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Trying to help people understand what it’s like living with bipolar disorder I have friends who are trying to understand what I’m going through, they are genuinely doing their best, but they don’t always get it. I always say it’s like waking up super glued to a rollercoaster that you didn’t sign up for, and doesn’t hav... | self.bipolar |
If it weren't for my family I would kill myself in a heartbeat Whenever I think about ending it all I think about my parents crying over my body. So I just keep trucking through this miserable existence as a proxy for my parents' happiness. | self.depression |
Breath in 3 secs, hold 3 secs, out for 6 secs My therapist suggested I try this. I've done alot.of different breathing exercises with mild results. But for me for some reason this ratio is perfect. Within 4 sets I'm noticeably calmer.
Also big thing is No/very little drinking, watch caffeine and sugar intake, good di... | self.Anxiety |
Does anyone feel worse (nausea, derealization) after a hot shower? Hey, I was wondering if anyone's symptoms got worse for the first 30-60mn after taking a hot shower? I enjoy taking showers (so no panic attacks concerning the actual shower), but after it I just feel queasy and vulnerable to my symptoms.
Is it maybe b... | self.Anxiety |
Fear of being alone I don't mean relationship-wise. I mean being alone in a house at night. Even with the doors locked I hear every little thing. I live with my aunt & uncle out in a little town, so the house is a little secluded. It is very quiet, and their whiny little dog barks and growls at everything. I can't ... | self.Anxiety |
Has anyone experienced anything like this or have any suggestions/advice ?? 😊 Hey!
I’ve had depression and anxiety since I was a child but the diagnosis has been questioned and is still being questioned by my current doctor, the diagnoses which have been thrown around include: bipolar II, borderline personality disor... | self.depression |
can someone help me figure out the name for an irrational fear? Im not sure if this is a good place to post this but cant think of anywhere else
Basically, something has been bothering me for as long as i can remember. It's a small thing and doesnt affect me in every day life but ive been wondering exactly what it is... | self.Anxiety |
I'm in university and I have nothing to live for except my parents [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel inferior all the time and it kills me I quick scroll through my post history will give you an oversight of my situation, but as I'm feeling worse than in a long time here we go.
I fucking hate myself. I feel otiose as a human being and for the position that I'm currently. I'm currently in military as a loader f... | self.offmychest |
Will the suicide hotline call the cops on me? I can't find an answer online so... | self.depression |
I have multiple accounts, is this being paranoid? I have more than one Reddit account and the fact is, I worry someone might read my past posts and make a judgement about whatever opinion I decided to share at the present, then make an opinion/comment based only on the past posts and not the present post. I know becaus... | self.bipolar |
Dumb things we've done today. Today I spelled "city" with an 's'. That's right. I live in a big sity.
What have you done today? | self.bipolar |
Can someone help me figure out my mom? My mom sits in front of a computer and plays second life and small worlds literally day and night. And does nothing but eat drink and use the bathroom every now and then.
When she does decide to interact with me or my little sister it’s on some aggressive type of talk. She doesn... | self.bipolar |
needing to vent hey i'm pretty new to this so i'll just get right into it. i'm 18, currently going to community college, working part-time, etc. i'm also transgender (nonbinary, i.e. i don't identify as a boy or a girl but neither) and got dxed with schizoaffective disorder depressive type about six months ago when i g... | self.SuicideWatch |
After losing a great job because of BP2, and being out of work for a year, I have an interview today... I'm so gosh darn nervous. I'm trying to be cool about it but I'm freaking out inside. I hope I get it... Its a great company, I know someone who works there, and best of all they found ME on Linkedin and requested an... | self.bipolar |
Anxiety and the other voice So I have really bad anxiety especially now knowing that my vacay from work is coming to an end. Today is my last day off and it worries me. I had no sleep and have just been trying to fight this negative thought. When I finally got out of bed this morning I realized how bad it affected me. ... | self.Anxiety |
worried about my career being ruined by a past mistake [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I just want to curl up in a ball, fall asleep, and not wake up. And for no one to care. The most heartbreaking thought I have is my mom's thoughts when she knows her kid wants to die. She doesnt know how to help. I dont know how to help either tho... Some fuckin weed would be a good start tho lol | self.depression |
Sometimes I feel like becoming kinder has made me weaker Growing up, I was full of anger and hatred. I hated my emotionally abusive family, I hated my schooling, and sometimes I even hated my friends. No one ever taught me how to manage my feelings in a healthy way. I lashed out at people, broke things, etc. My anger g... | self.offmychest |
Therapy Tuesdays Post about how therapy is going? What you're doing to find a therapist? Do you like your therapist? | self.bipolar |
What do I do now I hit rock bottom. I gave up everything for a man I loved. I didn't have much before. But I went to live alone and we bought an apartment and I bought my plane tickets to Europe to be together after more than a year. He literally just broke up with me. Here I am at an Airbnb because my flight is suppos... | self.SuicideWatch |
i feel like a coward I was supposed to show up at my shitty job today with my friend but she called in such and so did I. I genuinely have been feeling unwell the past few days with the stress of a new job, the odd timings and lack of sleep. I told my mother i wanted to call in sick and she literally just gave me the m... | self.Anxiety |
I hooked up two pretty great guys together. It feels kinda good to see them talk to each other. I don't want anyone to feel alone ya know. | self.depression |
Fasting Glucose, Metformin, & Anti-psychotics I had a BMP done recently with my other regular bloodwork. It showed a fasting glucose of 134 mg/dL which was flagged as:
> ">=126 mg/dL Potentially indicative of diabetes mellitus. In absence of symptoms of unequivocal hyperglycemia, requires confirmation on ... | self.bipolar |
After an attempt. I tried to kill myself on Saturday night, but instead of me not waking up on Sunday morning, my uncle didn’t. I feel like it’s my fault somehow, like he knew I was trying to die and gave his life to me instead.. it can’t just be a coincidence. I’m more depressed than ever now but I know I can’t just t... | self.depression |
So I declined a New Years party and now I hate myself. I didn't want to go for fear of being awkward while I was there, even though I knew everyone there. I really fucking hate myself for not going, esp after I saw the party on a lot of people's sp stories. | self.depression |
Prozac + Buspar, does this combination make anyone else nauseous? Something in my medication cocktail has been making me feel sick, and my pdoc just flat-out dismissed that it was this combo because “a lot of people take it” (he’s not a good doc), so I thought I’d check on here. I also take:
Depakote
Gabapentin
Pr... | self.bipolar |
Not working while you have depression I hope this doesn’t come off sounding rude, because I don’t mean it to, but I genuinely want to know how so many of you are financially able to not work or only work part time? I work a regular 40 hour job and I’m still struggling to get by. I constantly want to quit my job but it’... | self.depression |
For... For you all...
I wish I had people as nice as everyone is here.
You are all brilliant for sticking around and trying to help.
×
For you, S...
I will never forget.
The times we shared?
Painful, but meaningful.
The words we exchanged?
Reading them in my mind over and over again.
I will never see you agai... | self.SuicideWatch |
Dealing with loss of manic creativity Hey there, everybody. Longtime lurker, first time poster.
I had my first full-blown manic episode in September, days after starting a grad program. I was hospitalized involuntarily, one of the worst experiences of my life. It took me another 2 months or so to fully understand and ... | self.bipolar |
Do you ever live exclusively so you don't hurt those you love? | self.SuicideWatch |
Why must love be like that? I [22F] am truly in love again for the second time in my life. The first was my first boyfriend with whom I was together for 2 years. Falling for him was quick, intense, the whole relationship was really emotional and we were both crazy for each other. At the end we had very legitimate reaso... | self.offmychest |
I wish I could touch a girl I know its really pathetic but I just wish I could like even hold hands with or hug or cuddle a girl im so lonely it hurts really bad it feels so good getting physical contact I wish I could hug someone. | self.depression |
Work is the main reason for my anxiety. I am lucky to have a good job and a good boss. It's really low stress so I don't know why it gives me such anxiety. Its a desk job that I've been doing for almost 4 years.
I had a nice anxiety free weekend but come Sunday night I start to get that heavy feeling in my chest. ... | self.Anxiety |
Harvey Two Face Got Nothing On Me. (Unrelated Title, the post is me mostly confused on who I really am). I am a different person to everyone, and everyplace. It's actually kinda sad when I have nothing to do and start thinking about it. It's come to a point where I really can't tell if this is how I like it to be, or i... | self.offmychest |
How do you remedy the fact that you can’t know how you compare to others? I feel like a failure, but when I try to solve this internal dilemma by rationalizing that *everyone* fails and makes constant mistakes I found myself out-rationalizing that thought by thinking: OK, even if everyone makes mistakes you make *more*... | self.depression |
Lost in thought because the sleeping pill decided not to work tonight. I've been insanely lucky these past weeks and even though I should be happy, happiness is not what I'm feeling.
I genuinely feel like I'm in a dream and I'm just waiting to wake up and lose the things I've won. My reality is so warped right now and... | self.depression |
I just want to go away forever I just want to die already. There’s no point in trying to be happy and convincing myself that it’s possible because I’ll just get crushed when I inevitably don’t improve. I tell myself every single year that the following year will be better and I’ve been able to hold onto that hope for a... | self.depression |
I don't know what to do anymore My mind is in shambles and I'm the only one who can pick up the pieces. But I can't. | self.SuicideWatch |
If I could just know that I would get in to one school, I'd be okay. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I just hung myself but I caught myself I tonight I was hanging off a hook in the garage.
I was tightening the dressing gown tie when I slipped and fell off a table I was standing on, as I was hanging I accidentally caught myself as there was a box near me which I didn't realise I could stand on. I completely panicked ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Bringing up anxiety in a romantic context So my (edit: M/20, for the record) first relationship just ended. I thought I'd mentioned that I struggle with mental illness (undiagnosed anxiety, but about to try and change that, fwiw), but either I hadn't or she didn't remember. I know I wasn't explicit enough with it. So m... | self.Anxiety |
I wish you would have told me why. Last year, we were best friends. Last year, I could call or text you at any time.. nothing had changed; you were there for me and I you. But then, this year, things changed. You changed. I tried for months to talk to you and then when I did, things didn’t turn out as I had hoped. Or e... | self.offmychest |
Moving with Anxiety [F/25] I am from Perth Western Australia and I want to move states to Melbourne for a job.
I have been searching for jobs in Perth for a while now after I finished my degree and I haven't been able to land a position in the field I studied. I applied for a job in Melbourne out of curiousity to see ... | self.Anxiety |
What do I do? I went to the bathroom today during lunch and scratched up my arm with a key and its really obvious. I have gym tomorrow and have to wear short sleeves. I don't want any "don't self harm" crap I genuinely need advice. How can I hide it? | self.depression |
Memory / Listening issues I have GAD and Depression, and I’m wondering.. do you have horrible memory skills? Not long term, but short term.
I can’t remember things I’ve said to someone just six hours later. I know I tell the same thing over and over. My friends don’t usually correct me, but I hate it!
I also can prett... | self.Anxiety |
A quote from the first book of the Game of Thrones series (no spoilers) that's helped me with my struggle "You saw what was there"
"Just so. Opening your eyes is all that is needing. The heart lies and the head plays tricks with us, but the eyes see true. Look with your eyes. Hear with your ears. Taste with your mouth... | self.Anxiety |
Can't Sleep! Back to college tomorrow. Got up extra early and went for a 2 hour walk today, meditated and read before bed so I could maybe sleep a bit better. Think I could sleep? No!
It's probably because I thought about it too much but it's really annoying.
I thought I'd get on my phone and rant. Probably the wron... | self.Anxiety |
I hate it I hate that I can never relax because theres always a problem on my mind.
I hate that even the thought of going out and interacting with people makes me almost have a panic attack.
I hate that I can't support my friends because I can't bring myself to attend social events where there are people I don't know... | self.Anxiety |
Stuck I feel stuck and it's making me suicidal.
I was doing well physically; working out regularly and training for a 5k. Then I slacked off a bit and right before my race I got pneumonia. Now I'm having residual breathing problems and I don't know if it's leftover from the pneumonia, my asthma acting up, or a more s... | self.bipolar |
First time working a third shift and I can't sleep. I stayed up last night and only got 3 hours of sleep in hopes that I would be able to sleep before my shift tonight. Now it's 5 hours away and I still only have that 3 hours. I'm hoping that posting here will help me stop running that fact over and over again in my he... | self.Anxiety |
Did my cousin come onto me? So....to start off, a few days ago I think my cousin tried to have sex me. I'm 24 and she is 35. Lets call her K. As I was getting off a long shift from work, I somehow ended chilling with K for the night. K was pretty intoxicated, K kept trying to get me to drink with her but I was extremel... | self.offmychest |
Need different points of view than the ones i have... So recently it turned to shit with my girlfriend...
We have problems communicating because she puts walls up and wont explain what she means.
Therefore leaving me to guess everything constantly...
Shes been acting up recently about me "assuming things" but really e... | self.SuicideWatch |
I destroy everything I touch (extremely long) Caused a huge argument between my parents this morning, it's only 5 am. My dad was getting ready to go to work, I was already up since 3, my mom was about to go to sleep. (my parents sleep in the living room btw) So I go in the living room where they are and turn on the tv,... | self.depression |
no one to trust or to get help from? what should i do? [deleted] | self.depression |
Help me! I'm self sabotaging my life and I don't know how to stop all I can hear is I DONT CARE! I DONT CARE! I DONT CARE! over and over again in my head when I try to argue with whats going on. Im just destroying my life I've spent so much time trying to build. Im just sitting around watching netflix hoping to get rid... | self.depression |
Finally a place were I can cry My mom wouldn't let me take a bath unless I finish my tasks, thank God my bother convinced her... now I can finnaly cry | self.depression |
I cant stand to be alone anymore I'm trapped in my own mind. Its a fucking mess in here. No one to share it with or talk to about it. I constantly wish for some freak accident to happen to me. I hate my existence. Everything about me is ugly, inside and out.
I really can't commit suicide though. I wish I could have th... | self.SuicideWatch |
I can't remember how to be happy anymore. I used to be great at taking to people and making friends and such, but for years now i just cant. I find it hard to talk to anyone at all i want to so bad, i just can't. It always ends with me turning to drugs and just hoping each time i won't wake up. I don't want this i just... | self.depression |
I plan on staying fused to my couch this weekend. [deleted] | self.depression |
Getting so close to beating this... until I'm around other people. For the past couple months I've been really starting to beating the shit outta my depression. Went to the gym consistently for 3 months, started meditation, learning more about philosophy and focusing on rewiring by brain and thinking about the positive... | self.depression |
Reddit, I want to kill myself right now. Please help. [deleted] | self.depression |
I can't afford rent. I'm going to have to pawn my guitars to cover what I can and it's devastating. My guitars were the last reminder that I'm a musician. I wish it didn't have to come to this. . . I'm scared. I'd rather be dead than homeless again. I just want to die. I don't see a way out. There is no light at the e... | self.SuicideWatch |
The Loneliness is overwhelming Honestly, I've been lonely for about three months. Tonight it has just gotten 10 times worse. I went hunting in my medicine cabinet to see what I could mosey up but maybe by some divine intervention, all my sleeping meds have been used up. I'm aching right now. Physically aching. I feel s... | self.depression |
I'm pathetic. All I do is bitch about my life. I've tried changing but I get discouraged too easily because I'm a lazy piece of shit. I project hate into the world because that's all I feel. I don't deserve love or compassion because I push people away on the off chance they'll hurt my pussy-ass feelings. I want to... | self.depression |
I don't think I love them anymore I’ve been in a long distance relationship for a bit over a year. We are six years apart, with me being the younger of the two. We make one another laugh but I honestly have begun to think we’re better friends than partners, and I just don’t think they think that’s the case. They act li... | self.offmychest |
Please help me help! Hi! I know a person who has come to me and said that they have anxiety (idk which though). She has helped me with my depression and I sometimes notice that she seems sad. I really want to help her (I'm in love with her) and I don't know how. I guess you should be able to help me? | self.Anxiety |
What makes you happy/ Keeps your moods up when things go downhill? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Women, some of you are so disgusting. I'm a woman too, and I cannot fucking stand going into a public restroom after you.....when you've used that little box to throw away your used personal hygiene products and LEFT THE BOX LID UP. Sweet baby Jesus, take two fucking seconds and close the damn lid. No one wants to see ... | self.offmychest |
What if anxiety is a blessing in disguise? We have to work harder than most people, and we have to get through a lot of shit to accomplish things, but wouldn't that make us a stronger person in the end? I mean, we are forced to face our fears, isn't that a good thing? | self.Anxiety |
I hate when I go out, drink, meet girls or whatever, and then get back home wasted and ball my eyes out realizing it was a temporary escape. [deleted] | self.depression |
My mom keeps quitting her antidepressant, what can I do? My mom has been going through a separation from my dad for the last year after discovering his infidelity. Without delving into a very long story, she’s been seeing psychiatrists and psychologists for the past year to deal with her depression and anxiety as a res... | self.depression |
I think I'm becoming a sociopath and I don't want to stop. TL,DR: I used to be an idealistic kid who was interested in psychology, technology and international law. I've slowly been disappointed by everyone I've met because of their selfishness, thoughtlessness and complacency. I've hate bureaucracy, politics, hippies,... | self.offmychest |
I just screwed a salesman out of a $500 commission I was tasked with making a purchase of approx $5000 worth of equipment by my manager. I contacted the manufacturer and was put in contact with an account representative. He was very responsive and answered all of my questions. He even traveled several hours one way ... | self.offmychest |
I hate that my words don't mean anything. I don't know why I write so much. I have some fantasy that somehow the things I feel matter. I have so many thoughts and feelings about the world and my life that I write but I have no clue why. I have some faint hope that maybe someday I can write them and they'll be famous or... | self.offmychest |
The woman i thought i would spend my life with left me. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I feel like I may be the only one in the world who is unhappy with their sex drive. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
But I'm an electrical engineer! I'm currently doing an internship involving the place and route aspect of processor design. Basically it means I will be staring at circuit diagrams all day. Unfortunately I suffer from constant hallucinations where (among other things) I can't stop anthropomorphising any and every objec... | self.bipolar |
After a few years of depression, loss of interest and isolation, I lost any sense of subjective value. [deleted] | self.depression |
Bad dreams and Anxiety acting weird. TW: Sexual Assault [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I gained weight because of depression, now I’m more depressed because I gained weight [deleted] | self.depression |
Miserable Currently in a fight with my SO. Nothing new. I don't know if he has anything to do with my depression. I don't even know if I'm depressed. He is. He hurts. He hurts all the time. It's amazing how he functions so well knowing how much pain he carries. He's pretty much my hero. He thinks I'm stupid for loving ... | self.depression |
Have you ever made a colossal amount of mistakes in the past that might've led you to a bad point in your life? You go on a new adventure in a new place, and the beginning starts there. All the mistakes you've made from then until now have piled up on you. Perhaps you've wronged a few people in the process as well. You... | self.depression |
No Future I'm a misanthrope. I hate people, authentically.
I have 27k in student debt and no degrees to show for it.
I'm approaching 30 and still live in my hometown that I hate. I've worked in the same business for 10 years and just broke $15. I have no credit cards, a low credit score, and no savings. I hate my j... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm flunking out of community college and I want to die [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Willing myself to die... On December 13th, if net neutrality is overturned, I will will myself to die. No food, no drink, no sleep, until I slip away from this soulless and pathetic world. My video games are my life, and they are the only things that can break thru the SSRI's and make me feel again. Without them, my li... | self.SuicideWatch |
i think im gonna go home and kill myself [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Does anyone else subconsciously create vivid scenarios in their head? It happens to me all the time, with almost anything, but especially when thinking about women. I’ll see something and then my brain will subconsciously create a sort of possible scenario based off of my own perceptions.
I’m going on a date, I’ll st... | self.offmychest |
What's up guys and girls. Wanna start a discussion? Don't be shy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT'S THE INTERNET!!!!! | self.depression |
As a teenager I received a laptop from my Grandmothers boyfriend...[NSFW] [deleted] | self.offmychest |
When you know you are a piece of shit but you're too scared to die. [deleted] | self.depression |
"The holidays can be depressing. Message me if you need me. I'm here for you all." - No you're not. Stop it. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Bipolar ii, in need of friends Just got diagnosed with bipolar ii a week ago. I never thought of myself having bipolar disorder, but I’ve been thinking about it a lot and it makes sense. I’m nearly 24 and have been dealing with my ups and downs (unmedicated) for as long as I can remember.
I’m currently in a depressed... | self.bipolar |
I'm angry at myself for something that isn't really my fault. Seeing that you moved back here, have a new group of friends and want to have nothing to do with me kills me inside. I know you are probably also telling all of your new friends that I'm batshit crazy or whatever, even though I was good to you. Sorry I got e... | self.offmychest |
"Love" is the only hope So I came to the realization that the idea of love is something that keeps us alive. I went online to this old profile I had on OkCupid and someone sent me a message. It was like I met my mirror image...someone who understands everything that I think and feel...it's strange because I allowed mys... | self.SuicideWatch |
Dealing with life and everything that comes with it. I just broke the last of my two monitors from game-induced anger, my knuckles still hurt a bit.
Today my mum and I went out and bought a barbecue for my Dad who doesn't live with us anymore (the most loving man you'll meet, but a drug addict and alcoholic with an ... | self.depression |
The only reason I'm still alive is because I don't have anything to kill myself with I'm too poor to afford a gun ☹️🔫 | self.SuicideWatch |
DEAR /R/BIPOLAR: MY BP1 ANGST HAS A BODY COUNT - PART VI. **Nov. 10, 2017** 2:47 p.m.
*Fuck,* I thought. *Another goddamn hot flash.*
No doubt, it was the alcohol withdrawals in full effect. I knew deep in my heart that this was not to be fucked around with, but the mania, let alone psychosis, kept convincing me that... | self.bipolar |
Anyone else freak out over the smallest pain or symptom in your body? I always make the mistake of googling which leads to days of worrying and just making the situation (and my anxiety) worse. Just wondering if there were any others out there...
Currently I have a sore neck and shoulder--probably due to the week of h... | self.Anxiety |
I hate University, but I'm in my final year. I have started to really hate University, and it's so difficult to not see it as ruining my future.
I quite enjoyed my course in my first year, but I didn't have any friends and commuted so couldn't join any clubs. But I am quite content on my own so I got through fine. Se... | self.offmychest |
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