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Hello, I've always wanted to speak with you but I've never found the words. Not that those will come out now, as I constantly fear to forget to tell you something as I describe both my situation and myself. But let's start anyway, shall we?
I live a happy life, at least if seen from the outside: I've got a car, a motor... | self.SuicideWatch |
Why is it so hard to just be normal Found myself back in a hole of my own digging and pushing people away again.
I make friends easy then push them away, a few weeks ago i was the life of the party. Now i find it hard to look at people. When i think back its like I'm seeing somone elses memories.
| self.depression |
Small Steps Are Still Progress So it's been nearly a year and a half since I've been in any kind of relationship, and coming up on four years in a few weeks since I've had a serious relationship. I've never felt good with women or had any confidence, and usually any flings I had ( which were rarer than a river in the d... | self.offmychest |
Just visited my psychiatrist feeling a relief that makes me happy Recently hasn't been great and it's only gotten worse, but now after visiting him I see myself sitting in a better place.
I will be taking these pills for the next 9 months and hopefully everything will be better.
Finally I have hope. | self.depression |
Bipolar in college? Anybody just can't seem to finish a semester? I get insanely excited for that feeling of productivity you get when you sign up and attend the first couple of weeks, but then the feeling of self doubt creeps up around the 3rd week. At that time I begin to skip class all of the time and feel like utte... | self.bipolar |
What are some good rewards to encourage healthy behaviour? I'm currently having quite a hard time following goals for myself, mostly in regards to how much I'm drinking and how badly I'm eating but what are some good rewards to retrain my behaviour? | self.depression |
Dunno why I'm still alive but I can't find the will to end it all either. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Overwhelmed and crashing I was only diagnosed last week and I am trying to get a grip of what I am feeling and identifying what everything is. I think I was hypomanic over the weekend and now I can really feel myself crashing and I just feel so overwhelmed by everything. | self.bipolar |
At wit's end with eating disorder... I don't even know where to begin. This is probably not the best place to post this in , but I have no clue where else to go. I also struggle with social anxiety, thus I live an isolated life and have bottled these problems for a long time. I don't even know if I should post at all, ... | self.offmychest |
Tired all the time I'm 23 but I feel 80. I have to take naps during the day. It seems like so much effort to shower or clean or go to the grocery store. My back is killing me. Despite sleeping all the time I'm constantly tired. Sometimes I wish I could just relax and take a break from it all. | self.depression |
Took my meds too late So I’m on 400mg seroquel XR, 100mg lamotrigine, 60mgs citalopram and Valium PRN. I got so engrossed in watching documentaries last night (I blame reddit for this, there was a thread about what’s the most disturbing movie you’ve seen so then I went and watched two of them because I was curious!) th... | self.bipolar |
what do i do my life has always been pretty lonely since my parents never let me go out, school home school home and they also screamed and beat me a lot if i didnt do something i was told right or if i got a bad grade and never really trusted me with doing anything; "you cant do it right just let me do it".
I'm 17 n... | self.SuicideWatch |
fucking stupid rant Fuck my parents for making me live this fucking miserable existence. Fuck this shitty world. Fuck the fact that I have so many fucking terrible years I still have to live and fuck the fact that I can't just end it easily. Fuck. Fuck my bullshit expensive psychiatrists who tell me the same fucking sh... | self.depression |
Guess I caught myself hypomanic on camera. Hey guys.
Been checking this sub for years and it's a great source of information.
Anyways.
Wanted to make a video of me fighting lithium fatque by recording the date I started lithium and tracking for stats and gains or losses for everyone to see.
I saw this video and was ... | self.bipolar |
This just happened and I'm trying to stifle tears What sort of mother tells her daughter that she needs to stop being so moody because her boyfriends isn't going to want to put up with her being like this. She knows I'm struggling with depression, she knows I have insecurities issues, she knows I am very much in love ... | self.depression |
Im getting help. I got a doctors appointment this Monday along with a therapy meeting.
Im taking meds for anxiety and depression that i had for a very long time.
If none of this helps, then Im done. | self.SuicideWatch |
To all the suicidal people... From a suicidal person. Whatever you're going through, whatever you're intending to do to end your life. Don't, and here's why.
You and only You have effected so many people's lives, you have and still can be a smile they needed on a rainy day.
If you get bullied, tell a teacher / parent... | self.SuicideWatch |
i love life, but.. i love life.
but..
im hollow.
im shallow.
im hopeless.
im on the verge.
no matter where i look, it's dark.
im not in a tunnel.
im on the bottom of the ocean.
i feel like im drowning, every day.
the pressure creeps up on me.
the pressure kills me.
suffocates me.
all i ever asked for was a hand.
to gui... | self.SuicideWatch |
I might be moving So recently my and my boyfriend have been talking about leaving our current appartment to move into a different one in the same city. Shit's crazy expensive when you're in college, so we thought up a plan to move into a new place with a friend of ours.
I just keep thinking, "What if she changes her m... | self.offmychest |
Extreme anxiety about Biology class. The thought of even being in the same area as dead animals makes me uncomfortable, sick, and also makes me feel unclean. I am a clean person and always have been, and as a child when I was anxious something I would do is obsessively wash my hands to stay clean. And the thought of ... | self.Anxiety |
Panic attack? I have depression, and anxiety. And lately I've started having what I think are panic attacks. It normally occurs when I'm anxious, or something stressful happens, or even if someone tells me something that makes me even minorly stressed.
Yesterday it happened again. My mom started talking to me abo... | self.Anxiety |
DAE not care about New Year's? I mean, I'm not hating on people who celebrate it, it's just not my thing personally. To me it's just a new year. There will be plenty of them in the future. A lot of people will dislike 2018 in the same way they've disliked almost every year before it. | self.depression |
Can't stand it anymore I have enough of this shitty existence, I just can't stand it anymore, I really can't stand it anymore.
I don't mind being short, but I fucking hate the way I am treated simply because of my height.
I am fucking 19 years old and I have never had a girlfriend, never been kissed or hugged. Each t... | self.depression |
I have to tell my therapist something, but no matter how hard I try, I can't [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
At the hospital. Just need to vent, I am at the hospital because my stomach has been off for the past 5-6 days. Long story short I ate dinner and a few moments later i threw it all up. Came here because I tried eating again and felt like throwing up. I've been here for almost 7 hours going on the 8th hour. Its not help... | self.Anxiety |
I don't know to do and I'm afraid and embarrassed God, I don't even know what to say. I'm typing this out on my mobile at 2:20 a.m and I feel like a failure. I even failed at the title of this post (I don't know •what• to do)
I've had severe OCD all my life, and it has caused me to be afraid of just about everything.... | self.depression |
TMS Therapy; feeling like a new person (but not in a good way?) I'm a 22 y/o woman almost finished with my TMS therapy for my MDD. I've definitely felt the dip, and things have gotten so much better over the past few weeks.
The issue I'm having though is that I feel like a completely different person. In some ways it's... | self.depression |
First therapy appointment I don't know why I am so scared and anxious. Any advice on things I should talk about specifically or ask? Wish me luck. | self.bipolar |
nobody understands nobody gets it. People tell me to do things, to be a person, make efforts to study for Uni, people tell me that I do have the capacity to study and that i am intelligent but i’m not. I’m not capable of anything. | self.depression |
The stress of finance is pushing me to the limit. I lost my job in the beginning of October cause my car was stolen and totaled since then bills have been a nightmare my account is constantly hovering around 0 after going negative between paychecks I can’t afford to eat and paying rent is insanely challenging I did get... | self.SuicideWatch |
Fear of Death Is Ruining All my potential I'm finding it increasingly hard to do anything due to this fear that I'd always in my mind. I have less and less motivation to do anything slightly difficult because I have it in my head that the issue of death is more important than any other smaller issue.
My logic around d... | self.Anxiety |
I spent years working to get my full 50% of my daughter, and watching her open gifts this morning, I was numb; detached; dissociated. [deleted] | self.depression |
i’ve reached a new low and im not sure what to do anymore. [deleted] | self.depression |
Sitting home alone... refreshing pics of friends having fun. They either forgot to invite me or didn’t want to. In other words, just another New Years Eve. | self.depression |
Are antidepressants worth it? I’ve suffered with depression, ocd and anxiety for as long as I can remember... I’ve just started taking clomipramine and have had almost all the side effects. I feel hungover in the morning, feel like I’m gonna throw up half the time and disconnected if that makes sense. Does it get bette... | self.SuicideWatch |
help I just tried to hang myself, but chickened out before I lost conscious. I don't want to live anymore. I can't seem to do anything right, I can't even kill myself. I just don't want to be alone right now... | self.SuicideWatch |
I don't want to do anything? I have struggled with depression and anxiety in the past but this is a different experience. I don't feel sad. I just have no motivation. I mean, I have some motivation. I am 21, I work as a bartender 4 or 5 days a week. I am attending school part time for Computer Science. I am in a long t... | self.depression |
I'm just done. 17M, had depression since age 6, funny how fast 11 years goes by when you can't focus on the long term.
Tried overdosing on prednisolone ~6 months ago and got put into the mental health inpatient system for just under 2 months. Since then I just can't focus on anything else, I just want to die, and I've ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Decided to help my (28F) husband (33M) recover from his secret porn addiction. Then he cheated on me. For eight and a half years, my husband and I have had a good relationship. Like any couple, we’ve had ups and downs, shared tragedies and triumphs. We were always a good team and, I thought, great friends.
5 months a... | self.offmychest |
I sleep too much It's starting to become a problem. Like i'm sleeping when i'm not tired mostly just to avoid reality. If theres some important date on the horizon or some event that i'm dreading I sleep to try and prolong the time I have until whatever it is comes. Never works though; It always just feels like a waste... | self.depression |
There's so much going on right now that it feels unbarable [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
7 Billion People In the world and not one of them wants to be with me. I can't face another year alone. I'm finally gonna end it. | self.depression |
I’m tired of it Since I was 14 I started cycling. Went through high school being diagnosed as depressed with anxiety. Failed out of college and took a break to figure life out and then found out I’m type II.
I can’t keep myself to a work schedule. I’m a independent contractor for solar sales which is flexible at least... | self.bipolar |
Will i live in poverty in the future? Because i am disabled and can't likely get a better education i'm scared of poverty and extreme poverty (homelessness) I know my life will be miserable in the future. Because i will life in poverty. Maybe eve nextreme poverty (Homeless). Why should i live? If i know my life will en... | self.depression |
I’m so worried about my teeth I just had an anger outburst, I worry so much about the future of my teeth. I worry I may have ruined them forever. I bleached my teeth in late 2016, and I want to continue bleaching them, but I fear I might not be able to. My teeth are a bit translucent and I am afraid my enamel is either... | self.Anxiety |
Is this my fault? I've been on SSI ever since high school but before high school I wasn't. My oldest aunt suggest to me to get SSI but let's call her Cancer Rat because her zodiac sign is a Cancer. I was like "Nah, I'm good for now" because I'm lazy I didn't feel like doing that but I didn't tell my aunt that! SO, she ... | self.depression |
Can't Control my Anger I have very bad self control when it comes to my anger. My fiance and I have been under continuous stress for what feels like a long time. Whether it's stress from family, stress, regarding our daughter and disagreements about her...we've been having progressively worse arguments. She'll say some... | self.SuicideWatch |
My last new years So after 19 years of hating myself I've decided that this will be my last new years eve, I don't know when I'm going to end it but I've 12 months to work my way up to it, there's nothing left for me apart anger and disappointment and honestly I feel like this is my best option. I don't think it's fair... | self.depression |
Stressed Out Today I found out the woman my brother is having a second baby with threatened to kill herself if he ever left her. She's always had low self-esteem and was always very clingy but this...I don't know how to even react. I've always felt like she felt threatened by how close he is to our family and she's alw... | self.offmychest |
I just feel like I am missing out... I am 18 and I feel like I am missing our on life... All my friends are in a relationship my first and only relationship was over after barely a month and now I am alone and because of college and other restictions (my parents) I feel like that I am missing out on so much stuff that ... | self.depression |
electric shocks from lexapro/anti-depressants...has anyone else experienced this? hey all, i wasn't really sure where to ask this online but i was wondering if anyone has had experience with getting electric shocks from lexapro or other anti-depressants while you've been taking them.
i've been taking lexapro for over... | self.depression |
Killing myself at end of vacation Hey SW,
I have been massively depressed over the past few months. I have low self-esteem, broke up with my girlfriend/best friend and she is now with a rich guy. She is gonna get engaged four months after our breakup. I let it happen. I have ADD, codependency, anxiety disorder and am ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm so glad I can finally say this after two damn years. Fuck you. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Phone interview in one hour...just Need to vent a bit Holy crap...I'm so nervous right now. I have a 15min phone interview soon and I'm trying to fight off my negative thoughts. My heart feels like it's going to burst and I feel shaky all over. I just want to cry and throw up.
I hate anxiety so much because it makes s... | self.Anxiety |
Downward spiral So yesterday was my birthday, and I had been looking forward to it for days. The excitement leading up to it brought my manic phase to such a high point, it was difficult to control. I was so irritable and full of energy I literally couldn't sleep for days but I kept pushing because I knew once my birth... | self.bipolar |
To the person who took a shit all over the back bathroom on Southwest Flight 6954, from Buffalo to Phoenix Go fuck yourself. You literally shit everywhere but the toilet. That poor flight attendant had to clean up after you, which she did to the best of her ability. Then I walked in to take a piss only to find some lov... | self.offmychest |
Feeling alone and sad around the holidays So, I feel really lonely despite being around people who I care about this Christmas. They don't understand and I don't want to burden them. I want everyone to be happy. I don't feel happy though. Close friends feel distant. I don't feel loved by family and my SO. I feel like i... | self.depression |
I feel bad about being anxious over nothing Last night I was worried I offended my mother by asking her a simple question, where I asked "Are you still okay even though sometimes I don't always come up to watch TV with you?", I was so worried over nothing because she didn't even seem upset about it whatsoever, and it l... | self.Anxiety |
The stage used to be the only place i felt safe, until a week ago [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
It's been 3 years in this prison and I need out. Please, help me. [deleted] | self.depression |
Help I don't feel like even trying anymore. Every day is the same old shit. I don't even feel like trying to die, but if a car hits me when I don't look both ways that would be perfect. I hate that this is the closest I'll come to relief. I won't be able to kill myself because I don't even have the energy to do tha... | self.SuicideWatch |
About to take Lexapro After these few weeks I have been struggling a lot. I can't function in school, I feel like a zombie whenever I'm down in the hall. Friday I had a pretty bad episode, probably my worst one yet.
I am a bit nervous. I'm taking 10mg. Any of you guys tried Lexapro before? How did it go for you? I kn... | self.depression |
Anxiety is getting the better of me now. So, things have been getting really bad recently, and I’m getting very desperate. My current situation is about a bunch of old friends who kicked me out their circle and left me to rot. I have been coming up with excuses not to go to school. I’ve tried reporting them, but the si... | self.Anxiety |
Not circumstances, just me My first ever post so please bear with me. I see lots of posts about awful things people have been through or where people say if I just had x things would be much better. My life is pretty normal I think and no huge traumas, just the usual stuff. Feel a bit of a fraud to not be able to feel ... | self.depression |
I really just want to know that someone hears me, if you read this I just want to know your thoughts I have no one I can vent/talk to. I know it’s long but I don’t have anyone to talk to [deleted] | self.depression |
Days go by so fast and so slow Every second feels like it takes forever to pass but before I know it it's 10pm and I haven't done anything | self.depression |
Has anyone had luck after trying a lot of medications? I have been diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder. The latest diagnosis is with Psychotic features.
I have been on something like 7 different medications and all of them have had big side effects and/or been ineffectual to dealing with my issues.
I have hope e... | self.depression |
I’ve been so good mentally and today has brought me back to reality and I’ve never wanted to die this bad. [deleted] | self.depression |
If I tell a psychiatrist about suicidal thoughts, will I be hospitalized? Even if they aren't strong suicidal thoughts? Please tell me the truth.
After 3 years, I've finally recognized that I need to seek help for how I've been feeling. A lot of stress has hit recently that has just made everything so much more hopele... | self.SuicideWatch |
My family searched my room while I was in the hospital I don’t know if anyone will even read this, I just need to tell someone what is happening. here’s the story a little over a week ago I admitted my self into the hospital because I did not feel I could keep my self safe any longer. The next day brother was “looking ... | self.depression |
Player He was my first, when I would look at him it would make me feel this feeling I’ve never felt before, butterflies in my stomach and I couldn’t help but to smile every time I would first see him. He cheated on me soo many times , has temperament issues, verbally abusive but claims he loves me and now I still can’t... | self.offmychest |
i am envious that people here actually have a choice to harden the fuck up and get better! i on the other lost hope. all i see on this sub are Perfectionists with no real depression but more so bitterness about having no friends or simply being in a shit place. you CAN get help if you chose to get up and go out there!!... | self.depression |
I need help in getting my SO help. Hello guys, first time poster but fleeting reader from time to time for help. I’m running out of options and can truly use insight and advice from you all.
I’m 29(m) in a 5 year relationship with 27(f) I will call Megan in this post. We’ve had a great relationship with your generic ... | self.bipolar |
I'm gonna just kill myself now Life is similar to a card game, I've been dealt a shitty hand and lost the game.
I've lost. :( | self.SuicideWatch |
I am completely depersonalized Help nothing feels real!!!!! I feel like I'm high or everything is a dream. I don't think I'm in real life anymore!!! My mind is racing!!! | self.Anxiety |
Random thoughts/venting during my lunch break... I've been doing okay lately but have had some serious down days. I'm 3 years clean from cutting but I almost did it this weekend. I really know I need to seek help but my family doesn't believe in mental illnesses so I have to wait until I get my own car to take myself. ... | self.depression |
My friend was playing around, but I feel like I should have punched him... [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Friend Dissapeared from all Social Media Hi, all. My friend on Discord (where we met) he showed alot of depression / suicidal signs over the past 4 days, and suddenly at 1pm (GMT London) yesterday he dissapeared from ALL social media, we run a Discord server called Zenex which helps people with depression. I'm worried ... | self.SuicideWatch |
ERASE MY MEMORY PLS HOW DO I GET RID OF THESE HAUNTING MEMORIES AT THIS POINT ITS ALMOST LIKE I HAVE PTSD I DONT WANT TO GET A MENTAL BREAKDOWN WHENEVER I THINK ABOUT THE PAST. PLEASE KILL ME PLEASE KILL ME PLEASE KILL ME PLEASE KILL ME PLEASE KILL ME PLEASE KILL ME PLEASE KILL ME PLEASE KILL ME PLEASE KILL ME PLEASE K... | self.depression |
How long do you go before calling your psychiatrist? I saw my pdoc a month ago. At the time, I was feeling okay. I have bipolar type 2 and generalized anxiety disorder. I've had periods of anxiety and depression this year but they always pass. I've been stuck for a couple weeks now though. I'm sad, depressed, worried, ... | self.bipolar |
I feel sad and depressed whenever I go through stuff from my high school days My high school career wasnt the best but it certainly was full of great memories and long term friendships *(some of which I am still in contact with over a decade later)*. Whenever I go through old pictures or Facebook posts/messages from my... | self.depression |
The worst thing about being self aware of your depression is that you know why things suck so much. That there is nothing you can do to change it because knowing your depression is keeping you from changing things. [deleted] | self.depression |
i can never sleep when i need to 5:22 am on a school night. no sleep yet. saturday night? fell asleep at 8pm. fuck school. fuck life | self.depression |
Insane depression over my nationality. Been going on for years. Has made me absolutely miserable, any advice/help please? I’m Pakistani-American, born and raised in the States and I hate my nationality so much to the point where it makes me cry and become severely depressed.
In school I was teased and picked on for be... | self.depression |
I have everything I have ever wanted and I still feel like my life is going downhill every day passes [deleted] | self.depression |
Last night I was nearly at the "I'll do anything to make this stop" point While trying to get back to sleep I was completely unable to stop reliving all the stupid and mean and ambarrassing things I'd ever done and all the mean things ever done to me, and all the things I wanted to do to the people who'd done them to m... | self.depression |
How can I save myself? Another self deprecating post from me on reddit, hurray.
I serve in the IDF, and today, due to how close we are to release, we were sent to a convention about job applications, courses, etc.
This is the offer:
Possibility for early release
Partially or a fully paid course to train you in that... | self.SuicideWatch |
I always thought my first lucid dream would be cool Had a lucid dream for the first time ever last night, I lived through multiple nights of my life and during this time I met the first woman to ever be truly attracted to me and have a lot in common with me and I felt true happiness then I woke up and remembered that l... | self.depression |
Why are today's girls & women acting like DragQueens?!! [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I fuck everything up My mom and sister have been pressuring me to go to a relative's place for thanksgiving dinner. I've had a really stressful fucking week and I just want to be fucking alone. My mom just yelled at me. "Don't go, then!"
I'm such an asshole. I ruin everything. It would be better if I was dead. | self.depression |
I'm usually calm, cool and collected. University is quickly whittling that away. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
So recently connected with an old friend and all we talked about was his tinder issues [deleted] | self.depression |
Wife having complicated pregnancy, I’m going to school and working, she is on bed rest for at least a month Hi everyone. I’m having an awful panic attack and I am just trying to keep it all together right now. I need to be strong for my family, and I feel weak. Like the title states, my wife is having complications in ... | self.Anxiety |
I’m going to relapse today Then I’m going to go to Home Depot and buy some rope and hang myself because life is awful and I can’t do this anymore | self.offmychest |
I feel unworthy of being loved I don't even know how to begin writting this... I feel like I can't explain you my whole life story in just some sentences.
I'll start by saying that I'm a 23 year old girl with multiple abandonment issues and trust issues, so it is very hard for me to REALLY open up to people.
I've ha... | self.depression |
Need to stop xanax but what can make me still good? So I've been taking 1mg of xanax everyday for about a month and I can have days of not taking it but I just feel more anxious and not like the calm collected social person I am when I am on it.
So saying that basically I'm not addicted and don't feel the NEED to hav... | self.Anxiety |
I'm just so tired I just don't understand how I can feel so emotionally drained and tired all the time yet I can never sleep. | self.depression |
Poem I just wrote
My minds been floating for a couple years
Downing bourbon bottles till I black out gave my mother tears
lost without a purpose
It's a circus welcome to my mind
Often merciless
But Ive seen hearses
carry brothers over time
You lie to me like it's rehearsed
I can feel it in my spine
And I... | self.depression |
This time of the year Hi, this is my very first time posting here, and idk what the outcome will be from it, but I hope it’s good.
About this time last year I suffered a traumatic injury involving inclement weather at my job. The incident left me hospitalized in the ICU fighting for my life, and with multiple other in... | self.Anxiety |
i want to kill myself but it's too much effort and there are no video games if i'm dead [deleted] | self.depression |
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