself a respectful guy. I guess they all do. In college, I was that guy kicking drunk predators out of my fraternity's parties. I've been in a handful of long term relation... | self.offmychest |
17m and gay. Not the best combo I guess Its like 2AM and I'm getting in my head rn. Like usual.
I hate being a teenager right now, especially since I'm gay. My school right now is kinda full of assholes and being gay would honestly probably make me the target of a lot of shit. I don't wanna have to deal.with that.
... | self.depression |
My Everyday Highschool Life- OCD Anxiety Hey, I am a high school senior with an anxiety based OCD disorder. There are two things I want to talk about. First I feel I have no friends. Every party posted on Snapchat or instagram I was never invited to, and it's not like I don't try to be invited. I hang out with lots of ... | self.Anxiety |
Lost my virginity to a sex worker and have lied about it to everyone I have had sex 5 times with prostitutes. Im 19 and if a friend asks about my virginity I say that Ive done it with one night stands I met on tinder. Im a fucking loser. But this year Im gonna learn to fucking love myself and get what I want.
Happy Ne... | self.offmychest |
Nervous about my psychological evaluation I haven't had a psychological evaluation since I was 17 (I'm 22 now), so I scheduled a new one because my depression has gotten much worse since then. I don't really remember much of what happened at my last one. I'm nervous because I think something worse than depression might... | self.depression |
A year later and it hasn't changed Once again sitting in my room drinking and sobbing on prom night. Hard to ignore when that's all you hear about in class. What is a big deal to the many and I'll never experience it. I won't have a memory of what could've happened. I'm sure my friends who went will tell me about it on... | self.depression |
I'm Pretty Sure Every Person I know Considers Me To Be A massive Failure I pretty much flamed out over the past few months.
For reference, I spent most of my life overachieving in school to compensate for being bad at everything else. I'm not an athlete, I'm not particularly funny or attractive, there's really nothin... | self.Anxiety |
Does anyone else look at other people/things and get even more depressed? [deleted] | self.depression |
I feel it coming The best way to cure a disease is to prevent it and I want to stop this feeling before it develops more. I have my goals in life I have people and whatever but there's this feeling creeping up slowly. I tell myself "oh if I just give it more time I'll get where I want" but it doesn't and slowly the tru... | self.SuicideWatch |
My parents just dont get I cant go to work at the time I AM SLOWLY GIVING UP, IVE HAD DP/DR FROM FEBRUARY TO JULY BUT NOW EVERYTHING IS SO FUCKING SHITTY, MY MIND FLIPPED OVER AND JUST WANTS ME DEAD.
And my mom doesnt get that there is NO QUICK FIX FOR DEPRESSION!!!!! | self.depression |
I think I'm being played, but I'm too much of an idiot to cut things off. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I hopelessly try to replay/continue my dreams because they’re more interesting/tolerable than my waking life [deleted] | self.depression |
I don't know how to deal with it anymore Hi, I'm 18 years old, living in a third world country and severely depressed. I've tried to kill myself twice but it didn't work.Now I'm being pressured to go to college by my parents and also my old psychiatrist. Really I don't get it, I've almost been hospitalized, my mom was ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Relationship anxiety taking my joy away I’m in a relationship with someone who I adore, but my anxiety is ruining it.
I grew up in a somewhat strange family, without too much love and affection and I think this may be part of the cause. I wasn’t used to being “loved” or hugged and kissed, and my family were very priva... | self.Anxiety |
Holiday season is quite depressing Don't get me wrong, I love the atmosphere of the holiday season and the cold weather. However, it just brings back so many memories of the good days. The day before it all went downhill. Some nostalgic moments and a heartbreak really ruins it for me.
Thanksgiving and Christmas use t... | self.depression |
I feel... nothing. I feel nothing at all. Just a big wide hole in my head. I smile and go on autopilot but feel nothing. I don't experience any pleasure anymore. I don't want to kill myself but I don't want to exist either. I some times wish I could just fade away. My hands and arms are covered in scratches because I p... | self.depression |
Can't find myself as a person. I've been so confused lately. Emotionally. I don't know who I am as a person. I used to be this tender, compassionate guy that would always be there for people in time of need but that has changed. My (now former) girlfriend went through so many emotional breakdowns that eventually I got ... | self.depression |
Saphris Does anyone have experience with this medication? I’ve recently started it and I’m finding it a bit weird. I have it combines with lithium and tompamax. | self.bipolar |
Does anyone else really struggle with the physical aspects of their anxiety? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Why do so many girls usually have bad and boring personalities? [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Need help with logic about my anxiety/depression So, at one point in the past 10 years or so I had a suicidal point in my life. I was hospitalized stabilized and told what some issues needed to be worked out. Went to 3 months of outpatient therapy 8 hours a day. Worked through them and have been fine. I still get flai... | self.Anxiety |
I hate myself for how Iv treated my SO. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I [25/F] miss/have a crush? on my ex coworker [45/F] [deleted] | self.offmychest |
The hardest things to ask for are the things I need the most. [deleted] | self.depression |
Things get better. Hi all,
I posted a while back on this sub when I was suffering from my anxiety... it has been a few years since I started medication, therapy, and help for my anxiety.
I am here to say it does get better. I tried Zoloft, Lexapro, and now I am on Paxil..and it is funny but none of them really worked... | self.Anxiety |
Tomorrow I know I'll probably sound like literally anyone else in crisis or anything like that but here.
I plan to do it tomorrow. I don't know how but the plethora of ways is infinite and I can choose, so whatever.
If you really need a tl;dr: Failing school, Autism, Parent hates me, I'm done.
Here's the long one.
... | self.SuicideWatch |
Overstimulated around the Holidays My kids....loud, excited, ready for Christmas already. I sware, it's like they are manic they are so hyped up. It's causing me so much anxiety. I can't keep my focus straight and all the excess noise from tv, phones, music and mouths is really overwhelming me. I had to put on my headp... | self.bipolar |
Whenever I see birthday hangouts I get bursts of anger and sadness [deleted] | self.depression |
Need advice Hey, I haven’t posted here in a while but I need some advice. I really like this boy and things are going well and I think telling people I have anxiety is important because it makes some things I do make more sense and I’m not being difficult on purpose. But I’m really scared that telling him will change h... | self.Anxiety |
Medication struggles: Sex, Antidepressants and ... Weed? Hi friends. I need some feedback and I want to know your experience with antidepressants and how they affect your sex life. I'm 24 F with bipolar I. My SO and I have been together on and off for over 4 years.
When we initially got together, I was undiagnosed and ... | self.bipolar |
I fucked up I'm 17, and I fucked up real bad. Yesterday I went to a party to celebrate New Year's. I got so mad with my only friend that I told him to fuck off and that he should just forget my complete existence. When my brothers saw that they just tried to help me, and I told them too to fuck off and went outside to... | self.depression |
I fee like I need to be sexual to be wanted. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Is It Possible to Be Depressed for Years Without Having a Single Manic Episode? I have been struggling with depression for a few years now. My Aunt is Bi Polar, but I have not had any mania. My Pdoc floated the possibility that I could be Bi Polar, but I just haven't had my first manic episode yet. I'm only 17 and have... | self.bipolar |
No one touches me Besides the occasional business hand shake, I have zero physical human contact. Like ever. Is this normal? | self.depression |
Wish you hadn't been born? Does anyone else wish they hadn't been born? Then none of my problems would exist, and I wouldn't have to endure life | self.depression |
Hard to sleep when you're just thinking of suicide constantly | self.depression |
Caffeine is giving me panic attacks, but I’m afraid I won’t be able to function without it. Caffeine used to work so well for me. I never used to panic from it. My life isn’t stressful enough for me to be panicking all of the sudden, so I don’t know what’s happening.
How can I wake up without caffeine? And do you thin... | self.Anxiety |
Anyone want to talk in pms? Preferably a guy in high school as thats who i am and can relate more. | self.depression |
not taken seriously by anyone and I don't know what to do I am stuck so basically I think I need to go to a psychologist because I have a lot of issues with my studies but my parents won't take me seriously so I tried to ask my brother to ask them and talk to them because they take him more seriously and I thought that... | self.depression |
Struggling with Disassociation I'm not sure if it's derealization or depersonaliztion. Sometimes I just feel like I'm detached from reality, like it's happening but my brain is somewhere else entirely. Like someone else is controlling my body and I'm just kind of along for the ride. It is often triggered if I look in t... | self.Anxiety |
I don't think college is going to be the best years of my life I was so excited when I was accepted to an Ivy League.
My dream school. I was a quiet, reserved type in high school who always wished she could be at the other end of the equation, who went out and kissed boys and always seemed to have something to laugh a... | self.offmychest |
The reason why I feel sad all the time is because I don't have a boyfriend, there I said it. I wouldn't dare speaking those words out loud to anyone I know but fuckit it's been playing on my mind all day so I thought I could at least say it here. I feel very lonely and sad all the time, as if a huge part of my life is ... | self.offmychest |
One of the best decisions I've made is cutting toxic people out of my life Last year I was hurt very badly by some people in my life, and one in particular was a very bad friend for a very long time. It's difficult to do, but cutting those people out of my life has lead me to being so much happier.
I realised, I don'... | self.Anxiety |
The circumstances surrounding my birth and my resentment This has always bothered me and I don't really have anywhere else to bring it up. So, here I go.
I'm 22 years old, soon to be 23, and I'm a black guy. Yes, that last part will matter later. But I absolutely resent both my mom and my dad for the events surround... | self.offmychest |
I'm confused, I don't know what's wrong and I can't get the answers I want. Context: teenager in highschool.
I noticed my anxiety symptoms a few months ago, and ever since I've been on this crazy rollercoaster that I just want to get off of.
I have no access to a proper psychiatrist and a diagnosis. The most I can ... | self.Anxiety |
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