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Its 3am Its now 3am, i have to be up at 730 to start my day, but if course i cant get to sleeo beacuse my first and only thing i have to do on my day off is causing me to have an anxiety attack. (Not looking for advice just need to vent)
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self.Anxiety
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Health anxiety Recently I've been dealing with hypochondria and stuff like that. It started when I had a scare with a testicular lump which ended up being nothing but I was fearing for my life. Recently I noticed I was having headaches after I had watched a movie and heard "brain cancer." I immediately started to think that was it and freaking out because I realized I was getting headaches and some disorientation. My parents keep telling me not to worry and that it's likely a migraine. I try not to worry but even when I start to not focus on it, I feel like a small discomfort on my head and it sends me spiraling again. Can anyone help? Thanks.
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self.Anxiety
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im on this subr too often i just come her to complain because ive got nobody to complain to. even my best friend ignores me just because it's not convenient for her to have to deal with me.
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self.SuicideWatch
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My dad and my stepmom's relationship is better than anything I will have. ... And that's quite sad, because their relationship is quite toxic. She is very critical of him, and he is extremely dependent on her. But I know that, at least they have each other, and have been through thick and thin with each other. Nobody stays around long enough to even get to know me, and when they do, they get sick of me. I wish someone would prove me wrong, but they never do. Never stay. Always go.
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self.offmychest
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For those of you that went to a therapist, what was your experience like? [deleted]
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self.depression
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need advice. My therapist invited me over for dinner and I don't know what to say [deleted]
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self.Anxiety
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Where do I draw the line for my friend with anxiety? So a really close friend of mine has been having a hard time with her anxiety recently and while I’ve been trying to be there for her and help her she’s beginning to behave very disrespectfully towards me and our other friends.
We’ll make plans to specifically include her and she’ll cancel a few minutes before we’re supposed to meet up and blow up on us when we ask her to let us know earlier next time if she can’t make it. She’ll ditch us to hang out with her boyfriend and then lie to our faces about it when we ask her where she was. Even when we do hang out and try to give her advice and things she can do to help her through this hard time she’ll get upset and say that we don’t understand her or what she’s going through and will write us off, even though I’ve known her for 10+ years!
I love her a lot and she’s been a really important person in my life but I really don’t like being treated this way and I don’t know what to do about it. I personally don’t have anxiety so I don’t know if this is normal behavior or what I can even do to help. I feel so defeated and like I shouldn’t even try to meet up with her and be there for her when she’ll write me off or ditch me to go be with her boyfriend. What should I do to tell her to be kinder to me without setting off her anxiety?
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self.Anxiety
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Hollowness I feel completely empty, can't eat or sleep and I still feel sick from the last time I tried to fill the void with alcohol. I just have no idea what to do with myself
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self.depression
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I need motivation hi pals, my dissertation deadline is in a little over a month and I really need help getting motivated.
I had a bit of a relapse/breakdown (whatever you wanna call it) around October and I'm only just dragging myself out of the other side of it now. Because of that I've fallen really, really far behind and I just really need some encouragement to try and finish my degree this year.
It's really hard to pretend to care about my future right now.
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self.depression
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Has anyone used Binaural beats music to ease symptoms? I'm just learning about this and frequency hertz beats (not sure if correct term)
Is anyone familiar and any specific frequency number+music, better for you than others?
Thanks for your input
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self.Anxiety
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I was better until yesterday Yesterday was too much. Too much to write right here, I've wrote it too many times, I'm scared.
I haven't been on here in awhile because I was doing good. Well, until yesterday, obviously.
He makes me feel sick. I think about it too much and I just want to confront him, but if I do, I feel like he will send me into another panic attack.
If I don't, I'm stuck. He called me things. Pretended. He hates me. All because I told him he was acting a bit creepy. He was too much.
The fact someone so insane thinks they're right tears me apart. I need to confront him. Should I?
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self.depression
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Uncontrollable shaking? This past weekend I could not stop shaking. I didn't feel particularly anxious but I could not stop. I had to go to Urgent Care to get help. They said it was a panic attack but this lasted for 3 days. Is this is something that can happen with anxiety?
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self.Anxiety
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how to fill out short term disability insurance form? my work has short term disability insurance that actually covers psychiatric disabilities; I was off work for about a month following a near miss at a suicide attempt. during that month i received electroconvulsive therapy and spent the rest of the time mostly sleeping or at a partial program. I am still in the throes (having started the process very early on in my month off) of applying for aforementioned short term disability. they're doing what seems like a shit job, including referring to the hospital I was at as "Dr. (name of hospital)." so I don't exactly trust them to do a fair, competent job. I just received a questionnaire in the mail from them asking me all sorts of things about my condition, circumstances in my life outside work, circumstances at work, what a typical day is like, how my psychiatric treatment is going... my question is, how should I answer these questions (in a general sense) to give myself the best chance of getting approved/give them the fewest excuses to deny me?
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self.depression
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Anyone else sometimes have these moments of clarity when they realize they're not feeling that anxious, and the realization itself makes your anxiety come back? I was just watching a stream VOD and I got carried away listening to the guy talking about some stuff about a videogame, and after about two minutes I realized that I had been completely focused on what he was saying and I felt kind of relaxed.
And IMMEDIATELY as I realized that I was relaxed, my anxiety came back and I'm on edge again. Like really? Just realizing that I'm not feeling anxious makes me anxious? That is such bullshit.
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self.Anxiety
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Anxious Aspergian here; How Often are people having Sex? -Seriously [deleted]
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self.Anxiety
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Boyfriend has stopped putting in any effort. I've (27F) been with my SO (32M) for over a year. To start with, it was great - our first few dates were amazing, and we settled into a routine pretty quickly - we're long distance but close enough that every two-three weeks, I go stay with him at the weekend, and the time we actually spend together is wonderful.
Recently, we've started talking about me getting a job closer to him so we're not so far apart.
However, he's just stopped putting in any effort when we're apart and that gets to me a lot when there's a longer gap not seeing each other. We used to talk fairly regularly during the day. He's got a new job so that's stopped, and obviously I understand, but he barely talks to me in the evening either. We maybe have a 20 minute Skype call once a week, maybe twice. It's always just before he's about to sleep and he ends them abruptly and will just announce "Right, I'm off to bed now, goodnight.", sometimes in the middle of a conversation.
He's never come to stay with me, because he says he hates the city, and made such a fuss over having to travel in that I just stopped bothering asking at all, so I do all the travel and it's my stuff/time that is split between two places. I occasionally suggest it, but he basically just makes out like having to travel here will make him miserable and so he'll be terrible company and I'm fed up of that conversation.
I think his new job is much more stressful than he's telling me. He has always been the sort of person who needs time to unwind from a work day before wanting to really do anything else, but recently he's needed more and more time to relax post-work and I'm feeling like I've become a chore that's cutting into that time.
We've talked about this sort of thing before, and he has asked me to bluntly explain what upsets me. But, despite that, even telling him directly "I don't mind if you're busy and we don't get to talk all day, but it's important to me to say goodnight at least", he still has some days where he doesn't bother, or where he'll say goodnight hours after I went to bed because he was playing a game and didn't bother to look at my message.
This has always been something that's just applied to our time apart, but on my last visit, he spent the first night barely engaging with me because he was tired from work and it just felt like he'd rather I wasn't there. He ended up going to bed a couple of hours after I arrived and just left me sat in the front room. The weekend was miserable, he had no energy, so zero interest in sex and didn't really want to talk either, and I just ended up leaving feeling upset and exhausted.
I don't really know how I talk to him about this. I don't know if it's that he's more stressed than normal, because he won't talk to me about it, and he's making me feel like talking to me is something that is a chore keeping him from computer games.
Part of me is worried about him and that he might just be bottling up how stressed he is and that's why he doesn't want to talk.
...and part of me is really resentful that I listen to what he wants and give him the space he asks for, I'm the one who spends the money and time to travel three hours across the country every other weekend, I am the one job hunting to relocate for our relationship and he regularly can't even be bothered to check his phone that I know he never puts on silent and type a single fucking word to say goodnight.
And that part of me is getting pretty close to giving up.
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self.offmychest
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I'm just always so god damn bored There's nothing I want to do, I don't enjoy anything anymore, so I just occupy myself with meaningless bullshit to help the time pass. It makes life feel so pointless.
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self.depression
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How did my life get so complicated? So my mum has told me she’s just been prescribed antidepressants & is seeing a therapist relating to stress at work. She’s telling me what she’s been through. All I want to say is I know how you feel, taking antidepressants suck. When all I can say is ‘I’ve heard it’s like this so hopefully it’ll help.’ 💔
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self.depression
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Was I a bad friend? I blew a friend off (J) for working with another friend. J asked me earlier in the night, but I said I would work alone even though I knew I would be working with the other friend. Since knowing J, I find them needy, and when we try to work together they're always distracting. J wanted me over because they were having a bad night (emotionally) said they would work with me, but I had to make a choice between maybe getting stuff done or knowing I could get a lot done with the other friend. Later that night, I found out J was just being unmotivated and watching tv.
J found out I blew them off, and is (or was?) upset with me. I feel bad because I did lie to them when they needed me and maybe they would have been productive if I had been with them, but at the same time I don't want to be a baby sitter. I did get a lot of work done with the other friend. I could have invited J, but the offer wasn't really open. I feel bad, and I have to see them later today and I don't know how to defend myself without hurting J's feelings. I had become fairly good friends with J, and I want to stay friends with them in the end. I also said I'd catch a ride with them tomorrow (4 hour trip) but I'm debating on catching a bus instead.
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self.offmychest
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Is it cruel to visit family before dying? I planned to visit home in December. Would it be more cruel to visit them before death, or to not visit at all. Many of them haven't seen me for years, and only a few people know I'm visiting to begin with.
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self.SuicideWatch
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I'm just waiting for the right time. And then, I'll actually be able to kill myself. I'm literally sick of living. This life doesn't get better and I'm tired of hearing that same old bullshit over and over again. I can work hard all I want but it will not amount to shit (it hasn't at all). There is nothing wrong with suicide. It's a logical solution when you're faced with a shit life.
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self.offmychest
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I need a little forgiveness from time to time [deleted]
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self.depression
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I feel like nothing matters I made a post here almost a week ago (it got ignored, big fucking surprise, i was born to be ignored after all)
I still feel like garbage
I just dont know what t od o
heres the fucking post if you wanna read it
https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/comments/7gm1ng/i_need_to_talk_about_my_trauma/
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self.depression
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Anybody on to chat about emetophobia? Hey everyone,
Feeling anxious and my fear of vomiting is getting to me.
Any comments appreciated
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self.Anxiety
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Freedom from not caring about dying I've been taking greater risks since I don't really care if I live or die. I walked out to the middle of the Charles River in the middle of the blizzard because I wanted to experience a true white out. The me who cared if I lived or died would've never done that.
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self.SuicideWatch
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Fearful and feeling alone at night I need some reassurance that I will be ok Seeing my doctor for the first time about my anxiety and hopefully that'll lead to help and medication. I've been having anxiety also before going to bed I would love some kind that'd it's be ok
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self.Anxiety
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I was recommended by my doc to do rTMS, after 6 failed ketamine injections. Anyone have experience here?? So after more evidence of me being treatment resistant, NO meds working, ketamine injections doing nothing for me, I was recommended by my doctor to do rTMS (repetitive transcranial magnetic stimulation)
Has anyone had any first hand experience with this, or know anybody who has? Just looking for some details if anyone can help a brotha out.
Thanks!
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self.depression
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Mirazapine and thirst I started Mirazapine a few days ago for anxiety and sleeping issues after having no luck with Zoloft. So far it's been great, however I'm now so thirsty all the time! I cant stop drinking water and my throat is so dry. Has anyone else had experience with this? Thanks
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self.Anxiety
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Keep thinking it would be easier to end it all. [deleted]
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self.SuicideWatch
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It was raining yesterday and the roads were really slippery... starting to regret not getting in a fatal car crash
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self.depression
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How to stop oversleeping? Hi, I'm 26 y/o. I quit my job few weeks ago and I'm going abroad very soon for 3 weeks, so I'm not gonna look for another job for quite a while.
I always liked sleeping, it has been my coping mechanism for years, but now I find myself sleeping for 12-14 hours a day including frequent naps. Whenever I feel sad/anxious I am looking forward to going to bed and cuddling my cats. I have tried everything, I'm not even on my meds anymore, I shouldn't be that drowsy all the time. Maybe someone from this subreddit overcame that bad habit which seems to be oversleeping (especially after an anxiety/panic attack) and can help me out? (;
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self.Anxiety
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I feel like I have no one I barely have any friends in real life I mainly make online friends but they never last when I hangout with a girl Weeks or months later they block me like I'm meaningless or they felt pity for how sad I am I want to be somebody I never grew up with a father in my life i have nothing to feel happy about I socialize more with grown ups and politics then I do with kids my age I'm homeschool and I barely talk to anyone I don't know what to do I've been in the hospital twice for suicide watch but what's my life it's nothing I'm crying and listening to sad. Songs on thanksgiving for god sake
I want to die
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self.SuicideWatch
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Can't stop Biting my Tongue - help? I can't seem to stop chewing/biting/running my tongue along my metal retainer to the point that its sore, raw and sometime bleeding. I do notice it sometimes, usually when it hurts a lot but even then I can't seem to stop doing it. Do other people deal with this? Is it related to meds? I've been on the same meds (Li and lamotrigine) for almost 2 years now and its only recently become a problem. I have been really bad at taking my meds on time lately, could the inconsistency be related? I need this to stop, I'm in pain and its super annoying & distracting. I can't imagine its good for my tongue either.
anyone else do this? or know where it might of come from? ideas on how to stop?
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self.bipolar
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Alienation side effects. For years my father has used my sister and I as pawns. Pawns in the divorce, pawns in his control. The divorce took 10 years because my mom fought tooth and nail to win over custody over us. We did not understand why because we hated her...because of my dad. The divorce started when I was 8 years old and my sister was 4. Us being so little and my father hating my mom so much, took his chance to rip my moms heart out and take her kids away from her. And he did this in the worst way any parent could. He alienated us from our mom. He made us believe that our mom was satan. Telling us that she did not love us or she would not have left, brainwashing us in every way, shape or form. I WAS 14 TESTIFYING AGAINST MY MOTHER IN COURT FOR CHRIST SAKE!!! I had no idea what was happening when I was little, except for one thing....that mom hated us and dad was the only one who loved us. For years I thought this. Until I got older. I am 20 years old now. And just last year, everything started to seem a little fishy. Why did my dad take every opportunity to take a shot at my mom? Why hasn't he had a girlfriend since my mom and him broke up? Why did he get so mad at us when we said anything AT ALL about our mom??? With those questions swirling around in my head, I started to ask my mom questions and get close to her. I missed my mom cause I had barely got to see her at all the past 10 years. Imagine losing your childhood from 9-19 with your mom... it sucked dude. Me being 19-20 years old i was like "hey my mom actually is pretty awesome, why did my dad hate on her SO much?!" Along with asking all of these questions, around when I turned 18, I noticed he was treating me differently. Kinda like...he was not trying to win me over anymore. I started to see his true colors. A text book narcissist. Fighting over everything. Calling me a liar, a manipulator, a snowflake (hes very right sided), thin skinned, a wuss, a slut (when he found out i sent nudes to my boyfriend)...everything you could think of that would fuck up someones head. I started to realize...this is not normal. I feel like shit all of the time. I realized I was being mentally and emotionally abused... again i could write a book but i am condensing this into a reddit post. Well I asked my mom why he was doing this and if he was always like this and my mom confirmed that he is a VERY dominating man. HAS to have control over everything, even his daughters. So i asked to read the court papers. I wanted to know the truth. I read the psychiatrist reports and the court papers and it was ALL OVER these papers that he was alienating me. I was shocked...but at the same time I was not. It clearly said "Records and observation show no apparent indicators that Mr... would like for his daughters to enjoy a happy, healthy relationship with their mother."........yeah. So..knowing that...fucks up some one. Knowing that the one person you looked up to for YEARS fucking used you like a fucking pawn for his OWN satisfaction, to get back at his ex wife. Oh i forgot to mention one thing, just recently, he was diagnosed with cancer. So.... I wanted to leave the house but I felt bad for 2 reasons...he had cancer and I did not want to leave my sister with that monster. I was in a dark place. Living on auto pilot. Absentminded. Crying in lectures at school over nothing and everything. I finally decided to get help and go to counseling. I went and got the help i needed and i am still going. The one piece of advice he gave me was "You are the own gatekeeper of your own life. You hold the key to who is in your life and who is not."...and that kept echoing in my head. A couple days ago I finally had enough. I was sitting outside of the wrong building, the one next to the one my dad was in, for his chemo appointment. While I was waiting i had fallen asleep and did not hear my phone go off. I woke up 45 minutes later and realized my dad was not in my car. I checked my phone and saw i had 13 missed calls. It was my dad calling and texting me saying that i dont give a shit about him and that i have no common sense and that i have no idea what he is going through. I call him, he blows up. I drive home, and 15 minutes later he is telling me i love you and im sorry and then he asked for a back rub, and i said yes. cause thats the kind of person i am. im too kind. so i am rubbing his back and choking back tears looking at the angel on our chimney mantel asking me for strength. And i left for work after. I broke down and threw up because i felt like a used piece of fucking garbage. I decided it was enough. After work, my best friend met me at my house and walked in with me. I finally told my dad that i could not take the way he treated me anymore and i packed my stuff and moved to my moms. I have been at my moms for 3 days and i have not had a knot in my stomach at all. And i didn't know i could feel like this again. I still am texting my sister everyday...her poor heart. i feel terrible for leaving her there...but for my mental health it was necessary. I end on this note....have you guys ever been alienated? And if so, i would love to hear your story and how it effected you... Do not let anyone else control you. I promise you, it is best to do what YOU want....if you have any questions on how to get through a similar situation...comment or message me.
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self.depression
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Im a human being. Don't fucking touch me. Don't touch me unless I allow you into my personal space. Don't force yourself onto me and make me feel powerless. Don't assume you know me just because I've served you a couple of beers behind a bar. Im not your friend. You can fuck off with your unsolicited hugs and your attempts to drag me closer to you. You can fuck off with your snide remarks and your shitty attitude.
I hate that you make me feel this way and make me feel defeated. I hate that women are daily victims to this kind of harassment and sexual abuse. I hate that so many of us go unsupported when raising our voices on these issues and I hate that Im forced to question myself.... "was it really that bad?".
I was told that its a part of the job and that "i should start thinking about whether hospitality is for me because this sort of thing is going to happen again and again".
For everyone, if anyone, who reads this...just be kind to people. Please.
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self.offmychest
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My downstairs neighbor is a disgusting old man Just moved into an apartment with my son and my baby daddy a couple months ago.
We've heard all kinds of weird noises and don't really know all of our neighbors.
Sometimes I hear a really loud tv (muffled)
We hear singing (yodeling and chanting)
The same techno song on a loop - for hours at a time.
Most recently, on weekdays at 6am we have been waking up to the sounds of porn...
And of course the sounds of someone hacking the lungs out to where it sounds like they need medical attention.
In the last couple weeks I have found that this is all the same neighbor, the old man downstairs who can't even walk.
All this noise wakes up my 1 year old son. He wakes up crying and screaming because the noises wake him up.
I don't know what to do. Technically, he's not doing anything wrong and it's just apartment life... I don't care that he's a sad lonely old man. I really just want to go tell him off.
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self.offmychest
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Panicking that my boyfriend is trying to get me to dump him We don’t get to see each other often because I’m a student and work retail, and he has a full time retail job in a store that’s closing (his store also closed much earlier than mine so essentially our schedules don’t line up). So we were just talking about seeing each other soon and eventually he said “I don’t treat you well enough” I tried explaining that I can understand that we’re busy and how I love him but he said “that’s not okay :/“ I’m pretty sure he’s asleep now as he tends to fall asleep earlier than me but now I’m having a full on panic attack that he actually wants to leave.
I’m over heating and can’t stop crying. I lost my best friend to suicide almost 11 months ago (in one week it’ll be that) but I don’t know what I’m going to do if my fear is true. I don’t know if I can handle anymore loss.
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self.Anxiety
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How do people deal with school What the fuck is the point of going, I only enjoy my psychology class, I don’t need my other classes to pass, I should just fail those classes and try to coast by.
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self.depression
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So what if things don't get better? ok, so I'm I'm 46, my younger sister has a glioblastoma (terminal brain tumour) step mum had a double mastectomy and lymph node removal around 3 months before by sister's diagnosis and my mum died in 2014 from curative cervical cancer but, being a new age fool, abstained from our universal health care and paid "healers" and other charlatans for hope. She died over 16 mothns.
Between 212-14 I also had a bunch of major failed othropeadic surgeries that have left me, a former pole dancer and powerflifter, with nerve damage, chronic pin and no work and now I constantly fight the health dept for adequate pain treatment bc I was an addict for my 20's.
And 13 years ago my soul mate killed himself when I was 4 months pregnant, and I found him in our car. The stress of that lead to severe prenatal depression.
My daughter was born a severe IUGR baby (1200g at full term). Around 2 weeks after she was born 9but still in hospital) I found out my step brother had been murdered by his wife and "best mate".
I also have PTSD and very crippling anxiety, cyclical depression/BPD/BPII... the symptoms all overlap so it's hard to know exactly.
I still have vivid dreams where my partner is alive and I woul gladly erase my entire family (except my daughter) to have him back. Alas I am the least spiritual person you could meet, so I don't really believe I will ever know him again.
Anyway, I am now a shut in. I miss being fit (powerlifting) but 2 years on crutches fucked me up. I hve zero friends because I make plans then cancel... it's like I *want* to have a life but when it comes to the crunch I can't overcome my anxiety.
But the worst thing is it doesn't get better. I can't hold down a straight job- I engage in legal sex work when I can to help pay the rent- but I terrified all the work I made towards providing my daughter with a stable, happy life is for naught because the threat of homelessness always hangs over me.
I'm so poor, living hand to mouth... life has been so consistently hard with one major crisis after another that I wonder when is enough enough?
I don't want my life to be like this in 15 years time but nothing indicates there's going to be any improvement. Even worse, my daughter will have set off on her own life journey and I will have nothing.
Hell, I even stayed single for 9 years to keep my house stable and so my daughter knows she is my priority- trying to break the cycle of neglect- but her genetic predisposition seems to be rearing its ugly head and I can't stand the thought of her living a life as fucked up as mine.
My plan is to check out when my kid is in her 20's, we will discuss it, she has a lot of empathy and has seen how hard it is for me.
People may say it's selfish of me to take my life, I say isn't i just as selfish to keep me around with no quality of life so they can avoid a period of grief that normally sorts itself out over time.
Anyway, at 46 my experience is that it doesn't always get better and believe you me, I have put in the work CBT DBT, counseling, rapid eye movement for PTSD, medication, etc etc
So what the hell are you supposed to do when it doesn't get better but seems to get worse instead?
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self.depression
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I need someone, I don't know what to do I honestly don't know how much hope I have writing this post but I feel so alone right now and have no idea what to do. I made a really bad mistake and my girlfriend won't talk to me. She meant everything to me because she was one of the only people who I felt genuinely appreciated me. I don't really have many friends and the ones I do have, I am struggling to keep. I feel like they'll only talk to me or hang out with me because they feel obliged to. My parents yell at me for being too "moody". I try my best but I'm slowly giving up. I try to hope that things will get better but I can't seem to picture a happy future for me after everything that has happened. I think of suicide almost on the daily but I'm too scared to act on it. I live in really lucky circumstances; I live in a good house, I have a good family, I go to a good school, I'm really well off financially. I feel like dying now would be such a waste of so many people's time and money. But on the other hand I have nobody, I don't know what to do. I'm constantly in pain. Now that I'm typing this, it sounds so over the top, but I don't know how else to describe it. I just want someone to talk to. I want to do something about this. Thank you if you made it through the whole thing.
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self.SuicideWatch
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I am irrelevant. I am a 38 y/o single male. I was diagnosed with PTSD. I am going to die alone. I have no family to speak of. They exist in name only. I have a few friends that aren't really in my life because they all live out of state. I had been doing a lot of hard work on myself. Seeing a councilor once a week along with a DBT group, but my insurance provider folded out of nowhere. My mental health provider flat out dropped me as a result. I am on disability, so the insurance still exists, but who knows how long it will take to get a new insurance provider. Plus, with all these new stupid tax cuts, there is no guarantee it will completely come back. I can't hold down a job because of the anxiety attacks. Even Social Security says I cannot do meaningful work. Disability isn't enough to live off of. I simply don't matter to anyone. I couldn't stop my sister from abusing me while we were growing up. Yet I feel like I am still being punished for it. 'Be a man!' 'Get over it!' 'It happened a long time ago, grow up.' It never goes away. I was never able to grow an sense of confidence or self worth. I only made it this far because of drugs. Now I just keep eating pills hoping to fall asleep. Real sleep. Quiet restful sleep without the nightmares. I wish I could have found someone who someone loved me for me. That would have been nice.
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self.SuicideWatch
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It feels like I have nothing to live for. Im haunted by the shadows of my past. I'm depressed all the time, and I am never not contemplating suicide. My life is stagnant. Every one of my friends are moving on without me, and I'm stuck going nowhere. I want it to stop.
I'm going to therapy, I'm taking medicine, I'm working with some people to help me find a job, and I have family and friends, but I just feel hollow, like I'm just a shell. I can't even feel anymore.
I want to forget about HER. I want her to no longer have power over my life. I want to stop hurting when I think about her.
I used to be so scared of death that I never worried about suicide, it never registered as an option. Now I've become calloused and it doesn't seem like such a bad idea anymore.
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self.Anxiety
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I love you, mum. I'm sorry, I'll change and get better so that you can be proud of me. A few weeks ago, my mother snapped at me in frustration and said that I was a disappointment. That I had shit for brains, told me I was lazy and had a bad attitude and that she doesn't like me. I just stayed silent because she's not wrong, technically. Back then, I had given up and was going through the motions. Didn't make it any less hurtful to hear.
Yesterday, she hugged and kissed me. Told me that she loves me and that I should smile, chin up and think positive as well as work hard. Hearing this made me both happy and anxious. Happy because, even though I've never told her what I'm going through, maybe she was saying that she knows in a subtle manner? Anxious because I don't want to disappoint her again, especially after hearing her say that.
I don't know, I just want to make her proud of me. I want myself to be proud of me. I can't take back the years I've lost to this mental disease but I want to make the most of the future now. It's just that it can be hard, it can be so hard. Some luck would be nice to have, for once.
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Does anyone suffer from shaky vision due to stress and lack of sleep Shaky vision as in you focus on something and that thing seems to shake..been having it recently since the last two days when I wake up...
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I Don't Want to Be Like Him. When I was about eight, my dad came home drunk one night. That night I found out my dad cheated on my mom with another woman. I know that their marriage was shitty. I suspect that they had kids to fix the marriage. I also knew that my dad was less than kind to my mother. He never beat her, as far as I know, but he did emotionally abuse her. She'd ask her to do one thing and he'd flip out, calling her a terrible woman and wife.
The worst part is that I sided with him. I know I was a young boy (I stopped seeing eye to eye with him, for a reason later discussed), but I still feel guilty. She was my mother, and I didn't do anything to stop her from feeling like shit.
A few years after that, she died. And I still hadn't told anyone about my dad. After that, I was basically forced to stop being a little kid and reevaluated my life. I realized that it's not *normal* to live with parents that hated each other.
When my mom died, my dad took it hard. Not because he loved her, but because he now had to raise his children. I've heard him imply that he's glad she's dead. I hate sounding like an internet tough guy, but if he says something like that again I might lose it. He treated her like shit for years, and now he thinks he can just talk shit about her right in front of her son.
I'm getting to the age where I'm going to move out soon. I know people don't really move out as soon as they can anymore, but this place is not at all healthy for me.
My big problem is that I'm scared of turning out like him. Most of the similarities are there (as much as I hate to admit it). He didn't have much of a father, he smoked since he was about nine, I started drinking at around twelve, he was even good at the same stuff I am in school.
I've tried to combat this fear by making friends with people that he'd never talk to. I've tried to find mentors or father figures before, but I always get too scared to reach out.
TL;DR: I'm a kid that is scared of turning into his irresponsible, womanizing, drunken, and generally shitty "father".
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Did graduating college put anyone into a downward spiral for awhile I just graduated and all this really REAL LIFE bad shit is happening to me. Like shit I saw that happened to other people but I never thought would be me. Now that it is me I'm sort of like okay so I guess this is my reality now and I'll have to get used to it but that sucks. I got a chronic illness right after graduation and have been posted up in bed for almost 4 months. Getting slightly better now but my bodies unpredictable and I can get sick for literally no reason. Trying to move on with my life and find a new normal like I got a job that starts soon but I wonder if I'll be able to handle it? I'll have to. It's not just depression now it's like physical illness. It's caused me to think life is out to get to me but recently just realized no this is just life now. Fuck. I wonder if I'll be happy again? I will I know but idek how I'm gonna get used to accepting that life kind of sucks. I know tons of people have to move home and get depressed when they graduate and stay that way sometimes for years or forever. I know it's not gonna be forever for me but I just wanna know other people have experienced this after graduating too. My problems were essentially just school oriented and now they are just my life
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Just Wanted To Say This To Somebody... Today I wrote my second suicide note.
In class I just felt completely hopeless. My parents and teachers know and im on medication for my depression and anxiety but when I told my doctor it was fulling my emotions to much he upped my dose and now I feel my emotions to much.
I decide to write a note to each personal friend and close family member in hope of not failing and something for once. Even though I'm writing these notes I know that I'm just going to wuss out last second and not do it. I'm just so tired and failing at everything and never being enough.
If you have any advice for me I would really like it though I don't really know what kind of advice you could give in this situation.
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A higher dose of Wellbutrin So since a few months or so I have started taking antidipressants, Wellbutrin to be exact (also for some slight ADD, yay comorbidity). After a few weeks of side-effects and my depression actually worsening, it started working and it was fan-fucking-tastic. Finally I could start working on my tests and whatnot, I felt really happy. That feels so far away now.
Since a few weeks, I got back into my depresion. So my psychiatrist and I decided to increase the dose from 150 to 300 milligrams. Right now, I get to suffer from the side-effects again. I hope it'll work again, after all, it has worked for me once. But then again, it has also stopped working once. It makes me feel very frustrated and desperate. I don't want to go through this cycle a third time :((
Does anyone else have experience with this? Are the chances higher than before that it'll keep working?
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Im a human trash My parents love me, thats the only thing thats keeping me from suicide. But i cant take the pain anymore. This year was a mess, i started with self harm and i became an alcoholic.
Yesterday i came home so drunk that my parents found me lying on the toilet unable to talk. Mother cried because of that and father is angry. If my parents knew that im a worthless trash maybe they would realize that their life would become 10x better if i was dead.
I really want to end it, its just that my parnets would be sad.I just cant take the pain anymore.
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Christmas Cards I am not smart enough to explain why, but I have been feeling better after doing Christmas cards. I tried to do it last year but I couldn't beat my depression. This year, I am loving doing it.
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I'm considering Suicide so lemme give a bit of backstory (sorry if this sounds like a sob story or whatever)
i'm depressed. or i assume i am. i feel like shit and recently have been feeling less and less motivated to do shit. i've gone through hundreds of temporary friendships (people you know and talk to for like a day to a few months but never see again after your few conversations) and i just don't feel like i could ever achieve my goals
i'm almost 16, and that means i have 2 years of teenhood / childhood left. but my mind has been corrupted already from the internet (i've seen plenty of NSFW, both p0rn and g0re) and i'll never be the innocent happy child i once was
i have soulbonds (fictional characters in my head / headmates / fictives) but i rarely talk to them, so i'm basically alone all the time. i'm also homeschooled, and we never go to those homeschool meetups or anything, so i can't make friends real easily.
i used to dream of being a popstar, or some form of a singer. this has been the most consistant dream i've had (i've also wanted to be an artist, writer, worldbuilder, animator, game maker, news caster, activist, etc etc), but recently there's been this person called Grace Vanderwaal.
now i'm not saying i hate her, i actually really really like her music! but i feel my irl situation puts me at a disadvantage and allows more privlaged people to have more opportunities. and now i honestly don't know if i have any real talent anymore because i'm not see as a good singer to anyone i'm not looking for attention from.
ill likely deactivate my account after i post this and get some responses because idk if i should be sharing this information at all, but honestly i'm looking for outside reasons not to just give up on my dream and put a necklace of rope around my neck
a big part of my popstar dream was me being a young star, and now that i'm older and depressed, it'll likely give me less opportunities than before. so it really makes me sick when i see someone i relate to so much on a stage when it's been my dream my whole life.
i'm honestly expecting "try writing more songs and putting them to youtube" or something similar, so if you can do something more... helpful than that (if i tried to record my songs, it would sound like shit because bad quality microphone n video editor) then pease... tell me what i should do.
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struggling with suicidal ideation for over 20 years. i can't take it anymore. i've fucked up the relationships i had and the ones i didn't personally fuck up are just done and over with me. there is nothing i've got to offer and i've known that and people's response to me has turned into barely a puff of smoke. i have been miserable and when i'm not, i know i'm just fooling myself.
it's too hard to find a reason to survive when you have no one to fucking turn to for comfort. and strangers who don't know me? everything they're saying is a guess at best because they don't know me. the people that ***know me*** leave.
i've also lashed out too many times and apologies don't cut it. i can't cure my fucking self. 3 years of consistent therapy and medication trials is showing me that i am barely improving and when i fuck up, there's no mercy anymore.
so why not just give in? i don't have pills or a gun or anywhere to hang myself. i'll keep looking. maybe i'll empty my account to get the gun. drive up to my last favorite spot and just be done.
i'm tired. i've tried. i have tried really really hard. it's been 20 fucking years of wanting to be dead. i am 32 with nothing to show for. so why the hell not.
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Not one person in the Terry Crews assault thread doubted him or questioned his motive in coming forward, the Louis CK thread is full to brimming with apologies, denials and claims that the women are just saying it for attention/publicity. I'm not saying that no one in the Louis CK thread is on the womens' side, plenty of people went 'nah, that's fucked up of him" and left it at that.
But read the difference in tone and the number of comments in general. A good majority of the comments are:
"The women weren't *really* assaulted"
"What evidence do they have? It's just their word, they're probably lying."
"Gosh, poor guy must have some substance abuse issues/a bad home life/ a legit mental illness and we should feel bad for him".
No one said Terry Crews was making it up.
No one asked Terry Crews for evidence or accused him of trying to jump on the current publicity bandwagon.
No one asked what his evidence for being groped was, or what his sexual history was, or whether he would have any personal or financial gain from lying about being groped, or whether he was sending mixed signals to the guy that groped him. Every single one of the women in the CK thread were accused of all of the above.
That's fucked up.
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Only goal in life is not to end it I'm a 17 yr old dropout that rarely leaves home and has no job or friends. My family doesn't like me and I don't blame them. I don't know what's wrong with me or if I'll ever fix it but for the last 5 or so years I've just been trying not to make a rash decision... But it's always in the back of my mind and multiple times a day I think of it...
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My best friend just got into a relationship I'm really really happy for her, but man, why did I never think about what would happen between the two of us. It's been a week, and I feel like I'm all on my own again. She is everything I have, and the only person that cares for me. But I just can't get the thought of this being the end of our friendship out of my hand. I suck at life, why can't things just be easy for once.
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How do you know if your special someone is simply using you or really serious about the commitment? He barely had time this year to meet because of his work but when we meet, we only do the things he prefers doing.
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what am i doing with my life im 44 quit my job of 21years because althought i was making good money the stress of it landed me in hospital 2x in a month. Now I'm a realtor omg listening to everyone else I'm almost like do over.
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Feeling a bit empty... I just... I'm unmotivated, tired all the time, and can't find joy in the things I normally do. I'm having some intrusive thoughts about self-harm. If I did start that, though, my boyfriend would probably send me to the hospital. A bit of an overreaction, but he would.
It feels like I'm going into depression, which is really unfortunate. I'm sick of being depressed. I need to get things done at my job. I have no sick days to take for mental health, as I just started at a new place.
I thought I was doing well with my medication, but apparently it's not working as well as it was anymore.
Just thought I'd vent a little bit.
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I'm probably not depressed but I think of committing every day. I don't think I'm depressed. There are still some things that I seem to enjoy, but I hate the life I live, I hate everything that happens to me, I hate what I've become and I hate the things I am not. I tried to kill myself when I was younger but was found out before I could continue. I still want to die, and I think about it every day... I'm just so tired and no one understands how tired I am of living. I dont understand anything anymore to be honest
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Cant stand the thought of the "real world" Im 16 right now, and all Ive ever heard about life was "It gets better." No. It doesn't get better. It just gets even more difficult. Hell, I'm frustrated just having to drive myself now and look for a job. Next school year (which will be my senior year), I'm gonna have to start looking at colleges and careers. I have no clue what I want to do with my life. The only things I like are acapella, video games, and Marvel movies, but I cant sing, program, or do anything in the movie business.
So along with not knowing what I'm gonna do with my life, I'm gonna have to start doing other shit like paying taxes, making bank accounts, getting a credit score, and other stuff that I have no clue how to even start doing. Life isn't gonna get better. I'm gonna get stuck in the middle of a big world with no clue how to operate and I'm gonna fail hard
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Hopeless romantic really feeling the hopeless part. Not trying to sound like a post from Incels but I really wish I could find a girl that would like me back. I just feel so lonely sometimes and I just want someone to get close to and share the things I find amazing with. And on a more selfish note just having the validation and confidence booster in that I'm actually able to get a living breathing human to be interested in me for more than just friendship.
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Am I the only one who doesn't care about suicide being "selfish" bc fam and friends would be sad? Here me out and don't get me wrong--suicide will undoubtedly affect those around me in a big way. My mom would be heartbroken; My friends would cry for weeks, BUT I'm quite certain they'd get over it. And I don't mean that in a harsh or intense self loathing way. Honestly, like most hardships in most people's lived they'd be upset, mourn my loss, and move on, enjoying the memories. I don't think I'd shatter anyone's life so I don't see why that's ever counted as a means to guilt trip a suicidal person into living a miserable life. "That's such a selfish thing to do to your loved ones."
They'd get to live on and move past that hurt, whereas I'm stuck hurting living a life I don't want just to appease others.
Plus, selfish isn't always a bad thing. Here in this community, we can fathom what major or seemingly minor things could push someone to kill themselves. In a depressive episode, your suffering is all you can see, I'm sorry if I don't consider how my sister will be sad for a while and then simply adjust to life without me.
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Anybody notice their cyclothymia/bipolar stabilize with a strict regimen of one alcoholic drink per night, and tea/coffee during the day? I've tried almost every medication in the book now, and nothing has stabilized me like a daily routine of caffeine during the day (to induce slight hypomania) and then a beer at night to go back into mild depression in the morning (which would then go away after consuming tea and becoming slightly hypomanic again.) This routine always had me waking up feeling sad and depressed, but after just a cup of green tea or coffee I would be back to a happy, mild hypomanic state which would then never get too out of hand because my evening beer or wine would bring that mild hypomania back to a depression, etc.
I quit doing this in fear of building a tolerance to alcohol, but it worked perfectly for 3 years straight. I don't think I ever went above three drinks in one night. I was so functional on this routine, and had zero anxiety.
I quit drinking alcohol and then my anxiety and hypomania went nuts and then I wasn't be able to tolerate any caffeine due to the horrible anxiety - then everything went to shit.
I've been on seroquel, lamictal, depakote, trileptal, zyprexa, and even klonopin since then, and none of these brought me anywhere near to where I was just by using tea during the day and alcohol at night.
Can anyone relate? What are your thoughts?
Are alcohol and green tea daily safer than using a pharmaceutical med? In my opinion they worked the best. I was doing extremely well on that routine and traveled all over the world working a sales position that I couldn't imagine doing anymore. Now I can barely hold a job because my mood swings and constant anxiety are so intense. I'm occasionally too agoraphobic to go to the grocery store when I used to travel by plane to new clients almost every week.
I see people drink tea and alcohol daily and live to be 100+, so I'm almost inclined to go back to that. Meds have only let me down.
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Spent all my savings in a month I hate working and was saving so I didn't have to work so much.
Life got really shitty and the only way I can keep myself out my head is to research shit I don't need and buy everything that comes into my head.
I know it's fucked up and fucking myself over but I still barely care enough to try and fix it.
I don't get how other people cope with shit so well.
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I suspect I may have an anxiety disorder. Just started a new job and feeling hopeless and useless. Just need to vent/talk to someone. [deleted]
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Called the suicide prevention hotline and I don’t know how to feel now Today hasn’t been easy at all. As I was about to actually end it all something stopped me. I know it sounds crazy but it was like some weird feeling.
I decided to call the hotline. The lady was nice and was trying to be helpful. But I’m so tired of people telling me “it’s going to get better” “give it time”. How do I deal with the extreme feelings I have right now. She kept trying to get me to check myself into a hospital. I did consider it. But now I’m just like I don’t know. I don’t know how to feel right now.
Why couldn’t I just go through with it? Why did I call knowing what they would say? Should I check myself in?
I’m just very confused.
Has anyone ever called and had a confusing experience? If so how’d you feel? I don’t know why I feel this way.
I hope this makes sense. My mind is all over the place right now :(
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scared to come out even though my family is....pretty accepting?? [deleted]
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Mania-like episode, how do I bring this up to my psychiatrist? So I have not been dx'd with bipolar. I do have the following formal diagnoses as of now: borderline personality disorder (BPD), double depression (major depression and dysthymia), generalized anxiety, bulimia, alcohol abuse.
I'm trying to figure out how to present this to my psychiatrist. I think I've been in a manic episode for the last 2-3 weeks or so especially. I had started thinking this on Saturday and my significant other said he thought I seemed like I was manic for the last few weeks.
My psych doc put me on 20 mg of prozac which I initially thought was making me really zombie like but then I went on a tinder spree. I have promiscuous tendencies when drinking but I usually don't actually do anything. I hit on an old boyfriend once, but otherwise have been faithful to my SO.
In the past month, I have had sex with 3 different guys and had a multi hookup with one that I've basically been texting nonstop. I've been pounding energy drinks and alcohol, and tindering, and wanting to go out and do things and talk to people and dance which is weird for me because I'm introverted.
My SO confronted me Friday night/Saturday and everything kind of crashed back and I'm having a what the fuck did I do moment.
I felt GOOD last week. I actually felt like I had some energy despite still not sleeping any better than usual (I have bad insomnia). That never happens, and I want to cry because if it is actually bipolar, I'm not going to get to feel like that again. My psychiatrist thinks my baseline is a depressed mood (which I'm now in again). So basically I get to spend the rest of my life depressed and I don't want to have to live like that.
How do I bring this up to my doctor? I have been drinking a lot, so I'm worried she is going to dismiss it as a by product of that instead of something else. I've taken mood stabilizers in the past without much improvement in the depression, but the focus was on the depression. I'm assuming my doctor has ruled out bipolar already.
Is it weird that I would have a full blown manic episode for the first time at 26?
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The only way I can not feel depressed is by being drunk or high [deleted]
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It's been 15 years and not talking about it is all I know how to do. I'm sorry if this seems jumbled, I was quite eloquent once but my mind feels like it's been liquefied lately. I still don't know how to talk, what to say, where to start. There's just so much, I feel like it'd take a novel to explain the enormity of the storm inside me and I've always been a kind of 'fuck off I can do this on my own' person. I've fought alone for SO LONG. I genuinely don't know how to ask for help. I don't know why I'm asking here. I don't even know if here is the right place. I just know I can't carry on like this. It's been 15 years and it hasn't gotten better. It's finally gotten too much for me, the armour is crumbling and I don't know what to do anymore. I'll try and summarise in as simple a way as possible.
26 years old. 4 sexual assaults, one when I was 13. 3 rapes. 1 terminally ill family member. 1 best friend hung himself. 6 bullies for 8 years. 2 abusive relationships. 1 year homeless. 2 addictions. 3 suicide attempts. 1 life-altering diagnosis. 4 years in a miserable job. 3 hours sleep a night. 2 years of self-harming. 1 year of self-medicating. 15 years of convincing myself that I am a strong, powerful person who can brush it off and keep surviving like I always do. 1 week into realising that's a crock and I am weak, scared and alone.
I don't want to die, I want to make that clear. I've fought so hard for so long to keep living. I just don't know how to keep living like this.
Please help me.
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i know this is typical but i want something off my chest. this is about a girl.
sooo since I was in my first year in high school I've liked this girl, she's smart, have the same music taste as me, same humour and even the same passion for learning. After my freshman year I tried to forget her because she make's me sad, and it's not healthy. I hated it because I can't admit my feelings for her and we're really good friends. Now four years have passed my Feelings came back after we were joking each other about crushes, the songs, the memories all came back to me now I'm back to this state of melancholy and regrets
Why? I actually admitted my feelings now, but I feel she doesn't
feel the same way about me but that's not why am I sad, It's because she's moving to other state because of Uni. I though she's the one. I hate the feeling of LOVE, i'm not the person that is showy about this thing, but she made my heart beat.
talking about Uni, it reminded me of my dilemma , i've been anxious about my future idk how many sleepless night that this thing is attacking me, the thought of not getting my dreams and goals. We're very poor and I feel I can't go to college
this two thing been bugging me lately can't eat, can't study , can't even concentrate
hope you'll guys help me
-im from
somewhere western rofl.
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I have terminal colon cancer and a micropenis. I'm here because I want someone to hear this before I die. I'm a 21 year old male with terminal colon cancer and a micropenis.
My mother passed away from breast cancer when I was eight years old and in recent years my father has lost his battle to colon cancer as well. I’m currently attending college and staying in the dorms, during the summer I’m not sure where I’ll be but from what the doctors say there’s little chance I will live that long. On top of all of this I also have a micropenis and have struggled with it all my life. When I was in high school, gym class was my biggest fear. This fear came from an experience I had my Sophomore year one of my “friends” pantsed me during a game of basketball and he accidentally pulled everything down, I sat there in fear and shock for a moment and everyone that was playing in the game (roughly 10 people) saw my penis and some laughed and others looked sorry for me. It didn’t take long for news to spread to the whole school and within two days I became the joke of the school. I was constantly harassed about it, in all of my classes, some people would tell me they felt bad and told me not to pay attention to the others but my self esteem was destroyed and never recovered.
Eventually I started to date a girl and slowly this helped with my self esteem issues, however she didn’t know about my penis size and I was terrified to have sex with her. After expressing to her that I was concerned about it she told me she would never judge me and she wanted to be with me because of who I am as a person. Fast forward a month or so we have sex for the first and I could tell she didn’t enjoy it, she reassured me and told me it was great. Our relationship was great other than my insecurities. Eventually my friends sat me down and told me that she had been cheating on me for a few weeks and there had been pictures of her kissing another guy at a party. When I confronted her about it all she told me she was drunk and it meant nothing. After a couple hours of arguing things got rather heated and she insulted me for having a small penis and not being able to pleasure her. I was used to people making fun of me for it but this was the last person I had ever expected to do it. Deep down I knew I never pleasured her and I didn’t fault her for saying what she did. We continued to date and I allowed her to see other people explicitly for sexual pleasure. It tore me apart inside, but I had never loved someone more than I loved her.
For months I had pains in my abdomen and with my parent’s past with cancer and medical issues I had a feeling that it was cancer. I went to the doctors and within 3 weeks I was informed that I had colon cancer and they had caught it too late.
For a while I worked at a local walmart to support myself through college. At first I was a greeter and would greet people at the door, but my anxiety and self confidence issues made this very hard and I ended up scaring a lot of people. My boss had me start being the cart pusher. This was just another part of my life I had failed in. It gets even worse, one day I pushed the entire rack of carts over a pot hole and ran them into a car and was fired.
I have come to terms with dying and think it’s the best thing for me at this point. I will not kill myself, I’m simply waiting for death to come to me. I just needed to get this off my chest and wanted someone to read. I hope this makes sense, these are just scattered thoughts in my life and going into detail caused me to cry a couple times so I excluded a lot of things.
Edit-
Thanks for everyones kind words and support. Another thanks for everyone who reached out to me in the DMs. ❤️
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Is this my first manic episode? I have long grades having bipolar disorder. Since January I have been taking Adderall XR most days of the week for ADHD. Last week I took an unusually long 3 day break from the drug and resumed it Monday.
Resuming the drug hasn't been easy the first two days, as I felt really anxious and hyperactive. Today, it seemed to smooth out until the drug wore off. After the 12 hour mark I started to feel strange. I became hyperactive, irritable but calm and mildly happy, and quickly bounced from happy to irritated to sad. My mind is racing between thoughts but is mostly blank.
I still feel mildly "happy" as my default mood but my affect is blank. I am tired and desire to sleep, but feel energized enough to run continuously until I cannot collapse. Can't say I've felt this way before. It's like I'm high in cocaine or something.
I fear this maybe a manic episode, my first known if the case.
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Falling Back For most of this year I have made big changes, like getting a well paying job, committing to a very loving boyfriend, moving away from bad habits, and in general being a happier version of myself.
Now I've been having thoughts of quitting my job, running away from my responsibilities and saying goodbye to my boyfriend. I know I don't really want to do all of that but my brain is screaming to just let it all go.
Before now, I WAS with nothing. Bumming it at a friend's place with no job and sulking over a break up that left me very unhealthy.
I don't want to give in to those feelings again but I am starting to feel discontent....almost like my brain wants the trouble.
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If my ECT doesn't work today, I'm killing myself tonight I am on my final ECT treatment, about to go in in the next hour, I'm just waiting to be called.
I'm at a point in my life where Suicide has never been more of a viable option. I made an attempt a few weeks ago, and after surviving was glad because I realised how much I would have hurt my loved ones.
But since then my family relationships have all broken down. It's a fucking shit show. Why am I staying alive for these people? They don't deserve me.
I literally have nothing else keeping me here.
For the first time, Suicide is the option that makes the most sense.
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Exams start from tomorrow
....and it's now evident that I haven't studied all year. The first paper is physics (also my worst subject, which I failed last term), and I don't know what to do. Moreover, I have a few incomplete assignments that might cost me internal marks, and I'm certain that my physics teacher hates me. It's all descending upon me all at once, there's a queasy feeling in my stomach, and my head hurts. I know that these are the consequences of my own actions...but I don't know what to do. Could anyone help?
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self.Anxiety
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What the hell do I do?? I don’t need a pity party here I just need some advice. I fuck up everything I try to do. Everything I do either ends up failing or backfiring. I started hating everyone around me because it felt like they were uncaring jerks who only looked out for themselves but I realised it was my fault. I’m the fucking loser here who keeps failing at everything. Why would anyone give two shits about a fucking pathetic loser like me? I’ve been to multiple doctors/psychiatrists. They’ve prescribed me with antidepressants but that shit hasn’t made any difference. I’m thinking of just fucking jumping off a cliff now. I can’t even get a fucking a gun because of all the stupid gun laws in my country. What the fuck do I do?? How do I make things easier? How the fuck can I kill myself without being such a fucking pussy?
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self.depression
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how to minimize the pain of my suicide for my parents? Hello Reddit, My name is Channah. I turn 28 on January 23 and have thought for a few years if things don't get better by the time I'm 28, then it is time to end my life. So here we are, it didn't "get better" and things sometimes don't work out. I have become an organ donor and am ready to go. However, I'm my parents only daughter, and I love them very much. I don't want them to be in too much pain. I have written them positive notes to read highlighting my appreciation for them and our good times. Are there way to make it so they won't grieve my death for too long? I don't want them to be sad.
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self.SuicideWatch
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Update: prescribed latuda I was prescribed latuda about a month ago. For the first 4 weeks I noticed little change in my mood. I actually went to the hospital last week because my depression became so severe. The doc at the hospital doubled my dose up to 80mg and prescribed Wellbutrin. I haven't picked up the Wellbutrin yet(because I'm broke until payday) but I'm noticing a difference now. Even my boss noticed I've been more energetic and positive. The only downside is i get muscle rigidity for about 2 hours after I take the latuda but the doc prescribed amantadine to ease that and it seems to help. I'm hopeful for the first time in months. Does anyone else have experience with latuda and/or Wellbutrin?
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self.bipolar
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I’m so tired of my depression pushing people away [deleted]
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self.depression
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anybody elsee experience this? I have to write down everything that I hear- any word that can be of significance. For instance, say if I hear dog, I will have to write it down because if I don’t then I fear that I will forget about it and that it will be needed for the future. And if I don’t write it down , Someone that I know could potentially die. I have a google docs that is 700 pages of words just like random
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self.Anxiety
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What's the difference between depression and just feeling sorry for yourself? [removed]
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self.depression
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Why am I sad for no reason at all. [deleted]
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self.SuicideWatch
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About to quit doing a job i don't enjoy I'm really fucking nervous ;-;
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self.Anxiety
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Literally had a panic attack over a GOOGLE SEARCH So I notice this morning that the side of my foot has a tiny swollen area so I search up "Foot swelling"
And then it says HEART failure and KIDNEY disease and then It triggered a panic attack
A hour later im like "fuck u google" so lesson learnt never ever googling anything that involves the human body.
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self.Anxiety
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Lol there is no experience quite like doing a phone interview while hypomanic My voice is a force like lightning
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self.bipolar
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I still read my ex-gf's emails from 2012-2013 We broke up in 2013.
They give me comfort. But also sadness, a lot of sadness. I read them because they're the only thing I have left to cling on to. The only time I can remember when someone truly loved me.
She was amazing, and I truly messed it all up. And it's over, but I can't stop going back to it.
I never even got to meet her. Touch her. We almost met one time, when I moved to her country, but things went wrong.
I've never felt a loving touch before. I've been alone ever since.
Just wanted to tell someone.
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self.SuicideWatch
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I feel like I’ve lost any knowledge of inspiration When I was a kid I loved to write little short stories and draw random stuff, wherever my mind was inspired to go. Now I’m 20 and thanks to depression it feels like my mind can’t digest anything. A movie or TV show might be really interesting every now and then, or a song might spark some emotional response, but then 5 minutes later I pick up a pen and everything I know about creativity goes down the drain. I just feel empty. I hate it. I wish I were a kid again, where I would be excited to create anything that comes to mind. Nothing’s up there. How do I get my imagination to ever work again?
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self.depression
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What’s your experience of a mixed episode? Just putting the feelers out there to see what different people experience as a mixed episode, right now I’m not sure if I am slipping into a low or if its a mixture of both, I’ve the irritation and wanting to get everything done ASAP spending money my usual traits of a hypo but at the same time I’m finding it increasingly difficult to get myself out of bed to do the school run and I’m lacking the energy and motivation to do the things I want to do.
Looking forward to reading your experiences!
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self.bipolar
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faking an obituary to get a reschedule for an exam. [deleted]
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self.offmychest
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Well that was smart (not) I looked at the container I keep my meds in (it has sections for every day of the week and separates it out to morning middle evening and night.) and realized I need to not just take meds on autopilot, and to pay attention. For 2 days in a row I've taken my morning meds at night and wondered why I couldn't sleep.
That also means 2 nights of not getting my antipsychotic. Duhhhh.
Remember to pay attention to what meds you are taking when you take them! Or else you'll end up a bonehead like me staying up for 2 nights wondering why I couldn't sleep.
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self.bipolar
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I don’t know what I did but I’m sorry We’ve known each other for almost 11 years now and we see each other almost on a daily basis. I considered y’all family, and from my point of view I thought we were pretty close. I don’t know what it was that made y’all all of sudden stop talking to me the last couple of weeks but it hurts pretty fucking bad. I asked if i did anything wrong and I never heard back which hurt even more. I️ know I️ don’t show that I’m hurt and maybe it’s because society told me it’s not masculine to feel emotional and hurt but goddamn I’m hurt more than you know. I just can’t comprehend it. I’ve known y’all for so long and within just a couple of weeks it feels like I barely know y’all now.
Just know that I’m not angry or upset, I’m just beyond hurt. If I did anything wrong I truly apologize because I would never want to do anything that would make me lose y’all. Y’all know I’ll always be here if y’all ever needed anything and I really hope things can get back to normal because y’all do mean a lot to me.
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self.offmychest
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Parents have gone overseas without me My parents have traveled halfway across the world without me and I feel so much sadness and anxiety. I had the choice to go with them but I chose not to for medical reasons. They have never travelled overseas without me only locally and I feel so anxious at the fact that I can't talk to them when I need to. I don't know what to do to distract myself. I'm staying with my older sister at home but she works all day and almost everyday of the week. Most of my friends are also away or they are working most days. I have no car or drivers license yet so I can't go anywhere to distract myself. I also have a broken ankle so I can't even go for a run. I can walk in the evenings but only if I've rested my foot the whole day and I have to walk with someone as it isn't always safe here. I am mostly fine during the day but as soon as it's supper time and starts getting dark I can't handle the feeling of being alone. I don't know what to do to distract myself and o can't watch tv for very long because I get bored and there isn't much else to do inside for 2 weeks when they get back. I do get panic attacks very easily in general but that's usually when I'm in hospital. My boyfriend is also quite busy at the moment with a bunch of assignments so I can't see him as much as I'd like to in order to distract myself. I'm also on holiday at the moment and the school year only starts mid February so I don't even have that to distract me. I'm out of ideas on what I can do to calm myself and keep myself busy. I dread nighttime. Please help!
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self.Anxiety
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Idea I Had Today I had a panic attack to day and it gave me an idea. I made an app folder on my phone with apps that help me to calm down. I named it In Case, and I told one of my friends that if I have a panic attack around them, they can use that. I put a rain sounds app, a metronome, and some meditation apps on there. Hope this proves useful!
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self.Anxiety
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I fucking hate birthdays I had really high hopes this year for some reason. I even scheduled the weekend off work. I don’t know why I wanted to make plans so bad, but the closer and closer I get the more I dread it. It’s just a reminder of how fucking alone I am. I don’t have friends who will put in effort for me. I don’t have a close friend group. I have no one there for me.
I had all these high hopes. But I quickly realized I only had maybe two or three people I could invite. Alright, small dinner with close friends, that’s what matters. Nope. My “best friend” who barely even talks to me anymore “couldn’t come,” even though I asked her a month ago...my other friend never even replied. I feel so fucking alone. I can usually handle it fine on a normal day, it’s not so prominent and in my face. But birthdays just bring it all up. All those expectations and shit.
I just want friends. I don’t want to be alone. I’m supposed to be making the closest friends of my life right now. I barely made any friends in high school, and I basically lost all of them when I started college and I haven’t been able to make any real friends. I always feel excluded. I feel so jealous of all these people with friends and people who would pull out all the stops for them for something like a birthday.
But I don’t know. I’m just sick of fucking birthdays. I wish I could just skip them and pretend it didn’t exist, but that still hurts.
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self.depression
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Am I justified in feeling annoyed by this? So I follow /r/AskReddit and I comment a lot as it's always interesting to see responses and other people's comments. Today one person posted the Question: What would someone not know about you just from looking at you?
And I replied with the following:
I have crippling anxiety. I'm known for my positi...
https://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/8cb2l7/what_wouldnt_people_guess_about_you_by_just/dxdhoke?utm_source=reddit-android
As you can see from the OP replies I get a little annoyed. Am I justified in that? Anyone else had similar issues with thier anxiety? And I also I feel a bit knocked from those comments even if it was just a troll. Just want to know your thoughts.
Edit: he's hyjacked this post and has now started commenting on other /r/Anxiety posts, I'm sorry if anyone else experiences comments from him through me. Looking at his history he seems to think he is an undiagnosed pyschopath, maybe he needs a similar subreddit to help him.
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self.Anxiety
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Hate my nationality/background so much. Makes me depressed and cry. Been going on for a while. Feel like I have an inferiority complex. Any help please? So i’m Pakistani-American, born and raised in the U.S. and I hate my nationality so much. I’ve been laughed at and teased by whites, blacks, etc. for being Pakistani.
Being Pakistani hurts so much. The nationalities of my peers/classmates have been celebrated (Italian, Greek, etc) while mine is looked down upon. Countries like Italy, Spain, etc. are known for the most iconic landmarks, world renowned food, amazing culture etc. while Pakistan is known for terrorism, cousin marriage, and being third world.
I mean what a slap in the face that Pakistan barely gets any tourism and countries like Germany literally get more tourists in a week than Pakistan does in a year. What a compliment that people all around would come to your nation for leisure/personal time whereas a country with no tourists like Pakistan merely exists and barely anyone would seek to see it. Pakistan was ranked 3rd worst reputation of any country in the world
This has been going on for years and I often cry uncontrollably and don’t want to do anything, becoming severely depressed. I’ve longed to be of a different nationality/background for years now (started around 5 years ago). Any advice/help please?
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self.offmychest
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This is not a post telling you to fight for net neutrality. This is a post telling you to fight the root cause. The net neutrality debate has become a partisan issue. It shouldn't be. We come on this website day in day out and see the slow encroachment of the American white wing conservatism that is currently infecting and dismantling one of, if not the greatest empires in history.
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The rest of reddit will tell you to call reps and fight for a free internet, but people won't tell you that the votes to repeal net neutrality were split directly along political lines.
Here is a simple breakdown of issues and make of the data what you will, but what can't ignored is this complacency in the face of white supremacist megalomaniacs. The Trumps, murdochs and the entire GOP have slowly and steadily corrugated civil rights and they have now come for the Gutenberg press of the 21st century.
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The ability to restrict what you see, forcing you to pay for access to shit like reddit and facebook is more in line with creating a technocratic monopoly with a la carte pricing for even the most basic of internet uses.
Say good bye to standard internet packages and say hello to an extra 9 bucks a month for each social media site you would love to access.
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**NON-AMERICANS**
Why does this matter? The moment the most powerful nation on earth is able to restrict the internet use of its citizens, many of who claim to be against tyranny yet vote fascists, this will spread to sister nations.
UK and Portugal know what I'm talking about. We're one year into toupee fiasco's presidency.
Having been on reddit for close to 6 years(i know, what a loser), this was visible from a mile away. Many of the "anti-sjw" subs on here like /r/tumblrinaction / /r/drama / /r/KotakuInAction were actively complicit in getting someone like Trump into power.
[gamergate happened](https://www.reddit.com/r/politics/comments/6u2cs3/donald_trump_is_afraid_of_steve_bannon_and_thats/dlpk3iq/). Breibart, at the helm of **Steve Bannon(Trump's palpatine)** at the time, [began feeding gamers alt right lingo. Once again, the enemy was the SJW. But this time they introduced "cultural marxist" with the help of Milo yiannodghskhj.](http://www.rollingstone.com/glixel/news/how-cheating-gamers-fueled-steve-bannons-rise-to-power-w496340)
When you see the fact that the same players like Milo, who were the thought leaders of the gamergate movement which saw widespread support on reddit, also became the Trump brigadiers in the media, it becomes easy to figure out the insidiousness of these movements. This is not a tin foil conspiracy. This is plain as day for anyone to see.
**HOW DO WE FIGHT THIS?**
By raising hell. No tolerance for the utter lies of "both sides". No more tolerance for letting fascists move the overton window to the point where we are now scrambling to fight back at the 11th hour.
**AMERICAN REDDITORS**
More specifically, white Americans. approx 2/3 white folks in every demographic of your electorate put Trump in power. I know I know, why are you being blamed? This is not blame. It's a sober cold truth. The GOP and nationalism will be the undoing of everything you hold dear.
If you are willing to let these monsters stifle your internet, raise your taxes, and take your healthcare all because they claim to speak for you then fine. Ignore my ranting screed or leave an insult below for good measure.
Ajit Pai and the FCC didn't just drop out of the sky into the positions of leadership. They were put there by the very same sociopaths who were voted in by the american white wing party and independents.
But for those of you who are embarrassed, scared and can see this clown car headed for a cliff, you can only do so much but you have to do soomething.
If your family or friends voted for the greedy sycophants in power, and you're trying to explain to them how disingenuous the GOP monstrosity is, you're gonna need some facts.
One tip: Don't make it about just the single issue of Net Neutrality.
Show them all the issues and voting for/against their interests:
**[House Vote for Net Neutrality](https://www.govtrack.us/congress/votes/112-2011/h252)**
|For|Against
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**Republicans**| 2|**234**
**Democrats**|**177**| 6
**[Senate Vote for Net Neutrality](https://www.govtrack.us/congress/votes/112-2011/s200)**
|For|Against
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**Republicans**| 0| **46**
**Democrats** |**52**| 0
#**Money in Elections and Voting**
**[Campaign Finance Disclosure Requirements](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/32154)**
|For|Against
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**Republicans**| 0|**39**
**Democrats**|**59**| 0
**[DISCLOSE Act](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/41152)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**| 0|**45**
**Dem**|**53**| 0
**[Bipartisan Campaign Reform Act](http://clerk.house.gov/evs/2002/roll034.xml)**
|For|Against
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**Rep**|8|**38**
**Dem**|**51**|3
**[(Reverse Citizens United) Sets reasonable limits on the raising and spending of money by electoral candidates to influence elections](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/49906)**
|For|Against
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**Rep**| 0|**42**
**Dem** |**54**| 0
#**The Economy/Jobs**
**[Limits Interest Rates for Certain Federal Student Loans](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/45797)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**| 0|**46**
**Dem**|**46**| 6
**[Student Loan Affordability Act](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/44550)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**| 0|**51**
**Dem**|**45**| 1
**[Low-Income Home Energy Assistance Funding Amendment](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/9034)**
|For|Against
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**Rep**| 1|**41**
**Dem**|**54**| 0
**[Reduces Funding for Food Stamps](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/40315)**
|For|Against
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**Rep**|**33**| 13
**Dem**| 0|**52**
**[End the Bureau of Consumer Financial Protection](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/30296)**
|For|Against
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**Rep**|**39**| 1
**Dem**| 1| **54**
**[Kill Credit Default Swap Regulations](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/30364)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**|**38**| 2
**Dem**| 18|**36**
**[Revokes tax credits for businesses that move jobs overseas](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/49616)**
|For|Against
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**Rep**| 10|**32**
**Dem**|**53**| 1
**[Dodd Frank Wall Street Reform and Consumer Protection Bureau Act](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/30346)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**| 4 |**39**
**Dem**|**55**| 2|
**[American Jobs Act of 2011 - $50 billion for infrastructure projects](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/36879)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**| 0|**48**
**Dem**|**50**| 2
**[Emergency Unemployment Compensation Extension](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/46392)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**| 1|**44**
**Dem**|**54**| 1
**[Minimum Wage Fairness Act](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/47753)**
|For|Against
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**Rep**| 1|**41**
**Dem**|**53**| 1
**[Paycheck Fairness Act](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/32830)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**| 0|**40**
**Dem**|**58**| 1
#**Civil Rights**
**[Same Sex Marriage Resolution 2006](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/11729)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**| 6|**47**
**Dem**|**42**| 2
**[Employment Non-Discrimination Act of 2013](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/46286)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**| 1|**41**
**Dem**|**54**| 0
**[Exempts Religiously Affiliated Employers from the Prohibition on Employment Discrimination Based on Sexual Orientation and Gender Identity](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/46288)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**|**41**| 3
**Dem**| 2| **52**
#**Family Planning**
**[Teen Pregnancy Education Amendment](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/8830)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**| 4|**50**
**Dem**|**44**| 1
**[Family Planning and Teen Pregnancy Prevention](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/20713)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**| 3|**51**
**Dem**|**44**| 1
**[Protect Women's Health From Corporate Interference Act](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/49362)** The 'anti-Hobby Lobby' bill.
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**| 3|**42**
**Dem**|**53**| 1
#**Environment**
**[Stop "the War on Coal" Act of 2012](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/41688)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**|**214**|13
**Dem**| 19|**162**
**[EPA Science Advisory Board Reform Act of 2013](https://votesmart.org/bill/votes/50594)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**|**225**|1
**Dem**| 4|**190**
**[Prohibit the Social Cost of Carbon in Agency Determinations](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/46997)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**|**218**| 2
**Dem**| 4|**186**
#**"War on Terror"**
**[Time Between Troop Deployments](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/15831)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**| 6|**43**
**Dem**|**50**| 1
**[Prohibits Detention of U.S. Citizens Without Trial](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/37420)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**| 5|**42**
**Dem**|**39**| 12
**[Habeas Corpus for Detainees of the United States](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/15833)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**| 5|**42**
**Dem**|**50**| 0
**[Repeal Indefinite Military Detention](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/48229)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**|15|**214**
**Dem**|**176**| 16
**[Oversight of CIA Interrogation and Detention Amendment](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/8795)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**| 1|**52**
**Dem** |**45**| 1
**[Patriot Act Reauthorization](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/35224)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**|**196**| 31
**Dem** | 54|**122**
**[Oversight of CIA Interrogation and Detention](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/8795)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**| 1|**52**
**Dem**|**45**| 1
#**Misc**
**[Prohibit the Use of Funds to Carry Out the Patient Protection and Affordable Care Act](http://votesmart.org/bill/votes/43144)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**|**45**| 0
**Dem**| 0|**52**
**[Allow employers to penalize employees that don't submit genetic testing for health insurance (Committee vote)](https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/to-your-health/wp/2017/03/11/employees-who-decline-genetic-testing-could-face-penalities-under-proposed-bill/?utm_term=.33f566f5ce5c)**
|For|Against
-|-|-
**Rep**|**22**| 0
**Dem**| 0|**17**
>[The Party of Principles:](https://np.reddit.com/r/politics/comments/787fdh/after_gold_star_widow_breaks_silence_trump/dornc4n/)
>Exhibit 1: https://i.imgur.com/lTAU8LM.jpg
>Opinion of Syrian airstrikes under Obama vs. Trump.
Democrats:
37% support Trump's Syria strikes
38% supported Obama doing it
Republicans:
86% supported Trump doing it
22% supported Obama doing
http://nymag.com/daily/intelligencer/2017/04/gop-voters-love-same-attack-on-syria-they-hated-under-obama.html, https://twitter.com/kfile/status/851794827419275264
>Exhibit 4: https://i.imgur.com/OBrVUnd.png
>Opinion of Vladimir Putin after Trump began praising Russia during the election. https://today.yougov.com/news/2016/12/14/americans-and-trump-part-ways-over-russia/
>Exhibit 5: Opinion of "Obamacare" vs. "Kynect" (Kentucky's implementation of Obamacare). Kentuckians feel differently about the policy depending on the name. https://www.vox.com/2014/5/12/5709866/kentuckians-only-hate-obamacare-if-you-call-it-obamacare
>Exhibit 6: Christians (particularly evangelicals) became monumentally more tolerant of private immoral conduct among politicians once Trump became the GOP nominee. https://www.prri.org/research/prri-brookings-oct-19-poll-politics-election-clinton-double-digit-lead-trump/
>Exhibit 7: White Evangelicals cared less about how religious a candidate was once Trump became the GOP nominee. https://www.prri.org/research/prri-brookings-oct-19-poll-politics-election-clinton-double-digit-lead-trump/
>Exhibit 9: Republicans became far more opposed to gun control when Obama took office. Democrats have remained consistent. http://www.pewresearch.org/fact-tank/2017/07/20/republicans-skeptical-of-colleges-impact-on-u-s-but-most-see-benefits-for-workforce-preparation/
>Exhibit 10: Republicans started to think college education is a bad thing once Trump entered the primary. Democrats remain consistent. http://www.pewresearch.org/fact-tank/2017/07/20/republicans-skeptical-of-colleges-impact-on-u-s-but-most-see-benefits-for-workforce-preparation/
>Exhibit 11: https://i.imgur.com/B2yx5TB.png
#economicanxiety
>Wisconsin Republicans felt the economy improve by 85 approval points the day Trump was sworn in. Graph also shows some Democratic bias, but not nearly as bad. http://www.jsonline.com/story/news/blogs/wisconsin-voter/2017/04/15/donald-trumps-election-flips-both-parties-views-economy/100502848/
>Exhibit 13: 10% fewer Republicans believed the wealthy weren't paying enough in taxes once a billionaire became their president. Democrats remain fairly consistent. http://www.people-press.org/2017/04/14/top-frustrations-with-tax-system-sense-that-corporations-wealthy-dont-pay-fair-share/
https://np.reddit.com/r/politics/comments/787fdh/after_gold_star_widow_breaks_silence_trump/dornc4n/
>Here's the vote for Hurricane Sandy aid. 179 of the 180 no votes were Republicans.
>I count at least 20 Texas Republicans.
http://clerk.house.gov/evs/2013/roll023.xml, https://twitter.com/MEPFuller/status/901871687532208128
**The most effective thing you can do for net neutrality *and almost every other issue you care about* is politics and being political.** Please keep sharing data.
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self.offmychest
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What would be a suitable job for anxious me? Recently I missed out on a job I hoped to be hired for due to being too anxious and insecure. Yes, that was the actual feedback I was given (my first thought was "Duh, I have an anxiety disorder!", but of course I didn't say that out loud), along with the advice to look for something more suitable. So, any advice on what would be a suitable job for lil' anxious me? The options I can see are thin on the ground, because it would have to be something from the "unskilled labour" category (a term I hate by the way - it's not like flipping burgers isn't a skill), but rather not customer-facing (because of the anxiety issue - I love people and I love to make them happy, I'm just *scared* of them), and not so physically strenuous that only a very fit person can possibly do it. So that leaves what? Working in a factory?
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self.Anxiety
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Just waked up First thing I want to do is cry and blow my brains out. I want a gun I think having my brain matter on the floor will make me feel better.
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self.SuicideWatch
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