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DAE get anxiety so bad they want to die? I'm dealing with a situation at work and I feel like everything is spinning out of control. I'm just to the point that I actually thought to myself, "I'm ready to die."
It doesn't help that I'm a single parent and I have no one I can really talk to to vent my frustrations.
I ... | self.Anxiety |
I had sex with my cousin I'm a 20 year old female and I've been going to my cousins house who's 30 and sleeping ice for the past four nights now. I always though my cousin looked good but we had never really talked. But one day we had talked and he gave me his number and we just started texting. He started inviting me... | self.offmychest |
Anxiety turning into anger I'm often finding my anxiety turning into anger as of recently, does anyone else experience it? Doesn't feel very good and I've never really been a person who's suffered from anger. | self.Anxiety |
This is goodbye. I don't even know where to begin. I have a horrible job which I dread going to every morning. Boss treats me like shit and I get a bullshit pay while being overworked. Can't get into college as I am missing a credit. My family is disappointed with the way I turned out and are slowly leaving me. No frie... | self.SuicideWatch |
Hey guys what do you do to stop the crushing sickening feeling that you want to die. First time on this sub I've come to the end of my tether I litterally have no one to talk to this about,
I've been to a psychiatrist countless times over the last 3 years talking to them about putting me on lithium to level out my err... | self.bipolar |
Lithium, lamictal and Vynanse? So I'm due to start this medication combo within the next week, does anyone else take the same medication combo? If so, how is it going for you? I've had untreated ADHD since childhood, finally got diagnosed a month ago and vynanse has been added my medication regime.
I'm hoping it will ... | self.bipolar |
Does anyone here miss elementary school I find that I often dream of going back to elementary school. And it’s so surreal. I’m just sitting there as a university student, and I see the familiar faces of people I used to know. I feel an intimacy of some sort. Like it feels a little embarrassing, but in a good and open w... | self.depression |
I can't Take Feeling Like This One more Day I went off my meds for a few days (dumb i know) My doctor convinced me to stay on them one more month but I'm in hell. I'm exhausted, every little inconvenience makes me want to cry i want to sleep, i'm so tired.
I just want to be off these meds but a month seems way too lo... | self.bipolar |
I regret not killing myself when I was 17. I'm 22 now and I wish I had killed myself when I was 17. I had everything planned but I stupidly and voluntarily went to a hospital to be institutionalized. Fast track to the present and I fucking hate my life. My life has always sucked and nothing is getting better. I wake up... | self.offmychest |
Fuck me I just took a lot of pills and I can't tell if I'm having a panic attack, or actually dying Just wanted to say thank you to you guys for helping me out even though it didn't mater in the end. Bye
Edit: I'm still here, sadly | self.SuicideWatch |
Depressed, lonely and suicidal thoughts but certainly don't want to act on them. My brain is messing with me. I am mainly lonely. I am certain I don't want to act on my thoughts. I try to distract myself. Any suggestions? Sometimes I watch comedy. This seems to have helped the most. But I am running out of comedians I ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I practice suicide options often When I've been really depressed, and I start to not want to do anything and hate my life, I use my airsoft pistol and pretend it's a real gun and pull the trigger in my mouth. Or take a rope and place it around my neck and pull on it. I'm too much of a coward to do anything, and the tho... | self.depression |
Just a small story So I’m a journalism major and my roommates know that I want to do Broadcasting for my career for sports. One of my roommates said to me as me and another roommate were talking about it and he said “what’re you gonna do when you get into you’re career because you’re ugly. Like really though, all the g... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm depressed and suicidal but could this be the reason? (idk where to post) First of all, I am depressed and suicidal also I am a male who has always wanted to be female (transgender), my parents don't want me to be, could this be why I'm depressed and suicidal? | self.SuicideWatch |
Well it finally happened, my friends are cutting me out They ignore my messages and stopped inviting me. Occasionally I get one-word texts. Some of those friends i introduced to each other. no i have no one, damn | self.depression |
that moment when you know everyone if out partying but you so today i wanted to meet with a friend of mine, he than said he even is in my town (he moved a couple of month ago) so i was like "nice"
when he is in my town he usually meets with other friends of his who he plays online with alot, i would say these people a... | self.depression |
I think i'm going crazy. (assuming i'm not already there) [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I obsess over things way too much and when i find nothing to obsess about i go to panick mode [deleted] | self.depression |
I feel so worthless My next therapy session isn't until Tuesday and I don't know who else to talk to. I'm so sorry, I'm just screwing up majorly over here. I'm trying my hardest. I just have zero motivation right now and I feel so so so incredibly bad I can't even put it into words and because of this it's so hard to f... | self.depression |
Sometimes I just NEED a day off, but I can't skip classes Sometimes I just can't do it. I just wake up and I don't want to deal with a day.
I'm not asking for much, just a day off like once every two months where I don't do anything or answer to anyone. I can't take it, doing the same thing day in, day out, until the... | self.depression |
I need friends I just want somebody to fucking care about me, im just so lonely. Ive given up on life. Ive never had a girlfriend and im turning 16. Im just a useless pile of shit that just plays video games alone. Ive never had a friend that cares for me. I constantly fall out with my family and i cut myself. I cant t... | self.SuicideWatch |
I keep walking, looking like alive; but deep inside I'm just waiting for the right moment I am your typical average asian guy who never had a love from his parents, lonely, depressed, somehow sophisticated with philosophy. I had many chances to have a girlfriend but because I was so scared polluting their life; I'd rat... | self.SuicideWatch |
First time reaching out. My name is Dylan, not that it matters. I'm 19 years old living in the US. I've had depression since I can remember. My first suicidal thought was in 4th grade. Yesterday I started cutting to ease the pain. All I feel is sadness, the physical pain is the only escape I have. I thought I was the w... | self.SuicideWatch |
Fuck my mind, or brain, why do I have to feel like that?! For 5 months now Ive felt like I either MUST suicide to listen to my mind, and this feeling is so fucking scary, it feels like I am supposed to do it or I push through and feel like I am supposed to do it every fucking day.
What shall I do?!!! PLEASE THIS IS HE... | self.SuicideWatch |
Is it possible that I've been suffering from Depression for 13 years without realizing it? For a while now I've been able to relate to people talking about depression. Everything that they said just seemed to make sense, and they managed to encapsulate everything that I felt perfectly as though they were describing my ... | self.depression |
I love my family, but they are dragging me down So much has happened in my family over the last 10 years. They have gone from my soft place to land to this roiling knot in my stomach that never goes away completely. My mom was diagnosed with an aggressive, resistant form of psoriatic arthritis. The meds doctors put her... | self.offmychest |
Is coffee helping/worsening your depression? I have major depressive disorder. I'm 21 and in college. It's tough going through the day without coffee to jolt me. But I have been noticing that my thoughts and behaviour worsen when I drink coffee, and I drink 3-5 cups a day just to wake me up and at least I think it help... | self.depression |
I think I might get fired soon So, there isn't any proof of this, just snippets of a conversation I heard between one of the partners at my firm and the HR lady... I haven't gotten in trouble per say, but I didn't stay late to finish a project one day last week, instead finishing it first thing in the morning, and that... | self.offmychest |
you're not supposed to be happy wakeup eat school eat home videogames eat sleep repeat
my entire life for a decade if you think it's an exaggeration i have a combined hour total of 14,000 hours on steam in 7 years it doesn't even count time spent on snes n64 ps1 ps2 ps3 ps4 wii wiiu emulators etc my life is a fucking ... | self.SuicideWatch |
This time I really thought I was cured.. For the past four months I've held down a part time job and it's been enough to pay my bills. I've actually had extra money in my bank account for the first time in years. I felt stable and secure. My job wasn't so bad either. I barely had to do anything and I got to sit down fo... | self.bipolar |
Does anyone else feel like anxiety is less a mental preoccupation now for them yet they still experience a lot of physical symptoms, almost subconsciously ? | self.Anxiety |
Random Relentless Anger? Do you guys ever wake up feeling like you hate the entire fucking world? Ya know, you just hate everybody and everything, yourself, most of all. I’m typically a fairly positive/accepting person, but I just woke up and want to hate everything. My husband and I have been arguing all day, and I do... | self.bipolar |
My grandparent's dog died. I know it doesn't seem like a huge deal, and it's not like I'm bawling over it, but it's making me feel kind of weird. I mean, I have memories from before he was born, but I was only a toddler. My grandparents live a few states over, so going to their house is always really f... | self.offmychest |
Newly diagnosed (bipolar-newbie) (long post) I am recently diagnosed bipolar (as in only one month ago!). Had some big, overwhelming, crappy life events and started SSRI anti-depressant, together which induced an intense hypomania episode. I am now back to depressed again.
Except now I realize HOW depressed I am, and... | self.bipolar |
Reconnecting with people I’ve been depressed for so long that it’s hard to reach out. I’ve isolated and I’m trying to reconnect but need some help. I feel stupid when I text people and am not sure what to say. I text a new friend hey what’s up and they responded but how do I go from there? | self.depression |
Does anyone else ever think this sometimes? You just don’t want to exist but you don’t want to die. Kind of just want to sit at home and do nothing and let everyone else live their lives. You don’t really bother them or have them bother you. Just kind of do nothing. Does anyone else feel this once in a while? | self.depression |
Manic The past few days I’ve been VERY HYPER, “manic” as my Mom calls it.
I’m obsessively posting on social media, I’m probably somewhat psychotic. After all, I was thinking Taylor Swift is watching me and wants to be in a relationship with me. :P
It sounds ridiculous, but I honestly believe it! LOL
I’ve been ... | self.offmychest |
I was unsure for a while if I was part of this community, and now I feel like I am Finally joined you guys, my depression has surpassed anything else about me...
It has taken over me, and no one else can see that, because it's only inside me, and a lot of times I can talk with a pessimistic tone, and people just make f... | self.depression |
Am I a failure that can't do anything right in my life? I was born with an Imperforate Anus, which mean i don't have an anus when i was born. My parent sold their house to try to fix me. After 6 years on and off the hospital, i finally got a surgery to fix that but it come with its own problem, i can't really control m... | self.depression |
Mom. I just told my mom that I want to die, and she told me to die. I guess I will. | self.offmychest |
I give up trying to make friends. Nobody can deal with me. It's so hard to love me and be my friend. I want to be alone so I can die without anyone caring. | self.depression |
I can't fucking do this anymore I fucking hate myself and all the options around me. Over the past year I've started skipping college and not doing homework but my parents have yelled at me for that. I am 17 and do basically dual enrollment but am in all college classes, but I fucking hate it. I don't even know why, I ... | self.depression |
Why am I still alive :( So before I made a post saying that I did lose my job and I was very angry at myself and etc. People gave me some advice and I did appreciate them but unfortunately, I still got no callbacks I got some interviews but I know that goes they just interview me and they never call me back. Why am I e... | self.SuicideWatch |
Disabled, hours away from a training trip abroad and all I can do is get drunk and wish that I could end it all right now, I just want to die. | self.SuicideWatch |
I am scared of dying I've had 3 panic attacks today. Sometimes my left hand just starts to tingle and i have this sharp chest pain, feel like fainting and out of breath. I've had really bad anxiety about my health for a month now, but just now these chest pains have started.
I'm scared that I'm going to die. Two weeks ... | self.Anxiety |
Amy, stop ordering pizzas to my address I don't know who you are, but this is the third Sunday in a row a pizza guy has come to my door with a pizza, with your name on the receipt.
Quite frankly I'm bewildered at what your endgame is. You never get the pizzas but you keep ordering them, I assume you pay for them, it's... | self.offmychest |
I feel like the only adult in my life As the title states, I feel like I'm the only adult in my life. I'll try my best not to rant here.
At work, I'm constantly having to address issues with employees not taking care of property or making preventable mistakes. I get in arguments with my boss on almost a daily basis be... | self.offmychest |
Good way to get out I am looking for information on fatal prescription drug combinations. I have a few at hand. What would be best to take for a fatal reaction | self.SuicideWatch |
Does anyone spend a lot of time watching YouTube or TV? I watch Trisha Paytas (I even watch her vlog channel), Shane Dawson, Drew Monson, Pewdiepie, Glam & Gore, Gigi Gorgeous, The Amazing Atheist, and Jenna Marbles.
in the past month, I watched: Stranger Things 2, Making a Murderer, 2 seasons of The Office (I do... | self.depression |
When I want to hurt myself I draw a smiley or a heart on my arm. I see it every time I look at my arm, it helps me reminding I'd better care about myself.
| self.depression |
“Seek help” “Seek help”
“Talk to someone”
“See a therapist”
What if I told you that my depression developed WHILE I was in therapy for related issues? What if I told you that talking to someone about it just makes me feel like more of a burden?
This is what bugs me about the general public’s perception of mental il... | self.depression |
Went to the cinema alone again I hate it I feel like shit
Everyone at work went out drinking and of course they didn't invite me so I went to the cinema alone
I hate my life so much | self.depression |
Fear of illness leading to deeper general anxiety and panic The last couple weeks of ramped up my anxiety so badly, I'm so afraid of the flu. Every sniffle from my kids, every time someone mentions feeling tired or rundown or a slight ache, my stomach churns and my throat tightens. I'm terrified of my kids getting the ... | self.Anxiety |
I'M THE DUMBEST PERSON ALIVE I've been trying to learn to program for a long time with little success. I'm extremly bad at focusing, I already know most of the basic stuff and some oop concepts, and couple dts and algos.
I tend every once in a while to change of programming language because I feel scared of doing thin... | self.depression |
6 months into relationship, boyfriend's parents say they are worried about him dating me [deleted] | self.bipolar |
I don't really know how to title this. I guess "I'm stagnating"? So, I'm pretty much just going to spew this onto the page, sorry for the inconvenience caused for anyone who actually reads this shit
I've just come out of my year 12 exams a few weeks ago (am australian) and as is customary, freshly graduated year 12s g... | self.depression |
Welcome home (sanitarium) *Welcome. Welcome home*
 
It's been a while. It’s scary out there in the world, isn't it? Unfamiliar territory. New feelings, sights and sounds. We’re sure you’ve missed us. Don’t worry, we’ll always be here for you. Have you missed us? Good.
 
We know of the pain and... | self.bipolar |
Was in a relationship, fell in love with someone else. Now I'm out of that relationship but I obviously "friendzoned" this person I'm in love with so as to not be disloyal to ex. Now I can't undo it. I "friendzoned" this person I'm in love with because I was in a relationship at the time. This person I’m in love with, ... | self.offmychest |
Getting closer to the edge I wrote my first first suicide note when i was 5. I am 26 now. A day hasn't gone by since 1996 where I don't think about killing myself at least once. As the years go by the thoughts and the urge to end it all have only become stronger. I dont know where it took a turn for the worse, maybe it... | self.SuicideWatch |
I have been through so much in the past year, I really just need a friend to talk to who won't judge me. I met the man of my dreams on 10/22/16, he showed me that I was being emotionally and verbally abused and long story short, I made the decision to move to Dallas from Central Coast California on 11/12/16, took the p... | self.depression |
Everybody asks this When do I go to the hospital? How many times have I seen people ask that question?
I've counted all the pills in my "treasure chest" but not sure I like any of the potentially lethal combos. I've gone on the darknet markets to see what I can get, but my drugs of choice are hard to come by. I'm not... | self.bipolar |
My thoughts on mood tracking apps To each their own, but here is my little rant about those apps. I kmow it works great for a lot of people, i just wanted to start a dialogue about it. Sorry if this is long! (TLDR at end)
- First of all, I hate it when an app notifies my to use it. It gives me the creeps, and it seems... | self.bipolar |
Does anyone else hate work? Not talking about a job specifically, but just work in general. It seems no matter where I work, I just can't deal with it. The anxiety is horrendous to the point it consumes my entire life. | self.Anxiety |
Small Steps never seem enough Recently I've been making small steps toward my goals: making dinner, little things for projects, etc.
It just never seems like it's enough. Like I should be doing more. Makes me a bit happy to be doing anything at all, but in the end it doesn't seem to help | self.depression |
I am so tired of living with myself. I would always refuse to use reddit, especially for advice or whatever, but right now I feel it's the only thing I have. I just tried to kill myself in a mental breakdown I had having an argument with my mother. I am always so close to do it, I don't know what's holding me back. I n... | self.depression |
I wanna fucking cry. I asked for help today to overcome my anxiety for my first job hunt. "Get your shit together, stop being fucking anxious, it's all in your head". It just keeps echoing in my head, and each time it does, I feel a mix of anger and sadness. I don't know what to do with my life.
Edit: I'm very thankf... | self.Anxiety |
Worthless college student checking in Hello,
I am 20 years old, college student (computer science)
I have to pass 2 specific exams by the end of this semester, if
I'm not able to do that, I'll be banned from studying
computer science ever again in Germany.
This would be the only career path I know about so far
that ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Anxiety problems I really wish there was a way to just shut my brain off sometimes. Too many thoughts happen and I just want to sleep. | self.Anxiety |
11 days ago my suicide failed The past 11 days I have been desperately trying to figure out why I am alive and I'm just floating here. I feel like a corpse with a heartbeat. I was so calm and genuinely thought I was slipping away and now I'm here with neck bruising and numbness. What do you do when you feel like surviv... | self.SuicideWatch |
How successful have you been in finding a career path? I can’t tell whether this is my illness or whether I genuinely have nothing to offer to the world, but I keep changing my mind about what I want to do with my life. Three years ago it was a musician, then left music school to become a mathematician, graduated (hurr... | self.bipolar |
Anyone else? Anyone else just laying down in bed all day? I'm just planning my suicide. It's the only thing left that interests me. Fuck this fucking disease | self.depression |
I've been thinking about ways to kill myself since last night [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Lately my wife of 22 yrs has been having more “blow ups” lately and it is getting really difficult to manage and navigate the fallout. Looking back I can see far better and realize how hard it is for her to function some times. Any helpful resources for supporters out there? | self.bipolar |
Worried This probably doesn't fit or looks dumb but I need to say this and hopefully it will calm me down a bit. It's 1am where I live and no one in my house is awake. I was just on FaceTime with my boyfriend (it's midday for him) I swear I kept hearing noises in my house. I don't know what is going on but even now tha... | self.offmychest |
I'm officially staying single. I'm tired of men playing games with me and buttering me up to have sex with them.
I haven't had sex in 3 years until this past Thursday. I fell in love with a man who I thought was in love with me. I now realize that all of the compliments and fake lovey dovey bullshit was just to get me... | self.offmychest |
I don't want to live in the modern world and as I grow older it's become harder and harder for me to forget that I do [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
What comes first in your anxiety attacks: The anxiety, or the physical symptoms? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Freaking out about America and now I'm seriously thinking about moving to Canada. I'm also worried that this is a dumb post. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I really dont want to be alive anymore. I have lived a very long life at only 28 (male). I grew up in a drug house with abusive parents. They are currently still on drugs til this day. When they were not dealing drugs, they were dealing jesus, causing me to be brutally raped by people of their congregation twice at age... | self.SuicideWatch |
I Had a Vivid Dream the Other Night In my dream I was in my hometown of BFE Michigan. My family found out about my depression and told me about this new therapist who apparently worked miracles for people with mental disorders.
My family offered to pay for one visit for me because "one visit is all you need."
I show ... | self.depression |
if i fail my important exam there is a nice bridge i want to jump off [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I told my mum that I have depression and she said to "get my act together". | self.depression |
i'm 23, studying for my cFA and having extreme Career Anxiety Hey all,
So, I'm 23 years old, graduated university a year ago, got a job straight out of uni (entry level finance) and recently just got a wonderful girlfriend - so what the hell am I worrying about.
During my first year in my job I realised that it was a... | self.Anxiety |
When no one in the family care about your well being, but you know once you would kill yourself the family would go shambles. It's like a prison. [deleted] | self.depression |
I will never be happy I take what I say about myself very seriously. (developed a habit of talking to myself) and when I said this allowed I finally realised how true this statement was.
It doesn't matter what happens, I will never be able to be in a situation where I define myself as happy. Then on the other end bad... | self.depression |
Nothing new Just another New Year post to add to the mix.
Spending it alone. I know there are parties around where I would be welcome, but I'm tired. I can't deal with wearing a happy mask today. So much bad stuff has been dropped on me in the past week or two that I just can't.
And here comes the New Year. I know it... | self.depression |
Struggling with anxiety and thoughts of impending doom from a burn/irritated on back of throat that has never healed in a year Just sort of venting. I don't have much people to talk to who aren't sick of hearing it. I went to a general doctor 3 times and no fix. I went to a specialized doctor 4 months ago and no fix. I... | self.Anxiety |
The set of expectations life generally expects you to fulfill are enough to make anyone depressed That's my opinion, a lot of people get depressed and don't acknowledge enough that the world is bullshit and very unfair, very dissatisfying and just generally unpleasant and unlikable, and I don't mean just unpleasant in ... | self.depression |
People are making me doubt my diagnosis and I don’t know what to do? So I was diagnosed with bipolar type 2 a couple months ago and I felt like it fit at the time.
I started taking Lamictal and felt better. But now my mother (who is a nurse) thinks that the psychiatrist was crappy (she saw him too) and doesn’t believe... | self.bipolar |
Walked 10 miles to my countys mental health clinic for the first time After avoiding this much needed appointment for 3 years I walk in, the lady looked at me like a fucking idiot and told me they do intake for this office at another office 45 miles away. I have no friends or money to help me get there. The way that la... | self.depression |
Half an hour left of my life and I'm starting to get scared... Is there anyone I can rant to in my last half-hour? Before I say anything else, I just want to make it clear that just because I'm scared doesn't mean I'm not going to.
But why am I scared all of a sudden? I've never been scared before an attempt. I've nev... | self.SuicideWatch |
My Friend Did Something that I Don't Quite Know How to Feel About Last night, I posted a snap on my story that said, "Need people to talk to because I'm border. Hit me up friends." I didn't see the typo, as I meant to say bored not border. (For those of you who don't see why this is a problem yet, it is common internet... | self.offmychest |
I seriously can't remember any point in my life that I wasn't depressed when I wasn't dating someone. I don't know how to live anymore. I made a throwaway for this. I don't know what to do or where to go anymore. Every time I have this issue, my family and my friends are good, and every single time it's because I'm in ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Just need to get this off my chest It happened a few months ago, but I finally processed it now.
When you're in a state of depression, your mind goes crazy and thinks of many bad ideas and thoughts that will have disastrous consequences when followed, and you cant tell because depression means your mental state isnt w... | self.depression |
The crest and trough of depression Depression has its own crest and trough. The crest is amazing and energetic. You feel this unexplained energy in yourself. You are more normal than the people around you, more optimistic than them. However, one day a thought, a feeling, a slight gesture makes you uneasy. Then you star... | self.depression |
How do you make yourself cry? I feel like shit. Nothing significant happened, it's just that I went to school while sleep deprived. Now my eyes sting as if I'm ABOUT to cry, but it's not actually happening and I need it to happen. | self.depression |
The guy I'm dating is incredible I recently ended a really crappy relationship and started dating a new guy. Normally I would be cautious about moving so fast, but everything about this guy is so perfect.
I am falling so hard. In the month that we've dated, he's shown me more care, passion and consideration than my s... | self.offmychest |
17 year old boy and depressed Hi guys. There's a lot of stuff to go over, so you'll feel that I'm not really focusing on sentence structure, but rather just getting stuff out of my mind before I change my mind.
I live in Pakistan, a country where mental health is a joke, and you're told to be a man if you reach out t... | self.depression |
Does anyone want to talk about mixed episodes? Right now I'm paralyzed in a chair and feel as though I've been plugged into an intense virtual reality simulation. I'm sitting next to a coy pond but my body must think it's running from big cats in the jungle. Anybody want to describe their experiences so I can get out o... | self.bipolar |
The real issue here is suicide, not the showing of suicide. Logan Paul video view. [removed] | self.depression |
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