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I know roughly how and when I am going to take my own life. But I'm still sad that I can't be happy instead. [removed] | self.depression |
Started having reduced anxiety from weed for the first in 4+ years after taking citalopram I used to enjoy getting high in the evenings when i was younger as it helped take the edge of. However since the last 4 years I haven't been able too, as it would give me horrible paranoi/ make my anxiety worse. So i stopped. Any... | self.Anxiety |
My biological father died today, but I never knew him. Should I care? Not sure if more details are needed? Subject to later edit. | self.offmychest |
Finals are coming up and I spent all semester in bed Man I just want to die | self.depression |
I just quit my job that caused me so much stress I had to see a counsellor and start taking medication. I feel so relieved and scared and happy and anxious and a million other things right now.
And I’m so lucky to have so many people supporting me in this decision. | self.offmychest |
I love you! You're a beautiful Armenian princess, and I want to give you the world! | self.offmychest |
This is so frustrating I've been struggling with mental health problems for a while. I've been looking for an answer to whats wrong with me for so long. I started realizing my symptoms matched bipolar a lot. I was looking for a diagnosis for so long, not specifically bipolar. I needed the relief of it, the reassurance ... | self.bipolar |
How was anti depressants for you? Did they help you in any way? Did they make you worse? Did they work? How did they effect your life? | self.depression |
I am so fucked up. I deleted my first post, i will try again.
I'm a 19 years old male, who is very depressed and a loser. I want to become something but not smart enough, sometimes i hit myself in the head because i have so much anger left from my failures, and i keep doing the same failures over and over again.
I d... | self.offmychest |
I am having such a bad panic attack right now I just woke up with one. Literally woke up to it. I must have dreamed something that freaked me out again. Ativan please kick in faster while I'm trying to remember in through your nose out through your mouth and count to 5 on on each. I just coached my husband through one ... | self.Anxiety |
'Sunday' depression help? Does anybody ever get into a really 'bleh' mood all Sunday? Like you'll be fine the day before and after but that whole day you're just a different person it seems. But its not just always on Sundays, sometimes it happens on random days.
I don't think it's my job because I like my job.
So d... | self.depression |
I'm Still Here So I have been very suicidal since Christmas, and lost my job since I couldn't bear going to work anymore. Not sure if I found a reason to live or not. Someone here was nice enough to try and talk to me about my problems. It cheered me up a bit, so I decided to pay it forward and see if I could be of hel... | self.SuicideWatch |
A FUBAR escape plan. (diary of a dead father) I’ve spent a lot of time debating whether there would ever be any point of me joining reddit. I mean, the stories you see every so often can be quite intriguing and funny, dark and salty or just plain sad. I never bothered til now because I thought I’d just be wasting my ti... | self.depression |
Mind is in a dark place right now I'm so stressed and scared and just oh my god I feel like I have so much stuff I need to do I need therapy I need a doctor I need to sleep better I need to get better at my job, today just sucked. | self.SuicideWatch |
Can somebody say hi to a very lonely person.. I lack everything.. I miss human interaction so much..since the start of everything. Since my mental fucked up state took place. today i went alone and drunk as usual to this place and tried to made smalltalk to some billiard players, about their plays and saying like "well... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm about to flunk a class for the first time and I don't have anyone to talk to. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Tired of life and all of its bull shit I’ve honestly had it, things started to get better now they’ve went down hill again... It makes me wish the Tylenol would have killed me back in 2016. Have thoughts of hanging myself daily... Was recently diagnosed with bipolar and major depressive disorder... Have no friends, no ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Therapy makes it worse I have too many issues to count and I need therapy for my well being, but I'm also legally obligated to be in therapy. But every time I go I just feel worse afterwards, doesn't matter what therapist I see. I don't even know what to do because if therapy doesn't work then what will | self.depression |
The landlord seems surprised When I show up goggily in my pajamas in the basement
Sunday at 6 am
*Yes I can hear the music and the metal clanging of the hammer on the furnace*
After midnight on a weekday
*Yes I can hear you hammering and drilling two floors up, so can everyone else*
I'm trying to fucking ... | self.bipolar |
The only thing I care about is that I care about nothing. It makes me feel bad. Not sad, but like I'm broken.
I know there's things I need to do, or should do, but I choose not to. I lay in bed almost like it's a sick game, seeing how long I can stay there before I guilt myself out.
I feel like deep down, I do have... | self.depression |
My parents are awful dog owners Before I really start, let me explain that I have tried encouraging them to be better dog owners, I've tried gently and firmly explaining why they should train their dog, I've tried to buy them a training class (they won't accept), and since I was a dog trainer for a couple of years, I'v... | self.offmychest |
I thought I was ok but I’m not I recently got off all my meds after being on a bunch for bipolar which I don’t have turns out. I got off them and felt so much better than I did on them. Only thing I’m on now is lamictal and xanax .25 twice a day. Being on two meds is nothing compared to all that I was on. I decided to ... | self.depression |
Just can't quite do it I have my gun, ammo, my room, and I can't bring myself to do it. I'm just to damn shared to die I guess. But I'm so sick of living. I mean what's the damn point. Life never really seems to get better. It just keeps going like some unending purgatory, but I just can't do it. Ugh! On top of everyt... | self.SuicideWatch |
"Anxiety disorders, depression, & any of a myriad of auto-immune diseases are the common physical repercussions of sustained Self-betrayal." [deleted] | self.depression |
Nobody enjoys talking with me I'm too awkward and I make people uncomfortable until they come to hate talking with me. I don't want to be alive when I can't communicate with people I care about. | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel like I'll never be better I've been feeling pretty positive about life lately. I'm about to graduate with my associates in December. I'm making plans for afterward.
But it is so hard. I am so lonely. I will have good days but often bad ones. I will be sad and not know why. I am stressed about making plans for a... | self.depression |
I Guess I'm Leaving I don't think I've felt truly happy in nearly three years. I've accepted I'm not going to make it to 20. I've tried getting to help but nothing seems to work. I'm a shit person and I haven't been okay for a long time. I'm tired of pretending that I'm happy and that everything's fine. I'm tired ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I don't feel happy. I don't feel. This is my first time posting something here, I don't even know where to start. Recently my life is just going in one way, one direction : bad. I'm not feeling happy at all, I mean in 24H I'm just happy like for 3/4 minutes and then it's gone idk. I only fell alive when I'm listening t... | self.SuicideWatch |
Is anyone else with me, or am i alone? I reached out to the community after having my worst anxiety attack ever, 4 months ago while driving. I had a couple of reassuring comments that really helped me at the time. I'm sorry for the long post in advance.
I am 24 years old. I have a good job. I have a Bachelors in ... | self.Anxiety |
I just had a dream It was a dream ever so sweet. I rarely dream so it was quite a rare occurrence for me.
My ex and I was set to be married. It felt so real. Everything felt so right. It's like our break up never happened.
I still remember and feel the happiness of seeing her wearing that white wedding dress. Touchi... | self.depression |
I was self-centered and annoying. It makes me cringe into oblivion now. Do you ever remember something you said or did and physically cringe? One of those toe-curling, face-crumpling literal cringes? That's what I feel every time I see my (ex) best friend's name. She's still on my Facebook so that's occasionally. There... | self.offmychest |
Seriously, fuck people Over the last few months I've lost friends and people I know. Their reasoning is that I am too "sad and depressed at times and too energetic and over the top sometimes." Most of these people know I am bipolar. Anyone else experienced this? I am down to 3 friends and my relationship is startin... | self.bipolar |
A light that is going out... Idk how to start but I've have a heart made of ice but with a light that is going out, I'm planning to jump off a building somewhere cause I see no good in these streets, no good in people , all I've seen people lie to me , and it makes me sick, I bought some weed and smoked a wood, and my ... | self.SuicideWatch |
stressed i have 2 things important that are due so my moms letting me stay home from school but i cant seem to get out of bed. i feel terrible and i dont want my mom to be upset. she knows about my depression but still puts my grades over my mental health because she wants me to 'break the cycle'.
also this is not ver... | self.depression |
i think about it every single night. i've been depressed for as long as i can remember, my entire childhood was terrible. i was severely abused emotionally and physically. the only one who has any idea what i went through is my sister and she died when she was 19, i was only 15 then. i'm 23 now.
i dont talk to people... | self.SuicideWatch |
Trigger warning - Fear of becoming/being suicidal - HELP! Ok, for good 4-5 months I have those frightening feelings/thoughts of life being pointless. Those thoughts came suddenly during the last week of July although I was partying a few days ago. THE THOUGHTS ARE TOTALLY UNWANTED! But they make me think that I am actu... | self.Anxiety |
Family holidays I’m 36 weeks pregnant. Due December 8th. Family has been treating me like absolute shit. Always has. Wasn’t excited about my pregnancy at all even though my son will be the first great grandchild on my side of the family.
Debating on if once he’s born if I should just cut everyone from my side out of ... | self.offmychest |
Recent thoughts Just posting some stuff about how ive been feeling lately because i want to get it out and idk where else to post it, any input is welcomed but not required :) im newly diagnosed and have been om lamictal for about 100 days, i went up to 75 but it gave me intrusive thoughts and made me feel shitty so i ... | self.bipolar |
I’m pretty sure the girl I thought was my girlfriend cheated on me today [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
My life has been going downhill. It happened slowly over the last couple years. In college, I was so driven. I loved what I studied. and even if I procrastinated I always did my work. Lovingly. I took extra classes, was the best of my class, professors loved me, got grad classes and aced them.
There were a few things ... | self.offmychest |
Update: Tomorrow is the big day Tomorrow I go into work and I find out what they want to do with me and I'm 95% sure it is firing me. To be frank, that's what I'm hoping for because I can't take it anymore. I don't want to rehash what I already posted but every day and night was the same. Severe depression, anxiety, OC... | self.bipolar |
Had a talk with my bf this morning about something that hurt my feelings and I cried and I haven't been able to calm down all day worrying that he will leave me and it's so stupid please help me calm down 😅 I'm at work and it's his day off and I know he's playing LoL so he can't reply right away. And he's given me no ... | self.Anxiety |
What have your group therapy experiences been like? I've been absolutely loving it, but I did something extremely stupid in session this Monday and i can't stop thinking about it. I think I offended one of the guys in the group by asking an insensitive question, and he's been in the group for much longer than I have. I... | self.bipolar |
IBS and Anxiety- anyone else suffer from IBS? So upfront: I am a parent of a teenager with GAD. Ever since she was quite young, she would get terrible stomach pains from time to time. Seen many docs that found no cause. It wasn't until she got a formal diagnosis for GAD last year that we made the connection that these ... | self.Anxiety |
College is killing me I'm in my first semester of my freshman year at an academically rigorous university. I'm drowning in it. I've pretty much known I've been depressed since I was 13-14 but I've never spoken to a professional about it. High school accepted my unmotivated tendencies and I was able to coast by on late ... | self.depression |
I have no family and the holidays are horrible Happy Thanksgiving everyone! I guess that's why I'm posting. I'm not connected to my abusive biological dad or his family. I hate my mom and her whole side of the family. And I have no connection whatsoever to my step-dad, and I've only met his family once - as a child.
... | self.offmychest |
what is wrong with me never finished education, constant anxiety, feeling that everything i do is "wrong", annoying adhd messing with my life (so please excuse these random changes of topic), no empathy, just faking it, just to make others feel better, it's maybe the only thing i'm flawlessly good at.
the main reason... | self.offmychest |
Anxiety with new housemate over sharing after a day. I'd love some advice.
So first a bit of history I guess. Since renting I've only ever lived with people I know. Even with this I've had very slight social anxiety over the years. Not wanting to enter common spaces that others are in, not wanting to cook when others ... | self.Anxiety |
I'm doing that hypomanic thing... ... where I am saying things really bluntly to everyone and then having to go back and try to say the right thing then trying again because the second time was also a failure. Luckily, I am mostly just teetering on hypomania and maybe I'll wake up quieter tomorrow. Until then, HI REDDI... | self.bipolar |
I feel like a phony. (Long and ranty sorry) I’m 20 going on 21 soon and for the past few years I’ve felt so negative and maybe even depressed (never got actually diagnosed so I don’t want to self-diagnose myself as such). I was overweight and self-conscious and, though I’ve had happy times, never felt truly happy or co... | self.offmychest |
Just diagnosed with ADHD on top of my Bipolar Disorder, can anyone relate? I've been diagnosed with Bipolar disorder type 1 since 2013, but only diagnosed as having ADHD about a month ago. Anyone else here have this combination? How does it affect you? I feel like a new person now that I'm being treated for both. Have ... | self.bipolar |
To outsiders, it looks like I have it together, but I think I've developed depression, does it sound like it? I'm a 25 year old college educated female, and I think I'm suffering from depression. I've always been relatively sensitive, but I feel like internally my base emotion has become melancholy. Things I used to ... | self.depression |
deeply conflicted I don't know exactly how to put into words what's going on, but hopefully suffering from the same disorder I have, you'll be able to make sense of it.
About a month ago I went into a deep depressive state and completely isolated myself from everyone. Of course this isn't anything new. Each time I do... | self.Anxiety |
I really need support right now. *edited because I was having trouble posting my post so I posted just a few words, then pasted the rest of my post. And added a few sentences to clarify time frame.
These past few months have really been so difficult. Depression never leaves.
I am going to try to keep this short and... | self.bipolar |
Didn't get anything for Christmas but being told I'm shit. I work pretty hard and I've gotten my daughter dolls, tablets, game systems for Christmas; and I've gotten my wife what she asked for as well. All I wanted was one day where I could relax, smoke a doob, and play some For Honor for a bit; instead I get a massive... | self.offmychest |
i want to die and im just bored with existence i am
just bored of going through thr motions. every fucking day i wake up sad or anxious (or both) and i have a shit ass day. i hate feeling this way. i hate being depressed all the time. im so bored of being bullied and abused and harassed that ive started to fantasize of... | self.depression |
Traveling Advice Hello!
I'll be traveling from Florida to Maine to visit my in-laws (and play in snow!) in less than 24 hours.
Severe season/weather changes in general tend to trigger a cycle... but I've been feeling the tides of change (a mix of dysphoric mild/moderate mania and hallucinations/delusions) already fo... | self.bipolar |
I think im going to kill myself within the next couple of weeks sorry for jumping back and forth
My life sucks, im 15 year old guy and im so sad. Eveytime i go to bed i feel shitty and i feel like nobody likes me. I dont go outside because i dont wanna talk to anyone. I got a diagnosis of social anxiety a couple month... | self.SuicideWatch |
Depressed and Suicidal I don't know what to say.
I just feel empty inside and I don't want to try anymore.
I feel like no one can relate to me and I'm too sensitive for life, and that I haven't gotten much better with time. I don't have any family or any close friends. I'm pretty isolated. I feel bad for my boyfriend... | self.offmychest |
What to eat when you're not hungry I recently talked to someone who had no appetite due to lamictal, but I can't find the thread. I want to tell that person that "Huel" brand mix contains everything you need (carbs, protein, fat). I haven't tried it, and it's probably not perfect, but it's better than not eating and wa... | self.bipolar |
Self esteem and relationship anxiety Well this is my first post on this account (sorry in advance for mobile formatting). Anyway, I've been with this lovely girl for 3 months now and I've never gotten this far in a relationship before. I find myself preparing how I look for long periods of time before meeting with her ... | self.Anxiety |
Afraid to sleep I'm not sure if this is the right place to post but I need to at least get it off my chest anyway. I have vivid nightmares practically every night. I'm so tired, I just want to rest but I can't. They feel so real, everything about them is just distressing. I can't escape them, I feel like I'm going craz... | self.depression |
“Happiness is a choice. If you choose to think negatively all the time, you won’t ever be happy.” And this is why I’m never telling anyone that I’m depressed when someone asks me what’s wrong. One of my best friends told me this over the phone and I just wanted to hang up. I don’t choose to feel this way, I just do...b... | self.depression |
I'm in another pit and it's my deepest one yet. I don't know what to do. [deleted] | self.depression |
Damn I'm 31. Can I live? I like men and sex. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
How to be optimistic when you're life is definitively going to get worse [deleted] | self.depression |
I'm here. Finally going to own a house. Why am I still so miserable? I have the hotline on speed dial. I love my fiance.
I feel so selfish, but I don't know what to do. | self.SuicideWatch |
Screw Is this what it feels like to give up? Screw it all, I plan on dying soon anyways. But I want help and maybe a future. Screw the future I might as well relive the past and start the downward spiral of drugs and self hate. There's no cure, so why even try? They say it gets better but that's just an illusion to the... | self.SuicideWatch |
What do you guys do when you are truly alone with your depression? My case is complicated because I live in a country and work environment where therapy is not a valid option. I cannot communicate my depression to others well, and even if I could most people I’d come close to trusting are too far to meet. Plus I am q... | self.depression |
I'm really kinda done now. I have never felt this oddly calm when contemplating suicide before. It's always been a very emotionally turbulent thing. I don't know whether I'm just desensitised to it or if it's because it's become a logical option now instead of one connected to emotions like it was before. I have been l... | self.SuicideWatch |
My parents physically and emotionally abuse me. I have no where to go for Christmas and summer breaks. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
My parents make me feel like shit Okay so since I can remember, I used to get "disciplined" over the smallest shit. When I was 4 i accidently broke a picture frame and i got hit in the head a few times by my dad pretty fucking hard. I was always getting yelled at and talked to and hit and it made me scared pretty mu... | self.depression |
I don't see the point It's really hard to make it. It's easy to just end it and then there's nothing to stress about.
So why not?
I am not sad or mad or manic or anything right now. I am chilling, I just don't have a reason not to end it | self.SuicideWatch |
Is It Depression? Or Just Reality? So I’m 21 this week, and I’ve got zero interest in most of my past interests. I used to have an interest in computers but I started losing interest after 2013. I’m financially independent and have zero contact with any of my family except for my mother who keeps to herself and no cont... | self.depression |
DAE have a grace period right when they wake up in the morning? Sometimes, right after I’ve just waken up, I sometimes feel pretty good for a few minutes. It’s like a little grace period when my depression hasn’t hit me yet... I was just wondering if anyone else has ever had that
| self.depression |
I don't know what to do anymore. I don't really know where to start, but I absolutely hate myself. I don't know if I'm suicidal. I always make jokes of committing suicide, I hate myself, and I hate everyone in my fucking school. I hate these fake kids that always look for attention and force themselves to cry for no re... | self.offmychest |
How is diet, magnesium, and vitamins deficiency not talked about enough when it comes to managing anxiety? I know this is long and I don't know if a lot of people will read this but I really just want to help. I had 2 panic attacks over the end of February and first day of March. I went to the doctor and had my blood w... | self.Anxiety |
I'm only 25, yet it is like my life has been a swirling toilet that just won't flush. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Want to die but afraid of leaving financial burden Anyone else worried that if they die they will have to leave even more issues for those left behind? | self.SuicideWatch |
To those that need a careful ear. as anyone that can track my Reddit can see im a massive and struggling depressive and many more yet i feel some people need an ear more than anything so please treat this thread as a dumping ground for your feelings. and if i can listen and help ill try as a struggling depressive mysel... | self.depression |
Why do I try? I just want to be good at something, but no matter how much I try, no matter how many years I put into something, I just always fucking suck. Friendships, school, hobbies, video games. I fucking suck at all of it.
Writing for five years? You still write like you're fucking 15. I can't even finish a stor... | self.offmychest |
old habits i'm probably not going to try another attempt any time soon, but i'm definitely getting back into old habits. 'unhealthy' coping skills. fuck what the doctors say. she hasn't seen me in ages yet she keeps filling the damn prescriptions.
i just spent half an hour crying and cutting up my stomach and i don'... | self.depression |
Family's making the big deal out of this Christmas thing and I'm sitting here crying Why can't they simply leave me alone | self.depression |
I'm so pathetic that I can't kill myself because of finals lmao I want so badly to end it right now. My problem is that if I fuck it up, I'll spend a couple days in the hospital, and then have to face my regular life again minus the time I could've used to study. It's pathetic.
Finals are in a few days and if I'm stu... | self.SuicideWatch |
what am i doing . it hurts I cut myself because I need to bleed. I need to have that control,. I punch the walls until my hands can't move because I need to imagine I am killing myself. I need to stare into the mirror so I can understand how ugly I truly am. I lie to the people around me because I need to know more tha... | self.depression |
2017 has been the hardest year for my mental health [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Need help what antidepressants to take Stress is becoming too much to handle I've already puked several times tonight. I can't seek professional help due to the nature of my profession, I am the best at what I do, however, if I go to a counselor I will lose my career. Right now I'm taking a mixture of Lithium Orotate,... | self.SuicideWatch |
I just want to talk to my friend again About 3 weeks ago my friend who had been a literal lifeline to me, said that they couldn't deal with my depression. I completely understood, I didn't want them to be dragged down because of me. But ever since then they have gone out of their way to avoid me, they won't respond to ... | self.depression |
I've realized recently that there isn't one person I could call if my car broke down or if I wanted to go see a movie. This shit hurts. [deleted] | self.depression |
I feel like the only one who doesn't cry... [deleted] | self.depression |
My car just broke down and I'm waiting on towing I have no one else to call, I'm about an hours drive from home. I tried calling my dad (he lives about 30 minutes from where I'm stranded) and he laughed at me,told me " I don't give a fuck. handle it like an adult, I'm about to go to bed. " and hung up. I don't have mon... | self.offmychest |
Share your doctor/therapist experiences I have bad anxiety/depression. I use anxiety and depression interchangeably because, for me, one seems to always follow the other.
I have always had bad anxiety. For example, my first memories are of having a panic attack in the third grade. I needed to get up and sharpen my pe... | self.Anxiety |
Does anyone regret going on pills? Any cases where medication made matters worse? Or are you eternally thankful for your pills? I will appreciate answers from not only depressed people but all kinds of "package deal" personality disorders and such that go with depression | self.depression |
I FUCKED UP I'M SO DUMB I DO THIS ALL THE TIME I LET AN OPPORTUNITY SLIP I FUCKED UP IM GONNA KILL MYSELF | self.SuicideWatch |
My emotions are getting numb. I have been feeling depressed for years. I've been always thinking about killing myself somewhere in my heart, then I feel I finally got better recently. But then, I noticed my emotions are numb. Sometime I think I'm doing just fine, but then I realize all I have is a little happiness and ... | self.depression |
Does anyone also get that feeling when you see someone happy on the street? [deleted] | self.depression |
throwaway account. I don't know if anyone will read this, or if they do even find it slightly interesting. But that doesn't really matter as i'm only writing this too truly get this off my chest.
I went to Spain to study spanish 7 months ago, met ''tis beautiful blonde girl, knew she'd be bad news but still fell for... | self.offmychest |
How? How do you keep going when you just don't want to? There is no point.
I'm working full-time I'm loosing my car, my bills can't be paid, I can't feed myself. My house is a mess and I just don't care! I want it to stop, to end. The depression isn't killing me it's the loneliness. I don't even know if I'm posting ri... | self.SuicideWatch |
What’s the point of my life? This is my first time posting and visiting reddit because I want to die. I don’t see the point of living, I’m 16 with acne everywhere, am short, and have shitty grades and am too shy to even talk to any girl I like. The rest of my family has phds and my sibling had all As and is now in a gr... | self.SuicideWatch |
Is your depression consistent? I'm just curious about this. I'm a guy who's had depression for a long time now. However my depression isn't always the same. I notice I kind of alternate feelings. I know everyone has good days and bad days, but I notice I kind of shift slow. There are times in my life during being depre... | self.depression |
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